TRYING TO GET READY BUT CRYING INSTEAD

This was going to be a get ready with me but it ended up being a cry with me instead because my kitty Mad Eye is currently not doing well and is at the end of his life with Kidney failure and I am struggling with it so .. yes. Here you go
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[@RawBeautyKristi]

I filmed this a few days ago and since filming this Maddie has gone even more downhill.. I am typing this through a sea of tears hardly unable to breathe because I’m so broken over it.. I took him to the doctor today and got him fluids and an enema for his constipation and he looks... horrible after coming home. I feel like it might have to be this week sometime... he’s hardly eating now and hiding in the bathroom constantly. I am broken.. crushed.. devastated and completely heartbroken. I am not ready for this 😣💔😭

[@alexisdeleo7388]

sending love and hugs ❤️

[@sylliegirl12]

Oh Kristi, Im so so sorry 😭💔 losing my dearest dog Amigo still hurts me on some days. I’ll be thinking about you and your family

[@fenflora]

Hugs! 💛💛💛

[@amymckay23]

I have two little babies (kitty cats) and I could not imagine having to go through this with them. I’m sending you and Maddie all the love. You’ve given him an absolutely incredible life and he is so thankful. ❤️

[@katiejacobs7687]

Oh I’m so sorry 😩 momma knows best though. If it stops the misery. But this is not easy. My love is with you and your family! You made his life so good ❤️

[@jodyrichardson1087]

Maddie was waiting for your baby to take over the love he has for you. Now that you've got him, Maddie probably feels like you're in good hands

[@Julianaao2601]

This is so cute 😖😖😖😖😖

[@dawnmccrum4622]

Wow! I made it through the video with not 1 tear.....I read your comment and the flood gates opened 😭 Absolutely agree with you 🧡

[@mckenzierichardyt]

Yes. He knew her heart would have someone else to love. I believe this!

[@KateLB1027]

Omgosh I just cried reading this. How beautiful. 🥰🥲

[@ririimari]

Okay. Nowwwww I cried

[@NancyCernic]

A pet is never "just a cat," they're such huge parts of our hearts. Honestly thank you for sharing this, pet guilt is so real and hearing someone else talk about it makes those of us who've gone through it feel so much less alone. Sending love to you and your boy. ❤

[@katenelsen7073]

Oh, sweet girl. Mad Eye hung around long enough to meet the “new” baby to help you through this tough time. He loves you and understands that you have a human son now. He had so many wonderful years being cherished and loved, which is more than he would have had. He is incredibly blessed. 💗

[@taylorpalmer894]

Although this message wasn’t intended for me your words really touched me. Thank you. I lost my little dog of 12 years after I had my second baby and it was so hard. He saw me through one of the roughest years of my life and your message really helped remind me of that. 💕

[@KrayKray_KB]

He may have had a life of hardship health wise, but he hit the absolute jackpot by finding you. I hope that when the time comes that you find peace in the happy memories you shared with him. Losing a furry family member is never easy, but you are such an angel for being able to provide him with at least 10 long years of a happy kitty life. ❤

[@rachelmaksy]

Sending you so many hugs beauty ❤❤❤ I know you were doubting if you should even upload it but it felt like sitting down with a friend (like all of your videos) and made me give my pup BIG SNUGS.

[@sghettinona]

Thank You for talking realistically about the guilt that comes with having an Ill pet, or having to prioritize your child over your pet. So many people say things like, "It's just a cat." when- to me: a cat is a family member.❤️ Strength and Health to your kitty.

[@michellekelly2937]

Anyone who says, "It's just a cat" has no heart. They are like a family member. My cat died years ago, and I still think about her and miss her so much.

[@sghettinona]

@@michellekelly2937 ❤️ sorry for your loss.

[@spillinda]

it’s horrible when people say that, why do they make loving another creature strictly for humans? animals are beings with their own personalities, feelings and lives. even if they don’t have or want a pet, saying that to someone who has another creature they love is just heartless. i’m sorry to any of us out there who’ve had to hear that from someone 😞

[@BigEyedAsian_]

Heard that girl!!! Ugh my ex is an ex for a reason for that sentence exactly! My kitties will always come before anyone, even myself

[@deendrew36]

I feel like anyone who says “it’s just a cat/dog/etc”, has never had a pet.

[@kristenbostick5158]

You say he’s had a life of hardship, but in his mind you’ve given that little man the best life ever. ❤️

[@melissst-p5363]

I was right there with you crying over the whole part where you talk about Maddie, I've just had to make that same decision with my kitty from the last 17 years and I really can empathize, they are NOT just a pet! Also it is so true that you never know what it will look like or what to look for, but when you know it's time, you know. Sending love, Maddie is so lucky to have such a loving mom!

[@dsaylor36]

💕

[@karenrosales1080]

For anyone who doesn’t follow her Instagram, Mad E. Has crossed the rainbow bridge. Let’s give Kristi the love, space, and respect she deserves ❤️

[@boogiebear3095]

Aw 😭 rest well furry angel

[@dpech66]

Thank you for the update!

