What scares you most about yourself?

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[@grace_ly]

“i let myself be scared of people who were better than me rather than be inspired by them” i have never heard a more resonating quote in my life. that is so so true.

[@qw-nz5fj]

@Kyra i love this. Have a good rest of your day/night

[@reksai7965]

That shit cut deep

[@macandfire5477]

I wasted so much of myself and my potential trying to be like other people. We don’t need to be like someone else because they already exist and are doing a better job of being that person 😂 … 😉 seriously own yourself and be proud of what you offer! It’s funny the older I get the more remarkable I find people who are just themselves … just common people being happy 😉

[@_Krazy47]

@Kyra the beginning couple paragraphs to wrote, resonates…

[@elibell5098]

I was about to comment the exact same thing. :) That was the most powerful moment.

[@nganbas]

"I used to be scared but I'm not anymore" is the level of self satisfaction and control one should achieve in life.

[@decristal48]

Indeed

[@ambatious]

This hit home, I want this so much!

[@mohsenalam22]

I want to know so much about this guy and his journey

[@AnnaFerreiraa.A13]

I wish i wasnt scared of everything...

[@tobe3940]

Not being scared is only what fools do. The functioning brain will know the gravity of a lot of things enough to be scared of some of them.

[@Squicx]

I've been through this channel every now and then but I feel I always return when it's in a significant "plot-hole" in my life. I always feel as if this channel has the answer. Seeing others come out with personal facts makes me feel I'm not alone. I have intrusive thoughts all the time, reoccurring stress and the overall fear of becoming what I fear, or having others hate me that makes me scared. But I know there's others out there who struggle too. And u know what, that's human. We're all scared but we can help each other. It sounds like a lot, but in reality, it's just a simple "Hi" and the whole day becomes beautiful.

[@okh.]

🙃

[@MakailaM]

This is exactly how I feel....my God especially the fear of becoming the thing that I fear 😕

[@Chickadeebunny]

4:33

[@careyholness840]

❤❤

[@vivdoolan6846]

Please buy the power of now by Eckhart Tolle. I got a recommendation justblke this when I had extremely bad intrusive thoughts and depression and the book was magic, literally ten pages in those ugly voices stopped.

[@sarahsenet5434]

These videos make me appreciate the flaws about myself and everyone so much more

[@1699ArunjeetSINGH]

true

[@howtobe_rich]

Agreed! the way Thoraya gets people to trust her and open up is amazing!

[@mazzee]

I like to see people without filters, real people

[@lovingmayberry307]

It always surprises me that when someone discovers their partner has cheated on them, they want to "kill" the person they cheated with, but not their partner.

[@saraperinelli6193]

because it's always easier to be mad at a person you're not emotionally connected with than at someone you love

[@User4moonx_]

@@saraperinelli6193 exactly, confronting someone you love is tougher than with a stranger.

[@beccawecca916]

In some cases its the cheater's ex, in which case I'd be fuckin pissed at her too (along WITH my boyfriend of course lol). Or even worse, if its your friend who cheated with your spouse, it'd be appropriate to be mad at them too

[@JBunny7482]

I think it boils down to avoidance. You don't want to believe the person chose to hurt you, they must have been tempted or lured...if you can remove the threats, you can go back to how things were before when they were only yours. That must be the problem, they'd never choose to hurt you on their own, right? & These are probably not conscious thoughts, but it's an impulsive feeling, rationale, subconscious belief to protect your heart. It's so hard. But once you accept that even in an awful relationship you always have a choice to cheat or not (otherwise it's S.assault), then you can finally lay blame where it belongs...with your partner. Because in your relationship no one else matters. (If it was with someone close to u, that's a separate situation to be dealt with).

[@choubidouwah]

Yeah it surprises me too, when i learned my ex-partner cheated on me, I wasn't even that mad at the girl they cheated on me with... Since she didn't really know me it felt less like a personal attack. And I mean, I couldn't blame her: when you're attracted to someone who's in a monogamous relationship and they reciprocate your attraction then there must be something going wrong in their couple, so why not just go for it if it's not gonna work out anyway? You can be sure though i was mad MAD at my ex for not telling me about it for two years and still inviting her at our appartment as if nothing ever happened:)

[@ayla-40]

The sailing guys seems like a really great, genuine person. His laugh is contagious

[@adamantium4797]

Laughter is powerfull

[@itsme_shanti]

Yes, ADHD people are not good at being fake. It's all genuine open and real.

[@jahnavishanker4490]

I completely relate to the girl who is scared about her future. I too struggle with the same thing and it gets to me all the time. I'm constantly worried thinking about it.

[@alinechance7650]

I imagine my future too and I don't see it like others do.. My plans for it are rather unachievable and I feel I don't achieve what I want how I want, then my future will be a disaster...i know this is selfish and we are told to humble ourselves but I feel again it's not selfish to want to be happy in future, even though I feel it won't happen but that is my wish.. Maybe I am just too weird for this world... There many things I don't want to be apart of as a human being

[@blueocean3971]

@@alinechance7650 that's actually how it is. Idk from where this idea came to settle down and live life like a sheep. People don't realise how much beautiful a life could be to its core and how much vastness it holds. I understand and relate to you of feeling like you know it it's not intense it won't be enough even if i get all the conventional things

[@freshliving4199]

@@alinechance7650 The future is you lying to yourself to make today, the only thing that is actually real, become bearable. Today is really the best day of peoples lives. It’s just that most people don’t understand that it is.

