WHAT HAPPENS WHEN.. YOU GO TO HOSPITAL FOR SH

[@osnapitzfx4]

I know it's a sensitive topic, but as we've all had our own experiences dealing with self harm.. Marie addressed how it would be treated in the A&E by professionals. For those who've managed to safely treat themselves and heal their wounds at home, would you share some methods? This is just to maybe gain some good "self harm aftercare" tips, so that we can all keep ourselves safe and to clean the wound as much as possible to prevent infections when we decide to treat it ourselves. My tips are: 1. Always clean the wound properly, usually by rinsing the wound out and then drying it with a tissue. Apply antiseptic cream and bandage to prevent risk of bacteria getting into the wound site. 2. Change bandage when it comes into contact with water (after shower/water spill) because moisture might allow for bacteria to seep into the wound through bandage. 3. ALWAYS wash your hands before handling the wound and make sure to be gentle! 4. If bleeding persists beyond 10 mins, PLEASE seek medical attention immediately! Feel free to share any tips you have like what kind of bandages are good and affordable, first aid supplies or what not. I hope this might help someone, though it may be things some would already have known. If it could help even just one person I'd be glad to have shared it. Also if this is inappropriate or not helpful do let me know, I will take it down.

[@cadedeborba8668]

i had to be stitched up and they tell you to keep it dry but actually using a gentle soap (unscented) rinsing it, patting it dry, applying vaseline and then cover up with medical bandage is actually really helpful. a wound specialist told me to do that.

[@curtisbemis6640]

Thank you for caring Marie ❤❤💯💯💯and please leave this up as young people may be able to use this to help themselves stop a deep cut and save there life potentially !!!

[@katyb3833]

osnapitzfx thank you aha i needed that x

[@helloblub5857]

Trying to use clean tools if doing that kind of harm. Apply pressure if bleeding. Try not to look at it, may cause re trigger

[@DeadInside-gf8vo]

I've always had to heal the cuts at my home. No antiseptic wipes or anything or even bandages. It's great fun. Once I accidentally cut too deep and it wouldn't stop bleeding. I'm alive and well and now 10 days clean.

[@Tazzzab]

I have been 102 days clean!!! That has been the most days ever!!!

[@elyssafarrant1350]

Well done ❤️

[@jayasharma1776]

That's amazing well done! X

[@jazz2179]

Keep going! You're so strong, doing so well ❤

[@123megg9]

You are amazing, please keep going 1 day at a time! Don’t put too much pressure on yourself and remember that you are so worthy and loved.

[@mivana9097]

Amazing, congrats!❤️

[@pheebs4710]

I know no one cares but I'm 9 days clean 😁😁 update: its been 3 years since i posted this comment. I am doing so well now, thank you to everyone who has replied to this comment, and for those still struggling, recovery is possible. There are people out there who care about you. Of course i still have my struggles, and some days are harder than others, but I am doing so much better than I was. I am now in therapy, and I have found the answers that i was so desperately seeking in myself at the time of this comment. You are all beautiful, amazing people and the world is lucky to have you. Relapses are normal and part of the journey in recovery, try to reach out to somebody; whether that be family, friends, mental health professionals. We all care about you, and i know its difficult to realise that when you are in a deep depression, but the only way to pull yourself out is to make that attempt to recover. You are all stronger than you realise.

[@kiwiitsuki4540]

Keep up the great work!❤️

[@pineapplesareamazing8948]

I care, that’s amazing stay strong :)

[@consumeworms8844]

Great job!!!!!!!!! You can do it

[@romyhorvath3751]

you're so strong!

[@karlchen3866]

I do care. That is great!❤ i want to stop, but i can't, but i am trying.

[@emilyd-uj6rm]

Clinician here: when mental health professions use the phrase superficial cuts, it is to indicate whether they have penetrated the skin to muscles, bones, beyond just scratching the skin surface. More to gauge whether or not someone needs medical care. It has nothing to do with your mental health or judgment of the self-harm itself.

[@heidibaltom8138]

Thankyou for this. It is very helpful to alot of people. Me included.

[@Rebelwithacause94]

It just sounds bad to me when they say that. But I know it’s cause of my addiction telling me I should’ve gone deeper. Helpful info thanks 😊

[@sarahbrown2571]

Was just about to comment this! Honestly a large majority of self harm would likely get classified as superficial but that doesn't mean you can't still get a life-threatening infection

[@CalliopeFlowerFarm]

Yes, but unfortunately in clinical psychology the term "superficial" has definitely had a judgmental connotation, especially for individuals with BPD or recurrent self-harm or suicide attempts. It's been linked with the term "suicide gestures" or "parasuicide" to describe "attention-seeking" suicidal behaviour. There is a huge history of stigma around these terms.

[@mellaroonie394]

thank you so much for commenting that, i was in hospital a few weeks ago for an od and a nurse said that my sh was superficial and it's all ive been able to think about non stop, I've been getting the worst thoughts about how i shouldve gone deeper and stuff like that. i had no idea that that was a medical term with a somewhat different meaning lol

[@gregchandler900]

It is SO HARD to ask for help. But sooner or later your family and friends will notice. The guilt I felt to see my mom cry was immense

[@Aquafan998]

I felt so bad about that 😢

[@rawrdrawz]

Nobody understands me…not even my best friend she used to hit me and call me stuff as a joke. I literally have no one to go to

[@Jinx_63173]

@@rawrdrawz i used to have a friend like that too, its hard to cut the ties with them but its worth it when you do ;)

