Watch when your self-hatred is in control | ASMR for BPD/Complex Trauma

[@Kaygottics]

I'm just seeing this in 2024, and thank you. I have BPD, partner of 5 years is so sick of my back and forth, so I'm currently at my mother's for the second night. I don't know what's in store, and I'm so lost. I hate the most that I've hurt her by my inconsistency and intense negativity. It's hard to see a bright future, even for just myself. Not with how much I dislike myself.

[@mzimi]

i am having a pretty bad episode right now and i want to say that i have NEVER felt so understood during an intense self-hatred episode, from the bottom of my heart thank you thank you thank you

[@marissa2649]

This is helping me so much tonight. I can't even express how much your videos mean to me. Thank you.

[@Aurora-wu9vu]

I’m gonna try to remember that everyone’s negative parts are almost always a protector and they’re just trying to not get us hurt again. So thank you negative parts of me, you’re not that negative after all💙 Thank you for this video🌹

[@xo_lexie]

Thank you. I looked up “self hatred comfort asmr” not expecting much- expecting the usual “don’t hate yourself, you’re perfect the way you are.” Instead, I found a way to process my self-hatred and live alongside it instead of pushing it away only for it to come back stronger. Thank you so much for this. I don’t have BPD, but I have complex-PTSD, which has a lot of similarities with BPD. This video was immensely helpful. I am going to continue to try to watch this when I’m trapped in my self-loathing, and maybe one day it won’t happen as often. :) You’re wonderful. Thank you so much again.

[@mindsanctuaryasmr5562]

Omg thank you so so much for sharing this with me, it's 3 a.m. and I'm sad and I needed to hear this so much rn 💗 I'm so happy to help you!!

[@richardfila]

This is the most profound ASMR video I’ve ever seen, with huge understanding and insight into trauma and dissociation. An absolutely brilliant and beautiful idea, with powerful utility to help people who struggle so much with these issues. Thank you very much for taking the time to make it and pouring your care and wisdom to us people out here on the internet!

[@mindsanctuaryasmr5562]

Wow, I just saw this comment, thank you so much for it, it means a lot to me 💗

[@hannalowercase5928]

also i LOVE that your videos are long and not 10-15 minutes. that makes it so much more immersive and gives you enough time to get into the "zone" haha

[@mindsanctuaryasmr5562]

That makes me really happy, sometimes I worry that my videos are too long! I never want to end my videos cause I don't wanna leave you guys watching alone! 😅 Thank you so much for your feedback ❤

[@tiredfrog308]

​@@mindsanctuaryasmr5562 I just wanted to add that I wholeheartedly agree with Hanna! The longer videos are perfect.

[@WillowBunny03]

Recently diagnosed with bpd, you help me release as im learning all these new things

[@annabeloal4810]

Hi, I know you may not see this, but I just wanted to thank you. You have on numerous occasions stopped me spiralling, prevented me from harming myself and have completely relaxed me and validated me when I'm struggling. I hope you know the majorly positive impact you have on people. And if you ever doubt your own worth, I hope you can remember the impact you have had on people like me, and can recognise your kindness, genuine empathy, intelligence and supportive nature are incredible qualities that have literally given you the power to positively change my and others lives. Thank you for that. You are truly a gift in this world

[@mindsanctuaryasmr5562]

Oh my god thank you so much 😭❤️❤️❤️❤️ This means so much to me ❤️

[@SlimShadybby]

I’m so glad I found your channel!! YOU’RE THE ONLY CREATOR THAT DOES VIDEOS FOR BPD, Thank you

[@PazWasHere]

Crying and feeling deeply to this one. Thank you so much for everything you do.

[@des4249]

Your videos are a god sent! I love the use of “parts” work. You truly understand the complexities and fears that are involved in complex trauma survivors experiences and feelings. There is nothing like this on KZbin that truly gets to the core.

[@emyo7256]

You knew exactly what to do without making it worse and making me feel like I had to change my emotional state for you. Thank you for not giving compliments during this time and for giving an option to decline the hug at the end. This is really special. Thank you.

