when || dodie

[@Paint]

Don't mind me, just stopping by for the fourth time today to cry my soul away. Move along.

[@epgkids]

highly relatable content

[@louise_piano]

its like my 10th time today

[@Warrichan]

retweet

[@pazcuellar2285]

same

[@niamhscott4697]

me too Jon

[@BradSk88]

Sounds like a strangely grown up monologue by an as-yet-unwritten Disney princess.

[@amberleighrose4789]

a hundred times yes

[@misskaylan2000]

a thousand times yes

[@tabatharich]

a million times yes

[@TheAppelpaj]

a billion times y e s

[@jaamaapii]

can someone write that story?

[@calderfly4004]

When she says "I'll never be 16 again" for the first time it seemed that her voice cracked like she was on the brink of tears and Dodie, so was I

[@doddleoddle]

I always am with that line lol. Thank u

[@haeliann9320]

maybe_a_bean I'm 16 and that really hits hard. It's crazy to think about the future.

[@Henryauster]

Same, I is scared :/

[@iloveundertale2673]

maybe_a_bean same

[@itshannahost]

maybe_a_bean I thought exactly the same thing. And so was I.

[@raysa3429]

I am now terrified of wasting my time as a sixteen year old

[@yoharryyoureawizard3560]

same this is a lot of pressure lmao

[@sarahdunn1971]

Same arghhh

[@musicfreak31751]

go out with a bang!!!

[@singenstattatmen5096]

You won't. Just enjoy it! ;) Every age gives you something special, every year of our lives is unique. That doesn't mean you have to go out every day and do something amazing, just make sure that you get to do the things that you love. :)

[@charlied3990]

Feel the exact same mate

[@veda2423]

"ill never be sixteen again" and "never caught up in the moment, too busy begging the past to stay" really made me think

[@MarinaDoulis]

SUCH A LIL BEAN, SUCH A BIG VOICE

[@edensylvester13]

+

[@lifeascam2755]

IKR i love her so much, btw have the best day and much love from a small youtuber

[@mysss29]

++++

[@Pencilshaving]

+

[@ZaideeKissesYou]

MarinaDoulis no a smol bean😂

[@EchoGillette]

"I'd rather date an idea" is now my relationship status.

[@panicinthephandm9943]

Echo Gillette Same Echo, same

[@thetragedyofcommons]

+Echo Gillette ayy friend nice seeing you here

[@doddleoddle]

hehe

[@jessiesingsss]

Echo Gillette ECHO LOVES DODIE?! 🙌🏼

[@lifeascam2755]

AWWW i hope you have a great day and you will find someone soon from a british vlogger

[@user-ci5dh1ps4g]

dodie: **opens mouth** me:STOP MAKING ME CRY

[@howtotieatai]

you didnt see me coming *is laughing while crying*

[@rileypratt1271]

SAME

[@antoniodellaventura9783]

Then she plays Instrumental and WE STILL CRY

[@lylahh.2484]

ME 24/7

[@bookwormishculture1497]

Random Falcon WOAH... but same .

[@doddleoddle]

MY EP COMES OUT TODAYYYY ALL AROUND THE WORLD

[@taneikaanne7997]

doddleoddle AAAAHHH IM SO PROUD OF YOU ❤️❤️❤️

[@wdymimsad4987]

IM SO PROUD IM ACTUALLY CRYING TEARS IM SO PROUD OF U

[@caitlynvincent]

doddleoddle woo

[@ConnieTalbotRox2011]

IM SO PROUD OF YOU AHHHH I WATCHED YOU GROW FROM A TINY LIL BEANSPROUT TO A SUCCESSFUL MUSICIAN I AM SO PROUD RN I LOVE YOU

[@crazerfrostdragon1118]

doddleoddle I CAN'T WAIT AAAAAAAAAAGH

[@carly6615]

"I'm too damp for a spark" Melted

[@fcayhr]

yesyesyesyesyes

[@strontbrood513]

Carly Richley im too busy crying to be dry tbfh

[@erinnhamill8202]

+

[@doddlebendingmaster6202]

Ahh the feels!

[@felicityceleste3191]

Carly Richley Yesyesyes this song gets me every time! also "memories painted with much brighter ink"

[@evan]

WHENDERFUL

[@leilani_4444]

Evan Edinger so are u

[@emmabaker6291]

Evan nO

[@lifeascam2755]

Hey evan i love your channel so much and i hope you have the best day ever and much love from a small youtuber

[@gracem7103]

Evan Edinger Inedded

[@gracem7103]

Evan Edinger wait I meant indeed how did I mess up that bad

[@lilyhalward8791]

im listening to this on the night before my 17th birthday and sobbing

[@wall-e4003]

Lily Halward Literally me right now I'm 17 tomorrow

[@aetherforest]

i’m 15 and for some reason on the brink of tears after reading this, my 16th birthday is almost in a month

[@indie8722]

Well uh, happy early birthday this year haha...

[@mollymcintosh218]

Haha same

[@georgie3593]

Me too lol

[@Elektrascity]

every time dodie says "got to get it in my head; i'll never be sixteen again" i feel as if i've beEN PUNCHED IN THE HEART

[@sarakirkland2925]

Me too!! I shiver as her voice and the instruments go to the peak on 'head', and then they fall back down, like a deep breath.

[@ticklespark]

This should be in a musical. What I'm saying is you could write a musical, or a film about someone who writes music. You should write and be in that film.

[@edensylvester13]

Someone should make a documentary about Dodie Maybe once she's a little more popular (hopefully a lot more)

[@Carina5707]

Disney should make a new animated musical starring nothing but KZbin voice talent. It could be about two princes (Dan and Phil) who are betrothed to princesses (Dodie and someone else...any suggestions?) but they are actually all gay and in love with each other. With all their trusty sidekicks (Joe Sugg, Joe Tasker, Jon Cozart, Charlie McDonnell, Tom Ska, Tyler Oakley...this list is endless) they all go on a journey of destiny to be with their true loves.

[@loganboomer]

YES PLEASE DAN AND PHIL END UP BEING GAY AND ITS GAY AND I LOVE IT

[@Orcagirl54]

+Juce yes and dodie and the other princess are in love

[@Orcagirl54]

+Juce yes and dodie and the other princess are in love

[@lowkeylida8524]

how does she not have 3 million subscribers, honestly?

