Travel Anxiety is a Very Real Thing

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[@aylinmoon9291]

"Why can't I be happy too?" Same thoughts here, thank you for making this video and sharing your feelings about traveling. It makes me feel better that I'm not alone

[@adorablepandaring1975]

i have autism, anxiety, and agoraphobia, so i heavily relate!! i appreciate you making this video and continuing to be such an inspiration

[@kb_thetiny]

Just the feeling of knowing that life is a struggle and with videos like this telling me I’m not alone brought me to tears (happy one’s) the message and positivity you spread is amazing!! Thank you

[@ssavaart]

Absolutely My Pleasure ♥

[@TTVsofflee]

Me too, this video is so important, & I didn't know how much I really needed to hear it. Thank you so much.

[@abigailslittlespaghettiboah]

I have social anxiety and I think I might be neurodivergent (though I’m too scared to ask my parents to get tested), but I really like to travel and see interesting places, even though the crowds and everything overwhelm me a lot. It’s nice to see that someone else understands my issues, and especially from someone who inspires me!

[@Meraxes6]

I had social anxiety and always loved to travel and explore. Traveling helped my social anxiety, actually, and built confidence. Now after therapy and years of raising my self esteem (I’m 35), my social anxiety is pretty much gone. Keep working on it and everything can change!

[@maiaduffield678]

I also suspect autism but I just don't want to mention it to anyone. Even with my autistic friends - who have repeatedly mentioned that I'm apparently most definitely not neurotypical in their eyes - I don't want to mention I might actually agree with them.

[@OmnipotentTragedy]

OMG LITERALLY ME

[@slug9986]

Amazing! I have social anxiety which I know isn’t the same but I still avoid going places and talking to people and it’s hard for me to socialize because I’m so scared, but thankfully I’m getting better and I’m less scared now! P.s ty for all the likes and support! You all are so sweet and kind✨

[@adriannemckee843]

Same here, I have a hard time talking to people I’m not very close to.

[@slug9986]

@@adriannemckee843 I have trouble talking to literally anyone lol even close family members- I plan all my conversations and I’m glad I’m not alone ty!

[@recoveringsoul755]

I Had to force myself to make eye contact and try to say hello to at least one person each time I went out. It's so difficult. I wish I was in a safe relationship with someone who could understand and be a buffer for me. But I married someone who made everything so much worse.

[@slug9986]

@@recoveringsoul755 that terrible but I hope you find someone that will make talking to people more comfortable and easy.

[@Rainstalker]

i have autism and i feel the same things but due to my childhood i can't trust anyone aswell. luckily i hate social interaction.

[@nyatske]

Honestly, I feel in a similar way, I don't know if I'm neurodivergent in any way, but social anxiety makes me feel very overwhelmed in public as well, I feel a lot better, safer and calmer in my little room, a place a carved out for myself. Thank you for sharing your experience, it's always empowering seeing similar experiences from people I admire.

[@OO0RI]

I don’t have much to say like others, but I did need this assurance and I’m taking this video to heart. I hope whoever is reading has a good day. :)❤

[@gymnsical]

i personally think anxiety should be classified as neurodivergence . our brains work differently, and it affects our daily life

[@Nick-dx2pt]

Social anxiety is a neurodivergence..

[@properantagonist]

Grumpy Scott walking around with an invisible "my autism said NO" banner over his head is the level of mutual understanding I needed today for my ND brain

[@endoplasmatischesretikulum1861]

Thank you for posting videos like this and making people like me feel less alone. I needed many years to realised and respect my bodies boundaries, and I'm still learning. As someone who is easily overwhelmed by crowds and noises, I found that noise canceling headphones really help me. Sometimes I put them on and hide the cables in my pocket pretending to listen to music so people don't think it's weird that I just wear headphones for seemingly no reason. Also, people are less likely to randomly talk to me.

