WHAT I'VE LEARNED IN THERAPY TO HELP MY HYPOCHONDRIA / "HEALTH ANXIETY"

2 years ago I suffered from a severe mental health crisis that forced me into therapy and mental health medication. During that time I learned a LOT about myself and what causes my severe and debilitating hypochondria *(health anxiety) - Today I wanted to share with you all what I have learned in doing 2x weekly therapy and EMDR. I have done SO much therapy and have reduced my anxiety by around 90% in regards to my health. I now worry (what I feel) is a relatively normal amount about my health and haven't spiraled about my health in over a year. That is UNHEARD of for me. I used to think that there was no hope for me, that I was doomed to ruminate and stress for the rest of my life about my health, but through TONS of work, medication, and consciously not googling - I am MUCH better. I was CERTAIN I would live this way forever, and I am no longer stressing about my health, even WITH new concerning bodily sensations popping up. I want to say, I am NOT a doctor, I am NOT a therapist BUT I am someone who lives with this debilitating mental illness and I have found a LOT of relief with what I talk about in this video. I HIGHLY recommend speaking to a professional if you can, therapists can be absolutely life changing.
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[@sarahstrt]

Have you taken a moment to realize that not only did you reach the point of recovering but you’re so far into recovery that you can repeat what you’ve learned back to an audience with confidence? Take this moment to be proud of yourself. You did this.

[@JulieNick28]

WELL SAID❤

[@RawBeautyKristi]

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[@RawBeautyKristi]

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[@toriiilee123]

Omg this is exactly how I was thinking of watching this ❤

[@janfranklin2114]

My daughter did EMDR for anxiety.

[@pink_sparrow_1373]

I’m a hypochondriac too 😀. What’s helped me is just ensuring I get all my screenings done and physicals. I have also had all sorts of issues. I’ve also seen very healthy fit people get sick. Being proactive with screenings, getting enough rest, and being thankful to wake up everyday. My relationship with God has helped me the most. Reading my Bible, praying, faith and trusting in Gods will has put me more at ease.

[@57athina]

Girl! This was me 💯 for a decade. Became caregiver to my elderly parents 15 years ago and for a solid decade became hyper focused on my health. I was going to doctors with them 5 days a week, my Mom had dementia and my Dad had bladder cancer and then dementia at the same time. I owned a restaurant that was very stressful career. And 3 adult children each with their own issues I had to deal with. It was overwhelming to my brain. Anxiety, health anxiety, no sleep, googling, random pain everywhere, vomiting constantly. They’ve since both passed 8 years ago about 2 years apart. I sold the restaurant. My kids are grown with families of their own. It took me a solid 10 years to overcome the rumination. I’m at peace now for 5 years. It takes time and patience.

[@ankeranna]

Wow what a stressful time for you. Immhappy you‘re doing better now ❤

[@Abishhhhh]

Wow. May your peace be everlasting now ✨

[@theginjakids1694]

Kristi, as a long time subscriber, I'm so impressed by your growth and progress. I'm also a trauma therapist and certified EMDR therapist. You did an amazing job explaining your experiences. I want to add a caution to your viewers when considering looking up bilateral stimulation videos like you had mentioned: EMDR is intended to be done with a trained therapist who is following a specific process they've learned through extensive training and supervision. It can look quite passive for what the therapist is doing, but they're also monitoring for distress and how to support the processing and reduction in the SUDs score. But overall i hope more people will now consider it as a helpful resource because of your amazing videos and shared personal experiences! ❤

[@amyspikes1834]

I’m literally in tears right now. Thank you so much for this. I’ve always had anxiety, but it has increased 10 fold after I had my son a year ago. I really needed to hear this from someone with compassion who has actually experienced it, and not just the brush off from family and friends.

[@beybladebaby]

I found it genuinely helpful too

[@Feminazi1dc]

Girl same my leg been throbbing and I’m convinced I got diabetes or a blood clot that’s gonna give me a heart attack and kill me. In my defense I have some health issues and I’ve already had friends die and I’m 23 , so I basically have no choice but to be confronted with the thought of death which is very unhelpful :)

[@KateMartinez-yi4gg]

Kids do that to you. I never had anxiety before I had kids. It's because you love them so much that your biggest fear becomes not being there to raise them.

[@TonjaWatts]

Does anyone else have health anxiety but also have anxiety about going to the doctor for fear of it coming true? How do you move past? I know just go, but it’s really hard. Thank you for sharing and being open. ❤

[@rhiannah9939]

For me, I definitely have to organize my thoughts about symptoms. And if I have serious symptoms I will go to the doctor. But it takes a lot of work.

[@brittanycarter6421]

Not me, but my mom. After my grandmother died of breast cancer, she quit going to doctors. That was 22 years ago. I worry about her so much because she is almost the age my grandmother was when she passed (which this video was an eye opener about associating the age someone died with yourself or loved ones by the way) I feel like when my mom gave up on doctors, I became more obsessed with going to them whether it be for routine visits or my health anxiety sending me to them. I always make sure to tell my mom that I went to the doctor. I want her to know that I went and I’m fine so she can too. I hope the same for you. ❤

[@theresa88]

My mom died just a couple of days ago from “spontaneous” early onset Alzheimer’s. I’ve been struggling with health anxiety for the past couple years and have moments where I am absolutely convinced that I am dying of some “spontaneous” disease. Thank you for posting this video. It’s such a natural response to a tragic and INSANE experience. Sending love ❤

[@jsm8841]

So sorry to hear about your mom. My mom passed away suddenly in August, and I’ve had a lot of health anxiety since then as well. I think it’s basically expected for people who lose someone close to us like this to feel this way at time. I think it does get better with time though.

[@Kris_Si2]

My condolences to your family 😞 so awful to lose your mom especially this time of year. Can I ask wtf is “spontaneous” Alzheimer’s?! I don’t mean that in a disrespectful way, my dad was just diagnosed at 72 but it’s not spontaneous, and my understanding of it is it will take years to progress to the point of it shutting down his body. Spontaneously just sounds so awful, is that something that can happen to anyone with Alzheimer’s?

[@lacyogle5957]

I'm so sorry.

[@womanofacertainage5892]

Don't Google it. I'm not going to. Best not to.@@Kris_Si2

[@womanofacertainage5892]

I'm so sorry for the loss of your mom.

