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[@andrimarbi]

Judea, whether you intend to or not, you are showing a side of motherhood that we are too afraid to talk about. THANK YOU. I hope you know how many of us share these feelings (even if it seems you’re alone).

[@LaDimplez91]

@@andrimarbi Amen.

[@gbeez2303]

AMEN!!

[@debrairvin9776]

Judea you have so much to offer besides being a mom. You are intelligent, kind, witty, beautiful, and you have persevered through so much. Try and go easy on yourself. You are a single mother and you’re exhausted. I kept hoping that you and Brogan would work things out but if that doesn’t happen you will fall in love again and whoever that person is will be so lucky to have you. Sending love to you. 💗

[@thewholenesshome]

Oh Judea, this time is so complex for mothers when we HAVEN’T lost a child and when we have a present husband. It is unreal that you’re as present as you are with Echo & Ever. You’re an INCREDIBLE mother to all three. NoahLee is existing in understanding and grace so far beyond our comprehension, she sees you trying and she knows your intention. You’re trying your best and your best is GOOD, WORTHY and your work is BLESSED. Sending you tremendous love from the US 💛✨💛

[@moth._.]

Commenting again because you’ve broken my heart. We are our own worst critics. You have many things to offer this world. You are intelligent, knowledgeable, creative, talented, driven to better yourself and your children. You put 110% of effort into the things you put your mind to. You are feeling a deep sense of discomfort in yourself currently because growth is coming. You are growing and changing. Metamorphosis is happening within you. Don’t constantly worry about what you aren’t, who you aren’t, what you can’t achieve, etc. Remember what you are, who you are, what you can do, and what you will do. Simply BE. You have permission to exist as an imperfect human that is constantly going through changes.

[@isabelchu7125]

I can’t imagine going through a separation while having a third child and take care of them mostly of the time. It’s a lot! You will find the peace. Sending hugs to you.

[@DianaNagy23]

Don’t usually post comments, however your videos are so moving! I have a 5 month old daughter myself and I can’t even imagine what you are going through. I know there are no words that can bring you relief from what you are experiencing, however I want to tell you that Noah Lee is not taking a back seat in your life. She is as present as always. You can’t put your grief on pause. You are just learning how to live with your grief and everything else in your life. Someone said that grief is a price you pay for love! Your love for Noah Lee will never diminish, but you will learn how to live with your grief. It hurts like hell, but every day you get better at it, and that doesn’t mean you are neglecting Noah Lee. I lost my mum in February 2023, got married in September 2023, got pregnant August 2023 and gave birth in May 2024. Grieving through all those events that I could not share with my mum, especially my pregnancy. Almost broke me, and I still have days where I just feel I can’t face life! It is for sure a different kind of grief that does not compare to the one you are experiencing, but why I am telling you this is so that you know you will get to a place where you can live, you can laugh, love and enjoy yourself again! And that’s because Noah Lee will be there in every single thought you have, breath you take, smile and laughter you let out. Just like my mum is with me every step of the way. And until you meet Noah Lee again, just breathe…the rest will follow! Your children are beautiful, just like their mummy! Love from the UK

[@ashleydaze]

Your openness and how you articulate your feelings and your channel is such a testament to you as a person, every upload uplifts and inspires your audience x

[@beckybattle6089]

This is not a pity party. This is you being vulnerable and sharing with us. I will not tell you what I feel about you because like you said it won't make a difference. I am praying for you and that you will find/see your own worth. Thank you for being so raw with us. Hang in there Judea

[@Itsjudeaaa]

😢🤍🤍🤍🤍

[@mistya627]

Oh Judea, you have so much to offer! You are currently offering people who’ve lost loved ones whether it be an infant baby or an adult. You have a platform, use it to your fullest potential! Those two babies have you as their Mom! Prayers dear friend.