[@Lauryn-r2h]

for anyomn who needs to hear this: i love your hair (if you have any) i love your forehead (no matter how big it is) i love your eyebrows (if you have them) i love your eyelashes (if you have any) i love your eyes(if you have any) i love your ears (if you have any) i love your nose (if you have one) i love your cheeks i love your laugh i love your mouth (if you have one) i love your teeth (if you have any) i love your chin i love your neck (if you have one) i love your smile i love your shoulders i love your chest i love your arms (if u have any) i love your hands (if you have any) i love your tummy i love your hips i love your thighs (if you have any) i love knees (if you have any) i love your shins (if you have any) i love your feet (if you have any) i love your moles/marks (if you have any) i love your scars (if you have any) i love your voice (if you have one) I love your braces (if you have them) i love what you do i love your personality i love you on your good days i love you on your bad days i love you when you wear makeup (if you do) i love you when you don't wear makeup i love your skin i love you when you get emotional i love when your mad i love when your sad i love when your happy i love you when you hate me i love you when you love me i love when you forget me i love your disabilities (if you have them) i love your wheelchair/crutches/walker/hearing aid/guide dog etc. (if you have one) I'm proud of you for getting some sleep I'm proud of you for trying to sleep I'm proud of you for waking up I'm proud of you for getting up (if you have) I'm proud of you for brushing your teeth (if you have) I'm proud of you for brushing your hair (if you have) I'm proud of you for washing your face (if you have I'm proud of you for doing your skincare (if you do any) I'm proud of you for doing your makeup (if you wear it) I'm proud of you for spending time to Yourself (if you have) I'm proud of you for getting out of your room (if you have a room) I'm proud of you for getting dressed (if you have) I'm proud of you for TRYING to eat (if you have) I'm proud of you for trying to be clean (if you have) I'm proud of you for being alive I'm proud of you for trying to be a good friend (if you have) i wont judge you for your looks i wont judge you for your past i wont judge you for your race I won’t judge you for being trans (if you are) I won’t judge you for being a furry/therian (if you are one) i love your glasses (if you wear them) i love your room (if you have one) i love your house(if you have one) i love your family (if you have one) i wont judge you for your life i wont judge you for your family (if you have one) i wont judge you for your body i wont judge you for your age (your age is beautiful) i wont judge you for your sexuality i wont judge you if you read books i wont judge you if your different i wont judge you for your gender i wont judge you for your money i wont judge you for your tears i wont judge you for your ethnicity i wont judge you for your religion i wont judge you if you pray i wont judge you if you dont eat i wont judge you if you do eat i wont judge you for where you come from i wont judge you for your language you aren't ugly you aren't too fat you aren't too skinny you aren't annoying you aren't mean you aren't evil (unless you are) you aren't crazy you aren't weird you aren't worthless you aren't scary you aren't too selfish you aren't too feminine you aren't too masculine you aren't too old you aren't too young you aren't disgusting you aren't a doormat you aren't a toy you aren't a monster i hope you overcome your bad thoughts i hope you overcome your depression (if you have it) i hope you treat yourself well your skin isn't paper so dont cut it your life isn't a movie so dont end it your neck isn't a coat so dont hang it your face isn't a mask so dont hide it your heart isn't a door so dont lock it you aren't perfect, nobody is, but your perfect in my eyes you are beautiful you are pretty you are handsome you are kind you are cool you are everything you want to be i wont judge you for anything I'm so proud of you. So keep being you and keep moving on because even Albert Einstein said ‘life is like a bicycle, to keep your balance you must keep moving.’ So keep riding your bicycle. ‘Be kind for everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about.’-(I don’t remember who said this). i love you. now its time for you to share this message Be Happy❤️Be Kind❤️Be You❤️

[@brieletaylor9241]

I’m 3 years clean 😊for anyone struggling: it gets easier, I rarely if ever think about self harm anymore. keep your head up x

[@pineapplesareamazing8948]

Congratulations

[@maria_marin16]

I'm so proud of you! I hope you're still clean! All the best!

[@RayIsTheBest756]

Omg that’s amazing love!!! ❤

[@lilalowell6836]

That's amazing! I hope you are still clean! If you are it's been 6 years ❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@Remytherattatatata]

that’s amazing!! hopefully it’s 6 years now, but either way you can do this!!!!!

[@Sunnys..grxvve]

4:40 my friend randomly sent me pics of fresh sh with no warning, no asking, and no context. back then, i didnt use sh as a coping mechanism but it triggered me so much i started to cry and i felt sick. i tried to comfort here, i didnt ask why she sent it or get mad, but she just kept saying "its not enough, right?" years later she called her sh a "phase" and a "test." im currently about to be 3 months clean from my own. but i remember texting her, panicking because i wouldnt stop bleeding. she asked me to send her a picture. i didnt speak to her for a few days. im not sure why she wanted a picture but it made me so uncomfortable. please no one ever send picture of sh invited or uninvited. if they ask, be 100% sure they can help if they have a visual and you trust them, and theyre mentally able to handle it. stay safe

[@XxSMILING_STARZxX]

i hate when ppl say it was phase.. oh and btw im super proud of you! im four months almost five months clean from selfharm! honestly thinking of doing it again tho :(

[@Sunnys..grxvve]

@ yeah it’s so frustrating :// unfortunately I’m now back to 4 days, but thank you

[@brynbarton9314]

oh damn I'm so sorry that happened... it sounds like she really wanted validation for her cuts and wanted to "judge" your cuts... ugh.

[@piefatal]

i'm so sorry that happened to u :( I remember something similar happened to me back then but it was a random person on instagram I was giving art advice too..

[@tylerbuckle424]

cant wait for u to make it a year clean sis x

[@marieroseeee]

😭💜

[@amystacey3291]

@@marieroseeee don't cry your really pretty

[@kiwiitsuki4540]

marieroseeee You can do it!🖤💜🖤

[@aliengreen9173]

I haven't self harmed since just after new years. I'm 25. Slowly getting there.

[@mayagoldsmith2119]

Congratulations 💖 stay strong luv

[@AbbieWells]

Well done

[@sobbingsohardthatcantthink]

Omg I'm so proud of you❤️

[@welcomeg5533]

SO PROUD !💜

[@pineapplesareamazing8948]

Alien Green congratulations your doing amazing

[@hjc9114]

After your recent Instagram polls about TW and deliberate self triggering, I've decided not to watch this video, but I will give you a like and a comment to say keep up the good work ^^

[@heidibaltom8138]

Thats really good. I see a few comments saying this and i always say its a really good thing to do and its great that you know you triggers and can be safe in not triggering yourself.

