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[@samhandled]

It sounds like to me that you're healing your inner child and allowing yourself to play and have fun. It's been a privilege to see you navigate life and provide such an honest and vulnerable view of what it's been like. I know I appreciate it, it makes me feel less alone. Thank you for your content.

[@user-tq3pw4bt6i]

Beautiful comment 10/10

[@amandapalicka3147]

This! 100% also learning to unmask after years of masking to fit in! It’s a journey!

[@JuliundPaula]

I think i heard the term regression therapy someday, maybe that’s what shes subconsciously doing 🫂

[@bethgolden8206]

love this comment and love your hair

[@isals8498]

Seconded! This was a beautifully written description of how this channel makes me feel

[@stephy_toad]

So HELLO! Therapist here, how you articulated your nurturing process was beautiful. It sounds like you are taking time to heal your inner child!!! Which is SO hard to do. I wish you the BEST of luck in 2024, and that red hair is banger! 💖💖💖

[@karelephant]

There is no "brain to mouth lag", Bea. Reframing it from "abandoning myself...to nurturing myself"...so wise...so ingenious. I cannot express how much you sharing this means to me. You make perfect sense. ❤

[@treafronte7661]

Random, but you're giving me Hermione vibes!✨ At 14:23-14:24 my daughter and I looked at each other in excitement and blurted out at the same time that you looked like Hermione! We didn't even notice at first that you were holding Harry Potter books. We just absolutely love it! I also just want to say that I love how vulnerable and relatable you are. I feel like you are the only person on KZbin I can relate to. I love your sense of humor and I just feel like we have a lot in common. It just makes me feel not so alone in some way.🖤

[@elitaw.6309]

I was just coming here to say as much! And then, wondered if I was crazy. 😂

[@alissapim3616]

Yaaassss my thoughts exactly

[@0wlyssa]

I third this!

[@NikkiJeanne]

Yes! Thought the same!!

[@kyleebristow6223]

Thank you!!! Yes, that's who I was trying to think of.

[@theoriginalmrs.d538]

Love the new cut and color - beautiful!

[@DayanaraDays]

Look at how healthy Douglas is looking! Like a whole new dog!

[@nancyk.8465]

Douglas looks great!

[@RMCAV]

Yes! I noticed that too. He looks so happy.

[@kelmike060404]

His ears are amazing

[@covidcrazy]

Mavis is getting him in shape.

[@SonyaMarie826]

As a stylist I don’t mind when people don’t feel like talking. I also do lash extensions and most of my clients fall asleep during. So it’s ok not to make small talk. 😊

[@meganclark-hutchings7464]

Moving fast isn't always a disaster. My husband and I went from friends to living together to married in less than a year. I'd gotten out of a really bad 10 year marriage and it was a FAST transition. But here we are, about 8 years later and still doing amazing! I definitely am hoping for the same success for you and Steebie!

[@MarkandMarie]

Wow, literally almost the exact same thing. lol Left a 10 year relationship, my first real relationship, abusive, moved to another state, met my husband, and within a year we were living together and 5 months after that we were married. We'll celebrate our 9 year anniversary in May. lol

[@watchthisheadspace]

I just never see the rush. This is definitely the exception not the norm on the marriage front, the majority married that quickly fail and you can truly know someone in a year. I just never see why people can't wait a couple, if they're so sure they'll be just as sure in a few years... But many will have broken up by them and saved themselves a lot of hassle

[@selenagonzalez5011]

I love your light hearted and goofy content, but I gotta say, I absolutely LOVE when you have these moments of self reflection and just really try to figure yourself out. I do the same thing, and I’m sure a lot of your followers do, too. It’s just a glimpse into being human, and idk why, but that’s so comforting.

[@megan2176]

Definitely! And there's got to be something about saying it all out loud to a silent audience that helps the thoughts snowball. We think these things in our heads but they can get kind of jumbled, but speaking them out loud in actual words really helps, though so many of us don't have people to really open up to in real life. I dunno, we should all make youtube videos, and just not post them, just to work out our thoughts and feelings! ❤

[@selenagonzalez5011]

Definitely! Kinda like a video diary. I talk a lot to myself on my drive to work, and maybe it would be beneficial if I could record myself and then go back and hear what I had to say lol.