[@howtobe_rich]

Absolutely! I struggle with the same thing. Even when I write things down and journal everyday about my future I still can't figure out what my future will be - or what I want it to be

[@rulistening3174]

I think as you get older, the less you worry about things. That is the beauty of getting older.

[@EPalsson]

Sixty-year-old here. The angst of these young people brings back stressful memories. Life experience alleviates many of those fears. 👍🏼 You couldn't pay me enough to be that young again.

[@kashalakasha2092]

This is such a comforting comment, thank you from an 18 year old :)

[@JarthenGreenmeadow]

I always say "I would not got a single second backwards, I would hate to have to experience any of this again"

[@elisabasta]

hahahsh, i actually laughed outloud at this. I'm not 60, close to 40, but same: there is not enough money in this world.

[@ethandavis6521]

I think what I enjoy most about these videos is how you keep the camera zoomed in on everyone. It really gives the viewer no choice but to notice the smallest details about people's faces. We truly have been created beautifully despite the imperfection we've inherited. Thank you for making these Thoraya! They always remind me how meaningful life can be. ❤️

[@jennytaylor3324]

This is true. People are beautiful.

[@caseycampbell7975]

I agree!

[@riannatripp6594]

Nicely said

[@ditzfough]

*evolved beautifully

[@beccawecca916]

I was going to say the same thing... Makes u realize every single persin is beautiful... Because their face tells their story. Unfettered truth. I wish we could all see our own faces the way we look at others...

[@adenauerlemos7926]

I have generalized anxiety disorder. And what haunts me the most is the regret of things I didn't do out of fear.

[@taniyalighten8253]

This!!! 💛💛

[@hihellojuliana]

I relate to this a lot. ❤

[@betht6389]

dont label ur self that ...everyone has fears

[@adenauerlemos7926]

@@betht6389 Thanks Beth.

[@marcydarcie5884]

@@betht6389 but some people do have generalized anxiety disorder haha

[@shggy658]

I'd say for me its a lack of passion. Even the saddest person has something. A hobbies, love, etc, but I just don't have that something. I just don't really care about anything these days and caring makes life worth living. These days I feel like I'm just aimlessly living, because living is all I feel I can do in this world. If your reading this, I hope you understand how valuable it is to be able to care about something, even if its small.

[@sadia8174]

I relate to this a lot... These days I only do things because I have to. I don't have passion in anything. Nothing is fun anymore. It's like I'm in a stimulation. I feel like I'm too young to feel like this but idk any way of stopping it

[@berlynhale2962]

something my mom taught me, and its true... you don''t want to do anything, you don't like to do anything. look for ways to make others feel better. start small conversations at the store, volunteer, help your family. life feels better when you help others, when you help others you get blessings back. maybe you can find your passion that way.

[@amyitis]

Eckhart Tolle talks about how having goals and striving for them can get you out of a funk or depression and i think it's true..... the main thing is that you need to push yourself out of your comfort zone and get uncomfortable.... you can find a passion or create one if you really wanted it.... go do 1 new thing a week.... whether it be hiking, going to a different grocery store that you've never been, learn a craft via KZbin, go to a restaurant alone, go travel to a place you've never been....it will all be uncomfortable but discomfort = growth.

[@marenlosel3820]

Hey, you sat down and wrote down this comment. Don't you think that means you care? You care about finding your passion, you care about your happiness, YOU CARE :)) maybe that helps :)

[@ciaraweili8477]

Hey try to ask you this question, why are you here, in this life in your family in this World. There is always a passion but sometimes you have to try Things out to find it

[@shannon4991]

I really feel for the girl who said she's a different person every day, and all of the struggles that come along with that. You can't back up your behavior, or understand it, and it feels unstoppable. You feel like people never really know you, and you don't even know you. It's such a disconnecting feeling to reset every day like that.

[@Raspberrykittynoodle]

I experience this daily. It’s too much

[@jannabel9497]

I feel the exact same way. I really struggle with finding close friends too because I never fully fit together with a person and can't always explain my actions to them which creates distance.

[@Respect2theFallen]

When she said she hurts people without knowing and then the chain reaction it has on others I sympathized with that.

[@andromedashun6697]

I’m not Athiest but I didn’t care for how she said that it’s because she was Athiest that she had no morals. Tbf I think she meant doctrine but yeah.

[@caratappenden4696]

The level of self awareness in these people is stunning.

[@adamantium4797]

Self awareness has many flaws that comes with it

[@ranirathi3379]

the loneliness is engineered, self awareness is a by-product of it. even as i was watching, this was going on in my mind - the tapestry of society in coming decades is gonna be that much richer and resilient coz so much self-awareness.