[@heon1e]

Little Writter how does she not have like, 10 million?

[@artsyhassan2362]

Um, you mean atleast 100 million. Pewdiepie gotta got to get on her level

[@heon1e]

Artsy Hassan true

[@lauraelizabethbrown]

Everyone has to start somewhere. Less than a year ago she had like 300,000 so I'd say she's well on her way.

[@bbannedindc]

i see u yoongs

[@D4NC3Rable]

To everyone in the comments saying now you're scared of getting older because that one line in this song freaked you out: I'm 27, and it's really not that bad. I'd even go so far as to say it's much, much better. Sure, society romanticizes being young because it's freakishly obsessed with youth and is terrified of aging because it can't face it's fear of death, but honestly? You couldn't pay me to be 16 again. You start recognizing patterns and getting to know yourself and why you react to things the way you do, and you start anticipating your own needs and meeting them before they even manifest. You are finally free to meet the needs your childhood home never could - if you grew up in that sort of home - and you can break old beliefs and patterns around this and discover newer, happier paradigms you never knew existed. You get wiser and see through bullshit faster and tolerate less of everything that makes you wilt miserably and you actually know yourself well enough to know what those things are. You start to develop self respect and self esteem. I mean, there's lots of terrible awful things too, like lows you never knew you could hit and really weird brain states and awful roommates and unbelievably tedious bureaucratic processes. But. You won't stop feel like you are essentially "you," nor will you lose your idealism if you really refuse to unhand it to anyone. My only real advice if you're 16? Learn some hands on skills and share your interests with other people. The enthusiasm and time for learning random skills fades a bit if I'm being real, and the confidence to poke your head out and declare what you love will too unless you nurture it. Okay I'm done being a grandma love you drink some water bye.

[@huskylover8167]

Replying to remember this

[@J3J3Jayseph]

thank you

[@elianna_ecc]

@@huskylover8167

[@nolitimere665]

thank you

[@koiysa9274]

Thank you so much for this, it means the world.

[@maryannabee]

I can't wait to see her on a giant stage. surrounded by thousands screaming her name in a sold out show at Madison square garden. I can't wait to see her name in lights and known in everyones head. maybe if I get to be in that giant crowd I can stand there and be so proud of her and how far she had come. we love you Dorothy.

[@doddleoddle]

[@MariaFigueroa-bm7sd]

doddleoddle this is so good!!!

[@laureng7917]

doddleoddle I wish you could see the world through my eyes so you wouldn't have to feel this pain. But if you never felt it this emptiness just might feel the same.

[@maryannabee]

are we all poets now what is happening cx

[@stormthrush37]

That she isn't, is what I love about her. Too much fame destroys people. Go chasing fame, and you change. Check out Janet Devlin's song, "Outernet." We need to be more self-validated, and less basing on worth on how many people like us, and/or are shouting our names.

[@lucymoon]

YES.

[@byekarishma]

same

[@samiskillman2614]

"I'm waiting to live; still waiting to love" that line broke me. I have all of these fantasies and dreams and things i want to happen, but I always think that it'll happen "eventually", rather than trying to live in the now.

[@lorelaidixon1]

Tammian same. :/

[@hillaryblair336]

This song prompted me to stop waiting for life to happen and make things happen for me. I believe in fate but at some point, you have to go out and find fate ❤️ all my best wishes

[@mariareugicnad]

This is exactly it! The problem is recognizing this issue and then never doing anything about it, I'm still doing the same thing I did when I was 14.

[@moonchild66]

Same........x

[@hannahphelps3681]

dodie's music makes me want to live my life to the fullest and be in love and just drink tea with fairy lights and play ukulele and sing with my friends and just be so in love with someone and just be so happy

[@jessicalin4170]

Hannah Phelps same

[@bluebird7776]

Hannah Phelps That's a mood

[@wdrew04]

Hannah Phelps I find it makes me think about how bad life has been in the past but that I need to cherish these happier times

[@kylafu7277]

same especially this song. It makes me want to be happy

[@miadowne940]

wish i could do that with someone

[@sinclairzz]

im younger than 16 why do i cry at 'i'll never be sixteen again' gO D

[@katyh9000]

Laura Sinclair Me too maybe were just scared to mess everything up when we are 16 or it reminds us that were never any age again.

[@jasminegonzalez3379]

I KNOW RIGHT

[@BornToBeWyld]

Because Dodie ^^

[@martinabowie]

me too, i literally cried at that part

[@ava.a5604]

RIGHT?!?!?! IM LITERALLY BAWLING MY EYES OUT XD

[@marapprech]

I'm just imagining Hazel walking in on the mini string quartet happening in the living room and just going "sigh, alright..."

[@konstantinakordwni9401]

and then crying, then saying:''cunts!'' and apologizing lol

[@bonnie9109]

marapprech YES AHAHA

[@madeleinerose2089]

It's not a string quartet but yeah 😂😂😂

[@iloveundertale2673]

marapprech yass

[@8ytan]

marapprech and then crying at the songs

[@bara8622]

oh god "i'll never be sixteen again" fucked me up. I am sixteen. And now im having an existential crisis.

[@virgoluv2020]

Same tho

[@moltodolce7071]

me too im gone :'(

[@Danycrumble]

Don't be sad. Life is so much better six years from 16.

[@leilop123]

Me too :,((((

[@flavia4321gregorio]

Same. Tomorrow I'll have this big test to get into college and all I did today was cry. (Btw I'm sorry, my English is really bad, I'm Latina)

[@nhuyn6556]

I'm 14 and it scares me when I think that in a bit more years, this adolescence stage of mine will be over. Albeit back then I sat and wished I was 9 again, now that I think about it clearly, soon I'll be wishing to be 14 again. I've got to enjoy the time that's being laid in front of me, before it's all over. Sure, there's a bunch of anger and sadness dwelling in our minds at this age, but it's all the more of why our teen years are so amazing. We're experiencing all types of new emotions, and how amazing is it to feel your mind mature? Ok well I'm getting really emotional and all over the place so I'll just leave.

