When Did You Know You Were Trans???

[@iFauxPas]

Satan: "You are...*A TRAN*."

[@AlondraBravo]

"Satan ascended from hell and rubbed his ballsack on my forehead and told me I was a tran" lmfao you kill me every time 😂😂 I love you Ty, stay blessed! 🙏🏼

[@brendaruiz3947]

I am studying to be a teacher and I am really interested in knowing how to act if one of my students feels trapped in the wrong body so I can support him/her. That's the reason I appreciate this type of videos so thanks Ty!

[@LoveKorea4887]

wow i don't even know you but i have to tell you that if you're looking this kind of video for possibly help a student on the future, you'll be an excellent teacher!!! my respects to you 👏

[@brendaruiz3947]

+SkyNet Thank you so much!

[@AishaAisha-nz8ug]

You're a great person

[@athena181]

"I just literally am spiderman." Me too.

[@animalloverJen87]

Interesting video. I am not a trans but your video helps me better understand trans people. And that is awesome your parents are so supportive of your transition.

[@tifanywhite6062]

Love you sooo much Ty . Your videos are really helpful .

[@lindsaywhitelock5855]

Great video Ty

[@Klipiklip1]

I don't remember many signs from my childhood, but my mother has later told me bits and pieces I don't even remember, but that make so much sense! I suppose it has always been inside of me, and maybe I would have been more honest with myself if I had a little more self-confidence, and weren't so fixed on fitting in and impressing others all the darn time. I am moving away from my home town next year, and am hoping to start T and finally be myself a little more!

[@R0mbVs]

Ty

[@indecisive.325]

Thank you, Slim Shady

[@Transformer7]

I think we have literally the same story with exploring gender identity. Omg.

[@teemondy]

appreciate the openness/honesty about your personal experience more than you know. currently in the "holy shit this is scary" phase

[@teemondy]

Also, nice macklemore reference. *top notch

[@jacm5511]

I remember 'wanting' to be a boy when I was a kid, but I never really knew that that was what I was. I didn't realise I was trans until around January last year (I was 18). It was after I had been watching a whole load of trans guys videos (and binge watching Chase Ross, lets be real). I remember sarcasticly asking myself if I was trans and then I had the HOLY SHIT moment.

[@voldemortsshampoo4551]

why is nobody talking about the silence of the lambs poster jdfjfhdjd

[@SlmShdyGrmGrvy]

I dressed as Superman and Batman for halloween as a little kid, like 4 or 5... Looking back, how did no one see me being trans?

[@lehuanani3341]

You're smart handsome! And perfect the way you are handsome... You owe no one a explanation

[@KaceyKj]

I dont wanna be that person that's like "omg this video is exactly my childhood and knowing I'm trans story" but in reality it is.

[@SydneyHarvest]

holy fuck, my transgender story was literally the exact same except im an mtf and younger •I was clueless about gender roles and lined up with the girls all the time • I found out in 8th grade what transgender was and I try to block it out • really interested in watching transition videos •realize all the anger and depression was cause of my gender • decided to transition when I become older • couldn't hold it in anymore and talk to my mom about it and we decided for me to transition the resemblance

[@maddy4557]

Literally me tho!!!! Although, the whole all girls junior high fucked me up a little doe lol.

[@clud_water6710]

Wait, me too though...

[@MeggieWeggie2435]

Your parents sound great :)

[@Munkeyy31]

I knew I was a boy and felt like a boy my whole life. I barely researched 'transgender' about 2yrs ago and looked up FTM Guys and, just like you said, it was a holy shit moment of fear because it matched my feelings so well. I still have told my parents yet but I am planning on doing so when I move out in a few months.

[@leoli955]

Hey Ty, I watched many of your videos, wonder what software you use to make these videos?

[@furfoxsake1175]

I was androgynous as a kid (leaning towards masculine), and when I hit puberty, it took a very large mental toll on me. I realized I "wasn't cis" in 2014 and FtM in 2015

[@curtisdrago]

I had to wear uniforms but I had Spider-Man everything.