[@georgix3596]

Here’s my experience with one nurse about self harm: When I was in hospital after my most severe suicide attempt one of the ward nurses was lovely but really didn’t understand why I was there I think. She thought my attempt at first was because of a boy or that I thought I was ugly when it wasn’t the case. 🙄🙄 but anyway... Later in the afternoon she sat by my bed and started talking about her niece who self harmed (not noticing my self harm wounds and scars) and literally said to me “I told her to cut really deep into her arm instead of just lightly doing it, as I knew this would make her stop!” Like wtf!!! She then preceded to say to me “at least you don’t do that” to which I replied yes I do. Then she grabbed my arm and said “no you shouldn’t, I don’t believe it, do what I told my niece to do and go really deep” like wtf this nurse literally said you should cut deeper cause then you’ll not want to do it. Like is that not encouraging me to continue the behaviour. Anyway I don’t exactly have any positive experiences with mental health teams when it comes to self harm or suicide so yeah. But stay strong and stay safe everyone! ❤️

[@ayybibi]

she told her own niece to cut deeper? uh wtf.....

[@sariahjohnson7237]

Wtf

[@acid.injectxn]

She should get fired ngl

[@hrianna5211]

Not surprised most psych ward nurses tend to come off as mentally ill as well I’ve only met a few good ones the rest were either addicts, a p**do, and abused patients.

[@NFH-c2w]

that nurse isfull of shit.

[@txtallyzen1419]

My cousins found out and got sad and one of them started crying. I don't need for people to be sad for me I need people to be there for me. It's my body, I need to do this ALONE.

[@ellaroberts2995]

This is exactly what I needed as I’ve relapsed and scared to go to hospital but I’ve watched this and am sat in A&E

[@mayagoldsmith2119]

Good luck and stay strong I hope you’re ok xx

[@rune4136]

i hope it went okay 💗

[@pineapplesareamazing8948]

Stay strong you can do this

[@romyeliza2082]

I went to hospital for SH for the first time a couple of months ago. Although I’m so upset at the relapse and that it had to happen, I want to reassure anyone reading this that it is best to get treatment for it!!! I spent about 6 years not getting treatment each time and this time was helpful because I was given advise, attention and safe aftercare. They didn’t try to ‘lock me up’, no one made me feel ashamed... they just treated me like any other patient and it actually helped me to recognise the severity of the situation and not ignore it by dealing with it by myself. I hope you all stay safe!

[@charlottebeads]

I'm so proud of you!

[@gemmi1]

I have been to A and E over 300 times over the last ten years and I have had soooo many different reactions and treatments. From HCAs, nurses, doctors, consultants, surgeons, all being incredibly kind and supportive, to being so cruel and insensitive. I've had doctors tell me they'll get to me when they've treated the "real patients" and then left me for 8 hours. Doctors and nurses have refused anaesthetic as "I obviously wanted the pain". Doctors have used incorrect suture material or inadequate suturing that fell out after a few hours. I've been sent home without treatment then arrived back later due to blood loss. However I've also been treated with respect. Kindness. Care. I've been listened to, supported, held. Sometimes I'd be referred to crisis team or have a mental health liason team see me. Sometimes I've been discharged too quickly. *I've had doctors say things like "well it's not that bad so you probably aren't struggling as much this time" and I hate that THE EXTENT OF THE DAMAGE ISN'T RELATIVE TO THE PAIN YOU'RE FEELING. If it's 100 major cuts or 1 tiny scratch, self harm is self harm and its always important.* I'm finally getting the right support now and harm myself very infrequently now. I cannot believe people would send pics of their cuts to someone on the Internet! Please people, like Marie says, seek support in the real world.

[@charlottebeads]

I'm so proud of you!

[@mentalhealthwithalana]

I've had very similar experiences when going to emergency for self harm. The mental health team where I live in Australia are always very nice and understanding of my situation. Although I have had a doctor tell me my wounds were superficial and to my mentally ill, addicted to self harm mind I took that as I hadn't self harmed deep enough. I think they should refrain from saying that to patients because it can make things worse

[@itsjustiara69]

wait same

[@laurynpieper9554]

superficial means it hasn't cut your muscle, please do not cut deeper, I know how it feels when someone says you haven't cut deep enough or it's not self. harm cause you didn't cut enough

[@rolfsinkgraven]

CUTTING Self harm.... would you notice? The friend that always wears a smile no matter what is happening. The friend that always be there for you. The person who tells you all of their secrets. The person who will give you a hug whenever you need it. That slowly starts to change. They seem to get angrier every day. Their smile appears less and less often. They flinch when you make contact with them. They always seem to have an itch They never fail to wear jeans and a long top no matter what the weather. They are social awkward around new people. They stop sharing their secrets. What would you think? You start to wonder why they have changed so much. Maybe things at home are getting tough? Maybe they dont want to be your friend anymore? Maybe they were always like this but it is becoming more apparent? Maybe they are struggling with a huge secret? A secret called self harm. The answers to your questions become obvious. They get angrier every day because they can't release their emotions in front of you. Their smile appears less because they are constantly being reminded about what is going on by the pain rushing through their wounds. They flinch because you have toughed a cut or burn. They itch at the scabs that are slowly turning in to lifelong scars. They wear long tops and jeans to cover any scars or cuts that they are to afraid for you to know about. They are socially awkward because they worry their new "friend" will work them out. They stop sharing their secrets encase the major one slips out. I f this Is your friend then ...... Don't be afraid to talk to them about it. They won't hate you for it, if anything they might eventually be thankful. If this is you then ask someone for help, don't suffer in silence. If you are scared then talk it though with someone that has been through SH or that is going through it right now. You are not alone ........... You are never alone. Its never to late to get help. Just remember you are and always be better then self harm. find something else to do so very important Fight for yourself you are worth it.

[@i2nami]

I've been struggling with self harm since I was 13. I'm 22. It is hard for me to talk to someone about it cuz I feel like I'm playing the victim (tho I know we're not playing the victim but this is how society makes us feel when we're asking for help, like we don't deserve to get any help) and also cuz I don't want to bother anyone about my problems, if that makes sense. I don't know if I need to go to the hospital when I'm on those days, when I'm feeling like I have to punish me if you know what I mean... this is a step that I have never took so I don't know how to do it. It's something that I need to improve somehow. But anyways, your videos are always helping me, Marie, and I'm so grateful for everything you do. You helped me many times before and I don't even know how to thank you for all those things. You're such an incredible person and I'm proud of you. I love you lots 💘

[@betariz5458]

Im 1 year clean LETS GOOOO

[@Natalia-n5z3v]

I’m proud of you!! 😊 I’m still managing to control my sh more I haven’t been clean for a while but I’m glad there’s other people who are getting better and managing to be clean for more days 🙂🌹

[@VentingForOthers]

@@Natalia-n5z3vwell done guys i’m proud of you . I wish I could quit.