[@NocasCC18]

Judea, there’s a lot more to you than being a wonderful mum. you have thousands of people who look forward to seeing you and who enjoy “spending time” with you. you are intelligent, emotionally mature, driven to be the best person you can be, clever, stunning. i know all that matters is how you feel, but i wanted to share this anyway. you are someone i look up to. i hope life starts smiling at you soon. much love x

[@melaniegates39]

You have 3 things working against your mental health right now: Noah-Lee's passing, your marital situation, and post-partum depression. There is a limit to how much mental stress a person can take. You've hit that limit. Maybe talk to your doctor about prescribing something to get you through this time. There are some medications that are safe for baby. Don't try to do this alone.

[@Starr_Podcastofficial]

Her sleep deprivation too. That shit messes with one’s mental health

[@tray1622]

Exactly what i was thinking ! I hope she asks for a medication to help get through this time. As you said she should not try to overcome these feelings on her own.

[@tray1622]

I hope she sees your comment ❤

[@melaniegates39]

@@Starr_Podcastofficial Absolutely! So that's 4 things working against her. And those are just the ones we know about.

[@nerddom-square]

THIS!!

[@delphinium5555]

No-one can possibly understand the grief and enormity of living with the loss of a child suddenly and unexpectedly unless they have lived through it. Big hugs and love from a grandmother who has lived with it. Thinking of you.

[@burnzzz2076]

You have offered a whole bunch of strangers on the internet a place to come and sit with their grief. You have created a platform which is kind and caring and allows people to talk about their children and their struggles, whether those children be heavenly or earthly. You have raised awareness of SIDS and given people a perspective on grief and on living with grief that they may not have had before. You are a lot of things outside of your children and these are also the qualities that make you such a good mum.

[@kelly9714]

Oh Judea 🩷💕🩷 The emotions in you’re voice is truly heartbreaking ❤️‍🩹 I’ve followed you since day one.. and this is the same painful and raw voice you had from day one of you’re KZbin channel ❤️‍🩹 I only wish that things will get so much easier for you real soon 🙏🏼🙏🏼 You are only human Judea.. please try and not be so hard on yourself 🙏🏼🥹 Being you has been soul destroying since you lost your baby girl and I think you’ve had more than you’re fair share of heartache and sadness. Please try and look forward, you are not heading in a backward direction 🩷💕🩷 This is vital to be able to get through this 🤍🤍🤍

[@em700]

This is such a hard season for you, Judea. Too much is on your plate. Survive each day knowing you’re the most incredible Mum to your three babies and this time too shall pass. You WILL thrive again when you have the time ❤

[@Emma-km4mz]

Man I’m balling my eyes out watching you cry in heartache. You are soo worthy beautiful mama. You are so incredible raising those babies on your own, I am a solo mum and now how hard it is going through a separation with young children is the most difficult thing ever, you feel like you’re in a dark hole and your heart is broken and you can’t think of anything else but the heart ache., the loneliness and self doubt and feeling worthless takes over everything but everyday you have to drag yourself out of bed for these little people. Just know that it won’t be like this forever and you will be stronger than ever and seeing your self worth. Healing takes time, be kind to yourself beautiful wahine. Kia Kaha

[@jaynew1363]

Judea it is ok to feel this way for a time as long as you remember just how loved you are. And keep at it. I promise the better days will come. Thinking of you.

[@kendall9683]

some of the things that make you a good mum are the same things that make you who you are and contribute to what you can offer! you’re so loving, hardworking, passionate- you have SO much to offer. i think suppressing your grief is causing you to turn on yourself 🥺 i was thinking while you were explaining the feelings poster that you look so incredibly beautiful despite everything you’re going through, and was sad to hear that your self image is struggling so much. i do the same thing when i’m under a lot of stress and have no way to release it, i get very frustrated with myself and my self image is terrible. it’s important to try to redirect those thoughts even if you still believe them 🥺 thinking of you and hoping you get some peace soon or at least a safe time to feel your grief and other feelings fully

[@aleia4654]

I love the double flames on the candle. It’s like one is for you, one for her. Togetherness. You’re doing so good Andrea. A new baby with bigs already around is always difficult, even under ideal circumstances. You‘re back in a deep end now, but you‘ll grow and be able to be okay again. You’re a good mom - to all three of your children.

