Mental Health: Living with Bipolar Disorder

[@Wonders2Ponder]

I'm bipolar type 2. I feel like the main negative thing I've experienced is the destruction of many relationships. Have lost many girlfriends, lost alotta close friends, I feel like I'm treated differently now by the friends I've been able to keep. It destroyed my military career, destroyed my credit and finances, I have a sibling who doesn't talk to me. I've started so many different educational programs and degrees I never finished. I'm so close to finishing an EMT course right now. I'm getting really anxious because it will be the first thing I accomplished since the military. My dream is to be a firefighter/paramedic. I want to help others some way. My biggest fear is that my mental illness will ruin this prospective career.

[@Wonders2Ponder]

@Jared W. Wow thanks, I did end up passing all the exams and got certified. Lol first slightly big thing I started and finished in almost 10 years

[@otsiege]

Hey I’m also bipolar and wanting to be an emt, was it difficult?

[@Wonders2Ponder]

@@otsiege get past anatomy and physiology and you'll be golden. Stay up on your meds and therapy and stay substance free. You're gonna see some things that are hard to handle. But go for it! You can do it!

[@xellenz]

​ @bchedda I can relate so much to your story it hurts man. We will come out a different breed trust me. Structure and medication is key. Live for yourself and GOD. Everyone has his/her own struggle. Those fake friends will understand some day that illnesses happen outside of our control. The feeling of knowing that they would still be in your life if you didn't have it hurts but appreciate that their mask is gone and that they show how not understanding they are.

[@MsViollentia]

I identify with the expression “destruction of many relationships.” You can’t seem to sustain any time of long-term friendship for example.

[@Skyla_and_Adina24]

I have bipolar I disorder and I’ve lost so many close friends during my manic phase. It’s like I’m a completely different person and it’s crazy

[@DK-sg3oe]

Avoid oil salt sugar ❤

[@DantheDonut369]

I'm Bipolar type 1, and what really helped me was consistent therapy combined with the right meds. Stability is possible! Really enjoyed this video

[@MsViollentia]

That gives me some hope for my case.. I’m tired of my inconsistencies and fluctuations. I want it all to end.

[@sunbeem4467]

just stay the hell away from people who dont have mentla health issues yeah we dont need your shit on are plate

[@DK-sg3oe]

​@@MsViollentia avoid oil salt n sugar

[@claudia-uy5gk]

@@MsViollentiaI hope you are having a good day and night every day!

[@timoaray]

Bipolar is the worst thing that's happened to me. 😔

[@danvizzion9209]

same

[@sunbeem4467]

just stay the hell away from people who dont have mentla health issues yeah we dont need your shit on are plate

[@TranceGurl20]

I take that over acne

[@tannergrinzel1835]

I know how that goes

[@leongordon8185]

Real

[@mr.sniffles7268]

Thank you for making an accurate representation of bipolar disorder. We're often portrayed in the media as serial killers, abusers, and so forth. In actuality We're everyday people with serious mental health struggles

[@DK-sg3oe]

Don't worry just avoid oil salt sugar ❤ 3 mths on u can b back 2normal

[@6894q]

@@DK-sg3oe how insensitive

[@toniaparker3543]

OMGOODNESS, I know the feeling. I went through so much meditation before finding 3 just to help take the edge off. I still have episodes, just not as bad sometimes. I still get heaviness in the chest sometimes just not as bad bad. Bipolar dealing with trauma can definitely be challenging! Praise God we all are still alive. His word definitely keeps me💞💯

[@kevinmartin1990]

My hope is that people are more compassionate for people with mental illness I’ve always longed for a friend who excepts me for it and cares for me

[@ig1640]

Bi polar disorder feels like living two lives totally different.

[@criswihara4708]

I always cry before sleeping, almost everyday.

[@stephaniedegange2737]

i understand

[@exia00z57]

I feel it more when i wake up

[@nazrinjamalkhanli]

Same i think this is because of disorder I have bipolar disorder like almost 2 years and

[@Freyas666]

I hate to see a daylight.... Wish I could just go to sleep and stay like that

[@ssorel1983]

I can’t even get out of bed for hours after waking up during my depressive episodes

[@ndetv647]

me too.

