when || dodie

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LYRICS
I think I've been telling lies,
cause I've never been in love.
Everyone falls for the sunshine disguise, distracted by who they're thinking of.
I'd rather date an idea;
something I'll never find.
Sure, I'll live in the moment,
but I'm never happy here
I'm surrounded by greener looking time.
Am I the only one
wishing life away?
Never caught up in the moment
busy begging the past to stay
Memories painted with much brighter ink;
they tell me I loved, teach me how to think.
I'll take what I can get
cause I'm too damp for a spark.
Kissing sickly sweet guys
cause they say they like my eyes
but I'd only ever see them in the dark.
I'm sick of faking diary entries,
got to get it in my head; I'll never be sixteen again
I'm waiting to live, and waiting to love
oh it'll be over, and I'll still be asking when.
Am I the only one
wishing life away?
Never caught up in the moment
busy begging the past to stay
Memories painted with much brighter ink;
they tell me I loved, teach me how to think.
I'm sick of faking diary entries,
got to get it in my head; I'll never be sixteen again
I'm waiting to live, still waiting to love
oh it'll be over, and I'll still be asking when
oh it'll be over, and I'll still be asking when.

[@Paint]

Don't mind me, just stopping by for the fourth time today to cry my soul away. Move along.

[@epgkids]

highly relatable content

[@louise_piano]

its like my 10th time today

[@Warrichan]

retweet

[@pazcuellar2285]

same

[@niamhscott4697]

me too Jon

[@calderfly4004]

When she says "I'll never be 16 again" for the first time it seemed that her voice cracked like she was on the brink of tears and Dodie, so was I

[@doddleoddle]

I always am with that line lol. Thank u

[@haeliann9320]

maybe_a_bean I'm 16 and that really hits hard. It's crazy to think about the future.

[@Henryauster]

Same, I is scared :/

[@iloveundertale2673]

maybe_a_bean same

[@itshannahost]

maybe_a_bean I thought exactly the same thing. And so was I.

[@user-ci5dh1ps4g]

dodie: **opens mouth** me:STOP MAKING ME CRY

[@howtotieatai]

you didnt see me coming *is laughing while crying*

[@rileypratt1271]

SAME

[@antoniodellaventura9783]

Then she plays Instrumental and WE STILL CRY

[@lylahh.2484]

ME 24/7

[@bookwormishculture1497]

Random Falcon WOAH... but same .

[@raysa3429]

I am now terrified of wasting my time as a sixteen year old

[@yoharryyoureawizard3560]

same this is a lot of pressure lmao

[@sarahdunn1971]

Same arghhh

[@musicfreak31751]

go out with a bang!!!

[@singenstattatmen5096]

You won't. Just enjoy it! ;) Every age gives you something special, every year of our lives is unique. That doesn't mean you have to go out every day and do something amazing, just make sure that you get to do the things that you love. :)

[@charlied3990]

Feel the exact same mate

[@carly6615]

"I'm too damp for a spark" Melted

[@fcayhr]

yesyesyesyesyes

[@strontbrood513]

Carly Richley im too busy crying to be dry tbfh

[@erinnhamill8202]

+

[@doddlebendingmaster6202]

Ahh the feels!

[@felicityceleste3191]

Carly Richley Yesyesyes this song gets me every time! also "memories painted with much brighter ink"

[@AlexanderJWF]

PETITION TO MAKE DODIE THE VOICE OF A DISNEY PRINCESS!!! Someone should do this!

[@daisyamelia9359]

Xander F Yasssss

[@liv0613]

Xander F 100%%% YESSSSS

[@jetpackelephant5527]

Xander F WHAT ABOUT A STEVEN UNIVERSE CHARACTER

[@gonzogamer]

PLEASE

[@morgan-jd5ws]

Xander F YESSSS

[@hannahphelps3681]

dodie's music makes me want to live my life to the fullest and be in love and just drink tea with fairy lights and play ukulele and sing with my friends and just be so in love with someone and just be so happy

[@jessicalin4170]

Hannah Phelps same

[@bluebird7776]

Hannah Phelps That's a mood

[@wdrew04]

Hannah Phelps I find it makes me think about how bad life has been in the past but that I need to cherish these happier times

[@kylafu7277]

same especially this song. It makes me want to be happy

[@miadowne940]

wish i could do that with someone

[@lilyhalward8791]

im listening to this on the night before my 17th birthday and sobbing

[@wall-e4003]

Lily Halward Literally me right now I'm 17 tomorrow

[@aetherforest]

i’m 15 and for some reason on the brink of tears after reading this, my 16th birthday is almost in a month

[@indie8722]

Well uh, happy early birthday this year haha...

[@mollymcintosh218]

Haha same

[@georgie3593]

Me too lol

[@Elektrascity]

every time dodie says "got to get it in my head; i'll never be sixteen again" i feel as if i've beEN PUNCHED IN THE HEART

[@sarakirkland2925]

Me too!! I shiver as her voice and the instruments go to the peak on 'head', and then they fall back down, like a deep breath.

[@lucymoon]

YES.