[@poppyseeds999]

❤

[@VanesaMontoya081212]

Oh no... So sad. Sending LOVE to Kristi

[@terribright1773]

So sorry to read about the cat's passing. I know how it feels.

[@makeurownsammich2597]

2:37 “If bangs were styled and they’re not Lord Farquaad” 😂🤣 The stuff that just pops outta your mouth always cracks me up. Love you Kristi….even if you aren’t my real Dad! Edit: I made the original comment before you started talking about Mad E, and I have to say I felt your pain. I’m not able to have kids, so my pets are my kids, and my Dog Skippy was recently diagnosed with kidney disease and it sucks so bad. I hope you have more time with Mad E and when that time comes, be at peace knowing you did all you could for him! 💕🐾

[@samanthamarie2927]

This made me SOB. One thing I’ve always known about you, you’re a fucking phenomenal pet mom. It’s actually the reason I subscribed to you, LONG before any baby, because you were the cutest cat mama. I put my kitty down almost exactly a year ago because renal failure. You’ll know when it’s his time so don’t let anyone tell you different. You’re his mama, you know best. Our minds always seem to go straight to guilt, but try and remember you gave him not only thee best life, but a life PERIOD. Also, just be lucky and spend as much time with him as you can, I only had a week before my baby, love of my life (of 18 years!) went into failure. Her numbers were literally off the charts and she was no longer able to use her back legs. Def seems like he still has time left, snuggle him to literal death. I STILL cry about my baby, so never apologize ❣️💕 I’m so happy you have an amazing husband, baby, and other pets to help you through this! Try to stay positive and think of all the good, I promise it helps 😙

[@jemaboutface2430]

After years in animal rescue and being a Vet Tech in a 24hr Animal Hospital, I know exactly where you’re coming from. Saying goodbye is the hardest thing to do, so I hope you know when Maddie tells you it’s his time to go, I’ll be holding you up & sending love your way. I know he’s had a myriad of health issues, but I can’t imagine having you as a Cat Mom has been a hardship. You both are so blessed to have found each other at the exact time you needed each other the most. That’s such a beautiful thing. 😻😽❤️

[@neworleans1979]

Thank you for all the rescue work!!! Our precious animals need more people like you in this world! While it’s very hard and heartbreaking at times, for me, it’s about giving that special soul another chance at a good life like they deserved from the beginning. No animal should be brought into this world having anything less than LOVE AND A GREAT HOME! I’m working on getting a horse rescues right now as I type this-I will never understand why people have animals yet abuse/neglect them. There is no excuse and I will NOT stand by doing nothing about it. I have stolen animals in dire situations and don’t regret it one bit!!!! My precious momma passed away 7 months ago-she taught me love and compassion to every being. I will continue her legacy helping animals! Love from my home to yours! Katie

[@melaniemackey]

This video is so beautiful - it’s the humor in life that balances out the hard stuff. There’s no light without darkness. Thank you for being you. I wish this wasn’t so hard for you. Maddie is so lucky

[@annierice4740]

Thank you for your vulnerability in sharing this despite it being so, so painful. My Golden Retriever is 3 years old with stage 4 renal dysplasia, diagnosed at just 5 months old. My first pet of my own and I was immediately faced with the reality that I won’t have him for as long as I always thought I would, and that it’d be so hard along the way. It’s the most painful thought that is always in the back of my head and a constant pit in my stomach. Having a chronically ill pet is a different kind of pain so I appreciate hearing others validate my feelings so much. Hugs to Maddie 🐾

[@AtomicErika]

Just know there are people, even rando strangers on the internet, that understand how you feel about your cat. And despite his health issues, he is loved (pretty damn hard) and that's all any of us want. You delivered girl, good on you!!!

[@gracesblythe]

"It's like having a sick family member." You DO have a sick family member!! I'm so sorry you're going through this, but know that Mad Eye knows he's loved and you've given him a beautiful, love-filled, and cared-for life - and you've given him a LIFE. That doesn't make it easier, but we're all supporting you through this sucky situation.

[@igf_d4189]

It's obvious that this situation is super stressful and hard on you .. I'm so sorry Kristi, im sure Mad Eye is forever grateful for the life you have given him, and the resources and time you've given in order for him to live the best life he could in his unfortunate situation. You should feel proud of that, you have a heart of gold. I hope you and Mad Eye spend the time you can together in the time to come - and may he always be with you regardless. I wish you the best, and I pray for little Mad Eye.

[@lidigiroux5209]

My love. I went through this with my kitty Lola for years. She had thyroid problems and was heavily medicated for the last few, but we gave her the most loving home and continued to do so until she died last year at 22 years old. It really hit home when you talked about Maddie losing so much weight, Lola went from 15 lbs to 6 within a year and stayed that way for the last couple of years of her life. Sending you all of the hugs

[@carebear702]

Oh Kristi, I am so sorry. I know how much Maddie means to you. It is sooo hard when a furry friend isn’t feeling well and it is their time. It’s devastating. Sending so much love and prayers to you.

