TROUBLES - Ren | First Time REACTION !! Can't Believe This Was A TRUE STORY !! Twin Rappers React

[@RENfan1265]

If you're interested, Ren wrote 8 chapters of his life in detail. It's on his channel Renmakesstuff.

[@kellyt5341]

Ren said to the ME/Chronic disease community (blogs/vlogs online) that if he ever crawled out of this sickness and got a platform he would fight for them. He is doing what he promised. One of the Lymes disease non-profit organizations has been thanking Ren and promoting his "Chapters" series and this song.

[@alextomlinson]

A testament to his character

[@mariajoseurizar5093]

The “Nineteen, young teen, Waking up bitten, posters up, manhunt, Ren went missing” really hit, cause that’s the moment his life changed

[@dbrgr68]

and he's 34 now still having treatment let that sink in Cheers gents

[@StrawhatDynasty]

That’s pretty deep

[@Annie_MaycoxMUA]

he didn't have a hole in his heart in the chapters he says he was on his way home one day, he saw an old tv in an alley so he held it up and threw it but it only cracked so the kept throwing it until there were shards of glass. there was a knife size one on the floor so picked it up and shoved it in to his chest and dragged it across his skin. he went home and cleaned himself up coz he didn't want anyone to worry x

[@ThtGuyBradd]

This

[@StrawhatDynasty]

Cool thanks for the insight !

[@NoraMorgan]

He actually cut himself. His story is crazy. As everyone else will mention, the chapters he just released will explain it in more detail. I like how you interpreted everything without knowing all that. I really enjoyed your reaction. ♥️♥️

[@AlecSwiftHikes]

This song is #1 on iTunes right now and charting well on various other lists. We gotta get him to #1 in the US. Let's see him on billboard!

[@cbird02]

Where? Not on itunes top 100 for UK or US.

[@StrawhatDynasty]

Awesome support system right here !

[@Barnaacle]

He mentions in a video that he found an old tv in an alleyway and smashed it and took a shard of glass from it and started carving a hole in his chest with it

[@jessietucker9342]

He sampled Vera Hall - a blues singer from way back that Moby - "Natural Blues" sampled in 2011.

[@StrawhatDynasty]

Great insight !

[@Colleen_OH]

I think Ren is addressing us all with “Everything I’ve been through is yours to hold”. He is giving us HIS story with the goal that it will help anyone who needs to hear it realize that there is always hope. Agnosticism is the view or belief that the existence of God, of the divine or the supernatural is unknown or unknowable.

[@angelluhman9006]

💯💯

[@alisonshoobert6260]

That’s how I took it too x

[@rebeccaburnell9319]

​@@alisonshoobert6260 same.

[@anastaziehall-selwyn4936]

Yeah, he said sth in interview with Knox Hill part 2 like that - he talked about Chapters and about why he wrote it and why it feels like to him, that he have nothing more to himself only, I think that he meant that (in the moment Chapters only started be posted).

[@mariajoseurizar5093]

I am soo glad you made a reaction to this ❤ He released a series of 8 chapters narrating his timeline and experiences with the illness. After the 8 chapters he released this song

[@butterflymama12869]

Isn't it gut wrenching to watch? This man went through so much. He is so inspiring!

[@mariajoseurizar5093]

@@butterflymama12869 no, it’s actually very inspiring, cause he makes a lot of effort of pointing out what good came out is every experience, and the people it brought to his life, really worth watching, each chapter is like 20 min or so

[@rudyb.]

Y’all have to view his Chapters 1-8 of his autobiography. It’s intense. Probably have to watch them on your own time cuz it’s personal.

[@StrawhatDynasty]

Will do! Thanks for the suggestion!

