VLOGMAS 2020: PART TWO! | Fleur De Force

[@kelleywilliams1216]

I totally understand the idea of being happy about friends pregnancies and births whilst also feeling sad that your not in that situation. It's perfectly normal to feel like that we're only human. ❤️

[@michellecuthbert7972]

Makes me sad that you are worried about sharing if you have an “off day” because you “got so much” You are human and everyone has off days, sending you lots of love and positive vibes through these crazy times from Switzerland 🌟

[@notesfrommybookshelf]

@Charlotte Lot does going to Dubai stop you from having off days forever then? Wow, must try it.

[@musume11]

I feel like no matter how many times you show us your house, there is still a new space or area come up once in a while that we have never seen before !

[@luckyducky280]

I fell the same way about everyone being pregnant right now and totally feel the same way. I've had a miscarriage and everytime I see an announcement its like a punch in the heart. Doesnt mean you aren't happy for them. You can be happy for them and sad for your situation at the same time.

[@thesagetraveler7649]

I had a miscarriage last month ( my first pregnancy). It's hard because it does seem like literally everyone is pregnant right now. Definitely feel the same way.

[@fatemafatima1233]

See this advice i can use for my situation too. Thanks

[@MisssJessicaaa]

I've had a miscarriage back in May.. It was my first pregnancy and I didn't told anyone except my husband for a little while and then I got a message from my mom who went to visit my cousin because she just had a baby literally a few days after my miscarriage so my mom was sending me photo's of her and my dad holding their newborn and I just broke.. I called my husband while sobbing and even though I was super happy for my cousin ofcourse, I also felt extremely sad and emotional at the same time and that's ok.. I am now 23 weeks pregnant with a healthy, active little girl so don't worry dear.. I am sure you will be able to carry another baby soon. Sending lots of love and strength to you and all other mommas in similar situations ❤❤❤❤

[@francessingleton1555]

It's a rubbish club to be in.

[@HelloBombshell21]

this is how I feel about engagements, marriage, weddings, babies, all of it... I’m 26 i engaged and completely alone.. happy for them but sad for me

[@palominodream]

“Get ready for the jingle” gets me going 🤣

[@alleycats1274]

If Fleur has designed jewellery with Monica Vinader then RIP my bank balance

[@alexandrafingleton7407]

I hope she does. It’s beautiful and not too expensive. I hate the cheap stuff passed out by KZbinrs. This is quality.

[@barbaravyse660]

😂

[@laurad6037]

Yes! I would actually buy it all haha

[@PiaffePiaffe]

Ditto! Fleur has such beautiful taste in jewellery 💕

[@jinanh2712]

Would definitely buy them as well. Might as well start saving 😂

[@LilyHeartsCosmetics]

River is such a little ray of sunshine, it's so lovely to hear her chat away and get a little cheeky in vlogs!

[@sharonmaire]

I feel like everyone I know is either pregnant or just had a baby. Even a lot celebrities are pregnant or just had a baby. I imagine it’s hard to constantly get bombarded with baby news. ❤️❤️ fingers crossed for a happy thyroid for you in 2021

[@Beckyh921]

river saying buy mike haha made me giggle 🤣 xx

[@jaimiedavies4415]

That’s lovely that River loves her new “school”. I found my little one was much better going to nursery after lockdown. Pre lockdown he used to cry everyday when we left him, now he practically runs in! It’s like he’s fed up of us 😂

[@Theoptimisticbeach]

Thank you for sharing a little bit of your life with us: I have been following your channel for nearly 10 years (which makes me feel so old, I was still at uni when I discovered your channel, back in the days when you lived in your old-old house, with mike and woofey 😊) and your vlogmas videos have always been amongst the ones I loved the most. I always like, but rarely comment on your videos but thank you so much for continuing to put out such amazing content. I don’t know you personally but feel in a way that we have grown up together, since we have been trough pretty much the same stages of life at the same time (I am also 32... 😅) Sending lots of love to you and your family ❤️

[@jennifererb8565]

Many of my girlfriends are struggling the same as you and it's okay to feel sad about it ❤️ Thinking and praying for your family especially through this season 🎄☃️

[@elainehoward8822]

Hi Fleur, please don’t loose hope sweetheart, I’m sure everything will be fine. Sending you love and prayers xxxxx

[@CLR10251]

I completely understand how you are feeling and it is totally normal! So many women feel the same at some point in their life. Maybe mute the social media accounts you don't want to see all the time. They won't know. I have had to do that with a few people to protect my mental health.