[@megan2176]

@selenagonzalez5011 great idea! Ha, thinking about it now, I do tend to have imaginary conversations with people in my head, sharing my thoughts, or saying stuff I can't say to real people, so i guess we all have our own, sometimes weird(!), ways of working through our thoughts. 😊

[@bridmcgrath3606]

U guys are so nice❤

[@megan2176]

Kinda spooky, I just watched a Grace and Frankie episode where Frankie encourages Grace to make a private vlog for herself, and when she does, some of her feelings click, and Frankie told her "you said what you needed to hear"! Just thought it was spooky/perfect timing given Bea's video. ♥️😊

[@cheyennequeen]

I'm loving all the videos lately, thank you for putting in so much work lately Bea! ❤

[@BeatriceCaruso]

Glad you like them! 😊😊

[@Szandrie]

We love them ❤❤​@@BeatriceCaruso

[@salameander22]

Second this! Loving all the extra Bea

[@beemontiel943]

I can tell Steven has had a positive impact in your over all life!! Sometimes all we need is someone to love while receiving love back🥹💕🫶🏼 happy for you!

[@TheBeautifulsarah16]

Your hair looks AH-Mazing!! I think it makes you look a lot younger (not that you needed to). Change is hard, regardless of what the change is or if you're the one who implemented said change, and you're doing an amazing job navigating it all 😊❤

[@fettchik3n]

Am I the only one who thought Hermione Granger Then she said Harry Potter and my mind blew up haha She looks so pretty as always 🐝

[@meilynmullins6062]

Also the “childish” things you are doing are good for you! My therapist taught me that because my childhood was taken from me, I am now making up for it by getting Squishmallows and watching disney movies and that’s totally okay! You’re healing your inner child💙💙

[@ktburger659]

100%!!!

[@amybeard2054]

The new hair is so flattering on you Bea!! Everything from the cut to the color looks wonderful on you! Think you have inspired me to make a hair change as well! Your “inner child” talk definitely resonated with me on many levels.

[@Window2Magic]

I relate so much to this Bea. I'm in my 30s also and suffered neglect, emotional, and mental abuse as a child. I had so much pressure to 'be successful' that I felt like my survival depended on it. Once I became independent it's like I was finally able to be a kid, and do child-like things and know that no one could put me down for it. I think allowing myself that freedom is an important part of growing as a person and overcoming the abuse of my past. Your hair is beautiful. You're not abandoning yourself. 🧡

[@womanofacertainage5892]

Same to all of that. I felt I also need to be "successful" and over-achieve by some people's standards, to make a way for myself in the world. My mom was a teen when she had me. She was a decent mom and I did know she loved me -- but she was super young. I've always felt somewhat on my own out here, figuring life out on my own, etc. Anyway, I relate. Here's to all of us!

[@theowlyone]

Abandoning vs Nurturing - gosh you phrased it so well. I've felt the same leaving a toxic university environment that I'd idolised my whole life, and when recovering from a neurological disorder after I'd spent from age 6 being ill. A way that helped me a lot was saying thank you to the version of myself i was leaving behind, like "thank you for surviving this and being strong so we didn't crumple. I'm allowed to be soft now, and I'd like to be, so I'm going to try and nurture that side of myself, but I'm not abandoning past me. I'm just thanking her and saying goodbye for now, and that I'll remember her fondly". Sort of like a childhood friend who you've grown apart from, but that doesn't mean their impact in your life carries any less weight. You're just different now, and that's okay :) Anyways sorry for the ramblings, but I think a lot of people in your audience feel or have felt the same, and it's nice to have a little community in th comments of similar people :')

[@brookemason2794]

This comment made me tear up. The way you described this is amazing. I recently left the army and I have felt such a loss from it and it felt like I was leaving part of myself behind. But like you said, she was a friend who helped me through some tough times. Thank you. 💕

[@canxo4079]

Eloquently put, thank you for this

[@cindiiscurious]

Your hair talk made perfect sense to me. After a stolen childhood and lots of abandonment, I threw myself into motherhood. I still worked throughout at an intense job but after that, my kids were the rest of my life. I’ve got one more in the nest and I’m working on who I can become after he’s grown. He’s 12 so I have some time, but I don’t want to be that person who clings to my grown kids, you know? We’re reinventing ourselves from a place of fullness and love, and that’s the difference 😊

[@lynnmcdaniel649]

I think it's so crazy how sometimes people with the best personalities are uncomfortable around people and avoid it. You are hilarious. I guarantee anyone who would interact with you would love you. If only you could see yourself the way other people do and love who you are you would love to be around people all the time.

