WHAT I'M KNITTING, New Patterns & Copenhagen Book Photoshoot

[@HeidiSpear-oz6rw]

Your honesty is a gift, not just your spectacular designs. You describe many very relatable and challenging feelings that follow becoming a mother. Our path was entirely different, adopting a toddler and then an infant, but that sudden onset of feeling like there is something else you should be doing, feeling overwhelmed, feeling guilt for some unknown, unidentified, possibly completely imagined shortcoming. Oh, your sharing brings it right back, and our youngest is now 17! I am glad you are settling into your new, more complicated life and its rhythms. So much love and growth lies in parenthood. I wish you all the best on your path.

[@britter.the.knitter]

I second this. One of the things I love about you is how vulnerable you get in your videos. It's one thing to project an image of perfection, like so many other influencers and creators do, but it's so refreshing to see someone be so candid about their struggles. It is a beautiful and brave thing you do. As a mom of a 16 and 18 year old, let me just say that you are absolutely killing it. Just keep doing what you are doing!

[@holliegiampietro7030]

What a great video. Ur designs are beautiful. But most of all sharing ur feelings. Congratulations again on ur baby son, he’s adorable.enjoy every minute.❤❤❤

[@kerlygerl]

This is a beautiful message and full of wisdom.💜

[@dariag8805]

I did not realize how much I missed watching your videos until you posed your latest one. Your genuinely happy and grateful approach to life and an impressive work ethic is so rare. I cannot wait for your newest book to be out, and I look forward to flipping through the pages to appreciate the wonderful pictures taken in Copenhagen. I wish you and your wonderful family all the best, and I thank you for all that you do.

[@erikalangoe-conradsen4489]

Just found your channel, fellow knitter here, from Sweden. Knitting has always been my sweet spot, but with the children arriving, time has not been the same off course. You have to be kind to yourself. Every feeling is ok. Yesterday my 13 year old daughter asked me why I was not knitting when we were watching tv. She said that it is so cosy when I knit. She has seen me knitting through all years, when her brother was born. Just felt like a nice confirmation of sorts, that she acknowledged the knitting part of me. Take care! Be kind to yourself. Nothing is the same as before kids, it takes some adjustment. But everything will be ok. 🧶💚

[@Eternal_Hope_Q]

This is so true! My daughters are now grown and (weirdly) have started knitting and dressmaking since moving out...they didn't do that growing up! The eldest now has a child and he enjoys watching his momma knit and sew too ❤ precious legacies!

[@judithtaylor6916]

Dont push yourself trying to exceed beyond motherhood. Trying to fit in writing a book and a new baby PHEW! All the best plans dont always come to fruition. Babies make sure of that!Congratulations for getting to the publishing stage. For myself as a nurse/shiftwork experience, I thought I could cope with lack of sleep. NOT SO. I DID NOT cope. No support. A husband who was an anaesthetist and doing shift work. That was 33 years ago. Look forward to your book release. ❤

[@kerrydavison2702]

My goodness, Kika! Every word that comes out of your mouth about motherhood is something that I have thought or said myself with my first child. It's so hard and it was dark for me also. Acceptance is the key! As I survive hard things, I learned that they weren't permanent, and that makes accepting them easier in the moment. It's something I had to learn with time. Thank you for being so real. Mothers need to speak their truth and receive support, not judgement. I appreciate you and your story. P.S. keenly awaiting your book!

[@rosemaryeveleigh3562]

Your podcast was amazing with the photography done in a everyday environment. When photo's are taken with a model standing in an unnatural pose you have no idea how the garment fits with movement. Your photographer (husband) is so talented. The new book is a winner especially the red and white with shoulder frills. Your little boy is so lovely and the tiredness the struggling with the lack of sleep and the hormonal Rollercoaster I remember so long ago. Heippa ❤😊

[@lynmandanas]

It will get better, momma! My baby just turned 15 months. And although this age has a different set of challenges, we are not as tired as we were when the little one was 6 mos below. I am at awe with how much you appear to balance everything. Managing business, keeping your creative juices flowing, and taking care of your small family. You are a super woman!