[@bananabreadlove3831]

You are an angel 💓 thank you so much for this. As I started breathing and going within so many things came up that I had buried so deep down, my poor sweet inner child was screaming for me to listen and I chose to ignore her because I was so scared I wouldn't be able to handle all the pain. But I did 😊 I surrendered myself to it all and I cried and silently screamed, just let my inner child finally express her self, and it was so liberating🌠 Thank you so much, your lovely energy felt so warm and comforting, it really made me feel safe enough to let go, thank you, sending so much love and light your way💗💗💗!!!

[@mindsanctuaryasmr5562]

Omg, I'm so happy that I helped you experience this amazing connection with your inner child 💗 I'm so proud of you for doing this, it's very hard to face the pain and to really meet the inner child and give her love... It's such a brave thing to do, you are brave and strong and I'm proud of you 💕 Thank you so much for being here ❤

[@emilybarron2675]

this is beautifully well done!! your knowledge on this subject matter is very evident and i really appreciate the integration of parts work into this. you’re doing amazing work! 🫶🏻🫶🏻

[@mindsanctuaryasmr5562]

I woke up in the morning to this comment, thank you so much, this means a lot to me 💗💗

[@Garyw1212]

Brilliant powerful video. Just what I needed feeling self hate .

[@pisceslug]

always come back to your channel.. tonight my bpd is real bad i can’t even breathe properly i was crying i felt so much pain and you always help thank you 🙏

[@ShimmersMuffin]

Mind Sanctuary: I hope you feel inspired to post more and more in the future. I LOVE your compassionate counseling, it is *liberating*. You rock young lady!

[@mindsanctuaryasmr5562]

Thank you so much! I feel very inspired, it's just hard because I'm finishing university and I haven't had much time to post 😭 I can't wait to get back to all of you ❤

[@mariakotolupova7340]

eternally grateful for you

[@mindsanctuaryasmr5562]

Thank you so much, I am for you too ❤

[@giorgiapolly]

I am very grateful for your work. It is very healing

[@hannalowercase5928]

AAAAAAAH a new video

[@mindsanctuaryasmr5562]

Thank you so much, this means so much to me!! ❤ I really appreciate you being here 💗

[@ashmullins6091]

please never stop making these videos ❤️they have saved my life

[@mindsanctuaryasmr5562]

I'm not stopping❤

[@leapink]

i just wanted to say that you and ur videos help me so much, i feel like you are the only one that really understands me, thank you so much for taking time to make videos❤️

[@mindsanctuaryasmr5562]

You're so welcome, I'm so happy to help you ❤

[@sophiaohuka3456]

Thank you 💕 I always thought it was better to ignore it as much as possible, I also wondered why I couldn't listen to anything good anyone said

[@samira6298]

wow what a journey this video has been.. your an angel thank u so much. I cannot reach this part but it helped that it got some understanding from you :)

[@tiredfrog308]

Thank you so, so much 💜 Once again, you've made a safe space that feels truly welcoming and healing. You have such a lovely, soothing, theraptuic voice - a voice that I associate with somebody who understands my pain and cares for my wellbeing, even though we've never met. I am always coming back to your channel for solace on tough days, and this video came at the perfect time. You have done so much to help me through moments of overwhelming emotional intensity, and I am so grateful for the unconditional love that you put out into the world. I know that I can always come to your channel to feel unconditionally accepted, even when I don't accept myself. Thank you for making life less painful for those of us with complex trauma.

[@mindsanctuaryasmr5562]

Omg this made me soooooo happy and even tear up little 🥺❤ Thank you so much, I'm so grateful for you being here on my channel. I'm really happy to help you ❤

[@ROBOHOBOmusic]

YESSSS! I will def be falling asleep to this tonight

[@mindsanctuaryasmr5562]

So good ❤

[@GiraffesEatStuff]

Hey it felt really really kind when you talked about them being littles, and I just wanted to say thank you for the video. It felt safe, and the way you talked about everything felt really understanding in a sense. The breathing exercises and the length really helped if anything, thank you for staying for awhile. Also, just to say, it feels unreal the timing of this, since it’s exactly what I was trying to focus on yesterday, since the day before - I tried making kind of a personal leap to maybe talk of some difficult topics at some point, and it’s made things quite a bit all over the place internally. I’m not as inclined to punish myself or similar anymore, but those things and parts still feeling really present or threatening and difficult to address very often, and it’s in a confusing or stressed place for me often. And I hadn’t really commented before, but I just felt like saying that I really love your videos and topics. I feel bad for not commenting, but they’ve helped so much this last 1+ year, so thanks so much for everything.

