UNPLANNED FIRST TRIMESTER - Anxiety + Depression | HellaJam

[@Ohsotian]

I just came across your video , and I m currently 9 weeks pregnant and I m severely depressed and anxious , having the worse physical sickness as well :( thank u for making this video , I now feel I m not alone

[@theHellaJam]

youre never alone babe. you got this and I promise your babe will make it all worth it. congrats!

[@elizabeth1703]

i know this was a year ago... but thank you for posting this! im 9 weeks today and my depression has been really bad. Just like you said its really nice to know im not the only one who has felt this way at this point in the journey.

[@nickya4363]

Just found out that I'm pregnant, and I'm so unhappy. I've not lost my target weight goal. I am about to kick off my MBA. I feel so depressed

[@nickya4363]

I'm really trying to be happy. But I can't. All I calculated is how long will it take to get them out of the house, so I can have my life back

[@nickya4363]

I literally just moved to a new continent. I quit my job to get my MBA, this is just covid period. I'm about to kick off my academic and career again and this happens

[@f_mannix317]

Thank you, from a first trimester mum that's having a really hard time and really needed to know that I'm not the only one.

[@verniceward4705]

I found out yesterday that I’m pregnant and I’m so happy I found this video. I’ve always wanted kids and never thought the news would bring up so many emotions (fear, worry, straight up panic). Scrolling through the comments and listening to your experience is sooooooo freaking helpful. I might just get some sleep 🙃

[@kaitlynnnrose]

Thank you for this. I REALLY needed this. I’m so sick all the time (12 weeks pregnant) that it’s so hard for me to be happy about this baby. I just want this nausea to go away. And I feel like a shit mom for this being my reaction but weeks and weeks of this shit wears you down 🤮☹️

[@laibasohail4414]

this is exactly wat i feel 😭😭 i dont know how to be happy !

[@madsc7127]

This is exactly how I’m feeling now. I just feel so guilty for not feeling the excitement I thought I would! I’ve wanted to be a mom for years and I want to be happy and excited! And I can’t, it’s really frustrating and depressing af.

[@CDot300]

So true im with you sister men have no idea what we go through

[@Kylers-Mommy]

9 weeks pregnant with my first baby. My anxiety and depression is up and down. Im exhausted all the time. All I want to do is sleep. But I can’t because I work a manual labor job 6 days a week & run a small pastry business. I just feel like I need a break from everything. Im 26 and the last of all my friends to get pregnant but apart of me feels like Im still not ready 😔. I try to force myself to be excited and I was getting there a little bit when I saw all the love & support I had from family and friends but it slowly faded away. Not even seeing and hearing the heart beat helped 🥺

[@woods8555]

This is beautiful. Where you are mirrors where I was just a few weeks ago. I’m currently 31 weeks pregnant with my first baby (she too was a surprise) and I just want to say it keeps getting better. The further along in your pregnancy the more to grow and connect with your baby. They go from being an idea, to an unwelcome reality, to a responsibility, to a slight joy, to finally being YOUR BABY to, being one of the most amazing things in your life, to being the love of your life and your reason for living. As time goes on and your pregnancy progresses, you and your baby will develop a type of bond, almost as if you have your own language. You learn each other’s schedules and personalities, you play together your baby recognizes and responds to your voice. It’s truly amazing. Hang in there. Sending love and positive vibes from Southern California. One love!

[@cygwanfogbe246]

Hi dear, how's your little one now?