[@horsearoundtack]

I was You! 70 years old and diagnosed as Bipolar. Treatment resistant! A life of fight or flight. I have taken every drug with no positive results. I was at the end of my rope when I decided to take control! I was a victim of my past. I simply started Meditating. Within one week my anxiety was Gone.

[@l_7376]

What kind of meditating do you do? How?

[@robinelliott5561]

@@l_7376/ hi! Can you tell what kind of meditating? Thank you!

[@Pageh22]

I’m 49 and have suffered with health anxiety all of my adult life. I also am triggered with dealing with my children’s health. I had a severe mental health crisis in 2020 probably triggered by Covid. I had convinced myself I had cancer. I had scans and procedures and ended up in an outpatient program and on heavy duty medication. A new therapist and EMDR has been critical in my healing. Our stories are so similar. Your advice is spot on. Thank you for telling your story on here!

[@x.Kristen.x]

I also have health anxiety triggered by covid. The slightest things would have me googling for hours. I get so much anxiety even if my kids have a cold. I’m constantly thinking something is wrong or going to be wrong. I’m currently in therapy for it and I’m doing a little better.

[@sciencetest8]

@Page22, I have had severe health anxiety for the past 6 years also. I have a big fear of cancer and it has affected every aspect of my life. I have had x-rays and ct scans on the area I am concerned about. Checked by my family doctor several times, trips to ER where I was again checked out. I always get good results and feel elated for a day or two, then the symptoms and health anxiety starts to creep in until I am back to square one. It is so frustrating and exhausting. I want to be well again.

[@marydykes9418]

It's crazy because I've NEVER thought or worried about my health as much as I do now since having my daughter. I find myself being more scared of death than I've ever been. I hate that I'm constantly worried now. Love this video and you sharing your experience ❤

[@britzel71]

When I had my children, I, too, went through this. It almost consumed me. Mine started because I was married to an abusive, violent man, and I had no one who would raise my children as I wanted or would be good for them. Once my last child turned 18, I finally was able to deal with it, but now I have 2 incredible grandchildren, and it's flaring up again because I'm super close with them, so it's something I have to deal with. It's difficult 😕

[@dfc41]

Same thing since I had my son!

[@britzel71]

@@dfc41 it's awful 😖

[@nina3538]

I was fairly nonchalant at first until my son started school and went through a series of ailments.. bronchitis then pneumonia and then mono. It’s like he had no time to heal and the mono took him out for about a month. It was horrible. He was so bad he couldn’t even adjust his body on the bed, he wouldn’t respond, he got super thin. I was very pregnant at the time and my husband had been caring for him for about a week. I hadn’t really seen him so when my husband went back to work it was a SHOCK. I couldn’t look at him without running out to cry uncontrollably. I dragged him to the ER and all they said was he’d fight it off on his own. It was so much worry and pain and seeing him basically he sick for what felt like months nonstop. It was the worst time of my life! Then I gave birth and got eclampsia. I had an episode shortly after coming home from hospital where I felt like I was going to die. I’d never ever felt my body just fail me and be so out of my control. I was hospitalized another week while I worried about my new baby having lost weight after being born. I was so scared. Even after almost a year I had what felt like a similar episode and went to the ER. They ran all the tests and said it was likely anxiety which can make your body feel all sorts of things… even like a heart attack! Honestly, that’s when I realized I probably never dealt with all those scares while pregnant 😢 I wish someone had told me that bc I’m so much calmer now when I’ve felt my blood pressure rise. I’m like oh ok so I’m not dying… it may be anxiety! I never considered that. What helped even more was that my sister had had the exact same thing happen to her with one of her kids and she too started feeling better when they told her she wasn’t dying and to treat her anxiety. That’s all I needed to hear but am now considering therapy. My oldest with a sneeze or cough can still trigger panic in me suddenly if I’m not in a good headspace. But definitely better with the no googling, no sick child videos, and a good pep talk. It’s normal for kids to be sick. He will be ok. Over and over in my head. Deep breaths. Omg it’s just scary 😭

[@fullofgrace1984]

For the first year of my daughter's life, she was dying (in my head) and now I am dying (in my head). I hate it! I have NEVER in my life worried about just living like I do now.

[@catmac7373]

Thank you for this conversation! I never had hypochondria until my digestion issues in 2022. I was convinced it was cancer. Come to find out, it was SIBO. However, my social media apps were already tuned into death, cancer, and illness based on my prior self diagnosis. Not only did I worry about myself, but I worried for my whole family. I would wake up and make sure my husband was still breathing. Everything that hurt would get googled and dr. google told me I was dying every time. Since I started fasting and my symptoms have disappeared for the most part, things have gotten so much better. God and my husband both pulled me through this and we can giggle about it now. My husband actually got me a shirt that says “everything hurts and I’m dying” and we laugh like hell over it. I pray that anyone going through this gets the help and support they need to get better.

[@dfc41]

It's wild the similarities I'm reading in these comments to myself. I have undiagnosed stomach and bowel issues and they seem to be a huge trigger. They say your gut is your second brain so that could explain it. I also read an article talking about how bad gut health can literally cause anxiety, panic and depression.

[@catmac7373]

I’ve learned that too!! Much of my poor mental health was due to my stomach issues. It’s wild how closely they are connected and impact one another. I didn’t start feeling better mentally until I took care of my gut health. Fasting and ION gut health liquid have helped.. Hope you are on the path to health and healing!

[@dfc41]

@catmac7373 I appreciate that 🙏 I'm currently pregnant so I'm struggling in the gut area 🥴 but after I have this baby I have appointments with a endocrinologist, a gastrointestinal doctor, a dermatologist and a Immunologist. Maybe it's an over kill but I have way too many issues ranging from gut issues to skin issues that might be hormonal (hidridinitis) and it has me thinking I'm just gonna die any day and it's exhausting to worry like this! I had a friend recommend fasting as well!

[@tayloravalis727]

Kristi because of you in a previous video saying "is it bad enough to go to the doctor? No? Then you can't Google it." Has helped me so much. I now hear your voice in my head as I go to Google something. I now only Google if I have a confirmed diagnosis from my doctor and I want to do more research but no more convincing myself I have the plague. Thank you ❤

[@emilyparson9263]

This has been one of the hardest years of my life. I was recently diagnosed with OCD, generalized anxiety, and CPTSD. I had a trigger that set me into debilitating depression and anxiety. I am finally pulling myself out of it but now I’m struggling with dissociation and constant worry for my health. Thank you for talking about mental health. It really is so important.