[@storyandstone]

Oh my Lord, that child could melt even the hardest heart. He is absolutely adorable. Those eyes! ❤ I can’t wait to see your new book. Love the frills! I don’t have children of my own but I have helped raise 10 nieces and nephews and little miss number 10 is about to turn 2 and she is absolutely amazing. When they start to speak and the first time they say your name, it’s the best feeling. You have all that to come. Just enjoy each day as it comes. You’ve got the right idea Kika - don’t put too much pressure on yourself and leave space in your day for things to go wrong or for extra cuddles. Even without kids I always tried to fit too much into my day and would beat myself up about it. Now I make a to-do list and then I move 70% to the next day. That way if I get it all done, I can just start on the next day’s list, but if I don’t, I don’t feel like I’ve failed miserably. BTW that colour & style of jumper on Juki looked amazing. So good to catch up with your little family. 😊

[@lucyburt607]

Lovely to find your video. I’ve missed you but was not surprised that we were not seeing you yet. I remember the early months with my first baby. I was so tired and felt completely overwhelmed. I was so excited about the baby but had no idea that I would feel so incompetent. My husband who had had nothing to do with babies was much better at dealing with her crying. However, we all survived thanks to friends, family and the Nursing Mothers Association of Australia local group counsellors - mother to mother support was just fabulous. That baby turns 50 this year 😂 - she survived! I think motherhood is an art and each one develops what’s best for herself and her little family in her own way. Accept all the help and enjoy - grandmothers and aunties just love to be part of the process ❤

[@DeefromBoston]

Welcome back, I have missed you. Edwin is adorable! You brought back memories of what it was like having a newborn in your life for the first time. What you are experiencing is probably more intense because you are so driven to achieve goals in your work, but as Edwin grows you will get used to the go with the flow mentality. One thing though, you really need to take advantage of nap times to rest and regroup without guilt. If you continue to keep going when you are exhausted your body and energy level will suffer causing more stress and difficulty. Your new sweaters are beautiful and I can't wait to get your new book.

[@dianeellison3090]

Your honesty is SO refreshing. And, your experience is also “normal.” We’ve been there :) Now, 4 kids, 11 grandkids later, worked and been in school, those years were chaotic but wonderful. Gone too quickly. The joy from adult children is GREAT; so great! One day at a time sweet Friend. Savor them all :) Diane Westerinen Ellison

[@CR-pc5yj]

Thank you so much for sharing not only your gorgeous knitwear, but also your honest feelings about becoming a mother and dealing with the challenges it presents. I also had a rough time starting out with my first child ( who is 33 now!), and I will never forget the way it totally changed my life. I’m so happy to hear that it’s getting easier for you and you’re able to relax a little bit and enjoy the moments because it goes by SO fast! The happiness of having a child totally outweighs the “dark” period you had to go through to get where you are now, and where you are heading. You are such a joy and you’re family is wonderful! I greatly appreciate all your hard work and dedication to knitwear design. I’m so looking forward to your new book! You rock Kika!!!

[@sentahenkel6041]

It is so nice to see you again. Thank you for sharing your feelings about beeing a young mother. My baby is on the way and I love to knit 1000 things, but I am so tired all the time and my hands are tired too. That makes me very sad but maby I have to learn to relax more before the baby is there😅. I am waiting for your new book and I really need the pattern for the t-shirt❤. Greatings from North of Germany

[@jilliankonig2759]

Sleep deprivation is real. Especially if you're type A and used to getting a lot done. I'm glad you're finding a balance and letting it go a little. I was a little worried when I saw your last video. I just wanted to be able to reach out and say "it will all work out." Thinking "I am so lucky, and I should be grateful or whatever" doesn't make it easier. When your baby is small, a night can seem to go on forever, but when your child is grown, it will seem like time flew by. Edwin will benefit when you care of yourself, too. He seems like such a happy little fellow.

[@morganunraveled]

this!! as grateful as we are we can guilt ourselves so much for not being “grateful enough”, especially with trying to balance personal goals & work in motherhood while a baby needs us literally 24/7.