[@justWIN96]

I'm a guy and I really enjoyed this. My girls 6 weeks pregnant (unplanned) and I was shocked, and I feel like I'm not ready at all, mentally and financially, I'm already coming out of a depression, but this like it's gonna be alright

[@sophieknapp151]

Thank you for making this video. I related to everything , I’m 9 weeks pregnant and my anxiety reached an all time high tonight. Your video really helped, and so did reading all the comments from other women 🥰

[@MissLovelyNay08]

Thank you so much for sharing this video. Your story is my story. I just found out that I’m 6 weeks pregnant and my anxiety is through the roof. I’m dealing with so many emotions, I’m sad, I’m happy, I feel unprepared. But this video definitely helped me and I’m so thankful. Blessings to you and sending love and prosperity your way❤️

[@rubymejia6731]

4 min in and I’m already crying I relate so so so much it sounds like my own story thank you for this I don’t have a lot of people I can talk to let alone understand, I’m not alone and I don’t feel so guilty feeling the way I do. Thank you

[@emluwaca3490]

4 years later, I'm so grateful for this video ❤️

[@mea4071]

This video helped me so much I’m pregnant right now and going through this antepartum depression and I am struggling so hard. I’m struggling telling my boyfriend how I feel because I don’t want to disappoint him. I’m scared to share these feelings with my loved ones and it’s so hard

[@nombulelomolebohengdube4439]

i feel you sis, im pregnant right now too and its overwhelming. i hope all is well with you♥

[@nbabombshell]

I came to this when I first found out I was pregnant . I was not happy I was filled with anxiety and feelings of guilt because I felt like I was neglecting my baby / pregnancy. Now I am 7 ‘ months and I have had really bad nausea during the whole day. I got pregnant by surprise just like you did and had similar issues. Before I got pregnant I was eating healthy, felt physically great and working out was my favorite thing to do . But when I got pregnant I became nauseous and I had to stopped working out gained so much weight and feel horrible with all of the sleepy anti nausea medicine that does not work that well. I feel so depressed still . I don’t want to be unthankful and I love my baby but I can’t help to feel sad depressed and not happy . I can’t wait to have her , but I am scare that my feelings may make her feel like if I don’t want her .

[@chelsearoble8032]

I came across your apartment tour and was seriously enamored with your place and your charisma. I lived in SF for 2 years and was born & raised in the Bay Area, so I felt an instant connection to your videos. After watching 2 videos, I'm proud to say I've subscribed. I love the vulnerability you have with your viewers as you take on this next chapter of your life. Wishing you and Stef all the best

[@thewhitewingedcat]

Jayme, the ambiguity that you feel and your willingness to feel all aspects of your emotional state, even the not so pretty ones, is what will make you a wonderful mother. Frankly, I find it a little concerning when someone goes into parenthood with nothing but blind optimism and naivety. It is an awesome responsibility, and I feel like having a realistic grasp on what is to come and all the emotional labour that will go into it will do you nothing but favours. That being said, things do work out. Things will fall into place. It may not always be in the most ideal way possible, but you will make it work. From the first video of yours that I saw, I knew you were a fantastic human being, and I am thrilled for your future child that they will have a mother like you--they are so incredibly lucky!

[@spiritsoulbody352]

Honestly I feel like this is how I will feel when I get pregnant one day. I think it’s sooooo okay that you feel the way you do. You’re growing a human! That’s a BIG THING. Yes there are women who can’t get pregnant and I’m sure that’s a different kind of pain all on its own. But your feelings are valid as well! Thanks for being honest!💜

[@anakirola9204]

Being in touch with your emotions is such a gift. I love that you are so raw and real. It means that you are fully in touch with who you are. This helps people too in terms of confronting societal expectations and living a fulfilled life. So proud of you.

[@didibop3063]

Thank you so much for your video! I’m 10 weeks and I’ve been so miserable I needed to watch videos and out of all the ones I’ve seen yours really touched me. I truly appreciate you 🙏🏼❤️

[@andreamartinez4842]

I’ve been watching your videos for a few months now and I think you’re so strong and a beautiful women. You shouldn’t stop KZbin because of the baby. Once you have the baby put out content what it’s really like to be a mother. You’re down to earth and honest. I’ve never seen a video like this about how you truly felt when you first found out and that’s inspiring. I always thought if you had a bad first reacting then that means your terrible but no it makes you human. Show how it really is like to raise a beautiful baby and the ups and downs but also how amazing and a blessing it is ♥️

[@katiebrown259]

I just found out I am pregnant and I am not incredibly young but still very scared. I am 19. Terrified. I feel very alone but I know one day I will find somebody who loves me and my child and I will be proud of myself. I have hope for anybody in a similar situation too.