[@allyson--]

yes!

[@everyday.poh.tay.toe.]

I make friends easily. Put me in a crowd of strangers and I will leave with best friends. And it was brought to my attention I don’t actually like people, I was like nooo way! I get along with people and it’s easy to talk to them. After sitting and unpacking this, I now understand that it’s not that I actually like people but that I am good with people. LOL. So yeah, this did make me uncomfortable because I didn’t want to seem disingenuous but I am my authentic self and find people to be dumb (sorry 😬🫠😂)

[@sadieannegracebrewer7582]

Exactly!you said it!🥹💪🏼💗🪽🤟🏼🤲🏼🙏🏼

[@shellyduggan1817]

Yup, me too! I can talk to anyone and be "friendly" but I realize in reality I don't like people. @@everyday.poh.tay.toe.

[@lil.miss.crispy.avocado]

Right!!

[@melorvvv]

Speaking as an adult lady who's almost 30 and also had to deal with a dad who basically abandoned me for a new family, I totally related to you. That experience, along with some other negative ones, kind of made me feel weird about things either changing in the first place or not changing fast enough. So there's the comfort in me staying the same weight, or just upset at myself for not progressing fast enough. I think it's great that you're giving that lil baby bea some love and nurturing! The small meaningful steps will eventually lead you where you need to be

[@chacha_mogolla]

That was amazing Bea! Incredible self reflection. That’s massive growth!!!! What a way to start the year! ❤️

[@Salty-lady-cakes]

I would watch an entire 30 montage minutes of you just feeding animals snacks.

[@lindsayjohnson5672]

In reference to Stevie, I was in a 5 year relationship that ended and then met the man I ended up marrying. We moved in and got pregnant with my first son after 9 months and now it's been 9 years. Everyone said I was crazy when it happened so girl I feel you. Also you look fantastic! PS. I LOVE you nurturing your inner child and I think that is very healthy! I also think that shows you're in a good relationship bc you feel the comfort to explore things you might've missed.

[@devilcutie1190]

This!!! I was in a 5 yr relationship that was slowly declining due to distance and poor communication. Met a guy through friends and we instantly clicked and were pretty much living together in 2 weeks. Now been together 8 years - married 2 😊 don't let norms define your relationship ❤

[@fluffy-Muffin]

Oh gurl… I love how you reassure us about the lovely stevie, whilst pointing out that serial killers blend into the community really well…. 😂😂😂😂 I can’t stop giggling. Happy new year Bea Your hair really suits you

[@mahaliajolynn]

I just wanted to say that I love your content, your new hair and how vulnerable you are. Happy new year!

[@chel_sea2023]

Bea, this has to be one of my favorite “story times” with you. I loved everything you shared today and really appreciate how you ended this video. It really resonated with me and helped me understand some of the changes I need to make this year as well 💛🦕

[@ashleytrue7678]

Love how consistent you are with the videos lately!

[@LindaC616]

Streamuary, though I don't think she said it out loud (bc then she'd be tempted to quit)

[@WingsDragonfly]

I just love your channel, Beatrice! I really appreciate your talk about allowing yourself joy in simple things. I believe that being an adult requires us to have enough joy and satisfaction to have the fuel to do the hard stuff. And I have been known to watch whole videos on guinea pigs. Your hair cut and color are so worth it. They perfectly bring the focus to your eyes, and somehow bring a sparkle to your eyes. Beautiful!

[@CarbSmartDiabetic]

The hair doe looks wonderful on you and I relate to everything you talked about at the end. You are not abandoning the little girl, she has so many fantastic things to carry to the future like that sense of humor, honesty, the desire to grow as a person, the artistic side and so much more so you are not leaving her behind at all even if you stop cutting your own hair or if you will loose weight because you will give keto integrated with intermittent fasting a second chance because not only the low carb recipe world had improved dramatically from the last time you tried but now you have the cooking skills to actually god forbid enjoy it :)) Hugs

[@va1445]

I love the hair and new fits!♥ You are not the only one who needs to recharge your social battery... "it's exhausting to be a person" is VERY accurate!