[@byekarishma]

same

[@D4NC3Rable]

To everyone in the comments saying now you're scared of getting older because that one line in this song freaked you out: I'm 27, and it's really not that bad. I'd even go so far as to say it's much, much better. Sure, society romanticizes being young because it's freakishly obsessed with youth and is terrified of aging because it can't face it's fear of death, but honestly? You couldn't pay me to be 16 again. You start recognizing patterns and getting to know yourself and why you react to things the way you do, and you start anticipating your own needs and meeting them before they even manifest. You are finally free to meet the needs your childhood home never could - if you grew up in that sort of home - and you can break old beliefs and patterns around this and discover newer, happier paradigms you never knew existed. You get wiser and see through bullshit faster and tolerate less of everything that makes you wilt miserably and you actually know yourself well enough to know what those things are. You start to develop self respect and self esteem. I mean, there's lots of terrible awful things too, like lows you never knew you could hit and really weird brain states and awful roommates and unbelievably tedious bureaucratic processes. But. You won't stop feel like you are essentially "you," nor will you lose your idealism if you really refuse to unhand it to anyone. My only real advice if you're 16? Learn some hands on skills and share your interests with other people. The enthusiasm and time for learning random skills fades a bit if I'm being real, and the confidence to poke your head out and declare what you love will too unless you nurture it. Okay I'm done being a grandma love you drink some water bye.

[@huskylover8167]

Replying to remember this

[@J3J3Jayseph]

thank you

[@elianna_ecc]

@@huskylover8167

[@nolitimere665]

thank you

[@koiysa9274]

Thank you so much for this, it means the world.

[@nhuyn6556]

I'm 14 and it scares me when I think that in a bit more years, this adolescence stage of mine will be over. Albeit back then I sat and wished I was 9 again, now that I think about it clearly, soon I'll be wishing to be 14 again. I've got to enjoy the time that's being laid in front of me, before it's all over. Sure, there's a bunch of anger and sadness dwelling in our minds at this age, but it's all the more of why our teen years are so amazing. We're experiencing all types of new emotions, and how amazing is it to feel your mind mature? Ok well I'm getting really emotional and all over the place so I'll just leave.

[@d33pseacreature]

nhuy n :)

[@parisholdich1108]

as a 14 year old myself, the idea of not living hurts. not feeling fulfilled. the world is my oyster yet i can't bring myself to take. never once have i been kissed, i have never put a cigarette in my mouth. never vaped, nothing. im a blank canvas, just waiting to be painted on. i know i dont get mocked but it feels as though im being judged, silently. it hurts, because i have not yet lived. and my carefree days are coming to a close.

[@inthereeds4444]

I agree with this comment and these replies. It’s like u captured my feelings perfectly.

[@zarasaurus2003]

I’m 14 too... And always tell myself I’m too young to do anything important. I’m a carer for my mum, and I love looking after her, but sometimes I’d love to have a life of my own- I wish my life away a lot.

[@bonniewatt419]

Happy fifteenth 😂

[@evan]

WHENDERFUL

[@townnymph2749]

Evan Edinger so are u

[@emmabaker6291]

Evan nO

[@lifeascam2755]

Hey evan i love your channel so much and i hope you have the best day ever and much love from a small youtuber

[@gracem7103]

Evan Edinger Inedded

[@gracem7103]

Evan Edinger wait I meant indeed how did I mess up that bad

[@EchoGillette]

"I'd rather date an idea" is now my relationship status.

[@panicinthephandm9943]

Echo Gillette Same Echo, same

[@thetragedyofcommons]

+Echo Gillette ayy friend nice seeing you here

[@doddleoddle]

hehe

[@RandomProductions106]

Echo Gillette ECHO LOVES DODIE?! 🙌🏼

[@lifeascam2755]

AWWW i hope you have a great day and you will find someone soon from a british vlogger

[@zXToThaFaceXz]

"Oh, yes" by Charles Bukowski there are worse things than being alone but it often takes decades to realize this and most often when you do it's too late and there's nothing worse than too late.

[@iblame_nargles]

Hey. Wow. Fuck this. (This is beautifully painful, I love it x Thanks for sharing)

[@MariMuthu-cd3mh]

Ni bukan

[@humanbean4037]

It’s always too late for everything so why not give up and stop thinking about it

[@April-vu7yo]

I was crying already but reading this made me cry even more. It's lovely and sad

[@meepmeep7462]

I was 14 when Dodie released this song, and hearing it again at 18 really did make a blinding change in my perspective. I watched 15, 16 and 17 fly by and now I’m asking “when?” Despite knowing that those years of my life are over.

[@ratboygirl]

same :(

[@meganwilson4644]

That is exactly the same as my situation, down to the ages. I was freshman in high school when this came out and had so much ahead of me. I listened to it every year, consistently. Even sent it to my favorite music teacher. Now I'm in college and I feel like I just haven't reaped any benefits of what I thought I had. It's like when are they coming? When? I lost everything and still can't even tell if I had anything in the first place. I hope you're doing better now, I know I don't know you but you still deserve the best

[@zombie1496]

Yes how you doing now?

[@coldhands6648]

same exact boat

[@BradSk88]

Sounds like a strangely grown up monologue by an as-yet-unwritten Disney princess.