[@JustineeeTorp]

My mind went straight to 50 Shades of Grey when I saw the "Red Room" 🤣😂

[@tuulicamilla]

Mute the accounts that trigger you, you can easily unmute them when you’re in a better place! I’m currently in the middle of my first IVF cycle and know exactly how you feel, sending you love! ❤️

[@thesagetraveler7649]

River reminds me of the little girls in The Holiday. She's such a doll! And that curly hair!

[@daisykrygowski2735]

I agree with you. It's hard when you are trying to have a baby to way h everyone tell you that they are pregnant. I completely understand you!

[@lesliethiel428]

You know you're a full on mom when a Costco haul is the excitement of the day. LOL And never apologize for feeling. It's ok to have a bad day. Big hugs and stay safe.

[@rakwil]

When you were talking about trying to have another baby and being saddened by what you see/hear in social media...this is exactly why you have been the only KZbinr I’ve been following from the very beginning...a little over 10 years now...because you have been and still are a very genuine person and that makes you so relatable. Thank you for that 🤗

[@jlongino51823]

It’s important to hold space for the things that hurt us and to recognize that we can be thankful happy and sad at the same time. Thinking of you.

[@Mariemgt123]

Beautifully put!

[@marupashepakhan8563]

Definitely can relate with the sad feeling when you see announcements. Even if you have a child or children already doesn't make it easier at all. Fingers crossed for both of us ❤️

[@ellieboa]

we're here whenever you want to share any struggles! we're all just doing our best, love you x

[@jenmiller2208]

My husband and I had fertility issues as well. I totally get where you’re at mentally. You are gut punched every time you see a pregnancy announcement but then guilty for feeling that way. I just encourage you to let yourself feel the way you feel and keep talking it out with people who love and support you. Allow yourself the down days; you have earned the right. Here’s to a better 2021!!! ❤️❤️❤️

[@hemaliashani7266]

I relate 100% to you on the baby thing, trying to have one too and everyone around me is announcing babys even though I am happy for them it’s frustrating.

[@Meaganttv]

Love your vlogs, Fleur. Its lovely seeing you grow into the woman you are today. I 100% feel you on the IG stories. As a single woman without kids, sometimes I feel slightly sad when I see that other people have what I don't. But you're a lovely person, things will all work out as planned. Lots of love.

[@JulieM-bx1ou]

Yay get ready for the jingle 😍 your vlogs have been such a huge help during this difficult year, thank you 🙏 Sending you a lot of love, and thanks for sharing- so many of us are having bad days and it’s ok. I appreciate your honesty and understand exactly what you’re saying.

[@bklewin]

Your vlogs are so great and so fun! Thank you for your honesty about how rubish this year has been and how rubish it is to be going through health issues that cause issues with fertility. I had health issues last year and then a miscarriage and following the miscarriage I felt as though everyone else was announcing pregnancies and I totally understand that you aren't necessarily jealous but don't want to see it. Basically I "snoozed" them on instagram so that I wouldn't see them but it wasn't an unfollow or anything like that. For my mental health it really helped. I hope that your health issues are resolved soon! Merry Christmas! Thanks for vlogmas!

[@adhaincroi]

I have been fighting uphill on a fertility journey for years now. I feel your pain. You are happy for those that have managed to get pregnant or have their babe but there are a lot of extra emotions around that due to what you have and are going through. Its perfectly normal and those of us who are fighting this battle understand you. The experts say it is a type of grief that is similar to the grief of loss. Just allow for your emotions and don't feel guilty you are already dealing with enough.

