Uboa - The Origin of My Depression ALBUM REVIEW

[@AWM05]

"Profoundly disturbing and not for the faint of heart." Sold.

[@samescourt3801]

Being a massive fan of Xiu Xiu, I was like “oh word?”

[@Joy_Dvzn]

@@samescourt3801 literally just finished that album rn, and discovered it right after listening to A promise by xiu xiu

[@SebbyIsYummy]

@@Joy_Dvzn fucking amazing album. Xiu xiu is so good

[@TheGoobsters]

Can we all agree that when melon wears this shirt we call him felon?

[@Bishcona]

Hahahahaha

[@xPumaFangx]

Agreed

[@scottjohnson3070]

I... agree

[@isengrim99]

Yes.

[@-junkered-5659]

Lol yes

[@pj85438]

I found this album after spotify went on random after finishing Caligula by Lingua Ignota and it send me straight into Please Don't Leave Me. I nearly pissed my pants. I stopped everything i was doing, listened to this album and fuck me. I'm also a trans woman, who lives near Uboa, this album spoke to me on so many levels. Your comment about finding this cathartic really made me realise it's not for everyone as i showed it to a co worker and they were horrified to the point where they were visibly upset. Fucking love this album

[@Vandalgia]

I'm not a trans, but I suffer with depression and severe trust issue and I totally get your and your co-worker feelings, Please Don't Leave Me is a crazy piece and extremely distressing. But I really love the album as they also speak to me, maybe not as the same level as it is to you. Listening to them makes me confused and extremely uncomfortable, although it had this cathartic quality to it.

[@frostbite6477]

i'm a trans guy in melbourne and i found it while on a train. it was one of those moments where i found something that really spoke to me in a way i'd never experienced then and since. I don't even like ambient but its just perfect.

[@R-H-B]

Almost exactly the same experience. I just finished Girl with Basket of Fruit and it switched to Please Dont Leave Me. I could only sit through 25 seconds but those 25 seconds have completely contorted my views on experimental music. I thought Lingua Ignota and Xiu Xiu and Daughters were about the limit of experimental music. But wow. What the fuck is this album as an album? 25 seconds of this thing has torn me to shreds. I can’t imagine the full 30 minutes or however long it lasts

[@tvscreen8397]

What does Trans have to do with anything?! Weird

[@tvscreen8397]

@@frostbite6477 why do you mention you’re trans? So weird

[@ConvincingPeople]

Never thought I would see Uboa covered here but, man, am I happy to see Uboa covered here.

[@redL33Tsauce]

Right??? Myself and Xandras friends are collectively freaking the fuck out its so wild

[@eternallysenseless8957]

It’s the fuckin melon dude. Who hasn’t he covered?

[@BigOwl51]

@@eternallysenseless8957 he hasn’t reviewed anything from the legendary rapper Flo Rida, unfortunately:(

[@jimmyiscool1239]

@@redL33Tsauce do you know her? could you help me with contacting her. i could get her response in anything

[@acetate909]

Melon is the origin of my regression. Melon is the origin of my obsession. Melon is the origin of my aggression. Melon is the answer to my question.

[@aaabbb-lq9cp]

Who do I want in my asshole?

[@97EDUB]

Melon is the origin solemn Melon is the origin condom Melon is the origin bottom Melon is the solution and problem

[@guy12343456]

Melon is the origin of my LYRICAL Melon is the origin of my MIRACLE Melon is the origin of my SPIRITUAL Melon is the answer to my INDIVIDUAL

[@alialonzo747]

Will use that as lyrics for a noise/shoegaze song thanks

[@NosrepModnarRm]

Melon is the origin of my erection

[@aweatherstone9503]

Why is an extra from the Paddington 2 prison scene reviewing music?

[@universalbullets8008]

Spo N underrated comment

[@cheesecakelasagna]

Serious talk though, Paddington is such a great movie.

[@micahmarch4047]

I think the way she ended the record was very creative. It brought the record full circle, very much like how you would feel coming out of a deep depression. It builds on the first track, signifying development or progress, but refuses to bring a satisfying end to the record. Because true depression really never goes away. You just get better at dealing with it.

[@ahri3887]

I love at the end where it sounds like she's getting up from a keyboard and just... walking away. Without leaving an answer. She just leaves.

[@michailchambers]

Yeah, that's BS. Depression can reach a point of non-existence in a person. The reason it's so hard to overcome by most people is because they either try beating it into submission or detach from it; both just means of avoidance. Spiritual practices done the right way allows one to confront everything in the psyche that aids negativity and the accompanying energy. In time everything that isn't congruent with ur well being looses it's hold.

