...we can't move to Korea after all.

[@jinandhattie]

you are amazing and strong ❤ and you will always have a second home in Seoul with us ☀️✨🌈

[@amandamurire]

OMGgggggg it's Jim and Hatfield I love that u all know each other ❤

[@melikeicen5988]

@@amandamurire Jim and Hatfield TT

[@cz_ulliel]

With us also❤😊

[@FarinaJo]

thank you so much 🙏🏻 love u guys!! ❤️

[@rainbowpaillettes8404]

Jin's harem

[@petitmeowmeow]

We don't need details, you taking your health seriously instead of rushing into something just because you've always wanted it is SUCH a good example! We love you!

[@AlexVinder]

As Yoongi once said: To consciuouly decide against something takes a lot of courage. Putting yourself and your health first is an amazing step and shows how much your therapy process already helped you. To learn to recognize those patterns and listen to your body's and mind's reaction must have taken an incredible amount of effort. Although this temporary setback might hurt in the moment, or feel like a big step back, I think it migth actually be a big step forward on your personal health journey. Take your time, listen to yourself and then try again. Nothing is lost 💜

[@treebles]

💜

[@seraphinnie]

Dearest Farina 💖 First of all, you do not EVER have to apologize for your mental health and its consequences. We love you so, so much, with every little part that makes up this beautiful person that is YOU. And that includes your trauma and your struggles. And you also mentioned the fear of letting your friends in Korea and also Dongin down, and I understand the fear, but I can assure you - everyone would rather you be healthy and happy. 💖 Will you still keep your PO Box? If so I'd like to send you something to make you feel better. Maybe more reasons to love yourself or something else. 💕 I love you with all of my heart and thank you again for sharing, I can't even put into words how proud I am of you.

[@susheelasamualsusheelasamu5262]

O thenks

[@Blah13434]

we all jotatoes will continue to support and root for y’all! 💜

[@Remarkable269]

Yeah

[@saisoukhya1141]

Why is it called jotatoes?

[@lisar7091]

I have dealt with PTSD and depression for about 6 years now and your videos always make me feel better! ♥You are helping so many people with how open and vulnerable you are! I hope that you get rest and please take all the time in the world to get better! I know it's a process with loads of ups and downs but your subscribers won't be disappointed in you because we want to see YOU happy first and foremost. Sending Dong-In loads of love too! ♥🥰

[@CupofLoffee]

to anyone whos reading this : You are amazing, strong and its okay that you are struggling mentally, take your time and take baby steps to get back out there ! even basic things can seem like the hardest things to do, so dont worry! you are not alone! fighting 💜💛🤍

[@carolreinhard5388]

P

[@ybecerra3601]

Fighting ✊🏼

[@treebles]

화이팅! 💜💪🏼

[@JulietaCampos]

Moving internationally is not easy even if you're in a good place mentally, so the more you take care of yourself, the better the move will be. Please don't label yourself as unreliable, it takes great courage to care for yourself first in the face of something so big. I hope you get the help you need and focus on you and your needs.

[@bluerayalchemy823]

I agree. I understand That she feels like she's letting some people down who were really looking forward to that content. And I understand it's what she loves to do and it's what she does for work. But she can do content from anywhere! And it's very true-- Our health and wellness must come 1st or We can't do the things that we do for work if we aren't well. Many people I know are struggling with similar things. It's not an isolated thing. You're a lovely person Farina. And it's best to be in a good place mentally and emotionally before such a huge move. I totally understand!

[@JulietaCampos]

Also getting the help you need in your country, in your native language, in your own culture is like 1324623874681734 times easier and better than doing so in a foreign place.

[@juanita.banana]

I didn't expect for my young adult years to be filled with anxiety. My twenties started pretty rough and now that I am twenty-five I'm starting to work things through. I'm sure a day will come where anxiety doesn't condition our daily life and we'll peacefully coexist with our trauma. We will get there. Sending you love and virtual hugs ❤️‍🩹

[@lynnfrancke7926]

You summarized CPTSD so well! My CPTSD was triggered so badly at the beginning of the pandemic. I was paralyzed. I quit the master’s program I had been so excited to be accepted to. And then my mental health got even worse when I had to move unexpectedly. It’s so hard not to compare ourselves to others who seem to have more energy and fortitude to keep going. My therapist and I talk about this a lot. Sending you strength and support from Canada 🇨🇦💛

[@lordhigheverythingelse8127]