[@maliollyoxenfree1820]

One thing that scares me about myself recently is that I don't know what I want. Actually, I'm afraid to admit anything that I may want because I fear disappointment. I stopped dreaming many years ago, but have worked hard to create positive changes in my life, and feel now is the time to face my fears. Now is the time to let myself dream again. But it's scary and requires vulnerability.

[@Tobi-pb2fk]

Yeah, i hear you 💛

[@parthavinautiyal]

Yeah I know it's scary but isn't that the essence of life? We don't know if we'll wake up tomorrow but we go to bed every night thinking about stuff we've got to get done tomorrow. That's hope right there. We latch onto the hope that things will work out and it'll be alright, and even if it isn't alright, we can pull through and wake up with a new hope again.

[@tannies4965]

I don't try so many things thinking that I might be disappointed then I would regret taking that decision

[@SoWhatHo]

Those first two sentences are exactly how I feel. Scary.

[@teeshhh2951]

I totally hear you and you're not alone in this ❤️

[@guissedom6353]

To the gentleman at 3:26 - I relate to you so deeply it made me emotional. Especially the way you said you'd been learning sailing for about three months. I was going to be a helicopter pilot. A civil engineer. I got really into digital art and rendering. Woodworking. I learned Japanese. I studied maps. I got into genealogy. Programming. All for about the same lengths of time. Intense fixation, at one point I was learning German cursive abbreviations and studying genealogical records for 16 hours a day on my time off. Just knowing other people live like this gave me a strong emotional response. I appreciate you being so candid, man. I hate when people point out old projects and ask why I don't do them anymore.

[@Unherd_Of]

Me too I've had over 50 jobs in like 5 yrs I got good at all of them and bored with all of it. I don't want to be a slave.

[@CRJR94]

@@matam3327 don’t mean this be judgmental or rude, but you should be more careful about your responses to a post like this, labeling someone with a 30 sec clip in not only judgmental, but irresponsible. Life is short, do what makes you happy and feel passionate, even if in 3 month increments, the only thing you should never stop doing, is being kind and loving to humanity!

[@matam3327]

@@CRJR94 just a plausible explanation not a diagnosis!😊

[@JoJohXD]

I'm in my 30s and I'm still doing this... Like I was into music, then I was into tattooing and now I'm selling sexshop stuff.... I just don't know what I want from life.... It bothers me so much not being consistent with something...

[@johnradclyffehall]

I'm similar, and I agree with the question Thoraya asked - why is it necessarily a bad thing? Over time all the small passions we've pursued come to further our understanding and allow us to make unusual connections others can't. I used to feel intimidated by people that had strong consistent interests for years and years, but now I'm happy with my patchwork of rabbithole information

[@nerd26373]

What scares me most about myself would have to be my passive aggressive nature. I may look innocent at first glance, however I do have these tendencies where I’d unconsciously hurt other people’s feelings and emotions by basically acting ‘passive’ then ‘aggressive’ towards them. It’s one of the things I’d actually like to change about myself. Not everyone is perfect, but we can always change for the better.

[@khalilahd.]

Thank you for your honesty. I feel like I was this person at one point in time too

[@IrvinMenezes]

The fact that you’re recognizing this in yourself shows that you’re already starting to change for the better.

[@Tobi-pb2fk]

Yes thank u for sharing ur human part, what u are now in ur life, i want to send u strenght and love in ur personal journey of growth 💛

[@ealston0826]

Same.

[@j_tji]

I was just about to write the same thing …Idk why I’m like this …it’s so hard to constantly check on what I’m saying cause I’ve been told many times by my friends in a non serious way that my mouth is like an arrow..and that shit hurts like …and when I try to be nice they don’t trust me and and when I joke i don’t know the limits ..I’m so tired ..like my friends around me are tired and I know it cause they laugh and enjoy everytime im not there . They now enjoy and spend time together and don’t include me anymore..and they’re always there for like bare minimum ..whenever they need me they come and I’m there to help ..I’m always there thinking it’s gonna be like how it used to be . And I know it’s because of me ..like for sure on the past years I must’ve done something someway because of which they now feel this way about me .. they don’t even feel bad of saying this out loud.

[@olemonqueeno8684]

I relate to the girl with no future plans. Literally me, and then I'll get all stressed in my head about it for nothing to change at all. Still nothing. Still afraid and confused about everything I face throughout each day.

[@manel8508]

Same...

[@emmanuellaafriyie3222]

"We're not the same person that we are 2 seconds ago that we are 2 seconds later without our permission" Thinking about this statement has changed me from who I was 2 seconds ago. That was deep

[@beeticket]

It’s knowing that we have the free will to either become better or become worse in life. So many little choices we have to make, each a brush stroke that will one day make up our self-portrait. Will it be a mess in the end, or will it be beautiful? It’s a lot of responsibility.

[@talastra]

"What feels right is not always good for everyone." So correct.

[@petrastepic_]

the sailing guy has a gorgeous smile and laugh :))

[@caseyconrad720]

I relate to the sailor guy! He sticks with new hobbies for about 3 months. He said “I’m not a particularly good anything else either”. Hey, you’re good at trying new things and exploring your curiosity!