[@elisabethstermo9396]

This started when Ren was 19. He is 34 y.o now and still struggling with the Lyme disease. That's 15 years of struggle. Still have plenty of pain in his legs and his feet's is still hurting. He is still sick and will maybe be sick for the rest of his life. I thought you guys knew that by now. It's a miracle that he is able to make so much music as he does. And have done. But I guess his love for music and making music, has been his relief. And to never give up, because the word "hope", means everything to him. And the beauty of this is that he says "lord I forgive you", instead of "forgive me lord". 😉

[@Annie_MaycoxMUA]

definitely worth you guys watching his chapters he's just released to get who Ren really is, it's amazing how much pain one person has had to go through x

[@Tinkerbell9332]

Yessss guys!❤ I am pretty proud of Ren right now for this one! Not only for making it through a rough week with his chapters, for going through all this in the 1st place, and having the integrity to be the voice for so many! Thank you for reacting to this !!😊

[@Threadbow]

Plus, if this charts It will help so many with Lyme ME FIBROMYALGIA, EDS POTS LONG COVID ETC. all have similar systems like central nervous system causing pots Postural tachycardia syndrome. Neurological symptoms, pain, and extreme exhaustion. Giving ren and others a chance for raising awareness. Lyme and associated illness. Let's pray this gets into the charts 🙏 Hits number one 🙏

[@Tinkerbell9332]

@@Threadbow 🙌 That would be so amazing to see number 1!!🤞

[@sonicfear4472]

After having listened to Ren's Chapter Series Intently and multiple times, this track just encapsulates his story so well and serves as musical accompaniment for The Chapters. Ren's experiences are very familiar to me to say the least, as is often the case with many of his supporters. Ren's success is so deserved and I do truly hope it continues. Ren is the medicine many of us need. So raw, combined with his naturally emotive performance! Indeed Ren....Your Limo has finally arrived!! As for the hole in his chest, Ren was speaking about self-harming and inflicting pain on oneself just to feel something that oneself controls.

[@sigally]

You caught on to the Raw Thoughts line. His recent tracks foreshadowed his future tracks. So im not sure but i think the next release might be the one he did with Webby. Surely not a coincidence anyway. Ren released this track during ME awareness month, millions missing. This is why he changed his avatar to Missing and removed all of his Insta reels. His life story from age 19-26 is wild and fascinating. It was raw, vulnerable and unfiltered. Like nothing Ive ever seen before. He wrote and filmed his own documentary so it would be accurate. There is a lot of inaccuracy out there with his story.

[@jennymoser9750]

Well said. I had to listen a few times to the song to fully appreciate his usual genius. The way he references the chapters in the song. It's brilliant. What else could we expect? 😊

[@christyheffernan1248]

Cut your beard off oh my goodness Julez. Fresh!

[@StrawhatDynasty]

Good to know , thank you !

[@denalinde]

Ren recorded the Freckled Angels album to leave something behind if he died because he felt it was pretty close, also he used it as a fundraiser to get to LA for the transplant. Sony let him have the stuff he’d recorded for them right when all this started 7 years prior & he added a few more songs to finish the album.

[@belgand5555]

Ren never lets us down.. I have nothing but the deepest respect for him.. thank you… 🙏🏻

[@sammyd8860]

The line was "One time I carved a hole in my chest". He really did that. No metaphore.

[@JonNo86]

I'm really trying not to be a hater, but the amount of things they miss because they keep talking and not actually listening to what he says is incredibly painful.

[@bkkidd2112]

Agnostic means you dont know if there is a God. It's neither a belief nor a denial.

[@GhostofTUHHH]

One can reference say Fight Club, although their take was definitely nihilism, the 2 arent that far from each other. We are all human, that Ren knows.

[@TWFydGlu]

Strictly speaking it means you don't think it possible to know if a god exists (as opposed to gnostic), but most people don't use it in that sense.

[@DavidBrant-l4m]

Believe it when you see it

[@mrdarengilbert3907]

Respect 🙏 to you both Amazing track once again from REN he is on some sort of streak right now, he isn’t missing he is on fire….. watch the chapters guys. It’s pretty special, no other artist I’ve ever know has so honestly revealed themselves to the public like that, makes me love this guy so much

[@deaniegarcia5694]

Thanks guys for reacting to this REN gem! He posted a Chapter Series on Ren Makes Stuff…..good input if you want a deeper insight into his story. You guys are doing great! Always look forward to your reactions

[@Lou-xq9br]

#ren #troubles #verahall Ren is our inspirational angel of hope 💗 Ren self harmes just to feel.. thats what he was meaning 🥺

[@joepss7946]

That happend only once..there are people in the shadows who do this daily ..

[@SandraP3796]

That’s what I think it is. He’s forgiving God for the hell he went through and thought God did nothing to help. Ren gives people who are battling with their health Hope. Thanks for the great reaction Twins.