[@Ninjalover9xD]

I realised i was trans exactly how you did! :))) i find that pretty cool

[@Jamie-zi2nf]

BRO SPIDERMAN EVERYTHING SAME HOLY FUCKING SHIT

[@evonyg3203]

I think your story, Ty, and all of stories about what we identify as, is so unique. There is such a big spectrum of human emotion, thoughts, and actions, that are justified simply because that's who we are. Thanks for sharing your story!

[@naruhina1997]

All these people that knew when they were kids make me have even more doubt about myself... I never thought about gender/sex until high school and also my thoughts of wishing I was a girl were not a constant thing. They came and went, usually when I was in bed at night before falling asleep. Thinking about it, fantasizing about being a girl, wishing and praying to be made a girl etc. I've been trying to process why I still have these thoughts that show up and then if I ignore them they go away but resurface 6-12 months later, sometimes they're gone for more than 12 months but then they come back... I've noticed each time the thoughts resurface they stay with me longer and I dive once again into transition MTF videos... this time the thoughts came back three weeks ago and has yet to go away.

[@StefSanjatiOfficial]

and tOD ME I WAS A TARNAN O,MMG TY

[@TyTurner]

Tarnangender ~~

[@samkelly8346]

wat

[@Nimamyniga]

Omg stef my queen

[@lovetestimonyforjesus8042]

That's so good that you have suck supportive parents. You inspire me so much Ty.

[@TheoV1998]

i wish my parents were so accepting... all mine do are yell at me

[@AlyssiaDanielle]

I could relate to you so much. While growing up though I didn't and still don't have much choice in my clothing or items I have due to money struggles. Every time my mom and I go shopping it's always a big deal that I don't like whatever she has picked out for me. Since I'm finally getting the freedom to pick what my style is I am totally lost. I'm not into the typical male clothing styles or activities so it's hard finding my place wherever I go. I went to the mall with my older sister and she knows that I am going to transition fully one day so she just wants me to be comfortable. We picked out some shirts from the female side of the store and I kept going over to the other side of the store where there were gender neutral/ unisex and male clothing and was looking. It still feels awkward even though that's where I know I belong. I've asked for tips but I always get the same old thing which is to try and accept it. Well seeing as my sister knows then she stood by my side as I looked, I kept walking back and forth between the two because it was the first time I'd got the chance to look at the non girly clothing with the typical bows and lace and looked at what I wanted to. Although this was a scary experience in my opinion I still had fun. I'm actually going to an appointment soon where I'm going to be starting T so hopefully I'm able to get the clothing I want by time that happens. I'm kind of a fan of yours Ty so I'd love to maybe talk to you one day and discuss things because I still have so many questions. I watch any videos that I can in my spare time of yours but unfortunately that isn't often at all. Now that my mom knows (even though she doesn't understand) then I'll have plenty of time to watch freely whenever I want. Hopefully you'll see my message and have the chance to respond!

[@noname-nq2xb]

I WAS SPIDERMAN TOO TWINSSS

[@kyralindsey5885]

this hit me hard...

[@michalinaagiewka6873]

OMG same !!! I always thought I belonged with the boys when I was younger. I suppressed this until a year ago when I somehow learned what trans was by going into a rabbit hole of random wiki articles. I then decided to learn more via KZbin videos and discovered Ty, Chase and Stef who were an incredible support for me since then... Fast forward to this year I somehow came out to my mom way earlier than I was expecting. I hope that I can start my transition this year... Anyway, I thought it was interesting that I found out I was trans in the same way Ty did.

[@matiasviloria5715]

I actually had that holy shit this fits me so well experience while watching one of your videos. You're the first ftm youtuber I ever watched and I immediately knew. I'm going to doctors now to start my transition and your videos have helped me so much. Also my mom loves you hahhs.

