Turning my life around in 2021... you can too!

[@DandyLionGoddess]

Who else nodded when she mentioned crying over a tomato slice?

[@jess3964]

I’ve felt that crying over the littlest things when you’re stressed, last week I broke down crying on the kitchen floor because my lemon squares didn’t bake right😭 Sending love in the new year💛💛

[@janaekelis]

Aw :( keep trying to make nice lemon squares!

[@PennyTovar]

Nooo not the lemon squares 😩

[@bums009]

Yeah last week I broke down and cried because I was bidding for this secondhand skirt I really liked on Ebay and I didn't win.... I am a grown adult like wow lmao. For real though I break down a lot less frequently now than I used to, because of all the yoga, meditation and working out I've been doing. I hadn't done any of that stuff for a week before that break down happened and it really showed in my mental health. Which is why I definitely relate to this video lol. I always have a hard time getting back to a normal routine after Christmas/new years and the January blues always get me, but that incident really set alarm bells ringing and as of 3 days ago I'm thankfully back to maintaining those healthy habits that helped me so much. We can survive and thrive in 2021 guys, I believe in y'all!

[@morganeg759]

Omg I cried because I made some carbonara and it tasted bad... honestly I cry every single day!

[@pettyten1582]

that happened to me with my lemon squares, i was so upset, i feel your pain girl!

[@meganraeee]

i cried once because i thought there was no cheese in the fridge, there was cheese i was just B L I N D and O N E D G E

[@XXstephieXX16]

I cried once bc the drug store didn't have the 70c snickers and I only had 75c on me. I just started sobbing in the store. My poor friend who was with me didn't know what to do, and was like "Stephanie I can give you another quarter plz" ...the discount snickers were up front 😅😭

[@Wen00.4]

😂 Lmao. Cheese is life. I get it.

[@sadpotato10yearsago50]

Was it stuck to the table?

[@jayparrilla6733]

Who else was waiting for her videos because there so entertaining

[@PennyTovar]

:')

[@jayparrilla6733]

@@PennyTovar thanks for your positive contribution to this KZbin community with does delightfull videos

[@vanesaangella9521]

Meeeeee

[@valeriejacobo360]

Me shes so beautiful and funny🖤

[@rylee2048]

“i will purposely put on sad music to be more sad” me too me too

[@MissJessicaMakeup]

I’ve never heard someone say “ decision fatigue “ . Damn that is so true ! Lol

[@madisentancre5811]

So glad you're back..I missed you hope you are feeling better

[@melanieflores8724]

I'm glad you're back penny cuz you're the only person on KZbin that has a personality🥺

[@jmangum307]

Right?! I really love that she is genuinely who she is and makes no excuses about it. I always thought she was freakin awesome.🥰

[@melanieflores8724]

@@jmangum307 Same girl😍

[@marsendee]

Okay not true lol. There are a lot of youtubers with personality. You just have to look for them :)

[@melanieflores8724]

@@marsendee I agree with your opinion and I do believe there's others content creator with amazing personality❤😍

[@hope_so_90]

I love her too

[@heyyniyah]

It’s really easy for me to fall into that dark depressive state because I’m always the friend that’s ok and so none of my friends check on me or if I do try to reach out to hang out usually they can’t for whatever reason and so today I sat in bed all day in the dark and cried.. I need to figure out how to make myself happy by myself in those situations

[@heyyniyah]

Anyways glad to see you posting again not trying to be negative just sharing my experience I’m sure I’m not the only one.

[@ladyt9000]

That’s me as well..I’ve just pulled away from the world. I don’t interact with but two people literally in life. And I’m in the military-sadly the military kinda placed me in that predicament

[@heyyniyah]

@@ladyt9000 I know how hard it can be.. I literally came to KZbin for company in a video.. it’s ok tho, we will be ok too 🖤🖤 I hope things get better for you!

[@heyyniyah]

@Isabella Chidiak I’ll try it thanks!

[@heyyniyah]

@Ana Molina thank you this is helpful. Sometimes When I’m in that mindset I don’t think to do this.

[@lovelife1.072]

Wow I really liked the once a week workout idea. I’d never thought to set realistic goals but the no-bullshitting myself policy actually makes a lot of sense!! Thank you so much for saying that! It really helped me.