[@FireWork-nc8ib]

😢This .OMG 😢

[@eowynsaenkham8495]

I was super scared before watching this, I'm in the process of getting see a psychiatrist for my confirmation and whatever comes after that and I was kinda shocked because I had originally horn to the doctor because I thought that I had ADHD when in actuality I was just having a manic episode, fast thoughts and speaking, irritation, no need sleep, weird focus patterns (not being able to focus on anything or not being able to stop focusing on something), and feeling like I could do anything with no consequence, it was shortly after that that my mood just plummeted which was a shock to my friends and family. But now I feel slightly more secure.

[@tnez1702]

So I’m not the only person to keep planners!! I love my planner. It does really help me keep in check with those manic episodes 📚 I been struggling with mental illness for over a decade! Just gotta keep LIVING 🌎 (even thru this quarantine time)

[@AnaBasile]

You're not alone! For some reason I discovered that many bipolar type 1 are keeping theirs mental health using planners. I've been doing it for 3 years and after my last depression episode I decided keep one with me and use it with a lot of discipline. Even with the quarantine in Brazil (I'm from Rio de Janeiro) working and studying from home I'm keeping very productive, with great notes and health.

[@tnez1702]

Ana Paula Basile .. sane here! Work and school is a great distraction! Being so focused on it has made my depression feel better and my bipolar disorder has been stagnant.

[@MsViollentia]

I rely heavily on my phone’s calendar due to my unreliable memory issues. It’s so awful and horrible to have this kind of forgetfulness.

[@maskalaskaessade1046]

Anyone else here for tips on how to handle their own Bipolar?

[@technicolortigerlily]

I got diagnosed with bipolar 1 at 16, I’m 28 now. I’ve had around 5 or 6 manic episodes in that time but have had a few years of stability. What helps me is of course the medication. I take lithium and trazodone to sleep. Having a schedule is huge and staying productive keeps me from going into a depressive episode. Sleep is of course a huge factor, having a psychiatrist you trust is important but can take a long time. Quitting meds without a doctors orders can be really bad, so its best to stay on something unless its making you suicidal. Having someone you trust to talk to helps, self care helps, and just overall giving yourself love and respect every day helps which is hard. But youre doing the best you can and you can live a good life with this disorder! 💜

[@dearmarie]

hereeee

[@SpiritMan00]

Firstly I was diagnosed with psychosis at the age of 30, then schizophrenia and now bipolar. It's been very very difficult. Now I'm 34 turning 35, I have not fully recovered. I'm very religious too trying to get right with Jesus to heal me and blaming my sins for the cause of my illness. I trust the Catholic/Christian way but sometimes I feel it's not working.

[@MassachusettsTrainVideos1136]

See a doctor and take meds

[@maskalaskaessade1046]

@@MassachusettsTrainVideos1136 it may stun you to learn that this had already occurred to me 🤣🤣🤣

[@creativelyanalytic]

Very insightful. Thank you for letting us in. Wishing you both the best!

[@patwhite8106]

One bone of contention: bipolar one means you've had a manic episode while bipolar 2 has only had hypomanic states. Bipolar 1 can be predominately in the depressed stage with mania only coming once in a while

[@mouhsineserbouti9935]

You make me cried because I’m just like you ... from good to bad to no body to strange in me ... I’m dealing with it every single day .. insomnia take all bench meds no sleep night time ...

[@tenkaichi21]

is talking really helps? my current situation makes me trying to push everyone even my own family.. it feels upsetting to listen to any advise, i just feel like i want the earth to swallow me alive.

[@vanessaalexandra3724]

Hey there, hang in there. We all can get through this. Don't forget to drink water xx

[@FireWork-nc8ib]

The truth is that nobody cares or try to understand , so why bothers ?

[@TherapyToThePoint]

Thank you for sharing this video, I wish there were more research and techniques to help those who are battling Bipolar 1 and Bipolar 2.

[@doriskingchen]

There is a lot of research on estrogen dominance connected to bipolar disorder. Please look into Dr. Lee's work to find out ways to heal.

[@aleciamarie817]

Ever since my mom passed away i been feeling sad crying everyday its been a year since she passed and i try so hard to be happy for my son but i feel like i can never truly be happy i cry everyday and my dad always puts me down and call me names and that makes my depression worse and doesn't help :( i just wanna be truly happy again and sometimes i feel like that never gonna happen

[@suryateja1713]

Firstly, come out of your father house. Second, chill out with people. Third, you are not alone. Fourth, you will be happy again. Trust me ! It may happen in the next second but you should have the patience to wait until that.