[@RawBeautyKristi]

I am so so so sorry to hear it’s been such a rough time. Triggers that lead to dissociation are horrific and debilitating. I had a 2/ish month long dissociation this year after a trauma trigger and it was sooooo hard to live through. Idk if this helps you, but when I was feeling like the world was truly fake and bizarre and I was heavily dissociated - my therapist telling me “what you are experiencing is NORMAL. Your body is trying to help” made me feel so much better. When she said “it will go away. Your nervous system just has to settle” and I just ACCEPTED the dissociation and while horrifically uncomfortable, just went with it and tried to say “it’s normal. It will go away eventually” - it did. It was suchhhhhh a wonderful moment realizing that I wasn’t dissociating anymore! It did go away. You WILL feel better soon. 💕💕💕💕

[@emilyparson9263]

@@RawBeautyKristi Thank you so much for your advice and kind words. I needed that and appreciate it more than you know. Especially coming from you! I have followed your journey for so many years and related to you so much. I’ve always struggled with my mental health but after bringing my beautiful babies into this world, it hit me like a ton of bricks. I am hoping to break free of the health anxiety and dissociation so that I can be more present with my kiddos. They deserve a happy mom and I deserve to enjoy raising them. 🤍🤍

[@Truerealism747]

​@@RawBeautyKristidid you have chronic muscle pain

[@lorrainecalvert4635]

As someone who suffers from debilitating anxiety, I'm so glad about the honest conversation Kristi is having. I just want to say that this kind of anxiety doesn't always have to do with health anxiety. When she said I lost 20 lbs in 2 weeks, I totally get it. Every time I go through an "episode" of debilitating anxiety I get really skinny. Mine usually last about 3 or 4 months. 3 to 4 months of not being able to eat, hypervigilance, loss of relationships, completely having to drop out of a functional world. I've had to leave jobs, lose friends, get sick from lack of nutrition even though I'm a Dietitian. It's so annoying to hear people say, "I'm so anxious", all I can think is they have no idea what real anxiety is. There is help, tapping, EMDR, therapy. However I warn people not to just do talk therapy for this issue. You need a therapist who uses these kinds of tools that regulate your nervous system. It's a long road, but there is help.

[@maggiekidd2662]

This comment made me feel like I’m not alone. Thank you.

[@tinad.5752]

Appreciate your post. I always have hope but your message gave me more hope in dealing with my debilitating anxiety.

[@jenniferlee9029]

How are u now?

[@lorrainecalvert4635]

@@jenniferlee9029 Hey Jennifer and thanks for asking. I'm doing okay with my anxiety at this point. I deal with a lot of physical health issues too, so it's just a difficult life. But today 3/7 at 3:10 I'm doing okay, lol. Really just have to take it one day at a time..... How are you?

[@nexithedestroyer]

I have ocd, it’s always in the back of my head but I had a really bad period 3 years ago where it completely debilitated me. I couldn’t eat, get out of bed, sleep, I was suicidal. It’s weird because I don’t suffer from anxiety from a day to day basis, but if I start giving into compulsions and ruminating I will go down that spiral again. Anxiety is fucking debilitating, I cannot express enough how much respect I have for people who go through that several times a year, or even a month. It’s just awful

[@krystlejade9126]

I had health anxiety for a long while and finally got diagnosed with OCD. I didn't think it was OCD because online, people always say that's just when you're picky about maybe 2 lines not being straight or uneven patterns, when in reality it manifests in many different ways, but at the root of it, obsessive thoughts and habits start taking over your life. At my worst, I'd think about what diseases I thought I had or could get 24/7, would wash my hands until they bled, and developed an ED. Therapy helped me soooo much. I now have 99% good days, and only 1% bad days with it, and it used to be the other way around.

[@pliktl]

I love you for how you open up these conversations by way of brutal self-honesty. You are beautiful for it, and catalyze so much positivity by facing that negativity head-on, and not deflecting. I am taking some notes

[@RawBeautyKristi]

Wow thank you so much this comment means SO much to me, thank you!!!

[@justinbieber4500]

you explain everything in such a digestible manner its changing my life

[@cynthiadavison3581]

My parents both passed when I was 35. I had anxiety until I was 50. It's debilitating. I went to therapy too. I noticed it was my anxiety trying to control everything. I cannot. And once I realized I can't and bad things are going to happen to everyone. It's responding and not reacting that helps. Walking helped too. Just getting in nature and breathing helped. It's always harder at first. I have a better grip on it now. Anxiety is a coping mechanism trying to save you. We need anxiety so we don't jump off a building. You are doing the right thing. I am proud of you! You are going to be ok.

[@MichelleTendy]

I've had health anxiety my whole life. It's horrible. Respect to you (and me!) for working on it, even when it's terrifying ❤ Also, you pointing out that all the worrying about these illnesses that we don't have does more harm to our body than having these illnesses even would. That resonated with me so strongly.

[@livjohnstone5158]

Kristi I feel like you are the big sister I never had. Watching this in bed before sleep and at first I thought it would be triggering, but this video is actually so calming. Thank you for this 🤍 Was having some thoughts tonight and this really put me back into reality

[@RawBeautyKristi]

Oh my gosh thank you for commenting. I’m so glad it was helpful and not triggering 💕💕💕

[@kruszer]

I love how you went "this could be triggering" but you watched it anyway :) That's totally something I would do!

[@sarahmarie1812]

My mom died this year also from breast cancer 6 months from the time they found it even after what we thought was “successful” treatment at age 62. It has incredibly increased my health anxiety so much. I’m convinced I won’t see my children grow up. Thank you for talking about this. It is really helpful.

[@Truerealism747]

My better half lost her mum 49 to it then she had it 6 years ago which triggered fybromyalgia on myself do you have physical symptoms

[@kristinagradishar4824]

I suffered alone 30 years ago after my mother died suddenly from a brain aneurysm when I was 16. I had an entire year of severe hypochondria. I had the exact same thing that you’re describing. I could not eat, could not sleep, I thought I was dying from everything. I was in doctors offices and even emergency rooms. I had doctors thinking I was trying to get drugs, not recognizing my mental illness at the time. It culminated in me forcing my then bf to take me to ER in the middle of the night, convinced I had a brain tumor. It was awful. I was miserable. There was no internet then, so I would spend hours in libraries and in book stores, reading about diseases. I don’t even remember how I got out of it but so far, I never experienced it AS bad. I do have bouts of fears here and there and immediate stop scrolling, googling and if I’m concerned about something, I make an appointment with the doctor. I’m always afraid that my son is going to die.