[@tracywilson5612]

My little girl is 2 now and your video brings me back to the first few months of motherhood. The chaos and loss of control over time and life mixed with pockets of intense gratitude for this perfect little person. I also had dark dark dark days in the beginning. But I’ll tell you (something I’m sure you’ve been told a bunch already) … it gets better and better each day. And that’s a combination of both you settling into a new normal and your little one giving so much more back. At 6 months, you’re just leaving the “potato” stage and getting to some really fun milestones. Movement, eating, language. It’s all so miraculous. But thank you so much for giving voice to the sad and uncomfortable parts of this journey. I think it’s important to recognize. One extra note to say that, when I was at my lowest, knitting saved me. I may not have had the capacity to look forward to the BIG future, but I could take the small step of looking at a pretty ball of yarn and contemplating what I could do with it. I could rest my heart/head by moving my hands. And I owe a lot of credit for regaining that passion to inspirational crafting videos, yours especially. So, from one mother to another, thank you. You got this. 💛

[@AllAboutE1128]

I love the pink T-shirt!! Can’t wait for a pattern

[@veronicazimmerman3294]

Ditto!

[@natalyaa4928]

I remember you being pregnant and posting every 3-4 weeks and I was thinking ‘oh, lady, you have no idea what’s coming!’ Sure enough, all your emotions are normal now because your autonomy is gone! This is the hardest part of first time parenting. I think working from home also makes it more challenging because there is no clean separation and you are always ‘on’ in both sides - work and parenting. I think once Edwin goes to daycare you will regain some of your freedom and be able to breath easier . Childcare in Finland is excellent! So hang in there for few more years and life will be back to more manageable form 😊

[@kathyihler7239]

I am so happy to see you! Edwin is so beautiful. He looks like both you and Yuki. I cannot wait for your new book. You were missed. Take life as it comes. ❤

[@marloonie]

How lovely to see you again! I look forward to your wonderful new book, but with great patience as you have a very important new part of life 🩵 Thank you for sharing not only your new designs, but your open thoughts and experiences as a new mom. All good thoughts and blessings to you on all of these exciting endeavors!

[@Pam-yy3km]

Hearing your heartfelt discussion about your motherhood adjustments brings back so many memories. As a grandmother, I have felt so much more able to lean into the slowness of being around babies and toddlers to be in the moment with them. My wisdom is learned from many, many mistakes. Hearing you be so insightful and examining the changes and your feelings assures me that your experience overall will be better and healthier for you and your precious baby. 🥰

[@nadinedetain6765]

Happy to see you back on KZbin, it is a pleasure to see you enjoying life with your baby.

[@northwoodfalls1403]

I am a mother of six. I hear you. Totally relate to what I hear you sharing about your experience. Ive had some tough deliveries and newborn phases lol (I’ve had some really easy ones as well … total mixed bag). It’s really so much more the norm than a lot of people seem to think it is. Even amongst non human mammals, you see it … sometimes it takes a minute for it all to click and begin to run smoothly. It’s not easy for sure, but it’s also not abnormal. There’s so much going on just with the hormones alone plus recovering from the trauma of delivery (I mean sometimes it really is a kind of trauma that we don’t acknowledge as much as we should). There’s no way to know how it’s all going to go. It’s part of why we women are so nosy and, quite frankly obnoxious sometimes, with the advice giving and the hovering and the giving of un asked for opinions and such - motherhood is not something that just “happens” magically. It’s often a bumpy start and I think on some deep, evolutionary level, women in particular know they need to watch out for new mothers and for infants. It’s annoying sometimes. Sometimes it’s really not at all helpful …. But it’s a sign that this is a really freaking big deal and a lot is going on and it’s not something that can be done alone. We all need help and encouragement and support. Being honest about it really does help other new mom’s (or even experienced Moms who have hit a bumpy patch) know they’re not alone. It’s often said too easily, but it’s very true that it takes a village to raise a child. Thankfully all our babies remember is the love. They haven’t got a clue that you’re figuring it out as you go along. That comes in adolescence when they’re certain you haven’t got a clue about ANYTHING at all 😂. But even that passes. It’s the hardest thing ever, but it’s, in my humble opinion, the very best of all the things we humans ever do. Which doesn’t mean that you love all of it or love it all the time. The most worthwhile things ask the most from us. I love the frills. I’m looking forward to seeing that one when it’s completed 😊

[@swaenkieft9915]

Thank you so much for being honest about your journey into motherhood. I was pregnant around the same time as you, also had an easy pregnancy but there were complications during the birth which led to a c-section. Mentally I found that quite a thing to come back from. I also recognise what you say about setting goals and expectations for a day. My husband and I decided to stop expecting to get anything done in a day, that way we always feel productive. It’s easy to say this but it took us quite a lot of frustration and tears too. But now I feel I’ve got the hang of motherhood, so let’s tackle the next curveball it’s going to throw at us.