[@chelseadaniels1397]

I’m in bed sobbing…my baby passed this morning, and hearing you talk about your guilt is 100% true. I can’t stop feeling like I could’ve done more, I could’ve tried this or that…but in the end they know they’re loved. I am so so sorry for your pain, please know you are not alone 💔

[@HappyExtheist]

Sending love and hugs

[@leannamartin6064]

I’m so sorry! Lost 4 pets in the last year alone. The amount of guilt and sadness is so hard to overcome. Sending you so much love and prayers 💓💓

[@embellishmarin4647]

My kitty was last week. It’s shattering. Sending you so much love.

[@earthangelbaby_]

I just lost my cat after having her for 19 years, I can’t watch this video yet, based on the comments. I’m so sorry Kristi. Sending you love.

[@leannamartin6064]

I’m so sorry! Just lost my dog of 16 years! 💓💓💓

[@denisestrohl9896]

You gave him the best life he could've ever dreamed up after the start he unfortunately had, please don't feel guilty, he knows he's loved, he knows you did everything you can and you should feel pretty great about that. I know it'll be hard AF when his day comes and I'm sorry you'll hurt but please, no guilt, you gave him an awesome life

[@deendrew36]

I love this sentiment. ❤️

[@ragdollshelle]

I'm a lifelong cat mom and vet receptionist. This process is SO hard. Yet SO worth it. It wouldn't be this hard if it wasn't for how loved they are, and your kitties are truly loved.

[@hchatt8]

Kristi, I’m so sorry. Losing a furry friend/family member is one of the hardest things to experience in life. I had to do this to my kitty Jack after 18 years together - I still can’t think of that day without crying. Your kitty knows he is loved and has been loved his whole life; you’re a great cat mama. 💜

[@sparkybish]

That sounds like a lot of medical issues for one little cat’s life, but I take comfort in knowing your home was the best place he could have landed, and your love is perfect for him.

[@tracie9557]

I’m so sorry Kristi! My prayers are with you. We lost our kitty after 11 years back in September and it’s still a daily struggle.

[@wine_mom_810]

I constantly pre-mourn my kitties and make myself sob, the feeling is truly crushing. Give Mad Eye a big hug and smooch from all of us ♥️

[@carr0760]

Oh god....I thought it was just me!! Sometimes I think about the eventual day when they will die, and I just fall apart. They aren't even old or sick. LoL

[@wine_mom_810]

@@carr0760 My name is Karina too!!! For real though, mine are all perfectly healthy and I still just look at them and sob because I wish they were immortal

[@carr0760]

@@wine_mom_810 oh, weird! I very rarely come across another Karina...especially not with the same spelling. Sometimes I start sobbing just from a good cuddle because I think about how much I love them. Haha I'm pathetic and I'm okay with it.

[@lindseyritter7315]

I appreciate your realness and my eyes are full of tears because I have been there and had to make that hard decision. It ripped my heart out! I understand your feelings and totally identify with "When I love I love hard." Prayers for you girl ♥️

[@nicoleo2068]

Omg I’m bawling my eyes out with you. Please never apologize for being sad and letting your emotions out. Dealing with ur pets being sick has to be one of the hardest things to go thru. I wish I could give u a hug because I’ve been there. You’re an absolute angel.

[@Neonlobster]

This really struck a chord with me this week. On Wednesday I took my 12 year old Chessie, who has started stumbling on steps and stopped eating almost entirely, to the vet and found out he's got a cancerous mass on his neck and it's pushing on his windpipe and esophagus. I think it'll be the summer for my guy at the latest because it'll be too hard for him and he's already panting all the time. It's so sad to hear about your little guy being unwell. They're family in the end.

[@MafaldaMota96]

when you said "she just went from doing okay to not doing okay"... that got me. i lost my 12 yo puppy around a month ago and it went just like that. one day he was doing great, the next he wasn't. i don't know how we're supposed to just go about our days when such a big chunk of us disappears, but we do... sending you all my love and some tears to cry too, if you want, i apparently have a whole ocean of them

[@ivisg5509]

He is NOT “just a cat”! U enjoy the time you have left together! Keeping loving him! On a happier note, you had me laughing my ass off trying those bangs 😆

[@sallysal6018]

Ugh you’re the best for being so real Kristi. Like everyone has said, a pet is NEVER just a pet. They ARE family. I still think about my pets I’ve lost 10 years ago and even 15 years ago . We decided to get another dog a year ago and she just turned one but we always cry thinking that she won’t be here with us one day. Why do we think about these things? 🥺

[@gal2463]

Thank you so much for sharing. I can't express how much you sharing this means. I have a sick dog right now who is currently in the hospital with heart and kidney failure. She is 11 and means so much to me. She has been there for me always but especially since just losing my best boy ever 6 months ago. He was 14. Sending hugs and prayers to you.