[@michellepowell5929]

Im going through the same thing with embracing stuff others would consider childish now as an adult of 55!! Ive wondered why as well... I believe its because, as a child and young adult that experienced a lot of trauma and abuse, I'm finally giving myself what I wasn't given as a child, or aloud to openly enjoy with out ridicule from others. I'm totally loving all my weirdness! And having fun! Life is TOO short. You are so awesome girl! You make me laugh 😂 in every video! Thank you! AND, the hair is pretty!

[@patriciarodriguez0429]

Hello ! I am 52 and still feel like I have so much inner work to do. Thanks for sharing… I don’t feel so bad lol ❤

[@LindaC616]

I'm in my late 50s and have come away from a job where I was enduring narcissistic. Abuse. A co-worker marveled at my ability to find joy in simple things and my sense of play. I told her I think it's because my work-life was so horrendous that I was doing it to stay sane and to compensate for those hours of the day

[@michellepowell5929]

@@patriciarodriguez0429 not sure it ever stops. Been working hard for 8 yrs. But... it's getting better.♥️

[@NoYesJess]

I think making a video every so often about working on yourself mentally and emotionally and/or just sharing your thoughts would be so interesting!! Especially since you already share your physicial growth with us as you move forward. You're just so relateable and insiteful. My hermit self would be fully invested.

[@EnisuRosetta]

I’m trying to heal my inner child too. It’s so hard because I’m so self conscious that the people around me will think I’m just childish. Even though I know that don’t feel that way. I still feel like I have to hide a lot of the things I enjoy at the moment.

[@lifebythecafterstrokeCHRISTINE]

“It’s exhausting to be a person” 😅 Love that you say what you mean at the moment, that is the way to be in a relationship. It establishes healthy boundaries. I was almost 50 before I learned that. Those thred up boots were an amazing find! The highlights are so so beautiful.

[@katiewilburn7209]

Love your vulnerability and am in tears watching the ending and listening to you try to figure yourself out. I’m in therapy at 35 for the hundredth time, but finally found a provider that can read through my BS and challenges my mindsets. I’m finally learning about where all of my weird rules came from and allowing myself to break them is really helping me find my identity and create habits that serve the actual me not the person I was trained to be through others treatments of me. I see you Bea, keep digging ❤

[@BlueMoon3l3b]

I once heard that your brain/body often somewhat reverts back to the age in which you had trauma because it still needs to process what happened, so what you said makes a lot of sense. I think that’s also why there’s such a refresh of all this “nostalgic” things in the market from our generation’s childhood. We’re trying to revisit our youth and heal our inner child in many ways. Having a kid a couple years ago made me realize how important it is to heal yourself when you take care of others. I grew up with my mom being very volatile and throwing legit temper tantrums, so now I’m having to learn how to properly regulate my emotions in a more healthy way while at the same time having to teach my toddler the same tools while not getting triggered by his normal crazy toddler behaviors. It’s so hard, but it’s also very worth it because I’m able to parent him in the ways *I* needed to be parented as a kid (mostly patience and understanding), but unfortunately wasn’t. I’m already seeing the positive results in both of us by always trying to do better. Anyway I’m rambling, I’m just saying that revisiting things related to your childhood in a healthy way can be deeply healing.

[@stephfoxeh]

I feel like after my 20s i started really doing things that i loved as a kid. Arts and crafts, reading fiction, rollerskating. My bf is the same. He could spend all day just shooting hockey pucks. These things just bring joy.

[@lisamarie296]

Your hair looks so good Bea!

[@heavenlycute]

That totally makes sense. I started seeing symptoms of depression when I was 14 and I was in treatment (therapy and medication) from 16 until I was nearly 20. In my early 20s, I had this sort of resurgent teenage hood: I loved pop music (well, I still do!), read Seventeen magazine, dressed in pastels and used accessories probably more fit for a 16 year old. My friends gave me tons of grief for it but I honestly felt like I was making up for a time in my life lost to constant sadness (much much later I found out that I had undiagnosed ADHD and that my depression most likely stemmed from that).

[@Kelly1237]

You can always politely tell your stylist that you’re super maxed out on energy and it would be great if you could sit there in comfortable silence while they do your hair so you can recharge. I also do this with a massage therapist when I go. They’re often just as happy not to have to make small talk too.