[@mori.kurogawa7936]

Remember postpartum hormones, please. Mine really pushed me down for the first months and I still have bad days, 6 months postpartum. Felt the same, that I will never have enough time and energy to do all the stuff I need and want. I always feels like it'll never change when you're in the situation. But it will, in time, surely, when the little ones get less and less needy as they grow. 🕯

[@haylestm]

You have so much to offer Judea! I have watched your channel for years, not to witness you thrive in motherhood (which you do) but because your emotional vulnerability and how you show up so authentically in life is inspiring. You make so many people feel seen and heard and not alone, and it’s such a worthwhile gift to have. I know this is a journey you have to take on your own, but I still hope some of the kindness spoken in these comments is able to reach you x

[@tootsieclap7064]

Man girl I am so sorry you feel this way. I understand how you feel I’ve been feeling the same way. It’s such a gut and mind eating feeling. What I’m trying to do to feel a little better about myself is going back to school. I’m not suggesting you to do the same but maybe there’s something that you have wanted to do to do for yourself that eventually you can get around to. The same way your feelings with your kids I feel that my youngest never stops crying and is very clingy. I know and can’t wait to see you do better you’re a strong person and can’t wait to see you feeling better.

[@SocraticMethod-mp2di]

Oh, you offer so much more than you realise!! I am a mother of four who has made my life small and myself in the process after having cancer. It could never compare to your pain; you inspire me to get up and keep going. I adore you.

[@Itsjudeaaa]

🥺 I hope your health is improving 🥺💖

[@tammyjirwin]

I’m so emotional after watching Judea, and now I read your comment.Everyone has a story, and I’m praying for 💯 success for you too.

[@moth._.]

Give yourself some grace, you are only human, and only one person at that! Timing is everything. You will get these things done in time, life happens, there is plenty of time for Noah Lee. She’s helping you with your little ones as well, don’t forget that. ❤

[@jayciejuice]

Just sending love and hugs to you and the babies. You’re beautiful inside and out and I love that you are finding little healing things to do at home so you can rest. A beautiful way to be present for all your babies at once. I think the self esteem is on the horizon for you but your poor heart has really just been through so much in the last few years alone… sending love and healing xx

[@cookie9213]

You are so brave for being this vulnerable. Give yourself grace and just take it one day at a time. You got this momma. ❤️

[@LaDimplez91]

I'm praying for you, Judea ❤ I've been there... felt that worthlessness and almost like self hatred 😢 so I genuinely sympathize with you. Not telling you what to do, but antidepressants really helped me come out of that darkness. Sending you a big virtual hug 🫶🏼✨️

[@kryshoekstra6760]

Judea, I have been a silent viewer since the beginning. I had PP depression with my second child and absolutely can relate to how you are feeling in regards to not feeling like you have anything else to offer other than being a mother. Raising small children is a heavy load.. let alone everything else that is going on privately. Survival mode that first year with a baby and toddler is.. oof.. hard. Please know it gets so much better. I love your channel, your rawness, and vulnerability in motherhood, there is so much strength to it! Lots of love, from Northern Canada!

[@taramorris4722]

I have felt this many times as well . I’m a mom of 6 and everyone tells me i’m an amazing mother but that’s literally all i’ve ever had . 😢 hugs to you mama ❤

[@Itsjudeaaa]

😢

[@ffcf1513]

Oh Judea I wish you could see yourself the way your followers do. I don’t usually comment and happily watch and follow along your motherhood journey but I have to let you know, I mostly watch your videos because not only are you an amazing mum to all your beautiful children but I’ve also been mostly drawn to how super creative you are with a lot of things home decor, fashion, cooking, crafts for your children etc. I think you have so much to yourself than just being an amazing mum. Identity loss postpartum is so real and I would imagine you feel it more so as a single mum so give yourself grace and patience especially on the harder days. For what it’s worth as someone on the other side of a screen watching I think you’re truly inspiring 💛x