[@amandahunt8641]

Thank you for talking about this. I have SEVERE health anxiety. It’s debilitating. I currently have 200 tabs open right now all of health related “issues” that I’m sure I have.

[@kaiduran528]

I hope this makes you feel like you're not alone, and you can get better! ❤

[@positive4128]

Samee😢how long did you have?

[@Dragonfly_vbz]

This pivot is what we long for. Honest non click baiting open and worth a listen. I was ready to do away with all youtube and social media, but I realized there is some benefit, and you are one. Keep it up! ❤❤❤❤#mentalhealthmatters

[@danielle7729]

The lateral eye movements also mimics taking a walk while processing things. You can take a walk and hash through these things yourself if you cannot afford a therapist and it is very beneficial. Me and my husband went through addiction for over 10 years of our life, and have been clean now for six years. We take a walk almost every single day, and the first two years of our sobriety we use those walks to talk through all the shit that was built up inside of us.we didn’t know it at the time, but that is what helped us process everything we had been through and form new ideas and beliefs to help guide us through the rest of our journey

[@sheelfjohnson]

Congratulations on 6 years of sobriety! 👑

[@lovelyreen9936]

Oh yeah. I remember the life-saving 3x a week therapy I had back about 22 or so years ago. Saved. My. Life. Good for you, lady! In my case, it was a breakup with someone who was my EVERYTHING and I came from a narcissistic home, and clung to him because he was the only bright spot in my life, but I had to walk away because after 8.5 happy years, he wouldn’t marry me because his parents told him only marry a white person (I’m not white). Sometimes life hurts, and therapy helped me so deeply. Can’t suggest it enough. Took 3 years to help me, but I’m alive, I’m thriving. Highest cheers for quality therapy!

[@brooklyn.e.ingram]

I almost cried when you said your son had a fever and you were fine when in the past you would have thrown up from debilitating anxiety. That is HUGE. Like, HUGE. That takes a sh*t ton of hard work, and I know you know that. Damn. You’re a badass.

[@RawBeautyKristi]

🥹💕

[@user-wn6xz6hk9g]

The title of the video had me screaming I feel so seen rn 😭❤ I always wondered if it was just me who has such extreme health anxiety because I rarely see it being talked about :")

[@kjan83]

I am hypochondriac, too. It's a constant rollercoaster of ups and downs. I stopped going to therapy when she wanted me to practice writing a will, thinking through what would happen if a disease happened. That made my anxiety even worse ( I didn't know that was possible) as my fear is getting sick and leaving my kids.

[@Lmaoyoudontknowme]

Your first mistake was ever stopping therapy….

[@JaxynPeterson]

Kristi, I've watched you for a long time but your content lately is a breath of fresh air. I developed health anxiety after the pandemic which intensified after my Dad was diagnosed with cancer and my father in law passed away suddenly from underlying heart disease. This video spoke so clearly to me, I could cry. Your content is so refreshing and I'm loving these personable, down to earth, vulnerable videos. Congrats on overcoming this terrible anxiety. I'm looking forward to watching your health/personal journey unfold over 2024.

[@kaseystojke]

I really appreciate your vulnerability and willingness to share. While I don’t suffer from health anxiety, it makes complete sense to me why others would given their unique life circumstances and I just can’t understand how anyone could want to shame someone for it. The world could use more compassion. Once again, thank you for sharing 🥰

[@ishikawa_sachi]

Thank you so much for sharing this 💜 I’m pretty sure my health anxiety was caused by having endometriosis and having so many people (health professionals included) gaslight me. I was sure I was sick. I knew I was. But everything around me was telling me otherwise, which made me hyper aware of my body. But now that I finally got a diagnosis (20 years later!) I feel myself calming down. It don’t get so panicked. Again, thank you so much for sharing this. I love your channel.

[@melzk748]

I experienced the same from everyone due to my endometriosis as well. It took years for me to finally find a doctor who would listen to me and investigate further for the official diagnosis. Even then my family refused to admit that all these years I was not “being melodramatic.” It’s calming and reassuring to know that I wasn’t going insane, and that my body was telling me the truth about the pain.

[@ishikawa_sachi]

@@melzk748 I am so sorry you had to go through this as well 😞 it’s such a sad reality for us who have endo or other chronic illnesses…

[@0xLoBox0]

Thank you for this video. I have severe health anxiety and I felt so alone. It’s very relieving to know that there are people out there who know exactly what I’m going through. 💕

[@Thorcita]

At the time I needed this the most, having the worst depression due to health anxiety... she drops this video. I love her. Today I had my second EMDR session and I am very hopeful.

[@RawBeautyKristi]

You’re doing this. It’s HARD! debilitating and unrelenting but you are on the road to recovery and soon you will find you can’t even manifest the anxiety if you try. EMDR is LIFE CHANGING!!

[@rdms919]

This has been so incredibly validating and comforting. Found myself laughing at some of my behaviors I see reflected in you before therapy. Going to chat with my CBT therapist about EMDR!

[@Kaity2310]

How you describe your anxiety is me exactly, it’s like hearing about myself. I started therapy only a couple of months ago, but hearing you talk about your journey is such a comfort. I look forward to the day where I don’t wake up thinking about myself or a loved one getting some random disease and passing away within a week. Health anxiety is truly so debilitating, I hope everyone watching this video and connecting with it can get the help they need, and start to heal

[@jennehart]

Thank you so much for posting this Kristi. As someone who has struggled with severe anxiety, more specifically health anxiety, for over 15 years, this just helps me not feel so alone. To say how I feel out loud often sounds ridiculous and I’m aware of that so I rarely share how I feel & what I’m thinking with others which is very isolating. I’m beyond grateful to have a loving, patient, supportive husband, but he doesn’t understand & I’m so thankful he doesn’t. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. I will definitely look into EMDR after watching this. Thank you again & blessings to you and yours in this new year ❤️

[@kristinemezzano2675]

Dear God I’ve never related more to any other video in my life. Thank you for this. Thank you for making my anxiety feel normal. It’s obviously not normal but the fact that someone else feels exactly the way I do…wow, it’s freeing.

[@breeoriginal]

These open conversations are amazing. You are helping so many people ❤❤❤ You taught 20 year old me how to apply make up and now you’re teaching 30 year old me how to deal with life.