[@Stumpybear7640]

Edwin's little head popping up on the bed😂 So cute! ❤ Your knits are so beautiful, Veronika. Take time off and enjoy your baby, he'll be off to school in no time ❤ Much love xxxx ps imo no-one can 'work from home' when they have a baby. You end up either neglecting your baby or your work. Consider working on your book when your husband can care for your baby in the evening when he comes home from his work. Childcare is a tiring job. Take care of your lovely self. Xxx

[@aphrael38]

give yourself the grace to know your doing this for the first time, and as you go, things will change.. take the moments as they come... its a learning curve and there's no playbook.. the work/care balance is something that is the hardest to get a hold of... REMEMBER. your Productive even if your RESTING... each stage in his life will be temporary, its a moving target that is always changing. It's all about learning how to adapt to the changes of the moment. Use your support system, and never feel guilty about it... you touched on all the right things:) that picture in your head of how things should look is never going to be perfect, but it is a guideline, not set in stone:) Enjoy the moments. You got this!

[@UllasKnittingDiaries]

I can really relate to the things you say about motherhood! I had my second baby a month ago and I try to enjoy the newborn phase but it is also so exhausting and hard (especially with a 2 year old that also wants attention). But time runs so quickly and soon enough I will get used to everything again :)

[@Kutovakika]

Oh wow that must be a whole new level of challenges with two little ones 😍 You’re so right time goes so quickly!

[@morganunraveled]

I always adore and resonate with your authenticity and vulnerability in sharing your journey, in motherhood, in your projects, in being a content creator. you are a light and I am always overjoyed to see new videos & patterns from you. you are so hard working & inspiring. its so much to balance and I am always cheering you on! I hope once your book releases you feel able to take a bit of a break from the whirlwind and chaos!! 💗💗

[@Woldenburn]

I love the red/white striped ruffle sweater! I think it is such a beautiful design. And I know just what you mean about motherhood being challenging and wonderful and hard and amazing all at the same time. I definitely struggled a bunch with that after our first baby was born a couple years ago. And now that we have welcomed a second little one, there has definitely been some more adjusting to the challenges of this new season juggling a baby and a toddler. I don't think I have much advice or anything to offer, mostly just wanted to say you are absolutely not alone and I understand what you are going through! ❤❤❤

[@sumiyyahzulkifli3334]

Your knits are beautifull, can you please create knitting pattern for kids sweater..😊

[@danbev8542]

Wonderful video! Your son is beautiful and looks to be thriving! You look and sound wonderful! I remember all the anxiety and frustration of living with a baby/toddler! How I miss it! You are doing SO MUCH! The stuff “they” say about having a career AND children is crap! If you do it all, something will be neglected! Love your son, take care of yourself (experts at torture use sleep deprivation!), lean on and love your husband. We will be here when you get back! 💕 Your skills are awesome and aren’t going anywhere! You are doing great! .

[@mendyelliott9495]

I’ve missed seeing you! Motherhood is a totally new journey. One day you’ll look back and think wow the time flew by but in that moment you are becoming a new person with all of the changes. I think you have a beautiful family and I can’t believe he’s going to be six months!! So excited for your next book I have your first one and I am here for all of it. I have a request, I love your purses!!! All of them are so cute! I would like to know the brand. 😂 I’m kind of a purse addict.

[@TheCatlady63]

I was looking through my you tube list yesterday and you and the baby came into my mind and here you are.! Edwin is looking good, a bouncing 6 month baby, soon he will be walking then your lives will change again. It will be more difficult to work alongside giving him the attention he will require. You need to find a way to manage your time and a use help if you need it. Edwin will pick up on you stress so don't stress yourself out just give youself time to be with him before he stops needing you.

[@sherryedwards9571]

Every new Moms experience is personal and unique. While in it we can’t wait until the next phase always rushing it along and then like in a blink of an eye it’s over. I personally wish I could go back. Your work is always beautiful, thank you for sharing.❤

[@studio_gogo_design]

Thank you so much for mentioning the dark side of early motherhood. It’s definitely glossed over and makes people feel guilty when they experience it. AND it takes away the accomplishment of getting through it! It isn’t easy, but we do it anyway! Well done!👏 I so related to the feeling of doing so many things but feeling like you’re not doing anything good enough. I wish I could say it gets easier but with a 7yo and 3yo, I still struggle. Also I CAN’T WAIT to make the striped sweater.