[@freespirit951]

Veterinary nurse here 👋🏻 I feel the exact same way, about literally every patient lol two Fridays ago was a super rough day, two of my cases never recovered and needed to be euthanized while still anesthesized, and it never even gets easier. You have a big heat and I appreciate you (so does Maddie) ♥️

[@Akamos11]

❤️❤️

[@kimbervines5311]

As a vet assistant and a sick pet mom, you will know when you know. You are given him the best life you can.

[@kellyr.3889]

Letting go of your loved ones is so hard, especially when you know your time with them is short. Your heart breaks as you watch them suffer yet you want to honor the life they still have. Its hard to stay present at times because its so difficult to accept what you know is coming. Sending you lots of love & strength. Grateful for you sharing, it helps me on my journey every time. Your heart and your authenticty inspire me. I lost several loved ones including my dog child and feather baby over the recent past in succesion.. I know, eventually my heart will heal.

[@LstTrnHmex3]

My heart goes out to you and your boy. You are the pet owner vet nurses like myself dream of having. You put your all into giving the best for your fur babies. The unconditional love you have for your animals is heart warming. My wish for you is the time you have left with him is full of happy memories. 💕

[@jlee9266]

Seconds into the vid I feel the OG Kristi here, the effortlessly hilarious girl I love and have loved since the dawn of time! Thank you for making my day brighter by just being YOU!

[@johnna5989]

The bangs honestly don’t look that bad. Maybe just thin them with the sheers a little but they truly don’t look that bad, just different. Lots of love - pets are our family. The pain is real ♥️

[@clairebud]

I'm so sorry, Kristi. I've had pets my entire life, and losing them really is like losing a family member. Just try to remember that you have been the most constant source of love and safety for Maddie that he's ever had, and no matter how much you feel like you could or should have done more, from where he's sitting you rescued him from the brink of death and have been there for him ever since. You've given him the best life you could and have gone above and beyond what most people would do. It's clear that you love him immensely, and animals...they just know. They know who their people are, and they know when someone loves them. ❤

[@brookespencer6212]

As a former technician it was hard for me, especially when it was someone known in the clinic. They may come in frequently trying to save their pet and it was hard for us that worked there. It's hard for anyone. Now there are people that really only come in once a year so you don't instantly remember. I wish her the best with her kitty. 💗

[@molliecurrier2665]

I was in tears by the end of this video. I went through this a few years ago with my sweet girl. It really is the worst having to make that decision. I was a mess and sobbing in the Vet’s office but as hard as it was for me, I knew I needed to be there for her. I’m so sorry Kristi sending you so much love ❤️❤️❤️

[@missmary7]

Talking about the tough, sad, heartbreaking stuff helps those others going through it. Animals are my 1st love. Losing the ones closest to you is extremely difficult. Thank you for sharing.

[@kamilaferens682]

Sending all the love and support from one pet-mom to another pet-mom

[@Keriberryxo]

Ugh you got me with your tears, now we are both crying. Big hugs Kristi. You’ve been an amazing cat mama to him and have given him everything you can ❤️❤️

[@catbrainz3151]

I am so sorry you're going through this, Kristi. March 12th marks one year since my 21 year old cat passed, and I had him for my entire life. No matter how much time we have with our pets, it never feels like enough. I promise you have, and will continue to do whatever you need to do for Mad Eye. I've been here since 2018, and I've heard history from you a few times, and its one that has stuck with me. So when he must go, know that you gave that boy not only a loving, wonderful life, but one where many people will fell his loss. We also felt the loss of Snicker's. I remember when you shared her story as well, and not long after my cat fell the same way. And what can be such a lonely feeling, I knew at least you knew what I was going through. You knew that sudden change. And you gave me the power to love more cats later on, as you loved Snickers, Mad Eye, and every cat you have, do, and will welcome into your life. He could have died alone, cold, and a baby as you instead, and now when he goes, he will go knowing he was loved by you and your family, but also by all of us who have followed yours and his story together.

[@amyoh_]

I’m so, so sorry about Maddie, Kristi. As you described him and your bond with him I couldn’t help the tears streaming down my face. Cats are so incredibly stoic and he has had the best possible life with you. I lost my feline baby in 2018 and it still stings. The grief comes and goes in waves. My heart goes out to you ❤️

[@StephMiddleton]

Big hugs. Our 4 kitties have helped us so much after we became empty nesters. They’re so much love. Big hugs!!