[@fernainsworth5187]

I wish I knew that the mental health team would get involved in self harm. I’ve only ever been to A&E once for self harm, it was immediately classed as superficial and bandaged up, but the doctor was worried for my mental health, so sat me in a room and called up the psych team. I was so shocked, I didn’t think they would care for that aspect, but omg they really do care. Please never feel ashamed or scared of going to A&E❤️

[@keeleydount8366]

I went to A/E and was suppored very well. I saw the crisis team but they said I was well enough to go home but really I am not.

[@essiemaggie3326]

4 months clean :) and thank you for these types of videos, they truly make me feel like it’s worth going on and not falling back onto self harm

[@kate-xj5zd]

Congrats omg proud of you girl xx

[@Nix_Calmz]

I just started my 4th month clean it does feel weird and sometimes hard to control how you want to but I really do try avoid it so I'm happy I have someone I can truly talk to in my skl but I'm verrrrryyyy proud of you!!! ❤❤❤🥰🥰🤗🤗keep staying strong

[@Iexistbecausewhynot-]

Hopefully four years now. Even if not, I'm still proud of you

[@kirsten.8772]

I never went to a hospital, I've struggled with selfharm for 3 years and now I'm clean for 127 days. So I'm doing good I've battled it by myself. Only some on my friends know, my online friends really helped me through. I tbh recommend telling it parents, it's a way better idea.

[@pineapplesareamazing8948]

Congratulations your doing awesome

[@Kamdynisme]

my parents would never understand

[@MiaandMagnum26]

I’m proud of you, keep staying strong❤❤❤❤😊😊😊

[@Sarah-ig4rf]

I watch back old videos all the time wishing you were still here

[@Th4tonelocalbrunetttte]

She died??

[@Sarah-ig4rf]

@ Sadly yes

[@audrey.corbinn]

i’m too scared to tell someone. it’s almost like an addiction now, and last time i somewhat hinted at sh my parents called me psycho and called me a crazy person if i thought about hurting myself. :/

[@erinmccutcheon5356]

I've been to A&E a lot of times in the past 18 months. Most of the time they are really kind about it, and with me personally, they ask what I want them to do, and whether I want to see the crisis team. If I say no, they urge me to call them first thing in the morning (as it's usually 4 am). I have had a few issues with a certain clinician, where she refused to give me any anaesthetic before she started suturing, and another time where she put the anaesthetic in and didn't wait for it to kick in. But that is just one person. All of the other people I have seen have been so kind, caring and understanding. They genuinely wanted to make sure i was ok before allowing me to do anything and if i could speak to any of them now, I would not be able to thank them enough🧡

[@yesitsvishwa]

Nobody cares, but im 4 days clean!! 😊😊

[@LorelaiCurtis]

Thats really good

[@guelphdeliverygirl]

Nice!!

[@sbratssb1414]

I’m proud of you that’s a great start

[@ellielikesmuffins3447]

Thanks for posting this Marie.. As a self harm survivor, I really hope younger people struggling will see this and learn something from this. Keep posting videos like this, people need education in this area when having mental health problems. Btw I have been watching you for quite some time, and I love your videos

[@Lauryn-r2h]

for anyomn who needs to hear this: i love your hair (if you have any) i love your forehead (no matter how big it is) i love your eyebrows (if you have them) i love your eyelashes (if you have any) i love your eyes(if you have any) i love your ears (if you have any) i love your nose (if you have one) i love your cheeks i love your laugh i love your mouth (if you have one) i love your teeth (if you have any) i love your chin i love your neck (if you have one) i love your smile i love your shoulders i love your chest i love your arms (if u have any) i love your hands (if you have any) i love your tummy i love your hips i love your thighs (if you have any) i love knees (if you have any) i love your shins (if you have any) i love your feet (if you have any) i love your moles/marks (if you have any) i love your scars (if you have any) i love your voice (if you have one) I love your braces (if you have them) i love what you do i love your personality i love you on your good days i love you on your bad days i love you when you wear makeup (if you do) i love you when you don't wear makeup i love your skin i love you when you get emotional i love when your mad i love when your sad i love when your happy i love you when you hate me i love you when you love me i love when you forget me i love your disabilities (if you have them) i love your wheelchair/crutches/walker/hearing aid/guide dog etc. (if you have one) I'm proud of you for getting some sleep I'm proud of you for trying to sleep I'm proud of you for waking up I'm proud of you for getting up (if you have) I'm proud of you for brushing your teeth (if you have) I'm proud of you for brushing your hair (if you have) I'm proud of you for washing your face (if you have I'm proud of you for doing your skincare (if you do any) I'm proud of you for doing your makeup (if you wear it) I'm proud of you for spending time to Yourself (if you have) I'm proud of you for getting out of your room (if you have a room) I'm proud of you for getting dressed (if you have) I'm proud of you for TRYING to eat (if you have) I'm proud of you for trying to be clean (if you have) I'm proud of you for being alive I'm proud of you for trying to be a good friend (if you have) i wont judge you for your looks i wont judge you for your past i wont judge you for your race I won’t judge you for being trans (if you are) I won’t judge you for being a furry/therian (if you are one) i love your glasses (if you wear them) i love your room (if you have one) i love your house(if you have one) i love your family (if you have one) i wont judge you for your life i wont judge you for your family (if you have one) i wont judge you for your body i wont judge you for your age (your age is beautiful) i wont judge you for your sexuality i wont judge you if you read books i wont judge you if your different i wont judge you for your gender i wont judge you for your money i wont judge you for your tears i wont judge you for your ethnicity i wont judge you for your religion i wont judge you if you pray i wont judge you if you dont eat i wont judge you if you do eat i wont judge you for where you come from i wont judge you for your language you aren't ugly you aren't too fat you aren't too skinny you aren't annoying you aren't mean you aren't evil (unless you are) you aren't crazy you aren't weird you aren't worthless you aren't scary you aren't too selfish you aren't too feminine you aren't too masculine you aren't too old you aren't too young you aren't disgusting you aren't a doormat you aren't a toy you aren't a monster i hope you overcome your bad thoughts i hope you overcome your depression (if you have it) i hope you treat yourself well your skin isn't paper so dont cut it your life isn't a movie so dont end it your neck isn't a coat so dont hang it your face isn't a mask so dont hide it your heart isn't a door so dont lock it you aren't perfect, nobody is, but your perfect in my eyes you are beautiful you are pretty you are handsome you are kind you are cool you are everything you want to be i wont judge you for anything I'm so proud of you. So keep being you and keep moving on because even Albert Einstein said ‘life is like a bicycle, to keep your balance you must keep moving.’ So keep riding your bicycle. ‘Be kind for everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about.’-(I don’t remember who said this). i love you. now its time for you to share this message Be Happy❤️Be Kind❤️Be You❤️