[@christybray8789]

Veronica, I’ve been following you for quite a while and I always love your creations. I am definitely making that pink sweater that you’ve been wearing today! Do you ever do test knits? I would love to be one of your test knitters. The first child is such a huge adjustment. I personally found that the second child was much easier because you were already in the swing of being a parent. Everything is not new the second time around. It sounds like you had some postpartum depression. I too had some. It’s just hard being a mother! My daughters are now grown, ages 28 and 29. so I am anxiously awaiting being a grandmother! I hope you will do some more baby clothes that little onesie you made for your son was so cute. I’m looking forward to some baby creations from you!😊

[@shannonoliver5414]

So good to see you again. Edwin is precious. I’m looking forward to seeing your new book. 😊

[@francineh.7825]

Edwin is so cute and you are settling into motherhood beautifully! I really love the relaxed/everyday look of your book photos 🩷

[@unplainjane123]

Thanks for sharing your vulnerability. I relate so much to your stories especially as a working mom. The first year of motherhood is particularly challenging. There is so much joy in having a baby but also so much overwhelming emotions and responsibilities. My child is 7 now and it’s soooo much easier.

[@NewstromJulianna]

I can totally relate to the feeling of guilt that I should be doing something else. My daughters are now in their 20s and I still have the feeling of guilt that I should be doing something else. It’s a tough to break from the feelings, habits and routines. Motherhood is wonderful but also exhausting…it’s easy to lose oneself. Unfortunately, we all have a different path so we can’t say “do it this way”. The advice that holds true across the board is to be gentle with yourself because mothering is hard work. You’ll find that the days are long but the years are so short. ❤❤❤

[@SeamsLikeAGoodIdea]

It is incredible that you are creating a book after just having an an adorable baby. And then you go to another country and do photo shoots! All the while creating new knitted garments and patterns. That's pretty amazing. It will be so good for Edwin to grow up with a mom who is passionate about her art and has a fulfilling life, both personal and professional. Whether it is finding someone to take him for walks and play with him a bit or sending the laundry out, honor yourself and find ways to give yourself some support for a few hours every day. Babies can wear you out and there's no law that you have to be tied to them 24/7. xo

[@Eternal_Hope_Q]

You are so right... motherhood is the hardest (but best) job you will ever have. Working whilst raising a family is even harder. You are doing so well. Be proud of yourself and your little family 💖 Your work is excellent, your style is classic and will stand the test of time 👍🏻

[@trixieknits]

I have five children all two years apart. Each one was different so people are right. You can’t prepare for everything. I wouldn’t trade a minute of it and am so thankful I have all of them. I grew up with only one younger brother and it was sort of lonely. My kids are never lonely. ❤

[@OlgaBombelettaKowalska]

I am waiting for your tee pattern - lately, I've been wearing (and making) a lot of cotton blouses, they are so convenient for everyday life!.❤

[@Gina-u6r]

Love the shoulder detail of the anemone one👍

[@leighhuggins5030]

Oh Kika, I have missed your videos. Your honesty, your vulnerability, your joy and love for life, is always such a gift to behold. Your first book is the only knitting book I've ever purchased, and I will definitely be buying your second one when it becomes available! Thank you for sharing your life, and please know you can always take a break like this. Your audience will still be here whenever you're ready to return.

[@rachelraye285]

You are an incredible designer and have one of my favorite youtube podcaster! I am excited to buy the book and look forward to doing another test knit. The guilt will come and go but in time you and your family will create a system that works best for you. You are doing all the things you need to do for your son and yourself. I am a mother of three boys and it is non-stop action but I take a break. It is okay to do that for yourself! Again, you are incredible and will do what you need to do. Congrats on the new book!!!!

[@olesyagrebennikova5629]

Very glad you see you again in KZbin. I probably can understand your feelings, as a mom of 16 years baby 😅. In the beginning life is so concentrated in baby and we have to find the balance. But you are so blessed that you have everything: husband, home, food. Its a big gift. ❤

[@Baghwanita]

Your baby boy is so beautiful and so are you. You are glowing from the inside out. Can't wait for the book. And I'm in love with the redstripi one

[@anaguzman3339]

Nice to see you back. Can wait to see all your designs and videos. What i heard you saying is that you feel guilty. Please don't. Whatever you are doing at the moment enjoy it and most importantly rest when you can without feeling guilty. You mind and body will be greatful. Blessings to you and your family.