[@doriskingchen]

I'm sorry your mom passed. I hope you are feeling better.

[@roshanmathew9443]

Haley avoid oil salt sugar ❤tc child

[@DjFlyguyNz]

Thank you VICE Asia loving and feeling this story.

[@michaelknapp8961]

I’m bipolar 2 and I go to a therapist once a month but after that I have zero support from my wife and family. They don’t understand it and don’t care. I feel like I’m all alone dealing with this all by myself. I feel like I’m the family freak. In the city I live in I can’t find one support group in the whole city. You would think that there would be but there’s not!! That would be very helpful.

[@kevinmartin1990]

Bipolar has made me who I am it’s taught me to have be kind it’s showed me the worse parts of myself and the sadder darker parts but it’s also given me crazy ideas not sure what I think of those😂but if I could give it up I would in a second sadly that’s not an option but I think reguardless I’m still gonna be ok❤️

[@laonephasele4759]

I was diagnosed with depression and also given an antidepressant. Then The episodes continued. Months of active, optimism then boom months of deep depression. Honestly, the depression is the worst part. I left the pills and continued on. I thought I was better. Then certain things happened. I got depressed. I dealt with the issues and just last week I thought I could take on the world. Now this week I'm depressed. What's funny is that I'm realising a pattern. My depression now, makes no sense to me. Mentioning all this I didn't include the fact that I have so much anxiety that it is physically straining for me to hold a conversation with anyone. Then there's the obsession with sex and porn. Which I don't feel bad for but I do see it is abnormal to an extent now because of certain situations. Ever just talk and realise what you said afterward🤦🏾‍♂️. I'm in Botswana. Here they call it witchcraft. You can imagine why I don't want pills as people will know. A pharmacist referred me to a witchdoctor when I got my anti psychotics. Imagine that. I can't focus on any goal because if I'm manic I do it. When I get depressed I become physically incapable of doing it🤦🏾‍♂️. It's like every week I have to make a life changing decision 🤦🏾‍♂️. What helped me out as kid was focusing heavily on schoolwork but every time we closed I'd get depressed. Now I'm in university. The workload is that demanding so my mind roams constantly. Shifting from take on the world to I wish I didn't exist. It's funny now that I can actually view and understand my irrational behaviour yet I am physically incapable of controlling it. I've read quora, listened to jordan peterson and read all the self help books. Imagine wanting to help yourself but to no avail.

[@DK-sg3oe]

Avoid oil salt sugar ❤

[@stephaniedegange2737]

i live with bipolar...it is challenging and sometimes i feel confused

[@justarandomfan2421]

As a someone with bipolar discord I an mostly happy than sad If something bad happens I go into depression or feel sad asf..

[@doriskingchen]

Yes, it's a tough disease for sure.

[@JohnBell-wh7he]

I’ve done it all - up/down for 33 years. TERRIBLE video of what bipolar is REALLY LIKE. This, for some, is reality, but NOT everyone. I’m fine and have been for decades. If you’re BP, don’t believe this is just the way it is. Educate with science, not journalism who clearly picked two cases for a vid to draw views. That’s all they are. Just two people. Your life will be your experience. Tool yourself, live smart, and don’t buy this is the way is going to be…. The vid can be a cage. Don’t let it lock you in…enjoy a brilliant, creative, great life.

[@HT.100]

Should do a vid about what's it like to have a person with bpd in your family

[@HT.100]

@Lewis C. and then you can't do shit against her because she'll bring up her bpd

[@sarajane3047]

My husband has it and to be honest sometimes it's hard but we work on it. You can have a happy loving relationship with someone who has it. All relationships take work no matter what but also everyone is different so for me and my husband we are always working toward a common goal and that helps us with the bumps in the road..... And communication really helps too.(for us)

[@WhitneyDahlin]

BPD actually stands for BORDERLINE personality disorder not BiPolar disorder. They are very very different mental illnesses and using bpd as an acronym for Bipolar Disorder which is known as Manic Depressive disorder (MDD) doesn't work because people think you are talking about a totally different disorder than you are