[@baddielifts]

That‘s how I started out and now I am hitting the gym 4-5 times a week 💪🏽 it‘s ALL about realistic goals because if you actually reach your goals it motivates you even more

[@florl.delgado4093]

I hear ya!! Its stressful to think "I'm not doing enough" Its ALWAYS better than nothing at all!

[@TheNikolaivna]

Mental health is so important- I also decluttered and caught the "Say No" wave this year (even before you posted this haha) im refocusing my life and aiming to keep God First in my life. Matthew 6:33 God Bless you two abundantly!

[@rebeccaoprea9917]

Amen sista !

[@kyojuroswife4112]

Ik it's late but can you suggest me a journal bible from Amazon I'm confused which is the right one

[@nicoleb2151]

can we get an update on how youre doing as a nurse?? i love you penny you inspired me to enroll in nursing school

[@alexiarosalia]

PENNY IS BACK

[@GenaMarie]

So glad you are feeling better! Can't wait to see what this year brings you ❤️❤️

[@miriamhdez4900]

Penny, I’ll be 40 in December. On, my 39th birthday I decided I was going to make myself a priority. Once, a week I go on solo hikes to decompress and reconnect with myself. I walk everyday for 30 minutes and I’m eating better but don’t get me wrong I ain’t ready to give up the Doritos and Mild duds. I also smudge with sage while saying a prayer every Monday morning as a way to let go of past weeks negativity. It’s help me get to a healthier state of mind. I remind myself that it’s okay to stumble as long as I don’t quit and don’t give up. 💚

[@MarianaAnaya-rd1ro]

2020 was a very weird time. May we all thrive and find happiness in 2021 🎉

[@MMegan]

Starting ur own family that’s wonderful

[@letiid97]

Aw penny I wish I could HUG YOU ! as someone who has been in that dark place felt scared that it would never end and then finally emerged and was able to breathe again. I am so HAPPY to see you be filled with joy and optimism. You made my heart happy today !!!!

[@angelazelaya7994]

This definitely motivated me to get myself together. Hard times really be hard but dang at least I know one of my favorite you tubers goes through those types of times too. Love you Penny :)

[@PennyTovar]

Trust me, I know its hard. Take it one day at a time

[@floppy_disks]

omg imagine the dog and kids dressed like penny that'd be pretty badass

[@hanahruiz9277]

I'm crying because last year I felt like I had really hit rock bottom. And not even because of me. Like it was legit life and just 2020. To hear other people are recovering from it too gives me hope ❤️

[@demonsandlords]

Aww i started tearing up when u said start a family 😿😿😿 okkkkkk can’t wait

[@dalicerodriguez6033]

I love that you and Martin are doing that devotional book. A relationship with God is the best thing to have🥰 love you!!

[@iolanda_liang]

there have been so many times this year where i would cry from laughing, and then immediately start crying from random sadness that had nothing to do with the original reason i was laughing. i guess i’m just built different 💪😭

[@Goldengurl85]

Me too girl!! I cried for months, depression took over, doing better now.

[@amazingnexttoyou]

I was just saying yesterday how I miss you!! I'm soo glad you're doing better! I couldn't imagine what you're going through being a nurse. THANK YOU FOR YOUR WORK!!

[@PennyTovar]

:')

[@AW-tv6nq]

As someone who’s been crying for not reason and just crumbling after every disappointment, it encourages me to know others are struggling and others are pushing through. I’ve started doing yoga and working out several times a week. I’m getting better but it’s just hard

[@PennyTovar]

Take it one day at a time

[@AW-tv6nq]

@@PennyTovar ❤️

[@allisonmirenda6252]

I love Penny, yall. For as young as she is, she is SO self aware and mature than most. Whatever hardship she went through when she was younger definitely molded her for the better. Penny, I hope you continue to feel this natural high. I’m happy you were able to address your funks and want to be better 🖤

[@jenniferbueno3376]

Yay!!! She's back! Self-care is a must. Be the best you you can be...glad you are feeling better.

[@agneskorea5000]

Yesterday I was thinking to myself "Did KZbin unsuscribed me from Penny's channel? Because I don't remember the last time I saw a video of hers"... Glad to know you're feeling better!