[@elscourou6654]

@@michailchambers Yeah if you process things it can help it to go away it just takes a long time

[@laug1576]

Depression can go away hunny😂

[@macfisher1814]

@@laug1576 I mean it can go away if it's situational in some way, but clinical depression tends to be chronic

[@Blackopsgod0001]

A little bit more context for the middle part of that record (or at least how I interpreted it) cause it was the part I identified with super heavily: Epilation Joy is the first calm bit of the record, and the reason for that is not only good timing, but it's also the whole point of the song. The title "Epilation Joy" refers to her use of an epilator, which is a hair removal device that basically rips the hair out of your body, leaving you almost completely hairless afterwards. The big obvious caveat to this is that it's intensely painful, even leaving little red bumps on the skin for the rest of the day. A lot of transgender women, including myself, use it because body hair is an enormous source of gender dysphoria. However, because of the pain, and the depression that a lot of us tend to have, epilation has a second use as a form of self-harm. One can easily justify it to themselves because it doesn't leave any permanent marks, and of course, a large portion of society expects women to have nice smooth legs. Gender dysphoria amplifies the perception of this expectation, thus the desire to be entirely hairless. Self-harm is, at its core, a release of negative emotion. The physical pain takes away from the emotional pain. It's obviously an unhealthy way of going about it, but it's easy, fast, and addictive. The release that's given from self-harm is why Epilation Joy is a short reprieve from the intensity of the songs before it. Of course, being the unhealthy outlet that it is, the most intense part of the album is what directly follows it. The epilation joy gave Xandra an easy, fast, and addictive release, making the relapse of Please Don't Leave Me inevitable.

[@kristiangac4935]

Thoughtful write up.

[@fuckhoesgetmoney512]

awesome comment, thank you for taking the time to write this!

[@ashlowe2217]

sorry daughters, but this is the most terrifying album of the decade

[@SergioDuFont]

Simon Lowe YWGWYW isn’t supposed to be terrifying but

[@ashlowe2217]

@@SergioDuFont Look at the description of his review on it

[@reJECT0]

But from my own listening it feels more like an oppressive pressure like a trash compactor of music. YWGWYW is fantastic.

[@SergioDuFont]

For The Oracle that isn’t in the least bit “word for word”. That’s simply addressing that aspect of the album. If you believe that its scariness is the only or primary dimension to that record you haven’t listened particularly closely. It’s not a cheap-thrills ride.

[@Nowhy]

@For The Oracle WHAT you are...

[@yungcade4480]

The shutdown of thatistheplan is the origin of my depression

[@steveothebassist]

The best feel good album of 2019. Very summery aesthetic. While others might dislike the simple poppy song writing, I think it helps for casual listening environment the album was intended to be listened as; you can really put it on at any time! Super catchy and bubbly, it's a must listen for all music fans!

[@jgaltele]

SteveTheBassist I agree! Such an incredible joyful album for everyone. Really makes me and the people who I listen to around happy and feeling great.

[@olivianeugeboren602]

Xandra is my best friends friend, it’s mad cool that you liked her album so much. It’s crazy how dark her music is she’s so smiley

[@jakeadkins5009]

I listened to this whole album, knowing little to nothing about the genres involved in the project or the artist herself. But, after listening to the album, it was disturbing and rather soul shifting. The distortive noise and darkness of the album was mood darkening and scary in a sense. Definitely one of the more unique albums I have ever listened to considering mainly what I listen to is Kanye West, Bastille, Denzel Curry, Ski Mask, etc. Much of my own music discography is mainstream and pretty typical rap artists/ hip hop artists. But this album was an experience and rather compelling emotionally for a darker feeling.

[@sandwichcipher]

8/10 but no flannel Aight

[@jackrotting]

probably because he doesn't want to recommend this album to the wrong people because its so fuckin dark. it was hard for me to listen to. it's almost like a noisy "a crow looked at me"

[@andreas0101]

@@jackrotting cool. I'll check it out then.

[@odigital-4815]

@@jackrotting this album absolutely terrified me the first time through

[@jamietaylor8663]

It's summer it's hot as fuck look at his sweaty forehead

[@deckardthegecko6435]

Well to compensate, at least we got a shirt with matching colours to the artwork.

[@timothywillems8794]

Uboa has skyrocketed in popularity since this release despite being around since 2010. Super proud of her.

[@primalscream8000]

It’s nice to see a wallet salesman trying his hand at music reviewing

[@PacoLee]

It's nice to see a melon trying his hand as music reviewing

[@maticonba]

Wich is the name of the album in your profile pic?

