WHAT I EAT IN A DAY - ANOREXIA RECOVERY - YOUR MIND IS POWERFUL! FEAR FOODS!

Just a video of what I ate today! Also how you can quite literally do ANYTHING you want. You are in control, you can choose to fight.
I ate so many new foods, fear foods, foods I have wanted to try for a long time.
Every day is a great day!
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[@bigkahunaburger1782]

don't worry about the extreme hunger! I promise you will be okay... there's so much tissue to be repaired, liver and muscle glycogen to be restored... so much more than just subcutaneous fat, but also tissue around the organs! When I started eating more, I felt like I had to hold back sooo much, because nothing could ever satisfy me! I promise it will stop eventually... bu only if you act according to it and EAAAAT. I remember I once ate a family bag size Reese´s and 3 bagels one evening and woke up hungry again when I was in your "state" of recovery. You did so well in this video. Honor your hunger... for the amazing girl you are and for the future you deserve!

[@kecrn4132]

shiningsky - yes!! I so remember similar occasions when in hospital....already being on 3600 cals a day.....and the dieticians would put food aside and leave a note for the over night nurses to give me the food should I awake hungry. I had such a difficult time ever admitting to being hungry and asking for the extra food. Our metabolism just goes insanely fast when we are weight restoring so we have to honour that hunger otherwise our weight stalls which in turn stalls our recovery!

[@MayimHastings]

Brilliantly said! #HonorYourHunger

[@sarahpacker9861]

I don’t get hungry in fact I hate recovery I feel so full I could puke

[@ktkt8736]

sarah packer At the start I really struggled to physically eat so much, but now I get extreme hunger quite regularly and it’s so difficult at times because I feel hungry quicker, but mentally I still like feeling hungry 🙄

[@casendwayne8360]

i know im asking the wrong place but does anyone know of a trick to log back into an Instagram account? I somehow forgot the password. I love any help you can offer me

[@DangerousFayth]

I just had my first Mint Lindor that I discovered existed from your vlogs, and as Mumzani would say, DIVINE!

[@Ella-ps1lg]

Mumzani ! xx

[@chrisjaethey]

I am SO proud of you Elzani! I only discovered your channel in the last two weeks, but I've been trying to recover over the last year and have bit some major bumps in the road and the weight gain especially scares me. Your strength is so powerful and inspiring and the life and happiness genuinely shines through in your eyes as you fight your ED. Keep fighting and know that so many people stand with and support your journey!

[@tmsts002]

Don't be scared hun, you NEED to eat lots. ❤

[@Nesquik321]

You look so much happier and alive :) Keep it up elzani! :D

[@MB-cz8kh]

I get prouder and prouder every video beautiful ❤️❤️

[@KC-ed6jt]

seriously same!!!!

[@mattiedickson5129]

Please get monotized and get some money girl!!!

[@ladyoflove1551]

Yes!

[@kecrn4132]

Totally agree!

[@coreyjacq]

Mattie Dickson exactly. NADOS ISNT GONNA PAY FOR ITSELF 😂

[@Name-hf1kd]

She might be on disability

[@MayimHastings]

Please tell your awesome Mom to never stop saying “divine” because it always makes me smile and I always think of y’all when I hear someone say it. I’m sending so much love that if you get knocked on your butt, I apologize! Love that 🥄! 😘💨

[@inga2022]

I like the color of your eyes

[@laurensummer1412]

YOu are so strong Elzani, soon those voices will fade but it takes time and hardwork xxx

[@SurlyMiss]

We have very different problems and lives but watching you tell yourself positive things and push yourself to be better and think positive really helps me and makes me feel I can do the same. Sending so much love and hope to you from Ohio. Your mom is so sweet and supports you so much. You're a beautiful girl inside and out,you're so strong and you can and will do this. Xo

[@aspenkelly1143]

i'm so glad i found your channel when i did. i think my favorite part of watching your videos has been watching you get your energy back! as someone who only "knows" you from what you post, i can see how much progress you're making with time; i feel like i've seen less Ed and more Elzani with each video. you have so much more energy, personality, and LIFE about you now, and it's been fun and inspiring to watch you get that back. whatever you're doing when and if you read this, just know that some girl from California spent about half an hour after watching this video trying to determine what the American equivalent is of English custard (at first I thought it was yogurt, then i saw something that said it was pudding, but then you guys have more than one type of pudding, so that COMPLICATES EVERYTHING lol). anywaYS, hope you have a great day!!