[@NZWozza]

This is how I saw it too.

[@arielbussart1305]

I'm obsessed with this song and was looking forward to your reaction! You didn't disappoint! Mis-heard a couple things, but so did I first listen and others have already let ya in. Overall, AS ALWAYS, great reaction!

[@mariajoseurizar5093]

12:23 no a hole in his heart. At one point, He grabed a piece of steel and cut his chest to feel something else, that’s why he said “I wish this was a metaphor”

[@kellyt5341]

Piece of broken glass shaped like a knife. The glass shards from the old broken TV. Chapter 3 or 4 it is in.

[@mariajoseurizar5093]

@@kellyt5341 oh yeah, you’re right, I forgot it was a piece of glass from the broken TV

[@rebeccaburnell9319]

​@@mariajoseurizar5093 he kinda muddies the waters for the sake of the rhyme scheme here, since he refers to the specific incidence of self harm where he cut his chest but then indicates (in the lyrics) that it was done with an actual knife/steel, so I'm sure you're not the only one! (the lyrics are fire, I don't mean to criticize him for taking artistic liberty with the one specific detail of course!)

[@pirateship74]

It's cool that you brought up Webby. Ren is the feature on his next video/song. Also, Ren is featured on one of Prof's next songs...

[@alexiaspaedt-mcintosh5311]

Ren is such a warrior! If you haven't watched his 8 chapters I totally recommend it! You will get his story in his words! Thanks guys for doing this!💜💜

[@hmvenom]

Thanks guys!! Love your music Im really enjoying it. Agnostic is just unsure!! ✌🏻🤟🏻 When you go back in REN’s catalog you’ll start to understand he was a young hopeful person with a lot of ambition and just really a beautiful soul!! His illness almost broke him and probably would have had nothing to do been for his passion for music!?

[@Monica-sw9ld]

He really did get caught up in underworld, superstitious stuff trying to find a cure, relief, answers, anything. It's in his Chapters. I forget which one.

[@45Lonewolf45]

Ren was practically bedridden for 7 years, he said he carved a hole in his chest to see if I still feel , literally

[@GarnetJ]

Ren has said he’s had a tricky relationship with faith, which if you watch the chapters you can’t blame him. My interpretation of the final lines is that he’s coming to peace with God. He’s praying to make him whole. I pray the treatments continue to go well so he can resume life 🙏🏻 He’s still in constant pain and can only eat 5 or 6 foods. He initially thought he would only be in Canada for treatment for 6 months, it’s almost been 1 1/2 years. But I believe he’s also praying that God will use everything he’s been through to help others, to give his suffering a purpose. “This music I give you. The pain that I’ve lived through. Everything I’ve been through is yours to hold.” There’s an inner peace that comes from surrender. He may not be able to prove that God exists (agnostic), but I think he needs to believe that it all can be used for good. But that’s just my interpretation.

[@Dani.G1975]

Ypu need to watch Ren's 'Eden' to understand his views on religion .. he also explain what he believes at the end. Its the most powerful video I've ever watched.

[@somogyieva]

It was a very good reaction, thank you very much😍

[@jodi.lynn.]

Finally, someone caught the raw thoughts connection.

[@jacks9624]

The pig butchers did not just ping-pong him around, they told him "oh, it's all in your head" and pumped him full of anti-psychotics, which actually messed up his brain chemistry.

[@phillippyles3613]

Enjoy your reactions guys. Love your Brook poster in the background 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿🇬🇧

[@StrawhatDynasty]

Soul king 💀 👑

[@zeroreyortsed3624]

When you were doing the"decka, decka, decka, decka, duh duh. All I could think of was Dr. Evil trying to do the macarena in Austin powers. 🤣

[@robinseitz6911]

When we forgive, we free OURSELVES. Those we forgive also have to forgive THEMSELVES in order to be free.

[@rebeccaburnell9319]

This. ❤

[@PBaka13]

The word agnostic literally means to not know. In the context of religion it usually means someone who is undecided in the existence of god. Atheist means you don't believe in god.

[@TommyEvans-z5l]

Ren states in his video "Eden" that he is "Agnostic who believes".