[@GirlMeetsNeverland]

I’ve struggled with infertility for a total 7 years and have one child to show for it - I always dreamed of having a big family but I don’t see that happening now. Know that you aren’t alone and there’s a huge community of women going through it with you. There’s nothing I can say to make you feel better but I’m sending all my love and good vibes your way. 💛

[@gracelovestoffee]

i’m sure it must feel very strange to be so open and vulnerable but i really appreciate hearing that i’m not the only one feeling the way i do. we’re three years into unsuccessful rounds of ivf (though not much progress this year with covid) and like you i feel like EVERYONE is pregnant. it’s so hard because you are simultaneously so happy for people and want to share in their joy but it just highlights everything missing in your own life. i think coming to the end of the year it’s natural to reflect and it just highlights for me that it’s another year without a baby. trying to be kind to myself. i hope you’re going easy on yourself. enjoy the gin while you can, you will get your happy ending ♥️ wishing you, mike and river a very happy christmas

[@whenitwasme1103]

It seems like EVERYONE is pregnant at the moment, im in a similar position to you and its so so difficult! Sending love to you both x

[@charliestjohn8342]

Fleur, thank you 😘 your talking about your down days when trying for a baby is actually really brave and important. We’ve been trying for 7 years, and I’ve had 3 miscarriages. The pain of seeing other pregnancies when you are struggling yourself is a valid and normal emotion; but not one that it ever talked about. Of COURSE we are delighted when others succeed and have babies! But other people’s joy also holds a mirror up to your own life and shows you what you are lacking. But because this type of loss and struggle is so personal, we keep it to ourselves, and then couples think they are strange for feeling the envy and sadness when society says ‘you must feel ONLY joy, do you hear!?’ One day, I also hope that, through it being shared more, people making pregnancy announcements on social media will take just a few moments to consider that their amazing, wonderful news also reminds some of their private pain - I’ve seen so many people announce pregnancies in such a kind, sensitive and thoughtful way recently. Wouldn’t it be an amazing world if we all supported each other though our joys and sorrows Xxx

[@Mokiecon]

What I have been loving the last 9 months is watching Costco trips and hauls so to see a UK version makes me super excited. I love that you did the math comparison on the sausage and burgers, makes me like you even more. You can totally feel ok about muting people on IG even if only temporarily. They won't know but will make you feel better and we all need that now.

[@katfire4]

Thank you for being real Fleur, it's one of the reasons that your content and vlogs are my favorite!

[@sammygee87]

Mute the accounts on Instagram that aren’t for you right now...they’ll never know! Sending you lots of love 😘

[@kendalkohler2636]

The ornament with the gold coin for advent is amazing and I’m going to try it with my daughter next year! ❤️

[@Anniloves21]

Loves this vlogmas video. Show us your grocery hauls. We love it. Sending you a heavenly hug

[@jaammps4ever]

Fleur, just mute them for now if that helps your mental health. I hope everything turns up for you.

[@leamayfrench]

Thank you for your honesty! My gorgeous boy has just turned 1, and I always wanted to have a few kids! But my pregnancy with him was very complicated and due to my health (I had heart failure!) I was sterililised during my c section. I haven't quite fully mourned the fact I'll never be pregnant again or be able to give him and siblings (I know there are other ways). Seeing everyone else have their second and third pregnancies is definitely a punch in the stomach, and I feel so guilty for not just being grateful to have him in the first place (which I am more than anything!) It's just a shitty situation, but it helps so much when we all talk about the loss and the highs I think! Sending you all the best for the future of your family xx

[@rubinasrecipes7105]

Love a good Costco haul, we were there at the weekend too! Sending you all the positive vibes Fleur and prayers for a healthy pregnancy very soon Xx

[@sarahg2022]

Fleur, really LOVE your jumper, looks super cosy. Where is it from please? Lovely festive blog btw 😊

[@jessicahobin]

Also want to know, so pretty!