[@elyssafarrant1350]

When i went the nurse just told me I shouldn't be doing it. I was thinking I'm never going back there like seriously 🤷🏻‍♀️

[@amyanderson3358]

I can’t wait for the day you reach a year 🥺 on Thursday I will be 1 month clean ❤️

[@graceclarke4780]

Congratulations! ❤️

[@jazz2179]

Well done, keep going!! You can do it xx

[@marieroseeee]

so proud of you 🥺💗

[@Iexistbecausewhynot-]

It's been 4 years and I hope you've made it this far. Even if you haven't I still want to congratulate you on your strength to get this far

[@reaabothma4921]

I've literally been in hospital everyday for the last like 2 weeks for self harm I've had some really nice doctors/nurses who are genuinely concerned and deemed me high risk but I've had others who just seem like they don't care just like oh it's you again and just let you leave

[@julia-db6ve]

Hope you get better soon! ❤️❤️

[@PlanetZaia]

TW: 11:58 I think superficial wound just describes the layer of skin it’s gone into. It usually just means non-surgical. I hear “superficial” when it’s describing non SH related injuries as well, so it might not be there to invalidate MH issues (although that type of this is prominent in the MH healthcare).

[@jayasharma1776]

love the mini series idea! You have inspired me to stay clean of self harm and even though I struggle with thoughts I've managed to make it to just over 8 months xx

[@pineapplesareamazing8948]

Well done that’s incredible

[@maria_marin16]

Well done!

[@lou.kelly11]

nearly a month clean. its been hard and you and your videos help so much. I finally got enough courage to ask for a doctors appointment, I'm proud of myself but scared. whoever reads this, stay strong and you are so loved.♡

[@Flynn9974]

Hey how have you been doing with ur Sobriety

[@Flynn9974]

Hey how have you been doing with ur Sobriety

[@His_daughter818]

I love this idea!!!!!!😃 I’m like 3-4 months clean! Hasn’t been easy at all 🥺

[@katepittman498]

I'm so proud of you! I recently got to 3 months. It's not easy, but you've got this. Stay safe dude! 🖤

[@sbratssb1414]

I’m so proud of you

[@kate-xj5zd]

In August it will be a year since my last suicide attempt... i was in the hosptial for 8 hours .. and then second time was about 6 hours..but im 3 months clean today .. ive been watvhing you for that year.. so thanks for your help through it all i appciate you sharing your story you made me feel better and not alone i love you so much💕💕 hope everyone is doing well xx x

[@mayagoldsmith2119]

Aww congrats on 3 months clean bb stay strong 💖💖

[@pineapplesareamazing8948]

Congratulations that’s incredible

[@urfavv.s]

2 days clean. 4 years after i see this vid. Idk if you are gonna see this, way too late. I js wanted to say im proud of you. Thanks for sharing your story ❤

[@fay9482]

unfortunately she passed a year ago

[@YourLocalNirvanaFan]

@@fay9482 How?

[@fay9482]

@@YourLocalNirvanaFan suicide unfortunately, there is some information online I believe. She went on the train tracks

[@urfavv.s]

​@@fay9482 what..

[@fay9482]

@@urfavv.s yeah it’s heartbreaking

[@fwwsophia]

I recently went to the hospital for self harm, and it’s was a couple weeks ago it’s weird this popped up on my fyp

[@caitbrady7276]

the end of the video made me smile, you can tell she really cares🖤

[@graveyard2507]

i honestly needed this so much, i’ve been googling a lot lately trying to work out if i need to go or not and i’m convinced i do but i’m too worried to tell anyone :/ i know i’ve missed the time slot for getting treatment for it so if anyone had any advice on that please lmk! but ty so much for this marie i love the idea of this little series! it could bring comfort to so many people

[@jazz2179]

If you think you need medical attention for it then please go! Dont let it develop into something worse (infection) please go and get help if you need it, somebody out there cares about you!!

[@graveyard2507]

jazz thank you so much that means a lot

[@sophiedonnan6057]

Hi lovely, please get help, do not feel ashamed, you deserve to be content, not happy, but joyful everyday of your life. You are worthy of love and care.

[@Moldy_coffee]

I wish I could give you advice but I'm going through the same thing

[@EmsEverydayCrochet]

congratulations on 8 months clean love, we are all supporting you and will stand behind you. Heres to many more months clean, love you

[@mayalove7751]

lol when she said " I'm looking at you, you who clicked this video." Got me dead dannnggg girl had to call me out like that haha I

[@shiznitz2720]

Good job on being so close to a year clean, so proud of you Marie! I just reached a week and even though it’s small, I’m getting there😊

[@allmightsnumberonefanboy]

i know you said this 4 years ago, but im so proud of you and where you are today, i could hear it in your voice it is a touchy topic to talk about for you and im so proud of you for speaking out and spreading awareness

[@Rebelwithacause94]

That’s similar in New Zealand I went to the hospital last week the nurses were so sweet to me I told them I was going to my oldest bro so they just fixed me up and let me go. I was scared to go but I’m glad I did 😊 you’re awesome chick

[@sarahjo5570]

You pointing and saying stay safe made me cry a little. I will💕

[@localdragonpuppeteer]

Why is this in my recommended? Well some people do need to see this, so I'm commenting and subbing for the algorithm. I'm never sh'ed and I wish anyone who has good times soon

[@charlottebeads]

me too, but i want to learn so i can help people

[@officiallyskyyy]

i love you rest in peace gorgeous x

[@Amber_RomanOfficial]

Did she pass away?