[@amberleighrose4789]

a hundred times yes

[@misskaylan2000]

a thousand times yes

[@tabatharich]

a million times yes

[@TheAppelpaj]

a billion times y e s

[@jaamaapii]

can someone write that story?

[@doddleoddle]

MY EP COMES OUT TODAYYYY ALL AROUND THE WORLD

[@taneikaanne7997]

doddleoddle AAAAHHH IM SO PROUD OF YOU ❤️❤️❤️

[@wdymimsad4987]

IM SO PROUD IM ACTUALLY CRYING TEARS IM SO PROUD OF U

[@caitlynvincent]

doddleoddle woo

[@ConnieTalbotRox2011]

IM SO PROUD OF YOU AHHHH I WATCHED YOU GROW FROM A TINY LIL BEANSPROUT TO A SUCCESSFUL MUSICIAN I AM SO PROUD RN I LOVE YOU

[@crazerfrostdragon1118]

doddleoddle I CAN'T WAIT AAAAAAAAAAGH

[@AccidentlyOnPurpose]

We all want to grow up until we do. Edit: 3 years later and it was just my 17th birthday, lmao I'll never be 16 again

[@moonchild66]

Hell yeah.....

[@raidynmorian4518]

Naw. I've never regretted it for a second. When all the memories you have are bad, the past isn't the place you want to live.

[@christabeljoy2443]

@@raidynmorian4518 I feel that, I’m just ready to have some freedom and make nice memories

[@francescamicallef1488]

lmao I'm 17 in 2 days and it's freaks that I'm closer to 20 than 14

[@francescamicallef1488]

freaky* -btw here after build a problem to listen to the original version-

[@alpacasarebetterthanllamas7256]

This is giving me serious Dear Evan Hanson vibes

[@friedshampoo1794]

*Hansen

[@kimiandre8300]

EXACTLY!!!!!!

[@catrific]

CANT WAIT FOR THIS EP

[@doddleoddle]

THANK U THANK U KAJSHDLKAJSHDAJSHG

[@willberesford8019]

[@nahlafadel5213]

catrific same !

[@grilbee]

NEITHER CAN I CAT

[@mimipavey]

doddleoddle faves xo

[@lowkeylida8524]

how does she not have 3 million subscribers, honestly?

[@heon1e]

Little Writter how does she not have like, 10 million?

[@artsyhassan2362]

Um, you mean atleast 100 million. Pewdiepie gotta got to get on her level

[@heon1e]

Artsy Hassan true

[@lauraelizabethbrown]

Everyone has to start somewhere. Less than a year ago she had like 300,000 so I'd say she's well on her way.

[@bbannedindc]

i see u yoongs

[@alienillusi0n]

"Gotta get it in my head, I'll never be sixteen again" almost makes me cry. I'm 16 and I feel like I'm wasting my youth. I've has severe depression and anxiety for 5 years now which makes me isolate myself, I barely have any friends. I've never gone to a party, never gotten drunk, never kissed anyone etc like everyone else my age does, all I do is staying at home. It feels like everyone else are having the time of their lives while I'm just glued to my bed. (wow that got deep lmAO)

[@sarahblake5470]

hoo hoo I felt the same way you did. You just have to force yourself into doing things, no matter how many panic attacks it causes you, no matter how much it tortures you at first, because after those first few times, it gets more bearablw

[@marythomas29]

I'll be your friend

[@juliasutter6996]

I never went to parties or got drunk or kissed anyone when I was 16 (or now for that matter, I'm 20). Do things you enjoy, not what is supposedly "normal". You're avoiding a lot of shitty drama by not going to parties and getting drunk. Best of luck :)

[@miriambloom2923]

it's going to get better, I promise. stay alive.

[@fridaherbst719]

I'm doing all this right now, I really cannot say if it's worth it. I think if you don't have the right people to get drunk with, to kiss and to go to parties, it's nearly impossible doing stuff like this. I feel unsure in every aspect of my actions and I don't think that going to parties helps me coping with this.

[@carysporter]

When you thought what you were feeling could never be put to words but then dodie comes along and voices it so nicely. I can't stop coming back to this.

[@maryannabee]

I can't wait to see her on a giant stage. surrounded by thousands screaming her name in a sold out show at Madison square garden. I can't wait to see her name in lights and known in everyones head. maybe if I get to be in that giant crowd I can stand there and be so proud of her and how far she had come. we love you Dorothy.

[@doddleoddle]

[@MariaFigueroa-bm7sd]

doddleoddle this is so good!!!

[@laureng7917]

doddleoddle I wish you could see the world through my eyes so you wouldn't have to feel this pain. But if you never felt it this emptiness just might feel the same.

[@maryannabee]

are we all poets now what is happening cx

[@stormthrush37]

That she isn't, is what I love about her. Too much fame destroys people. Go chasing fame, and you change. Check out Janet Devlin's song, "Outernet." We need to be more self-validated, and less basing on worth on how many people like us, and/or are shouting our names.

[@ticklespark]

This should be in a musical. What I'm saying is you could write a musical, or a film about someone who writes music. You should write and be in that film.