[@coolchlo]

I totally understand how you're feeling - we've been trying for a long time now and totally understand how it feels each and every time there's an announcement. Chin up, girl x

[@Makeupjunkie09]

Nothings beats a Fleur vlogmas (or videos in general) ☺️

[@annlanta]

Appreciate you discussing the more difficult parts of life. Very relatable.

[@julianapinnell3569]

I enjoy watching you and your family, it has become part of my Christmas tradition. Lots of hugs for you xoxoxo 💚♥️💚♥️

[@katelivingit9766]

Completely understand the negative feelings about other pregnancies - I (unexpectedly) spent 7 years trying to have my second & every pregnancy announcement was like a knife in the heart, no matter how happy you may also be for them. It’s so tough & you’re allowed to feel how you feel. But don’t lose heart as I’m now back from the school run & trapped on the sofa under my five month old! Wishing you the very best of luck xx

[@foo8lover]

You can ''desactivate'' stories and/or post from people you follow from your actual feed. They will never know and you can reactivate when you feel like it. Just sayin'

[@vaidehij1]

River's voice is so adorable! ❤️

[@clove4240]

Awww omg my grandfather bought me the entire Beatrix Potter box book set for my first birthday .....several decades ago 😉. I still have them, they are gorgeous!

[@nandas6035]

Thank you for sharing your thyroid issues, I suffer from thyroid myself, I was diagnosed not long ago, and, tbh it helps to hear people going throught the same and talk openly about their experience.

[@donnanancekivell9430]

Love all the critters on the tree so sweet,,perfect for River..........you don’t need to feel bad Fleur....you can be happy for your friends and they will be happy for you when it happens.........the house is looking lovely with all the trees, will be so different this year for everyone....stay well.........Donna in toronto

[@HelenMason463]

I'll never get over how beautiful that kitchen is! Lovely vlog Fleur x

[@abisnail8]

If you need time not seeing some people's posts on Instagram you can mute them until you feel like you're ready to see their pictures again, no need to unfollow! Hope this helps 😊

[@sassystevens]

Do you still have your flat in London Fleur? Really enjoying your blog as as ever, thanks for sharing with us xx

[@rtongcn]

Costco haul! I still love wandering through Costco. Definitely picking up a roku gin now. Have been wondering if it’s any good.

[@misshaack]

I understand the sentiment of "why should I complain others have it worse" but it's essentially a scale... some days will be better than others no matter how much or how little you have. Yes, it's good to step back and reflect on positives during hard times, however that doesn't negate the fact you're allowed to be sad or stressed or frustrated. This would be true anytime, but is especially true in 2020. Be kind to yourself and that's a good place to start. ❤️

[@terryfischer1070]

I was wondering who was in your bed and realized it was River. I didn't expect to her look so big. Where has the time gone? I love seeing her being happy and silly. And that wild hair just makes me smile!

[@morganblalock873]

This made me smile soooo much, Fleur. Loving vlogmas so far. Riv saying "Byeee Mike" cracked me up! PS I now really want a cheeky little cocktail!

[@jennifershakespeare9705]

Your feelings about seeing other peoples pregnancy announcements are so valid. I’m in a similar position and completely understand. Just look after yourself x

[@cobalong]

I totally feel you regarding people getting pregnant around you. My heart would absolutely drop when someone else announced. I had people get pregnant and give birth while I was still waiting. Please mute them on social media, it really helped me. You need the luxury to feel safe and relaxed if you're doing some mindless relaxation scrolling - don't let stuff creep into that you time if you can avoid it. Thinking of you, I believe you'll eventually get there like I finally did. ❤

[@aliciarichards7941]

Omg the Magic Sketch is so nostalgic!! I used to have the "analogue" version as a child that were essentially post-it note pages where you scratch off the black layer with a wooden stick to reveal the rainbow paper below. So cool to see they've updated it and it still exists!