[@sasasasasch5687]

do that too!! Just that I use Bluetooth headphones. Crowds are scary,as specially when you're... Different I guess? They help a lot! As specially in grocery stores (the fridges are sooooo noisy)

[@robyngebauer1953]

Thank you. I needed a reminder that I'm not alone. I love your art. You've really motivated me to pursue what I love, even if it's not perfect.

[@Soaring_with_Shades]

I have autism and even though I find many situations overwhelming and exhausting, travel is like a relief from that! I love being able to explore different cultures, meet incredible people and stay in some jaw dropping places. Though airports can be stressful, I always think “it will be worth it soon”

[@Lindseydraws]

Thank you so much for making this. ❤ I have anxiety, and I know that it is nowhere near as bad as some people’s but I don’t really like leaving the house at all. I would love to draw scenery but I’m afraid I’m bothering someone else or that I look weird

[@ssavaart]

Never compare your anxiety to others. It's anxiety. And it sucks. But, I believe in you. Even if you start off in the back yard. Or down the street. You can do it.

[@Lindseydraws]

@@ssavaart I look up to you so much, so this means a lot to me. Thank you. I will try my best to start out! Update: i started painting my in my backyard and it brings me lots of joy 😊

[@squirrel83]

I deeply relate to this, I often get very overwhelmed by all the sights and sounds of travel, noise canceling headphones have been a lifesaver for me

[@sketchs_art_corner]

This. This is so important to hear. I’m autistic too and some days even the thought of considering leaving even my room is too much. Sometime it takes all my energy to just get out of bed in the morning. It sucks, it’s not pleasant, but just sharing those experiences with others and letting them know that it’s okay and you get it, they aren’t alone, sometimes that’s the most important thing you can do to help 💛

[@potARTo]

I am a 14 year old artist and have really bad social anxiety, I used to went to therapy for it when I was 9 but I stopped after an year as I felt it was not helping as a kid I would cry, refuse to eat and vomit if I was at a place with two many people or an overwhelming place in general, I think it's a lot better now but going to anywhere new still terrifies me, it's nice to see that there are other people like me who don't like crowds and places, I love to hear your experiences Scott!!❤

[@skyhideaway]

i woke up feeling like i was spiralling into another depressive episode, so thank you for this. though i really wish i could do things at my own pace and my own terms, i can't at the moment. hopefully, that'll change soon.

[@thatloserleo8124]

It’s so reassuring knowing I’m not the only person that’s basically terrified of going on holiday. It gives me such horrible anxiety and makes me so overwhelmed, I had a tendency to have huge meltdowns when on family holiday because of how overwhelmed I would be. It really sucks because I can’t enjoy it as much as my family and friends but I’m glad they get enjoyment out of it.

[@verap8792]

Thank you for sharing such a personal thing to help others. You have such a kind soul and we need more people like you

[@rippled.-.]

Thank you, I hear this all the time "your not alone" but it means something else when it's your role model

[@lizorlep751]

Scott you are truly an amazing person. you not only are incredibly talented but are always honest with your audience and make us feel included. every time you post it makes my day. keep doing what you do.

[@sha_the_sheep]

Just, thank you. You have no idea how much this means at this point of my life. Thank you.

[@rat_girlie]

I like how this channel has become a safe space for everyone to share their experiences and relate to one another and enjoy art! It’s very wholesome :’)

[@Silverstein0]

Your doing amazing!!! Do what you love and keep going! We love you!

[@kindredmisfit8690]

Thanks for posting this Traveling and vacations freak me out too. I don't know how ppl do it

[@_november_june_]

Love how you always leave the Hobbit Hole ✨stylin ✨

[@wandering-bibliophile]

Thanks for posting this video, Scott. As a fellow autistic guy with a lot of sensory issues, I completely relate to the struggle of travel anxiety. I think it's awesome that you're able to go to cool places and paint what you see with the help of coping tools and strategies (like noise-cancelling headphones), but I'm glad you don't overload yourself and do it too often. It's important to take "you time" where you can just relax and unwind in a comfortable environment too. Now that my service dog is retired, I'm relearning how to overcome struggles with different tools as well. It's a process, and it's not easy!

