What is Anxious Depression?

Anxiety and depression often come together. And there's different ways this can look. Sometimes anxiety spawns depression, where you start off with something like obsessive compulsive disorder where you have these overwhelming thoughts that you can't get out of your head or rituals that you can't stop doing. Or you may have generalized anxiety disorder where you are gripped with worry and fear. Some people's anxiety can be so bad that they wake up every morning and throw up. Or you can feel like there's a heavy weight pressing on you all day. Some people feel like their throat is closing all day long. This is a horrible way to feel. Especially when there's not a clear reason to feel anxious. You can start to think - what's wrong with me? Why can't I feel normal? Feeling like this for weeks or months on end can make some people sink into a depression. In this case, you would have two disorders, the original anxiety disorder and then a depression.
That's one scenario. Another scenario is when your primary problem is depression - having no joy, feeling hopeless, hardly having the energy to do anything. Instead of feeling a heavy weight on your chest all day, you feel tears just behind your eyes all day ready to stream at the slightest provocation.
This is what your depression might look like if you had pure depression. But many times people have anxiety symptoms mixed in with their depression. The anxiety doesn't rise to the level of a full disorder like panic disorder or generalized anxiety disorder. But it's presence is enough to make the quality of your depression different. The term for this is depression with anxious distress. Anxious distress is what we call a course specifier. It gives more specific information about how your depression looks and behaves.
Here is the criteria for this specifier. This is from the diagnostic and statistical manual of mental disorders, 5th edition.
Anxious distress is defined as the presence of at least two of the following symptoms during the majority of days of a major depressive episode or persistent depressive disorder (dysthymia):
Feeling keyed up or tense.
Feeling unusually restless.
Difficulty concentrating because of worry.
Fear that something awful may happen.
Feeling that you may lose control of yourself
If you have depression with anxious distress, be prepared that you may need more than one medication to treat your condition and you may have a try a few before you get one that works well with the least amount of side effects.
Refences
Zhao K, Liu H, Yan R, et al. Cortical thickness and subcortical structure volume abnormalities in patients with major depression with and without anxious symptoms. Brain Behav. 2017;7(8):e00754.
Fu CH, Steiner H, Costafreda SG. Predictive neural biomarkers of clinical response in depression: a meta-analysis of functional and structural neuroimaging studies of pharmacological and psychological therapies. Neurobiol Dis. 2013;52:75-83.
Ionescu DF, Niciu MJ, Richards EM, Zarate CA Jr. Pharmacologic treatment of dimensional anxious depression: a review. Prim Care Companion CNS Disord. 2014;16(3)
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[@DrTraceyMarks]

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[@krisquigley4497]

First of all, thank you so much for your out of control scene; that was great. You definitely have a career in Hollywood if you get tired of psychiatry work. :) A quick question Dr. Marks: I sometimes have severe irritability along with anxiety. It's often at a level that is embarrassing and on those occasions I stay right away from other people. Is that a common symptom of anxiety, or am I just an a$$hole like my husband claims?

[@rsgabrys3080]

--------- thank you

[@leepshin]

Is an organic personality disorder similar to Aspergers?

[@Mikaylap713]

I need to talk to my doctor about this + my PMDD bc going without treatment is becoming too much.

[@violetlove1893]

I saw that video first. It usually takes 4 to 6 weeks to see if there is a positive or negative affect. Some psychiatrist like to try it 6 to 8 weeks simply because everybody has different chemistry reactions. Thank you, Dr. for being honest, open, and sincere.

[@tasha2117]

it’s been so long that i genuinely can’t remember myself without anxiety or depression. it consumes me and controls every aspect of my life. i’m so tired.

[@bethanyireland3955]

Me too. You commented a long time ago but I hope you’re doing better ❤️

[@DjangobeatTV]

Have you ever heard of T.R.E (trauma release exercise)? If your condition is trauma related, well, drugs and talking therapy are incapable of releasing trauma. It needs to be released through the body. T.R.E. is cheap, safe and incredibly powerful. Nope, this isn't an advert for my business. I'm not qualified just grateful I found it Take your pick of videos on KZbin to look into it BUT do find someone who can teach you and give you a guided session or two before doing it alone. As I said, it's powerful! I felt the effects of it in a few short days. It was like my nervous system had been turned down and I felt some peace for the first time in my life. I wish you luck.

[@susieparham3501]

I'm going through the same way. My mind never stops. My brain is so tired. And people that don't have mental illness don't understand. They think we can just snap out of it

[@zimbim7562]

same. especially because i’ve been this way since i was about 9

[@malthusg1115]

How I feel every day too. I cant even rememberer when I didn't feel this way

[@Krystal_Hope]

Anyone watching and feeling these symptoms like I am. You’re not alone, and we are going to make it! ♥️

[@msknucb1762]

Thank you for the encouragement. I needed this.❤

[@Krystal_Hope]

@@msknucb1762 ♥️

[@luguiaro]

Thank you so much for these words, Krystal. We're not alone.

[@racheledwards2352]

Promise? We'll b there for one another

[@thecrown7872]

Thank you

[@Sean.A.M]

"You still hurt even after you've cried" Ouch that cut deep.

[@tiaravirtuousteam7]

This is so true at times

[@pirateslife4me]

That's the worst. A "good cry," feels like most of the bad feelings left your body in the tears.

[@Sean.A.M]

@@pirateslife4me Yeah those are the good ones. Sometimes you just need an emotional release.

[@jobbe100]

I have been deeply depressed and anxious since I was about 14, I am now 32! This has literally stopped me from doing my dream job, meeting someone and leading a life.

[@Kudeshka]

I know when all girls were dealing with being boy crazy and thinking about boys or relationships I was too consumed with anxiety. My started where was in places with people but you had to sit and listen like classes and then stores with no windows or only one door. I always sitting near door where I could easily leave in settings like that . Then it morphed into places when I was walking alone outside. Then when people yelled at me and were mad it triggered me to a panic attack. I feel like the best thing that helped me calm was prayer and Christian music obviously medicine and therapy.