Farina I think you made a good decision. Even aside from the stress of major life transitions, Korea itself is a challenge. I’ve lived in Korea almost 2 years and have to say the culture is not the best environment for healing mental health. There is very little awareness or understanding for mental health struggles and the stigma is very real. Access to mental health care is also very limited, even many medications that are common in other countries are illegal here. I love it here but that is a definite downside. Please take care of yourself 💜💜💜

[@Palubi]

Liebe Farina, du musst dich für nichts entschuldigen! Deine Gesundheit steht an erster Stelle. Danke, dass du so offen über solche Themen sprichst 🙏 Dadurch hat man das Gefühl, dass man nicht alleine ist. Fühl dich ganz fest umarmt 🤗💜

[@choisaku-6596]

I struggle with c-ptsd too and it can feel very suffocating sometimes. you’ve done your best and i’m glad you were able to make the best decision for your mental health and literally just how you feel. you still have so much time to move to korea and when you feel like it. i know how c-ptsd can affect these big changes pretty harshly. don’t feel guilty, the people who care most will feel better that you aren’t putting yourself in a dark place that can feel & be EXTREMELY hard to get out of. everything is a step at a time. We love you Farina❤️

[@reneeoswald6470]

Hey Farina! This video really resonated with me and so I wanted to share that I myself also struggle not with the exact same mental illness but I do have GAD. I’ve had bouts of just almost constant panic attacks from nothing and high stress levels before and I totally know how you feel. It takes a lot out of you. Moving is one of the most stressful things I think a human can do and moving to another country is no exception. I think you’re strong for trying and you should be proud of yourself. I hope you don’t consider this a weak moment and really take time to be patient with yourself. I’m glad that you put you and your mental health first because that really is the most important thing at the end of the day. Your dream can wait a bit and will be there when you’re ready. As someone who also mentally struggles, I am rooting for you! We’ve got this :)

[@ajantamitra3580]

I feel so glad that Farina opened up about her mental condition recently. It's not always easy to accept the reality and cope up with all the things around us... But trying your hardest to get over it is so important

[@sianmarie]

Aw man, I felt every word. Mental health comes first in everything - how can we be expected to give to others if we can't give the basics to ourselves. Don't worry about the Korea series or about letting anyone down. You're doing your best, and it's shows 💜 I'm still so grateful I found your channel 💜

[@rianlynn3854]

thank you so much for opening up about this! I have this too and its terrifying how quickly it can take over. You are so strong, and you are safe, You keep yourself safe, Dongin keeps you safe. No matter what triggers you, It cannot hurt you.

[@tracyscribapriceless5027]

The first step is to share and you did that! So proud of you sharing because that’s hard to share. We understand, your viewers, thanks, because your not alone💚A big HUG your way 🐻

[@Music_lover_441]

Farina you're so so strong for this! I have been going through a very rough patch myself and it's exhausting. The constant panic and anxiety lead you to self loathing and sheer stress. Just know that you're helping plenty of people deal with their own issues. We always support you. Thank you for trusting us with this information. It's not easy to talk about stuff that affect you so deeply. 💗

[@gardenofnea]

girl, i feel you! ich musste korea früher als 'geplant' verlassen weil ich einen rückfall hatte und mich jetzt davon erhole. wie du schon sagtest, gesundheit und wohlbefinden sind das wichtigste! und es ist viel besser stabiler und gefestigter nach korea zu gehen als es zu erzwingen. du bist genau da, wo du sein musst und eure koreapläne werden immer auf euch warten. vielleicht wird sich alles noch viel besser ergeben als ihr euch vorstellen könnt. you got this 🌈

[@NyappyKaoru]

It resonates so much with me in this moment. To all of those people sharing their own experiences in the internet: thank you. Just wanted to let you know that it helps. You’re absolutely right, self compassion is hard but so important at the end of the day. Just yesterday I was telling myself that my body has been through a lot, resisting and doing it’s best to deal with anxiety. I’ve been mentally strong but the body feels it and gets tired. So I told myself that I should treat it well, spoil it a little. Just one day has passed but it already feels nice and it’s paying off 😊 It shows that you have been working on yourself, words are so true and on point. You’re not alone, we’ll go through it together 😉 I’m just learning that to be better we should accept our own limits. Recognizing the problem is the first step. We’ll work on it, and get better of course. Calmly but steady. Take care and best wishes ☺️

[@international2112]

Totally understandable 🤍 Even though I am so so sorry for you I‘m still looking forward to your content! You don’t have to be in Korea to make us watch you 🫶🏻 I know you will be able to make it to Korea one day 🤍 I believe in you and wish you nothing but the best!!