[@ShilohKeeling]

I had that same exact fascination with the ftm transition but I refused to keep watching videos about it because of fear too lol

[@micaelaramirez2139]

all that applies and right now I'm in the stage where I'm scared of wanting to do this and having my mom and my dad and some fam taking it in a harsh way and I don't have the slightest clue of how to even start anything ..crazy how the more I look into it how similar it all feels andsounds

[@Sammy_Snakez]

When I was 5, i had so much spiderman shit. I literally went as spiderman for Halloween for YEARS. Then I wore boys clothing and still.. I played football as a lineman in fourth and I was told I'm pretty good. I got 2 trophies my first year none in my second year, and 1 in my 3rd year. I wear suits and I hang out with dudes (except for a girl that joined football because quote on quote "I inspired her") any way that's a few ways how I knew i was trans.

[@l.y6742]

Related to this so much. Great video, dude!

[@mariad4308]

Thanks for being so open in this video, but just to clarify, did you transition in high school? I'm a sophomore and i'm aiming to come out/transition in college, but the wait seems to much sometimes. Again, thank you

[@nathanmontoya2372]

that last part fit me so well I cried!

[@beckyrules887]

Ty, I love how you can be so serious and so funny at the same time. I love your videos! Thank you for all of the honesty and openness you give your fans.

[@milesjustice8638]

Hey, Bro just found your channel a month or so ago when I started exploring my gender identity. My story is quite similar to your - I always gravitated toward "boy toys" - i.e. hot wheels, GI Joes, and guns. Although my parents were conservative southern Baptists, they actually allowed me to play with these items. The also allowed me to buy my first ever wallet - a CHiPs themed vinyl bifold with a snap. However, they drew the line at allowing me to play sports - especially the one I wanted most which was football. Of course, I am now 45, so this was in the late 70s and early 80s, long before the Internet, KZbin, etc. My choice Halloween costumes were Batman and Fred Flintstone while my sister went as princesses and other "girly" themes. I also told my Mom repeatedly that I would grow up to be a man. Of course, over time, I concluded that I had no choice but to live my life as female. When I moved away from home to attend law school, I had a little more freedom to explore my feelings. At that point, I knew I was attracted to girls, and ended up coming out as lesbian at 23. I liked the idea of being lesbian because not only did it mean I could date girls, but also could defy social expectations of what it was to be "female". Basically, I saw this as a way to express my internal masculinity in a somewhat more acceptable way since, based on stereotypes, people seem to expect lesbians to be "less womanly" than straight women. This worked for me for a long time. Indeed, I have lived the past 22 years with this identity. However, once my mother passed in 2016 (my last remaining parent), I began to feel a bit of freedom to allow myself to consider the possibility that I might be a trans man. Of course, this is all complicated by the fact that I am married to my best friend. She & I have been together for nearly 20 years and married for the 3+ years it has been legal. Basically, I have a lot tied up in my identity as a lesbian and am very concerned about what acknowledging these feelings might mean for my relationship. Also, as a lesbian, my social circle consists almost entirely of women. I really have no one other than my therapist with whom I can discuss my feelings and, as you said in your coming out tips video “get my ducks in a row.” So, I am struggling a bit with whether being trans is something I should even admit to my partner or, given my age, if I should suppress it as I have for so long and just keep living my life as is. It seems as though so many people on KZbin were either single or with partners who are comfortable being with men. My wife is not attracted to men in any way, so I truly fear I will lose my soul mate through this process. The problem is I have this image of myself in my head. And it’s not one of those things like a person with a perfect body or anything. It is just that in my head, I am a dude. So, when I catch a glimpse in the mirror, it both surprises and saddens me. Indeed, I only intentionally look in the mirror when I feel like I will appear more masculine due to my dress, hair, or whatnot. I am not sure how long one can have this incongruity between the inside and outside before it takes a deep impact on the psyche. Anyway, you asked us to share our “when I knew” and this is mine. Thanks for reading!

[@SopadeLetrinhasOficial]

What an amazing mom you have!

[@TheoV1998]

the rabbithole thing is so true!!!

[@benjibluebird]

I didn't know about my masculinity until about a year ago but I had definitely been showing signs. I'm 17 now and just came out as ftm transgender.

[@janestuthridge9598]

Hi Ty, I'm a hetrosexual female but I have been watching your journey for some time and find it interesting. Do you think you will take your journey as far as SRS?