[@Sylar-451]

Same here, I find ACT therapy works best, but it's hard to keep it up when feeling so down all the time. And when it's hard to relate to others who don't understand what it's like to have such severe depression

[@fortyniner843]

I just got a house in December, I have a wonderful girlfriend but I am so scared to be happy, I don't understand is that more just being nervous, or is it something else

[@jaydenlee6573]

depression is the real deal. I pray and hope anybody going through this can keep their head up, and may god heal your soul

[@cyndismith5739]

KingJay TL thank you

[@jaydenlee6573]

Cyndi Smith 🙏🏾

[@isaacwagner5862]

Thank you and bless you infinity times infinity ❤❤💯

[@jaydenlee6573]

@@isaacwagner5862 you too man🙏

[@katherineheasley6196]

I don't know if you were meaning to say, "Man, depression is the real deal," or if you are speaking specifically of depression in men, but either way, truth. Men deal with depression, too, and they shouldn't feel like they have to go it alone or tough it out. Men, your emotions are real, and you have the right to feel them.

[@dennisbryan7522]

I just feel like crying for no apparent reason and I have this overwhelming feeling of sadness

[@kaneshacarter7790]

Same

[@fancykitty7245]

❤❤

[@stoopidnametag]

@lulu peacock So true, just went through that and after having a massive breakdown after a beautiful bike ride in the sun, I felt like my brain was trying to send me a message about how I push people away from my life because more often than not, I just don't have the strength to fake being okay around them. I feel like I'm just starting this journey and learning so much about myself

[@parissinclair6513]

Time to discuss it with your doctor, love 💜

[@arub7085]

lulu peacock what do you mean? trying to figure what out?

[@jesusvelazquez8459]

It's hell. It's horrible. To anyone out there struggling. Stay strong. I get you. Your not crazy. Much love.

[@reallifepsych3309]

Thank you so much for bringing up the treatment resistant category and that people with anxious depression are harder to treat. So many people get increasingly frustrated because they don’t get better and cycle back into their depression. This video was very important.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Yes indeed you’re so right about the frustration. Thanks for the comment

[@rsgabrys3080]

--------- did it improve your overall disposition ..... ? great .....in what way....? because I would desire equal effect --------- Dr explains/elaborates well .... but for me if topic is not completely germaine -------- it could fall into category of " over analysis leads to paralysis" ------ one's objective is wellness if you can find it with out pharmaceuticals or the doctors that write them the better --------- no offense Dr. but up my way some psychiatry providers made my depression anxiety worse ----------- I was just a insurance invoice number to them -------- it's the lowball insurance nobody wants it --------- the ones that do ---------- accept it begrudgely.... professionalism is minimalistic -------- if at all...(since the misinformed delusional aberrations secretary separated me from the god blessed Dr. it's been over 7 months since I spoke/seen one ------- im climbing walls now .....my GP refused to refill my Ambien ain't slept well in 3 days --------- I'm chewing through my Xanax more than prescribed ---------- I'll be summiting Everest when they run out --------- ☮✅ ------- had appt. scheduled w/ new psychiatrist dr. on X-mas eve pm. ------- when making it .... I asked receptionist......your open xmas eve afternoon ------ oh yes ------- ok -------- X mas eve AM @ 9 :10 phone rings ------- it's charging in dining room -------- by time I say hello .....they hangup ------- recognize number as dr. -------- I did not call back they didn't leave v/m ------- I asked myself is Dr office calling to remind OR to cancel -------- so I bet the farm on cancellation ---------- didn't go in ---------- following week waited for office to call to reschedule -------- until Thursday I call receptionist confirms xmas eve call was to inform of cancellation- -------- I ask may I reschedule ------ may I put you on hold ---------- the call dropped.... not being sarcastic I was therapeutically enhanced when presumption was confirmed --------- brain games -------- I'm game.... in other words psychiatriy for me is like the way you hold a violin --------

[@Jtzist]

Go on vacation, move or make new friends, live somewhere else between latitude 23.5N and Latiude 23.5S? Why sit there depressed and not do nothing about it? People rather give thousands of dollars to doctors than use that same money to travel and go on a vacation like a cruise or an island.

[@amcalmingelements6223]

Definitely this video is educational

[@Mel-os3ld]

@@Jtzist not always that simple!

[@emm8357]

Anxious depression is hideous, I was unable to work for months because of it. It made me physically sick as described in this video. It’s nice to hear it described so clearly!

[@PetriLittlefoot]

Did you get better? If so, how?

[@ljnv]

How are you doing now

[@Aruneaswar1067]

How are u now?

[@emm8357]

Wow I only just realised I had people asking me how I’m doing! Thank you so much. I’m 100% better, which feels like a miracle every day because when I was ill, I thought I’d never be well again. If you’re suffering right now and feel like that, I hope my story gives you hope that despite feeling like it’ll never end, it can and does with proper medical care.

[@emm8357]

@@PetriLittlefoot I did thank you! I had a great mental health specialist (I’m in the U.K.) and antidepressants that also function as a sedative. Not being able to sleep made being ill so much worse.

[@patriaciasmith3499]

Psilocybin saved my life. I was addicted to heroin for 15 years and after Psilocybin treatment I will be 3 years clean in September. I have zero cravings. This is something that truly needs to be more broadly used in addiction treatment.

[@jeffsmith2447]

Psychedelics saved me from years of uncontrollable depression, anxiety and illicit pill addiction. imagine carrving heavy chains for over a decade and then all of a sudden that burden is gone. Believe it or not in a couple years they'll be all over for treatment of mental health related issues.

[@Jennifer-bw7ku]

The Trips I've been having have really helped me a lot,I finally feel in control of my emotions and my future and things that used to be mundane to me now seem incredible and full of nuance on top of that I'm way less driven by my ego and I have alot more empathy as well

[@Barbara-jx4ru]

@michealharris3221Can dr.sporess send to me in UK?

[@elizabethwilliams6651]

Shrooms was the best trip I had. It was an amazing experience.

[@taylorthomas3372]

Where did u get it

[@zigzaglychee7324]

I used to wake up every morning with a racing heart. My chest would hurt all day. I would cry all the time and spend all day ruminating over things I was worried about. I could never see the good in anything. I'm doing so much better now ^_^ antidepressants worked very well for me and now I'm less irritable and can handle things much better and enjoy life

[@ashlee7135]

Does she take clients online? She’s amazing ❤️

[@lisatofani8145]

I wish!!!