[@texbecks6682]

What you're doing is incredible and important. Reframing your journey as nurturing is important. Also, it's hard for us to remember that despite our perspective, change is constant, natural, and inevitable. You're harnessing the change in your life as a form of self care. And childish things are wonderful. Why do we tell ourselves we can't do childish stuff after a certain point? I just finished playing with my new slime collection, with my two kids, and had just as much fun as them. Finally, Bluey is a top notch show everyone should watch!

[@carriecarrie5285]

I like your idea of reframing your mindset from abandonment to nourishing or caring for yourself. I’ve spent decades abusing my body with food. I’ve gotten to the point where I remind myself or reinforce the idea of self care. When I’m feeling weaker I tell myself (sometimes in the mirror) that self care is not a punishment, I’m feeding my body with the food it needs. Great video!

[@quix689]

Everything you said made sense! Ive struggled so long because losing weight partially feels like admitting that everyone else was right that I was unloveable how I was before, but I also do want to lose weight. Reframing it as loving myself enough to take care of myself has helped, but I still have a ways to go. And I totally relate to the book thing! I loved HP as a kid, but I remember so much of high school I spent reading classics that I thought were impressive. Now that I'm an adult, I spent most of my time reading the young adult books I wish I had read back then. I do think for me a lot of that has to do with trying to redo my childhood. Can't say it's definitely working, but I'm enjoying it anyway. I love the new hair (but the old looked really good too) - I hope you eventually like it also. 🙂

[@mollyirene8979]

bea! i recently got bangs as well (after swearing i would never get them again after growing mine out in third grade and wearing headbands the whole year…). but styling them can be a lot more high maintenance than my hair sans bangs. i recently discovered these roller clips from kitsch that i use on my bangs in the morning after taking a shower or wetting them, and they’ve made styling so much easier! i use one and just put my whole bang area in the clip and roll under and up. hope this helps with styling! 💕

[@shellyduggan1817]

I think you are allowing yourself to become who you are supposed to be. Less rules, more feelings. I love watching your videos and I am rooting for you!!!! Do all the silly, childish things you want to! When I had my kids I felt like I got to have a second, better childhood and I think it helped me to feel better all around. I am still a work in progress and so are you. And gosh, you look like Hermione!!!! So pretty. The hair is lovely.

[@caroldavis4127]

What a wonderful glow up!! The brows, hair, and awesome lavender coat- (goes with that lavender Stanley cup)!! This was quite an introspective and insightful exam of your choices. You are blossoming and glowing from inside and out. Cucumbers for everyone🥒🥒🥒🧡🧡🧡

[@user-nlvmruu]

Hi! Hair looks amazing!!!! I think all of us can struggle with letting go of the self we have created. That self can be a suit of armor or a squish mellow to fall asleep with but that doesn’t mean it’s the best suit or plushy for us right now or going forward. It can be hard to assume a new life with all the change however it can be exciting to create and get to know other sides of yourself. I don’t think we’re ever abandoning ourselves just like we’re never ever starting over from scratch. We can only start over with experience and how refreshing is that!!! We will never lose what we have gained, especially when it has benefitted us. But some things do require tweaking and maintenance and that’s just all part of the process. Maybe just try to see this new you as an extension of you that you haven’t seen yet. This person has always been there, inside there, somewhere. Just because your mom or partner start dressing differently or get new hair or gain fifty pounds doesn’t mean they’re no longer the person they’ve always been. Just want to encourage you to see all angles of the diamond in the ruff instead of being scared off by your default perspective. ❤

[@taraschmidheini4674]

🤗

[@gracewall5546]

Ok! 1. I was watching this running on the treadmill in my new thredup active wear! I love the way you’ve styled your pieces. 2. I got laser hair removal 9 years ago on my legs and have not shaved since. It is truly remarkable. I was the perfect candidate with dark hair and pale skin. You are right though, it is many appointments and can be painful. To me, worth it. It took me about 7 months worth of appointments every 4-6 weeks

[@heidi9569]

I stoped shaving about two years ago and honestly I love my pit hair lol. I’ve never been happier. Don’t hate / embrace it!