[@rosieuniverse1325]

Oh Judea, I wish I could give you a big hug. My kids are 13 and 10 now. When they were babies I was living in a situation where I was being emotionally tormented, bullied and harassed. I also thought that the only thing that I had to offer was being a good mum so I completely threw myself into it. As long as the kids were good... I was good, at least that is what I thought. I was in complete misery but putting on a good front for the babies. It is a horrible way to live and it took me far too long to realise that I matter too, that my feelings and needs are also important. You are doing great. Even when you feel like you are not. Being a Mum is hard, sleep deprivation is hard, grief is hard. The other things you are going through... are hard. You are doing it anyway because you are strong 💪 You are a beautiful Mum, we can all see it.

[@veerdz7744]

I admire your vulnerability so much. Sending so much love your way.

[@MrGhostinalocker]

Respect you so much Judea, no matter what.

[@e.d.9170]

From the outside it’s easy to see your worth, and you come across so genuine you’ve helped me with my own struggles. I have also lacked self esteem since having my daughter 3 years ago, returning to work I felt like I was new to my job again and a burden on the team. But most of my time goes to my daughter so there isn’t enough to be top of my game in anything else! I figure that’s how it should be in this time of my life, I can work on my skills when she’s grown 😅

[@Itsjudeaaa]

🥺🤍

[@laurajones4457]

Oh Judea my heart broke for you watching this. Just sitting here crying on my break at work. I’m so sorry you feel so low. I honeslty think being so sleep deprived plays such a big part in this. I was feeling similar when I had my son and it lasted for 4 months at least. And I wasn’t able to sleep hardly. It was awful and like you say it felt like pure survival mode. I felt off. I had very strange thoughts. And I contacted my dr for some help. I hope you get some help and I hope someone can come over and let you sleep that would make such a difference. Wishing you the best. You got this. Xo

[@emmalyons-davis6953]

This helped me to feel more normal. There is solidarity in sorrow at times. We are beautiful, kind, nurturing people and we deserve joy.

[@Holyhomesteadinthemaking]

Girl I absolutely love you and my heart goes out to you. Believe it or not I think a lot of how you’re feeling is part of postpartum. I know after my second child I really struggled. Believe it or not you just showing up for your kids is a lot. Not all kids have two parents that love them and put them first. Sounds like your kids do.

[@Sunchild_26]

I don’t know you and your feelings are VALID but you are more than a wonderfully mommy! You’re a friend to all of us around the world 🌎 you’re a beautiful woman who has inspired me more than you know!!!

[@CarlyGAndo]

Big hugs xx -one day at a time. It’s good to let your feelings out. You’re doing amazing considering how much you’re going through.

[@kazikazkaz8007]

Sending you a BIG hug - you’re doing the best you can at the moment, so be proud of yourself… Xx

[@emx7553]

Lack of sleep is the worst! I honestly look at you and think you're amazing. You are breastfeeding beautiful Ever which is a huge achievement in itself and so so hard. While also caring for Echos needs, a household and yourself. There's only so much you can take. When I go to bed late which is self inflicted now that my youngest is 5 I feel so down about myself the next day because I'm exhausted and can't function. Alongside no sleep you're going through a terrible time. Things will improve❤ also you're stunning inside and out!

[@lindaberg9161]

God be with you dear lady.....I wish I was there fr you.....please know you are loved and you are doing a wonderful job.....God bless you ❤

[@br00klynnative58]

It’s so hard that first year. We women put ourselves through a lot with motherhood and everything else. I’m wishing you so much self work and self love. Maybe some self compassion first before the others so you can see how far you have come and how strong you are in your journey. Loving energy and light sent your way

[@brennapetersen8522]

I've been extremely sick and sad lately. Your video popped up, and it got me out of bed, and now i'm sitting outside. I have some pink flowers that remind me of her on the front porch. I live in a completely different country, but just know that someone is thinking about you and your family.