[@Italiangirlnj747]

Ikr

[@ivymosaics]

How can we clone her?

[@crowley144]

This video just blew my mind and helped me to figure out myself!

[@jedediah1307]

Right?! I had the same thought! Gotta love that glamor shot in her thumbnail too lol, she seems like she'd be such a dope psychiatrist to have.

[@potatopewpew6102]

Does anyone have this anxiety symptom , it’s like feeling like everything is familiar, or things are constantly reminding me of past events , also getting random memories or places popping into my head , totally insignificant to anything I’m doing . Anyone else experienced something like this or know why ? It’s just so annoying , and triggered my anxiety and makes me depressed.

[@r.i.p.r.i.p.r.i.p]

I do experience that. All the time. I fucking hate it.

[@ladybaabaa3294]

Hmm. The only thing I can really think of is PTSD and you're experiencing unprovoked flashbacks, memories and unprocessed anxiety.

[@dmgsoultogetherness6667]

Yip lots of times its not even connected to anything

[@sahin1645]

I get those feelings everyday ... somehow it feels like they are coincidently connected

[@potatopewpew6102]

@@dmgsoultogetherness6667 yeeeees exactly , and that’s sometimes scared the crap out of me

[@amenhotep7704]

i suffered that for months, may God Bless You All...Dearly.

[@jamesronald1882]

Mushrooms saved my life from anxiety and depression....Hit up @adam_shrooms on Instagram....He sells psychedelics discreetly. He got shrooms,Dmt,Lsd,dope asf💀🍄

[@wavebabe3800]

God can help it is true thank you

[@carabeatriz3725]

People who's suffering from anxiety/ anxious depression SHOULD NOT BE JUDGE.. THEY NEED HELP GUYS..

[@leroysinclair8499]

Tell that to my girl

[@nicolesweeney6287]

I thought I was the only one who woke up and threw up in the morning. I've seen so many doctors about it, and none have ever brought this up. Thank you for helping me to understand that I'm not alone.

[@АйшеМехмедова-м3б]

How are you now?🥹

[@Yoshi92]

0:56 - 1:02 I literally choked, because it is indeed a horrible thing to feel, but hearing it out loud from someone else than myself, that really hit me emotionally. The anxiety kills any sparks of motivation and keeps me locked into moderate depression, for many years now. It's so exhausting.

[@GIGS_SPORES_sells_on_Instagra0]

.👆👆👆🍫💊🍄✅

[@cacu3989]

I've dealt with this for 53 years. Tried every possible therapy/medication. So tired.

[@louisedemarillac777]

praying for you friend

[@cacu3989]

@@louisedemarillac777 Thank you. ❤️

[@teresahopemiller1008]

There are new things to try. i am 60. salmon and blueberries are a good thing. Not together but they both are good for you. I usually don't like to hear that but these are some of my favorites to eat. They have antioxidants that are good for persons with Mdd.I am tired more since Covid.

[@yarelesoler7800]

🙏🏽🙏🏽

[@demonprincess2045]

Watching these videos and reading comments puts things in perspective for me. Everyone is going through something. Even people who look like they have the perfect life.

[@clintsherman5797]

Hmmmm

[@addysaw]

So relatable! I sincerely thank you for releasing a lot of information lately on the "plain old boring"disorders of anxiety and depression. I had a severe form of anxious depression, and could never stay on an SSRI because it made both disorders skyrocket, so I self-medicated with Xanax out of desperation that not a single medicine worked. This was then mistakenly diagnosed as bipolar disorder, making me feel worse when I took antipsychotics. Also Seroquel ramped up motor agitation and I'd move body parts randomly without my control. You can probably guess that that symptom was putting more fuel on the fire regarding my anxiety 😱 The combination of Lamotrigine (apparently also a bipolar medication!) and Wellbuterin helped a ton! Also I ended up completely quitting smoking (and am still not smoking!) thanks to a side-effect of Wellbuterin 😝😝 Good luck everyone!! If I was able to come out of that extreme anxiois depression, I'm convinced it's possible for others If you notice your psychiatrist is not being attentive and quickly diagnosing you, please ask to go to a clinical psychologist where you could be thoroughly assessed and consequently diagnosed, so that you receive the appropriate therapy

[@adamlewis3729]

where were you on the scale Paddy?? I am a 5 - severe with motor agitation. I think there is no hope for me due to thinning gray matter.

[@addysaw]

@@adamlewis3729 on a scale from 1 to 10 I was a solid 10. Hospitals were involved, I couldn't function most of the times. I felt like I had absolutely lost my mind. It was the toughest thing I've ever experienced

[@adamlewis3729]

@@addysaw oh wow! and how are you today? Can you share what kind of motor agitation you had/have?

[@addysaw]

@@adamlewis3729 Now I dont have disorders and no motor agitation. The motor agitation was purely driven by the medications. Basicallyy limbs would not stop moving and I had uncontrollable urges to kick my legs and flap my arms. It was both very scary and highly uncomfortable. When I told the psychiatrist that Seroquel is causing this, she didnt believe me because "that's not a known side effect." Some doctors need to have their licenses revoked.

[@gersonsimon4283]

Dude, thanks for the clarity of explanation your case..

[@ashlymariaroswin3993]

I needed this 😭.. I'm so thankful for what you do for us💕

[@DrTraceyMarks]

I’m so glad this was helpful Ashly!

[@jamesronald1882]

Mushrooms saved my life from anxiety and depression...Hit up @adam_shrooms on Instagram....He sells psychedelics discreetly. He got shrooms,Dmt,Lsd,dope asf💀🍄

[@daboxer181]

​@@DrTraceyMarkshow do I know my anxiety or depression is not just situational? I've had anxiety since young . But it's worse and with more depression since my financial situation was devestated. I was much better when I was more financially secure.