[@JustRaboHD]

Ah damn I wanted to be Batman when I was younger. At one piont I succeeded in making the whole class call me Batman ;')

[@aaronjames5588]

My slightly embarrassing story: Didn't know what being transgender was at the time of this occurrence whatsoever, but it's one of the biggest moments that stands out to me the most. Firstly, I refused to wear a bra for an inappropriate amount of time into puberty. I'd just wear hoodies and coats all year long, even in disgusting, humid, Arkansan summers, just to cover up what that annoying estrogen did to my chest, which terrified me and I hated it. Once when my grandmother took me shopping for clothes, and no matter how hard she would try to get me to pick out a bra, I just wasn't having it. She finally straight up asked me right there in the middle of the store why I was refusing to wear one. My exact words were, at the age of 12, "Because I don't want people to see me with it on and see me having to pretend to be a girl." In my head, I thought that everyone else knew I was a boy too, and that I'd be ridiculed for wearing a bra. I bawled in confusion when she told me that I was one..

[@AIJane-bf9gg]

TY, you are gorgeous inside and out, I'm in awe :)

[@MasonPaul]

It's so strange too look back at at old video, thank come to this. God I'm so proud of you. 💓💓

[@ThePesident]

God I wish I could've presented more masculine as a kid, but I shared things with my older (very girly) sister. I can at least do that more now that I'm older.

[@Dragonborn-wi2ti]

You are awesome and incredibly helpful! keep up the good work :)

[@kurtchan2055]

Awesome 👊🏾👍🏾

[@anastaciakoncz4760]

Can u make a video with your sister? Also, I just want to say that your videos r really helpful although I am not sure if I am transgender the fact that I can watch your videos and Find out more about transgender things really helps me thanks (also u r hilarious)

[@akt9]

I too was a tom boy growing up I never played with or wore anything that a typical girl would wear or play with I remember when I was 4 my mom tried to get me to wear a dress and I started crying. As I grew up I still dressed like a typical guy but I just went on with life not thinking too much into it. That was until after I graduated high school that I became very depressed and had anxiety I knew the 2 main reasons I was that way was because 1 I was severely obese and chose to eat and lock my feelings inside of me instead of dealing with them. And 2 was because I was different from everyone else but I just chose to hide that feeling and just focus more on my obesity and stuff. After I lost 190lbs (took me 3 years and yes I still have kept it off) that feeling of me being different resurfaced. Wasn't until my sister asked me if I knew what transgender was and if I was trans I said yes I knew what it was and I don't know if I am. Which was a big lie because I knew I was trans I was afraid to tell anyone I knew they wouldn't judge me and would still love me for me but again I was just afraid to say anything. October 11th 2014 was the day I came out to my family (my mom and my sisters). It was via text message but they all still love me and accept me for who I am, I had my mom tell my dad cause I just couldn't do it. And yes he still loves me too :). But yeah getting that big secret I carried around for years off my chest was the 2nd best feeling (1st best feeling was loosing all that weight).

[@invadergia1]

I have never identified so much with a video before in my life,.

[@kennedycast4449]

I freakin' love you LOL.

[@megamooer12]

so I'm a Transguy and when I was little I would pee standing up in the backyard

[@mossboss9236]

Same

[@rinamarie116]

I was eating oatmeal before class when he made the satan's ball sack comment and almost spit all of it out...

[@BenjiCarter]

I only found out that I was trans last July/August when I was 17 (I'm almost 18 now). Growing up, I was always classed as a tomboy, but I thought that that was it. But as I reached puberty, I began to realise that I really wasn't comfortable in my body. I always pictured myself growing up as a boy, rather than a girl and I guess I just knew. I kept repeating to myself saying that "I should have been a boy" or "why can't I be a boy?" and when I found the definition of transgender last year, it clicked. Of course, I was terrified at first so I just labeled myself as genderfluid, then I went through a series of labels - including agender, demiboy etc. But I've now accepted myself as transgender, choosing to go by Parker and he/him pronouns. I'm going to buy a binder for my birthday this month once I come out and I think it's safe to say that I'm really, really happy with myself now ^_^

is it weird that ive been a pretty feminine girl my whole life but now that im 15 im starting to realize i might be trans? like i realized on video games id always choose to play as and pretend to be a boy and ive thought stuff like “shit i wish i could like boys the way boys like boys” my whole life and etc… and thinking abt it i would love to be referred to as and look like a boy.. but am i too old to just barely realize i could be trans?