[@brynn_eq2]

2 months clean ❤

[@Izzylovesdogs2012]

🎉

[@Venting-fml]

Earlier this year I was picking at scabs on my scalp a lot, until they bleed a lot. My mom saw. And she took my to the doctors for it. And I lied to both of them, saying I picked at them because they were itching. I never told anyone the real reason. I never thought that it was ‘real SH’, so I didn’t feel valid for it.

[@Lilo-y3g]

I have scars all over my face from SH , i dont know if im doing it on purpose but each time i dont feel well i touch my face. My dad shouts at me for it

[@abby.v.t]

I have been once in October, three times in November, twice in February. Each different experiences. This is a diary entry that I wrote on one of the days when I went. 26th November I saw the triage nurse she didn't ask me to take the tape off and she didn't take it off for me. Apparently as it was self-inflicted if I keep going and wasting their time, they will charge me. They said it will cause some damage to my inside as that area is fragile. They said I could have taken it off myself so I didn't need to go to A&E. They said I do it for the self-harm not to end my life as it wouldn't kill me. The mental health nurse went to ask the A&E nurses to take it off as they are too busy. She also asked if I got an ambulance there, I said no she said good I'll let you off then. I can't do this anymore. My GP says go to A&E I go; they do fuck all. Apparently, I am too young for a diagnosis so why the fuck do they keep asking me. And when the nurse looked, she said do I do it to loose weight I said no she said she use to put cling film around hers to loose weight. Why the f is she telling me that? I'm just going to go do it now. She said I need to find a different way to cope. Most of the time when I go the just write the same safety plan, look at the self harm ask me to take it off or they do if they ask me I never do they are either too busy or don't know I haven't.

[@linccoon]

i relate to this. each time was worse and each time i was told i was not sick enough basically. and they never bandaged my cuts even if they were bleeding. do not recommend

[@abby.v.t]

@@linccoon aww so sorry you experienced this I`m now on my journey to becoming a nurse so no one ever has to have an experience like i did if you want a friend im always here for you.

[@miadale4379]

My cousin signed herself in because of the amount of trauma she’s went through her whole life. She was only in the mental hospital for a couple months and managed to commit suicide. Can someone explain how this is even possible, I thought mental hospitals protected you, can you get stuff off of other people or are their different types of mental hospitals? I’m just devastated that a mental hospital that was meant to heal you managed to let someone take their final breath in that place.

[@ivh1997]

Saturday this week (4th July) will be a year since my overdose and going to A&E for the second time for self-harm. both were so different from one another as I had only overdosed the first time and showed no symptoms, so was left alone for hours, almost assaulted by a drunk guy who was in the section I was and no one even asked how I was after that. I had to kick up a fuss that time to go home as my anxiety was sky rocketing and was told I would be arrested if I left before being assessed, which I was and I managed to lie my way around not even being given a full assessment. Second time I was put in high-risk due to the overdose levels and cuts, and had much nicer nurses who when I couldn't sleep came and chatted to me, were so empathetic and understanding, this time I was kept in overnight and given fluids but for some reason (to my joy as i got to go home!) I was never made to be assessed or to even speak to anyone on the MH team. Luckily I was in therapy at this time and could talk about what happened there but god knows how I would of been if that wasn't the case. I'm going to be 9 months clean soon and just wanted to let everyone know that you will get there. I was addicted, never saw an end and sometimes I shock myself that I am where I am and have changed so much from only a year ago. You can do this, you are more strong and powerful than you'll ever know and you deserve so much. You will get to feel happy again, it's waiting for you I PROMISE !!!!

[@riskkyriiaa9851]

Going thru videos looking for some kind of help and I came across your comment I hope all is well with you

[@ivh1997]

@@riskkyriiaa9851 hey! well I hope the same thing for you too. I'm actually doing really well, still clean and even managed to come off my meds with no issues. Life can really change if you work hard for it and keep pushing through. I believe in you.

[@elliemw2351]

I feel so awkward and scared when professionals and people make a scene and i feel going to a hospital is like making a scene the reason i get scared when attention is drawn is because i used to get punished for it What can i do to not be scared because i leave it and my cuts end up sometimes getting infected

[@iz2882]

I’ve been in the psych hospital for SI and they were really non-judgmental. Not feeling “ill enough” was something that made me almost not go to the ER but the doctors who saw me were really great and never made me feel like I wasn’t “ill enough” to be there. I hope other people have had positive experiences in the psych hospital too xx

[@brittaneyhoward9398]

I love that I live in Australia and in all the emergency departments I’ve been in, they all have had a mental health room. Literally they all look exactly how you described. Even the clock you just stare at for hours.

[@LJinaus]

I live in south Australia and my local hospital doesn't have a dedicated mental health room, its so distressing having to be in the emergency room with people that are screaming in pain etc

[@22thetho9]

Wow, you've had much better experiences than I have. I live in America, which says something right there. I went to the hospital at 3:30 AM, and I sat in a bed until 7 AM, then a nurse asked me questions for about ten minutes. Then she sent me to bed. I never got talked to by another nurse, except for vitals & daily meds. I talked to a doctor once, and I was there for three days. We had a wooden bed with a thin mattress attached, and a shower. They checked on us every 15 minutes, no matter what level. We had 3 meals a day, and a "snack" which was shaved ice. The only places you could be were your room and this small room with a table and puzzles. We literally had nothing to do all day, and we weren't allowed to talk to each other unless it was mealtime. There was also this other patient there who was so drugged up he couldn't speak. When the main doctor came in she started screaming at the nurse saying she gave him the wrong meds, & naming all of the ones he should be taking (That's illegal, btw.)