[@ancltube]

Being agnostic means that you don't think it is possible to know if any god or higher power exist. In Rens case, he is agnostic but believes that something might exist. He describe in one of the chapters that he looked for answers and relief (to his sickness) in several religious groups, but never could accept their actual beliefs because of his agnostic mindset. But he still believes there might be something .. You can also be an agnostic atheist (like I am), meaning you don't think it is possible to know but don't believe any god exist.

[@gintarestaniene1572]

Agnosticism is the view or belief that the existence of God, of the divine or the supernatural is unknown or unknowable. Human reason is incapable of providing sufficient rational grounds to justify either the belief that God exists or the belief that God does not exist.

[@Ellie-Bentley]

Love the way you break down the song and calling it art you ain't wrong ❤

[@sampanther8854]

Thank you for sharing ❤️🙏 hope ✌️

[@sheryljones589]

Great reaction, guys. Gotta be proud of our Boi. Using his amazing talent to give hope to everyone still struggling with those illnesses. Love from a UK Renegade. 🫶🫶🫶

[@Katboo1802]

The chapters then this Just WoW !! X

[@Tessimistic420]

🔥🔥❤️🔥🔥 #Ren

[@MalcolmMXTaylor]

Great reaction guys! Let's get rens message of hope in the UK charts!!! Never give up!

[@redzwestisbest]

he cut himself with something on his chest to see if he still felt that type of pain or was alive. something like that...that was the literally thing he was referring to. He talked about it in his Chapters autobiography

[@rebeccaburnell9319]

"Mystical boom-bap beat" my dudes, I think you nailed it.

[@ketchum.micole]

Ren is a true Renaissance Man. Ren learned how to play the guitar by "slowing down tracks by Jimi Hendrix and John Frusciante." Not only is Ren a songwriter, rapper, singer, producer, director, he also plays a guitar, a bass guitar, and the piano.

[@alextomlinson]

I relate to Ren in so many ways. 8 years of undiagnosed physical deterioration. Mental torture. I’m from the same place as him. Almost the same age. His music speaks to me and what I am going through. From Hi Ren to Sick Boi and Troubles. All of his thoughts are also mine. I hope I get lucky one day because I feel like I don’t have much time left

[@AnneBiebrich]

He carved a hole in his chest.....real

[@Annie_MaycoxMUA]

yaaaaay never clicked a video so quick x

[@Threadbow]

Snap 😂

[@nrsvlda70]

You two should consider listening to his ‘story’ - he finished a segment a day for 8 days prior to this drop, which sort of wraps it all up. Not something you’d probably want to do in a reaction - but listening to all of it will give you an excellent understanding of Ren, and where he’s coming from on many of his songs. And, as others have said, during all of his years of suffering - trying to find out what was wrong with him - trying multiple types of treatments, he was online on blogs and telling others who were following along that he would do what he could to support all of them if/when he came out of the dark hole he, and many others are in (it’s what his story series and this song is.. ‘HOPE’ for others! Oh.. and I think you were wrong on his comment about cold steel. I don’t believe he was talking about suicide with a gun, rather that he had cut himself with a steel blade - just so he could feel something. Great reaction.. and can’t wait for you and others to be able to react to the new album he’s working on.. sounds like it will be ‘music-music’!

[@garychap8384]

Our struggles may be very different, but it is the struggle itself that unites us. Ren is a fricken' angel, man. He's making the music that NEEDS to be made. Music that can save lives. Music that can make changes. And let's face it... if music doesn't make change, then what's the point? Big love from the UK Renegades o/ o/ o/

[@k1ngmack413]

Great reaction as always, much respect and success to you both!

[@Well-in-the-garden]

Agnostic means you don’t believe but you’re open to being convinced lol - sounds like he may have turned a corner xx

[@Jennozen1]

Nice catch on the RAW THOUGHTS bar

[@coleeg69]

The sample is from another song called "Natural Blue" by Molbys.. that song is a guy at his very end of his life, dying so it fits perfectly to what Ren is rapping about in this song.

[@Qalibrated]

He sampled "Trouble So Hard" by Vera Hall, the same song that Moby sampled for "Natural Blues". Ren even did a cover of "Trouble So Hard" with The Big Push in one of their busking performances.