[@DarkestRuby7]

Thank you Farina for opening up about your struggles

[@myamygdala7]

Dearest Farina, Mental health always comes first, and we're so very proud of you for practicing what you preach. As someone whose biggest fear is letting other people and myself down, and whose own mental health often comes in the way of what I want to do, I can only imagine how extremely hard this decision must have been, but I'm 100% sure everyone you love and who loves you would rather you make this huge change in your life when it won't be as triggering for you. Not that you need anyone's approval or permission, but you are absolutely allowed to take a step back and work on stuff that needs to be a bit further worked on, before proceeding to the next step. It's okay if you need more time. Korea will be there when you're ready. I may not know you in person, but from what I know of you I absolutely believe in you and I know you can do it, so I really hope you can take your time and work on your happiness and mental health at your own pace, and I'm sure the time will come for you and Dongin to move to Korea like you wanted 💝 I hope you'll both still be able to enjoy the encore of your stay in Germany, it's a little extension, that's all. You guys are always working hard towards your dreams, I'm sure this detour is just part of your journey. Please trust the process guys, I really believe that when you're ready and when you end up moving it will have been for the best that you waited a little bit longer to do it. Please remember to look back and put things into perspective too, and give yourself credit for the progress you've made so far as well 💕 You've been a source of comfort and happiness in my life for over two years now and I've always appreciated your honesty towards us. Having said that, I really hope you don't feel pressured to share details about your mental health with us unless you want to. We only need to know what you feel comfortable sharing. We just want you to be happy and we'll understand, regardless of how much or how little you disclose🌻 This was a brave decision and I'm sure it was for the best and things will get better. As I said, take your time. We are always rooting for you!! 🌺💗

[@anushanagar9902]

I have been taking therapy for the past 1.5 years and it was the best decision ever. I am glad that you’re taking this step. We tend to trivialise our mental well-being a lot. I can’t imagine how hard all of this must’ve been for you. Sending you all my love. ALL OF IT. To you and to Dongin as well. 🫶🏼🫂

[@loveyourself6986]

Donging is "putting up" with those things because you offer him so many other things. People stay by our side because we also have a lot to offer them despite our struggles. And also because they are great people. Praise to a caring and understanding partner

[@AnjiBee]

Yes, so true. And also Dongin has shared his mental health struggles with us in the past, so it seems they have a good two-way support system going on!

[@gayatriaddala121]

It’s okay some times things don’t always go the way we want to hope you still have a happy and fun life ❤

[@alinegreen7266]

Don't apologise 💜 putting yourself and your health first should be a priority for everyone! We all still gonna support you and Dongin, no matter what🤗

[@laurac_351]

Thank you so much for opening up, I have just found this channel. Mental health care and wellbeing is so vital, take all of the time that you need ❤

[@RapnFreshD]

Oh Farina, I'm so sorry for you and dongin that you keep encountering obstacles like this. I do definitely understand your situation and the complicated feelings that come with anxiety, guilt, excitement and everything at once

[@lazekozuya]

i love genuine Farina is about her emotions, her consideration for others, and the strength she has through hard times like this and i wish you guys the best

[@tonigannucci4927]

Thank you for being strong enough to be vulnerable with us. You’re setting a great example of self love and care for so many people this, and I understand how difficult this must be. Things will happen when they are meant to. We will be here with you. Sending you and Dongin so much love. 💜

[@emilyflanigan235]

Oh guys, I'm so sorry! Yeah, that is tough, and what you are feeling is totally normal, I validate that. You guys are in my prayers, things will work out, you'll see. ❤

[@hannahxx17]

I was diagnosed with severe generalised anxiety, OCD, PTSD, panic disorder, adjustment disorder, insomnia and depression 12 years ago following a workplace injury and 2 years of my life being controlled by an insurance company and my workplace. People dont always understand how intertwined all the things are. For me, if my anxiety levels are higher everything else becomes more difficult to control and very quickly things get out of hand. If im extremely anxious I rely on my OCD as a coping mechanism but im so anxious I cant focus on those routines to do them 'right' which makes me even more anxious, which then makes it harder to sleep which means im tired and find it hard to focus in general and control my moods, which then triggers panic attacks. The best advice I was ever given is 'it's okay to be selfish'. It's okay to say 'hey right now I need to do something that may not make sense to a lot of people but it is whats best for me and my health in the long run'. Sometimes that means little changes like having your groceries delivered instead of going to the store on an anxious day. Sometimes thats big changes like quitting a particular job or not seeing a plan through that isnt right for you right now. The important thing to remind yourself of is it's not a failure, it is just a stepping stone in life. Sometimes we take steps forwards, sometimes we take steps back but we always have to focus on the end goal of being healthy and happy no matter what the circumstances of our lives look like.