[@tetz5846]

Welcome back amigos

[@stacieellis]

I sing gospel music and dance when I feel down. The lyrics remind me of what God has done for me and lifts my spirit

[@lc-do5eo]

I stop myself from crying and I don't think it's healthy at all. Watching this made me realize it's ok to feel sad, especially now since it's a time where everyone must feel extremely alone....

[@cookie32152]

I really really enjoyed this video a lot, I'm so glad you're setting realistic goals for your new years resolution. YOU GO GIRL

[@PennyTovar]

:')

[@hybridangel3403]

Its fab that you could do that. I have once or twice decluttered. About 12 years ago. Now I need to do it again.

[@yarireyes38]

Girl Nooo. don’t try to prevent being sad, and worse of all don’t check on other people when you feel a certain way to try to forget your sadness. You should feel your emotions and try to see where they come from and then be thankful if you learn something from them and release them. Meditation helps. Sometimes we have childhood traumas or something we need to forgive. Focus on you, what you need to accept and can’t control. Wish you peace and happiness baby. ❤️

[@Baby_m0thh]

Girl, that was me all last year too. For this year I got a law of attraction planner and it checks with you everyday, week, month and 90 days. It helps to take the baby steps I need to achieve what I want. I've also been journaling everyday to keep track of my mental health and it must be because I've been doing so good that I want to continue being good, but that's really been helpful. And of course, giving gratitude every single day. So good to see you glowing and being so optimistic about your life and future. And even thinking of starting a family?! 🥺 So happy for you 💞🌈✨

[@scarymonsterzz]

After being in denial about how severe my mental health had declined for years now I finally decided to start anti-depressants in 2021. I’m already feeling worlds better! I wish everyone reading this a year full of healing and happiness this year! ✨

[@babytig3r807]

Hey Penny. I am so glad that ur feeling better. I have a goal to just take care of myself better in general too. Exercising, Praying, MOISTURIZING 😂 In 2020, my motivation was so bad. I used to have such bad self esteem issues and I had really healed from all those negative experiences. But 2020 had me reverting to my old ways sis. I started thinking abt excercise as a thing just to “get skinny” instead of something that made me feel happy. I especially got discouraged bc of the fact that I had excercised/took care of what I ate SO MUCH in 2019 but it didn’t make a huge difference in how I look. Man, I wish I could get back to the point where I was so active/fit (working out 1 hour, 5x a week, going for two mile runs in the mornings) I felt so proud of myself. It’s hard to swallow the fact that I will not be there anytime soon, it takes hard work to get to that point and it just sucks that I lost that habit. I know to take it slow because honestly I really do be hurting myself when I try to jump into these workouts like I’m Chloe Ting or sum 😂

[@kaleighmunsterman7691]

Congratulations penny on all the uplifting tips and healthy adjustments!! For anyone who is open to counseling/therapy: searching “nonprofit/free/low-income/sliding-scale therapy” in your township/zip code is a wonderful way to find relevant or adjacent recourses. A lot of community centers, churches, nonprofit organizations, schools/universities and clinics offer free or cheap therapy. I just found this to be true in my area. A hot bath is also nice lol Something that also helped (sounds super corny) was writing down a negative thought that came to mind and physically ripping the paper in half or crossing it out and rewrite it to be true-counter that negative self-talk. “I’m not enough” or “I’m stupid” ....how about “you are growing and learning daily... who do you have to be enough for?” And if you ever put yourself down this quote I heard from a coworker has made me smile so often: “everyone is a genuine as long as you don’t expect a fish to fly”

[@sanjana3728]

Missed you Penny!❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@jackiebazan]

this was the video i didnt know i needed. i've literally been crying at the drop of a hat recently. i suffer from anxiety and depression and being quarantined with covid isn't helping. once im out of quarantine, i'm going to implement some of the things u have....like exercise, meditation, and definitely some decluttering is on the menu! im glad ur feeling better. hugs to u. xo

[@karlidilon5736]

I love reading my bible and praying. Giving my life to Jesus and trusting in Him has given me peace. I’m so glad you’re taking piano lessons and finishing little ways to take care of your spiritual health because it’s the most important thing❤️praying for you! And also for us all to recognize God’s holiness and come to Him

[@drcamba]

thank you so much for sharing Penny ❤️ honestly this really hit home for me. i been struggling, and many of the things you mention are things i’d like to incorporate in my daily life and hopefully start developing a better lifestyle. you’re truly inspiring! maybe i CAN make it, maybe i CAN do this 😭

[@PennyTovar]

you can! take it one day at a time, and acknowledge your progress

[@millygaray9539]

Omg!!!!! My fave video. It makes me so happy to see you so well, you were literally the first KZbinr I ever watched back in 2016.