[@d33pseacreature]

nhuy n :)

[@parisholdich1108]

as a 14 year old myself, the idea of not living hurts. not feeling fulfilled. the world is my oyster yet i can't bring myself to take. never once have i been kissed, i have never put a cigarette in my mouth. never vaped, nothing. im a blank canvas, just waiting to be painted on. i know i dont get mocked but it feels as though im being judged, silently. it hurts, because i have not yet lived. and my carefree days are coming to a close.

[@inthereeds4444]

I agree with this comment and these replies. It’s like u captured my feelings perfectly.

[@zarasaurus2003]

I’m 14 too... And always tell myself I’m too young to do anything important. I’m a carer for my mum, and I love looking after her, but sometimes I’d love to have a life of my own- I wish my life away a lot.

[@bonniewatt419]

Happy fifteenth 😂

[@umalicruzhorne4466]

I don't know why but honestly nothing makes me happier than being able to hear little things that you aren't supposed to hear. Like the weights in the piano keys and her breath hitting the microphone. Or when you can hear (in other songs) the sustain pedal.

[@doddleoddle]

:)

[@janecoogan6852]

"I'll take what I can get cause I'm too damp for a spark" literally me for the next 100 years

[@doddleoddle]

+Jane Coogan :)

[@janecoogan6852]

+doddleoddle I love you ❤

[@angelinabartz3062]

doddleoddle I FREAKING love you dodie your songs literally always describe me

[@yesreneau]

Feels like this should be in a theater production. Too good.

[@xbethbeth1]

i thought that!

[@ciaracoolcu]

it reminds me so much of The Last 5 Years (and another musical I can't put a name to??) I think it's because of the strings!!

[@hannahraschke9820]

I totally felt that too! I can't place the sound but I'm kind of getting Waitress or The Last 5 Years or something

[@justemjoyinglife1133]

Umm maybe she should write her own?!?!????!

[@franonchu8260]

I got The Waitress vibes

[@KleopatraJasa]

I have goosebumps all over my body

[@timidelle1127]

sameee

[@SujitKumar-bt4pr]

Kleo पो

[@hestia2486]

Kleopatra same

[@tinarsmiththomas5482]

Samee

[@tinarsmiththomas5482]

Metropcs mobile phone number is.

[@thatsgaiman]

the best part was 0:00-3:24

[@eloiseb5600]

+

[@katiec5236]

eveliina nykänen my thoughts exactly

[@hannahthukral1600]

+

[@IrisManning]

+

[@jamespatmore9744]

Wheezy Waiter?

[@HailingRoses]

"Never caught up in the moment, busy begging the past to stay" I'm shattering.

[@howdyitsren]

Dodie, you probably won't read this. When I was listening to the ep yesterday, I realized something. As of the moment I right this, I am seventeen, even though I have only been seventeen for about 5 minutes now. And I'm realizing that all of my happiest memories are in the past. My choir trip, jam sessions, jazz camp, getting my uke, getting accepted to university with my friends, planning a future in another city with a few of my closest friends. I'm realizing that that excitement will never happen again. I think this song hit hard. I am waiting for so many things while still trying to go back to my few happy moments. This song means a lot to me, because I want to stop faking diary entries and stop waiting to live. Thank you for this song, because it's how I was living. I'll never be sixteen again but as of now I am seventeen and i will try to start to live. Even when I'm depersonalized and gone from the world, I will try to remember that I am alive and even thought my happiest memories were last year, even if I don't fall in love or live an amazing adventure, that I will have good moments. And even though his song fills me with melancholy and worry, I want to thank you for it. Thank you, Dodie. (im still in disbelief that the ep came out the day before my birthday)

[@severin9221]

i'm totally gonna cry, Dodie's songs make me so emotional and your comment is touching too ahhh. be happy, beautiful person. bet you're the best seventeen out there! xx

[@ninjajellyfish9902]

Katie Challacombe It's amazing how Dodies songs can hit so many people in so many different ways she is such a talented song writer and should be more well known

[@rachelt4274]

+

[@zXToThaFaceXz]

"Oh, yes" by Charles Bukowski there are worse things than being alone but it often takes decades to realize this and most often when you do it's too late and there's nothing worse than too late.

[@iblame_nargles]

Hey. Wow. Fuck this. (This is beautifully painful, I love it x Thanks for sharing)

[@MariMuthu-cd3mh]

Ni bukan

[@humanbean4037]

It’s always too late for everything so why not give up and stop thinking about it

[@April-vu7yo]

I was crying already but reading this made me cry even more. It's lovely and sad

[@catrific]

CANT WAIT FOR THIS EP

[@doddleoddle]

THANK U THANK U KAJSHDLKAJSHDAJSHG

[@willberesford8019]

[@nahlafadel5213]

catrific same !

[@grilbee]

NEITHER CAN I CAT

[@mimipavey]

doddleoddle faves xo

[@viktoria1650]

This is quite literally one of the most beautiful songs on earth. And the lyrics...oh my, they affect me so so much. The thing is: I'm turning 17 very soon and I've hated being sixteen. Literally nothing notable happened. I didn't fall in love, I didn't do anything teenagers are supposed to do at all and I'm scared that one day when I'm 60 years old, I will look back on these years and regret not taking opportunities and regret not living. I never feel like I'm in the present. My mind is in the future, where everything's exciting and hopefully much better than where I'm at right now. And when something nice is happening indeed, I cannot enjoy it because I'm focused so much on taking it all in and trying to be overwhelmed with happiness, when really I cannot force myself to feel all that. Sorry for the ramble. The point is: I want to thank you, Dodie for opening up, for creating such breathtakingly good music and for being so strong despite all the tough things you're going through. In some ways I can relate and maybe it's nice to know you're not alone. :)

[@marianasa00]

Someone finnally wrote it! Thank you so much, I feel the exact same way. I'm 16 and everyone seems to be doing interesting stuff, making plans, finding out what they'll do with the rest of their lives. I'm just a teenager, who has no idea what she wants to do, no plans, and I keep thinking that one day, in the future, I'll know, I'll figure it all out. I feel I have never been further from knowing who I am and what I want and it's so exasperating! Especially when people ask what i want to do after highschool and when I say I don't know yet they tell me I should be deciding. It's so stressful and confusing, I'm literally just sitting here,waiting for things to work themselves out, without doing anything to help that. Sorry, this is so long, I'm just happy I'm not alone.