[@agoodgurl2k]

We are all very fortunate to have you, Dr. Marks. Thank you

[@Wiiliam_Robinson]

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[@stephenrees4890]

I have often seen psychologists, psychiatrists and doctors as a joke, a piece of paper you frame that hangs on a wall and you can validate a big salary for it. I have taken what they have given me and now I can barely hear any more, a side effect. You are the real deal. Please keep doing what you do. You are an angel. x

[@fabgourmet]

Dear Dr Marks, I would just like to say a heartfelt thanks for this video; a close relative suffers from anxious depression, and it is sometimes very difficult for my family. This clarified what it was and offered a lot of valuable information in a short period of time. Thank you really very, very much.

[@lynnarcher39]

I"m not exactly sure how naming various disorders and their intricate nuances as listed in the "Manual" are supposed to be helpful to me as someone who lives every day with anxiety, depression, obsessive suicidal thoughts and no access to a therapist who takes Medicare and is taking new patients. But I'm so glad I have my little list of definitions that you have supplied me that I can keep in my pocket to remind me of how exactly my life sucks, just in case anyone wants to know.

[@38NDY]

For a good part of my life, I am certain every single morning that this is my last day on earth and I am going to die. I just try to ignore it so I can get up and go to work. Dr. Marks is the BEST psychiatrist in the world.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Oh my CR i’m sorry that’s how you start your days. I’m glad though you keep persevering 😊

[@ralfwashington1502]

Maybe look into CBD oil. Possibly take it at night before bed and it will still slightly be working in the AM. I'm not a doc and you need to look up if it's right for you and no interaction but for me my morning were great......until I had lucid dreams. Look into it if you want.....I've used it but aren't a medical pro

[@HellsGate-e8k]

What if I want everyday I wake up to be the last

[@doublerrplay2826]

My anxiety was so bad at one point, that i would dry heave a lot.

[@lealovesthesea]

I understand that. I’m so sorry.

[@lauraschmidt4197]

I love her style, very informative with a great sense of humor. I just wish that meds weren’t always the answer. I believe the reason you need a combination of meds is because the first med created another issue that needs the second or third med to counteract and so on. All this study of the brain and they still treat symptoms and not the cause. I know too many people on numerous meds that still feel terrible, are now overweight due to antidepressants with health conditions and practically can’t leave their houses. There has to be a better way.

[@ladydianepoet]

Antidepressants do not lead to becoming overweight. Obesity doesn't lead to not being able to leave the house. The cause for both is strong, traumatic emotions (and therefore brain and body damage) due to PTSD, usually built up over many years, or unseen. I believe in meditation and medication - and medical marijuana, too.

[@asmab1r3m6]

the sad thing about anxiety mixed with depression or any other mental disorder is when you have no one around you who can understand the disorder or bring relief from negative thoughts it sucks because I’ve seen people overcome that by the help of people close to them

[@catspurr_98]

I have had anxiety and issues with confidence in the past and I wouldn't completely rule it out just yet. I have been self treating myself for the time being, and what has worked for me is to surround myself with positive, driven and ambitious people. Now obviously that's difficult for some of us. So, I surround myself with such people on youtube, by watching the content creators who give me that vibe, and I also read on a daily basis about people who are mentally healthy and how they think optimistically in various situations. I can say for a fact that this has been working for me lately as I have started to think and be more like those people, and the mirroring has brought some much needed perspective shift to the greener side of the grass.

[@ladybaabaa3294]

Firstly, I had to laugh at the pen clicking and the frantic flailing and "losing control" parts of this video! 😂😂😂 Love it! Secondly, I'm one of the ones who's had anxiety since I was 4 years old, and after a long time of being worn down by that, as well as mild OCD, CPTSD and BPD, has also had persistent depression for over 10-15 years I think. It was fairly gradual in onset. Zoloft, Lexapro, Effexor, Moclobemide...none really helps, and the fact stopping any of them abruptly results in no side effects may show that they actually aren't doing anything in the first place. Zoloft stops things from being worse, so I just keep taking that. I have also been on Lamictal for about 3 months, but again, can't really notice much difference. If anything, I'm more apathetic, forgetful and unmotivated. I strongly feel that if something could improve the anxiety, the depression would lift on its own.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

I’ve heard other people say that as well. Sometimes it’s a tough call as to which is worse depression or anxiety. Yes depression can be very dark, but wicked anxiety can make you feel like the world is getting ready to end. You can’t just sleep through it. I wish we had some better solutions for anxiety when people can’t tolerate the antidepressants

[@ladybaabaa3294]

@@DrTraceyMarks Thank you, Dr Tracey! I often feel sad that I sleep away half the day. I'm more relaxed at night and so tend to stay up until 2am-3am and then sleep until noon. I don't want to waste my life sleeping...sigh.

[@ladybaabaa3294]

@@DrTraceyMarks Oh, and the anxiety is 100 x worse for me than the depression. Two specific things related to trying different medications have shown me that the anxiety is the source of the problem and not the depression. 1. Xanax relieves my anxiety almost completely (when it still worked, several years ago, when I first took it), and at the same time, I suddenly feel motivated to actually do things I've been putting off for months, I actually can be present in the moment and enjoy what I'm doing and not be distracted, and I have the desire to DO things again. The anhedonia that pushes me down all the time is gone. So...no anxiety = no depression. 2. When I tried Effexor, initially I was on 37.5mg for a month and my anxiety exploded horribly every 2-3 days. I felt SO restricted, and couldn't deal with doing anything. Didn't leave the house, just lay on the couch, bored and anxious all day, and feeling a total lack of motivation and desire. Very depressing. It was the same feelings of darkness and impending dread, fear and doom that I always have but majorly amplified. And although it was a highly unpleasant experience, it was useful as it showed me that anxiety = depression for me. I actually don't know if I even have depression. I've been diagnosed many times as having it based on the scale of questions that's used, but so much of the depressive symptoms come directly from anxiety. So maybe I have "depressive anxiety" instead of "anxious depression", hence why no antidepressants work! 😩

[@joeldecoster8816]

@@DrTraceyMarks Why not give your gullible patients a refund.?

[@freelikeyve]

I have bad anxious depression, I was diagnosed 6 years ago and I’ve tried a BUNCH of different meds. The ones that have ultimately worked best for me and currently taking is Lamotragine, Buspar and Trileptal. But I absolutely *hate* taking meds. Some strains of marijuana have absolutely relieved me to the core, like Grease Monkey. I felt so good and “forgot” to take my medicine bc my symptoms were nearly unnoticeable. That’s all I have to say.