[@cmichtour]

On change: You are so right!! This past year I changed a lot in my life and lost so much weight. I kept getting compliments, but it felt odd to me. I had the feeling you described. I told myself it is okay and I am healthy, I am doing it for me and no one else. I just kept going and put nutrition into action what I've spent years learning. I am doing well, and can say I am proud of who I have become and I do not miss the old me. Once break down the walls and fences it is pure bliss. You realize you can do anything. 🎉 Keep going, girl! P.S. doing what would your inner child self loves is liberating and VERY much helped me this past year. Do all the fun things. 😍

[@mwahaha4729]

I can relate to what you said about change. I think accepting the loss a part of my identity through self improvement is hard because the new me doesn't feel familiar like the old me. Even though I work towards the goal and achieve it, I know I lost a part of my old self which is why it feels more desirable and comforting to just slip back to old habits and act as the old me. Also, imposter syndrome and feeling not deserving of the new me in a sense so it's hard to recognize the new sense of self

[@diyantagonist]

I get my hair cut every 3-5 years (laziness? the expense? not really caring? the possibilities are endless) and it's coming up on time again. I'm struggling to figure out what I want other than "short." Considering it's down to my waist, it'll be a big change regardless.

[@kristalaikens8030]

As someone with PCOS. I had 5ish laser hair removal and it wasn’t that bad. It just hurts in the moment for a second. But it’s totally worth it. I was getting a Brazilian and it was 100 including tip. Each appointment. Ima continue to do then when I can.

[@lemonspringsunspray]

So feel you on the "not allowing myself fiction" bit. Our society conditions us to make everything we do traditionally productive

[@TexasGirl1633]

I love that you have met a great guy!! Sometimes you have to go with your gut. I know what you mean about time. I dated a guy (don’t want to get remarried) for about 10 years and was shocked who he turned out to be at the end. I am quite a bit older than you but now know you really NEVER know someone!! Your hair is gorgeous!! The style and color highlight your eyes. You will get use to it. Beautiful new start to the new year!! Love your channel❤️

[@kaitlynlife7070]

you have me over here cryingg. i get exactly what you mean with the childhood indulgence. i am currently starting a weightloss journey (and i have done this countless times) but this time around my motivations are wanting to feel energetic, jump around, play. I allow myself to get toys i wanted, stuffed animals for comfort. eat foods that make me feel happy etc. I know exactly what you are on about. cheers to nurturing yourself!

[@SarahAnew]

I totally understand what you’re saying about not wanting to abandon yourself. For me, it’s this feeling of wanting subconsciously to hold on and not let releasing the extra weight be because society thinks I should. I want to do it for myself and my health and longevity. Society has put these beauty ideals onto women that are impossible to live up to. That’s why it’s TOTALLY appropriate to talk about this at the end of this video. And then how can we make peace with this idea of abandoning ourselves? Well, it’s to love ourselves no matter what, and choosing to make positive choices from a place of self love. 😘

[@jilliebean2574]

I'm loving your hair....the cut, color and style. You go girl!!!

[@lisajligon]

I love your new hairstyle! Good for you, Bea.

[@kmcm1]

Getting a Phillips home Ipl was the best purchase I've ever made for my confidence. Dark thick hair and dark skin, constant shaving/waxing got too much. After 6 months of use I was hair free and I only do top ups ever so often on some stubborn hairs.

[@jc142]

It totally makes sense Bea and I felt quite emotional listening to you as i can relate. I'm letting myself enjoy myself, scary though that is. By the way, your hair is gorgeous, you look very young and fun, and the colour is great and you know what, if you fancy a change in a couple of months, you can do that too. x

[@marlenathompson229]

Yes!! Nurturing yourself!!! That's how I frame moving my body and being mindfully eating- it's all about taking care of all of me 💖

[@aimeholzbach]

I hate shaving too, I actually stopped shaving my armpits about 2 years ago.. no regrets! It is natural and my husband doesn't mind so.. yeah. Also, just straight up tell people that you can be a bit awkward and may stare off. It seems to help people accept and not make their own assumptions 😂

[@danielleshanti]

I also stopped shaving my pits years ago. I still don't love the way it looks and don't wear sleeveless tops, but I know that's social conditioning, damn it. I don't do any kind of hair removal; it's too exhausting, and such an arbitrary standard of beauty. In my mind, if it grows there, it's supposed to be there. We're animals, too, Bea! Try embracing it and see how you feel.

[@harrisonmode8046]

He does mind…he’s just afraid to tell you.

[@aimeholzbach]

@@harrisonmode8046, that's very ignorant of you to say..