[@itsme_shanti]

He has typical ADHD traits. The short bursts of attention then total lack of interest. The fact that he's not great at anything but tries everything. His open welcoming personality....

[@petra5329]

I find it actually sad how hard people are on themselves (I‘m not even excluding myself). Seems the most genuine souls are the most self-critical ones. Also Thoraya, thank you so much for constantly showing us the beauty of humanity! Your videos give me hope and faith that there’s still more good than evil in the world ❤

[@adultlectures]

Dude OMG. How do you come across these 'random' people who are like the deepest human being ever WHAT?! this is insane I wanna be friends with everyone who's been on this episode... Thank you, Thoraya for giving these folks a voice and allowing all of us to connect with people we don't know exist, but who are, go thru similar and think similar things as we do..

[@jareerareerarr5053]

Bc even though people may appear so on the outside, there's truly no such thing as a real "shallow" person. Only what they show to the world and what they keep inside

[@exchangeofwisdom8475]

Yeah, everyone has their life story.

[@Crybaby-Media]

Most people are like this when you get to know them. Very few people are “sure” We just do a good job of hiding it

[@TheLily97232]

Everyone is deep

[@royalusala8527]

True, some of these questions can require sometime for me to answer, but these guyz just answer like immediately!

[@mariaelhage6033]

i relate to the person who easily gets attached to people, places, and things. that's hard to live with tbh, especially when these people/places/things are no longer part of our lives for whatever reason, so our brains tend to magnify the situation way beyond simple outgrowth. it'll be okay. also, super thankful for people like Thoraya. she really makes the world a better place!

[@ciaraweili8477]

With the negative point comes a positive aswell, you can easily love this Things from your heart so thats beautiful too, enjoy that aslong it is there

[@jesusisking3814]

If you die tonight, do you know where you're going? Did you know that Jesus Christ is THE Truth, the life and the only way to Heaven? Revelation 20:15 ''Anyone whose name was not found written in the book of life was thrown into the lake of fire.'' Through Jesus Christ, God offers you a FREE gift - forgiveness. All you need to do is repent, turn away from your sins and evil ways, from now on put your faith completely in Jesus Christ and be obedient to Him. Biblical explanation of the Gospel: God doesn’t want anybody in hell, but you must understand why we deserve hell and why those who refuse to live under His authority will go there. He gave us the law (Ten Commandments) not to make us righteous, but rather to show us our sin (Romans 3:20). God gave us free will and since Adam sinned in the garden, sin is the nature of our flesh and we ALL have sinned. (Romans 3:23) The law demands death to those who sin (Romans 6:23). Since we have all sinned, we all deserve hell. Revelation 21:8 says that all liars will go to hell. Yes, even if you have lied once in your life, you are sentenced to hell - that's how high God's standards are of moral perfection because God is holy and righteous, there is not one sin in Him. For someone to be justified before holy God they have to be sinless, that's why everyone need Jesus Christ - for He lived a sinless life, died on the cross and rose from the dead on the third day. None of us are good in God’s eyes, because for God good means moral perfection. We all have broken God’s commandments, we all have sinned in our lives so none of us are good. ‘’For whoever keeps the whole law and yet stumbles at just one point is guilty of breaking all of it.’’ (James 2:10). Our carnal mind is hostile to God; it does not submit to God's moral law and it never will (Romans 8:7). We hate the thought of God for the same reason a criminal hates a policeman - we know we have sinned against God and are guilty of it and we don't want to be damned. No good works will ever save you. You can't earn salvation by good works, because God will judge us for our sin. Good News is that Jesus Christ lived a perfect, holy, sinless life and He died for our sins according to the Scriptures, He was buried and He was raised from the dead on the third day according to the Scriptures (1 Corinthians 15:3-4) For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.’’ (John 3:16) We aren’t saved by our good works, but only by the grace of God through faith in Christ. ''For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith - and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God - not by works, so that no one can boast. (Ephesians 2:8-9) Jesus said ‘’it is finished’’ (John 19:30) just before He died on the cross, which means He paid the fine for our sins (past, present, future) to be forgiven only IF we repent and trust in Him. This is how you can get saved from sin and hell - repent of your sins and trust in Jesus Christ. Get to know Him by reading God's Word. So if you sinful people know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him.” (Luke 11:13) ''What then? Shall we sin because we are not under law but under grace? Certainly not!'' (Romans 6:15) ''Repent therefore and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out'' (Acts 3:19) Repentance is a turning away from sin and all evil works, and it always results in changed behavior (Luke 3:8). Biblically, a person who repents does not continue willfully in sin. While sorrow from sin is not equivalent to repentance, it is certainly an element of scriptural repentance (2 Corinthians 7:10). Do not play a hypocrite. ''God is light; in Him there is no darkness at all. If we claim to have fellowship with Him and yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live out the truth.'' (1 John 1:5-6) (John 3:3) Jesus replied, "Very truly I tell you, no one can see the kingdom of God unless they are born again." If you have repented and have genuine faith in Jesus Christ then you will receive the gift of Holy Spirit and be born-again spiritually. When you believed, you were marked in Him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit, who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance until the redemption of those who are God’s possession - to the praise of His glory. (Ephesians 1:13-14) Whoever believes in the Son has eternal life; whoever does not obey the Son shall not see life, but the wrath of God remains on him. (John 3:36) ''You will know them by their fruits'' (Matthew 7) If you have been truly born-again with the Holy Spirit and He has regenerated your heart, you will desire righteousnes - to do what is good and righteous in God's eyes, to seek God everyday in His Word and prayer, to strengthen your relationship with God. You will no longer desire to willfully continue living in sin but will want to obey God out of your love for Him because of His amazing grace revealed to us through the death and resurrection of His Son. ''Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.'' (2 Corinthians 5:17) ''For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them.'' (Eph 2:10) You will have a testimony - of what your life had been before and how has it changed now when you have surrendered it to Lord Jesus Christ. As a declaration and affirmation of your faith in Jesus Christ, get baptised in water because He commanded us to do so. In John 3:5 Jesus answered, “Very truly I tell you, no one can enter the kingdom of God unless they are born of water and the Spirit.'' ''Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit'' (Matthew 28:19) ''Those who accepted his message were baptized, and about three thousand were added to their number that day.'' (Acts 2:41) ''And this water symbolizes the baptism that now saves you also - not the removal of dirt from the body, but the pledge of a clear conscience toward God - through the resurrection of Jesus Christ,'' (1 Peter 3:21) ''We were therefore buried with him through baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new life.'' (Romans 6:4) ''Having been buried with him in baptism, in which you were also raised with him through your faith in the working of God, who raised him from the dead.'' (Colossians 2:12) Please get right with God and get to know Jesus Christ personally today before it’s too late, because there’s not much time left! "But about that day or hour no one knows, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father.’’ (Mark 13:32) Get to know Christ through God's Word - Bible. At first I recommend reading Gospel of John and book of Romans. God bless you! Jeremiah 29:13 - ''You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.''