[@orangepulp392]

My life is soooo amazingly better in literally every way since I started recovery. I'm so glad I did it. I was so scared of gaining weight but it's so freaking worth it. I am going to university in September which never would have happened if I stayed restricting!!

[@cholele8447]

I don’t have an eating disorder but I do struggle a lot with ocd and watching you is so inspirational to me I love watching you overcome all these fears 💘 you are so strong and I am so proud of you!

[@froggy8814]

yayyy!! thanks so much for uploading Elzani! 😍 love you

[@siljeeriksen8160]

I love your videos Elzani!!! You are such an inspirational person!!!❤️❤️❤️

[@heeblejeeble]

I am SO impressed. The best day of eating I’ve ever seen from you. Truly proud and so glad you’re finally seeing food as flavour and fuel rather than numbers and fear xxxx keep it up lots of love ❤️❤️

[@suezimarie61]

You are doing So Well since your sad, dark Hospital days Elzani, I salute you! -I have suffered from ED, Anorexia Bulimiaover eating, since I was 14, Im now 62. Weight 6 stone 10lb- to now, 13st 71b. I now eat healthily, sensib.y, havent .ost or put on, any weight for 2 years. - You are inspiring me to go on a SENSIBLE Diet, before I get Diabete Im only 5foot 2inches. LOTS OF LOVE TO YOU, YOU ARE STRONG & A FIGHTER! & it is nice to see you Blooming & Blossoming, into Yourself again. - & you have Such A Strong, Powerful, Close Family Network! -Your Mum, Dad & Sisters are so Loving, Kind , & Supportive. GOD BLESS YOU HUN,GET BETTER, & THRIVE XxX

[@tmsts002]

I feel sad that you didn't try the dessert in that restaurant, you clearly wanted some 😔 Hopefully next time you can over come it and just eat what you'd like ❤ x

[@hippymama100]

I think she did some hard work, and did a great job challenging herself.

[@issymather8116]

YES GURL YES! you are killing it in recovery today! This will be the year you fully recover (mentally and physically)! And you are 100% right about there never being too much food - your body needs it so badly, just watch Tabitha Farrar's videos on energy debt! Your body needs so much to fix all the damage done internally and externally from years of restriction! Love you heaps and thanks for driving me to recover too

[@dancingloney]

Seeing you improve even from the previous 'what I eat in a day' is incredible!!

[@minaxture]

Omg well done Elzani! You're so brave and inspirational :)❤️

[@microcranny]

You’re smashing it everyday and in every video! I’m so proud!

[@thomasretchford7514]

I am recovering myself and I know that the random spurts of hunger and fullness is perfectly normal with the recovery process. It like healing basically. You're body is just returning to its full well nourishment etc. The more you eat, the more weight you restore, it get easier. Trust me, I know. All food is good. A balance of good food and active lifestyle etc. You'll get there and I can see it. One more thing too: It must have taken you ages to eat the treacle tart and ice cream with that tiny spoon! You're so cool and I love your positive outlook.

[@momsspaghetti286]

You're the most inspirational and strongest girl i know! I've just had a massive mental breakdown because i started to regret eating pasta with cream sauce for dinner (1st time in 3 yrs) and you motivated me so much!! You put me up everytime my ed is holding me back and your videos make me insanely happy♡ stay strong, you S L A Y!!!! xxx

[@charlotteells484]

For pudding I absolutely LOVE the Cadbury’s melted chocolate pudding!! It’s “Devine”

[@pleaserLuisr]

you look so much healthier and happier with each new video girl it's wonderful to see you fight your ed! 💖

[@torrib5440]

Your encouraging words to yourself about being strong and wanting to recover make me so happy. 🤗 always remember to be that kind to yourself!