[@jjagger3934]

​@@harrisonmode8046 Many men really need a reality check 🙄

[@alishakoeberle215]

Oh, girl. I am on my adult reading of HP books era. I can not tell you how much I am enjoying reading them. I am on book five, and it really is so much better reading them. I can not express how much HP means to me. I have dreams of going to Scotland and doing a Harry Potter tour of all the places🪄🔮✨️I hope you enjoy them and that they bring you joy like they do for me❤

[@ayr156]

All of this!!! I get it! I expect more from myself when I'm actually working on myself and that scares me.The expectations. Anywhoo, love how you show up for yourself and for us. You look fabulous 😊

[@theturtlemoves9310]

My husband and I met online in 1999 and I practically moved in to his parent's house a week later. The suggestions to be careful and not too quick are definitely good and should be followed. But, sometimes, you just know. I still adore him, all these years later. Oh, also your hair looks friggen amazing!

[@katatonic726]

You do* want clean hair for a cut & color (leaving enough time for it to dry before appt, maybe even the afternoon the day before appt)

[@lovebertierose]

This was a fun everyone gets fed video, physically and mentally. I love the hair. All the fur babies are happy and healthy and you seem to be on your way to that as well.

[@HollyHeartsBooks]

As a someone who has dedicated there whole life and career on reading fantasy books, read all the magical and dragon books you want

[@BrotatoGang454]

omg holly I was not expecting you here lmao

[@eeveum]

I went through a period of really intense burnout a couple of years ago. I reread my childhood harry potter books and I had the best time, I can’t describe how nostalgic and happy it made me. Sometimes it’s good to revisit your childhood ❤

[@pippamint176]

OMG your hair turned out so so good! love it!!❤🤗

[@jasmineberryessa945]

Your blonde looks SO GOOD!! It has so much dimension! ❤

[@ChrissyJijon]

Right when I turned 30 to now 34 a whole new journey began without me knowing. I would constantly be thinking about what I did when I was little, what I liked when I was a teen and things like that and this age I think we go back to that. Rediscovering ourselves with new knowledge and more wisdom so we can spoil ourselves and accept ourselves the way we wouldn’t do when we were younger. At least that how I see it and feel about it!

[@sabrinasmallwood7280]

Your hair looks gorgeous! It still looks like you. Love those bangs. Your thoughts on liking things and enjoying things at the end. It sounds like you are nurturing your inner child and in a loving space to do so. So keep treating yourself and little Bea with all the things that make you happy. Thoughts on changes with appearance, you have to trust yourself just like you trusted yourself to chose your partner. Sending love Bea!

[@carriegee1610]

Your face after the ‘not dark ass hair’. You crack me up. Don’t ever change Bea! 😂💗

[@mahzouzchaima240]

"sometimes things get worse before they get better" ❤

[@laurajeanist]

Love that realization! You should embrace the inner child and then when you’re ready you can start to nurture it!

[@Redpruett]

Yeah, it makes sense. Wondering if there is something along the lines of changing self felt unintentionally like rejecting self which could have felt reinforcing or justifying to the rejection/abandoned feeling self. And same on brain-words lag! As evidenced by my previous sentence!

[@katerina9159]

so much content recently, thank you Bea!!

[@anotherdayinthislife]

Girl yes to laser hair reduction!! One of the best things I’ve done 🎉

[@ConVicGar]

I also have PCOS, recently diagnosed, but I've had excess hair on my chin since I was in high school. I did electrolysis and it worked super well for my chin and mustache but it is super painful. I usually paid $1 per minute so if that's what you'd be interested in I'd shop around. Recently I bought the Braun Silkexpert Pro 5 for at home laser, and it has been phenomenal. It's pricy at $350 but it has paid off so well. I legit have bald spots on my legs and armpits and still working on the rest. It works great on my chin and mustache too. I notice a huge difference in my chin hair.

[@AllTheButtons87]

I totally get what you're saying! What you are doing is called parenting your inner child and it's definitely not weird. I got adult coloring books and colored pencils. Plus sometimes if I find a scent that reminds of my childhood at all I become kind of attached to it. Also I had a weird regression session while doing meditative yin yoga at a studio and it was so deeply joyful - I can't really explain it. Also I totally get the social battery thing and trying hard not to be awkward! I'm am just like you with that too 😅

[@fudgebrowniie]

the new hair looks so good on you!!

[@amayaakane7216]

I love your new hair color and your introspection. Maybe 2024 is the year you learn to nurture yourself? Either way, I’m here for it. Thanks for your video!