[@CalliAMusic]

I relate to them, too.

[@anupamamenon7402]

I could completely relate to what he said I don’t get attached to places or things but ppl…yes. I am often left wondering why they don’t feel the same way and reciprocate accordingly. With experience I have learnt not to have expectations from others 😊

[@mil3276]

Very insightful.

[@kylie8452]

That last girl was so, so relatable. It hurts so much. I only recently decided to switch to an art major, I totally gave up on art for a while because I figured it would be better for me not to focus on it. I wasted an entire semester on classes I don’t care about just because “an art major won’t get me anywhere in life”. What she said meant so much to me.

[@AlisonWonderland999]

I really like this at around 7:50: "I don’t have a set of morals [that I grew up with] … for me, it’s very ambiguous and there are many possibilities … and I think that’s why it’s so hard for me to center myself and really see what is true to me and what isn’t. And so I think the only way that I can learn is through experience, and a lot of mistakes, and [doing] a lot of damage, which I don’t want to do; but I have no other way of learning."

[@ChelseaDunn44]

I relate so much to the guy who said he picks up a new hobby every 3 months. I would rather know a little about a lot of things than a lot about a small about of things. I don't think were meant to just have set hobbies, I love trying everything out at least once because it feel like it narrows down my interests and helps me learn more about myself

[@JBunny7482]

A jack of all trades is a master of none, but oftentimes better than a master of one. - William Shakespeare 😉 (people have forgotten the full saying over time)

[@alicetoniian7432]

That girl who said she's been taught to do what feels right in the moment but realises that's not always good... I get that so much. God bless you!

[@andreasjackson517]

She said “what feels right, may not be right for everyone.” “The weight of her actions even small ones.” 😳🕊️😢

[@mariamilosevic4112]

3:47 his laugh is so pleasant to hear

[@KatoTheKing]

“Everyday I’m a different person. Everyday I have different morals.” So relatable for me. So relatable

[@n8thegreat445]

Im scared of every mistake I will inevitably make in the future no matter how hard I try to run from them. Im scared life will inevitably humble me, constantly. Im also scared of going crazy.

[@khalilahd.]

These interviews are always so eye opening and humbling. It’s incredible. I appreciate they’re honestly because we’ve all felt or related to something in these interviews. Thank you for what you do Thoraya ❤

[@8bitbonsai]

what scares me about myself is that like for the longest time i was alone and dont get me wrong i was cool with it but now i am sliding from beeing alone to beeing lonely. i have no family in a 150 mile radius no girlfriend and only a few friends. it seems like everyone moved on, my friends have now families on there own. my parents both retired and moved away. my sister got married and moved away with her husband and it seems like at the end of the day the only thing that is left...................is me

[@kazuhasgloves]

I'm scared to admit this but I'm afraid that I don't add anything to my peers's lives or add on any positive effects that apply to me as well. I struggle with anxiety and frankly, I've become more introverted albeit closed off from what I grew up around and with. I'm afraid that I'll always hang on to the past and stay stuck there. edit: I also want to add that I'm deathly afraid of my family not being supportive of what I do whenever when I do the things that I enjoy.

[@mondoseguendo6113]

I bet you’re wrong about not adding anything to your friends’ lives. I felt the same way you did about and I was completely wrong in my assessment.