[@strawberryprancer]

Being ADHD, I cannot stress how happy it makes me see people I enjoy watching also are nerodivergent. It just makes me feel more normal. And as someone who travels around the world a lot, I can sometimes get overwhelmed in my surroundings, mostly big cities and Airports. Btw I love your art and it really inspires me to make my own! Ty!

[@funkycow1200]

Thank you so much for this Scott :) I’m also autistic and traveling can also be really hard for me, it makes me happy when I see other people feeling the same. Im actually going to New York for the first time with out my mother, n I’ve been a bit anxious about it. I really needed to hear this, and from someone I look up to so much is so helpful.

[@mogalactic13]

Yes! I've been trying to say this for so long and you said it perfectly!

[@ranmap_]

Thank you.just thank you. I sometimes struggle having enough motivation to reach the end of the week and as a young artist I get very unmotivated. Seeing your art helps me see the light at the end of the tunnel

[@jurggss]

ahh thanks for speaking up about this!!! im also autistic, and traveling is always so exhausting, most of which just being from social interaction and sounds!!! great work for the community as always!

[@vaish_diarys]

This is the reason why i follow him. He's so genuine, understands, and accepts every situation. Life isn't perfect, and so are we

[@sarahmoller7308]

Lots of love and appreciation for you, dear Scott. I'm glad perfectly imperfect artists like you exist, with such a human and reassuring outlook on things. Thank you for always telling the right things at the right time. Thank you for creating beauty on paper and thank you for being open, honest and supportive. ❤

[@ssavaart]

You're too kind. Thank you! ♥

[@wakita50]

As an introverted artist this channel is pure blessing

[@atuvera9021]

Thanks for this ❤ i really been struggling with my mental health over these past weeks, i'm having trueble just goung outside for a walk, it feels like the world is just too much and i strongly suspect i might have autism too. I hope someday i can travel without too much overthinking it. Big hugs to all who are struggling❤

[@carlc3642]

Love that your honest about this, cuz I feel very similar but never talk about it

[@SIGMAVR209]

Love your art

[@michawielgus9827]

Travelling makes me literally sick, nausea, shivers, no apetite, enormous stress Thanks for speaking out for us Scott ❤️

[@F3V3r-dr3am8]

As someone who has Autism and Anxiety I can completely understand how Scott feels. It’s overwhelming seeing so many people and being out and not recognizing much stuff sense your not used to it. We all go through it differently but it’s something to accept in life and get used to

[@washingmachine569]

oh thank goodness, i thought i was the only one… i love seeing places around the world but i hate traveling to go see those places. the whole staying in a place that is not my home and disrupting my normal routine so much makes the whole thing very hard to enjoy… its nice to see that im not alone!!

[@noahtheeditor8650]

I literally thought I was broken before I understood the world isn't made for me, but I can find my place.

[@ssavaart]

♥

[@sristysingh9]

I haven't travelled much in my life, but the little i have hasn't gone without feeling claustrophobic and overwhelmed for not feeling as happy as others seem even when i try my best to be. But hearing this from you, it gives me hope i'll make it just fine through life. That i can be different and try at my own pace. Its always so nice to know we're not alone in dealing with these feelings and that its okay to be different. Thank you so much for this 🌼

[@_rat_5758]

Damn, this described me exactly. Thank you.

[@jeremiahwilleford2177]

This makes me so happy to see. I was recently diagnosed with autism and being so high functioning is hard because people expect so much of you. Its nice to see advocation for those of us who can function but struggle with going outside. Like, yes, I can talk to you about something I'm passionate about but going outside without knowing a few hours ahead of time (at least)? It's so hard. I appreciate you and what you do! Keep being you!