[@WhitneyDahlin]

@@HT.100 unfortunately that's how a lot of people are. They act like terrible people and hurt others and then when people try to hold them accountable for their actions they hide behind a mental illness as an excuse to not be held responsible. It's disgusting and far FAR too common to see nowdays. You should definitely double down and call them out twice as hard if anyone pulls the mental illness card. Being mentally ill doesn't give people the right to do whatever they want with no consequences. It means they have to put in the time and effort to get better and make sure their actions aren't hurting others. It's a slap in the face to everyone who has mental illness and who DO put in the hardwork, time and effort to get better and who apologize when they hurt others and actually try to do/be better. Anyone who hides behind a mental illness is someone to RUN far FAR away from regardless of the circumstances. A person who is really sorry for what they did would apologize, give no excuses and you would see them trying harder to do better. If you don't see that from someone they aren't sorry and they will continue treating you like sh*t then play the victim when you call them out.

[@Sharon-sw7mr]

@@WhitneyDahlin You don't understand bipolar. Yes, I hold myself accountable for my actions, but the brain changes are real and result in uncharacteristic behaviors that result in great shame after the hypomania/mania episode ends. And it is a hard life to have bipolar. Compassion is needed. People don't choose mental illness.

[@mischalecterTV]

meds and treatment hasn't worked. ive been in a center before too and I refuse to go back because it didn't work and it was awful. Ive been treated for nearly 20 years now.

[@rashidbashir641]

Reiki is helpful And mindfulness meditation is also helpful Creative writing is helpful too

[@RoyChopra-xj7wh]

TRANSCENDENTAL MEDITATION ❤❤🌹🌹🧠🧠📖 NICE

[@joe-hl9rl]

I hate self diagnosing but I think I have some sort of neurological difference in my brain and it truly effects how I see the world and myself. Things change nearly daily and routine is impossible, I deny feeling depressed although sleep in until 4 pm and drink on work nights. I just want to figure this out and get it under control but even with therapy I can't get into a god damn psychologists office even after telling my therapist I have had delusional thoughts.

[@Rakscha-Sun]

Do not go to a psychiatry or tell people that you are different. You will be bullied and stigmatized, tortured and poisoned and this will not stop until you are only a shadow of your former self. In medieval times social outcasts did go to a cripple maker because only as a cripple they where deemed so harmless that they where allowed to survive. This is what psychiatry is for, they are cripple makers.

[@nathansidhu6723]

Pray to God for these people. They can be helped.

[@sammudila8113]

My Father shows same symptoms but the phase duration generally lasts about one and a half year , he refuses to acknowledge that he has a disease as mental illness is still a taboo somehow, among many other things. My Father is an ex army person and gets real violent real quickly during manic phase, so hoping to get past this coming one and a half year without getting in trouble or dying.

[@user-or6br9tw6u]

he probably killed alot of people and is traumatized

[@user-or6br9tw6u]

@Jacob Parmenter it wasn't supposed to be helpful

[@DK-sg3oe]

Don't give him oil salt or sugar ever

[@Rakscha-Sun]

Ok folks, if people say they would not want to be different how likely is it that this is an illness at all and not just a genetic difference (for which you are bullied and which hence can make life difficult?) If I would ask someone with Diabetes or cancer: would you want to live without it? Would he answer: no it‘s part of me, what I am?

[@csanchez3961]

I do not take medication, i hate pills after being hospitalized. I even have trouble taking vitamin pills ☹ I need help, but I don't trust psychiatrist

[@doriskingchen]

I understand your concerns. I had the same concerns when I was diagnosed.

[@Maddie-rv6sp]

ugh i think i have this!! life is really difficult to function in.

[@doriskingchen]

I agree. Bipolar disorder makes it very difficult to live.

[@doriskingchen]

Awesome description of bipolar disorder. Spot on.

[@MsViollentia]

BPD is oppressive in a sense that if you don’t seek medical advice or help you’re actually oppressing yourself by not seeking to treat yourself and expecting God to just magically treat it.