[@liviousgameplay1755]

If you ever feel up for it, I would recommend asking people directly "why do you still hang around me" or "do I add anything positive to your life." Either (1) you don't really add anything, but they just like talking to/with you or (2)you do help them, or you don't yet but there is something they need that you can provide. When I asked my friends I got (1)s from most of them and a (2) from one friend who took the question as an opportunity to open up. Sorry for typing so much, but I had this fear too and still struggle with suddenly becoming invisible for weeks, but I realized that the fear was an unanswered question and that I could have the question answered if I only asked. Worse case scenario, you are completely correct and add anything or actually hurt people, but finding out will mean being able to solve the problem or at least making distance between the people you are hurting. The worst thing you could do is separate yourself from people that you did have a positive effect on.

[@fti1228]

I connect with your story the most because it's the closest to what's happening in my current life. Hopefully we find some form of peace in the chaos.

[@kazuhasgloves]

@@fti1228 let's hope so.

[@michael_the.girl.]

I love that the answers go from "I'm terrified if what I might do to myself" and "I'm not scared anymore". Somehow seeing all of it together gives me hope that everything is always changing and that the answers for everyone will probably be different in a year. Sometimes you can be in a very dark place and then later be in the place of the guy who said "I'm not scared anymore"

[@johnmurphy8791]

I rarely frighten myself. I'd like to share a line with your last interviewee in this podcast. "It is not your duty to be this or that. It is only your duty to be". I hope it helps others as it helped me. If I recall it is an Eastern proverb. Thanks for what you do.

[@dbuc4671]

I love that sailing guys laugh, really genuine and real 😂

[@jimmy-stevenbiemans1486]

What scares me the most about myself is that two months ago I escaped 29 years of narcissistic abuse by my parents, and I still keep having the doubt and fear that maybe I was the one who was the abuser. I know I am not, but it keeps haunting me.

[@nopenever3]

Good for you. The reason you question yourself about being the "abuser" is from the abuse you suffered. It's so hard. You can do it. Be well

[@jimmy-stevenbiemans1486]

​@@nopenever3Thank you for your kind reply 🙏🏻 I appreciate it 😊

[@elfie6743]

What scares me the most about myself is myself. Just that. Like accepting myself for who I am, flaws and all. That is so scary to me, and I'm also scared I'll never be able to. But I'm working on it!! :)

[@ZeJaegerbomb]

To the girl who feels constantly stressed out: you will feel peace at some point :) Your 20s are usually a very hectic and unstable place, but as soon as you start settling/slowing down, the anxiety goes down too! At least that's what I experienced and what I wish you to experience.

[@financialaffairswithnosipho]

Zooming into their faces make this even 1000x better! So raw, Instant connection. Thank you Thoraya for making the world better❤ these videos make me reflect a lot and I know I’m not the only one.

[@michaelreynolds8376]

Hey Thoraya, I'd love to see a "what advice would you give your younger self" video, I think that would make a great topic. It just popped into my head randomly and thought I'd share :)

[@nancymosby7369]

That I will love myself enough to let go of the person I luv the most and learn to live free and confident in me!

[@tau3481]

this was so comforting, I sometimes forget how similar our mental human experiences are. It's obviously not pleasant to experience fear however knowing others out there too have similar fears is so easing

[@Heartonmysleev3]

I'm the same as the guy who gets easily attached ugh. Sometimes i envy those people that can just drop you like it's nothing, no regrets or looking back. I tend to overthink things and have a really hard time letting go. By the way Thoraya I bought a sweater from your shop almost 3 weeks ago and it hasn't shipped yet, what's going on??

[@danni1993]

The guy who said he's a drug addict, but was clean during his interview, and was afraid the drugs would kill him, should be a model.

[@treasuredwisp]

I wish it was socially appropriate to talk this close with people emotionally and physically. Every individual is beautiful when you see their soul.

[@KZesty]

What scares me most is my own mind scaring me all the time. I'd love to just be completely comfortable in my surroundings, feeling safe, and not imagining something going terribly wrong. I'm working on it though.

[@dna6310]

It scares me how strongly I relate to most of the fears talked about in this video. There is so much that scares me about myself, I don’t even know where to start. Although there are also many things I can (or try to) appreciate about myself. I love these video, all of these people are so beautiful and they make me feel less alone with my thoughts

[@MisaHalit]

I was finding that one comment I can relate to and YES ! Everything about me - EVERYTHING - scares me 🍁

[@Thorayaa]

I'd love to hear your answers as well! Leave a comment

[@jayd.o.t]

my apathy

[@broad7240]

Not knowing myself.

[@borednow]

the music is too loud for me to hear what they are saying..... you used to add captions in your videos but this one doesnt have them.... i prefer when you add them because it is difficult to hear what people are saying and youtubes own auto captions sucks for most accents

[@briannakimble5257]

I’m scared I might actually kill myself someday.

[@tanjina45]

I am scared most about myself that I am not an affectionate person. Even when I am in desperate need of a hug or someone, I isolate myself. I like peace so much and don't want people to disturb me. It scares me because soon I will be left alone.