[@ContraIV]

Hey get back on the shelf, bitch. Just a joke -Billl Smit h

[@skinkmilk]

Mortadella sandwich It’s been 2 months but it’s called Screamadelica by Primal Scream

[@jack-uv6mt]

@@maticonba its also his username

[@dtanobo]

I’m normally pretty open to crazy experimental music but damn, I won’t lie some songs on this album straight up scared me. I gotta say I respect it but I just can’t do it.

[@jAyDeN30111]

Thanks for the review Anthony, now if this album is mentioned in conversation I can say it is an 8/10

[@shttyyinc9944]

@Thomas Corley nope

[@thogdontcaare6911]

Yeah I tried listening to this album... It’s too mainstream for me.

[@comrademax57]

lmaaaaooo

[@CorporalASH]

Yeah man. I only like music from the Stone Age. This shit way too commercial.

[@weenytoosmol5082]

thog dont caare

[@cannedanimalnoises8779]

This really is what I imagine Uboa from Yume Nikkei's dreams sound like.

[@didjano]

Xandra is a total sweetie. This album is my absolute favorite of the year. I'm so glad you're giving it some more love

[@ANG3LS]

Ur 6 on MBDTF is the origin of my depression

[@wadekemmsies7180]

Yeah um me and my son went to your meet n greet thing and you just gave him a wedgie. Care to explain?

[@ryan11hawk]

Lol

[@notfitforhumanconsumption2507]

I don't know why this is funny to me

[@rodrigobento4570]

You should've expected it to be honest

[@terraformthesun2896]

Your sons a fuckin nerd, that’s the explanation

[@kurtwohlgemuth9534]

Easily one of my top five albums so far this year, I'm glad you reviewed it!

[@ace-smith]

Wow, I'm so happy that Uboa - The Origin Of My Depression became Melon's sixth ever 10/10 rating.

[@codawithteeth]

Honestly would not be mad at that

[@ahri3887]

It deserves a 10

[@MrAgarate]

Hey Anthony thanks so much for agreeing to be our surrogate mother. My wife and I are thrilled! Class act.

[@PashaSherko]

The comment section of anthonys videos are so garbage now. Its always the same joke.

[@LafIeursdumal]

At this point I’m convinced it’s the same person on multiple accounts

[@coffeedude]

It's always something he obviously didn't do but they can get creative sometimes. The "you only said racist things on the video" are not creative though

[@lastsonshine]

exactly man i hate it, if there weren't any jokes in fantanos videos there would be like 7 comments its scary

[@wackmidi]

The comment section of anthonys videos are so garbage now. Its always the same joke.

[@gloomylobster111]

The comment section of anthonys videos are so garbage now. Its always the same joke.

[@kolbykauffman4180]

If there's one thing that Anthony's reviews do, it really sets my sights on super dark albums and the context/atmosphere/lyrical themes around them. It's so fucking interesting. That is the one time I agree with him most - bring on the dark and brooding.

[@rodrovich]

Too late melon, I already have an opinion on this album.

[@RequiemBeats01]

yeah. it fucking sucks ass

[@Brandon-me2qr]

Voltage yay it definitely needs to be shorter

[@evan8894]

same, i gave it the same score though

[@elyy0345]

I just listened to it and I liked it

[@SergioDuFont]

It has some decent moments but it’s mostly pretty cheap/superficial thrills

[@birdbrain4445]

What i told my friend after my first listen of this album, just a few days ago - 'well Uboa sure just messed me up. haven't been that affected by an album in a while. to the point of having a physiological effect on me. didn't cry (was tearing up though)... but rocking, heavier breathing/struggling to catch my breath, disorientated/a bit dizzy and confused... just totally lost in a very dark place. it's been half an hour after finishing and I still feel weird from that.' I think that... says it all. I am a very depressed, dysphoric, consistently isolated and generally unhappy trans woman so this album really really got to me. 'Profoundly disturbing and not for the faint of heart' indeed. An incredible, wonderful album, I love it so much. I haven't wanted to buy an album after first listen so fast in a while, nor have I felt an album was a 10/10 on first listen in a while. Thank you Xandra, I hope you're doing better now.

[@gutterbaby8382]

Just listened to the album. What a powerful, dense and excellently produced piece of music. I hope Xandra has been feeling better lately after some of the success of this record.