[@villalongaariana6874]

First of all, you are doing great. Great mom, great contes and wonderful inspiring projects. Good or bad news, depending on how you want to take it, things do get better when they reach the age of 3. They are a little more "independent" but till then, go with the flow. Rest when he rests otherwise it is easy to end up having a bit of a breakdown that you never saw coming. Some months you will feel you have managed to find a balance, but others, it all changes again and you must readjust and accept that you must pause till things calm down. Till then, be kind to yourself. Your regular viewers will still be here, and we will keep up to date when you can post. I admire your work. Your first book was very inspiring, even though, I admit for a very beginner knitter like me, I love looking at your first book that I have at home but I am still lost and confused with some things and with a small child of my own and working 40 hours a week it's hard to find enough time to concentrate and practice to at least finish 1 piece as this is all new to me. I knit and crochet small things, easy projects but only with the two or three very basic stiches that I know. Everything else is still gibberish to me and I hardly have time to find out how the other stiches work. Video tutorials help a lot to gain time in understanding.

[@ourdailyyarn]

Heavy is a good way to describe the first few months with a new baby... I can totally relate to that. I'm so glad you're finding a good rhythm for you. It can be so hard, but also so rewarding. Also - soooo excited for the striped ruffle sweater. It's AMAZING! Thanks for the new video!

[@sue7621]

It is a shock to the system but you and your baby comes first, we will wait, just go with the new flow! Rest is very important to to incorporate the changes in your life and as you understand the creative process ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ 🙌🙌❤️💜❤️🤗😘🥰you’re doing amazing!

[@lillahera]

I ended up having my first baby around the same time as you and I recognise myself so much in what you say about the first 6 months with having a baby. Thank you for opening up about it! Becoming a mum, however wonderful, definitely is very hard in many ways. I look at other mums in such a different way now 😅 every mom is such a hero ❤

[@michellahunter1520]

Lovely Kika, you are doing an excellent job - you are in “matrescence” - a word I learnt this week and wish I knew 14 years ago when I became a mother xoxo

[@barbarafischer4619]

Good morning from Northern Illinois USA. I haven't seen your videos in so long!! This video just popped up. So happy to see you. Ive missed alot of videos! I have to play catch up!! Congratulations on your sweet little baby!! ❤️ There is nothing better then being a parent! So excited for you and your husband. I love your creations. You are so talented and creative! Your studio is beautiful. You are such an inspiration being a wife, mom, artist, author & business woman! This video uplifted my morning. God bless you & your family.

[@JessieBenson93]

Lovely video, I'm very excited for the book! My baby is currently 5 weeks and I find it so reassuring to hear other mums say they didn't enjoy the newborn phase so much. I loved pregnancy, but then having an actual baby (who I love endlessly of course), feels so overwhelming and just way too much a lot of the time. ❤It's good to feel like this feeling is normal xxx

[@RachelBearn]

So lovely to catch up with you. I really appreciate your honesty. You’re doing an amazing job. Juggling your own business with motherhood must be so hard but you’re doing so well ❤

[@roos7631]

Thank you for being so honest. I can only imagine what a big change it is to become a mother. Not only logisticly and pysically (after pregnancy, birth and nursing) but also the hormonal changes! And still produce this lovely video's and a whole new knittin book! I can't wait to buy it. You're amazing and Edvard is so lucky to have you and Yuki as parents!

[@maarjapiigli9480]

100% agreed with the sleeves!! The motivation just isn't there for them after finishing the body 😂 Sometimes I knit the sleeves when the body is like half way done, just to get the sleeves out of the way, and I don't have to worry about them anymore after I'm done with the body 😅

[@nicolelafontaine1720]

Thank you so much for all your beautiful patterns and for sharing about your maternity so honestly.