[@LisaBlevins00]

Thank God for Kristi sharing this message . I’ve walked through more than I thought a human being could in a lifetime and I have also overcome most of my trauma. I love the fact Kristi is not ashamed to speak truth . Our world needs so much more of this REALNESS and sharing hard times we go through . It makes us not feel alone . Kristi , I think you should do a weekly video on ways that you have learned to overcome your mental health issues . It would literally be so beneficial for thousands of us out here . Thank you for speaking out , I know it’s incredibly judged upon . I think you deserve such praise for doing so ❤🙏

[@Abby-re7ys]

Today has been especially hard , I decided to search “how to stop having health anxiety “ and your video popped up . Everything you’ve said is exactly what I do . I cry so much feeling trapped in my own head and just drained from my every day to day thoughts . Thank you for making this video and it is giving me hope seeing you so confident and at peace , I just want to be that way too

[@thescrappay]

I had a mental health crisis in 2021, was later diagnosed with CPTSD. EMDR, therapy, and medication saved my life!! Glad you have found some relief and you are doing the work, EMDR can be incredibly hard.

[@sciencetest8]

I have treatment-resistant depression and health anxiety. I haven't tried EMDR, but planning to. WHy do you say it is hard.

[@Nail.geek.kiki7]

I have been doing EMDR for two years and it has changed my life!!!! proud of you!!!! Thank you for sharing your experience ❤❤❤

[@ValeriePac]

Kristi I can’t tell you how much I needed this video and how much I relate. I lost my brother from cancer and ever since I have SPIRALED with health anxiety. I have emetophobia and my son threw up last week and I had a panic attack and every day since I’m convinced I’m sick and it’s getting so out of control. I see a therapist and I started medication 4 weeks ago I’m on the lowest dose and havnt noticed a difference yet so I’m hoping soon I get some relief. I’m so so aware of my body and every little thing that seems off i instantly tell myself I’m dying. It is debilitating and making me sick. I feel like this video was made for me and I just appreciate you opening up about this because it feels like nobody else does. I relate to you so so much and seeing you have a sense of relief gives me hope ❤

[@SavannahSaurusRex11]

So glad that you're a fellow mother who is honest with her community. Thank you so much for being so open. It's incredibly helpful.

[@Luckily0022]

Well done Kristi. I work in the health industry and this anxiety is so common. Thankyou for helping others via your videos ❤

[@stephanieglavin5056]

I am looking into EMDR for myself for my health anxiety but also my OCD. I don’t think CBT has been enough. My mom had chronic illnesses my whole childhood and it has haunted me since. Thank you so much for this Kristi. 💕

[@Truerealism747]

Just lost my mum to severe ms what symptoms are you suffering from

[@RachelKay528]

Your timing could not have been better. I had a hospital stay at the end of December, and ended up going back to the ER twice since then and waiting for 5-6 hours each time, only to essentially be told that everything is fine. It ended up that I was just being paranoid and making myself feel like the symptoms I did have were worse than they really were. Turns out I need to give my body more than just a few days to heal lol The mind is a powerful tool! Just have to use it the right way and not let it spiral out of control.

[@lorichandler7151]

Kristi I watch you all the time but I rarely comment but I can tell you ,I can totally relate!!! Thank you so much for sharing,no one shares about mental health like you do !!! You have the ability to help sooo many ❤

[@kristiroy9363]

I am an EMDR therapist. I love the way you described the process. It can be life changing

[@tiffanynagley580]

Mine was my grandma at 11, brain cancer. She was here and gone in 2 weeks. It’s manifested now that it’s crippling. It’s also continued to happen to other people around me. Since kids it’s gotten uncontrollable. My doctor was zero help. I feel alone and burn out my husband and friends with trying to talk through it. I appreciate you being open and honest about this topic because it’s so isolating.

[@alybarbre]

Such a great video! It’s so interesting to hear this from someone who suffers from hypochondria. My mom is a severe hypochondriac so I’m on the literal opposite of what you feel. I grew up with a lot of resentment because of it. I am still working through it but now that I have children, I don’t even like to tell my mom if they had a fever or if they had a rash because it’s an immediate, “did you take them to the doctor? Did you give them Tylenol?” No… because they’re teething or it’s because they’re…babies. It happens. I grew up with a mom that I couldn’t tell that I had a headache because she would shove aspirin down my throat so much, that I became allergic to it. I always wondered if it could be Munchhausen by Proxy or if she really wanted me to be sick? I never understood it, but I’m also doing my own healing. It will literally take a broken bone for me to go to the doctor. It’s a hard balance but thank you for the insight. This was helpful to try to understand her. I’m so happy to see you doing so well! ❤

[@nina3538]

I know that resentment well and that continued anger because instead of being a helping voice of reason they make it all worse

[@tamaramorcomb4593]

As a mom now with severe health anxiety I try so hard to shield it from my kids and I know I can’t 100% do that but I try and I always respect their choice to take medication and don’t bring them in to the drs often actually but I fear they will resent my anxiety and I’ve been working on fixing it for a bit and it’s slowly improving but man it’s hard on both ends and im sorry you endured that and it’s not fair.

[@alybarbre]

@@tamaramorcomb4593 it is so commendable that you are conscious and self aware and you actively shield them from it. I love that. I’m sure your babies will appreciate it when they realize it. 🤍

[@peeppaa1997]

I’m crying while watching this video, I feel so seen and comprehended. After having a “wake up call” yesterday at the doctors. I decided to look up hypochondria on KZbin and this was one of the first videos that showed up, I’m glad it did. Thank you for sharing your experience Kristi ❤

[@deletedchannelCH]

I want to applaud you for getting help not only for yourself, your son, and your husband. My mother was a hypochondriac she still is but for animals. I was raised in that anxiety, and I have issues of my own thanks to that environment. This was helpful for me with my anxieties, so thank you.

[@juliafaye8764]

EMDR therapy is incredible. I did it have losing my dad in a traumatic way when I was young. I held on to a TON of guilt. Now after going through EMDR, I am able to appropriately process the thoughts I have when they arise regarding his death. I can’t say good enough things about it. It was an actual lifesaver

[@chrismass9761]

Thank you so much for this video. I'm a stubborn 54 year old male who started suffering from hypochondria several years ago. I'm sure like you and your viewers, trauma is part of the cycle. My mother always thought she was dying from something even when I was in my youth. I believe it may have rubbed off on me not to mention how abusive she was. I've learned to push my emotions way down. Even when I think I'm gravely sick I keep it to myself so luckily my kids may dodge a bullet. It's really an awful mental health problem to deal with. I truly, from the bottom of my grumpy heart thank you for this. I'm going to look into the tapping therapy.