[@michellebiagott4593]

Cannibis again y know i hate it and i cant seem to get away from it .my niebours smoke it .its every where .i cant even go to town without someone walking past me stinking of weed .the smell alone makes me want to throw up .i wish i liked it but i cant stand the stuff .its messed up my x partner. My brother and now my son .you think it helps .everyone i know it just makes them lazy and not give a shit .anyway my rant over have a good day

[@denisee9807]

Does that strain give you any paranoia at all? I'm going to talk with my doctor about the medications you mentioned thank you

[@andthensome512]

Heroin works best at relieving anxious depression. Too bad you have to trade your soul for it.

[@LisaGemini]

@@michellebiagott4593 Smoking is awful. I live in a medical marijuana state, Florida. Most people are using edibles. But that skunk weed is nasty!

[@michellebiagott4593]

@@LisaGemini i live in a zombie world because of weed whatever form it comes in .

[@yasminem1406]

I suffered from anxiety and depression for more than 4 years, never took medications, the last time I was cured was pretty miraculous , I was severely depressed and in extreme pain I almost lost sight from crying , then I went praying ( I'm a Muslim ) to god in the middle of the night asking for his help , I swear all my pain disappeared completely , it was replaced by the most amazing feeling I ever felt in my life, pure peace, I felt so invincible . It was the only time in my life where life was going sooooo badly, the worst ever been , yet my terrible pain was gone just by praying to Allah in the middle of the night while everyone was asleep .

[@kimpetersen6919]

You need psychedelics, this cured my depression which I had over a year. Bought ‘em from a drugstore online

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CHeck trip_pharmacist

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a t I N S T A G R A M

[@yasminem1406]

I don't have it anymore , no depression , no anxiety , cured naturally

[@karenart8144]

Just discovered this channel, ABSOLUTELY fantastic. Coping with a loved one suffering from multiple conditions and these videos are a tremendous help. Thank you

[@karenart8144]

@Torch from Olympia ❤

[@mercedesfonte7476]

Very interesting. I developed an eating disorder just from having anxiety. But ive always suffered from anxiety only this time it got worst because of everything having to do with covid. Fortunalety I'm doing better but it was a very hard process and I'm still working on it. Thank you for this video. And for anyone reading this, think positive and there is always hope. ❤ 🙏

[@KatarinaP81]

I was lucky enough that my neurologist treating me for MS guessed right sertraline was appt for my form of depression but a friend of mine seems to fit into this topic, I just sent her this video. Thank you for the work you put into understanding us, nutcases and helping others understand us as well.

[@sonicayadav3604]

I too am on sertaline

[@grandsome1]

Yeah, having your eyes ready to burst crying all the timd but on top of that you have the "manly" reflex of preventing yourself from crying can lead to very very painful days.

[@iancampbell9297]

My depression started first then was put on meds which caused severe anxiety to the point can't leave the house .. Your videos are so informative ...thanks DR Your explanation of the tears of pain but feeling no better was spot on

[@RedLP5000S]

I learn so much from this channel. It's nice to be able to put a description to my mental illness. Though I may never be cured, at least I know where my insanity comes from.

[@briz6368]

I’m so gone i want to cut off this world and never get close with a single person again

[@renaissance5300]

thats how I feel all because of living with a narcissist it is brutal. feel trapped but we can all heal

[@lifemusic1980]

You just explained my current situation exactly.

[@jaykulina9386]

Hey Briz ....how are u feeling now ? Better i hope.......your not alone in this

[@jaykulina9386]

@@lifemusic1980 hi hope your doing ok ....how are u feeling today?

[@jaykulina9386]

Briz if u ever need to vent ...you have a friend in me ....god bless!!

[@weronikakula8029]

Thank you Dr. Tracey. I really enjoy your videos altogether, but those about anxiety are special to me. I watch them whenever I feel like I need a reminder that there is nothing wrong with me, I am not losing it, it's just an anxiety. You help me remember that it is real and I am not making my symptoms up. And I love guest appearances of your dog

[@tammiebroggins]

I'm sad all the time. I'm homeless. The only thing that keeps me going is my dogs. I feel like this for years.

[@lifeofreilly9943]

I'm sorry you're going through that...😔 Sounds really tough. I hope you can catch a break soon

[@yasinyildirim97]

When she said “Well why does all of this matter” I started immediately attacking and expressing that nothing has ever mattered, does not matter, and will not matter. It’s just a reflex of thoughts when contemplation is presented to me.

[@tarunjindal2977]

I was having seriously bad day and your funny edits made me smile. Thanks Dr. Tracey :)

[@tinastanley4444]

I'm afraid ill do or say something that ill regret. Not able to trust myself. I'm always catastrophizing everything.

[@Larissa-of3qt]

Then don't. It's a choice. Remember that as soon as you start doing it next time.

[@tinastanley4444]

@@Larissa-of3qt you're right. My therapist just said this too me. Thanks 😊

[@yourbrokenoven]

Thank you for this. This may explain me fairly well and explain why I didn't feel better with antidepressants and felt more prone to anxiety and anger.

[@mariebernier3076]

Keep trying diff doctors, adjusting meds until you get relief. You'll need to work with a psychiatrist who tries lots of medication combos and dosages. May be expensive at first, but then you only do maintenance with them, see someone else less $. It's priceless to have relief from those feelings, even if it's not perfection. Keep looking!!!!

[@mariebernier3076]

@@yourbrokenoven That's great to hear! Talk to your doctor about what to expect, but if you're still feeling symptoms frequently, tell him. 2 things: 1. If I were you, I would get 1 more appt. w/ diff psych to see their opinion, but keep telling your guy how you feel and if he's responsive keep working w him. 2: Dk if you"re in therapy, but it's almost a must....I fought this but now believe it. Meds and talk are known to be significantly more effective than either alone. Hope this helps. It seems like you really want to feel better, so I'm betting you will! 🧸

[@mariebernier3076]

@@yourbrokenoven Yeah, I know that one. Our best thinking got us here, need to trust the process. I loathe talk therapy but what's worse is where I'd be if I hadn't done so much of it. Go, see what happens, keep going. 😬 BTW, I had some mediocre therapists that didn't help much. If you don't feel that the person is on their game or gets you, or gives you enough feedback, etc. you can try someone else until you find a 'click'. You (we) only have so long to live, y'know.