[@thisperson7288]

I doubt the email thing...just because he's older than me...and computers are a fairly new thing 😂. But I believe everything else..

[@matthiasking7563]

Lol. When I was in preschool I made people call me Peter Parker. Spider-Man for life!!

[@emmadobson9498]

I wish you would have said "I'm a real boy!!!!"

[@stormageddon101]

Am I the only person that instead of feeling social dysphoria when I was younger, I mostly felt physical dysphoria? (Now that's changed a bit and I feel both physical and social dysphoria after realising I'm trans). Like, I couldn't/can't swim shirtless, used to tuck a lot, couldn't sleep in my underwear, thought I had BIID a couple months before realising it was dysphoria, but saw myself as a guy, except for feeling weird when people called me mate, bro, or anything like that

[@GamingWithDrex]

spiderman is the shit. same life story here man haha

[@gbsmiles]

Thank you for sharing even more of your backstory with us, Ty! You continue to Rock! Gotta say that it seems you were able to become the person you wanted to with a lot less pain and anguish thanks to the fact that you had awesome people around. Most notably you Mom who we saw in your "Miranda Road Trip Vlog" and who by the way is A Very Beautiful Women who looks like she is a ton of fun to be around :) Perhaps one day you could convince her to sit down with you and do a full on Video?? A meet and greet, Q&A?? Kind of thing? I personally would love that. You are an inspiration for a TON of people who were or are in your situation and for that you should be commended because it really comes down to the fact that you and your channel are helping to save LIVES! Ever think of doing motivational talks Live? Best wishes to You and Christy (Awesome Couple, btw), Aela and Konani, and Tristan, who's video was very touching, more soon?! Have a great day, Man.

[@samdangles2012]

when I was little I also had those boy girl lines and I made a 3rd line of just me, yeah I got laughed at but I was comfortable.

[@probablyalex]

I used to tell people a witch turned me into a girl and that I wanted to be a boy. Some how my family were surprised when I came out :p

[@probablyalex]

I also used to tell myself that I'd run away from home and "become a boy" and never talk to my family again. Few years later I was surprised that's what I actually wanted (minus the running away bit)

[@QuiteQueer]

Great video man.I made a video about when I knew I was trans a while back.

[@alexg5733]

I didnt realize i was a boy till this year. Growing up i was really feminine but very masculine as well. I didnt think anything was wrong until puberty and there came the huge wave of depression and anxiety. I found out what trans meant in grade 7 when my best friend came out and maybe not that day i realized but soon after. I would research it day after day because i didnt know how to help and not be an ass. I came to the conclusion i was 'gender fluid leaning towards a guy usually' which really only meant i feel like a guy everyday but felt i was too feminine and that was between march and june 2015. I didnt come out or express it at all because i was afraid to even say i was bi. I thought that i couldnt be and i was just attention seeking but id keep thinking but that makes sense. I push it away till about August and just cut my hair off. I felt like i was a whole knew person (still depressed but a lot happier) i started recovering from my eating disorder like nothing happened.

[@alexg5733]

So of course i just continued with my gender fluid label but i decided i was going to be Alex. And my life kinda changed as whole the next month. Instead of stealing my brothers clothes all the time i actually bought my own. I had 'girl' clothes still but stopped wearing them all together. In mid September 3 friends found out i was 'gender fluid' and i was terrified. They were all fine with it and they called me Alex and used they them. That lasted about a month and then they told everyone at school. Almost everywhere i went at school i was Alex and by then i said i used he/him but still didnt know? Then i ordered a binder for my friend and decided i wanted one too and only weeks later i finally accepted it. The self harm almost stopped for a while and the dysphoria kinda shifted to other things.