[@aardvarkaftermath]

This is straight facts as I too am often scared to get out there and do things! But imma bought to try plain air painting! I hope it goes well😅 we will see when the materials arrive for me to start.. love your content Scott!❤❤

[@Sunny_here13]

I just have to say this, thank you. I'm an autistic teen artist and have anxiety. It's so cool to see an artist who I look up to so much, going through the same issues I have on a day to day basis. Thank you.

[@triciac.5078]

And this is why I like going back to the same place for years. We did WDW 20+ times in a decade. Now we do Universal Studios Florida. I know what to expect, I know where to get food I like. And there are still new rides to explore.

[@Owl_Owl_Owl]

Hi, I’d just like to express my appreciation towards you, your art, and your channel. It is always so inspiring! I am not really afraid of going outside, but this video and your other ones have taught me more about others, and it’s helping me emphasize with people. Thank you!

[@wallewonks]

thank you for this video Mr Sava :D I’ve always felt like while overseas I’m not as happy as I should be and I see the rest of my family being, and I’ve never missed a place after going either unlike my family. I always thought maybe I’m ungrateful, thank you for this message 🫶🫶

[@melowlw8638]

when visiting museums (aka travelling alone on my student scale) when im with friends im too distracted by wanting to see cool shit to be anxious however when im alone i just speed through what i have to do or just give up and dont go bc i procrastinated leaving by trying to figure out what to bring

[@Moo-2310]

I'm autistic too, and I understand the struggle. Can't attend school at the moment because of the anxiety, unfortunately. Art is my favourite escape, and I love your content! You're such an inspiration ❤

[@sapphicsunflowerkidd]

the why cant i be happy like everyone else is something i frequently ask myself as an autistic, especially at restaurants because i just find them to be stressful. im not currently in a place where i can accommodate my needs without being persecuted and it’s starting to break up my relationship with being in public. seeing you just exist in these spaces gives me a lot of hope for the future though so thank you scott 💛

[@ssavaart]

Sending Big Hugs from the Hobbit Hole. ♥♥♥

[@sapphicsunflowerkidd]

@@ssavaart thank you again that means a lot 🥰💛

[@thetraveler9229]

Have you ever made a professional test? Anxiety can also fit in your profile. Go take a look, cheering for you

[@Krillfrito]

Your such a relatable character, my heart goes out too you ❤❤❤.

[@Jojo_Flake]

kind of the same with me a little bit. I hate crowds and get irritated 😠 and sometimes overwhelmed when there is a lot of people

[@lilac2583]

As someone who has a little sister who has autism.this message is so beautiful my little sister is trying overcome social anxiety I'll keep giving her the courage to go into the world I'll show her this video.

[@ArtistOllie]

CARMEL!!! I go there all the time! In fact, I was there a month ago, standing in the same spot as you, by that tree! You would’ve been standing on my sandcastle!

[@gymnsical]

I’m a teenage artist with ADHD, depression, anxiety, and waiting to hear about autism and OCD. i struggle leaving home even to go to school, but when i am at home, i yearn for a change of pace, but when i occasionally get it, i feel too overwhelmed to do anything but sketch. I’m not the best, but i think im getting pretty good. today (with the help of an art idea generator) drew olaf mixed with Bob Ross 😂 quite the sight

[@b_arf]

your videos are so nice and comforting to me. like a nice warm bowl of soup on a cold day❤️❤️

[@Bevoslav]

When he showed the "this is how I look when I travel" clip, I just wanted to give this man a hug dude, can we get Scott some hugs?

[@just_a_platypus]

I have both tourettes and ADHD (and social anxiety), and I relate to so many of your videos like this. My family only goes places like 1 or 2 times a year bc we're all ND, and it can get stressful really fast. It helps knowing someone like you also struggles with this, and can still be successful in what you love ❤

[@thetraveler9229]

I'm genuinely curious, what's ND?