[@uwotm8255]

i hope the adventure was worth it all, 10 months later ❤️

[@shank5138]

Such a raw video Jam, I’ve been following you for a while and am thankful that you chose to share this intimate part of your life with us. I know there are so many women out there that will watch and relate to this. Thank you for your raw honesty, all the best to you and Stefano

[@kimberlyfabro]

Thank you for being true! You are right mental health isn’t exposed as much as it should be. I am proud of you for sharing such emotions that women go through on a daily basis in a negative spectrum but are afraid to express it openly. You earned a sub for sure love you and can’t wait to see what other future videos!! You got this girl I believe in you! 😍

[@ladybugleafy380]

Thank you for doing this video 💕 I’m 31 & just got a positive - still don’t feel ready in the slightest!

[@littlemisslarachii]

girl 4 min in and I'm bawling! you are the bravest greatest lady here on youtube and I'm so thankful that I found your channel!

[@RihamOsman]

Your articulated exactly what I was feeling. Been searching for someone who was going through what I’m going through and you touched on it perfectly. Thank you ❤️

[@eringirl77]

This was so informative. Stuff people never tell you. Thank you Jam! You’re gonna be just fine. All the best!

[@alinasyu5748]

Thanks for the video! It’s really nice to finally have someone have enough courage to put this out there

[@ApsaraAllure]

You're going to be an amazing mother with your honesty, vulnerability, and your resilience for getting through this (because you will!) xx it's okay that you're feeling this way, we hear you! but take care of yourself xx stress isn't good for the baby and for u!

[@sineadwall6494]

Thank you for this video 🤩 I’m 8 weeks pregnant with my 2nd. I desperately depressed. Trying to work and care for my 2,4 year old is sooo hard. My husband is amazing thank god. I had it also with my 1st and lasted on and off for the full 9 months. Much less once 1st trimester was over. Pregnancy does not suit me. Motherhood does thankfully 😅

[@evas9735]

Awww honey. Bravo for voicing this it’s super brave. I have 3 kids and did the whole jubilant thing through the pregnancies but had mild post natal depression with my first two babies. You can’t win, and you can’t predict if/when you will feel this way, you just need to keep talking and get help if you need it. First pregnancies are scary and the leap going from 0 children to 1 child is the hardest and the most rewarding. Enjoy every minute xx

[@blancacampos4236]

I found out we were pregnant with our 4th baby, and we were in shock as well. Condoms don't work!!.... Im on week 7 and I'm a complete mess. I have anxiety attacks daily, severe nausea, and exhaustion. When its not planned its hard to accept. Im blessed to have an amazing husband who supports me in everyway, but it doesn't make it any easier.

[@beinghonest9849]

It's your baby is fine are you fine?

[@thatstraykat]

Thank you so so so much for this. I related to this SO. MUCH. almost every other word you said. this is more real than people realize. I am due in April and today was one of those not so good days where I felt down and cried for hours. again, thank you so much for positing this. I just found your account through thrifting and subscribed immediately because I loved your personality and vibes and now I love you so much more already! Keep being real. endless hugs

[@clarissajaramillo9976]

i just found out that im pregro on christmas.....and im freaking out, had so much planned out for my life. Your video is my happy medium.

[@jackiemunno8841]

Clarissa Jaramillo what did you end up doing?

[@miketurco5282]

Great video Jayme, nice job vocalizing the struggles. Love you guys, you'll be great, you have a great support system of friends and family.

[@TheVelvetKitten]

I love that someone is honest! You absolutely are the coolest for telling the truth and being honest.

[@Masterspiececo]

Thank you for sharing your honesty it’s hard to juggle the excitement and anxiety of pregnancy

[@susanvelez6534]

Jam you got this baby! I'm 56 and grew up in SF BAY AREA, I know it's expensive.... But your channel will grow and you can be a stay at home mom (SAHM) I promise. I had my son at 22 then I had my daughter at 41.... You got this mama!