[@kdk05d]

This is me with every single cat I’ve ever had and I feel this so deeply in my soul. I cried with you. I’m so sorry about your baby. You gave him the best life he could have had. He loves you and he knows you love him. You’re a good cat mom, Kristi. ❤️

[@triciag7040]

I'm a bang girl but I'm gonna say it's a hard no, lol...I'm totally digging your vibe sans bangs! But I did LOL at the bang saga. As for your kitty, sending 💕. Been there & the loss is deep. Prayers 🙏

[@emhorse]

I was absolutely sobbing as I am currently going through a similar situation with my sweetest animal- but the "1950's rockband" literally took me from a blubbering idiot to spitting out my water. Thank you, Kristi. 💞

[@ericawells4319]

Thank you for your vulnerable post. I have a 14 y/o cat with mild cerebral hyperplasia and she’s just starting to become blind. She’s already so confused and now with her sight going, she cries for my help. I also just got an 8 week old puppy prior to her going blind and my attention has now needed to be spread and I feel like I’m neglecting her. I NEEDED this video to realize I’m not alone and as much as she gets annoying, I need to give her some extra TLC. Thank you, Kristi and Maddie ❤️❤️

[@rachelleromero6620]

Kristi I love you. I think your personality, humor and realness is so amazing. It’s like hanging out with a friend. I’m sorry for your kitty. I hope you can feel comfort.

[@foxymama2003]

As a fur mama, I get it. So sorry you have to go though this! Our fur babies are special and we love them deeply!! It’s ok to grieve with us and ok to be a Beatle with us! We love you through it all! ❤️

[@britbit101]

I had to pause halfway through to go love on my 2 cats while crying, I'm so sorry Kristi, it's absolutely devastating to watch our fur babies suffer 😢 and for how long you didn't think you would have anything but fur babies, I can't even imagine the absolute bond you and your fur baby have. I'm sending you so much love 💜

[@jessangel9756]

Specail needs mama here daughter is wheelchair bound non verbal...a shower is a score for me. Usally i look a mess went from someone who showered and did make up daily to not...BUT SHES MY WORLD and my son and I wouldnt trade back for anything 💜👩‍👧‍👦 Thank you for always being real love ya girl...losing a furbaby is heart breaking or one with health issues before i got my apartment my ex fiance had my kitty and she past right before i got my place with my sons cat i felt horrible but my daughters cat is with us now but my old man i had from time i was 18 to my 30s lost him 3yrs ago he was getting so skinny i knew when it was time took himon the porch swing withme his fav spot he passed on my lap w me and my ex fiance by his side he was our first baby.. sending hugs love

[@kendallfullenkamp860]

Hey! My girl is one and she will most likely be in a wheelchair. Do you mind me asking if your daughter has spina bifida? I hope this isn’t disrespectful in anyway.

[@jessangel9756]

@@kendallfullenkamp860 my daughter has rett syndrome....they are born perfectly fine look completely quote quote normal and then between 12 to 18 months they start to lose everything she never walked only stood holding onto the couch she did play with toys and such but when she started rubbing her hands that stopped mostly.. most lose the ability to walk or never walk she said a lot more words but then they lose the ability to talk I am blessed because she does still say mama and they lose the ability to properly use their hand some cases some of them do not lose the ability to walk the way they describe it is like cerebral palsy autism epilepsy and severe anxiety disorder rolled into one little girl... I knew that it was more the just autism when the hand rubbing started which was her first diagnosis....she was diagnosed at one-and-a-half with Rett syndrome I never heard of it before but here it is nothing from Mom or Dad you can have a daughter with Rett syndrome and then have another daughter doesn't have Rett syndrome is spontaneous it hits at random!!! 72 girls a day or being diagnosed it mainly only affects females.. there is no cure!!! but the cause is a mutation on the mecp2 gene unknown how or why..it can happen to any mother carrying a female child any age all races.. I think the hardest part of it first part being there is nothing wrong with their brain she knows she's supposed to walk and talk she fully can communicate with her eyes I actually got a device called the tobii dynavox and she is able to talk with me using eye gaze the other part is they say a lot of them don't live past their teens..but I have seen many who have it's okay to ask to be honest with you I had no idea and never heard of what my daughter has there's actually three other girls semi-local in my area but I have met hundreds of moms all over the world through support groups on Facebook they are a big help if you're looking for someone to talk to with what your daughter has.. stay strong sending lots of hugs

[@heatherharvey9154]

I appreciate your honesty and vulnerability. It's incredibly hard to go through something like this, but then to also post it for many people to see is very courageous. I'm so sorry for your loss of your sweet baby Maddie but so happy he found his way to you and got to experience all of your love for as long as he did. Your kindness and generosity are so necessary in this world.

[@hayleyr9060]

I’m so sorry about Mad eye Kristi. This is the heart breaking pay off of sharing our lives with our animals, but he has had the best life with you.

[@raysym8607]

Love you so so much 💛 A part of me didn’t want to get a cat after losing my parents because I didn’t even want to love anything else because I didn’t want to lose anything else. But the cliche is true it really is better to love and lose than never love at all! Thinking of you Kristi, the bangs were super cutie but yes maybe a better match ✨

[@marykaltreider3771]

Sending love, Kristi. The hardest part of having a pet is knowing they'll leave you, but gosh they're so worth it.