[@just_a_platypus]

@@thetraveler9229 an abbreviation of neurodivergent!

[@quietgorilla5086]

As someone who is newly diagnosed with high functioning autism in adulthood this was actually really nice to hear, especially hearing that you have similar struggles to myself and can overcome them. Thank you for sharing this.

[@Jarast1]

I love that you’re so open about you being autistic, I think it helps people who are autistic to get out there and draw, ❤ love to you !

[@Avanewton7891]

I love you Scott you are my favourite artist and it feels so good to not be the only one who does not really enjoy travel because of there autism.

[@CypiXmusic]

I just want to say i adore your positive vibe. Keep doing your thing and sharing all the upbeat content

[@spiritedaway0tutu]

As a fellow autistic person with some severe anxiety and physical disabilities thrown in, thank you so much. This means so much more than I could ever express ❤

[@Thepeepeepoopooman116]

As an artist with severe anxiety, I love the way you’re talking about how stressful going out can be. Thanks for making us feel less alone! Love your work and keep doing what you do❤

[@ssavaart]

Absolutely My Pleasure ♥

[@eli_h309]

Whatever your idea of a good vacation is, is a good vacation for you, weather that entails loud busy streets or quiet fields of plants. enjoy yourself out there, you only get one live so have fun with it ❤

[@TrappedInAQuietRoom]

Kind of a personal story but I also have autism and for a long time I was ashamed of it because of all the negative stigma around it But seeing such amazing people being open about their autism makes it a little more bearable Thanks!

[@annadalen7114]

I wish I could express properly how much of an impact your channel and energy has made on my art, mediums, and overall confidence while doing what I love. I’m also autistic and was injured and left disabled and isolated; Art is my only escape, but I also struggle with never feeling ‘good enough’ at it and getting stuck. You have added such a level of new passion and inspiration for me. All I can say is thank you!!!! YOU are art!

[@ssavaart]

This makes me so happy. ♥Thanks so much! ♥

[@JadeRodriguez-kz6km]

As someone with autism , you inspire me to do what i love snd i genuinely appreciate watching your videos everyday, you are my internet grandfather and always make my day in small ways by being the sweet person that you are ! You are loved scott :)

[@thehistoryandbooknerd8979]

Autism Spectrum Disorder (A.S.D.) is fascinating! (I have it too, I was diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome when I was little :3 ) and for me, going out like you did is amazing! I love all the sights and new experiences - but that’s just me! When you’ve met one person with Autism, you’ve met *one* person with Autism! Everyone is so wonderful and unique ❤️ You’re amazing, Mr. Sava ❤️❤️ Thank you so much for inspiring kindness and understanding in us all ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@StrangeQuack]

fellow autistic here, I love to travel, not the travel with transportation with other people, but going to exciting places. tourist spots overwhelm me, so I seek out the hidden, smol treasures and if I want to see a tourist spot, I go either super early or super late, so not many people are there. in Venice, take a gondola and do tourist watching from a safe place or travel "out season". Versailles is beautiful in winter and only a handful of people around! that helps a lot and getting a rental car too, I can just leave if I want or lock myself in the car to calm down

[@Toaster_the_what]

I have severe social anxiety, sensory anxiety depression ADHD and am possibly autistic. Traveling isn’t really a struggle for me until you have to find some place to eat like a restaurant. I’m allergic to peanuts all treenuts eggs and coconuts so asking if I can eat something is always terrifying. I also get sunburnt pretty easily because my skin is so sensitive to sunscreen. Plus the amount of medication I have to bring can be overwhelming so it’s always helpful for me to not travel alone! That’s just my experiences with traveling but it’s normally a lot of fun for me like when you go to a national park it can be just very relaxing!