[@Caseyd1966]

​@Qalibrated yes I think it's so important to acknowledge the song is an African American spiritual folk song about slavery. It was first recorded in 1937 by Vera Hall & 2 other men (sorry, don't recall their names)

[@justicedelayed]

Close, but just want to point out that he sampled the original after purchasing rights to it. It's the same original that Moby sampled. He didn't sample the sample. The original is Troubles So Hard, by Vera Hall.

[@NanaM1984]

You guys are great ❤

[@dancerbird76]

Always enjoy your reactions …..as someone who is relatively new to the hip hop genre, you always provide cool snippets of information about other artists and rap techniques which I really appreciate. Thanks guys 💜🔥

[@christyheffernan1248]

Hope you guys are doing OK thank you for reacting to this

[@lawrencebuckley7156]

Fire. Nothing else to be said. You get and take from it as you need or feel. FIRE

[@arielbussart1305]

Agnostic is he isn't sure if he believes or doesn't believe... it could be possible there's a God, but he can't prove it or fully believe in it. The way I hear the last line is "I forgive you, I lived through it, and now I'm gonna give it back to you to dwell on because I refuse to continue dwelling" that way, if there is a God (in his mind) it's God's burden to carry now because he carried it as long as he did. It's hard to explain, but makes sense in my mind lol. #hope

[@justicedelayed]

This. As an agnostic myself (former hard-core Evangelical-turned-hard-atheist, then realized I'm not that so arrogant as to think I could possibly know such a thing for sure), this is EXACTLY how I took it. If you're there, whatever your true nature, you ignored me while I went through the worst of it. I forgive you (for me, not for you because I don't want to carry that bitterness) and now it's your burden to carry.

[@twylahtiab8598]

I believe he changed his mind about God!!! Yes, he feels grateful how everything flipped for the good.

[@AllenB2023]

Not sure if someone mentioned this in the comments or not yet, so thought i would anyway just in case. Ren released a reading of his life everyday for about a week until the drop of this song. Which explains alot of things in this song, and his life. Definitely recommend listening to if you want to learn more about him. Its on his other channel Renmakesstuff

[@dubbayabird6680]

Excellent content guys 👏. Ren is amazing. As an artist and just a person. Keep up the good works guys 💪

[@belinda35]

I thoroughly enjoy your reactions. Keep 'em coming! ❤

[@elisabethstermo9396]

Agnostic means "a person who believes that nothing is known or can be known of the existence or nature of God."

[@cleanwithjaimie7586]

“Carved a hole in my chest” not that he had a hole, he literally cut his chest 😢 great reaction guys ❤

[@thegothfolk]

❤❤❤

[@christinehutchinson767]

Thank you guys good reaction ❤️🕊️🇬🇧

[@sylv772]

You two never disappoint. Other people have explained parts of the song to you, so you don't need that from me. Perhaps the only thing I'd add is the sample is Vera Hall, "Troubles So Hard". (It's worth looking up her story).

[@louise11854]

hello dears!! i fell in love with ren again. thanks guys, you rock!! kathleen 🙃

[@mldkenny]

Great to see you on this one so quickly. Another Ren classic!

[@davidhabgood]

Nice reaction guys

[@agnespaterson6901]

Loved your reaction. Great that you were able to get what was wrong.

[@rveino2978]

🔥🔥🔥

[@ginamakescrochet]

Thank you, ❤❤❤

[@JoeYo77]

Share both y’all messages! Represent nyc

[@JoeYo77]

Awesome review guys! Moby in the background with the sad Vera mix. Moby killed that track , sad video too you guys should check it out on your own. Ren told his mom after year one Sorry to his mom but if there was no cure by year 2 I won’t be around anymore. He was serious then his Best friend Joe killed himself(amazing track for Joe) he saw impact it had on joes mom and wouldn’t put his mom through that so he’d have to wait for his illness to kill him. But he knew it would relatively soon. But it didn’t. 10 yrs. Strong dude. Needed that Angel on his shoulder for sure. He’s still struggling. But getting there. He is spiritual he’s said but not necessarily a God. He don’t really go deep into it.

[@DogDocKat]

This is a powerful song and is Ren keeping his promise to the chronic illness community to use his platform to raise awareness. The Chapters on RenMakesStuff are well worth watching (but not reacting to) 💜💜

[@AviarSavijon]

Great reaction thanks, as a person with chronic depressive disorder and spinal damage. My words to say is: "i, only have, one castle, it's my soul. Damages, in separate rooms, rebuilt by strength, faith and glories, that i have found" Aviar Savijon 2024.