[@edengallagher1044]

Someone should make a documentary about Dodie Maybe once she's a little more popular (hopefully a lot more)

[@Carina5707]

Disney should make a new animated musical starring nothing but KZbin voice talent. It could be about two princes (Dan and Phil) who are betrothed to princesses (Dodie and someone else...any suggestions?) but they are actually all gay and in love with each other. With all their trusty sidekicks (Joe Sugg, Joe Tasker, Jon Cozart, Charlie McDonnell, Tom Ska, Tyler Oakley...this list is endless) they all go on a journey of destiny to be with their true loves.

[@loganboom1559]

YES PLEASE DAN AND PHIL END UP BEING GAY AND ITS GAY AND I LOVE IT

[@Orcagirl54]

+Juce yes and dodie and the other princess are in love

[@Orcagirl54]

+Juce yes and dodie and the other princess are in love

[@katoui3057]

this song. “i’ll never be 16 again” i feel like i’m wasting my youth. “memories painted with much brighter ink” “it’ll be over and i’ll still be asking ‘when?’” “am i the only one wishing life away? never caught up in a moment, busy begging the past to stay” a summary of what derealisation is like. i’ve been living with it for about 10 years now and i can barely remember what life without it was like. “i’d rather date an idea, something i’ll never find” every relationship or date thing (whatever idk) failed and, even though i would love to be in a relationship and even though there was nothing wrong with the people i dated, i was always relieved afterwards. somehow, this song sums up the things i struggle most with. and yet, it makes me feel better as, finally, i feel less alone, i feel understood. thank you, dodie, you’re wonderful 💛

[@lilasingley5578]

listening to this as a senior in high school who is currently sitting and watching time being taken away because of quarantine

[@ratboygirl]

listening to this as a high-school drop out in limbo bc can't get a job and can't enrol in school 😀🔫

[@annabethchase4582]

same here! graduating this may and the entire year has been online :( we're in this together

[@audreybates7623]

am i the only one who thinks that it sounds like a disney princess would sing this

[@audreybates7623]

petition for dodie to be the voice for the next disney princess

[@raikaparzella]

audrey bates yes! totally! Also best Profile pic ever! love it and him 🙈

[@isabelsomething8762]

She already is :,)

[@jennifermcilwrath]

I love Disney Princesses, but this has way more depth and complexity - beautiful and melancholy at the same time

[@chewing_bricks_8039]

Dodie is a Princess

[@HailingRoses]

"Never caught up in the moment, busy begging the past to stay" I'm shattering.

[@KleopatraJasa]

I have goosebumps all over my body

[@timidelle1127]

sameee

[@SujitKumar-bt4pr]

Kleo पो

[@hestia2486]

Kleopatra same

[@tinarsmiththomas5482]

Samee

[@tinarsmiththomas5482]

Metropcs mobile phone number is.

[@HelloKitty-uy3oz]

Here ya gooo I think I've been telling lies, cause I've never been in love. Everyone falls for the sunshine disguise, distracted by who they're thinking of. I'd rather date an idea; something I'll never find. Sure, I'll live in the moment, but I'm never happy here I'm surrounded by greener looking time. Am I the only one wishing life away? Never caught up in the moment busy begging the past to stay Memories painted with much brighter ink; they tell me I loved, teach me how to think. I'll take what I can get cause I'm too damp for a spark. Kissing sickly sweet guys cause they say they like my eyes but I'd only ever see them in the dark. I'm sick of faking diary entries, got to get it in my head; I'll never be sixteen again I'm waiting to live, and waiting to love oh it'll be over, and I'll still be asking when. Am I the only one wishing life away? Never caught up in the moment busy begging the past to stay Memories painted with much brighter ink; they tell me I loved, teach me how to think. I'm sick of faking diary entries, got to get it in my head; I'll never be sixteen again I'm waiting to live, still waiting to love oh it'll be over, and I'll still be asking when oh it'll be over, and I'll still be asking when.

[@bumblevip4714]

Hello Kitty thank you

[@rrammay]

Dude The description

[@sc0bb]

Awh you didnt need to do that. Always look in the description for dodie songs 🖤

[@samiskillman2614]

"I'm waiting to live; still waiting to love" that line broke me. I have all of these fantasies and dreams and things i want to happen, but I always think that it'll happen "eventually", rather than trying to live in the now.

[@lorelaidixon1]

Tammian same. :/

[@hillaryblair336]

This song prompted me to stop waiting for life to happen and make things happen for me. I believe in fate but at some point, you have to go out and find fate ❤️ all my best wishes

[@mariareugicnad]

This is exactly it! The problem is recognizing this issue and then never doing anything about it, I'm still doing the same thing I did when I was 14.

[@moonchild66]

Same........x

[@sinclairzz]

im younger than 16 why do i cry at 'i'll never be sixteen again' gO D

[@katyh9000]

Laura Sinclair Me too maybe were just scared to mess everything up when we are 16 or it reminds us that were never any age again.

[@jasminegonzalez3379]

I KNOW RIGHT

[@BornToBeWyld]

Because Dodie ^^

[@martinabowie]

me too, i literally cried at that part

[@ava.a5604]

RIGHT?!?!?! IM LITERALLY BAWLING MY EYES OUT XD

[@molliel872]

an aromantic anthem.