[@HandsomeRiley]

This helps me soooo much, my family and I are travelling to Fiji in September, and I’ve been worrying about it. I have almost EVERYTHING, (please note this IS an exaggeration, I only have at least 10 mental disabilities, not all of them.) so I tend to get anxious when travelling. Thank you for making this video.

[@informativeparadox5416]

Maybe drawing the places or scenes during traveling is also a type of enjoying 😊☺

[@straberryshinigami15g97]

I love how open you are about being autistic - I love being autistic ❤️

[@idk-jy6cc]

It's good to know I'm not the only one, you go out even though it's hard, I still gotta master that 😅

[@milkbagel819]

Every time I go out in public to a place that’s not familiar to me with people I don’t know I am incredibly shy and stressed and scared, and I never go out alone. I always end up going into “big sibling mode” and asking whoever I’m with if they’re okay or having fun or “please for the love of god you’re gonna knock something over don’t run so fast” mostly bc it makes me feel less stressed, but I never regret going out. I still enjoy some aspects of it, especially the inspirations for new art. I’m glad to see I’m not alone in this experience bc a lot of the internet makes you think otherwise.

[@emettk.3427]

im also autistic and im making an 18 hour plane trip this summer and im terrified! but you give me courage so thank you so much

[@Anney_arts]

I have bad anxiety, a noise sensitivity and with that comes me feeling like nothing i do is good enough. I struggle with talking to people and just being around them. I like to write and draw, but I don't want people to see what I write or draw because, even if they aren't an expert on what I do, I feel like they would point out every single flaw in my art, every single misspelled word or run on scenence in my stories. Even if people tell me how good of a writer I am, or how good of an artist I am, there's always this lingering feeling that they don't like my work. I know I'm good at these things, and I'm even going into honors English next year in high school. So far people have told me its pointless to go into honors English, but I was actually hoping I would, and my teacher even said I was one of the best students in her class. I feel like every time I go out into public to draw or write, there will be one person who will look over my shoulder and say that I'm not doing something right, not drawing realistically, or not writing something that they're interested in. I struggle with posting KZbin videos and posting on Artfol, which is an art app I have that I post art on. I always feel like all the people who see my work will hate it because so and so is better than me, or I'm not coloring my drawings (I'm not good at color theory and have never taken an art class.) I always feel like there's that one person to point out one thing and say I'm doing it wrong, bringing me back to math in the fourth grade when a kid pointed at a problem and said I had answered it wrong. More recently, a kid that I know pointed out that I have one character that I draw a lot, which is true, I have one go to character named Laura. I was fine with this and ignored her until she took my sketchbook, trying to look through it and make fun of my art, and also compared me to my sister who is two years older than me, much better at art, and has higher quality art supplies. I mainly work with an eraser and mechanical pencil. I'm happy with my art style, its just, I always feel like I've been in my sister's shadow. I also feel like my art style has been tightly connected to my writing, with me drawing most of the characters in the stories I write.

[@Me-zz5zy]

Honestly I really get overwhelmed by travel but my parents can’t get over it. I hate traveling because everything is so stressful and i constantly have to worry about losing something or getting lost or being late and it stresses me out so much. My parents think that travel is so amazing and like divorced couples in bad terms that have kids do, they constantly compete with the other parent about “who’s better” which stresses me out even more. Somehow they decided that whoever could take us on more trips was a better parent and my summer, which should be a relaxing break, became worse than the school year. To add the cherry on top, I also got to watch my parents track each other to figure out where they’re taking us, I got to listen to my mom’s self pity “oh I don’t have as much money as your dad so I couldn’t take you on a good trip, that makes me a terrible mom” which she never shuts up about until someone calls her a good mom, I get to listen to my parents complain about how I’m constantly stressed, and my only free time is sleep away camp where I get to be away from all that insanity for a month. It’s nice knowing I’m not the only one who has to deal with the overwhelmingness of travel

[@ssavaart]

I'm sorry. Being a kid sucks sometimes...