[@feliciakay07]

Kristi, I've followed you for a quite a while on KZbin now and recall how distraught you were a couple years ago or at least you mentioning your distress. I am THRILLED at this update. I know it hasn't been without hard work and I am so glad you invested that work into yourself. I will keep wishing the best for you in your journey.

[@alexandfamilyvlogs529]

I'm so glad you are changing up your content and aren't just soing makeup reviews. Loving the change up and always appreciate watching you! Wishing you well and a happy new year! ❤🎉

[@riannotti]

Hi Kristi, thanks for this video. I really appreciate the term “health anxiety” as opposed to “hypochondria.” I’ve struggled with health anxiety for a while now. I have not gotten to the point where you explained you have been, but I have gone down the Google rabbit hole before. Thinking a headache is a brain tumor, a little side pain is appendicitis, numbness and tingling is MS. Etc etc. I’ve been there before. I really like the advice your therapist suggested. If this feeling/sensation is not something you’d go to the doctor for, don’t Google! I’m going to implement this myself. I also want to note, that I think a lot of my health anxiety is heightened because I live alone. One of my biggest fears is I’m going to die alone in my house and nobody will find my body for a week. I try really hard to not harp on that, and exercise, yoga and meditation helps me. Just getting my nervous system under control is half my battle. Happy New Year and sending you lots of good wishes and prosperity in 2024.

[@stacigebhard5451]

Ive had this for 24 years now. Im 51. I came on suddenly when I first became pregnant years ago. I soon didnt recognize myself. Its been 23 years of some very very dark times. If you know, you know. As soon as something pops up, back into the black hole I go. I used to sit on the internet, which was the worst thing you can do, looking looking looking, in recent years with meds its been better, till a few weeks ago when a dr. told me they didnt like something they saw in a scan. you can imgaine where i am now, waiting for tests. I dont have to tell you because you already know. Unfortunatly, this passed on to my now 22 year old daughter. She is exactly the same. I tried everything i could to shield her from it, but this is passed right on down. I recognized this in you, years ago. I felt like i was listening to myself. I hate it so much. I feel for you. I feel for us. Its all consuming!

[@hayleymckinney6347]

I appreciate you so much. I’ve dealt with health anxiety since 2020. I’ve seen dozens of specialists, been to the ER twice, had about a dozen imaging scans and almost everything I thought I had was wrong. I’ve spent most my day on google as I do everyday and I can tell I’m headed for a mental break. I may already be there. When no one else close to you struggles with health anxiety it’s so isolating. Thank you for sharing this. It’s going to help so many people. ❤

[@suniadams6242]

I am so like this as well.. I am so scared to die. I dont want to leave my kids, and im terrified! Thank you for this!!

[@debbiebubblescunico8042]

I’m currently in therapy for exactly the same reason as you!! Ended up in hospital and spent several days there as I had a nervous breakdown. I am now on different meds to help but therapy has been a great help also. Still not 100 percent better but I am getting there slowly. Thank you for this video. ❤️❤️❤️

[@kayelatackett4935]

This video showed up at the exact right time. God knew I needed this. I’m a 32 year old mother of two beautiful babies, one of them being born with cystic fibrosis. I’ve always dealt with paranoia, and intrusive thoughts. But, whenever my daughter was born in 2015 with CF, health anxiety was added to my list of self problems and in a big way. It’s so incredibly hard to not let it control your life and think of the what ifs. I feel like a complete burden to others because it’s always circling in my mind of what could happen, thinking that if I see something online of a sickness or illness going around that “it’s a sign” that it’s going to happen to my family and constantly wanting reassurance from others. It’s a miserable thing to deal with. I’ve put my faith in God, try incredibly hard to not google, and talk to God through prayer. I struggle everyday, but at the end of the day, I know my children & myself are strong and can get through this❤

[@sampal5352]

Are you able to access therapy? This is a lot to suffer with alone.

[@brooklin_bernek]

You have no idea how much this helps us other mamas. I was FINALLY diasgnosed aith cluster headaches , and because they use the term “headache” and “women” don’t “usually” get cluster headaches no one took me serious. Up until I said some scary things with my last episode they took me serious and said “wow okay maybe this is what you really have” my neurologist is now open and getting me help and finally feeling relief “for now” I know I’m using a lot of quotations but it’s how I feel because of my experiences as a woman like you with cluster headaches. After struggling with those I can see now I have health anxiety ….. 😢

[@elizabeii]

I was hospitalized in October 2023 for an ovarian cyst and ever since then, I’ve been very anxious over my health. checking my blood pressure several times a day (since it dropped dangerously), hyping myself up so bad that my heart races, it’s just terrible. Working on it day by day. Proud of you and your progress, Kristi!

[@RawBeautyKristi]

Ohhhh I completely feel you. I used to check my pulse probably 100x a day. Blood pressure, pulse oximeter, you name it. It’s sooooo hard - you GOT this!!! I promise healing is possible. It’s so difficult but it makes complete sense than your nervous system is trying to keep you hyper vigilant. 💕💕💕

[@secretlifeofmary]

Thank you for this video! I struggle with this and it helps to know that there is hope. Two examples of how this has affected me recently: I got food poisoning on Christmas Day that lasted throughout the week and I convinced myself I had pancreatic cancer. A few days after that, I refused to make any New Year’s resolutions because the thought that I could get sick and die this year made me feel like it was pointless to make resolutions… 😵‍💫 Whenever I feel better and I reflect on these instances, it always seems so silly but it feels SO crippling while I go through it. No one in my life understands this so it’s nice to know that I’m not alone. 😘❤️

[@Abagailxoxo]

I’m going through this right now! It’s very scary and I feel like nobody understands me. I’m so glad I found your video. ❤

[@laineybugger]

I’m so happy to hear you’ve been able to do EMDR virtually and using the tapping and not the eye movement type. My therapist recommended this for similar reasons to you. But my health anxiety was making me freak out. I have a seizure wand the thought of rapid eye movement exercises, no thank you! She said we could try it with tapping.

[@RawBeautyKristi]

The tapping works great for me!! I am SO hopeful that you find incredible success with EMDR! It’s life changing

[@silverhairedqueen]

I have health anxiety, and I thank you for saying that I can get better. When I was 13, I came home from school to an empty house and a call from my mom saying my 21-year-old sister had had a stroke. She spent the next 50 years a quadriplegic. When I was 18, my beautiful SIL was diagnosed suddenly with bladder cancer and died within the year. My brain was traumatized and there is no amount of logic or reasoning that can make me believe, “oh, everyone else is obviously right-I have nothing to worry about.”