[@junothestar1398]

Yepp

[@aoife6038]

the day we stayed up until 6am making snow angels unsure of our feelings is one of the best things to ever happen to me. seeing you slowly fall for someone else right in front of me is the worst. thank you for those beautiful memories. i know your feelings have changed but you will always be the first one that i felt the closest thing to love with. i left it until it was too late and im sorry. its my fault & i cant change it or do anything about it. this is my goodbye emily. you have my heart & you can break it a thousand times - i wont care because i love you. -A x

[@W12_95]

"I'll never be sixteen again" is one of my favorite lines, but it gives me chills to think about it in context with this song and Dodie's depersonalization, since she's said that she started feeling like she was in a dream around 17. Such a raw, emotional song - I listen to this and just cry. Dodie, this song is to me what "Novels" is to you. Thank you for this.

[@yesreneau]

Feels like this should be in a theater production. Too good.

[@xbethbeth1]

i thought that!

[@ciaracoolcu]

it reminds me so much of The Last 5 Years (and another musical I can't put a name to??) I think it's because of the strings!!

[@hannahraschke9820]

I totally felt that too! I can't place the sound but I'm kind of getting Waitress or The Last 5 Years or something

[@justemjoyinglife1133]

Umm maybe she should write her own?!?!????!

[@franonchu8260]

I got The Waitress vibes

[@simiparthenopaeus7893]

I listen to this song when I have panic attacks. I don't know why but it calms me down and I love this song. It will forever hold a place in my heart even as I get older and even if these panic attacks stop.

[@soren9041]

i hope they stopped !

[@angelaliu4400]

I hope you're doing well :)

[@randomyoutubeaccount6982]

Dodie helps me during panic attacks too :)

[@dray2882]

as a 17 almost 18 year old, who’s last year of being a kid was destroyed by this pandemic and many other things, ive gotta get it in my head that i’ll never be 16 again.

[@peepeepoop638]

its been a year, how are u now?

[@vicariouslyvirginiav]

excuse my language - but holy absolute fuck this is so captivating. literally in awe.

[@vicariouslyvirginiav]

i am 100% deceased

[@mikaylarip4669]

vicariouslyvirginia VIRGINIA MOM

[@alesiameulemans5446]

vicariouslyvirginia VIRGINIA ILY

[@charlottedavies2477]

HI VIRGINIA NICE SEEING YOU HERE

[@karen-ok2nn]

whats up virginia my ball of sunshine

[@thatsgaiman]

the best part was 0:00-3:24

[@eloiseb5600]

+

[@katiec5236]

eveliina nykänen my thoughts exactly

[@hannahthukral1600]

+

[@IrisManning]

+

[@jamespatmore9744]

Wheezy Waiter?

[@cassidygiven]

“They tell me I loved, teach me how to think..” This line gets me every time. It’s like it’s been so long since I’ve felt like an actual person that I don’t even know how to act like one anymore. All my emotions are gone and everything I do feels wrong. I have to use my old memories, from before I was fucked up, as a reference point to tell me how to even function in society.

[@maddiesueper7476]

6 years later, I find myself at 22 listening to this song. When I initially listened for the first time at 16 I so wondered where the hell I would be in my later life. Well, here I am! Graduating nursing school about to be a REAL adult (and doing it well, mind you 😉) For those who get scared about what the future holds, be excited rather than worried. Big things are coming!

[@kiararocktheworld8725]

And I thought 6/10 was hard to stop listening to......

[@demiicarlygleelover]

kiararocktheworld same...

[@osayameevbuomwan5547]

kiararocktheworld why is that so true I absolutely love her music I'm actually listening to a playlist I made for just her music

[@fcayhr]

ohmygod my thoughts exactly

[@jilliocalypse2541]

kiararocktheworld RIGHT?!?!?

[@izzyl1565]

kiararocktheworld honestly tho!!

[@viktoria1650]

This is quite literally one of the most beautiful songs on earth. And the lyrics...oh my, they affect me so so much. The thing is: I'm turning 17 very soon and I've hated being sixteen. Literally nothing notable happened. I didn't fall in love, I didn't do anything teenagers are supposed to do at all and I'm scared that one day when I'm 60 years old, I will look back on these years and regret not taking opportunities and regret not living. I never feel like I'm in the present. My mind is in the future, where everything's exciting and hopefully much better than where I'm at right now. And when something nice is happening indeed, I cannot enjoy it because I'm focused so much on taking it all in and trying to be overwhelmed with happiness, when really I cannot force myself to feel all that. Sorry for the ramble. The point is: I want to thank you, Dodie for opening up, for creating such breathtakingly good music and for being so strong despite all the tough things you're going through. In some ways I can relate and maybe it's nice to know you're not alone. :)

[@marianasa00]

Someone finnally wrote it! Thank you so much, I feel the exact same way. I'm 16 and everyone seems to be doing interesting stuff, making plans, finding out what they'll do with the rest of their lives. I'm just a teenager, who has no idea what she wants to do, no plans, and I keep thinking that one day, in the future, I'll know, I'll figure it all out. I feel I have never been further from knowing who I am and what I want and it's so exasperating! Especially when people ask what i want to do after highschool and when I say I don't know yet they tell me I should be deciding. It's so stressful and confusing, I'm literally just sitting here,waiting for things to work themselves out, without doing anything to help that. Sorry, this is so long, I'm just happy I'm not alone.