[@lauracanedo1446]

The scariest thing about myself: how quickly I go from happy and angry. Little things tend to upset me and when I get upset, I just explode. My body starts to shake and I feel like screaming in that person’s face. Deep down inside I know all that anger is hurt, fear, worry and jealousy.

[@youdonotknowwhoiamlol]

4:40 I resonate with his answer a lot. Really said everything that goes on in my mind when talking about guilt.

[@you_are_your_sunshine]

9:50 what she said, i feel it in my bones like this is my life

[@lise4529]

I just want to say the person at 3:26 is really sweet and made me laugh. You seem like a warm hearted person. That in itself is a great accomplishment.

[@laurenmarzocca3903]

4:32 when he said “i’m not scared anymore” 🥹

[@lokai765]

i feel like unlike a lot of other content on youtube, these videos really are beneficial. You can learn so much about the way others feel, think, have deep personal stories, how to listen better, etc. when consuming this type of content. I genuinely think these videos have had a positive impact on the way i interact with people on a day to day basis

[@andreigeorgescu872]

So I've been in a pretty dark place lately, now its better, much better but your videos always make me feel better about myself because i see that other people struggle with something but they choose to be better for themselves, so thank you for helping me feel better about myself, keep doing what you are doing, you are one of the few that give me hope for humanity!

[@yourstrulyniah126]

Jesus knows what you’re struggling with & he wants to take your pain❤️ you’re not meant to go through this life alone, call on his name & ask. He saved my life when I thought I was gonna give up. There’s more to life than our emotions apart from him, don’t let them keep you in the dark ! God bless you

[@nikkoedwards4399]

Being married with 3 kids, one being an adult now. The girl who spoke of her future and having "nothing to look forward to" struck me the most. She's free with no attachments, makes me excited for her. She can do whatever she wants, go wherever she wants. Fall in love, switch careers, make mistakes, break hearts, travel. So many moments of living She's gonna have

[@oregoncoastbeachcomber2060]

My brain frightens me. The depression is so dark I can't find my way out even though I desperately want to be OK. I don't even need to be happy, I just need to stop being so deeply, profoundly depressed. It would be nice to wake up every day with even a whisper of hope.

[@pamelahelbig5022]

I've watched your channel for a few years and I love it. Your questions are so thought provoking and the answers from strangers gives me different facets of life that I didn't think about. Keep up the good work!

[@jamesm_]

This is a great channel! I am so glad I came across this channel. It's helps me to not be so hard on myself. We all have flaws but that does not make us less of a human.

[@WWAFAWDWG]

Your videos are always so uplifting!

[@medusasudem2673]

Thoraya you are truly opening up portals to the interconnectedness of our souls, by documenting such vulnerabilities you are allowing for us to celebrate the strengths and fragilities of these wonderful strangers. Thank you!

[@viktoriadandelion]

The answer on 6:04 is incredibly relatable to me. I’ve lost “control” in the past, and it has remained as a grudge for me many years later. Although I’m much better at accepting and forgiving my missteps, I understand the fear of not having control. It’s like you are afraid of suddenly turning into a monster, as if you cannot contain it. And even if the mistakes are small, it carries much more weight when it’s a constant thing that you are afraid of. However, it really helps me to calm my mind sometimes and understand that whatever happens, I will try my best when the time comes. The only thing that exists right now is the current moment, and I cannot possibly predict what will happen in the future. It’s important to take responsibility when you know you’ve made a mistake, which is something we inevitable all do, as it is a natural part of human nature. However, do not forget that you are also constantly trying and going through your battles, even if they seem small on the big scale. Let us be kinder to each other and ourselves :>

[@emihlememese5131]

I always fail to watch your videos without tearing up. I’m all the way in South Africa so getting your book of secrets may be challenging and expensive but I’m looking forward to it and soo happy for you ❤

[@Juliette_Emelie]

Your channel is so beautiful. The way they are filmed, it feels so personal, they are so incredibly honest and open with you, and each and everyone of them just look beautiful. I really feel the ‘human’ in all of those people, i don’t know how else to describe it. I feel more connected somehow

[@madegrae]

All these people are so brave to open up and are so articulate in sharing their thoughts!

[@chiaraklein6859]

Your gaze - vulnerable, a little shy. Your eyes soft and searching. The fine lines in your face magnified by everything I know (or don't know) about my own. When I hear your fear, I hear my own. and I just ache to tell us both that we are so beautifully human so intangibly okay so far from alone.

[@leonorruas6544]

This is one of the most beautiful videos I've ever seen. The way that we are so similar to each other and have the same toughts and fears...

[@alexblue4681]

you’re videos never fail to bring tears to my eyes

[@fortunatenamat7770]

It's comforting to know that we are all just figuring it out and winging it somehow.

[@muchu98]

Man, the videos are always deep but this one felt like we're all connected through our self-judgement

[@ecemwashere.]

this episode hit me extra and as always made me feel less alone in my often chaotic thoughts and feelings. Thank you Thoraya ❤

[@Zarish.123]

I love how she shows us the "real people", i love how thoraya let us see that there are still nice people around us.