[@PennyTovar]

[@kristad2353]

Same Penny....I fell into a deep depression last year and it wasn't pretty...I could barely get out of bed. But this year I am really trying to turn things around, from health and spending habits and mental health! Those are my main focus!

[@blackwing97]

you're a nurse so you may have already thought of this, but I wanted to mention that I had the same issue with my knees, and it ended up being hypermobility. figuring that out cleared up a lot of related health issues I was having that I didn't even know were there. my life is so much better now that I know how to live better with hypermobility. ❤

[@shalayacole3290]

This is honestly the happiest I've ever seen penny and it's so inspiring. I love how her life has changed now that she is saying goodbye to 2020. Keep at it penny becuase you deserve all the happiness in the world

[@purplevolution]

As a musician and music teacher, it makes me so happy to see that you’re taking piano lessons!! I’m so glad you’re enjoying it

[@mariamontalvo6074]

Yes! This is what I needed bc this dramaggedon 4.0 is exhausting! Between you and Bretman y’all are such a nice breath of fresh... happy content

[@lelechim]

"Dramaggedon 4.0"? What happened _this_ time?

[@mariamontalvo6074]

@@lelechim jeffree Shane Trisha drama. A lot of receipts coming out about Shane being shady and taking about ppl behind their back causing many fall outs with Andrew garret and drew. Trisha nonstop talking about what happened to her Valentine’s Day last year and a lot of people gaslighting her even more with receipts. Jeffree not responding to the allegations. After a while it gets tiring of hearing it.

[@namrata9235]

Oh, man, I was about to have my dinner now and I just thought lemme see if Penny is feeling better now and has uploaded anything new on her channel and I was pleasantly surprised 😊 I'm so happy to see you're back! I choked up when you said that even a tomato slice falling on the ground made you cry because God knows how many times I've been in similar situations where even the most trivial things made me bawls my eyes out. And legit teared up when you said that you'd like to buy a house, get a puppy and start a family this year. The way you said it was just so sweet, so precious ♥️ I hope 2021 goes better for you, me, all of us ♥️♥️♥️

[@agusstickar2567]

This was a very real and very helpful video actually. I really hope you can have a nice 2021 and a best rest of your life. For all the people struggling out there, you can do it, take care of yourselves. 💕

[@inste10300]

I love that the more people's 2021 resolutions are for personal growth and self care instead of meeting expectations. Like my goal in the past were always to get in a relationship and go on a diet. Now my goal is to go to therapy and enjoy eating cleaner to feel better.

[@devany7358]

I just came across your channel and I just want to say I'm an empath and I can feel your energy thru the screen girl. Even through the depression you have such a beautiful soul! You are human and its okay to go through those stages. You are making changes and doing what's good for YOU! To get in front of a camera and tell the world what you have been going through is very brave and means a lot. Keep staying positive and I wish the best for you. New subscriber here! Love your blunt personality!!! 🤌🖤

[@libnabarron6000]

So glad that you’re in a better place now, and that you’re hopeful with many aspirations! Continue to take care of yourself; with some work and patience, all you desire will be yours. 🤍

[@at8052]

I lost my dad last year so I feel you!! The timing of this video was perfect but I couldn’t watch it right away cuz I relate so hard

[@at8052]

Also I have the exact same diffuser 😍

[@nununobi77]

I’m glad you’re back

[@vluessky]

Thank you so much for sharing Penny. This might sound bad but don’t misinterpret it: I’m happy you went through that in order to be the Penny that’s excited for everything that’s coming, and is also sharing it with others that might be needing it urgently. AND WOW! The devotional you’re reading has been helping me grow so much through all this pandemic situation too! 100% recommended.