[@LarryS378]

As a 22 year old - personally it gets soooo much better. Fuck being 16, it's bollocks you can't do anything, have limited 'freedom' and people are kinda still at that lame immature/haven't figured out how to be a decent person yet phase. Don't stress about it. You got plenty of time - i think the secret to 'not regretting anything' is to try not to really regret or overthink it, instead of trying to do everything possible so you don't regret (if that makes sense I'm shite with words). Basically, you'll be good, and things come easier in time

[@viktoria1650]

M Thank you so much for your response! On one hand I cannot wait to finally be 18, on the other hand I'm afraid because I don't really have any plans, so I somehow understand what you mean. I guess all we really can do is just to wait it out, and eventually we'll find our place in this big intimidating but beautiful world. I assume you know Jose Vanders (or Layla or now part of Oh Wonder) because we're here on Dodie's channel. In one of her songs that Dodie covered with Lucy Moon the lyrics go "I'm upside down, can't find paradise on the ground" which to me sounds like she isn't quite able or willing to decide what she wants and isn't with both feet on the ground but floating in dreams and "what ifs". Maybe sometimes that's all you can do and that's okay, because rushing things doesn't help with anything. I wish you all the best!

[@lifeascam2755]

I love it so much and i hope you guys have the best day ever and much love from a small british youtuber

[@moltodolce7071]

you have literally just summarised my thoughts. im 17 in 3 months and i cry sometimes because i havent achieved anything yet. i tell myself im only 16 and i have my whole life left but it doesnt seem real. there is only now and all i can think about is how i can get my name in a history book. another part of my brain tells me i need to enjoy my innocence, but no matter how young i start there will always be someone who did it a year before me. there will always be another prodigy

[@bethananstey1191]

these lyrics make me speechless

[@ratboygirl]

i found my old comment i made 4 years ago. it wasn't anything special, just "how can one person be so perfect," but now i feel so weird. i don't remember much of my life. this quarantine/isolation year isn't helping either. it's like i was 5 years old, then i turned 14, and now i'm 18. my life is wasting away and i don't feel like a person, i haven't felt like one for years at this point anyways, this song now has a much sadder meaning to me now. i hope that one day i won't have to feel like this anymore

[@MarinaDoulis]

SUCH A LIL BEAN, SUCH A BIG VOICE

[@edengallagher1044]

+

[@lifeascam2755]

IKR i love her so much, btw have the best day and much love from a small youtuber

[@mysss29]

++++

[@Pencilshaving]

+

[@ZaideeKissesYou]

MarinaDoulis no a smol bean😂

[@rowan8951]

i can see Dodie as a disney princess who doesn't have a love interest but she has a little animal companion and writes songs on her spare time

[@aname1857]

Mars Klark hahaha yes

[@FunkyTowm]

GUYS WE HAVE TO MAKE THIS A THING

[@stinkytunaman]

I first listened to this at 15 and never really understood the line “I’ll never be 16 again” because I always thought why would I want to stay like this. Now I’m 18 and I can’t believe just how much I’d give to go back to a few happier times. Growing up is so damn hard.

[@meikewittmann4787]

i had to revisit this song after watching her video of depersonalization / derealization (the lyrics hit me like a truck more than ever)

[@Leadley]

I remember when I was sat in your bedroom at 1am and we'd drunk too many drinks and you played me this song and it was so beautiful I wanted to cry because of how raw it was. You never fail to make me proud, this was beautiful

[@bryrk]

It really is a beautiful song. Made me feel happy in a way I haven't felt for a long time.

[@maddymacdonald2599]

Bethan, be honest, Is "She" about you?

[@ah-jb2jz]

+Maddy Macdonald hey, not coming for you or anything, but its not our business, she was a beautiful song and if dodie doesnt want us to know about who is was, it will stay like that.

[@tildabarrie941]

Maddy Macdonald i don't think that's any of your business actually

[@doddleoddle]

+musicalbethan love u

[@laurenateliz]

holy shit this is hauntingly beautiful

[@catherinekulat5047]

laurenateliz how I met your mother was a great show

[@LaurandMegan]

"I'll take what I can get, cause I'm too damp for a spark" Every now and then a line from a song will hit you so hard that you find yourself thinking about it when you f about your day to day life... this line hit me right in the guts... I have listened to this song every day for as long as i can remember and I still get goosebumps. Only an incredible song can make you question your life and how you live it. Phenomenal 👌

[@jackar1703]

"I'll never be 16 again" makes me cry so bad, I'm 14 and I'm honestly terrified of growing up, everybody says that this should be the best time of my life but I don't feel like it and I'm so afraid of wasting my youth.