[@LarryS378]

As a 22 year old - personally it gets soooo much better. Fuck being 16, it's bollocks you can't do anything, have limited 'freedom' and people are kinda still at that lame immature/haven't figured out how to be a decent person yet phase. Don't stress about it. You got plenty of time - i think the secret to 'not regretting anything' is to try not to really regret or overthink it, instead of trying to do everything possible so you don't regret (if that makes sense I'm shite with words). Basically, you'll be good, and things come easier in time

[@viktoria1650]

M Thank you so much for your response! On one hand I cannot wait to finally be 18, on the other hand I'm afraid because I don't really have any plans, so I somehow understand what you mean. I guess all we really can do is just to wait it out, and eventually we'll find our place in this big intimidating but beautiful world. I assume you know Jose Vanders (or Layla or now part of Oh Wonder) because we're here on Dodie's channel. In one of her songs that Dodie covered with Lucy Moon the lyrics go "I'm upside down, can't find paradise on the ground" which to me sounds like she isn't quite able or willing to decide what she wants and isn't with both feet on the ground but floating in dreams and "what ifs". Maybe sometimes that's all you can do and that's okay, because rushing things doesn't help with anything. I wish you all the best!

[@lifeascam2755]

I love it so much and i hope you guys have the best day ever and much love from a small british youtuber

[@moltodolce7071]

you have literally just summarised my thoughts. im 17 in 3 months and i cry sometimes because i havent achieved anything yet. i tell myself im only 16 and i have my whole life left but it doesnt seem real. there is only now and all i can think about is how i can get my name in a history book. another part of my brain tells me i need to enjoy my innocence, but no matter how young i start there will always be someone who did it a year before me. there will always be another prodigy

[@belle5238]

wOAH DODIE ARE YOU TRYINg to KILL ME WITH THIS AMAZING SONG

[@belle5238]

ily xx

[@deathembodiment]

ikr

[@alienillusi0n]

"Gotta get it in my head, I'll never be sixteen again" almost makes me cry. I'm 16 and I feel like I'm wasting my youth. I've has severe depression and anxiety for 5 years now which makes me isolate myself, I barely have any friends. I've never gone to a party, never gotten drunk, never kissed anyone etc like everyone else my age does, all I do is staying at home. It feels like everyone else are having the time of their lives while I'm just glued to my bed. (wow that got deep lmAO)

[@sarahblake5470]

hoo hoo I felt the same way you did. You just have to force yourself into doing things, no matter how many panic attacks it causes you, no matter how much it tortures you at first, because after those first few times, it gets more bearablw

[@marythomas29]

I'll be your friend

[@juliasutter6996]

I never went to parties or got drunk or kissed anyone when I was 16 (or now for that matter, I'm 20). Do things you enjoy, not what is supposedly "normal". You're avoiding a lot of shitty drama by not going to parties and getting drunk. Best of luck :)

[@miriambloom2923]

it's going to get better, I promise. stay alive.

[@fridaherbst719]

I'm doing all this right now, I really cannot say if it's worth it. I think if you don't have the right people to get drunk with, to kiss and to go to parties, it's nearly impossible doing stuff like this. I feel unsure in every aspect of my actions and I don't think that going to parties helps me coping with this.

[@AlexanderJWF]

PETITION TO MAKE DODIE THE VOICE OF A DISNEY PRINCESS!!! Someone should do this!

[@daisyamelia9359]

Xander F Yasssss

[@liv0613]

Xander F 100%%% YESSSSS

[@jetpackelephant5527]

Xander F WHAT ABOUT A STEVEN UNIVERSE CHARACTER

[@gonzogamer]

PLEASE

[@morgan-jd5ws]

Xander F YESSSS

[@Leadley]

I remember when I was sat in your bedroom at 1am and we'd drunk too many drinks and you played me this song and it was so beautiful I wanted to cry because of how raw it was. You never fail to make me proud, this was beautiful

[@bryrk]

It really is a beautiful song. Made me feel happy in a way I haven't felt for a long time.

[@maddymacdonald2599]

Bethan, be honest, Is "She" about you?

[@ah-jb2jz]

+Maddy Macdonald hey, not coming for you or anything, but its not our business, she was a beautiful song and if dodie doesnt want us to know about who is was, it will stay like that.

[@tildabarrie941]

Maddy Macdonald i don't think that's any of your business actually

[@doddleoddle]

+musicalbethan love u

[@mearieli]

The last time when I was this early "last time when I was this early" comments weren't even a thing

[@mearieli]

But holy shit this song is so good I'm crying

[@_-444-_]

we're all crying u know

[@evaellis8420]

I'm crafting 😏 (sry I had to :)

[@lifeascam2755]

LOL irk they are such a trend now. btw ahem the most amazing day and much love from a small british youtuber

[@_-444-_]

Jun10r222 Is a phan your profile pic is life

[@meepmeep7462]

I was 14 when Dodie released this song, and hearing it again at 18 really did make a blinding change in my perspective. I watched 15, 16 and 17 fly by and now I’m asking “when?” Despite knowing that those years of my life are over.

[@ratboygirl]

same :(

[@megan-ladon-shark]

That is exactly the same as my situation, down to the ages. I was freshman in high school when this came out and had so much ahead of me. I listened to it every year, consistently. Even sent it to my favorite music teacher. Now I'm in college and I feel like I just haven't reaped any benefits of what I thought I had. It's like when are they coming? When? I lost everything and still can't even tell if I had anything in the first place. I hope you're doing better now, I know I don't know you but you still deserve the best

[@zombie1496]

Yes how you doing now?

[@coldhands6648]

same exact boat

[@artbyamberliu]

there aren't a lot of love songs about those who aren't in love - for those who are lonely, wondering what's wrong with them, wondering if they are worthy of love. They aren't a lot of these songs, so Dodie, thank you for making this song for those who aren't too sure if they're good enough and for those who are waiting for when they stop asking 'when'. proud of you x.