[@Nessahh212]

Honesty i needed to hear thissss! I know yt’ers are human beings as well but im happy you touched on the parts you have been struggling with. its not often we see that. Iv been struggling mentally for so long now and i also decided to make a changes in ny life style. I joined a book club that my friend just started, changing my diet, changing the way i think and getting closer to my spiritual side i fell of with. Im sending you lotsss of positive vibes your way girl keep delivering with these raw videos💕 Love you Penny🥰

[@kyojuroswife4112]

I'm gonna start all these in 2022 I already started (decluttered my clothes & attending karate sessions regularly) but gonna put more effort into myself especially my mind, thinking bout getting into bible study, meditation, reading my fav books which I m procrastinating on etc. Etc.

[@Angie-bv2ht]

I love how realistic you are, you make me wanna actually start caring for myself. WE MISS YOU SOOOO MUCH, hope to see you more often:))))))

[@cosmicrays3084]

I am so happy you are fine now, and that you didn't push yourself to make videos for us when you were feeling down , stay safe and stay healthy

[@rhiannon_pearl]

So proud of you Penny and I think 2020 was definitely a piece of poop in many ways but we're HERE

[@Sarah-il5mz]

omg yes i cry over the smallest things when im stressed. also yes gurl! i wasnt able to start on january bc im lazy and i wasnt planning well but starting feb imma start eating healthier and working out cause my bones be cracking and i am not toned and feel gross.

[@riccigold]

Thank you so much for sharing this and being so honest! What you said about exercise really resonated with me. I'm in grad school, and fitting in workouts can feel impossible. Now after watching this, I'll aim for 1-2 times a week and be happy about it. Thank you Penny!!

[@K_m_desu]

I'm a stress crying kinda person and oh did I cry last year yes, seas and seas, lost many, but at the end I'm so thankful I'm here another day, and let's keep fighting guys

[@Nicky14music]

I love that you are so honest and that you are not ashamed to say that you were not ok. Thank you for being you and shatibg your experience with us!!!

[@savvyshoppingmomma5474]

I feel this in my bones girl! I'm in a similar journey. I'm trying to prioritize exercise or time outside whenever possible. That vitamin D and fresh air boost is essential for my well being! Also getting rid of sh...stuff that is overcrowding! It feels so good! Glad you're doing well for yourself, your mind and your soul. 💚

[@savvyshoppingmomma5474]

PS- I've missed your face.

[@yadirabonilla681]

I missed you so much penny ! I wish you nothing but the best in this new year and hope to see you posting more videos 🥺♥️

[@sophii7906]

I've been literally doing the same bc I have been really tearing myself down and crying a lot. I literally haven't even cried for a month because I have been trying to pump myself up and tell myself that I am the best. I know exactly what you are feeling and I am glad that you are taking care of yourself too!

[@joycevanlaar4787]

Good to see you back!!🥳 and also thank you for inspiring me to clean my mess up more🙃 I know they say a clean house gives a clean mind. But living alone doesn't always motivate to do that. Even though I know I should. Thank you for reminding me😊

[@loveeitbaybee]

This is crazy to me because I remember I discovered your channel in 2019 when I was having the hardest time in my life yet. Your videos always made me laugh because you’re YOU! It hits home knowing we all go through this and are able to succeed at making a change. Best of luck to you, penny! I’m so happy for you and Martin!

[@kaitkat5191]

Omg, I'm so glad I'm not the only one. It has been ROUGH. I'm so glad you're doing better and I am seriously so excited for yours and Martin's future!! You're going to be a fantastic dog mom and human mom!! So happy for you both!!! ❤❤❤❤🙌🙌🙌🙌

[@hannaisab]

I feel like I really needed this video because I’m struggling with some of the same issues that are scary. It’s nice to see her make that change for herself, and hopefully I will reflect her actions.

[@PennyTovar]

[@leahschroeder3533]

I relate to all of this so much. Especially saying no to people. The “strangely loyal to people for no reason” thing is ME to the core. But I’m really trying to reset my boundaries and do what’s best for me. Also your IG posts totally inspired me to research capsule wardrobes and now I’ve cleaned out half of my closet and am only keeping clothes I love and go with a lot of different things- so thank you! I would love to see a more detailed vid on the capsule wardrobe thing! 😊

[@angelofmidnight.]