[@amberjohnson1674]

glad 4 you your family is supportive ... i want that 4 myself... a better support system...

[@sethsummer4743]

was Spiderman a trans thing I was Spiderman af too (I'm ftm)

[@0MGitsRayRay]

shit man im so happy that you got to transition at a young age. im 16 and i came out to my mom in December at the hospital, and she "accepted" me, but then a week later got angry at me and told me that i wasn't transgender cause i liked the colour purple when i was a kid and played with barbies. but even at a young age, i SEEN myself as a boy, i thought i was a boy, i wore my brothers hand me downs and refused to wear anything "girly", and i remember having this guy friend in kindergarten and i was over at his house and we were playing with toy cars and shit and his big sister kept wanting me to play with the girly toys and i wasn't interested at all. my mom completely ignores that im trans and im pretty sure she probably convinced herself that i never told her. im afraid to bring it up to her again cause i don't wanna get yelled at and im afraid i will hurt myself if she doesn't accept me. it's kind of embarrassing. fuck lol

[@1battery415]

+teethglitter don't hurt yourself for being who you are and neither for her not accepting you, she eventually will do, just think about you and your happiness, it's your life and only yours, be safe and don't risk your safety, your time will come, be patient and surround yourself with people who loves you!!!

[@psychicplebalien]

I'm not sure if I'm nonbinary/trans, or just cis. I feel like I have a connection to both genders and I remember expressing this in my art a whole lot. I liked cosplaying as guys rather than girls. Or androgynous characters / furry stuff. It's okay to find those kinds of outlets to escape to see if you like presenting a certain way. I wanted to go to a con dressed up as Sans, but I'm not sure what one to go to. It gave me a certain feeling deep inside that felt really good/anxious/exciting. I've never felt that before in a long time, besides when I started growing taller during puberty.

[@Nimamyniga]

0:19 lol wot

[@arlotropic1126]

I use to play this imaginary game wit my brother called Dudes and we were dudes and It's along story....

[@evalynn1863]

This actually sounds a lot similar to my story being bi. I've always known. When I was in first grade and kids would "get married" at recess, I always wanted husbands and wives. I'm not a complete tom boy but I'm definitely not a girly girl either so I had a great group of friends that were equally male and female. In high school, I kissed more girls than guys and when I was a sophomore, one of my guy friends came out as gay and started talking about LGBT and I looked it up and realized, oh hey, I might be bi. And that terrified me because I thought I was going to fall in love with a girl and my family would hate me and my parents would be disappointed if I didnt give them grandkids so I repressed it for a few years. Then when I was 18 I did fall in love with my best friend and we had a thing for a summer but I still didn't fully accept it until I was 21 and I found a lot of the anger and depression I was dealing with was caused by me not accepting myself.

[@Kleineganz]

I have always been a tomboy. I have always preferred more masculine style clothing (t-shirts, hoodies, jeans, sneakers) and I've never liked wearing dresses. I was forced to play with Barbies though, although all I wanted were Hot Wheels and toy guns. I was told "those are for boys, and you are a girl." I didn't understand that for a long time and I thought I was a boy until I actually walked in on a boy peeing once. That's when I understood the difference. Still I did get in trouble for getting into the boys line a couple of times myself. I had short hair and wore pants, like the boys, so I thought I belonged there. Yet despite all that, I'm not trans. That's not to discount that trandgender isn't valid, because I completely believe it is. It's just that...I'm a very boyish girl who happens to not have body dysphoria for whatever reason. To be honest, I feel confused a lot because I don't fit neatly into any of the labels/categories out there (other than "tomboy" I guess). All I know is that I'm a straight, cisgender female that happens to like being boyish most of the time. The only things I do that are generally considered more feminine is to wear makeup and get my nails done. Yet, some boys do that too (and I love boys who wear nail polish, I think it looks so good). Oh well I guess at the end of the day, I just have to be myself, even if I don't fit neatly into any specific category. *shrug*

[@pinkdew13]

+Kleineganz Yeah, I'm like that too

[@theeGeiisha]

You don't have to fit anywhere as long as you feel comfortable as yourself!