[@doddleoddle]

+ambieliu15

[@doddleoddle]

+ambieliu15 lol I am legit crying at this comment

[@Somewheresouthbar]

doddleoddle bless your heart

[@artbyamberliu]

following my 10 minute freak out of you replying: i love you and i know you are going to amazing things and touch even more people's lives. you are the person i watch when it's 2am and i'm alone in my room overthinking and freaking out, in order to calm down. And I'm not alone in saying that, there are hundreds of thousands of people who seek refuge in your genuine spirit and presence. No matter who breaks your heart or who treats you wrong - remember that you've mended our hearts and treated us right. You're a great soul Dodie and if you EVER need any help in terms of design, merch, posters, or anything at all, I'd be more than happy to help.

[@vicariouslyvirginiav]

excuse my language - but holy absolute fuck this is so captivating. literally in awe.

[@vicariouslyvirginiav]

i am 100% deceased

[@mikaylarip4669]

vicariouslyvirginia VIRGINIA MOM

[@alesiameulemans5446]

vicariouslyvirginia VIRGINIA ILY

[@charlottedavies2477]

HI VIRGINIA NICE SEEING YOU HERE

[@karen-ok2nn]

whats up virginia my ball of sunshine

[@W12_95]

"I'll never be sixteen again" is one of my favorite lines, but it gives me chills to think about it in context with this song and Dodie's depersonalization, since she's said that she started feeling like she was in a dream around 17. Such a raw, emotional song - I listen to this and just cry. Dodie, this song is to me what "Novels" is to you. Thank you for this.

[@alpacasarebetterthanllamas7256]

This is giving me serious Dear Evan Hanson vibes

[@friedshampoo1794]

*Hansen

[@kimiandre8300]

EXACTLY!!!!!!

[@charlottedavies2477]

She changed her profile holy poop professional dodie is coming people

[@doddleoddle]

she's taken her time

[@bryrk]

I love this XD

[@theotherbrief]

doddleoddle we have reached the point of no return

[@charlottedavies2477]

OH MY GOD SHE REPLIED IM CRAFTING

[@audreybates7623]

am i the only one who thinks that it sounds like a disney princess would sing this

[@audreybates7623]

petition for dodie to be the voice for the next disney princess

[@raikaparzella]

audrey bates yes! totally! Also best Profile pic ever! love it and him 🙈

[@isabelsomething8762]

She already is :,)

[@jennifermcilwrath]

I love Disney Princesses, but this has way more depth and complexity - beautiful and melancholy at the same time

[@chewing_bricks_8039]

Dodie is a Princess

[@ava-ze2xb]

that moment when ur in high school and a guy from elementary messages you for the first time in years with "oh yeah it's my favourite song!" when you post an insta story about how you preordered Intertwined and are listening to Sick of Losing Soulmates :o wot

[@louise_piano]

Omg

[@ynnahhh12]

keep him

[@ruthemory2065]

AvaSpeaksSimlish I ship it

[@OliviaMarieDumb]

if you don't marry him I will

[@ynnahhh12]

Olivia Marie Vegas omg same

[@HelloKitty-uy3oz]

Here ya gooo I think I've been telling lies, cause I've never been in love. Everyone falls for the sunshine disguise, distracted by who they're thinking of. I'd rather date an idea; something I'll never find. Sure, I'll live in the moment, but I'm never happy here I'm surrounded by greener looking time. Am I the only one wishing life away? Never caught up in the moment busy begging the past to stay Memories painted with much brighter ink; they tell me I loved, teach me how to think. I'll take what I can get cause I'm too damp for a spark. Kissing sickly sweet guys cause they say they like my eyes but I'd only ever see them in the dark. I'm sick of faking diary entries, got to get it in my head; I'll never be sixteen again I'm waiting to live, and waiting to love oh it'll be over, and I'll still be asking when. Am I the only one wishing life away? Never caught up in the moment busy begging the past to stay Memories painted with much brighter ink; they tell me I loved, teach me how to think. I'm sick of faking diary entries, got to get it in my head; I'll never be sixteen again I'm waiting to live, still waiting to love oh it'll be over, and I'll still be asking when oh it'll be over, and I'll still be asking when.

[@bumblevip4714]

Hello Kitty thank you

[@rrammay]

Dude The description

[@sc0bb]

Awh you didnt need to do that. Always look in the description for dodie songs 🖤

[@zannahlu]

U played this to me and melanie nearly exactly a year ago today (4 more days lol) and I had a very quiet subtle cry and here I am STILL sheddin a tear over this song

[@rachellyonmusic]

NotJustBlonde ZAnnAH yo!!!?!?!?!

[@vashappeninjas]

AAaAAaAaAAAAaaaaaaa

[@maggieflynn466]

NotJustBlonde ZANNAH

[@mariana-vw6jl]

NotJustBlonde zANNAH WHY U DO DIS

[@notroe2237]

Your videos are amazing!! ❤️

[@sc6830]

doddie has to be the most underrated youtuber in the world and that makes me so mad i can't even.

[@crybabiesatthedisco3076]

ColdBookworm11 Honestly though

[@notsaro]

This EP is gonna change the game

[@nikexforce]

SARO i watch your vids! keep up the great work!

[@hannahelland9278]

and my life

[@ratboygirl]

apparently i'm making it a tradition to comment every 4 years on this video. first when i was 14, a simple compliment. then at 18, in the midst of lockdown and losing myself in isolation. and here i am at 21, my birthday is tomorrow. i do still feel stuck in the past sometimes (which is ironic since almost the entirety of my teens is a lost memory) but now i'm looking forward to 22. and 23. and 24. and 25. i'm still a little lost. i've drifted and drowned and resurfaced and drowned again. but i don't feel terrible every day anymore. there are actual, real, tangible good days. i am very grateful i lived and continue to do so. i can't wait to meet you, 26 year old me

[@victoriarodrigues8250]

It just kills me how music, especially your music, can have this effect on me. I have tears rolling down my cheeks and I'm just sitting here nodding my head saying yes, yes, this is exactly how I feel I just needed someone to put it into words and when someone finally does it hurts because it's hard to accept that this is the truth and this is how I am. I would just love to thank you for putting everything in my head all together into not only this song but all of them. I love you and I love your music and this comment is a mess but I had to put my thoughts here because i love you.

[@doddleoddle]

+bookishbabble

[@kk-hs8qi]

STOP. I SHAVED LAST NIGHT YOU CANT GIVE ME GOOSEBUMPS LIKE THAT. IT HUUUURTS

[@doddleoddle]

Fave comment

[@kk-hs8qi]

omg

[@amelai3259]

this is the BEST comment

[@lonelylobsterr7870]

Beautiful. Cant wait to put it on repeat. Im sixteen and this song threw me through a loop. I've done nothing memorable with my youth. Although to be fair I havent really tried that hard.