[@catb2069]

Edwin is SO beautiful! Beautiful family! Thanks for sharing a sneak peek of your book. Lovely designs and photography. I’ll be excited for the release. ❤️

[@natasacumic8289]

Baby blues and ppd are no joke, be gentle with yourself and enjoy those little moments because kids grow so fast! I am a mom of two, and newborn stage is definitely my least favourite, no matter how cute and tiny they are, for me it was the most challenging and exhausting physically and mentally. I used to crochet a lot and with my first baby I continued when he was 8m, when he started to crawl and have fun exploring around and suddenly I had free arms 😄

[@klaskelangford8324]

Thank you for sharing, you're amazing. You're not along in your journey of being a new mom and you're to be admired for all that you do! Can't wait for your book to be released!

[@jennistevenson796]

Lovely to see you and gorgeous baby. You are doing SO MUCH . A baby is more than a full time job. I would leave your book for a year and come back to it. But I can see you love doing it.I have just now bought your arctic light and salty days sweater, you have so many great patterns out there already. Would love to see some baby knit patterns from you one day.Love the frill sweater xxxx

[@videotapeses]

Every color selection I see is so on point- can't wait for the book

[@fiolett.patterns]

Hi Kika! I can relate...My daughter is a teenager nowadays, but I remember those moments that you are living right now and sometimes (or most of the time) I felt overwhelmed and tired. Enjoy and rest a lot. Edwin will turn a toddler...so quickly, even if you think right now that is far from your reality, It will come sooner than expected. Enjoy!!!❤ Kisses from Spain!

[@TangledGrace]

I am a web designer/ manager and I work from home making my own hours with my almost 2 year old. I totally understand how you feel. It’s hard to enjoy just spending time with the baby when you know you have so much work floating over your head.

[@sandradearing604]

So very happy to see you back! SO excited to get your new book! 6 months old is such a darling age! (childless doge lady here! BUT I did a plethron of babysitting in my day!) LOVE LOVE that you are coming back~ XO

[@jillr759]

Your glowing and look absolutely beautiful! Our bodies soon forget the challenges and we want to jump in again when your body agrees. Your new creations are outstanding!

[@buzzyanderson4131]

Skills! Your knitting is extraordinary. Very inspiring and impressive!

[@cathymontano569]

If it is affordable don't hesitate to get help. You are truly busy. Hormones, feelings, guilts are at a all time high, for sure. Welcome to our mom life. But then again, we wouldn't change it for nothing. My 4 children(now adults) have taught me so much. You are doing great in this normal but hard stage of life. Thank you for being real. ❤

[@Teralls12]

It absolutely makes my day to see your videos- the baby is adorable! I miss seeing you as often - I’m an 82 year old mom, grandma and great grandma in Montana USA.

[@laurenjf2147]

Thank you for your videos, always inspiring and uplifting. Sometimes you need to take one day at time, focus on the basics and take care of yourself. But it does get easier, I promise! They start to do more things independently and interact with you more. And then just like that they suddenly become a pre-teen and you have to learn a whole new way of being a mum! 😂 Enjoy it, you're doing your best and that is all anyone can ask of you. x

[@maryoconnell35]

Lovely to see you again, your baby boy is gorgeous, being a Mom is exhausting, nothing like having a small person to throw your routine upside down, you are doing so well, running your business and taking care of your little boy, I love your creations and wishing you well, sending love from Ireland ,☘️

[@debcigna6732]

i was so happy to see your new post, your little one is adorable, glad youve been able to get back to creativity and your passion for yarn craft and we benefit from that !!!

[@maricaburman1976]

You are such a wonderful person! Honest with your struggling and in the same time happiness! Like in real life. Love your knitting! 💗

[@thereseengtro1701]

Having a «velcro» preemiebaby only thing I’m able to work on are crochet dishcloths. Small enough to work on while hes on me😂 4 months now and agree that I now can enjoy motherhood a little, not just being tired all the time❤

[@crystalblue38883]

I was wondering how you were doing with such a rough delivery. So glad you are healed and back!! Sooo looking forward to the un-named tee in beginning with the sleeves. I'm sure it will be ready for spring knitting......Looking forward to getting your book! Can't believe you got that done with all the things on your plate to do and heal. Best to you and your family.

[@zxTulip]

I know others' lives sometimes seem more difficult, but I have to call you out there: please don't invalid your own emotions and experiences. I have been watiching your videos since you started to post knitting content. I think you have done such a great job with your work and welcoming a baby to your life. I am proud of you and also to be one of them who have the privilege to witness it. I also enjoy all the videos you make and the joy and inspiration they bring. Wish you the best and I am so excited about the new book!