[@YvonneSt.Louis81789]

Hey lady! I have really been enjoying your content. Thank you for being so open about motherhood and life in general. I’m a mother of 4 and i know it’s tough! I was so happy to hear you’re reading the Bible ❤️

[@Wheezysbubble]

Thank you so much for posting this. I have struggled with health anxiety horribly for so long 😢 I'm so glad you are spreading awareness to this common struggle! ❤️

[@begpar]

I relate so hard to this. Something that happened AFTER having a baby for me. The thought of being sick or dying and no one taking care of him like I can. Absolutely terrifying. Constantly convinced that I have 'C' or lupus or MS. Those are my go tos. And I know all have treatments and you can live long lives but it doesn't matter. You get in that head space and it's a spiral.

[@Silustrations]

I am currently 25 and until I hit 23/24, I for some reason had a mindset of "I'm young so I do not have to think about death ever, yet. It is so far from me.". It was almost like I thought I was invincible. Or perhaps I felt life was going to be incredibly long so I did not have to worry. I think it was because I never saw death close to me growing up. I never had a close person to me die. And so when my uncle passed recently, it hit me like a truck, especially because he was far from old. It has caused me to be extremely aware of everything going on in my body and spiraling. I learned to manage it better, but when I am doing poorly mentally, it is very easy to slip right back into it. Thank you for talking about this, Kristi

[@aprilcandelaria9587]

Thanks so much for sharing this! I’m a therapist and currently going through EMDR training. It’s a rigorous and draining training, but this is a good motivator to keep on going!

[@Hiimjess8]

Yes yes yes. Also something that helped me a lot was a KZbin video that was a guided meditation for health anxiety. Basically it’s affirmations that say things like “the sensations in my body are normal” “I am healthy” etc etc. training your brain to have different thoughts. This video was really helpful. I am glad to know I am not alone.

[@sydeezy17]

I feel like you are truly growing with your followers! At least me 😂 I am also a mom now and priorities are just different now. Makeup is great expression and therapeutic time for me but just having open and honest conversations is where it’s at! Love this content Kristi! ❤

[@xxlyndsayannexx]

The trauma of losing a parent isn’t talked about enough. I lost my dad to Covid in 2021 and then my son was hospitalized with a severe asthma attack 2 months later. My poor nervous system was wrecked. Thank you for bringing awareness to an issue that many people suffer in silence about. ❤

[@valbonaivezaj140]

I’m in the same position as you-my mother died a few years ago at the age of 56 from a cancer that came out of nowhere and wiped her out in Months and my health anxiety skyrocketed! I can’t seem to stop over analyzing changes in my body and thinking it’s related to dying. It’s depressing AF

[@denasmolins5938]

I feel very motherly ( probably because I am 72 have three grown kids and 6 grandkids) and I just want to give you the biggest hug! I think you should be so proud of yourself and give yourself a hug! You always come from a place of honesty and your channel is so real! I have had this condition to a small degree ( same mostly after giving birth) and have always reeled myself in but hearing your techniques are very valuable. We all go through trauma, hard to get through life without it , but one thing I have been telling myself lately is I can’t control others and I have to accept that and my anxiety cannot be tied up in what they may or may not do or think. Keep up the good work and side note, you looked beautiful tonight!

[@isabellaperez3733]

My dad passed from cancer in 5 weeks and I never realized how deeply traumatic that was. I feel so seen with this video ❤

[@chanaberri]

I am so glad I found your channel. My health anxiety came on the same way. My mom had inflammatory breast cancer that was caught at stage 4. Just like your mom it was to late. I also had several friends die super young which further increased my health anxiety. I am working to get better through therapy, mindfulness, medication.

[@paytonmessina8279]

Your last few videos have resonated with me so deeply. Thank you. My sister died when we were teenagers from an aggressive form of cancer, same deal - thought she was totally fine, had a stomach pain one day and 5 months later she was gone. People, including my own family don’t understand my health anxiety. And I didn’t put this together until this video. Thank you so much. I struggle with bouncing anxiety from myself to my partner to my cats. Obsessive, especially with the cats. I’m almost 30 now and have to face the question of whether or not I want children and this anxiety has always been a huge factor. So helpful to see someone working through this with a child and successful partnership and career. Oh ALSO - when it’s appendicitis YOU KNOW 😂

[@bella031003]

I have this and I had that happen with both parents. You are the only person to talk about it and the first time I don’t feel alone . Thank you !!!!!!!!🙏

[@brittanyweatherly8312]

Thank you for being vulnerable & talking about this. So many of us relate to you.

[@kissmewithyourteacup]

Wow this was a surprisingly emotional video. My sister died when I was 15 and I am slowly realising how much of that experience I still hold in my body and mind. I am finally going to try EMDR! Thanks for such a vulnerable video

[@devananderlitch5868]

I got really really sick in 2022, and through 2023. No doctors would truly listen, or investigate further. June of last year I was in full respiratory failure and nearly died. I was in the ICU for weeks. Any time I have a slight sniffle or cough I genuinely become so terrified I can’t function. I’m so sorry for all the trauma you’ve been through, but thank you so much for speaking about this. Health anxiety is so real.

[@faunivore9485]

It sounds like your health anxiety was justified.

[@devananderlitch5868]

@@faunivore9485 after the health scare last year, I think so too. I already had extreme anxiety (smallest chest pain and I’d genuinely think I’m in cardiac arrest). Now it’s paralyzing. Her tip about “if you wouldn’t call a doctor, don’t google it” is genuinely such an amazing tip and I think will help me take steps in healing!

[@billied17]

Medical person here, and mom that adores you. This is 100% the best video you’ve ever made. 💜 Also, I don’t think your 16y/o brain processed anything ‘incorrectly’ for a 16 y/o brain. Most people don’t have the tools to reprocess trauma Or know that it’s possible. It’s hard work to EVEN be willing to revisit it. The work you are doing and sharing is remarkable. You never processed anything incorrectly. Please continue to be kind to 16 y/o you, and be proud of the you now that is facing these things as you now. I appreciate the phrase “health anxiety .” It’s a very real thing. We need to take the stigma out. Most suffer in tortured silence. Beautiful job here. Thank you. I am so sorry for the loss of your mom.