[@stricklyfashion]

Your hair is so healthy. I wish mine would lay like that, but it doesn’t fall to the sides of my face, it grows upward and outward.

[@janetnash8588]

I bet your hair is beautiful too

[@lesfleurs9369]

You sound like you have a tighter hair texture than her. Looser textures are easier for gravity to weigh down, thus the curls framing her face. I'm sure your hair is beautiful as well. My hair grows up & out too & I absolutely love it.

[@TheSilverWolf1998]

I'm so glad to find this channel. I have adhd, as well as anxiety. My anxiety probably comes from both a mixture of adhd and childhood trauma.

[@221BBakerStreet]

OMG when she said people sometimes feel as though their throat is closing up I couldn't believe it. One time when I was married to my emotionally, mentally and verbally abusive husband I suddenly began to experience this feeling that the muscles in my neck and throat were getting tighter and tighter over time. It got to the point where all I could eat was really soft food like scrambled eggs, mashed potato, creamy soup etc. If I tried to eat even french fries I would end up coughing up my food because I felt like I was going to choke. I went to the doctor who suspected it was "stress" but did some diagnostic tests anyway just to be sure, which all came back normal. She ended up putting me on Valium which helped enormously. I honestly had no idea that anxiety could cause such a drastic physical symptom. It was horrible.

[@Contessa998]

I’ve had anxious depression, dysthymia my whole life. I’m ready to give up

[@dontaskdonttell_]

Research different treatment options: Antidepressant/Antipsychotic Medication, Psychiatric Service Dog, Talk Therapy, ECT, TMS, Spravato, & Massage Therapy. Goodluck❤

[@dmgsoultogetherness6667]

Noooooooooooooo

[@krisquigley4497]

One day at a Time: You have made it this far and that shows you are one strong person. I have to stay here until the end so you do too. You can and will get through this, I know exactly how you feel oh yes I do. Please do not give up.

[@Contessa998]

@@dontaskdonttell_ Really? Psychiatric 🐕‍🦺 service dog? I would love any info you might have! Thank you!

[@Contessa998]

@@krisquigley4497 Thank you. Very kind. I appreciate ur words 💗

[@Anni-on9eh]

ik im still very young (15) but im extreamly anti social , i keep overthinking all day ,im very emotional i just cant seem to control my tears sometimes, i dont remember the last time i cleaned my room , i dont have anyone to talk to ,and ive been feeling this way for a year now ,and im used by my classmates sometimes , i used to come home everyday crying . i hope i will get better soon .and to all those who feel the same way , i pray that u can get over this and be happy.

[@deerfoxthunderteam1649]

Thanks, Mrs. Marks! I'm not using this as a diagnosis, but I do feel anxious and a lot of sadness during the day, and into the night. This video has helped me figure out what I might be experiencing, but again, not treating it like a cure-all

[@klemcio9793]

I have severe anxiety with deep depression. It is a nightmare. Constant feeling of worry, can't do anything because I'm scared of starting something. I cant wash myself for weeks... I'm taking venlafaxine and pregabalin but I feel like these medication don't work as they should

[@dontaskdonttell_]

It can take time to find the right medication combination, don't give up. Other treatment options: Psychiatric Service Dog, Talk Therapy, ECT, TMS, Spravato, & Massage Therapy. Goodluck❤

[@ladybaabaa3294]

I feel you. This is pretty much me. SO anxious all the time, for 40 years. Feelings of dread and fear. Too anxious to go many places, do very much and I no longer enjoy anything either. This has led to persistent depression over the years, with anhedonia, and I too find it really difficult to maintain a proper showering routine, I can't deal with household chores, have never cooked, I sleep half the day away as it's a relief to be so sleepy (medication aids this), I can't eat until night time due to my chronic anxiety that has eventually wrecked my appetite, and it's just all really...sad.

[@7eMiLi7]

Was on venlafaxine, it was a nightmare in itself. Take it slightly late and the withdrawals began. Switched to Cymbalta and I'm feeling much better, although the depression still gets me sometimes

[@ladybaabaa3294]

@@7eMiLi7 I tried Venlafaxine too, and the 37.5mg first month dose sent my anxiety through the ROOF. The subsequent 70mg dose settled that down (to its normal high level) but emotionally blunted me so much I didn't care about anything and couldn't be bothered doing anything. So my anxiety stayed the same but my depression got worse in terms of the apathy and anhedonia. I never noticed any issues with taking it at slightly different times or when I stopped it abruptly and went back to Zoloft the next day.

[@violetlove1893]

@@ladybaabaa3294 sorry to hear that. But u are not alone. There are so many suffering with this but are afraid of that "disgusted" response on the face of those who don't understand.

[@foulplay99]

Thank you for this video Dr Marks, I think this is the most accurate description of what I went through, for a depression that maybe lasted me 8 years. From the symptoms I think I had severe anxious depression. I had always just assumed anxiety and depression went hand in hand, but thats probably because I had both at the same time. I was having crying episodes in the bathroom at work, but absolutely zero idea why I was so upset, always anxious, restless legs, lethargy. Eventually I started getting pannic attacks, and found it almost impossible to get out of bed to go to work. I eventually became suicidal, and the idea of my continued existence was a sick joke and I wanted to die in a car accident as I couldn't face the idea of putting my parents through my actual suicide. Luckily anti-depressents worked really well for me immediately upon taking my first prescribed medication. I still get anxiety really easily which never really fully goes away, but the depression I guess is pretty much gone.