[@jenniferbuczynski8995]

Oh my goodness, Edwin is so adorable! He looks so much like his dad & Mom!! You are doing amazing Kika. I want to support you in every way!

[@jobella5789]

I think you so beautifully described what it’s like to be a first time mother. It can be a real shock to the system. The feeling of tiredness is like nothing experienced previously. The good news is that the experience of mothering subsequent babies is much easier. Sounds like you’re doing an amazing job.

[@DynamiteTrujillo]

Your segment on early motherhood felt so relatable. Everything you said, I was just nodding and feeling seen. LOL. My two kids are now 3 and 6, and it's really crazy how much our lives change, not only with the introduction of kids into our family, but as they grow and change, too. I love your designs - a Salty Days is next on my needles, but now I'm so tempted by the Bubblelicious! xoxo

[@janadebaptistis7561]

I love that you are so honest about the beginning of motherhood. It is such an intense time, exhausting and also so precious at the same time. It is so romanticized by social media. Thank you for that

[@mostlyknitting]

Thank you so much for sharing. I think a lot of mums feel the way you do. I know i did. The pressure we put on ourselves to be productive. And why? For me, i think my value as a person was connected to my productivity. But you being there for your son, and for yourself through rest and joyful, individual activity that is not related to work - that is more important than those few extra things ticked off the to-do list that ends up becoming our self-inflicted slave-driver. Take care of yourself. X

[@kdolguin]

I’ve missed you so much. So nice to have your update on life.

[@sarahd.7827]

I also think it's amazing you have the option to stay with your baby. Not that daycare vs. Stay home is any better, but to have the CHOICE is amazing. Many Mom's in the USA have 4 to 6 weeks home, then baby is at daycare and Mom is stuck pumping in the employee bathroom😅 you are doing great! I think it's amazing you chose to be home, the first year goes by so fast!! As my mother was fond of saying "Such long days, and such short years."

[@MerikeElbre]

Hi, thank for all, love every piece of thing you are doing and shearing with us. What A nice enery you have!

[@bonnij]

Sooooo glad to see you. You look fabulous and your ‘boys’ are cuter than ever. I’ve been waiting for Bubblicious so I flew over to your website and grabbed it. Looking forward to your new book. I have the first one and love it. My very first sweater I ever made was the cinema sweater. Well almost. One sleeve to go.

[@momosaku16]

the red and white striped sweater is so cute! love the neckline!

[@marthewalbye5272]

Wow, It's impressive that you manage to juggle baby, knitting and making a knitting book on top of it all. The rest of us take off our hats and applaud👏👏👏So looking forward to the new book🧶🧶🧶🧶

[@mb7a4fmlg]

Ow good to have you back. Ow how cute. God bless you

[@morganunraveled]

the motherhood experience of never feeling like you’re doing enough, never have enough time, never being present enough… it’s so real. thank you for sharing, normalizing, and de-stigmatizing this anxiety & experience. I resonate with you sososo deeply Kika.

[@MelArchbold]

I have 3 kids and the first 3 months was the hardest for sure but it did get easier in the fact that I was more confident and less worried all the time with each baby going forward ❤

[@maryannbergeron9531]

It is so nice to see you back on KZbin. Motherhood definitely changes how we juggle our responsibilities. You are doing a great job. Looking forward to seeing your book. I love your pink tee. Definitely need that one in my “have to buy” list ❤

[@swantjevoller-eb8ch]

Love your honesty and openness about the challenges of motherhood as a working mum. We need more ppl like you

[@DieRoteMohnblume]

Oh my god...the striped frilled sweater is so nice❤❤❤

[@ellajakovickas]

Love the tshirt, look toward yo the pattern when you get the time 😊

[@kt55466]

Hi Kika. So good to hear from you. I can't wait for the book to come out. Edvin is so cute.

[@CathyHume-r3u]

Great to have you back. Life sure changes with children But what joy. Love the new patterns . Take care . From New Zealand

[@KarinaFaro]

Thank you for sharing your experience with us. Having a baby was very, very difficult to me in the beginning too. Things get better with time and the challenges change, but I feel that the guilt of not being with the kid/not working/not cleaning/not blábláblá is always there for me. I love your designs and I am happy to see you back on YT. I am excited to see the book when it comes out! 🩷