[@miraculousk7547]

I just checked ur channel and aren't u trans now?

[@Kleineganz]

@@miraculousk7547 Yes. At the time I wrote this, I wasn't out yet, even to myself. It's a realization I came to about a year later.

[@miraculousk7547]

@@Kleineganz I thought that would happen :)

[@Golden_lol]

I think i realised it when i was in 6th grade

[@jonathanwiggins5366]

He said, "had a root in me." lol

[@beranx]

Hey Ty! You're a huge inspiration to me and even though I only recently started watching your videos, you've helped me feel uplifted and more comfortable in a time of being very depressed and dysphoric. I'm currently 16 years old, and I should be going into the 11th grade. I can very much relate to pretending to be a boy during playtime as a child. I always wanted to be Batman or Superman or even Tuxedo Mask from Sailor Moon. I grew up in a very conservative environment, and went a long time having my tomboyish behavior policed. Around the middle of eighth grade, when I was about 14, I learned what it meant to be trans and I had a moment of absolute realization that I was a boy, and I didn't have to suffer forever feeling confined to be being something I wasn't. Though I can't remember the exact moment of the realization, that feeling stuck with me and I remember the first time I ever came out as anything other than cis. To my middle school group of friends, I came out as genderfluid. I changed the label after about a year and came out to everyone except for my mother and grandparents, as they would never accept me. I know that's a bit long and ranty, but I can relate to how you felt. I appreciate you a whole awful lot, so thank you for sharing your story and your progress as you transition!!

[@verlice239]

When I was like 4, I knew I was a boy. I just didn't think about it. I just knew it. A year or so later, I discovered that I wasn't. I became incredibly sad and desperately wanted to be one. But then at the same time, I was FURIOUS at myself for wanting it so badly. I had a girls body, so I was one. ...Right? I always played with cars and trains and all that kind of stuff (I am so grateful for not having "You're a girl so you have to play with dolls" kind of parents), and the few friends I had (who ended up bullying me) were boys. I remember from when I was like 6 that me and my two younger cousins (both girls) played a game in which you could call yourself whatever name you liked, and having the others call you that name for the rest of the day. The youngest one came up with 'Rose' and the other one with... I can't remember... A girls name. But I, My name was going to be 'Nick'. Having the others call me that for the rest of the day felt just... right. After another year of struggling with myself, I tried to forget it. I wasn't a boy, and I wansn't gonna become one either. But a few months later, it came back full force. I hated myself for who I was. " Why can't I just be happy with who I am?" With all situations I was in, a voice in my head always said "This would be better if you were a boy". All the clothes I had were boyish and I did everything possible to make people think I was a boy. Skipping a few years until I was 15, I learned what transgender was and immedeatly recognised myself in that, although I didn't want to. And now, 17 years old, I still haven't told my parents... I am such a coward... It's just that I have no damn clue of how they are going to react... And on top of that, I am their ONLY child... I just don't know what to do... The only thing I can do now is talking to people online. I attempted coming out to my dad a lot of times, by looking how he reacts to talking about transgenders. But all he said was "I'm glad we don't have any in our family. I just can't understand what goes on in the minds of that people." And I can just forget talking to my mom about it. She is VERY hard to talk to about this kind of stuff. Anything having to do with sex? She avoids talking about it religiously.

[@1battery415]

+BloodyWolffang Woah that's so sad, you should surround yourself with people who loves you and accept who you are, so don't stop being yourself for your parents, it's your life, if that's what makes you happy just go for it!!! :D

[@synysterrock3982]

OMG this is really weird cow that happened to me when I was younger ( I can't remember doing this my mum told me ) I would always say I was a boy my mum thought I was joking but the I said I'm going to marry a girl when I'm older then my mum thought sat down with me and told me the meaning of trans and ever since then I been a boy I'm really grateful to have an understanding family

[@synysterrock3982]

+Cookiepants MC I ment coz not cow haha

[@verlice239]

+Battery at 1% Thank you :)

[@verlice239]