[@sarahyrz7135]

I haven’t laughed at anything so hard in a longggg time as I have at the bang content so thank you 😂 So sorry about your kitty! We know how deep of a connection you have with him. Sending you lots of love 💕

[@taylorinvancouver2017]

Having pets is one of the most rewarding joyful experiences and when it comes to loosing them it is absolutely the hardest indescribable pain one will feel! I AM SO SORRY KRISTI💖

[@Leomoon.makeup]

Oh, Kristy I hope you heal easily. He was a lucky boy to have you in his life, even though it was full of obstacles. Its clear that you love him with your whole heart. It's not just a cat. That is your baby. Your companion. Your family member. Hugs from Montana. Its never easy to say goodbye. Ily Kristy. You have no idea how much your videos have inspired me and brought me my own comfort. I wish I could hug you!!

[@therachyeahh]

RawBeautyRingo, In re: the bangage, maybe it’s just me, but you’re really pulling off the whole PNW, balayage into with the lighter pieces flowing from the darker fringe. In re: MadEye, the bestest kitty boi, may the upcoming weeks and months be peaceful. Thank you for the way you love all the critters! ❤️

[@ash965]

That is so incredibly painful :( your family is in my prayers. The realness you share is why people LOVE you. ... and Target jammies are the BEST.

[@Tabbykattt]

I'm so sorry Kristi, our pets are family and losing them (or knowing it's coming) is so hard. I'm sending lots of love your way. And I just want to note your mocking the bangs was killing me 🤣

[@ellaova]

Oh no. Did she lose a pet? Can't watch cause it makes me too sad. I'm so sorry Kristina. All we can do is give our animals the best quality of life so we have zero regrets when we lose them. Well always miss them but we don't ever want to live with guilt or regret so everyone make sure to LOVE, STIMULATE, PROVIDE JOY TO YOUR ANIMALS!!!

[@Tabbykattt]

@@ellaova she has in the past. In this video she talks about her Cat Mad Eye (Maddy) and how he's not doing so well lately. She said she knows his time to pass is coming very soon.

[@82silvertiger]

Thank you for being you. That kitten is so lucky to have found a human with a heart as big and loving as yours. I also adopted an injured kitty. My Mo was shot in the leg and no one ever fixed it. So when he was taken to the shelter for the 3rd time they amputated it. I got him at 5 years and he's my baby, my life so I understand. I'm crying with and for you. I can't fathom the day I lose my Mo. My world will shatter, so my heart hurts for you. But thank you again for giving that kitty a loving home that took such good care of him. You are a beautiful human being. Love to you. So much love.

[@sassysandra245]

I’m so sorry @Rawbeautykristi my deepest condolences 💐, I know how hard losing a best friend kitty is, just heart broken ♥️. I’ve always enjoyed mad eyes story and the miracle he has been to you & you have been to him!! All my love hun 😢

[@celloafterdark4173]

I've been carrying around a lot of guilt for my cat that passed in 2019- I had to make the decision and it's impossible to not second guess yourself. But you are right- we know our animals better than anyone and we know when it's time ❤❤❤

[@rosechampagne2857]

I just wanna say, as a fellow cat-lover who has had to make the same decision in the past…there is always guilt and doubt and it’s sooo hard, but that doesn’t mean you made the wrong decision. You made the kindest possible decision for your kitty by not letting them suffer. I think it’s the ultimate act of love, letting them go so they can be free of pain, even though it causes us so much pain in the process. Wishing you peace and happiness ❤️❤️

[@galilaya42]

I felt the same about my cat even tho there was no hope for a recovery and he was suffering. It's hard to be the one to make that final decision. I wish we could have as much compassion for humans but that's another story.

[@Oh-w3lp]

You have a really special way of explaining your emotions and feelings, it’s so admirable. Thank you for feeling comfortable enough to share this piece of your life with us. Please take care of yourself during this time. Be kind to yourself, and take all the time you need. We love you and support you, Kristi!

[@hiitskaitlyn]

Hey Kristi! I love your videos. Since becoming a Mom myself, it's been so nice to relate to someone. I truly feel SEEN. I'm also on meds, and your video really helped my friend realize she needed help too and is now in therapy. Your videos really do help people, so thank you ❤

[@InsertLiteraryPunHere]

I've never commented before Kristi but I'm over here crying and want to thank you so much for this video. I brought home my first ever kitten in 2020 and he died of a rare and painful disease before he reached 8 months old. I was a solo pet owner and felt completely overwhelmed by nursing him through his last weeks and making medical decisions. But you're completely right--I couldn't imagine making that final decision for him but on the day when it was time, I knew it was time. I'm sending so much love to your sweet boy Mad Eye and holding you in my heart as you go through this 💔

[@legalpuppy8602]

Totally with you. Sadie-the dog, whom we picked up off of the street, was our beloved for many years. Toward the end of her life, I gave her subcu IVs for 14 months because I couldn't let her go (also kidney disease). And then she gave me one last gift of showing me that there was no doubt that right now was the time that she needed to go so we took her in and I swear the last look in her eye was one of gratitude. I still weep when I think of her and she has been gone more than 20 years. I feel your pain.