[@hannahrr366]

So incredibly proud of you girl!💕🕊 you are incredible and strong💗💗💗

[@Closnowshit]

I’m so proud of you, Elzani! There was a real noticeable change in this video with respect to the way you eat and look at food! I can tell you’re really doing your best and you’re doing so well. I’m so happy that you’ve allowed us all to come on this journey with you. So much love coming to you from Puerto Rico

[@8921gs]

This video made my day! YOU GO GIRL!

[@beautifultragedy5820]

Wow I'm so proud of you, Elazani! I can see that you've come a long way and became so much stronger than you were before. It's delightful to see you make such amazing progress. Truly inspirational, Love xx

[@harleyXDquinn1]

Thus video made me smile so much :) i can tell you are getting better!! Saying things like "the mind is a powerful thing. You can do anything you put your mind to. Im going to recover! " i know you dont know me but i love you and i am sooo proud of you :)) ive been watching you for about 2 months now . keep going girl!! You can do it 💕💕💕

[@hurtlebobs]

You look so much healthier already you are doing amazingly well. this is your year!

[@kaitlin253]

You are one of the most genuine people I watch here on KZbin. You just have this intangible quality about you that spreads such positivity and light. Even in your darkest times you’re still capable of finding a positive factor in everything you go through. You are so much stronger than you think and it’s an honour to watch you grow more and more. You inspire so many!

[@sportyprincessxo]

So proud of you! Keep doing so good ❤️

[@amh8478]

Elzani, you are truly one of the biggest inspirations I’ve ever seen! You have come leaps and bounds and you don’t seem as reluctant to allow yourself the food you more than deserve and *need* !!^-^ when you added more Nutella I actually felt so emotional and man I want those hot cross buns now! They looked... *_divine_* lol You’re recovery is so real and makes me feel much more positive about the thought of recovery seeing how bright and happy you look. And that is saying something because I’m the most negative person In 8n the world! Of course I know it’s still probably tough for you but you’re a true warrior!

[@issymather8116]

this is the best day you have done yet and shows that you have made SO much progress in recovery! GOOD JOB ELZANI!!

[@friendgirl8970]

I’m currently recovering and your new healthy relationship with food inspires me to make that change myself. I’ve only been in treatment for about 2 months now and feel like I’ve made little to no progress. My goal is to get to the place you’re at, truly amazing. Keep it up, you’re doing great 👌🏼

[@delfi412]

"I think I'm a lot stronger than I think" YES Elzani you are!! ❤️❤️

[@jule5745]

omg this makes me so hungry for british food. also you can be really proud of yourself. And eating a whole bar of chocolate is completely fine - when I started my recovery I had a whole bar nearly every day

[@katerijayne2668]

currently.blossoming I’m eating a whole bar right now🤣

[@sineadr1457]

honestly you seem happier and more joyful every video!! it makes me so happy :) ❤️

[@tmsts002]

You should do, Instagram followers decide what I eat in a day! ❤

[@akaykk961]

Real-Bad-Listener Yes!!!

[@mysticmaisie3595]

You are doing an amazing job Elzani, and what a lovely, supportive Mum you have too!

[@franceswinsor7470]

Elzani you are doing amazing!!!

[@crystalgoddess4440]

Favorite breakfast (or any meal its that good): frozen bananas & cacao powder blended in a food processor makes a chocolate soft serve thats healthy enough for breakfast 😍 no banana taste when you add the chocolate powder. Add fruit, granola, or both to top it 🙌🏻 love this video too, you look so much happier!! Q&A video would be cool as well! 😊

[@fearlesslymelissa]

My favorite breakfast is wheetabix w/ granola, raisins, and milk. Favorite lunch is ciabatta sandwich w/ tofurkey and havarti cheese, favorite dinner is pasta w/ tofu and veggies, and favorite snack is ritz toasted chips (sour cream and onion flavor) or Kinder Bueno bar! Great job Elzani on another amazing day of challenging anorexia!!!