[@aamymx]

Thankyou for talking about your feelings. I’ve had two miscarriages this year and it can be difficult when it feels like you’re not getting anywhere. I also completely understand how you feel about seeing other people’s pregnancies/babies- I found it helpful to mute those I followed who were pregnant and just went on their accounts to ‘Like’ things on my terms, when I felt ready. I couldn’t deal with feeling emotionally winded by a picture when clicking on Instagram and it felt like I could control it more. Wishing you and your family all the best and a happy Christmas xxx

[@AndraDorolti]

I am enjoying watching these vlogs and loving to see how cosy your home is, it's so beautiful!

[@kirstenrubberducky]

It just isn't Christmas until Mike tells us to get ready for the jingle! Also, thank you for sharing about having a down day. Feel like that's something most of us can relate to right now and it's refreshing to hear people talking honestly about it. I've found a lot of comfort in your videos this year, so I hope you're able to find comfort in us too. xx

[@hajarhalim5043]

I was watching your vlogmas from last year hahh. So happy to get a new one to watch. Love you and your family.

[@jonieanthony3991]

Are you designing jewelry with vinader? 😃

[@phoebe261]

Fleur’s channel always feels like a warm hug from a friend; good day or bad day, you’re such a genuinely lovely human, and your audience appreciate you 💕

[@debwebster7172]

I love your chunky jumper who is it by ? Could you tag it .

[@Kae-ToyaLee]

The Christmas Chronicles 2 is a good film as well.

[@eliemai12]

Really enjoying watching your old Vlogmasses in the runup to Christmas 2021!🎄❄⛄

[@buda2049]

I love you and I love your work, you always do your best and you never fake anything this is so beautiful and noble. Some makes their vlog very sad that it brings you down or fake a very happy vlog which also brings you down. Thank you Fleur , wish you joy and happiness ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@RC-zm2xm]

I totally understand what you mean about seeing people around you pregnant and having mixed feelings. I realised that today was supposed to be my due date, but I miscarried in May. Now I decided to draw a line under 2020 and write the year off completely. Let's start fresh in Jan.

[@mrshally454]

Last Christmas made me cry so dang much..... just thinking about it and I’m tearing up!

[@PerfumedByTheSea]

Every time I watched it I’ve cried - praying for time is the perfect song when Kate works out the twist!!!

[@reshma6821]

I remember finding you through Elle Fowler’s videos back in the day and it’s crazy to me how is similar your lives are. I know she is also going through some fertility issues and it pains me to see both of you going through this. You are such a positive person Fleur! I’m hoping next year will bring you so much happiness

[@alisonsundstrom7411]

I appreciate your candor. It’s nice to watch happy and uplifting content. But it’s also nice to know that I’m not the only one struggling through this period. I think a balance is good. I appreciate content that is real and down to earth.

[@ginaprasad7695]

I know how you feel ❤️ we have a daughter which I had through IVF. Love her so much that I want to give her a sibling ❤️ But 5 years later after a lot of money and 2020 being the year that it is...having 3 embryo transfers this year. Having friends telling me about pregnancy. It's hard... So hard🙁😢

[@loulabellakb]

Everyone has off days whether you have "so much" or have nothing. Never feel like you cant share both good and bad. Iv watched you for so so long and and you are amazing. It's understandable to get upset over those things. You are human after all xx

[@CRG_]

Something about Mike saying River when cooking gave me all the feels. It felt so sweet for some reason..

[@vanessanewbold7574]

I don’t know how many years I follow you now years and years and years... and I’m always so super excited for Vlogmas! My favorite!!

[@Helloitsme_Alex]

River is so sweet! You have every right to feel how you feel, your feelings are valid and it’s typical when you’re feeling a type of way you see the things that feed the feelings. Big love ❤️

[@alexandrathomas5694]

Oh Fleur... I want to reach into my TV and give you a hug. I know how you feel, hopefully time will heal all this. We have to stay in the present and stay in our own lanes. Sending so much love xx

[@lucywoolnough4306]

Did you see river listening to fleur in the car when she was talking about calling it school not nursery. River so figured what was being said. ☺

[@aliciafrederick6914]

Can completely relate to health issues and trying for a baby. I lost a baby over a year ago and haven’t been able to get pregnant again. Trying to stay positive and do what I can to get healthy. Sending lots of hugs your way. Love your Channel ❤️❤️

[@ahoward3503]

My aunt bought my mom the Beatrix Potter collection for me when I was born. I loved that collection growing up and they are some of the most darling children's stories out there. It was fun to see it in your video! Your friend will love it!