[@camischneider90]

This is such a helpful video. I'm getting worse and worse by the minute though, when I heard the heartbeat I felt nothing. 😔

[@namratasurati9243]

Thank you so much for enlightening women like us.. i am so going through the same phase, the fears, the uncertainty.. stay blessed..

[@arithemer]

I appreciate you being open with us jam ! You are a beautiful strong women . You inspire others . I have no doubt your little one will ever feel scared , sad , lonely with amazing soon to be parents like you and your husband. God bless you and your mini family !❤️🌹🌸💐🌷 I hope in these last few months of your lovely journey you are at ease mentally and physically .

[@RosieVGuevara]

This is my favorite video of yours. I’m a new subscriber and love all of your content but this one made me almost cry. I went through IVF because I have reproductive issues. When I was told that i lost the pregnancy i was relieved and never said that to anyone because it’s not the most appropriate feeling. I did not feel healthy and i did not want an unhealthy baby pumped full of all the drugs I was taking just to get pregnant. I did not feel like it would be fair to do that to a baby. It’s refreshing to hear people speak how they actually feel so well done to you. I will be a forever subscriber because of this video.

[@tatianymonteiro529]

You're amazing. I just found your channel a few days ago and I'm in love. I was so sick and tired of all the fakeness that we come across online. I grew up in the states (a few years in the BAY!!) and now I live in Brazil and for a while, I've been struggling with a bit of an identity crisis and my anxiety has been painfully brutal. I've been really going through it and your videos are such a great break from that. Continue being you!! Thanks for such honest content. You are your family are beautiful.

[@helenjones9258]

Thank you for sharing this. I recently found out that I’m pregnant and I’m terrified!

[@lovely0th]

Unplanned 5th child, feeling like I physically just cant go through it again, really had other plans in life, and so totally not in a place to have another baby, really praying hard its not true :( almost scared to go to the doc coz i know she will just confirm..... thanks for the video

[@CDot300]

I needed this im on my 3rd baby not planned and going through so much emotionally craziness

[@kt334]

Thank you for being so honest!

[@ScarlettAce27]

OMG I so relate to your story...I struggle with the same things (hormonal imbalances and all the related symptoms you listed that come from that)...I have been struggling with this for so long and haven't gotten any answers...I am just so glad to know that it doesn't need to affect my fertility :)

[@HollisFuneralHome]

Hi! I’m new to your channel...I found your apartment tour 🙃 Thank you for your honesty, Jam! These waves of emotions and doubts are normal and I promise you’ll overcome your worries. You’re just figuring it out...It’s a journey. I have no doubt that you’ll be a kickass mama AND a boss!! I’m not a mom, but I have similar worries...because I think 5 years in advance...always 😅. Eventually I’m taking over my dad’s funeral home and I’m petrified to run a business with kids. But we just have to keep reminding ourselves that people do this all the time. You and your partner are a team! You can do this. ♥️

[@ErinKay]

So glad I found you! This video made me cry. Needed to watch this, even tho this is my third pregnancy... I needed this. (PS: I feel like you’re my soul sister, my head was the major part of my reiki healing also!) Can’t wait to watch your videos as a mama!

[@megankwicks]

Your roots are strong and you are strong. Thank you for sharing this and being so open and transprarent. Having a baby won’t HURT HellaJam at all, it won’t do anything but ADD to your story! Sending love!

[@shireenhg4395]

Loved the video Jayme! Thank you for the frankness and being true to what you have and are going through. Wishing you guys the very best.

[@meganvesely2101]

Just found out today I was pregnant around 5 weeks I’m seriously depressed because it wasn’t planned and my parents are not happy

[@melsplacecloset2536]

Your gonna be amazing mom/parents, I’m just happy that I get to see your family grow. That baby is gonna be beautiful. Thanks for sharing.