[@kevinmartin1990]

Me too😔

[@che19045]

I’m not sure if I have bipolar because I basically have all the symptoms of bipolar type 2 but I haven’t been diagnosed/tested I’m not sure if I should get tested or not

[@MassachusettsTrainVideos1136]

Get tested it can't hurt

[@roshanmathew9443]

Yes u certainly shd they do have meds that help but avoid oil sugar salt

[@rlewistmi]

Great video guys, good job and congrats for moving forward and being positive. Bipolar is unfortunately a death sentence for some. As for the question at the end? F**K YEAH I wish I didn’t have the bipolar diagnosis lmao. Wouldn’t miss it one bit!

[@xgengx7530]

Effexor and Ritalin worked for me

[@Cassie03]

It might not be as bad when you are single and have friends and family to support you, but as a wife and mother of 3 kids with really no support from friends or family (although I do from my husband), if they asked me if I would choose to not have bipolar disorder, heck yes I would!

[@allenwestee8364]

I'll never shake my bi polar

[@katiewilkins8237]

I have bipolar type 2

[@allenwestee8364]

Yup it sucks

[@cas8920]

Good grief...I would choose not to have mental illness, that could be the bipolar talking though...

[@slvayz3586]

when your early and don't know what to comment

[@mssdn8976]

That music! Not needed, so loud

[@torrianashorter8595]

Yeah I got it too. It’s whatever lmfaooooo

[@vayneaurelius5238]

Vice Asia? more like Vice Reupload

[@deeh9563]

Who cares if someone new is getting info that may be helpful to them?

[@vayneaurelius5238]

@@deeh9563 Fair enough, but still it wont change the fact that this is reuploaded video from another vice's channel from months ago. Not new nor original.

[@harsharya545]

Why do people have this disorder?

[@sandysree1]

It can be variety of reasons but mostly it's extreme emotional trauma or pain that experienced over a period of time which you be years for some

[@WhitneyDahlin]

@@sandysree1 uhhhh what? I think you're thinking of bpd or borderline personality disorder. THAT is caused by environmental factors alone or PTSD which is caused by trauma rewiring the brain. Bipolar Disorder is a chemical imbalance in the brain. The brain is unable to regulate production of dopamine and serotonin so sometimes there's too much serotonin and dopamine which is what causes mania and then the brain stops making it and the person crashes into a depression caused by not enough serotonin and dopamine. This disorder can sometimes be triggered by environmental factors but there isn't always an environmental trigger. There HAS to be an environmental trigger for someone to have PTSD or BorderLine personality disorder

[@sandysree1]

@@WhitneyDahlin i agree with you on this but the cause for the creation of chemical imbalance is the prolonged emotional pain or stress that has been poorly managed or at least that is in my case cause I've been diagnosed with type 2 Bipolar.

[@clementine793]

@@sandysree1 um... no, that’s not how chemical imbalances are created in the brain. People are just born with them. That’s why bipolar disorder is a genetic disorder, it’s in your hardwiring. When a person goes through a stressful or traumatizing event, a depressive or manic episode can be TRIGGERED (like the girl in the video after seeing the dead body), but the chemical imbalance isn’t created as a reaction to the event. I also have Bipolar type II

[@doriskingchen]

It's genetic stemming from hypomethylation which causes the brain to malfunction and the disease to express.

[@MetalSammie]

Doesnt exist! ,:(

[@budddeath3968]

Living with these people is hell

[@doriskingchen]

I agree. It can be hell living with someone with bipolar disorder and those living with the disease often feel they are living in hell. It's so important this disease is healed at the core to make life better for everyone involved.

[@saidyv6561]

"These people"? Lol be grateful its not you

[@stevensanchez4687]

Lol and who u supposed to be?

[@luciasosa4500]

I was diagnosed a year ago after having many manic episodes within a few weeks. I feel like I knew all my life but I also have PCOS and they have similar symptoms, so unfortunately it went undiagnosed for a long time. The weird thing for me is that when I’m at work it’s almost like I can click it off but I’ve come to realize that my job is what worsens my mania. When I get home I crash and it’s been very hard to deal with. I started on lithium as my first trial run and after a few months, lots of blood work, and one really bad manic episode later my brain decided I was done with the medicine. I went on a fast downward spiral 😢 it almost destroyed my life. I am finally on medication that allows me to still feel something but have a clear mind, my manic episodes have gotten shorter, my anger has calm. I am very nervous that one day it will stop progressing, or that my mind will tell me I’m okay and I’m not. I pray for everyone going through this 🤎