[@stacyyy1]

thank you for making the informational video! ALSO this month is about to be your 1 year of SH free so congratulations 🎉 i’m proud of you 👏🏽

[@bizzy04]

I’m so proud of how far you’ve come! I’ve been a supporter for a while, I’m almost 4 days clean atm, I was a year clean until everything got to much, I’ve had to wear hoodies 24/7 because my family don’t know about the recent ones. It’s extremely hard wearing hoodies 24/7 in this weather but it’s worth it so they don’t find out. ❤️❤️

[@shancoops4915]

Thankyou for making this video, i have been strggling for years with mental halth and recently was hospitalised for these reasons and ive been meaning to check into a place but have been too scared to do so for a while now so its good to actually watch someone who has been through it and are now doing well its a real inspiration if im honest ♥️🙌🏼

[@1d1aShr0ud]

This came up on my fyp and other videos about this topic even tho I’ve been clean over a month but I have been getting thoughts about it tho

[@kaitomomotaluminaryofthest8258]

the ending gives me hope tysm 🥺

[@rabid._.st4r]

coming back to this comment when im 100 days clean

[@icallpeopleroastedalmond]

You will do it! I believe in you 💓

[@aneesa2023]

Dont be discouraged if u relapse a few times keep going being clean is so worth it 🩷🩷

[@ZyliceLiddell]

*LOVE* the quote at the beginning! 😀

[@ZyliceLiddell]

thank you. This video will help others I’m sure of it! 😃👍

[@georgieharrington2520]

you are actually stunning, these make my day🥺

[@katieb2098]

You get treated terrible most of the time , I'm a student nurse and have a past history of self harm as teenager .

[@Sunny-by9uq]

I hope your ok now

[@Maisiejayofficial.]

U got this! So proud of your journey & how far you have came x

[@VAMPIREE23]

6 months clean💕

[@L_a_N_I_12]

Ik this is 4 yrs old but I was doing good and now I’m 20min clean and I was 5yrs clean before

[@Cosmo_Cosco]

There’s so much stuff going on that I cannot find the words to describe. But, my mother refuses to get me a depression and anxiety diagnosis, and I’m left to myself seriously debating if I’m actually unwell. It feels like it but I feel like I’ve been manipulated to think I can just be happy, but I just can’t snap out of this. 15 suicide attempts, most recent one last week, self harm as well. I’m not ok.

[@onlylonely476]

Hope you're feeling better rn, maybe it's not been a long time but small changes can be the start of bigger changes

[@XxMudMoonxX]

1:14 she talks about trigger warnings, and i think people should have a tw for loud chewing, I am autistic and I have issues with chewing. I can not watch many videos since there are loud chewing in the videos.

[@Kumatora._]

Misophonia gang ❤

[@itsjustcharlie2427]

Thank you for this video, it will help a lot of people stay safe and get help if they need it, I and so many others are so grateful for your videos, for me they are something to look forward to every week, never have I ever been more excited for a Monday 😅. You are such a sweetheart 🥺 thank youn💕

[@maddyboorman]

i love this lil mini series idea!! QuEeNiE i love you🌟✨

[@jackricketts7025]

thank you so much for making this I'm always worried about what happens I love you stay safe

[@elyssafarrant1350]

You could do video where you interview others on there mental health difficulties. I would love to see thatxxx

[@DazBaldwin]

Fuuuuuuming 😂 Powerful video mate, I love your honest approach and realness. 🙌

[@froggycolouring]

Just wanted to ask anyone here for advice I guess…you don’t have to answer, it doesn’t really matter much :P Basically, there’s a deadline for a bunch of work (the deadline is just before Christmas, but that’s not really relevant) in my school that I’ll fail the classes if they’re not done..and I wouldn’t really be mentioning them if I had them done (or if I was able to do them, but I struggle even getting up in the mornings let alone actually doing anything else). Genuinely, I know my parents are gonna shout at me and take away my phone (big problem, because I need the escapism so I don’t actually end it) when I fail, and I’d have to redo the year (big problem, being set back an entire year…well it’s obvious why thats a problem) so I genuinely just been thinking it’s better to end it than have to deal with failure. The reason I mentioned it here was because I just kinda been doing SH to cope, like I don’t think it’s that serious since I only cut one arm with a glass piece all the time (plus, it makes my anxiety less bad when I have the glass shard with me yk?) and I figured if I was sent to the hospital they wouldn’t make me go to school, meaning I wouldn’t fail, meaning I wouldn’t have to die. Idk if it’s worth it though, I’d probably still have to redo the year (meaning failure, meaning I would just die anyway) plus if the SH isn’t severe enough then I’d have to just go back to school right? (I guess I could just cut more though…) Yeah idk, I just wanted an answer, like should I go to the hospital or nah (You don’t have to waste your time worrying about me btw, I’m too much a coward to actually kill myself [at least now anyway] and there’s other people who have it worse than me who need help more).

[@Kamrynidk]

Hey I might not be the best person to give advice but I just want to preface this by saying that your problems are so valid and real and even though others may have it worse, it doesn’t mean that your problems are nonexistent, or you don’t need any help at all. (I used to have the same mindset and it was not fun, it’s very very unhealthy and can ultimately lead to wanting to get worse just to feel “justified.”) but anyway, if you think going to a hospital would help you mentally then yeah by all means do it!! I mean some hospitals have bad conditions so make sure you can find a decent one but yeah it’s definitely a lot better than ending things. Sh is a really bad coping mechanism and there are better ways to express your feelings, which I reccomend looking into, like journaling or something. Also I’m pretty sure that any Sh counts as Sh so you can probably get in. And another side note, repeating school would be absolutely awful, yes, but you wouldn’t be the first person to have to do it. The whole “repeat a grade” thing still exists because people still get forced to do it. Which basically translates to, you didn’t fail life. The only reason someone can fail life is by being a “butt”hole. Whoever made you feel like failing school = failing as a person is wrong. Even if it’s your parents, they’re humans and fallible and can be VERY wrong in their morals. Ily and your problems exist ❤

[@nytolkalms9876]

Thankyou so much for making this video. It surely will help a lot of people who are dealing with unspeakable pain. You're a good person to try and help and assure others with your own experiences. What a good idea. Much love to you

[@Grinchesogbff]

6 months lean I feel so much better, I still get the thoughts but it gets better

[@TheWeirdoWaffl3]

congratulations on being clean for so long!

[@cadedeborba8668]

I dmed you about this im so happy you made a video on it thank you!!!!!!!

[@cjtaylor1977]

This is a very accurate experience based on the one time I took myself to A&E when the cut wouldn't stop bleeding after 8 hours. The only difference, and I don't know if this is because of my age (42) but I refused to speak with eth psych team and that was allowed so I went home after the stiches. I would suggest others don't refuse and say yes because it is for the better. Take care of yourself first and foremost.