[@sharmcelligott2158]

same here

[@brennapetersen8522]

​@@sharmcelligott2158 How sweet so much love to you ❤

[@Itsjudeaaa]

You guys 😭😭🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍

[@Itsjudeaaa]

Also hope you both feel better soon!

[@brennapetersen8522]

​@@ItsjudeaaaWe love you

[@Angelina14799]

Oh my gosh! Ever was talking so much at the start that I thought Echo was in the room playing with his toys. 😂 I just love both of their little voices telling us all about their day. ❤ Also, I love an online grocery order! In the beginning I also had some mishaps regarding size & quantity of items. Now I've learned to look at the volume & units attached to the pictures in the list of items. 🤭🤭🤭🤭 I love the idea of sending Noah Lee a letter on her anniversary. Sweet girl. 👸🏻

[@alicecaro9607]

You are not alone ! It’s better to let it out & talk to someone ❤ Sending a big hug for you and the kids !

[@TaylorGroh-o5f]

As a mom I find your videos so comforting. Maybe try an over the door hanging mirror on Echo’s door, it would bounce light and probably be fun to him also!

[@fairydustcookies]

You are such an inspiration and role model. Failiours dont define us, and us people tend to be the strictest to ourselfs and set a srandard for ourselfs and not hold the people close to us to that standard, give your self some love. You are doing the best you can and that is what is important. And for Noah Lee she will allways be with you and a part of you, you can allways talk with her, with her picture with one of her belogings. You can share with her your happy memories not only your grief. I am sorry for even comenting I have never experienced your sadness or trauma, but I am a mom of two. Lots of Love from Macedonia

[@erikal8974]

I adore that peaceful place corner!!!

[@sallygotitall4104]

Girl, you motivate me in some areas like sport and gym, you have so much to offer hell ya ...

[@brennapetersen8522]

I know you didn't want us to tell you what we think of you but I wanted to point out that your youtube channel is you offering something. There are so many people who are grieving. Or just feeling all those big awful feelings. I know your channel really helped me. And I know that it's not going to stop you from feeling the way you're feeling. All that is valid. But without realizing it, you're helping so many people..

[@anonymousnp319]

You are NOT alone. These comments from your viewers (complete strangers) demonstrate how many people are ready to support you even in small ways. None of us will ever fully be able to comprehend your heartache, but may you be encouraged by the heart felt words written by so many. Keep going.

[@dena5558]

I did a limiting beliefs exercise where I wrote out my limiting beliefs and affirmations and I’d recite them every day. Even if I didn’t believe what I was reading, I did it until I did believe it. It still takes intentional daily effort with my mind but I believe in you. Much love to you 🫶🏻

[@Christina_Maree]

We love you Judea ❤

[@shelbywein5203]

💜💜💜💜 That is such a hard and scary place to be in, and I know there is such a huge difference between what you "logically" know and what you feel at this point. That can be true AND all of those feelings are valid and do not need to be reasoned away, even if it's terrifying to not recognize the person in the mirror and to not feel like that person IS a person. I picked one thing about what others used to say about me that I didn't want to "Lose" through the death and rebirth period and just clung to it. I repeated over and over to myself that I would not let this experience make me unkind, and even though I had no idea who I was, I decided I would try to build from "I am kind". I hated being told I was strong, because I felt the exact opposite of strong and quite frankly didn't want to be strong, but "I am kind" felt like something I could anchor to. Sending love and hugs Judea, we will hold space for you.

[@Itsjudeaaa]

I love this ….whenever I’m feeling really low I notice I always want to compliment others more 🤍

[@hayleylittle3031]

Sending hugs, you are a great mum and so strong. Hold you're head high my lovely. X x ❤

[@alexas10210]

Judea, I’m so sorry you’re going through these strong emotions but please know you are more than just a great mom. You have a beautiful personality from what you choose to share and I hope you come to know that. I can’t compare my life to what you have gone through, but I’ve followed you for a while and I can see you are a good person. Please don’t feel like you have to be alone in your thoughts 💕

[@alexas10210]

Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your thoughts with us and your journey. You are so strong ❤

[@terriwhite3372]

Sending you healing thoughts. Not sure what else to say, just know that you are loved.