[@QuiteMaggie]

I'm so glad you chose to share this because it makes me feel much less lonely in my own struggles. In 2021 I was accepted to attend grad school in Barcelona, which seemed like my dream, but I ended up rescinding my enrollment just one day after arriving because my anxiety disorder gave me a bit of a mental break. I felt like such a huge disappointment towards both myself and others for giving up such an amazing opportunity and spent a year and a half in a really deep depression. I'm only recently getting back on my feet by attending grad school locally and accepting the fact that my mental health sometimes puts limits on what I can realistically do, at least until I find better ways to cope and push myself. So please know you aren't the only person who has felt this way and that you too are able to keep taking steps towards a positive relationship with mental health. Also please don't feel guilty for struggling, it is only human. I am rooting for you and sending you all the good vibes!

[@emmabagnoli6854]

Omg I am so sorry that it had to happen to you, but you are so strong and I am sure you'll be fine, the most important thing is staying safe! And also happy 30th birthday🎉🎉

[@beamurteira]

Health always, always comes first, there's no need to apologise! I'm so sorry you've been feeling that way, and I think this is the best thing to do, even though I know you guys were really excited to move to Korea. Just know that we're here to support you no matter what!

[@etherealgirl394]

Don't worry about us, your health is the most important thing right now, you took the best decision because moving is hard and moving with mental health problems is even worse, we wouldn't want anything bad happening to you. You are so strong and you'll be able to heal, that I'm sure of! You'll get there and you'll be better than ever to do whatever you put your mind into :) I send you both lots of love from Spain! Hoping to see that joyful content whenever you feel ok to post it, don't put too much pressure on you

[@ThegirlFanny]

So sad to hear. You can do this! 💖 Love from Sweden!

[@Mallika99]

Thank you for sharing this with us. Health absolutely does come first ❤️ You’re doing the right thing for yourself! Please don’t be sorry :( This is so real and makes me feel less alone about difficult and inconvenient decisions I’ve made for mental health as well

[@emilyponari4031]

Proud of you for making such a tough decision Farinha. It can be easy to ignore problems and try and push through. Glad you're taking the time you need so when you do move to Korea it's the right way and you can enjoy it to the fullest. Long term it will all be worth it. Jotatoes are always here supporting you 🥰❤❤❤

[@aditinair2510]

You’re so strong and amazing and immensely brave, Farina! Always rooting for you, sending you lots of love and warm hugs!! ♥️

[@F4ZU]

You definitely helped more than one person by sharing, and being so open about about this. ❤ I wish you all the best, and I (like so many others) will keep supporting and cheering for you. ❤

[@silyi1184]

You can, you are a fighter...just think about beautiful and positive things and everything you have achieved and how loved you are. Kisses from Paraguay South America. do not worry Be Happy

[@fernandapinzon99]

Your health comes first and is the most important thing. Don't feel bad about postponing things. We can wait and we will whatever long it takes so you can recharge, heal and grow ☺️🪴✨️ We love you Farina, and I'm sure Dongin thinks your health comes first too! You'll get to start your Korean chapter soon! So for now focus on being happy 💖 all the best

[@saria3174]

I really want to hug you and tell you how proud we are of you. You‘re so damn brave to open up abt your mental heath and prioritize yourself! I hope you get better and stay strong

[@nezucookie]

Och gottchen, fühl dich gedrückt, du hast es so sehr versucht, es ist vollkommen okay etwas am Ende nicht zu schaffen! 🩷 Versucht neue Erinnerungen und Erlebnisse in Deutschland zu bauen, hab gesehen ihr wart in einem Freizeitpark, perfekt ✨ Es wird alles besser 🩷

[@littlefishiesinthese]

I think this will be a blessing in disguise

[@susanr1907]

You'll want to start your Korean experience in a comfortable time so you can enjoy it to the fullest. Postponing until a better time is okay. Enjoy your last few days in your apartment together. I hope you take a little time to reflect on the good memories you shared there.