[@vanessaajohn]

They tell you this because society is youth obsessed. It’s a lot of older people (older as in any age) looking back at younger years with rose colored glasses. It honest truth the high school years for most aren’t incredible or even amazing they just can leave cozy memories for most. But if you were to actually ask some people if they would go back to their 16 self they wouldn’t.

[@samanthamcdonald7577]

I liked the bit where dodie sang and played the piano

[@hitokanana]

Me too

[@ellavonbuskirk2928]

same

[@savannahandersen4089]

i can relate 100%

[@averyryalls5186]

Samantha Mcdonald so all of it

[@wdrew04]

Avery Ryalls ....that’s the joke

[@zannahlu]

U played this to me and melanie nearly exactly a year ago today (4 more days lol) and I had a very quiet subtle cry and here I am STILL sheddin a tear over this song

[@rachellyonmusic]

NotJustBlonde ZAnnAH yo!!!?!?!?!

[@vashappeninjas]

AAaAAaAaAAAAaaaaaaa

[@maggieflynn466]

NotJustBlonde ZANNAH

[@mariana-vw6jl]

NotJustBlonde zANNAH WHY U DO DIS

[@notroe2237]

Your videos are amazing!! ❤️

[@taniaalbouy6620]

I used to listen to this when I was sixteen, now I came back to this song and I'm almost twenty... damn... I'm crying

[@stephd.5128]

“everyone falls for the sunshine disguise, distracted by who they’re thinking of” WOW

[@veda2423]

"ill never be sixteen again" and "never caught up in the moment, too busy begging the past to stay" really made me think

[@noellemunoz9756]

It's midnight right now which means it's my birthday which means I'm officially 17. I have to admit I had a big cry when you said "I'll never be 16 again."

[@caeleyhicksonlong150]

Noelle Munoz Happy Birthday!!

[@noellemunoz9756]

Caeley Hickson Long thank you so much!!

[@mhyraquellq]

happy birthday!

[@joaca-tecumine4585]

Every other age is as great or greater :)

[@goldenleafgamer]

I was 16 when this song was released. Now I’m 20, realizing that my youth is over and I’m an adult now. I’ve spent most of my adolescence dealing with depression, anxiety, and PTSD, so I didn’t get to have the stereotypical teenage experience. I find myself not wanting to take on the responsibilities that come with adulthood because I’m trying to cling onto a childhood I didn’t get to have. I remember first hearing this song four years ago and crying. I knew that I’d look back on those years and be sad because I didn’t get to live out “the best years of my life” like I should have. It still hits me hard, but I love this song nonetheless, and I love Dodie too.

[@lucym5872]

Literally this, you put into words exactly what I'm feeling

[@goldenleafgamer]

@@lucym5872 Knowing how difficult it is dealing with this feeling, I hope you learn to be patient and gentle with yourself. You deserve the love.

[@user-ci5dh1ps4g]

I'M NOT CRYING YOU'RE CRYING

[@bluelilly5607]

you didnt see me coming WE'RE ALL CRYING IT'S TOO BEAUTIFUL

[@janecoogan6852]

"I'll take what I can get cause I'm too damp for a spark" literally me for the next 100 years

[@doddleoddle]

+Jane Coogan :)

[@janecoogan6852]

+doddleoddle I love you ❤

[@angelinabartz3062]

doddleoddle I FREAKING love you dodie your songs literally always describe me

[@marapprech]

I'm just imagining Hazel walking in on the mini string quartet happening in the living room and just going "sigh, alright..."

[@konstantinakordwni9401]

and then crying, then saying:''cunts!'' and apologizing lol

[@bonnie9109]

marapprech YES AHAHA

[@madeleinerose2089]

It's not a string quartet but yeah 😂😂😂

[@iloveundertale2673]

marapprech yass

[@8ytan]

marapprech and then crying at the songs

[@lucysnow3592]

returning to say that this is still my favourite dodie song. the idea of wishing for the future but hopelessly clinging to the past, creating a false version of myself in my diary so i can look back and see through rose tinted glasses the ‘best years of my life’. the string arrangement too, it’s perfectly melancholy.

[@brooklyn_k07]

One hour until I turn 17. I hate the idea of getting older, thinking about all the time that has passed and all that I've missed. But it also reminds me to focus on all the good things there have been throughout the years.

[@Mgdr2011]

AYO HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! ENJOY YOUR LIFE KID

[@elisesperringart]

17 is just the beginning x I hope you’re enjoying everything that’s been waiting for you

[@ECHOIST]

jesus. wow.

[@kittys6503]

My reaction exactly

[@isabellanebs22]

right

[@sofeea]

literally same pete same

[@zoestorms3537]

me too pete me too

[@ainsleysmith2799]

I'm just imagining Hazel walking in on this and being like, "I'VE GOT WORK TO DO, DODIE!"

[@ainsleysmith2799]

Also BRILLIANT song, Dodie 😊

[@skilletdestroyer]

The Ainsley Channel I honestly think she's fast asleep because of how gorgeous this is XDD

[@shel_grace]

I showed this to my mom and she loves it. This song made me feel a way I didn't know was possible I looked at the world differently. A song effected me that much. Thank you, dodie it really means a lot.