[@AlecSwiftHikes]

He cut a hole in his chest with a piece of glass from a TV he had smashed. On purpose.

[@JeffSparrow87]

To really heal from something and come to terms, you mustn't hold on to past grudges and pain. For this is weighing you down. I can imagine that in the prime of his life, feeling so terribly ill, confused, and angry about the extremes and duration. You can start to wonder why would God put me through this, why so long, what is the lesson I should learn from this. And maybe even blame God for it all. Either way, if he is religious or not. If he held a grudge or not. In a way he has accepted it. He forgives, his music is his triumph. And what he is been through is not weighing him down anymore. Cause he gives it to God, for him to hold.

[@RobertAustin-l4p]

I look forward to all your reactions to Ren, I am not presumptuous to try and analyze what or how Ren sees God ! But I just think and feel he falls into the same belief as many, That he has great Love for God but when it comes to Religion well that goes to environment and upbringing !! His statement of the ( there is relief from the teeth of the kiss of cold steel ) that kind of broke me . I feel it was something he did to himself because all the pain he was enduring had not physical signs or reason why it hurt so bad. But when he did something physical there was a reason why it hurt, it had a physical evidence from a wound !! Thanks guys !!

[@allenhay1073]

Check out the chapter series he put out it will help you learn more about REN's story great reaction

[@Sheilla357]

Y'all missed the text at the beginning and end of the video. There are subtitles when he's just walking around. The message is HOPE.

[@bethellen1962]

He said, “one time I carved a hole in my chest,” meaning he cut himself. He didn't have a hole in his heart, he had Lyme disease. The whole bar “ One time I carved a hole in my chest, just to feel I wish that was a metaphor, the struggle was real When you're living in a holocaust you buckle and kneel There's relief in the teeth of the kiss of cold steel.”

[@poisonidea]

❤

[@ShondaLouisianaMama]

I grew up most of my life in church and was very religious. Now I am agnostic so I can explain to you what that means. It means that we can neither confirm nor deny that God exists. We have no proof either way. That doesn’t mean that we don’t want a god to exist. We just don’t know if there is one. There are versions of people that are agnostic. Some are agnostic atheist that don’t know if God is real, but they don’t think that he is. There are agnostic theists that don’t know if God exists, but they think they’re probably is a God. So there are various levels and belief systems within the agnostic belief. There are also more belief systems other than the two that I explained.

[@Doobbie420]

I suggest watching his chapters. Tells his story from his mouth. 8 chapters each about 15 minutes a song to end each one.

[@margaretpickholtz8772]

Hole in heart might refer to staying away from his GF who he says he did not want her to see him so sick

[@dlm4ever975]

To be agnostic is to be unsure it is to be open to the idea of God or many other religions. But not tie yourself to it due to uncertainty I guess. I classed myself as agnostic for a long time until the past 2yrs or so now I have a stronger faith. It doesn't mean I don't still question . After all I'm human. But my faith has kept me going. Im so glad you reacted to this guys. This song is great and really does give people hope that things get better. Even when it seems you are stuck like so many people suffering with these debilitating conditions. Love the react guys you rock ✌️🖤

[@mandynoske5809]

Agnostic: a person who holds the view that any ultimate reality (such as God) is unknown a probably unknowable. 😊

[@butterflymama12869]

Hey, you guys should watch the entire Chapter 1 -8 in one video. Maybe go Live and do it because it deserves to be watched all together. It is gut wrenching but sure does explain his life to a "T". Post the live though for your subs that miss it. Edit: about the hole in the heart line: he used to cut himself. He would cut at his chest. ***Agnostic: a person who believes that nothing is known or can be known of the existence or nature of God or of anything beyond material phenomena; a person who claims neither faith nor disbelief in God.

[@SandraP3796]

That would be great

[@joepss7946]

I feel those should be watched in private.. not everything is entertainment.

[@darlinesly9364]

He still has autoimmune disease and constantly gets treatment

[@Doobbie420]

Ren just collabed with Chris Webby I beleive

[@redzwestisbest]

Yours to hold...means everything he did, said, etc, is now in the judgement of god..