[@Fruehlingsbiene]

Danke, dass du das so ehrlich mit uns teilst. Ich bin sicher, dass erschreckend viele mit dir mitfühlen und Verständnis haben. ❤

[@Gabriella-92]

I respect you sooo much for telling us about what you have been dealing with lately. It takes a lot of guts to do so! I was diagnosed with PTSD last year, and so I can sympathise with you love. ❤ Your health comes first, and I applaud you for taking the time to take care of your mental health ❤

[@baegopayooo]

Hoffe es geht dir gut 🩷 Füll dich gedrückt maus :( Deine Videos sind schon ein Teil meines Lebens seit 2018. Ich kenne dich also schon eine Weile und verfolge eure Videos ❣️ Es ist wichtig auch mal über solche Sachen zu reden … Trotz deiner immer positiven Videos sollten die Leute wissen, dass man auch mal schlechte Tage haben kann und nicht immer alles so super schön happy ect ist wie es scheint . Schade dass es nicht mit Korea geklappt hat :( Aber alles hat einen Grund !🩷 Sending Love

[@liaju.chaves]

I can relate to everything you just described - not being able to feel safe in your childhood can be totally damaging, which most people are not aware of. I hope you can go through a not too difficult healing process 💕

[@wonderlandaction986]

I have it as well Farina,and mine is as bad as just going unconscious at any time.I don't know how bad yours is but remember we jotatoes will always support you!

[@RaNDoM_FeLi]

I totally understand you. I also have problems with my mental health. Depression, panic attacks, I know how it feels. Mental health is so important and I don't think you have to explain yourself to us at all. Of course it's a pity that you can't move to Korea now but I think you can enjoy it more when you're physically and mentally healthy. I wish you all the best💜💜

[@Lobisha]

Hey, ich bin noch nicht so lange dabei, aber da habt ihr genau die richtige Entscheidung getroffen… Ich kämpfe selber mit meiner ptbs - manchmal mehr und manchmal weniger!! Kümmere dich erstmal um deine Gesundheit ❤das geht immer, immer vor! Korea läuft nicht weg ❤ Du bist unfassbar stark ❤ Ganz viel liebe, Fühlt euch gedrückt

[@shayas8584]

Growing up, for me (especially the past 3-5 years), means that I understand that positive and negative things coexist (in the same year, same month, same week, same day sometimes!). In this case, you might see not moving as a negative (as you said, you feel like you're letting people down), but the positive in this case is that you are allowing yourself to feel your feelings, work on yourself and grow from it. And that positive is such a BIG deal! You are telling yourself that you are IMPORTANT ENOUGH to be in a mentally better place. It might not feel like it, but this is the groundwork and building of your best self. I can't speak for you, but I feel like I can say that future Farina will look back at this past Farina and thank her from the bottom of her heart. Taking care of you > taking care of the ones around you (by taking care of yourself) > balanced life. Thank you so much for sharing. Sending love your way!

[@kathrynhutmacher4144]

Thank you for sharing! Mental health is so important and as someone who has PTSD and lived in Korea for two years without speaking Korean I can agree that this is a good decision. Telling our story will help other people see it’s not a bad thing to have mental health struggles and seek help. I moved back to the United States and was able to find a counselor who specialized in PTSD, but those two years in Korea were very tough. Put your mental health first!!! I watch your videos because I like what you do. You could be in Germany or Korea and it wouldn’t matter. Take care!!!! 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

[@ashse8877]

Love you guys so much, I have for years, I don't care where you live, but I do care that y'all are happy. Anyone who is upset about this enough to comment negatively, and are not one of your close friends or family do not deserve to know y'all, you're real people with real struggles, do what you need, Jotatoes will be here! 🤗🤗💕💜

[@sonilak489]

You don't have to be sorry for this farina! Health comes first and we love you guys and wants you both to be perfectly healthy and happy so take your time, we support you !! wishing you beautiful beautiful days ahead 😊❤️

[@simpelquietcat2288]

Vertraue darauf, dass sich alles im Leben für Dich ergibt. ❤ Es wird besser werden und selbst eine neuer "Rückfall" ist wieder besser zu bewältigen weil deine Werkzeugkiste damit umzugehen immer voller wird. Korea wartet bestimmt auf Euch.

[@lazygurl305]

Health comes first! Korea isn’t going anywhere, y’all can move when the time is right for you guys! Wishing you the best on your mental health journey!