[@sarahs9381]

Divine merch coming in the future? Love your what I eat in a day video! I noticed that you talked a lot more before your food but understandable considering they were fear foods, maybe eating right away will be the challenge you face next but baby steps. love your progress!

[@mpvt]

❤️ Yay! Welcome back Elzani x

[@its_msk]

She was only "gone" for over a week lol

[@tmaraaramt3487]

I thought something happened to her

[@rachelpowell2338]

Your mum is such a great support, you are so lucky to have people around you that understand and encourage you on your recovery journey :)

[@jujuliana5023]

Omg honey you're getting stronger and stronger each video and I'm so proud of you! 💞

[@aliiciiaaxx]

You’re looking so well!! Every time I watch you I see more and more progress, love how much support you have and determination you have to get better cx

[@saraups]

So proud of you

[@cherlindreaaurora4075]

Ok now.. as a German.. I WANT THAT COTTAGE PIE RECIPE... pls.... And you did wonderful darling! Keep the track. You are amaz... no... how your mother would it called: DIVINE! ♥♥♥

[@jujuliana5023]

Aaah noch wer deutsches haha

[@juli7917]

@@jujuliana5023 ich auch😂

[@cherlindreaaurora4075]

Ich glaube da gibt es einige XD aber ich liebe einfach diese pure Art der videos

[@Lex-yz8uv]

österreicherin is auch da;)

[@janakatharina3182]

Heeey, bin auch noch da :)

[@shreyatanna9099]

Wow Elzani, your eyes are the most beautiful colour I've ever seen on a human being in my whole life! Theyre absolutely gorgeous!

[@jadejeffree7258]

I love your fuel spoon! Fantastic with trying new foods!.You are doing amazing with your recovery darling.😘🥇🏆

[@anaverba4824]

Omg I was so happy to see this video! Just listen to the hunger and eat whatever you want, it is okay!

[@emblrr]

you're smashing recovery more and more in every video! it's amazing to see you improve, there's still a while to go but you've also come so so far!!

[@rosetree2624]

You are a lot stronger than you think! I’m glad you recognize it!

[@LillyPotter7]

You, your mother, and your grandmother are all so beautiful! Sending lots of love to you lovely ladies 😊❤

[@hannahb.4329]

Wow you are amazing!😍 I just found your channel and I love how you continue to challenge yourself! I know how hard eating can be, especially for you still being at an extremely low weight, and it gave me goosebumps and made me smile to see you being so positive and enjoying the food. Thank you thank you thank you❤️ And please keep fighting you are gorgeous and seem to be a lovely person to be around

[@biffalump]

Hello lovely 😊 look forward to your videos , they inspire change in me , brilliant to see you so strong and confident, so many people rooting for you you , lots of love from my family to yours xx

[@alenakralova2520]

“New food, who dis?!” 😂😂

[@saffronstar792]

I love your videos your doing great just keep going you can do it x

[@underthestarsoverthemoon4259]

Great video!!!❤️💕💖 Also your moms hair is really beautiful 😍

[@romy-fw3ky]

*your such an inspiration, I’m sure you inspire so many*

[@ewajackowska4115]

Hi Elzani, you're so right, it was a great day! It melts my heart to see you enjoying food! It we weren't to enjoy food on this planet, we would only eat spinach and quinoa 😅 (ok, i love both). BTW, were you born in 97 or 96?

[@lauralareeva]

97, she turned 22 in january :)

[@ewajackowska4115]

@@lauralareeva oh, same year as me! 🙌🙌

[@prettybirb9431]

You’re looking so happy and well! It’s so amazing seeing your progress, you’re so strong and powerful! Keep it up, recovery is so worth it x

[@vanessao.5407]

I don't know you in real life but I am sooo proud of you!

[@olivia-ph2qn]

also really love how supportive everyone is especially your mom!!!