[@KaterinaMat]

Lauren Watson I'm 16 too and I hate it. I want to be 20 something and get out of my home town. Anyone else?

[@kirstyjaynerussell]

same omfg

[@micaelablushes7168]

Kate M. - no no no no enjoy it enjoy it enjoy it!

[@sharlieblack3505]

you have time on your side, youth on your side :) There is plenty of time to make a mark if you want to, or do whatever you want.

[@KaterinaMat]

Micaela Blushes I'm honestly having a hard time trying to have a good time. I spent 99% of my days being miserable. Help?

[@carysporter]

When you thought what you were feeling could never be put to words but then dodie comes along and voices it so nicely. I can't stop coming back to this.

[@laurenateliz]

holy shit this is hauntingly beautiful

[@catherinekulat5047]

laurenateliz how I met your mother was a great show

[@temereani]

i thought 6/10 was hard to stop crying to but this one had me in tears on the first verse. dammit dodie why you gotta make me cry so much with the relatable feels

[@rowan8951]

i can see Dodie as a disney princess who doesn't have a love interest but she has a little animal companion and writes songs on her spare time

[@aname1857]

Mars Klark hahaha yes

[@FunkyTowm]

GUYS WE HAVE TO MAKE THIS A THING

[@lilasingley5578]

listening to this as a senior in high school who is currently sitting and watching time being taken away because of quarantine

[@ratboygirl]

listening to this as a high-school drop out in limbo bc can't get a job and can't enrol in school 😀🔫

[@annabethchase4582]

same here! graduating this may and the entire year has been online :( we're in this together

[@cherrycreeper]

how is this live omg

[@chloecrump2188]

omg I need to see this live

[@imconfused801]

it is live!

[@ynnahhh12]

im waiting for the year that dodie is in youtube rewind

[@erikaosullivan6767]

whatisgoingonwithdodieandjontellmethanks she was already in one..... 2014 I think

[@qwertzuiopasdfghjklyxcvbnm6670]

whatisgoingonwithdodieandjontellmethanks

[@qwertzuiopasdfghjklyxcvbnm6670]

i just checked it and omg I never noticed, even tho u can't rlly see her, it's Dodie!

[@triniy]

yesss you can see her in behind the scenes too! :)

[@gracereasoner542]

whatisgoingonwithdodieandjontellmethanks your username gives me life

[@meganjensen8354]

I listened to this for 45min straight on repeat

[@kahiesai5996]

Megan Jensen i feel like we all did

[@katoui3057]

this song. “i’ll never be 16 again” i feel like i’m wasting my youth. “memories painted with much brighter ink” “it’ll be over and i’ll still be asking ‘when?’” “am i the only one wishing life away? never caught up in a moment, busy begging the past to stay” a summary of what derealisation is like. i’ve been living with it for about 10 years now and i can barely remember what life without it was like. “i’d rather date an idea, something i’ll never find” every relationship or date thing (whatever idk) failed and, even though i would love to be in a relationship and even though there was nothing wrong with the people i dated, i was always relieved afterwards. somehow, this song sums up the things i struggle most with. and yet, it makes me feel better as, finally, i feel less alone, i feel understood. thank you, dodie, you’re wonderful 💛

[@esther9760]

THIS SONG IS SO PRETTY AND GORGEOUS AND ELEGANT AND EVERYTHING I NEEDED YET DIDN'T EVEN KNOW I NEEDED IT TIL THIS VERY MOMENT!!!!!! THANK YOU

[@esther9760]

overwhelmed is an understatement

[@voretherich2775]

Your profile picture goes perfectly with your comment

[@msmusik2]

esther I KNOW RIGHT!! Its so light hearted and innocent yet deep and meaningful and that little music break near the end was like an adventure all on its own. Ughhh i wanna go to one of her concerts so bad haha

[@thesydstar]

Totally agree! :)

[@roms829]

"ill never be sixteen again" i can relate to that so much even tho im still young i get scared when i realize how quick time passes and how much ive changed. this song is so touching

[@jayeeze9328]

Speaking as a songwriter: I have always wanted to write a song about wanting to go back and having that longing to even have that chance to rewatch my memories, but hearing this song, I couldnt have found a better way to express these feelings. These lyrics touch every bit of my emotions, I love your music, I think "Human" and "Would you be so kind?" stand right next to my new favorite song "When" Speaking as a musician: The accompaniment for this song is so brilliant and captivating that I could close my eyes and imagine you high up in a tower, over looking the sunset on the ocean, it paints the perfect pictures along with the piano. It deepens the tone of the overall song, and it is amazing. Speaking as a fan: Dodie, you never fail to amaze me with every song that you write, you make me want to pick up my guitar and start again. I'm glad that somebody is standing for the rest of us who may be too small or afraid to speak out. Love you always and I can't wait for the future now that I have had my moment of realization, thanks to this song

[@doddleoddle]

+Jayeeze :) I enjoy this comment a lot

[@AccidentlyOnPurpose]

We all want to grow up until we do. Edit: 3 years later and it was just my 17th birthday, lmao I'll never be 16 again

[@moonchild66]

Hell yeah.....

[@raidynmorian4518]

Naw. I've never regretted it for a second. When all the memories you have are bad, the past isn't the place you want to live.

[@christabeljoy2443]

@@raidynmorian4518 I feel that, I’m just ready to have some freedom and make nice memories

[@francescamicallef1488]

lmao I'm 17 in 2 days and it's freaks that I'm closer to 20 than 14

[@francescamicallef1488]

freaky* -btw here after build a problem to listen to the original version-

[@shadowblade145]

Dodie, please release the sheets for this masterpiece!

[@unillamacorn9424]

DODIE PLEASE DO THIS!!

[@klaratenow6386]

YESS PLEASE DODIE I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH

[@Skaeji]

I gave it a go here :) musescore.com/user/117218/scores/2956536

[@mayastimson4328]

Jonathan Lindegaard starup thank you this is great!!