[@SoulShiner1115]

I have health anxiety. Not severe, but definitely have it, and the older I get, the worse it gets. The kicker for me is…I work in healthcare. 😂 I’m not a clinician, but I see a lot of medical records and a lot of diagnoses. Thank you for the very informative video, and it’s awesome how much better you are. It’s crazy how our own brains play tricks on us. I used to work in the ER and was in school to be a PA. I loved the really bloody injuries. Now, 15 years later, I get really bad anxiety at times just from HEARING people talk about blood loss. It’s because I have anxiety, not so much about dying, but because I don’t know HOW I’m going to die. Then it spirals into all kinds of other worries (What will I be remembered for? Who will take care of my son? Will I just cease to exist? OMG! Everyone that I love are also going to die!) It’s really fucked.

[@macavargasdelcampo8931]

As someone who is a med student and also gets worried every time she feels ill after we learn about a new disease in class, i agree with everything you said, if you're worried enough to research it but not going to the doctor, it's not that bad, & this is why google and reddit forums are your worst enemy if you have health anxiety. I'm so glad therapy and EMDR has helped you with this. Lots of love

[@zephyrbheka6259]

Having 3 kids is what makes everything so scary for me. I'm scared to leave them. It's caused crippling anxiety that I always assume is a heart attack of course. Thanks for sharing this. I see some light at the end of this tunnel I'm in.

[@morganederonne2032]

I’m not even 10min in the video and am already so grateful you’ve posted it. It’s such a release to hear someone who feels the same, i’m crying teeehee 🙈

[@dancingintherain3284]

Thank you from the bottom of my heart. My mothers husband died a few months ago and I have been spiraling since then. I Went to the ER because I thought I had a heart disease or even heart attack and now I currently am spiraling because I think I have throat cancer since I’ve been having ear pain and swollen lymph nodes. I haven’t slept for days and have so much panic attacks that I drop to the floor just so I can ground myself. It is because of you that I am slowly realizing that I have health anxiety. I cannot begin to tell you how grateful I am that you gave us some tips that has helped you. Thank you for your compassion and I hope I can become like you one day where I don’t have to worry about every little process my body goes through.

[@suriaramirezbeas261]

This is me 😢 I’ve struggled with health anxiety for about 9 years now and it has been exhausting, debilitating, and overwhelming to say the least. I am SO SO SO tired of living this way, plagued by my own thoughts because in this battle, I am my own worst enemy…I pray one day I am able to find my way to healing and recovery. So dang proud of you Kristi, it is amazing and inspiring to see someone doing so much better, it gives me a glimmer of hope.

[@christiedavis1525]

I am obviously a total stranger but I just have to say that the way you use your life experiences to try and help people is very commendable. You seem to have such a big heart and I am sure that there is someone out there that you have helped on multiple occasions. Keep doing what you do. You’re such a beautiful person.

[@RawBeautyKristi]

This is extremely kind of you, thank you 🥹

[@brittanycarter6421]

My grandmother died from breast cancer when I was 11. I was in the room when she passed. At around the same time, I was developing. I remember sitting at my little brother’s Boy Scout’s meeting and slumping down in the chair to the point only my neck up was visible from the table and obsessively pressing on my chest where no one could see. I had 2 “lumps” and I was convinced I had Breast Cancer. I finally told my mom and she pulled out the medical encyclopedia and showed me that I was developing. Fast forward 22 years later and I’m still always feeling like I am dying every time I feel a strange sensation even if I’ve felt it before and been cleared by Doctors. I’ve been struggling from a panic attack today and discovered your video. While I still feel the need to schedule a Dr appointment (I’ve been numb on the left side of my body but I’ve already had 2 CT scans from 2 different ERs and have been sent home several months ago) I feel like I’m not alone after watching your video. I’ve felt this before and haven’t died or even been admitted to the hospital so I know that whatever this is, even if it’s simply anxiety, I can get through it without obsessing over it. Thank you 🙏

[@tarakennedy707]

I don't typically watch mental health videos because it can get heavy with my own issues but I love how open you are with your struggles ❤

[@user-gn6qq6qb2k]

This was so helpful. I struggle with SEVERE health anxiety, especially the last 1-2 years, to where I think about it constantly. I appreciate you making this video.

[@krs-ash-art]

I struggle with these things too, especially after my mother died in a very painful, devastating, traumatic way, from stage 4 cancer; but what I try to do more than anything is... remind myself, that I am the hypochondriac; so my thoughts are probably spiralling out of control due to intense anxiety around whatever feeling I am having, causing me to worry to such a high extent. Reminding myself, that I am a hypochondriac, is helpful for me in order to get out of that hypochondriac loop of "What could it be??! Oh no it's DEFINITELY THIS! OH MY GOD WHAT IF IT'S THAT??!" Reminding myself that I am a hypochondriac is like a littler version of myself giving my brain a poke and saying "Hey! Stop doing that!" Which, sounds redundant to just "Stop" doing that, or "Snap out of it". Sure, it is easier said than done, but I think the helpful thing is reminding ourselves that we are the ones with irrational thoughts/fears/intense obsessions due to being hypochondriacs; so more times than not, they will not come true or be true at all. We're just obsessing over it, like pulling a thread from a sweater. Like...why, did we just pull this single thread so much and so hard, that now the sweater is nothing but a collar ring. Surprisingly, there was nothing inside of it, even though our brain told us something is wrong with the sweater inside and we need to get to the root of it. We got to the root, nothing is there. Just because some things came true, like a widespread Pandemic, does not mean all of our hypochondriac fears will come true or are coming true. We aren't omniscient. We're hypochondriacs.

[@Amabadam]

Oh dear Kristi, I feel so much for you! I have had several of these episodes in my life. And it literally feels the way you describe it: falling from an airplane with no parachute. I remember telling my psychologist crying: I feel like I am burning inside and I cannot do anything about it. He referred me to a psychiatrist and since the. I have been on Celexa which made my brain to get on track again. To stop the repetitive obsessive negative thoughts. It has been life saving! It’s been many years and I haven’t fallen back to any episode like this. Some mental health medicines can be truly life changing!

[@nnc9731]

Wow Kristy somehow I haven’t come across your videos in about 2 years and I’m so so happy to see how amazingly well you’re doing!!! I’m in the thick of health anxiety and couldn’t have come across your video at a better time. It’s truly helped me feel like there is hope and you gave so many good pieces of advice. Thank you!!!