[@shonvision5009]

"I guess i do have tears left to cry" omg Kristi you do whatever you need to. We love you sweetheart. We are here.💙💜💙💜 Sending love💘

[@angieemm]

I recently lost my 16.5 year old Australian shepherd to kidney failure. My other 2 dogs kinda bullied him a little as well toward the end at mealtime, but they also just kinda stayed away from him the rest of the time where before they'd been great buddies. I think they all know. Cats, dogs, whatever - they can smell it and sense it, I think. I'm so sorry you're going through it.

[@livijean1]

I needed a cry too Kristi, thank you for helping me get that out💕 It was a healing cry.

[@PatternScout]

Kristi, I'm so sorry your kitty isn't doing well. We went through something similar with our dog, Scout. He had a lot of health issues (although you wouldn't know it because he was so energetic!) and eventually went into kidney failure. It is so hard! They are family. You are right--YOU will know when the time is right. You know him best. Sending virtual hugs!

[@belvedere6368]

Losing a pet is so painful. On one hand you want to fight for them and give them every single chance available and on the other you don't want them to experience a single moment of pain. They are such sweet, innocent little souls and they bring so much joy to our lives as their family. I completely agree that as their person, you know when it's time. You know when the shift happens where it goes from fighting for them to prolonging their suffering better than anyone else. I hope Mad Eye has the best time with the time he has left and I know you'll do everything you can to give him that.

[@Justdoit-co9yd]

I didn’t expect to cry today but now we’re crying together, I love u Kristi🥺❤️

[@itsme-s.]

I love you Kristi. I've been trying to take a shower since Saturday night but I told myself today has to be the day. I appreciate the extra motivation 🖤💚

[@485OCEAN]

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@traci222]

Wow.. Same here. I struggle with many things but today I have got to get a shower. Put it off sat and sun. Hope you get yours.

[@tiffanysadlertlc]

Story of my life.

[@neworleans1979]

Y’all are so special and deserve so much love. Hoping y’all are able to get a shower and maybe do something special afterwards like a face mask or paint nails??!!! Just know I’m thinking of y’all and wish nothing but happy days ahead. My precious momma who passed 7 months ago suffered with depression and I seen first hand her struggles. In her last days I gave her a shower-those are memories I will cherish. Love from my home to yours-Katie

[@traci222]

@@neworleans1979 Your kindness is heartwarming.. a lot of ppl do not understand the struggles of chronic depression. I for one appreciate your thoughtfulness. It really means a lot. Thank you. 💜

[@meganwalker7033]

Let it be known that Maddy couldn’t have a better mom than you! He was meant to be with you when he was found because you gave him a chance to fully live. Love you Kristi!! 💖💖

[@graylove4380]

Your animals are so lucky to have you for their momma. Prayers for you during this difficult time.❤️

[@klfbt1725]

I teared up watching this video, but I really enjoyed this video. I hope that doesn't come off the wrong way, I just appreciate the rawness which honestly makes sense. It's RawBeautyKristi after all!

[@ghostpepper6303]

I'm literally going through this exact thing with my 16 yr old kitty child and I have a baby a couple months younger than your boy. Our situation is nearly identical and it's ROUGH. 💔 Love to you and both your babies. I'm going to need some time before adopting another fur baby because I will need a lot of time to heal after losing this "child".

[@gaila.6003]

I get it...I've been through this several times with my beloved kitties. I swear I never cried so uncontrollably or desperately in my life than when I had to take my beloved "Socksie" to the vet, because it was obvious she was declining rapidly. Like within a weeks time she went from climbing and running all over the house to hiding under her little blanket in her bed, not eating or drinking. They did X-rays, and I could see..........I can't even type about it, but we had to put her to sleep right then and there, she was so far gone and in pain. I'm actually tearing up about it almost 10 years later. Our pets ARE like our children. People who don't like animals or have never had a pet of any kind, and don't even want to have a pet, will never understand the connection we have with our pets. They are our companions, and we love them forever.

[@kaylasilcox6083]

This story was devastating for me to hear. I just lost my baby girl Bella due to kidney failure. She was my soul mate, not just a dog. So much more. She was the only thing I wanted to stay alive for a long ttime. I've never been so sad and felt so much guilt and I'm not handling it well. I was supposed to have a few more years and had plans to make them perfect for her and she was taken so suddenly. I also got blood work and panels done on her constantly and it came out of nowhere. All I can think about is that I should have found out sooner and done something about it. We spent thousands on fluids and overnight vet stays and were even administering fluids at home over christmas. Force feeding her. But i couldnt save her and it kills me. That last week and that last day, last hour and last minute haunts me every day. None of it happened the way I wanted to and i regret it every single day. You will know when it's the right time, it won't make it easier but don't let anyone make you feel any different and dont apologize for your grief. I'm so so sorry. The grief doesn't get any less but it gets less often. You were the best thing to ever happen to him and he knows that and he knows how much you love him.