[@helenrummel6219]

THANK YOU I LOVE YOU

[@kiararocktheworld8725]

And I thought 6/10 was hard to stop listening to......

[@demiicarlygleelover]

kiararocktheworld same...

[@osayameevbuomwan5547]

kiararocktheworld why is that so true I absolutely love her music I'm actually listening to a playlist I made for just her music

[@fcayhr]

ohmygod my thoughts exactly

[@jilliocalypse2541]

kiararocktheworld RIGHT?!?!?

[@izzyl1565]

kiararocktheworld honestly tho!!

[@elliewinterr]

i can't stop crying bloody hell dodie this is beautiful (and this may be the billionth time watching but i'm still crying)

[@McApplPiePcktPus]

Ellie Winter same..

[@evakuruka5867]

Ellie Winter You arent alone...

[@elliewinterr]

Abby Stott ive been listening to it on repeat!

[@elliewinterr]

Eva Kuruka im glad

[@ashlingsharry7850]

Ellie Winter literally me

[@simiparthenopaeus7893]

I listen to this song when I have panic attacks. I don't know why but it calms me down and I love this song. It will forever hold a place in my heart even as I get older and even if these panic attacks stop.

[@soren9041]

i hope they stopped !

[@angelaliu4400]

I hope you're doing well :)

[@randomyoutubeaccount6982]

Dodie helps me during panic attacks too :)

[@samanthamcdonald7577]

I liked the bit where dodie sang and played the piano

[@honeyspiderlily]

Me too

[@ellavonbuskirk2928]

same

[@herbvern]

i can relate 100%

[@averyryalls5186]

Samantha Mcdonald so all of it

[@wdrew04]

Avery Ryalls ....that’s the joke

[@fluteloop9111]

when you have like 12 measures of rest lolol violin my life right there

[@doddleoddle]

lol

As a viola player, I relate immensely to this...

[@theaulait9315]

plS that's the least common for violins 😤

[@fluteloop9111]

thé aulait from what I've experienced it's more common for flutes 😯

[@Mr03213]

if anything this is the most relatable for violas, the neglected sibling of the violin/cello

[@cinna_mono_roll]

"I'll never be sixteen again." I dont really know why but this lyric hit me hard. I just turned 16 a few weeks ago. I guess it just reminds me that i still have lots of things im gonna experience and i'll always be asking questions about anything and everything. Also that I should be fully present and live in the moment so that i dont regret it. I wont ever be as young as i am right now ever again. This is beautiful dodie. Its 4am and this helps.

[@mythics102]

Monica Rivera Exactly, don't take a single second of it for granted. I know it sucks sometimes but it's so important to fully experience it

[@mayachouraqui8121]

Monica Rivera I turned 16 yesterday so I can relate

[@emilyhow46]

Monica Rivera same, I turned sixteen a few weeks ago too and that line had such an impact.

[@dioneslife2905]

Monica Rivera same here, I turned 16 in September, and it suddenly hit me that I'm gonna keep growing and growing and I just want it to stop

[@eleanorthekoala7256]

I turned 16 around two weeks ago

[@aoife6038]

the day we stayed up until 6am making snow angels unsure of our feelings is one of the best things to ever happen to me. seeing you slowly fall for someone else right in front of me is the worst. thank you for those beautiful memories. i know your feelings have changed but you will always be the first one that i felt the closest thing to love with. i left it until it was too late and im sorry. its my fault & i cant change it or do anything about it. this is my goodbye emily. you have my heart & you can break it a thousand times - i wont care because i love you. -A x

[@c.m.880]

I felt like 16 was the only age I was good at and every year since I've been slowly drowning. I hate how much I relate to this and I hate that I feel like I'm waiting for my life to start.

[@craftedsociety]

Catherine Miner I'm 16 and I want to go even further back its so messed up

[@emackey94]

Life gets so much better I promise. I felt the same way at 16 and every year after that until I moved out and started realizing that I am the only one that can define my own happiness. I went through a lot of crap at home and a lot of things I never thought I would get out of. I am 22 now, graduating from college and on to bigger and better things. Things will get better I promise, you just have to look for the good

[@morgan-jd5ws]

Catherine Miner i'm 12 and i want to go back to when i was 9.. ive been up for the past hour crying to this song

[@gryffgies1704]

Erica Hope t

[@juliaanne2263]

morgan Hi, hi, hi. I feel the same way.

[@ECHOIST]

jesus. wow.

[@kittys6503]

My reaction exactly

[@isabellanebs22]

right

[@sofeea]

literally same pete same

[@zoestorms3537]

me too pete me too

[@InfiniteIzzy]

it's the end of an eraaaa (profile picture changed omggg)

[@InfiniteIzzy]

ALSO WHAT A GREAT SONG

[@thisismyfirstnamethisismyl2679]

Infinite Izzy - It may be the end of an era, but it's the beginning of something great!

[@InfiniteIzzy]

+William Helfrich definitely!

[@teseract2k2]

i found this song when i was in a bad headspace at 16 and it resonated so deeply with me. this is such a gem to come back to, with a whole new “adult” version of melancholy residing within me at 24. thank you for being the epitome of reminiscence with your music, dodie 🖤

[@sabli3970]

I'm 18 and this fucked me up. honestly, all of these are my thoughts and wow this is so relatable!!! I'm so scared I'll waste my life, I'm 18 and I have never been in love, I never had anyone in love with me, I never went to a party. what am i doing? I'm 18 but all these years I have only dreamed and never really lived

[@AmeliaDionne]

I'm 18 too, and have these thoughts too! But then like we are 18 and also have so many years ahead of us to experience everything like that

[@sabli3970]

AmeliaDionne yeah, we just gotta look at this positively! 18 is beautiful :)

[@EbyKat]

At 33 all I can think is "Thank goodness I'll never be 16 again." 16 was hard, teen years are hard. Your brain doesn't even finish forming until you're past your early twenties. You don't stop having a chance to "really live" when you get to your twenties or even your thirties. You figure out what you like and what you don't like and you go for that. As far as relationships go... every relationship ends until one doesn't. Not having loads of relationships doesn't say anything negative about you as a person.

[@MattPalka]

22, single, and in love with so much of my life. I can create so much value for other and myself. Pays well to not dwell on dreams and forget to live and enjoy with gratitude what we have.