[@karlostjuroukei1802]

one of the only meds I take is paracetamol, only 1-7 times per month. This is what a daydream about, especially when I don’t take pills; hope this meditation exercise is beneficial: (you can listen to special audio on KZbin called “binaural beats” too & in combination, as they often give a healing benefits), next, start by focusing your attention on your heart and pretend there’s an orb of energy in your heart, now imagine there’s a wheel around the orb - kinda like the orbit of Earth, that you can use to charge up that orb of energy - like a dynamo. Spin the wheel around while having the intention of your body relaxing and healing - hope this helps 💕

[@ingram4896]

I'm on an anxious state that listening to the whole video but still didn't get 1 word , my whole body's shaking

[@ilikemusic]

just been prescribed Sertraline and was freaking out a bit but you’ve really calmed my nerves about it thank u sm

[@suzanne5971]

I’m so happy that the field of psychiatry is evolving this way. Back in the 60’s, when I was a child suffering from disabling anxiety and depression, there was very scant real knowledge about diagnosis and treatment of these related disorders. You were derided and made to feel “not OK” by not only peers and family, but the medical establishment, as well. Thank you for educating the world.

[@johannamunoz557]

I think her explanation of this topic is very genuinely informative and people should share this piece of knowledge more often, however, I also see that her main message is recommending and/or potentially providing medication to treat all these mental instabilities we all face so I just want to give my opinion and say after dealing with anxiety and depression in 2020, I would not personally recommend any sort of medication but instead meditation and exercise to connect your body and mind along with learning what ingredients/chemicals we are absorbing into our body. Mind and body connectivity is so important in order for us to become more self aware and understand why we are the person we see in the mirror today, mainly deriving from thoughts of the past. It's important we all learn that our thoughts are coming from our subconscious mind and our subconscious mind is connected to our past memories. In summary, our thoughts are not real, they are just memories of us from the past, a past we cannot control, and a past that cannot, by any means, define who we are today.

[@xMaverickFPS]

I broke my spine 5 months ago, still have my bottle of gabapentin, and I started taking it again after hearing it might help with anxiety. I was pretty shocked with how effective it was. I honestly thought it was just a pain killer.

[@hotjuices2]

hen be careful, the doses/administration of that drug will be very different for acute spine pain vs anxiety, it’s also a drug of dependence/addiction with risk of nasty withdrawals if improperly taken. pls talk to ur doctor/psychiatrist about this, don’t self medicate

[@carolynjaynes36]

Gabapentin has been very helpful for my anxious depression, along with Wellbutrin and Lithium for rapid cycling. I added Cymbalta at night and now I'm more stable than ever, so please keep trying. There is hope There is help. It took a long time to get the right mix.

[@darkmorning2865]

Which country are you from that gabapentin is used for depression there?

[@carolynjaynes36]

@@darkmorning2865 It was prescribed in Honolulu, Hawaii, USA by an experienced psychiatrist and it helps with focus, attention and body pain from the depression.

[@carolynjaynes36]

California / Hawaii.@@darkmorning2865

[@carolinal.r.1091]

I’ve seen so many videos about anxiety, (I am diagnosed by a psychiatrist with obsessive compulsive disorder, generalized anxiety and depression) I am always short for breath, scared, worried, I feel constant anguish I can’t get rid of and that ends up creating those mentioned rituals and patterns to pull me out of trances, and to “protect me” from external things I don’t even know about. It’s a very miserable way to live, to be honest, because it’s often misunderstood.This the first video I watch that clicks with how I feel. And I feel validated… thank you…

[@patricialegge2482]

I can't remember when I last felt happy. I nearly died 3 years ago because of medical negligence, I've never been right since. I don't dress, I don't shower, sometimes I think I'd be better dead, but I don't have the guts, I think people who actually do commit suicide are yes, in a very dark space, but in my eyes very brave.

[@meklitaragaw6020]

that feeling .....when you notice that you are shaking your leg and clicking your pen while watching this video... huhhhhhh

[@Kalkidanmulu]

The way she was clicking that pen at 4:36 😂😂

[@ladybaabaa3294]

😂😂😂😂

[@fashion4everlove]

And the out of control plus her partner with the extinguisher. A MUCH NEEDED LAUGH.

[@katkm7810]

Came here for this comment

[@susanjohnson7679]

I think what you do is amazing! Your explanations are so well done, but I'm sure your videos are life saver for some.

[@julielevesque2668]

I got off meds after 6 years of taking them and I actually worked on myself and added a lot of exercise daily, looked up info about nutrition, added fiber, more anti-inflammatory foods, and gut bacteria focus. I also meditate. There are tools that are not meds that work well but you have to be consistent with your routine, self-disciplined and patient. I also take Ashwaghanda and Bacopa as natural supplements. I chose to be single after the last breakup of December 2019 and then it was the pandemic. I also had my ex-girlfriend commit suicide in December of 2021. We weren't together anymore but we were still close friends. Sucked but I knew I had to get through it and work on accountability too and delaying gratification.

[@rbwirth12]

Yeah, I have this. I describe it as being caught in a vice between anxiety and depression. It "helps" me to remember that my anxiety is from worrying about the future and my depression is from dwelling on the past. So now I am caught just doing what's in front of me and just being blank, for lack of a better term.

[@JadeDRail]

I have Bipolar and Generalized Anxiety...so that's fun!

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Oh boy that’s tough to manage. That’s where behavior therapies become helpful

[@JadeDRail]

@@DrTraceyMarks I've been in therapy on and off since I was a little kid. It can be helpful but I find it stops being effective after a while.

[@suzannal6047]

Thank you Doctor Tracy! I just love your videos.... Even if we don't have the condition that you are particularly speaking about we learn a lot from listening to you and I appreciate that! Have a healthy happy New Year!

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Oh I’m glad you like learning. 😊 Thanks for watching. You have a great new year as well.

[@celticwarrior5646]

Wish I could have watched this video years ago(along with How Antidepressants can make you more anxious) to explain why my depression would improve, but a lot of my anxiety symptoms would still persist and affect my quality of life, even after months of extreme anxiety had subsided after initially taking an SSRI eg. Fluoxetine,Sertraline still too activating in the long term causing my depression trying to return. Frequent returns to GP's who are not trained to treat mental health issues and do not have the time nor understand the complex workings of anxiety disorders and their affect on depression but still hand out SSRI's hoping they work and that you don't come back again and again,and then not referring you to see a psychiatrist because of inadequate services and waiting times and general apathy. At 56 yrs and having suffered with the disibalitating effects of GAD,SAD and panic disorder most of my life, and after 28 years of antidepressant use I am still searching for the best treatment.

[@raulleitao8865]

I have the same problem, which medication are you having now?