[@vanessadamian2293]

Thank you so much for this! Also in the same situation as you. Your going to be a great mother 🥺💫

[@recordingmylife123]

It took my mom 11 years of trying with my dad to get pregnant with my older brother. They tried everything they could for years and towards the end she said there was a time where she would cry super hard everyday because she wanted a baby so bad and then would see that literally thousands of people were getting abortions everyday.

[@rachellouise4766]

i just found your channel and i am so in love with your spirit 💛

[@yazzybananas3106]

You are an inspiration, honey. And so so so brave. You will endure anything, if you set your mind to it.

[@shannellemorel1859]

Awwwh this was so great to whatch! You we're honest and raw and helping people that are going through this right now, like myself, thank you, and I know this video was awhile but it helped ❤

[@ohsnappsx3]

Thank you for sharing your story! This video was really encouraging to watch and I wish you all the best for the rest of your pregnancy/beginning of motherhood!!

[@sosmybeautea]

I'm pregnant again 2nd child and unexpected again from failed contraception. I've been depressed and anxious but also know that a child is a blessing. My son is only 6 months old and I'm still learning to be a mother. I tried so hard to avoid getting pregnant for it to happen again. I'm 31 so it's the perfect age but not a good timing.

[@s.g2344]

I'm so glad o found this video -im 10 weeks pregnant and its hard, you're body is going through a massive change and you still have to go to work (I work full time with kids !!!!l) and be like everythings fine when secretly you threw up just before leaving for work 😅. Not to mention back ache, constant nausea, headaches, fatigue etc... Oh and you're meant to keep it a secret for some reason. 🙄 I told work at 4 weeks because I was so ill. Oh and this pregnancy was like sort of planned we literally tried not even that long but because I'm over 30 i thought it would be at least a year of trying because I kept hearing all these horror stories so yeah 😅😅. I'm sorta happy about it but not gonna lie the sickness and fatigue usually wins and I'm like why I am doing this. And this is without money worries on top of all this 😅😅. Okay rant over lol just feels good to get it all out xx

[@theHellaJam]

sending you the biggest hugs friend. you go this but remember your feelings are valid. you'll get through this

[@aprilgilreath7895]

I so needed this video today. Thank you.

[@Becominggina]

i just found your channel and I'm so in love with all this realness

[@marjoriebelliot6104]

Love you so much! Sending positive energy your way that the rest of the pregnancy goes smoothly, thank you for being strong and honest for all those who might feel that something is wrong with them! Such a beautiful soul!!(:

[@khoubrowne9017]

Aww, I'm so happy for you. I love how honest and open you are about it. Those are the exact reasons why i've been holding off on baby bearing too, but hey, you take what life gives you and love! Keep your head up high and I'm excited for you and everything wonderful that WILL DEFINITELY come along for you! :)

[@vintagemoon7815]

Thanks for your video so realistic and I can relate on so many levels!! Stay amazing 😉

[@tessacanzona610]

Thank you so much for this video, helped me a lot today 💗

[@antoinettepeeps1]

Love that you are so honest about your experiences! Can't wait to see more of your journey! 💗

[@naturallyneek2461]

Thank you so much for sharing, I love that you are so raw and real about how your feeling and sharing your pregnancy journey with us is so amazing.

[@theXshopXmeister]

So refreshing. Thank you!!

[@randomreviewsism]

Love the heart to heart! Thanks for coming on camera to discuss the other side of pregnancy. Can't wait to see more!

[@darioncooper4989]

I just found out I was pregnant a few days ago, I havent done anything but cry and sleep, I can't even get out of bed, & I don't have a boyfriend, he is a friend but i just wish i could be held, i am so back and fourth and shit about all of this

[@adamary8599]

Awe just be strong and ask God for peace, I’ll be praying for you 💕

[@darioncooper4989]

I ended up miscarrying:( thank you tho sweet girl

[@alexisdavenport8654]

You've got this girl! So excited for you!