[@mindsanctuaryasmr5562]

Thank you so much for commenting, I'm really really happy that you are here and that my videos are helping you ❤ Yes these parts of us can be very very difficult to reach and interact with, and they can seem really scary, I still struggle with that too. I really do believe that consistent compassionate and curious attention to these parts and learning to hold them and listen to them can do some great things, but it really is hard. Thank you so much for being here for so long, I'm so happy to help you ❤

[@wyattwatson9848]

Please keep uploading. You attend to my mental health in a way no other asmrtist can

[@mindsanctuaryasmr5562]

I will, I promise, I'm just finishing university and I've been very busy the last few months, while also working hard on my own healing. I plan on making SO so many videos and can't wait to be back here!! I'm really happy to help you 💞

[@wyattwatson9848]

@@mindsanctuaryasmr5562 still coming back, it’s almost every other night recently. No rush of course. But you are making a positive impact and you still have that ability

[@mindsanctuaryasmr5562]

@@wyattwatson9848 I'm so happy to still have you here!❤️ Please stay tuned for the new videos as well that I promise are coming soon!

[@wyattwatson9848]

Still waiting 😊😅

[@wyattwatson9848]

No rush. You’re just the only person who undertsands chronic mental illness, and you give me a sense of not-aloneness

[@mickhargadon6236]

Thank you, you have such a kind heart 💖

[@andmoreagain5323]

ilysm and your videos bring me so much comfort

[@serenaeastwood866]

Please do more videos! You are so helpful.

[@mindsanctuaryasmr5562]

I will i promise💗💗

[@pasteveryfate]

What do we do for loneliness/ inability to feel connected to others? I have no doubt it's related to my cptsd but no clue what to do. also your videos are so great and actually caring rather than just trying to force people to respond and think a certain way

[@tings2688]

omg you are so sweet and this video just helped me so much at the moment love you and hope you have a wonderful and amazing life

[@raab013]

Thank you.

[@reamariasimola]

Love this😇

[@leapink]

i hope you are doing well, take care❤

[@frankmcgarry5867]

You are a breath of fresh air ✨ 💕 2 big 👍👍⚖ UP UP AND !!! 🇨🇦 A way

[@frankmcgarry5867]

!!!😇 YOU are what you eat Time to hit the gym!!!

[@xxxxx-iu4fw]

Ngl I’m starting to wonder if I might have bpd because I know that c-ptsd can have similarities, but way, WAY too many of my searches related to my mental health over the past 3-ish years end up leading straight to “for bpd” type resources. Maybe both. Regardless, even though I have wondered this since I was ~13 it’s not like I can get diagnosed any time soon :/

[@mindsanctuaryasmr5562]

Please don't get too caught up in diagnoses, they're just a set of words to describe what you already know you're experiencing. What matters is to get therapy suited to your personal needs 💗 Whether you fit a diagnosis or not, your experiences are valid!

[@xxxxx-iu4fw]

@@mindsanctuaryasmr5562yeah i suppose, its just much harder to get the help i need when i don't even have the 'labels' to describe it. At least where i am in the world. thanks though

[@madison_drew]

How u kno me tho…….. I don’t know how but thank you for being a block to the devil ,…if just for this time you are an angel 😇

[@mindsanctuaryasmr5562]

It's cause i have it too 💔 You are seen and you're not alone 💗

[@madison_drew]

@@mindsanctuaryasmr5562 your adorable 🥰

[@jocelyncolon2318]

thinking if you. missing you and your videos