[@ogstef]

Anthony, you really didnt have to try to disprove depression for 10 whole minutes

[@hermgerbler7334]

This album is gigantic and really surprised me since I'd heard her earlier work at an old radio job and thought that she just made wild power electronics. It is definitely the kind of album that you need to set some time aside to properly experience, I agree with the use of the term "harrowing". I really like that Mr Fantano reviews so much Australian music, interesting to hear an American opinion.

[@TrollParty97]

Yo, Uboa would be awesome for a Silent Hill Soundtrack, it would fit perfectly.

[@motearc.3988]

True

[@bixs_drums]

My words exactly! This is actually like her own personal version of Silent Hill. Much love to her, she created a piece of art.

[@abcrx32j]

"Anthony Fantano, the origin of my depression. Forever"

[@wisp.]

Thanks for the recommendation, this album is awesome 👏 I been listening to more music like this recently and this is one of the best albums of this kind I’ve heard this year. That new Lingua Ignota album is also very good but I like that this album by Uboa has a shorter runtime so it keeps you on your toes more than overstaying its welcome. Loved it!

[@pertenezcoaunsueño]

oh my god i'm happy this album has gone this far

[@TheMetalTempestYT]

It's okay, Anthony. We're here for you. :(

[@swataras]

Didn't expect you to review this album!

[@nikolai7521]

Review more experimental music melon. You can review pop artists a bit less

[@harrisonglenn6204]

Who else goes and checks out the albums that Anthony recommends?

[@blind_surgeon]

What a stupid ass comment

[@notprosperBEATS]

@@blind_surgeon true

[@bobbymcguire4615]

WE NEED THE LINGUA IGNOTA REVIEW ANTHONY. And thanks for helping my brother with his multiplication tables, I really appreciate it.

[@codawithteeth]

This is I think one of your best reviews, Anthony Thank you

[@Magic7ball]

if he loved this i can only imagine what he thinks of the new Lingua Ignota

[@codawithteeth]

This is better

[@spamsingles5948]

He liked it more than this

[@R-H-B]

*insert obnoxious comment about the most recent 10/10 here*

[@gatorpuppy]

not anymore ​@R-H-B

[@garywhite4411]

Wow, this and hopefully a Lingua Ignota review soon? It's a dark week!

[@brndnshv]

Did you just get out of prison? 😮

[@petterv6604]

You mean Auschwitz

[@Super-zq3pn]

Melons Review but low scores are the Orgin of My Depression

[@conansmith5164]

Veri funi

[@redsoxguy6240]

melon looks like he really concentrated on his shirt choice

[@EinFelsbrocken]

Axe dee

[@Hola-tq4pg]

Great review Melon but i wanted to know your opinion on the latest Peppa Pig album

[@dogmanbitehurt8243]

I hope you're happy now

[@Jack-pp2ng]

He made it

[@spamsingles5948]

He gave it an 11

[@worthcarlin5639]

I totally thought this would fly under your radar, super glad it’s getting the attention it deserves.

[@moesalamander7012]

I read the description, saw the word “experimental” and said to myself “8” I was not wrong

[@bryansantos6613]

I’ve dealt with depression before I’ll vouch that this album doesn’t help with it

[@mitch5944]

Ye

[@xxlzocker24]

At first I thought my man's reviewing Yume Nikki's most popular character

[@exploredotscott8160]

Actually very surprised you reviewed this since it's such as small name. As a person who deals with depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts this album is one that affected me greatly. For me it's a 10 and my definite aoty

[@themetalphilosopher]

Thank you for this review. Prurient and Lingua Ignota just released new albums as well, and I'm glad all three got a shoutout.

[@jaked.5954]

Review Donald Trump’s twitter account, since that seems to be the origin of your depression

[@thegroove14]

“Poor me” - President Donald J. Trump

[@Brandon-me2qr]

why you do him like that :(

[@waxmeltfan]

Garrick Groover omg I love the miracle

[@yourmomskillinthevibe]

Gabe K okay? Omg I love innuendo

[@virtue7574]

The Origin of My Depression is one of the most harrowing offerings in experimental music this year. Profoundly disturbing and not for the faint of heart. 8/10

[@TheMetalTempestYT]

I love how your high ranking albums usually get long reviews!

[@mraymond77]

Anthony Fantano, question. Do you ever just want to not listen to music for a while? Do you sometimes feel trapped into being the busiest music nerd?

[@eyeamstrongest]

god i love Yume Nikki, thank you for finally reviewing one of my favorite games melon

[@blind_surgeon]

That game sucks

[@Dexuz]

@@blind_surgeon Wait wha-

[@Oxbayer]

What a rec, thanks Fantano. Seriously one of my Top 5 this year god damn

[@eangarvey4255]

I was listening to the album while listening to this review and the little gasp at the beginning of Please Don't Leave Me happened as you were describing it and I thought that was significant

[@MyoticTesseract]

Thank you for introducing me to one of my favorite albums of all time, Melon.