[@miccc_g]

New subscriber here! Loved the honesty in this, thanks for sharing. I watched all your videos and now im so hooked up! You are a lovely couple, wish you all the best ♥️

[@sakka6]

Thank you for this.. I’m not alone 😔 My bf and I have been together for 6 months only. Although since the beginning we are both sure we are « eachothers ones »; it’s still very scary... I feel like we would’ve needed more time as a couple.

[@santangela85]

Dear...everything is gonna be ok...you`ll be a good good mother! You are a very sweet girl, remember..have a baby is a job, but is also a joy. Love you ❤

[@alinabaltazar7255]

That was such a beautiful video :,) you will do great in this new chapter, good luck dear friend 😊

[@llleecooper]

I needed this 😓

[@feliciab123]

great video!!! sending good vibes your way boo!

[@Patricia-mm2mr]

Thank you for sharing your experience! ☺ you two will do a great job 👍

[@cnr0118]

Wonderful video, I love how open you were in it! Also, your hellajam supporters will support you no matter what! We will 100% understand when you have the baby and you can't upload often, or you need a break! I just want you to be happy and healthy and have a healthy baby :)

[@Rwynn-q8k]

Great video. I feel like I understand you...

[@hutch9389]

13 weeks here. Baby was planned, and I am still terrified and wrought with anxiety. Hormones are ALL OVER THE PLACE

[@ankitasarkar262]

Did u get better?

[@anitaproctor5277]

Hang in there you are glowing and I know you will be a very good mom😘

[@Botanibabies]

Congrats!! Looks like you got new plant babies too 🤗

[@fridalove6203]

Thanks for the talk, so much needed.

[@xoxomichellexoxo]

This video. ❤️ THANK YOU for sharing your thoughts during your pregnancy. My anxiety was at an all time high after I had my son. But we got through it. If you have any questions or need any advice, please don’t hesitate to ask! xo

[@theHellaJam]

thank you so much for being there mama! were not alone. more women need to hear that.

[@Spreadinghope543]

I'm 11 weeks pregnant with my second child and so depressed and anxious about everything. Often times I consider suicide as an option😒. New job, new town away from my family and 3 year old son, working long hours with less pay while staying with a relative in a strange town. It's just too hard to deal with 😢😭😭😭

[@vanessasheena]

Jayme New sub here. Just want to say that you guys will be fine! As far as your worry about your KZbin content, I’d say create some and don’t stop...be it a maternity thrift haul or just your daily vlogs about this new chapter of your life...I’ll watch it 👍🏽

[@softtendril]

Thank you for sharing this with us.

[@erikaramirez6558]

👏🏼 yay Steffano! great vid! Would u mind sharing your Jess' info? Reiki healer.

[@kawsydaisy]

Thanks for sharing Jam!

[@crystaltino8765]

So proud of you :)

[@tracybowick4208]

I understand how you feel I didn't want to be pregnant I still don't but it is what it is doing it by myself the father is a jerk so it's over but anyway I'm trying to bond with this child also feeling like so many want a baby and can't so I hate to come off as insensitive to people in that situation.

[@shelbysymons6989]

I THOUGHT I WAS GOING THROUGH PERIMENOPAUSE... (A DROP TO NO MORE SEX DRIVE, REALLY BAD ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION, IRRITABLE, HOT FLASHES, ETC.) FOUND OUT NOPE... I AM PREGNANT. ( WITH MY 3RD) AND FREAKING. STILL NO IDEA HOW FAR ALONG I AM AND NO DOCTOR APPT FOR ANOTHER 3 WEEKS. THANKS FOR MAKING THE VIDEO.

[@dejaa]

Pull out method definitely doesn’t work. My hormones were going crazy so I got off birth control and pregnancy happened the very next month.

[@gm7285]

Haha the dark nipples is actually I just learned about in my anatomy and physiology course during pregnancy

[@mcrchick1990]

Thank you so much for this video. It was really inspiring.

[@patriciareid4593]

U make me lol ...u gonna b a great mom ...just b who u r and the rest is up to God

[@peggyghirardello275]

U will get support from your parents after u have baby your body will go thru changes to but u we I'll get thru it all your life will revolve around baby hubby but u will adjust