[@Messy_Mermaid]

Idk how I just found this! I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder with specifier anxious distress and I haven’t found a lot of concise content explaining it. Thank you!

[@kimpetersen6919]

Psychedelic helps, actually bought mine from a online drugstore

[@kimpetersen6919]

CHeck trip_pharmacist

[@kimpetersen6919]

i n I N S T A G R A M

[@chillinvillain7800]

I hate living like this. It has genuinely ruined relationships for me. I’m so tired of it.

[@sagngameplay]

Anxiety = Reptile brain suddenly self-promotes itself to Captain of the ship.

[@TwistedOnyx369]

This is gold!

[@aida087]

Dr. Marks I know anxiety and depression can go hand in hand but my question is.... Is both anxiety and depression more often genetic, hereditary or learned behaviors? Thank you in advance for any input.

[@stolenrelic]

Thank you for this video! (and for all the ones you do.) That turtleneck and matching earrings and necklace look amazing! 😄

[@justmadeit2]

So true, the tears don’t release the pain when you cry

[@alexiscrawford9676]

I have anxiety and depression. Last night I couldn’t sleep and I just cried for 30 minutes straight for no reason.

[@kellydeery3017]

Love your videos! I always get my notebook out and take notes while I watch 😊

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Love that Kelly! I've had a few people mention they take notes. That inspired me to take the content and put it in written form. I'm starting with the bipolar videos. I'm almost finished putting it together as a handbook. Then I'll send it to my favorite graphic designer to make it visually super cool looking (not just an ordinary ebook). I'll gradually work way my through the other disorders. If bipolar disorder info interests you, then hold tight. It's coming.

[@gangstatrill9265]

Great and informative video as usual! Thank you Dr. Marks!!!

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Thanks a lot and you’re welcome 😊

[@jm7514]

Dr. Marks, you are amazing. Your very existence is a blessing to the world. Thank you. Thank you for your intelligence, your communication style, and for sharing on an open and free platform. I also thank KZbin and it's algorithms for sending you in my direction. Thank you again doctor.

[@juanpedrodelacruz7348]

You perfectly define what i feel everyday and it sucks.

[@neildegrassetyson2615]

so we arent gonna talk bout these boss ass stock motion she made?

[@Angelica2020]

The only thing that soothes me with my anxious distress is working out. I don't like medicine but don't condone it. If you need to take it, do it. No judgement zone here. For me, medicine makes my gut sick. I have a very sensitive G.I track so I chose to exercise. I climb mountains or do high intensity workouts. I also jump weighted rope and lift weights. It really helps. Much love to all that made it to this video. It is no coincidence.

[@retrosun1845]

I feel like someone has been grabbing my neck very tightly for last 3 weeks it makes me very anxious

[@George-pz6mj]

Thanks so much for this Dr Tracey. This sounds like EXACTLY what I have been battling my whole life. I’ve been using Lexapro for a few years and when I first start it my anxiety and depression sky rockets. I have days where I almost feel I’m going crazy and it’s very confronting. My doctor prescribed me olanzapine to help the wean on process which did help. I wish we had better mental health care here in Australia. I’ve seen quite a few psychologists and I feel like they never have given me the right label for what I suffer from. Initially I was told I had ADHD after years of being told I have depression and anxiety. I saw them another psychologist who says it’s definitely GAD and depression. It’s been really confusing because I really want to find the right medicine. I also tried Zoloft which I felt numbed me too much. I trialed valdoxan and mirtazapine but both made me extremely tired. At the moment I am bumping up my Lexapro from 10mg to 20mg to see if it can turn things around. I have been looking into cbd which I tried for six weeks but felt it did nothing and am curious to explore psychedelics but we don’t have much access to it here in Australia. Wish we could use your services here in Australia Dr Tracey your content is much more informative then professionals I have seen. Maybe it’s time I see a psychiatrist. My doctor keeps telling me it isn’t necessary cos he knows me and my condition well

[@giacomo5824]

Hi Dr Tracey. Can you explore major depression with mixed features, and the controversy surrounding its existence? Also, are subclinical hypomanic features in MDD proof of bipolar spectrum, or are mixed/agitated symptoms part of the nature of depression when irritability/anxiety/comorbidities are factored in?

[@teresahopemiller1008]

I get concentration issues too.

[@lesliecas2695]

Can I just say that you and the bald guy who keeps showing up in the videos make a fun and cute couple.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Lol! Thank you. I’ll let him know. He’s a good sport. With quarantine, I’m short on actors 😀

[@barrettbrogdon5156]

Thank you for believing/acknowledging the nausea and vomiting in the morning. No one believes me and I tell them it’s because of my anxiety and depression mixing into a whirlwind of nausea->vomiting non-stop.

[@vedatzorro]

Thank you for Turkish subtitles. I appreciate your efforts

[@QueenPiggysYT14]

My chest use to Hurt now I just feel sad for no reason 😭

[@athenapalma802]

Hello doctor, when you say that images show thinning of parts of the brain of people suffering of anxious depression, is this definitive ? Or can the brain get normal again ?? If yes how ? Thank you

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Good question. I don’t know if treatment reverses the thinning. We know treatment improves neuron connections but I’m not sure to what extent you get back your cortical thickness.

[@michaelwerner7252]

There is a simple reason why fear is almost always a constant companion in depression. Most people have to earn money on a daily basis because they are not the Rockefellers and depression makes them dysfunctional, unable to handle even small things because they are in a different mental state that they themselves do not understand. Who would not be afraid in this situation?

[@nubianmoiselle3797]

Happy, sad, worrying, over enthousias., loosing control, fear to be happy, why am i happy, sleepless nights, invisible, lonely, and aaaall over again...every day. 😖😖Help!

[@Setsunako6587]

Thumbs up for Home Movies 😂!! And good science, of course. Thanks, doc 💖

[@frecklesbenny]

Can you have generalized anxiety disorder and anxious depression? I feel like this fits me but my anxiety is severe to the point that I panic

[@martinburrows6844]

Panic disorder ?

[@astroturf5549]

its like she looked into my soul and told me everything every counselor doctor and psychiatrist were never able to.

[@renegonzal]

Thank you for this video, finally feels like someone understands what I’ve been living with my entire life.