[@AzuNyannie]

Dear Farina, you are an extraordinary human being for bringing joy and smiles to so many people while being in a dark place yourself. I hope you know this. But what makes you truly amazing is your self-awareness and honesty with yourself and the people around you. I hope you realize that even through this dark moment you manage to help so many people by voicing your struggles. You remind us that we are not alone and I am sure that every jotato wants you to know that you are not alone either. Thank you for being the strongest ray of sunshine on a stormy day and the refreshing raindrop on a seemingly sunny one. 🌈💜

[@miraalcel8046]

Farina I feel related to you. I also had a difficult childhood and teenage years because of mu family, and I am just starting to learn how to take care of myself and feel better and deserving. You are not alone

[@claudiabailey]

Don't worry Farina, as you said mental health comes first. Please take care and take your time, you're doing great❤

[@samcamp9656]

I am so proud of you for making time and space for yourself to slow down. You got this girl!!

[@miriamk.5644]

Dear Farina, I am struggling with the same diagnoses as you (CPTSD and OCD). Both also manifest as panic attacks in particularly stressful life situations. It affects more people than one might think. Please never feel the need to apologize for your mental state and for taking care of yourself. Your own health is more important than anything else! I think you will be able to move to South Korea. Some things just need a little more time and maybe a second attempt. Anyway, that's my experience. I will definitely continue to support you. 💞

[@Heersolanki1165]

We love you💗and will always support you

[@angel_t3338]

It's such a strong thing to be honest with yourself and your partner. Accepting where you are and what you need is something that will help you in the long run. Thank you for reaching out to the community because you are leading an example that will help defeat the sigma of mental health and help others not feel so alone in the process of their own journey. We all may not be going through the same things, but it makes us feel empathy for one another.

[@AliciaXo-rf4sb]

We love you 🩷 thank you for being so open, sincere and empathetic. Maybe you don’t know but your channel is a real help for that. So thank you lots of love and well being happy times for you 🩵

[@MrsChocoHart]

Hearing your story makes me so emotional. I recently got diagnosed with BPD and my bf sadly dumped me 3 weeks ago because of that. He couldn't deal with the fact I am struggling mentally. It has broken me apart to the part where I don't see any use in living anymore. The fact that the love of my life, the one i was building a future with, left me... paired with having BPD really fucks things up in your head. Hearing you story is somehow comforting though. Knowing there are lots of people having mental illnesses and are struggling, yet still live their life to the fullest. It's kind of inspiring ig. Also, I'm so happy Donging has stuck around and that he's supporting you and helping you through this. He's gold.

[@Chanzeteria]

Mental health is a top priority! It affects everything about you and those around you. And it can make you physically ill. I think whenever you and Dongin are ready to start the moving process again, it’ll be a lot easier because you’ve already conquered some of the biggest obstacles. Lots of love to you both! And keep working towards your goals, at your own pace! Taking a break doesn’t mean giving up!

[@chrissall3873]

Oh dear...so sorry to know that( But you can do that later 💜you know you're strong! We believe in you💞

[@Zoebe_]

Thank you for sharing this with us. We are here with you through thick and thin, always will be. ❤ You are a wonderful and amazing person and you are so strong! It doesn’t matter living in Korea or Germany as long as you are fine and healthy (both physically and mentally, the second one always forgotten). This shall pass too and someday you will remember this only as “something that made you stronger”, even though now it hurts so bad to the point that doesn’t let you do things that you want to do. The time will come, it always does and everyone has their own times. I look forward the content in the new apartment! I always love your videos, no matter where they are taken or what are they about (videos like this are also needed, even if they are not “happy ones”). I send you all my love ❤️

[@anakirola9204]

I am happy you are taking care of your mental health. It is something most of us like myself deal with on a daily basis. One day at a time. Self care is about taking care of your mind, body and spirit. It is a process. I am proud of you for your openness and honesty. Keep moving at your own pace. Take Gentle Care!

[@LoveInTinglish]

Actually crying over this. OCD is no joke and neither is PTSD/CPTSD. I'm not officially diagnosed with the latter, but when I developed OCD my life literally became the hardest thing to navigate through. It's definitely not easy, but you've got this! And we'll all be here if/when you're ready to share

[@lillybrown34441]

It’s so crazy you’re going through this- I’ve been having the same exact thing the past few weeks and am working on the same things in counseling. I had the same sort of childhood experiences which have left me struggling not to be in constant survival mode even though I’m safe. I’ve been struggling SO hard this past while and it’s SO nice to feel like I’m not alone. I’m sorry you’re having to still work through so much- I definitely understand the disappointment! But with time and work, we’ll be able to grow 😊 in the meantime, thank you for being so open and I’ll always love watching your content no matter what! You guys are one of my favorites- thank you so much for sharing your lives with us!