[@lucyr1487]

Change is necessary Bea. Continue doing those things that make you happy. I’m 52 and enjoying things, rediscovering things from my childhood that made me happy. For example, my renewed love of the Puerto Rican boy and Menudo 😍💗 🤭 Old me-stressed about what people would think…New me- IDGAF…it’s my life and I’m doing what makes me happy. You deserve happiness!!

[@bluemousy2634]

My favorite aspects of your videos is whenever you speak candidly about your life, excperiences, and dilemmas

[@anamarianeri]

Hi Bea! Hope your week is going well!

[@HelloLeighann]

Miss girl, the hair suits you SOOO WELL!

[@louisekite1600]

Introvert issues with small talk - I feel it Love the hair ! ….. any change takes time to adjust too Your ‘rambling’ makes total sense to me … your introspection will only help you move through what you need to move thru … the only true way to change ourselves and grow is through nurturing and being kind to ourselves

[@Kufalk.equestrian]

I have had issues where I'm afraid to become who I know I can be because I didn't want to loose who I was. It has held me back so much. I wonder if you have a similar mindset. I love that you are doing things that you actually enjoy. I'm trying to find what I enjoy now so I can heal myself from emotional trauma so it's really great to see you doing it! ❤

[@lavellvelez2157]

It sounds like rebirthing. Re generating yourself. I love feeling like I can do changes from within and without. You look great with your new hair style and color! Blessings Bea

[@kaziiiiii]

You have no idea how much I look forward to your videos, they always cheer me up🥲 & even when you’re going through a hard time I hope you just remember how much you’re loved by so many people around the world!! and we will never give up on you as long as you don’t give up on yourself;) Keep being you Bea

[@littlemissfreedom]

I'm a psychotherapist and inner child work is a huge thing. A lot of my patients (and myself as well) benefit from it. Also - being scared of losing yourself or your identity is something a lot of my patients are subconsciously scared of. So good job for recognizing it! I think you can easily find resources on inner child work but for the latter... I work in a psychoanalytical way so I tackle this by getting to the roots of this feeling and from there on I try to help my patients grow in another way. So you might benefit from a psychoanalytical therapeutic style (I think you did mostly CBT? Not sure about therapeutic styles in other countries, sorry!). Or maybe those topics can be connected and you can get to the root by inner child work :) Inner child work can also be very soothing for all kinds of anxiety.

[@katebaxenden2927]

Your a tough cookie you go girl don’t give up

[@monican7099]

You look beautiful with your hair. ❤

[@Suz242]

When someone important to us abandons us we tend to internalize that as not being "enough" and forcing yourself to stop doing things that doesnt better yourself is a way to be "worthy". Now that you are grown and your happiness does not involve the person who left, you are allowing yourself to indulge the child that was abandoned. Its healthy and its progress! Self care is everything from health and wellness to allowing yourself simple joys and entertainment of imagination. You are doing great!

[@ZoeLander-cv7yb]

it's def more about the person than the amount of time. I was in a 9 yr relationship that crashed and a 5 yr one where I was engaged for 2 of the 5 years and that crashed. This time I was with my now fiance for 1 year then moved in then got engaged year 2 and we'll be starting our 3rd year married. we've done a lot of deep dives and done a lot of life together in that time and it feels more right than either of my last 2 longer relationships. if i had known that this is what is should feel like to be in a healthy relationship, i wouldn't have wasted so much time in those earlier relationships. but also the timing is perfect because we both grew a lot as people before we met. timing has been oddly perfect.

[@mayrazamoracruz9170]

Your hair looks amazing B! Seeing you taking care of yourself gives me hopes that, us, adults just existing out there are real. We are not alone :) Love your channel! #peopleling

[@SarahCbyneedleandthread]

I love the new hair! And glad you’re are doing what makes you happy even if it’s a “childish thing” who made the rules that being an adult meant no fun allowed? I think more of us need to embrace the things we loved as kids.

[@hsmith44]

I read once that you continue “growth spurts” all through life. It helps me to make sense of the person I feel I used to be rather than feeling I’ve lost myself. It’s hard but reframing in the way you say is a great idea. Also your hair looks *fab* ❤

[@gluecap]

I've used the Philips Lumea for hair removval, I mean you have to do it a few times a year after the "initial" treatment but you can do it in your home, watching a movie or something like that. :)