[@novembersneverending]

super surprised to see a review of this, thank you for giving it the recognition it deserves

[@an_alienwashere]

Thanks a lot to open about your problems Anthony, it’s pretty wonderful.

[@brianhernandez6199]

From the thumbnail and the name, I thought Fantano was about to talk about his origin of his depression...I got excited, then dissapointed.

[@mutate9248]

he talked about this waay too positively for a LIGHT 8

[@cstubbssubs7746]

he’s gotta stop doing that shit

[@TonyTheFloridian]

I haven't really listened to much in this genre/didn't really care for it but I really enjoy metal and its various subgenres. That being said, this record single-handedly changed my mind.

[@SmallSamful]

When are you dropping that Midsommar Soundtrack review?

[@Buckinghamrabbit]

Been patiently awaiting the Purple Mountains review- It's been a long ass week and I think i'm ready to lose my fucking mind

[@chrisb8698]

The origin of my depression is the lack of fresh Cal bangers. Fix it.

[@moving9071]

Been waiting on this review for quite a while.

[@clevername15]

wow, i didnt know that one hidden character from that rpgmaker game made music

[@lth_lch]

I want to listen to this album because this is the most excited I've seen you all year, but the way you describe it makes it seem too intense for me.

[@SamPendleton]

Now that they've seen your shirt, my eyes are the organs of my depression.

[@diesehnswurdigkeit9019]

I urge to listen to albums as dark and heavy like this and Lingua Ignota's whole catalogue. Some recommendations?

[@pafersip]

Maybe im late, but as a fan of uboa and lingua ignota I can say that the gerogerigegege - saturdaynight big cock salaryman, the goslings - grandeur of hair, pseudocommando - a home beneath the floorboards, nine inch nails - the downward spiral are some of the most dark, haunting and heavy albums i've ever listened to

[@diesehnswurdigkeit9019]

@@pafersip thank u buddy

[@thebatman1019]

That album cover is effective

[@junkspiritual]

Finallyyyyy. Uboa is amazing and one of the best artists coming out of Australia rn. Love her

[@harrysmith5340]

THESE ARE THE REVIEWS WE NEED MORE OF!

[@Wulfebane7]

This album really was fantastic, dope that you decided to cover it, thanks melon

[@Jake-ii5ro]

Been waiting on this one anthony!

[@Stanley-ox8qr]

i am listening to this album right now, this is one of the most insane music experiences i've ever had.

[@VexLament]

Lingua Ignota's Caligula next?

[@kidinPJs]

I have never been jumpscared by an album this hard before

[@dancingcircles]

Misspent Youth in least fav? I think it's more of a letter to self but one could argue against it I suppose, still sounds harrowing and amazing though

[@jayd.7452]

Thank you so much Melon. Please more reviews like this whenever you find it. :) Lingua Ignota review please.

[@RawwVeggies]

Experimental... noisy.... it was gonna be an 8 or above no matter what

[@dylanparry8364]

I didn't really listen to his warnings and this album broke me. He's not lying, this shit will break you if you aren't careful.

[@TheAndrewj96]

Well, here's another album I'll want to listen to during the day.

[@stuffin91]

im glad i found this. i needed this album today. thank you.

[@eazyazizi3608]

Make sure to review Rich Brian’s new album The Sailor

[@babayaga5986]

Looking good Anthony, loving the casual look.

[@capsloccc4606]

no flannel?

[@IceCreamJones42069]

When are you reviewing the new big krit album ?

[@dihmsrecords]

Hey Mr Boytano, please review Valasse Eruva's album Ascending Phoenix!

[@readymade83]

Decided to listen to this before watching your review, it was not a good idea to check this out at work while writing emails. Some parts freaked me out and reminded me Xiu Xiu or Daughters. This is the sound of despair.

[@oreo3232]

Thank you so much for this! Just found your channel because i was starved for otoboke beaver content and i'm really loving your recommendations. It would be so cool to see you review Castration Anxiety by Hide or Trials and Tribulations by JH1.FS3

[@BillyCobbOfficial]

Wow, Anthony does like sleepy music after all

[@ahri3887]

This album is probably one of the greatest things I've ever heard in my fucking life.

[@Panndaaaaaa]

Does anyone know if Anthony has ever said something about: Niandra Lades and Usually Just a T-Shirt by John Frusciante ?