[@ilonaodametey8620]

Gut getroffen, du bist innerlich verwundet und weißt nicht, wie damit umgehen. Du schaffst das. Wenn da mal wieder ein schwarzes Loch ist, setz dich nicht unter Druck. Ich empfinde es wie eine Achterbahnfahrt, sie ist irgendwann zu Ende. Da musste halt durch. Und danach mache ich immer etwas schönes, neue schöne Erinnerungen sammeln. 🤓😁🥰 Vielleicht könnt ihr befristete Zeit in Korea leben und arbeiten. Das hat weniger endgültiges und ist entspannter. 😊

[@jenniferbennet1357]

Much love to you from a fellow ptsd/ocd person. ❤ You do help so much when you share. Thank you 🙏

[@JulieeChocolate]

Ach Farina...sehr schade dass uns das alles dieses Jahr passieren muss.....Mir ist gerade das selbe passiert....Traumjob, Traumstadt aber dann tiefes Loch PTSD mit Erinnerungen aus der Kindheit die ich nun in Kliniken und mit Therapeuten aufarbeiten darf....dabei will ich doch einfach nur wieder gesund sein und alles das machen was ich liebe...❤ wir werden unseren Weg schon gehen❤️ du schaffst das

[@nicoleeo]

i know this took a lot for you to talk about my love but i’m so incredibly proud of you and how wonderfully strong you are - truly inspiring!❤️ take the time you need i know jotatoes will be with you every step of the way💕

[@betealvarez]

I gave up on my dreams because of anxiety and panic syndrome. You’re absolutely right about settle down and accept your limits. That’s all we can do right now. That’s temporary and soon you’ll be able to follow your dreams. You’re still young! ❤

[@vedikasharma5637]

You can and will get through this, and we will always support you. Don't ever feel sorry for prioritizing your health, we love you and if you ever want to share, we will still love you

[@loveyourself6986]

No dream is worth it if it costs our health. You are young and you will always have time to do this later. It would really be pity if you moved and that took a toll on your mental health and who knows maybe your overall health. So don't be sad for making the right decision for yourself. Taking those hard but wise choices is the most brave thing any of us can do. And we should be proud of that and celebrate that. Like "look how I stepped up and took care of myself even though I was never taught how to do that. Good for me!!"

[@CraosRiv]

When you said "I hate this.. I wanna be reliable, you know...", I broke down. This is EXACTLY how I feel every damn day that I can't go to work because of my brain hating me and throwing me in the dark abyss. Every week I have at least 1 day, often enough more than 1, that I just cannot deal with anything. Today is one of these days. I woke up and I just couldn't. Couldn't what? Nothing. Could do nothing. And then I saw you post this video and the only thing I can say is... I understand you. More than a lot of people can, even though I don't personally know you. I understand where you are coming from. The fact that there is nothing for either of us to keep us back from doing our thing, living our lives and reaching our dreams, except for just our own brains, is so damn rough. It's a life-long struggle. I'm sorry you have to go through this, but I am glad you are talking about it, you are getting help and you're actively trying to fight the good fight. Not everyone manages to do so, so you are incredibly strong and brave, even if you don't think so in the moment (look at me trying to convince my own brain to accept these facts haha). I have started saying that my brain is my one and only enemy in this life. That's how I see it at the moment, at the very least. I know I should be kinder to myself, and I'm trying, but I see my brain as a separate entity from myself at this point and sadly don't consider it a part of me anymore, simply because of how shitty it treats me. In any case though, thank you for being so open and honest with us, this is one of the biggest reasons I decided to follow you here on KZbin. I hope that you and Dongin will get through this rough patch and come out on the other side stronger and healthier, and Korea is going nowhere :) I'm fully certain you'll make it there one day soon! I personally cannot wait to see you eventually make the move, no matter how long it will take. There is no rush on life 💜💜💜

[@mar2231_]

You never know what someone goes through in their personal lives .Actually with this vid i really saw you as a "real" person(i dont know how to express it better😭) i have some struggles too and i really don't want to show them idk maybe i feel kind of relieved that you brought this up and i could realise people on social media are not just happy all the time.Ofcourse i hope we can step by step be our best selves and put everything in the past. Im sure the future holds great things for you farina ,don't be discouraged!!