[@Smellslikewoodsmokeandrain]

16:45 this whole talk absolutely heartbreaking because I know exactly how she feels and what she’s saying. It hurts even to hear it let alone experiencing it. It’s so valid and so necessary to share because if I walked past her in the street I’d think “wow she’s gorgeous and has beautiful kids and must have a wonderful perfect life” and I’d never for one moment think she was struggling physically or emotionally AT ALL! ❤😢 my heart really goes out to her.

[@miriamchristinhuish9930]

Your feelings are valid. You are valuable and worthy even if you don’t feel it now. Noah Lee will always be part of you and your family. Nothing will change that. Sending love from France ❤

[@sarah-janepatterson658]

Honestly you would never know all this was happening for you if you weren’t so raw and honest. You are bossing motherhood! I’m 3 weeks in with a newborn - managed 5 mins at my daughter’s grave while my partner stayed with our son in the car. Doing the newborn thing, a toddler and grieving? You are a rockstar. When I seen your last video of you making food I was like when will I feel like this 😂 It’s so hard with the grief and with it being BLAW it feels even more inescapable. You are enough though ❤

[@debralanguet4951]

Judea you help so many people by sharing your true feelings, bless you for being honest about motherhood and life 💕 You have so much to offer. Sending love and prayers from Debra in Maine 🫶🍁🍂

[@christina2161]

Sorry to hear of your struggles 😢 Sending you support and strength through this season of life you are in and know that you are seen and heard From one mom to another ( mom of 3) ❤

[@CarolineJuneee]

This is a chapter in your story. It makes complete sense you've gotten lost. Rooting for you 💛

[@jamieeaston629]

I am so sorry you are feeling that way but I can understand and relate to those feelings of just not feeling anything other then i am a good mum too. I feel like once we have children we only feel like “just a mum” and that is now our identity. I will say you are a good person and honestly take a look at your children, kids are a reflection of us as parents. I’m 12 years in of being a mum but I still feel like just a mum. You are so much more than that. Hope you have talked to your drs about how you feel. ✨❤️ sending you big hugs

[@TamsinDee]

❤❤❤ you are so worthy and so loved and deserving and everything wonderful Judea..life is very testing, remember it’s temporary and you are navigating through the worst of it but you are never alone, keep sharing your thoughts they are so valid ❤❤❤

[@msangelz]

From one mamma to another sending you the biggest hugs 🤗🫶🏼🙏🏼💫

[@katm7110]

Hun your so strong ❤ I know it doesn't feel that way right now, and you don't have to be strong all the time. You've been through so much and your "giving" all the time because you have two babies to care for earth side, and Noah lee loves you and understands how tired you are right now. Your still healing and also giving at the same time don't push yourself, don't beat yourself up right, now it'll come. ❤❤❤

[@kaylenedaugherty8218]

Oh, sweetheart, my heart aches watching you cry and hurt and to think and feel things about yourself that simply aren't true. I wish I could give you a hug! True vulnerability is so rare these days. You are so brave to so openly share yourself with us and I want to say thank you for that. Hang in there, keep putting one foot in front of the other. I'm saying a heartfelt prayer for you as soon as I finish this comment. Much love sweet mama ❤

[@gg771]

Sending you a hug and a kiss, you’re a strong mom❤

[@barbaraurquhart3190]

Judea, you've been through so much. Navigating everything is a steep learning curve. You may not think so, but you are doing really well. I hope things get easier. You don't have to have all the answers right now. I'm thinking of you and Noah-lee and Echo and Ever ❤

[@pamelastewart3311]

Truly one of the most beautiful sincere humans on the planet! Sorry you’re feeling this way. I can relate. This too shall pass…