[@sbiine]

i’m sure if you‘re baby girl bella could speak to you right now she would say that you‘ve done everything you could for her and that she felt your love in every single moment and continues to feel it. i lost my cat two years ago and some might call me crazy but i feel that she‘s in a very beautiful place with all the other animals that left this world watching me and still feeling very loved. ♥️

[@deannailiano4132]

Well said Kayla. It does get less often. I’m sorry for your loss.

[@CS-lp5yv]

Thank you for sharing. Lived through a similar situation and cried my heart out. It was the first pet I lost. I’m glad you’re sharing. Not everything is candy covered, frosted fun. Sometimes life sucks. Sometimes beloved pets pass away. And I personally feel it helps to share. Helps you perhaps and helps someone like me. Sorry you’re going through this, sorry for your kitty. Thanks for sharing with us.

[@swayzetown]

i’m so sorry about your sweet kitty. pets mean so much more than people understand. a few years ago i lost the last of my childhood pets and it was so hard, they become a part of you. it’s true that you know when it’s the end and every moment becomes so much more meaningful.

[@Allyson6C]

I’m so glad you uploaded this despite what your initial intentions were for this. Why? Bcz it’s real life! The kids, the pets, the hardships. Life is not easy & it’s the small things that make life so precious & sacred. Thank you for sharing exactly what your life looks like, we ALL can relate! 💜

[@marias.9472]

I’m so sorry Kristi, I completely understand where you’re coming from, my sweet baby Abby is going through the same thing right now, she’s a golden retriever and she’s 12 1/2 years old plus she started having seizures about 5 years ago, they are under controlled now with medication, however she started rapidly losing weight and she’s gotten really thin while she used to be a chunky girl. She’s the love of my life and apple of my eye and of and of course I love all my animals the same but she’s just different in a way that’s hard to explain. I completely understand that our pets are not just animals, rather our chosen family and they go through so much with us. I’m so sorry, you really do seem like an amazing mom to both your human baby and your furry ones and they’re so lucky to have you, I really hope you know and feel that. I hope you can find comfort in how much you’ve done for him though I know from experience it can be comforting but it doesn’t change the sadness and the “what if‘s” though I don’t know that there is any more that any human could have done for him than what you have! I’m sending love and well wishes your and Maddys way❤️!

[@madisuing2164]

Love you so so much Kristi. I can’t imagine what you’re going through. Maddie has been with you for so long and he’s a damn fighter! He got to experience love and compassion through you. We are always here. Wishing for that peaceful goodbye for you and your family. It’s never just “a pet”, it’s family. Everything you’re feeling, every emotion, we are so here for it. I personally follow because you are “raw”, you share it all. it is so so okay to be heartbroken, just know we will be here for all of it. Sending you so much love and hope for peace. ❤️❤️❤️

[@ohaidercianna]

Kristi, Thank you SO much for this video. Oftentimes KZbinrs don't freely talk about the intricacies or the heartbreaks of life. My dog is relatively young for his breed's lifespan, and although we try to feed him the highest quality food, give him as much love as possible, etc. he still has joint problems that affect his quality of life. The passing of a pet is a part of their natural lives, but we can relish in the loving moments, the fun, the laughter. No pet is ever "just a pet".

[@norfklub1771]

Thank you for being so real and vulnerable. Authenticity is rare and girl, you got it. Thank you thank you thank you.

[@valpaca2547]

You had me laughing (that Slughorn reference), crying (so much love to you and Maddie), and laugh-crying (those bangs!)

[@alexiagavita350]

My kitty is 17, soon to be 18. We thought last summer was the end & I cried for days, but he pushed through another couple of months. He's blind ad incredibly thin now, but still kicking it. I wouldn't wish the pain of losing a pet on anyone.

[@englishteacher0202]

My husband's cat was deaf and we think he got blind too by the end of his live, he lived 19 years and died from the old age So hope your cat will live kick it some more time!

[@industry_plant]

Sending you lots of love, Kristi. I lost my first furry baby a little over a year ago and i resonate with everything you are feeling. Your kitty is so loved and he will always be with you in some way that is deeper than just physically. Thank you for sharing these raw emotions with us. I wish more people would be open like you are in their content. Lots of love to you and your family during this chapter❤️

[@rachaeljohnson4419]

Sending love & comfort your way. Our fur babies come to us to heal our souls & when we have to say goodbye, it hurts on a whole different level. I love your honesty and that your channel has always been a real community. Been watching for so long that it feels like we're losing him too. Hugs & kisses to Maddie!!

[@plecopleco3503]

My best friends cat, who she raised since birth and who was born on my deck, passed very suddenly after a rapid battle with breast cancer (which is rare) she hasn't been the same since. It's never easy, and it'll never be the same, but one day we'll be with our beloved babies again. ( if you believe that sort of thing)