[@Birbs_spooks_and_games]

The second i heard the word "autistic" i thought holy heck an artist like me!

[@darklittlepeople]

the Loop earbuds are a life changer/saviour for me! they filter out the most irritating sounds, but i still have situational awareness. if sth blocks the sound out too much, i feel like i start floating out of my body and it throws me into a panic attack. with sounds managed, it's one trigger less. i have to avoid crowds as much as possible, and also avoid looking around when there are too many interesting things in one spot (like souvenir shops). i haven't found sth that helps with smells, i cannot survive anywhere near a candle/soap shop, or anything like that....

[@BldElfPrince]

You always know how to make me cry (in a good way). I don't cry easily at videos either. Thank you I really needed this video! 💛

[@SolidPigeon]

Wow! Thanks for the video... This is very relateble for me. Everything is so overwhelming, the people and every sound i hear.

[@danielleriggens9445]

Airports are one of my favorite places. So many destinations, stories and nice folks to discover 😍 Fear and anxiety are palpable foes. Facing fear is bravery.

[@men1674]

Didnt knew other people felt like this thank you! ❤

[@amandalouise8823]

Yep! Leaving home is a struggle lately! Even the school run seems too much some days! I’m hoping the brighter warmer weather that is coming will help that (spring here) x

[@Wanooknox]

That brown sweater with the big collar fasteners is really cool! I kinda want one... 😅

[@lindwurmchen]

I relate to this so much. My 6 best friends are planing a 4 day trip to London this fall and I really wanted to make it work bc they were so excited and wanted me to come. But I felt so much better after telling them honestly that the trip would be much more stressing than relaxing to me. They made lists about where everybody wanted to go and what we definitely should see, they sent screenshots of possible AirBnBs, they always updated everyone about estimated prices and did the planing so well, which I love (obviously I'm very happy about a structured plan) but the tighter the plan, the faster I get stressed if it doesn't work the way it should. And with all the things that were planned, we would have been around all day, eating out everyday, and, although I love my friends and I know they always keep an I out for when I'm overstimulated and ask how I'm doing, I know there would be no possibility on this trip for me to get into a comfort zone. Not even the place we would be staying at bc...it's not 'our' place. I can only travel with at least one person from my close family, preferably my parents. And also making the timing and money work would be super stressful. On top of that, although I definitely want to visit London some day in my life, it's a different country (I'm from Germany) with different people, different food, different manners, different stores and I can't just decide any day 'No, it's enough, I wanna go home.' I have to stay until we fly back. It's just all a big panic in my mind so I feel way better just telling them I won't come but will gladly listen to everything they have to tell me and look at every photo taken. Luckily I have my first appointment for a diagnosis today and I hope I won't feel like an imposter anymore who isn't actually autistic and just wants attention. (Bc I sometimes think that that's what people think of me.) Edit (for anyone interested, I just thought I would update): So the appointment went not as expected put I'm taking it way better than I would have thought. The psychologist said that there are not the typical clear indications for an ASS diagnosis. I'm highly empathetic, my nonverbal communication seemed consistent to him, stuff like that. Although traids of autism are probably there, traids don't automatically make a disorder. Being told something like that was kind of my biggest fear but I'm surprisingly calm about it. I have identified with the possibility of being autistic so much for some time, that I thought a piece of me would just crumble before my eyes. And maybe there was this little part. But I feel some sort of 'more adult' now, since I now realized how much I minimized myself into those autistic traids. It helped my inner child bc I could just 'blame' all of that feeling different my whole life on one word. (Altough I'm trans my mind somehow didn't think of seeing that as the reason.) I could wiggle myself out of uncomfortable situations by saying or thinking 'Well, I'm autistic so that's just how I be.' And that was something I really didn't want to do, but it creeped up from behind so silently that I didn't notice until now. And being told by this nice Professor today (He was around 70 y/o and I could really see why he has been a psychologist for all his life. He had the kind of tone and words that made me feel very respected and seen as an individual and not like he thinks I'm stupid for not knowing what he knows and 'self diagnosing'. This contributed a lot to the good feeling I had after bc I'm very sensitive about being criticized.) that, well, traids are traids and there are people in this world who are maybe more prone to sadness or who are just more introverted or who live more in their head than other people and that's just who we are. I'm not at all saying that a diagnosis would have kept me, or is keeping other people, from growing, evolving and changing for the better, but these words made me feel more secure in going through all the changes and reflexions I'm going through right now in my early adulthood. I clinged so much onto that diagnosis and my personality 'being made' of autism that I now feel a sort of freedom. It's like the autism was one of those last strings that kept (or are still keeping) me tied to my desperately trying to find himself teen part that gave me a lot of heavy weight on my shoulders through out my transition these last few years (and I mean, it will go on for at least a couple of years). And, again, not saying that people with autism aren't free or can't change. After all, we're all just people trying to manage our unpredictible lifes. I just wanted to share how it made me personally feel bc I'm quite surprised by it. Also I already knew I'm trans, have misophonia, synaesthesia and hypersensitivity so why was I even searching for more? I guess since I pushed the dysphoria so far away from me, am most of the time comfortable with sharing feelings and am lucky to report that I have a very loving and accepting family and friends, I always think 'Well, being trans is a breeze for me. I don't have to face the problems or discriminations other trans people face. I can't complain.' But everybody's story is different, pain is relative and being trans is still a huge deal for mind and body. A good support system can make it way way easier, but not take away everything.