[@Tongan85]

Judea, thank you for being so raw with us, 6 months post partum here with a 3 year old and I can kind of relate, its rough! Im not sure what your spiritual life is like but Im a Christian attending a pentecostal Church and honestly my Faith in God is the only thing that sustains me. I've come from a dysfunctional upbringing and endured trauma and my relationship with Christ and reading the Bible has been all that i cling onto when i have no hope or feeling low. Praying that His Peace that surpasses all Understanding be upon you and that God Blesses you and your beautiful family richly ❤

[@annahcatherine7760]

Please try not be so hard on yourself gorgeous, you are a true inspiration! Not many people would be able to get up in the morning having had such a huge loss. Remember who you are and how strong you are x

[@geroleekemp258]

You are an amazing mum and human keep your head up lovely you are doing an awesome job being a mumma….kia kaha wahine mama xxx

[@amandajovel]

Love you hun! Everything you shared is so fair and so valid. I will hold hope in my heart for you that next year looks exactly how you imagine. ❤ from one gross mom to another ;)

[@TahliaFusi]

I truly hope you find a place that gives you peace. Mum to mum, I couldn’t cope as well as you do with your circumstances. You deserve happiness and to feel worthy ❤

[@wakeup4595]

Bittersweet is what I think to myself every day. I completely understand you ❤ I have the same moments.

[@marinatotduricic2087]

Dont feel bad, you are tired and exhausted right now, these situations pull us into safe mode and dont think you are neglecting Noah Lee, you have two kids that are here, that need you and of course you won’t have as much time like you had right after she was gone. You will be ok, once Ever grows up a little and once all these postpartum hormones level down, you will feel more normal ❤ If you need more help, ask for more help, dont be too proud or think that you are anything less because of it, it takes a village to raise kids and you are doing it alone. If you need time for yourself, tell Brogan to step in little bit more. Being a parent shouldnt be just on your shoulders, they are his kids as well, he should be there for you more no matter you are not together. Sending you positive thoughts, everything will be ok, just remember that you are feeling all this because you are tired, not because you are a bad person, bad mother or bad anything. Love ya girl ❤

[@mirandadansby]

Oh Judea, I'm so sorry for all of your pain, I wish I could give you a hug! I'm not going to tell you that I think you are good and strong because you can't take that in right now, and that's ok. I will tell you that as a mom to a 2 year old and a newborn, I felt like I was drowning and I felt broken and everything felt so much harder than I thought it would be, but those babies are 8 and 10 now and it does get easier. You will find yourself again, most likely a different version of yourself than you remember, but the water will recede and you won't feel you are drowning forever. I hope some peace finds it's way to you soon because you deserve it so much. ❤

[@sheenasmith275]

You are beautiful inside and out. Noah Lee is part of you and is in your heart and always be💓. I live in the United Kingdom and wish I could give you a hug xx❤

[@corneelventer1137]

Sending you lot of hugs!!! You are a grreat great mom.

[@Green3g]

You are the most important to your children, you are worth the world to them. You have the most important job in this world. Being a mother. You are also beautiful. You are human and right now you are overwhelmed physically and emotionally. This too shall pass.

[@janeparra8485]

Basically you are a single mom now..BROGEN can cone and go as he pleases...sending you a big hug

[@domdom1304]

Well most men can come and go, not all do it as they please tho

[@CandyAppleUT789]

She is a single mom now and it’s not glamorous. She deserves better than brogen she will find somebody worth her energy again.