I just loved this video, but not bc I regularly watched, my soul was watching, and it felt blessed to have a shining star like you in this platform

[@amandasimerly1614]

Love you Penny and I'm so glad you're taking steps to reach goals that address more than just the physical. You're a sweetheart and I thought of you a lot and prayed for you this past year. I myself battled with some depression myself but didn't let anyone but my spouse know because I wanted others to have the happiness I lacked. Anyway, I thought of you because they say the funniest and most entertaining people are usually battling things like depression which is why they work so hard at lifting others up and making them laugh. That's what you do for so many and it's beautiful. I'm so happy to see this honesty and the steps you're taking for yourself. Keep it up girl!❤️

[@LuckyStarlVl]

theres a lot of youtube videos with capsule wardrobe stuff!!! im trying to do that as well. its always good to get good quality clothes/neutrals that are timeless. im glad youre uploading again, wishing the best for you!

[@teregriegg]

I love you Penny 💜✨ missed you

[@kellykelly88]

Penny, you are so real and honest. These new videos of you are amazing. Thank you for sharing your process. This Pandemic has been pretty crazy and low, you are great to listen to!

[@veronikaapor]

I'm so glad you're feeling better. As a fellow pianist, I'm super happy that you find joy in making music!

[@aliciaa2050]

Yes girl! 2021 GOTTA be about GROWTH! 👍🙌🏼

[@katherinejimenez4956]

Decision fatigue is a real thing!! Thanks Penny!! Excited for all that's to come, and Grateful that due to our experiencing quality Covid time, I discovered my very first KZbin Influencer...You My Dear!! You

[@nisamskreuzer5891]

So glad you are feeling better. I definitely think I'm going to declutter again! That's a great idea 💡! I think sometimes we think having lots of stuff is freedom or success and then we realize it can be a ball and chain. Thank you Penny 💜

[@melg4866]

I can’t believe you had such a rough year, Penny BUT I am so glad you’re much happier and healthier now🥰 This year was actually not bad for me which I feel bad for saying because a lot of people suffered but my circumstances are very different. Anyway, I can’t wait for your future content and your happiness that you will share with us! BTW girl, I never seen you with your nails done before (other than that one video), they look so RAD!

[@netiii]

So happy to see you improving yourself and overall health! We love to see it 💕

[@saba4495]

im so proud of you penny and everyone else who fought through their own mental battles throughout 2020. I wish the absolute best for you all.

[@malakguelil4858]

I love you and i'm so happy you're doing better now ! You're probably the realest KZbinr out there and i FREAKING LOVE YOUR HAIRRR

[@kaylamartinez5728]

Perfect timing, I needed these positive affirmations 💜

[@leydyy8018]

I love this. Sometimes in life you not feeling it but it’s okay just as long as u know you got yourself

[@Peem_pom]

You're so real ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ it helps to know you work out once a week it's the same as me and I feel like everyone is better

[@paolabermudez9029]

these resolutions are so motivating, 2021 will be your year penny :)

[@rebekahmcc23]

Hope you feel better Penny! I would definitely recommend to carry on with the piano because I have been doing guitar for a long time now and it helps me forget what's going on around me! ❤️🎹

[@phossmos5892]

The way I LOVE this girl 🌺💛

[@PennyTovar]

[@audreymarquez2686]

Thank you for being real and honest about everything. So happy to be following you. Glad that you’re back 💜

[@sophiealexa5613]

Good luck with the possibility of getting a puppy and maybe even having a baby! Hope it works out well for you both. I’m hoping to settle down over next few years. I’m 24 and I think it’s time. I was so immature and childish for years and now I feel 2021 is a really spiritual and self development year for many. Hope your dreams and wishes work out :)

[@EmilyMurphy0608]

New Morning Mercies is an amazing daily devotional!!! I’ve been using it for years. So encouraging and so biblical! 💜

[@JaayKaay2]

Penny’s back!!! We love you. Wishing you the best

[@brown3y3z314]

I’m so glad to see a new video. Your videos always reminds me to take care of myself. Last year was my resolutions was to take better care of myself and I did and still am. This year I just want to keep it going. I’m a mother of 2 and engaged. And I your videos help thank you for being you💕

[@AskCoachK]

As we get older, change is inevitable and it is difficult for all of us, I'm glad you know that you've figure out how to navigate through this part of it. And through different phases, it will start all over... and if you are still creating content through it all... Im supporting!