[@georgannaheatley9124]

You look so happy and healthy it honestly warms my heart to see you smiling like this 💓

[@Monasparlinek]

your mum seems so encouraging! And you are soo strong

[@ceriii134]

No way! I'm so proud of you! Every video I see so much improvement, keep working at your own pace, you'll be there before you know it xx

[@sophiewhyte2145]

Seeing how happy you are and seeing you didn’t get freaked out I’m so proud of you !!

[@KC-ed6jt]

SO PROUD OF YOU ELZANI, YOU DID WONDERFULLY!!! Your shoes are 12/10 Your hair looks so freakin' full & voluminous! Yay for Q&A! Also we need DivineMum & Satara to have a cooking&baking show! Everything they make looks so delish!

[@alprhoe7502]

im so proud of you elzani you've come leaps and bounds since i began following u

[@sarahlou3017]

I love this so much! You can see just how far you are comming , you have so much more spark, your taking your life back and its so inspiring ! You go girl! X

[@olivia-ph2qn]

you look better here! keep up the good work, you’re so positive it’s really nice to see you like this love! 💪🏻❤️

[@Notesofcitrus]

Elzani, you are such a light! So proud of you lately!

[@catmom00]

you seem so gentle and genuinely kind

[@Sophieonline]

Can’t believe your progress Elzani! My Nan and grandad have a holiday home in Seaton and we visit sidmouth regularly and the cakes at the clock tower are AMAZING! Love you xxx

[@MC-kz9fx]

I love watching you so excited about rediscovering old favorite treats. You're doing great! Keep going!

[@MaineJuen]

Just found you today and I'm so happy I did! Because of your courage I challenged one of my own food related fears, eating after 9pm. I had chocolate and it was so delicious and worth it. It's worth it to give your body delicious things!

[@katieleigh3064]

This is amazing work ! So much better portion sizes xx so proud of u ❤️

[@keverleycharles]

You are doing AMAZING Elzani! Seriously so proud of your progress ❤️ keep it up girl!

[@agnescamille9187]

You look so much better everytime I watch your videos ! I whish you the best of recovery from France !! Keep going !❤

[@giselepaschmanns6407]

You are powerful! I love your videos. You have all my respect! Enjoy the food and the life! You are a big inspiration for other people and you can do thiiiis very well ❤️

[@DirtyWhiteEye]

I know you don't know me but I just want to say that I'm proud of you for doing this and please keep it up. It inspires me with my own recovery.

[@akaykk961]

yES FINALLY A NEW VIDEO!!! ur grandmother is so cute!! i love u ❤️

[@challengemeneo]

I’M SO FRIGGEN PROUD OF YOUUUUU

[@mar-d5809]

Dont worry your doing amazing, im trying to escape my everyday egg, fried tomato and salad ... you inspire me to branch out to , so thankyou! your so brave

[@aristahenriot7450]

Love your spoon and it will be a constant reminder to you. Good to see you are still going strong x

[@jessicahale6843]

I was starting to worry about you. I'm glad you got a video up and what a pleasant video it is! You did so well with eating! Keep it up and I'd love to see you eating like this a lot more!

[@selena0755]

Wow she’s really starting to look healthy I love people who actually want to get better for themselves 💖

[@eviecrawford4314]

I love your videos I watch them while I challenge fear foods ☺️ thanks for being such an inspiration :)) would love to know more about your disorder and how you manage anxiety around food in recovery 💕💕💕

[@amitykate7553]

Your videos are amazing!!. I am so proud of you because your are getting so much stronger and looking amazing, you are so stunning xx

[@ladyhayley4859]

What a marvelous day! So glad to see a video from you today!

[@ladyoflove1551]

So proud of you! Keep up the amazing journey of good health and keep that smile, it looks good on you!! 😘💖

[@andeighalfalfa9517]

"crispy on the outside, fluffy in the middle" - ur mom..."that's what i'm gonna be like" - miss elzani...you are the best! well, the 2 of you are the best, and your gramma is as well! xo love ur videos

[@lilybartlett9450]

Your doing amazing elzani, keep doing what ur doing !!! Such an inspiration xx thanks for always being real and raw in your videos xx❤️