[@KKay-eh4vm]

You are right. It does not matter what anyone has to say. You have to put in the work, and all that matters is how you feel. I honestly think a big part of your emotional state is postpartum depression. It happened to me with both of my babies. I felt gross and miserable, and I kept crying all the time. Talked to your dr and see if there is something that can help you

[@AliciaBeck-j2t]

My situation is so different from yours and yet my feelings are exactually the same as yours, thank you for putting it into words because i struggle to do so

[@girlygirllensay]

I don’t know your private struggles , but I can relate in feeling worthless… I struggle to get up daily for my kids & myself I fall short. It’s all too much to bear alone. I feel like I’m existing not truly living. I don’t enjoy my life. Single parenthood is extremely hard, especially when you feel alone in the world. I pray that you find peace sweet Judea ,God Bless🙏🏼💙

[@crissy1914]

Sorry your feeling so low, love you ❤

[@chasingrainbowschannel]

Feeling good about yourself, life, or managing hard things like grief and motherhood are 10x harder when you are beyond exhausted....I am praying that baby Ever starts sleeping more so you can sleep. I am so sorry you are struggling so much! Is Brogan or anyone in your family or friend circle able to give you a break so you can get some rest so you can feel refreshed and ready to tackle life again? It's so hard to watch you struggle and I wish I could help in some way more than just saying a prayer, but that's all I know to do. Hang in there Judea! Don't give up!

[@chasingrainbowschannel]

This verse came to my mind after praying for you...Matthew 11:28-30 The Message Version says this... [28-30] “Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me-watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly.” If and when you feel ready call on Jesus and ask for help...he has gotten me through things that I never imagined being able to walk through, including losing 3 babies to miscarriage, abandonment, trauma from sexual abuse, and so much more. Praying you find the rest you need in every way shape and form.🙏💜 If you need someone to reach out to feel free to message me.❤❤❤❤

[@DeeDee-rs1xz]

Sending you love 💗 and hugs across the seas to your broken heart. 🙏🏼

[@corneelventer1137]

Keep pushing!!! You are a great mom!!

[@chloechristine5804]

When you have a moment to yourself and your world is silent watch your favourite videos of Noah Lee. When you can, close your eyes and bring your mind to focus on her eyes, her sounds she would make, her lips and nose. You will feel your heart to be with her again. You’re going to be okay. This hurt that you’re feeling right now is only for a moment. You just have to ride through it and you will. What you’re feeling right now about you as a person is something I have struggled with and most mums that I know struggle with. Our identity becomes confused and is purely being a mum and that’s so hard to navigate and change but it will change. Especially the older they get and more independent they become. Sending you so much love.

[@moneysports1793]

YOUR A WONDERFUL MUM. THAT IS YOUR BEING AT THE MOMENT. TIME CHANGES AND YOUR LIFE WILL EB AND FLOW. YOUR LIFE WILL CHANGE AS THE KIDS GET OLDER. ❤AUSTRALIA

[@IRAM_rehman]

You're a great mum ❤

[@eliseeey95]

Wow if Judea’s parents are reading this you need to come back for at least a bit and support your daughter!!

[@katiebear]

Right!! This woman needs her mum and a right big cuddle. She needs support and some practical help from a loved one.

[@LaDimplez91]

@@eliseeey95 Definitely!!

[@sbaker9289]

what do you mean come back?

[@annaliseaudrey963]

@@sbaker9289her parents moved to Vietnam

[@katnikkerkayla]

do you know if her parents are employed or have other responsibilities? some people cannot drop everything for their grown children. while it would be wonderful and there are SO many people who could benefit from live -in or long-term support, it’s also just not possible for many.

[@corneelventer1137]

You deserve a the love comming your way. You are amazing. Thanx for sharing your feelings.

[@AidaWelde]

Outside of motherhood, there is still a lot to you. You have two young children now and that must feel so overwhelming and it is such a little bubble, but you are your OWN person outside of them. You seem kind and funny and like you DO have a lot of dreams and sense of adventure and new experiences; it is just on a little break right now. You deserve to feel good about yourself, I'm sorry to see you struggling. Ill be thinking about you.

[@charlenefriesen8286]

You will do it have faith in yourself!

[@lindavinci492]

A lot of what your feeling is postpartum. Your not getting enough sleep and should ask for help. Talk to someone you feel close to.

[@Itsjudeaaa]

I’m trying x

[@rebekah3483]

Sending you positive thoughts Judea!