[@sabli3970]

Matt Palka this made me so happy!

[@heavenrose2]

i want dodie to be the voice of the next disney princess!

[@samipopcornpup9161]

THIS IS INCREDIBLE THIS MIGHT BE MY NEW FAVORITE SONG OF YOURS I'M SO PROUD OF YOU DODIE

[@madirives5726]

Sami Popcornpup Every song Dodie makes becomes my new favorite song of hers

[@edensylvester13]

^ same

[@cassidygiven]

“They tell me I loved, teach me how to think..” This line gets me every time. It’s like it’s been so long since I’ve felt like an actual person that I don’t even know how to act like one anymore. All my emotions are gone and everything I do feels wrong. I have to use my old memories, from before I was fucked up, as a reference point to tell me how to even function in society.

[@lisalovegreen]

i had so many feelings while listening to this song, mostly feeling of loss, and at the same time, not alone. i cried a bit in a few lines. I knew you really liked going back and thinking about the past, Dodie. So when you sang about "I'll never be sixteen again" I knew it was because you wished to go back to the age. And it's funny, and a bit heartbreaking, because when i heard the same line, my body reacted with a heave of relief. I reached rock bottom during that age, so when i heard it, it's more of "thank god i'll never be sixteen again". Crazy how life and circumstances work and influence how different everyone's perspective is. Thank you for this song.

[@doddleoddle]

Interesting

[@louthecat8927]

doddleoddle what made you change your profile picture, I love it it is beautiful!

[@misstonix]

I had the same sort of reaction! 16/17 were very bad age sfor me

[@mattfinchley5908]

Dodie, you're the only person in this whole KZbin scene who'd I'd identify as a musician before a KZbinr. I know that other KZbinrs try their hand at songwriting and performing, but you deliver so much more, because not only have you got your lyrics down to a tee, but you've also mastered the musical arrangement. I mean, that instrumental bridge from 2:11-2:51 sounds more like a film score than anything. It's sorta like a dark twist in an otherwise sweet song, which reflects the lyrics perfectly. The whole thing is absolutely flawless, and it shows how much you care about giving your lyrics the musical accompaniment they deserve. Bravo. P.S. This is the first time I've commented on a video in like 2 years lol

[@bookwormgirl000]

this! that instrumental is so hauntingg

[@udayamendis2846]

bookwormgirl000

[@spottedstar1123]

lol she didnt do the string arrangement (but yes her songwriting is so amazing and i just love her lyrics so much afhdjjd)

[@breadddie]

I'm not even sixteen yet but I relate to the song. Yeah I'm like 2 years old I haven't lived life blah blah but I still get nostalgic. To times when I was actually happy

[@albertomaciel1253]

mediocremaddie same 😕

[@laurasmovies7018]

mediocremaddie exactly!

[@cephi]

i relate

[@me-cf5te]

Same

[@claralite]

yess

[@maddiesueper7476]

6 years later, I find myself at 22 listening to this song. When I initially listened for the first time at 16 I so wondered where the hell I would be in my later life. Well, here I am! Graduating nursing school about to be a REAL adult (and doing it well, mind you 😉) For those who get scared about what the future holds, be excited rather than worried. Big things are coming!

[@communitychannel]

gorgeous

[@doddleoddle]

:D!!

[@jennywhittle7375]

trin xox ikr my 2 fave channels just interacted

[@katara5083]

oh my god???

[@noellemunoz9756]

It's midnight right now which means it's my birthday which means I'm officially 17. I have to admit I had a big cry when you said "I'll never be 16 again."

[@caeleyhicksonlong150]

Noelle Munoz Happy Birthday!!

[@noellemunoz9756]

Caeley Hickson Long thank you so much!!

[@mhyraquellq]

happy birthday!

[@joaca-tecumine4585]

Every other age is as great or greater :)

[@patch3002]

the words "I'll never be sixteen again" really hit me and showed me how much time i spend reliving the past

[@dray2882]

as a 17 almost 18 year old, who’s last year of being a kid was destroyed by this pandemic and many other things, ive gotta get it in my head that i’ll never be 16 again.

[@peepeepoop638]

its been a year, how are u now?

[@AmiYamato]

This is lovely, Dodie. I love strings.

[@alyssavocadoo]

Ami!

[@doddleoddle]

+Ami Yamato thank you!!!

[@woe-is-mia9156]

every time i listen to this i get chills and i cry it's so beautiful and i just love it so much

[@pseuro]

Panic! At The Pity Party you have an amazing username

[@woe-is-mia9156]

thank you (:

[@AaliyahRaffell]

Panic! At The Pity Party I really look up to Dodie and I'm trying to seriously start a career in music. One way to help me would be to subscribe 😉❤️️ It would be much appreciated xx

[@ainsleysmith2799]

I'm just imagining Hazel walking in on this and being like, "I'VE GOT WORK TO DO, DODIE!"

[@ainsleysmith2799]

Also BRILLIANT song, Dodie 😊

[@skilletdestroyer]

The Ainsley Channel I honestly think she's fast asleep because of how gorgeous this is XDD

[@emilyb5682]

this song hits harder 7 years later when im 22 and I rotted my teens away by being afraid and im still rotting away and I cant get out of the box ive made for myself.

[@jordan9240]

"memories painted with much brighter ink" that line always gives me shivers. thank you.

[@lovefrancescarose]

"I'll never be sixteen again I'm waiting to live, still waiting to love, oh it'll be over, and I'll still be asking when," ....... reading the lyrics of this song and relating it back to your depression, anxiety, depersonalization video on doddlevloggle, and I can hear your feelings in this music! its truly amazing, such great songwriting i luv u so much

[@doddleoddle]

:)

[@lovefrancescarose]

+doddleoddle so excited for this EP

[@DrewTabor]

STOP IT! I'm crying. This is too good. So excited for the EP!

[@moonlitgiraffe7448]

Drew Tabor don't cry, CRAFT!

[@doddleoddle]

THANK U DREW!!!

[@magicgaming749]

LiterallyLily PROTIP!!!

[@ashemayo]

Stop. That was 7 months ago.

[@Alina-ti8wu]

+LiterallyLily lmao that's so fucking old

[@stephd.5128]

“everyone falls for the sunshine disguise, distracted by who they’re thinking of” WOW