+Cookiepants MC Haha cow XD But yea I understand.. I also tried to pee standing up when I was a kid (which sometimes resulted in me mopping the floor) and if I succeeded, I proudly told my mom. She'd always give me a weird look XD

[@discospaghetti6744]

I first knew I was a boy in primary school when we had to line up and I thought "I'm supposed to be in the boys line". I didn't really think about it after that cos being (or at least trying to be) female seemed like the only option. Plus I moved to Nigeria where such things are censored. When I moved back to London I immersed myself in lgbt videos on KZbin to help me figure out my sexuality. One thing lead to another and I found your 'One year on testosterone' video. It blew my mind and I immediately related and realised I was trans. So Ty, you probably won't see this comment but, thank you.

[@thatonekid928]

i think i new i was trans before i knew what trans even was lmao

[@robint8855]

We kinda have identical stories.. Weird

[@CharnekieBoss]

I SEE A SILENCE OF THE LAMBS POSTER. COULD I POSSIBLY LOVE YOU MORE?!? 0_0

[@CarminaVillamizarBeautyDiva]

Hey I am cis gender I also liked Spiderman😍 when I was young, but not to that extreme. Nice vídeo!

[@Blalalalalaalalallal]

i just saw myself in this video...

[@Dr3Mc3Ninja]

I hate how people assume that gender specific toys are the devil. Stereotypes have a basis. Girls in general do usually prefer pink and like to play girly games and what not. I was and am a tomboy, I hated pink things but still enjoyed some more stereotypically girly things. I think it is fair to say liking more masculine toys is an indicator. I remember watching this documentary type show and I think John Barrowman was presenting it. He met a woman who had twins, one of the male twins liked very boyish toys and the other loved ponies and pink things, it is odd that twins raised in the same environment, preferred very different things. I do not think toys being gendered causes a child any problems unless the parents do not let their child have toys which are aimed at the opposite sex of their child. It is not the toys, it is the attitudes.

[@PhoenixProdLLC]

Total. Bullshit.

[@pmbluemoon]

My. Omaha told me I was more male than female, I hated barbies but would LOVE to make their cars and houses out of "Technics" ant I was so disappointed when I got dolls I stead of Legos!

[@brandonkarl]

Hey I've been struggling to find myself lately, I'm 15 years old and as of right now I'm a boy, but really I feel like I'm a girl sometimes but I don't feel as if I want to be a girl. For starters everything about guys grosses me out while a lot of the more feminine thing pulls me in. I've came out as gender neutral but like I'm more feminine than I am masculine. My gender is so confusing.

[@elliotboylen8523]

My experience wasn’t super spicy nicey, like my parents really just brushed it off and only bring it up whenever I screw something up. The only thing they said was that my name’s a boy’s name already, so that part was taken care of, and everything else would have to wait until I’m 30 because I’m not mature enough yet, like it’s a phase or something. Except they never started calling me a guy or anything. They say they’re fine with trans people, but then I hear jokes and shit and it pisses me off. I’m stuck having to pretend to be a lesbian because apparently they’ll accept that just fine, but other than that I just sound like I’m looking for attention or some shit idk. Idk what they want, and I hate it. I’m 18, so I’ll be able to start T on my own soon, as long as I can find a way to pay for it. Planning on starting T and playing it off as a cold that I have for a long ass time and then I’ll just spring it on them if they ever ask.

[@amandarouhiainen9902]

omg you are so lucky. im now 13 and i like also spiderman and stuff like that and ninja turtles i never have barbi or princes stuff😝. now i want to tell my mom that i want T but im so scared. im from finland so i dont even is that possiple😬

[@daisyshinn9936]

Help I feel I ftm but don't know

[@ameetis1289]

I was almost the same as a kid , but people Change. and some don't heh

[@qewdascz1839]

i only realised abt 3 months ago but idk i remember when i was little i wanted to be an anime boy... lol

[@Geeky.rainbow.vampire]

Your Childhood sounds similar to mine... Heck, This whole video is basically me... minus the transitioning part... I have Transphobic parents

[@carmengallegos4323]

Ha ha me too. Spider man forever