[@YourDadElle]

We adore you every day, even on the off-days. Especially the really off-days when you need to share to feel better.🖤

[@hellonidhi6053]

I agree, it seems that everyone is either getting married or pregnant. It's hard for me as well. My wedding was supposed to be in July but we had to cancel because of COVID. Now we're not sure when the wedding will be because we're in different countries and haven't seen each other in almost 1.5 years. It's definitely hard...

[@marikok3801]

Where is your grey sweater from? It's gorgeous 🤩

[@elainemcgran8828]

The year has just gone. Totally understandab the way u feel. Wish u all the luck and hopefully better things are on the way 🙏

[@jacquelinereid2395]

Love these vlogs! Thank you for brightening my holiday season ❤️

[@charlottes7897]

Oh Fleur please don’t feel bad about sharing your down days, fertility issues are just so so hard. I have had an autoimmune condition called Graves disease since I was 20 that causes my thyroid to go overactive, my first baby took 4 years to conceive. If I can offer you any advice it would be to make sure you have a really good endocrinologist that actually specialises in thyroid disorders - a lot of the general ones don’t have a clue in my experience. It wasn’t until I did a mass of my own research and took control of my own treatment that things started to turn around. xx

[@moondoggiesbaby]

Thanks for being so real, Fleur, I hope all of these issues will be able to be fixed very soon. River is absolutely adorable. Thank you for sharing real life with us!

[@eydis]

I just love your vlogs and nothing beats a good Costco haul!! Sending you lots of love this december!

[@BellaHardcastle]

Love these vlogs so much, its so nice to see some normal life including the highs and lows. I love your house and all its decorations, it looks so festive! We only have a small tree this year as my little one who's one and bit just pulls all the decorations off so can't do anything fancy but at least he's having fun.

[@helenbruce7084]

Aw I really enjoyed this content , your decorations and house are just absolutely stunning ! Don’t be hard on yourself you’re only human and we all have off days . Your time will come . I love seeing your dogs but it always makes me feel sad as 2 years ago on 23rd December we lost our beagle who was almost 15 and I miss her every day but I get comfort from seeing your dogs they are too cute ! Love your mums gift too !! Wow !! Xx

[@elizabethrincon1908]

I get the feeling down, especially with everything you've been through this year! So many people in my circle are getting pregnant, and being all like "thanks, quarantine!"... meanwhile, lockdown shut down all our fertility treatments, and then we finally got back in to the clinic, just for me to have a (very early) miscarriage in November... and now my next round of treatments is due to start on Christmas Eve. And I totally get the not wanting to feel negative, but definitely feeling a bit sad/jealous/angry/etc. I feel horrible when I get those flashes of feelings, but I just keep telling myself that I can be happy for others while ALSO being sad for me, and that's totally ok. Here's hoping 2021 is a better year for you!

[@kiarimarie]

Bad days happen, no matter where you are on life. I can’t imagine how frustrating fertility issues are when you want another baby for such a long. You feel sad because you want your baby #2 so badly and 2020 has been extra rough for you and Mike on that front. I’m wishing you guys the best of luck getting there. ❤️

[@marynaloboda4922]

Every single video i am: "Oh My God, Fleur is so beautiful " River is a little fairy princess)) Mike, gorgeous man) Haha.))

[@thehonestmoma5842]

Having an off day is absolutely normal, and it makes you more one of us!!! Thank you for being real!

[@VictoriaYoutube12]

Those yellow chairs in the checkered floor room are gorgeoooous!! & Is the red room that you plan to do with the chandelier going to be rivers big girl room?