[@Coughcough_77]

LOOK AT THE CUTE KITTY! Also, I feel your pain, sometimes I get a little anxiety when I travel too. 😅 Glad to see that I’m not alone! ❤

[@journallandpages5506]

This is definitely relatable with my introvert situation and my social anxiety at its peek at times, especially when I'm alone...

[@confused-as-ell]

as a neurodivergent teen aspiring artist, your videos always inspire me so much!

[@thedragonoracle7627]

I have a whole bunch of issues like PTSD and spinal damage, so I definitely relate. I like to describe myself as a hardcore hermit. Sometimes creating is a challenge, thank you for being so relatable 💖

[@gracerolling3015]

Man’s slaying in that brown leather jacket

[@peridotgaming5894]

Love your videos scott! They've helped me with the pandemic n stuff, and also taught me a few things about art!

[@ontheline3421]

I'm on some mixture of thingies too and I'm both stressed outside and overconsious and anxcious about load sounds, rumbles and other noises. What really helped me is 1. ALWAYS have headphones and phone that can play music I feel calm with (full volume, usually some epic music from my favourite game or rock-ish things). I have wired headphones in bag in case of wireless going dead. And second thing is - I wear scarf on my head. The ones you see in folk slavic girls. Having my stylish, comfortable and hude hood that looks unusual enough to keep people from staring helps. And is comfty and very warm.

[@willowtree6487]

Thank you for including physical limitations! I have a big trip coming up in 2 days (well, big for me, 3 days away in the city) and before I got sick, it wouldn’t have bothered me, but the stress of packing, getting about, taking in information, and managing medication is a lot. I’m surprised how many traits are similar when you’re chronically ill to those who are neurodivergent. It’s definitely made me more empathetic and understanding of how differently people experience the world. And now I understand how a child feels when they’re overtired too!

[@adelleanimates7797]

This is amazing for someone who also has huge travel anxiety. You are so amazing for putting this out here and it’s inspiring. Love you and your art Scott!

[@glocknessmonster115]

Thanks for the sharing about this stuff, it’s nice seeing a content creator I like be so relatable. (I’m also autistic) also I like photography as my form of art, but I do enjoy watching you do your art it’s calming.

[@maisiecat71]

Thank you Scott! ADHD & ASD here and I agree. Travel is very overwhelming!