[@amy_moo]

You talk about it so well💖 everyone’s behind you!

[@namuhammedrafi2895]

I went to Georgia [Europe ] for my higher studies , I just couldn't lower my anxiety and stress level no matter what i did ,even if i felt better for 1 day it resets to anxious version . I tried giving it time as people said i should but i just started feeling so mentally and physically down ,I was scared to go back to my country as i knew i wouldnt get this opportunity in my country, there was nothing that bad with the place but everything was so much more amplified in my head so at last i decided to break this cycle and just go back to my country, i am able to think more clearly after reaching here, here in my country mental health isn't that prioritized so i can't really make people understand my decision, but i genuinely think nothing is worth your mental peace.

[@ArielaShines]

Support you 1000% It can make change and routine very hard. It is really important to raise awareness of it. It can cause paralysis in your life. SO thankful you are willing to open up and keep it real!

[@leeknow1896]

im sorry youre going through this i hope you get better soon . and i appreciate that you mentioned the stigma of mental health , there are definitely still people who dont take mental health seriously 🌹 you always bring our mood up with youre videos but doesnt mean that you also dont feel down too youre also a human after all so dont push yourself take care of yourself and i hope you get better soon 🌹❤

[@naomiherbert8801]

Sending you much love Farina, you're incredibly brave for being so candid. Please do not feel guilty for putting your wellbeing first, it's literally the most important thing... We all support you no matter what! Hugs from England♥

[@autumnnoelle9658]

You are amazing and beautiful and capable! I struggle with anxiety and panic disorders and these are the three words I use to help myself get grounded again. Thank you for sharing your struggles but I hope you dont feel too obligated to please everyone. Your mental health and happiness is most important. And if people really are your fans then they'd understand. I hope that one day you can live your dream but for now prioritze yourself :) I look foward to any kind of content you decide to give us!

[@elsaescobar9166]

🥺💜 Hope everything will be okay

[@lisamrozinski8660]

Ah, Farina!!! You are one of the bravest people I "know"!!! I'm so sorry to hear that your move has been postponed, but that just means more "prep time" for when that time does come!! Taking care of yourself is of the utmost importance right now. I have total faith you will work through this, and please don't forget you have lots of virtual shoulders to lean on if/when you need it!! Much love to you and Dongin!!! Looking forward to your next vlog... a new place to make your own!!! Until next time my sweet lady!!! 😁🥰❤

[@ceren2485]

Hope you get well soon bestie take care and put yourself first 🫶🏼🫶🏼❤❤

[@em1440]

oh Farina this is so real and so relatable. You have absolutely nothing to apologize for. You focusing on your mental health is so brave and so important for your viewers to see! We love you and will be here to support wherever your journey goes

[@brittanyj9251]

Kudos to you for being honest with yourself and for your bravery in sharing with us. It's so important to take care of yourself first and foremost, which can be so difficult in today's hustle culture. Wishing you and Dongin all the best. We'll be here for you, no matter where you are!! 😊

[@rivervlogs274]

No worries Farina, thanks for explaining and we understand.. Jotatoes still support you!Praying and hoping all the best for you, take care*❤️🤗

[@amethystsky5091]

Thank you for sharing you're so strong and this made me feel like im not alone not many people talk about C-PTSD ao thank you for bringing comfort to everyone i hope things get better for you We all love you so much🥰🥰🥰❤

[@kjirsten7600]

I have just started therapy. My new therapist is pretty sure I have cptsd. You aren’t alone either, Farina. I know what it is like to just feel like why can’t I just be like this so things can work out for everyone else. It really is hard to give myself worth sometimes. It’s difficult for me to realize that my opinion and feelings matter, not just other people. I always feel as if I am just getting over the next day. I just don’t feel like I’m living life how you are supposed to. I feel like I’ve been in autopilot for a long time. I’m just so happy that I finally had the courage or something to actually start therapy. I did do therapy years ago but it didn’t work out as I didn’t know what I needed to work through at that point in time. I have done lots of self reflection since that time. Farina, I could tell that the move really really stressed you out. Please do whatever it is that you need to do to help yourself heal. It’s really freaking hard to do but it is possible. Okay? You can do it. And I got to say, I was relieved when I saw this video. I just have felt that y’all were rushing to move. You haven’t lived long at your apartment and I thought it was pretty stressful/intense to be moving countries this time.