[@zippitydooda9112]

So glad to see another episode of your channel appear.. thank you

[@niconico9748]

Thank you Thoraya and everyone that shares their story! It's so comforting knowing that we are not alone. Everybody I know wears masks and seem to have it all together and that makes it so difficult to feel normal and not to feel like a failure for not having it all together. It's so nice to hear someone admitting the struggles that we fight so much to hide. If people would be this sincere instead of competing all the time and trying to outrun the others, it would be a different world. You guys are amazing people that make the world a better place. You bring a bit of peace and light in our lives. Bless you! I hope you receive back all the comfort that you bring us!

[@IngridRollema]

Hearing the girl at around 9-10 minutes in talking about how she lets people who are better than her at something scare her rather than inspire her was such a kick in the teeth for me -- I have such a hard time sharing parts of myself (musical skills, writing, other knowledge, etc.) with people that I perceive, rightly or wrongly, as better than me, and tend to hide those things or give up on them, rather than acknowledging that those people were once less talented/gifted/skilled at their craft or less knowledgeable about a topic at some point; and I end up using that as a cop out, to not go further in developing my skill or knowledge base. I hope she can push past that insecurity and self-sabotage in ways that I haven't been able to.

[@sufidufi]

This touches a soft/sore spot 🥲 but it's good to know we're not alone I guess. Thank you for always making such real videos that show us our humanity. It's comforting and a beautiful work you do...it brings appreciation for our struggles and for the happy moments and makes me personally feel more connected/united to others.

[@joshuavanzant962]

I just wanted to say that what you do is super meaningful. With how much chaos and controversy there is on the internet. It’s amazing to come somewhere that I know is having a genuinely good impact on the way I see people. Without this, I think I would feel a lot more alone in having a crazy life story and intimidated by strangers. So… thanks

[@SamGiles]

This video reached me on such a profound level, and it couldn't have come at a more poignant time in my life. An immense thank you - your kindness and caring nature is reverberating across the globe. Keep up the amazing work.

[@heymadde]

many people can relate to feeling like we are different people everyday. Thats because of what we are going through, it could be negative or positive. be safe yall

[@dollarbambi]

this is so valid! it shows us how we're all just perfectly imperfect and just trying to learn how to be our best self every day, which is a life long process

[@aahtomms]

The filming shots are getting insane at this point! Congrats!! Great video 👏👏✨

[@hawadiallokane7298]

The first one perfectly describes how i feel everyday. It is deeply scary to Always pretend and not knowing who you are at the end of it. So thank you very much for putting this into words, i feel less isolated thanks you and your soul. Thank you so much for your videos thoraya 🙏🏾

[@amaldaoud1140]

Your videos are like a warm hug.

[@elizabethharris1851]

You should totally do another video of this! This question made me go deep into myself and ponder... I also loved hearing what the other people had to say as well

[@yazmin9151]

Thank you so much for this video these definitely make me feel a connection to people and i get a greater understanding that we are all just here trying to survive individually. :.) We are all a team! Thank you for this!!

[@clayylucien8447]

I really like this channel. It always makes me discover something new about myself

[@lifestylebyrachel]

Another amazing video! Love your work and passion!

[@valmahiblen5437]

Oh my gosh - thoraya - I can’t list all the wonderful array of feelings and emotions your work triggers - I smile and laugh - and I cry and feel pain - but mostly - I feel connection - that is special and so rare for so many of us who are broken - in such a disconnected world - don’t stop - it’s wonderful - thank you xx

[@Skelly3000]

That I will never reach my peak potential, given that I know im a very creative person. But I get so anxious and I give up too easily. It's what I'm used to but now that I got out of my depression phase it's hard to try harder. I'm a stranger to hard work.

[@Seekdeen1]

It's never late to complete something so don't rush anything you are an artist and artists are chaotic beings but in a good way and you have so much to accomplish. Don't worry you are gonna get there.

[@Seekdeen1]

Thoraya you are the hope of light for me to constantly remind me that I am not alone who is suffering from this stuff. I hope and pray for each everyone who is reading this . Remember at the end of the day we all are fighting our own silent battles so show kindness to others that you want to be treated with.................this is what I want to leave you with. 💗

[@eileda]

This channel makes me feel so human and it makes me accept that we are all flawed and trying our best to survive and we try to make a little life of ourselves with uncertainty about what we are and what we can do in the future

[@sandybarner1301]

This one hit me where I live. Thank you, Thoraya..

[@sapinette]

Beautiful as always, thanks Thoraya ♥ I can't wait to read the book of secrets, I shared mine a few weeks ago :)

[@jmleeinla4025]

I just left a secret and it feels validating to my soul. I’ve never spoken those words to anyone. Thank you for allowing me to lessen my burden of memories.

[@briannacovers8113]

Thank you Thoraya, the team, and everyone who participated 💗

[@RaineSophiaLewis]

I really appreciate this channel, it makes me realise everyone else has fears, feels low, feels not good enough. I really used to think I was totally alone, when younger. I’m scared of love and letting anyone in. ❤

[@Jerry.anthony.c]

1:10 - Anger and killing.