[@hopebashford2645]

You posted this on my birthday- best way to spend the end of the day 😊😊 This video was so so helpful and will help and inspire so so many xx love you so much and thank you for this xx ❤️

[@mayagoldsmith2119]

Happy birthday ✨

[@ONyX_1s_w31rd]

Im now 2 days clean 😊, ive tried! Atleast.

[@alaynachicko331]

Congrats ❤❤

[@MMNarwal]

This scared the crap out of me when I saw this on my fyp 😭😭 (I haven’t gotten “caught” yet)

[@faithteffertiller5103]

I'm so sorry for what you went through. I used to struggle with depression and SH behavior until the Lord saved me. I've never had more joy and peace, even when things get hard in life. He truly has made me a whole new person, and I'm so grateful that He offers that to everyone. God bless all❤

[@Salydadonn]

fly high marie 💕

[@Lianas.dungeon]

I'm currently almost five months clean for those who care

[@henriqueluisnovaescaldas7707]

I do. Proud of you.

[@Lianas.dungeon]

@@henriqueluisnovaescaldas7707 thank you sm ❤💕

[@Just_Julia846]

I'm sooooo proud of you♥️♥️♥️♥️ I don't know if anybody cares, but I'm 10 minutes clean....

[@imyslife3316]

CONGRATS THATS AMAZING IM SO PROUD OF YOU!!

[@emmamarycassidy2125]

This is the video I have been waiting for ❤️

[@Strawberry-Jam-993]

I am 13, and if my dad found out that i sh, forget it, he'd end me himself. Like, I dont go too deep, most of the time, but like... How would I get help though, my mom would throw me out of the house and my grandmother would end herself... ik nobody cares, but like... what do I do???

[@Yourlocalpyhco]

Do you have any friends or other family members that you can talk to? I know it is scary talking about that shit but you need to tell someone before it escalates further, you need to tell someone about this, remember that I love you , try your best❤

[@StrawberryJam993-y9w]

​@Yourlocalpyhco thanks for supporting me, but no, I don't have any family or friends I can really talk to. I appreciate the help though, I hope you have a wonderful day, and if we never talk again, a wonderful life.

[@Crocs4cats]

We miss you, Marie🥺

[@obsidianxx2332]

tw!! dont read if your currently struggling with self harrm . . this night like half an hour ago one of my guardians walked in on me and all he wanted was his pillow to sleep and my wrist sleeve was up and fresh ones were there and I covered my thighs with my blanket, I grabbed his pillow and gave it to him without thinking about my wrist, when he was walking out I noticed he was looking away from my wrist so yeah I’m scared about what is gonna happen tomorrow

[@TacticalRainbow]

What ended up happening?

[@SkyeTheArabianRedFox]

I don't care if this is 3 years old, but I feel like someone should know. I grew up/am(it's not bad anymore) in a neglective household. My mother has suffered through clinical depression most of my life and it takes a lot from her to raise me and my siblings. When my little sister was born her depression got especially bad. She would give my little sister all the attention and care, as you should with a newborn child. But, as this is happening my father is out, uh, cheating on my mother. (We don't find out about that but for the next 5 years). So for that bit of my childhood, I was 5 when my little sister was born, I wasn't really given the attention and care I needed. Because of this, I realized I had to grow up. To fend for myself. For reference, when I was in 1st grade (6 years old) I would wake up, get completely ready for school, and hop on the bus, all before my family would wake up. I don't remember what I'd do after school, but I can say that during the time before my little sister was born I'd like my mom to snuggle with me before bed. At 6, I stopped. I just got ready on my own. Then when I was 7 I had a bit more than my fair share of trauma. This is when my mental health started being crappy. I didn't know at the time, but I was experiencing the classic symptoms of anxiety and PTSD. Here's the sad part. I was 7. A fricking 7-year-end. And I felt like there was something wrong with me. I started self harming. I would scratch myself. Sometimes my mother would even see me doing it sometimes. She did nothing to stop me. I didn't even know it was self harm. All that went through my brain was "when you feel bad, pain feels good". I thought I was so smart for coming up with a coping mechanism. This continues through all the crap I went through up until 4th grade (9 years old). I was finally with friends and a living community. I thought I was happy. I wasn't. I'm a very empathetic person, I was just feeling their happiness. I thought things had gotten better. I stopped. Until 6th grade. F*cking 6th grade. (11 years old). I went through more trauma and crap than a kid should ever had. It got to the point where I didn't want to continue living. But I wasn't self harming. But more recently, 8th grade (13 years old), I've started doing it again. I've attempted for the first times. And things have gotten a lot worse. I wouldnt say the self harm is bad. Most of the time it doesn't draw blood. My problem is I'm a swimmer so I can't really hide it. (I use sharpie and "draw" on my arm). And yeah :)

[@Sleepyarmy-u5d]

Main reason I don’t go to the hospital for it is cause I live in the US and I don’t wanna get back home to pay 6k for those 6 hours of them checking my sh

[@annabellerose678]

I feel lucky to have found your channel. You are far and away the most honest and vulnerable and down to earth youtuber I’ve seen who talks openly about mental health. It’s refreshing and comforting. Thank you Marie for being you ❤️

[@fionalove5980]

Im still trying to get 1 day clean.

[@Javvv-d6h]

you got this. every minute, every hour is progress. im proud of u.

[@victoriabown4199]

Love the idea of this mini series! And loved this video as always. Keep smiling everyone. We got this 🤍🤍

[@K4ND1_0N_P4WZ]

Im..14 DAYS CLEAN!!! (13 but don't make a difference) YAY!!!!

[@Natalia-n5z3v]

YAY!! IM SLAYING PROUD OF YOU KEEP UP THE GREAT WORK

[@laniwhitley5420]

Wow you are so amazing and inspirational, I do self harm but wouldn’t have been as safe whilst doing it and wouldn’t have done it so much more often without your videos, so thank you so much gorgeous x

[@Volleyball032]

FINALLY 5 WEEKS CLEANNNNN

[@TheWeirdoWaffl3]

Congratulations!!!🎊🎉