[@lorik.586]

I'm sixteen now, and hearing "I'll never be sixteen again" just makes me want to curl up in a ball and cry cause I will never be able to relive this day or yesterday. I'll never get to do whatever I did today exactly again. And I want to. I want to have this day and yesterday and everyday before over again, but knowing I'll never get it back is something I can never convince myself to do. I always tell myself "remember this moment. Savor it. Enjoy it. Take it all in." And I try so hard to do that and it's useless because even if I can remember all of it I can't relive that moment anymore, and it is the most soul crushing feeling I have ever felt. It literally make my chest feel so heavy it get a little harder to breath and all I want to do is just go back. I want that last football game I went to back. I want the last marching band competition back. I want to do our field show one more time cause all that work we put into it will never be used again. I want to stay in this moment or go to last year so all my friends that are senior don't graduate cause I know how much harder my life is going to be without them. I know how much I'm going to miss them. I want to rewind time and just stay there. I don't want to move forward anymore. I just want to go backwards. I want it all back. I want my early childhood back. I'll go through all the bad and good experiences of my past again if I can just go back for a little while. But I can't. And that is the worst thing imaginable.

[@lorik.586]

Sorry for any misspellings or anything like that. I was just typing as I thought.

[@charlottedavies2477]

She changed her profile holy poop professional dodie is coming people

[@doddleoddle]

she's taken her time

[@bryrk]

I love this XD

[@theotherbrief]

doddleoddle we have reached the point of no return

[@charlottedavies2477]

OH MY GOD SHE REPLIED IM CRAFTING

[@victoriarodrigues8250]

It just kills me how music, especially your music, can have this effect on me. I have tears rolling down my cheeks and I'm just sitting here nodding my head saying yes, yes, this is exactly how I feel I just needed someone to put it into words and when someone finally does it hurts because it's hard to accept that this is the truth and this is how I am. I would just love to thank you for putting everything in my head all together into not only this song but all of them. I love you and I love your music and this comment is a mess but I had to put my thoughts here because i love you.

[@doddleoddle]

+bookishbabble

[@erasmus3705]

I have listened to this song so many times over so many years and felt I related to it because time was going by so fast. However, only recently in a state of derealization, and Dodie saying this song is related to depersonalization and derealization, have I seen it in a new light. It's not about wishing you were 16 without responsibilities. It's wishing back to a time where you were actually in the moment and looking forward to the future. Don't get me wrong, the best days are 100% in front of us. But if you are living in a fog of derealization, you just wake up one day and months have gone by in an instant. And all the things you looked forward to is gone because it was giving you anxiety at the same time and triggered the derealization and you were "taken" from the moment to protect you of it. Yes, you have the memories because you actually lived them.. But did you truly live them?

[@lotta832]

i had a worse-than-usual mental breakdown over growing up last night (and i'm literally 16 what the heck) anyway, this song is really important to me because it reminds me i'm not alone with this entire hanging on to the past thing. so thank you dodie, you made my crisis slightly better. i love you so much and am so inspired by you every day. please never stop doing what you do! you're gonna change lives

[@communitychannel]

gorgeous

[@doddleoddle]

:D!!

[@jennywhittle7375]

trin xox ikr my 2 fave channels just interacted

[@katara5083]

oh my god???

[@roms829]

"ill never be sixteen again" i can relate to that so much even tho im still young i get scared when i realize how quick time passes and how much ive changed. this song is so touching

[@loriddell4651]

it's been a rough couple of weeks for me and my 17th birthday is coming up more quickly than i realized. this song hits me in all the right spots and im crying at work rn. i love you so much dodie

[@Bea-ru7wn]

cannot WAIT for the reboot of this song in march!!!!!!!!!

[@fluteloop9111]

when you have like 12 measures of rest lolol violin my life right there

[@doddleoddle]

lol

As a viola player, I relate immensely to this...

[@theaulait9315]

plS that's the least common for violins 😤

[@fluteloop9111]

thé aulait from what I've experienced it's more common for flutes 😯

[@Mr03213]

if anything this is the most relatable for violas, the neglected sibling of the violin/cello

[@artbyamberliu]

there aren't a lot of love songs about those who aren't in love - for those who are lonely, wondering what's wrong with them, wondering if they are worthy of love. They aren't a lot of these songs, so Dodie, thank you for making this song for those who aren't too sure if they're good enough and for those who are waiting for when they stop asking 'when'. proud of you x.

[@doddleoddle]

+ambieliu15

[@doddleoddle]

+ambieliu15 lol I am legit crying at this comment

[@K1dweed]

doddleoddle bless your heart

[@artbyamberliu]

following my 10 minute freak out of you replying: i love you and i know you are going to amazing things and touch even more people's lives. you are the person i watch when it's 2am and i'm alone in my room overthinking and freaking out, in order to calm down. And I'm not alone in saying that, there are hundreds of thousands of people who seek refuge in your genuine spirit and presence. No matter who breaks your heart or who treats you wrong - remember that you've mended our hearts and treated us right. You're a great soul Dodie and if you EVER need any help in terms of design, merch, posters, or anything at all, I'd be more than happy to help.

[@moonee12]

Hi random person, hope your day is going well, and if not... mine isn't going well either

[@erin6180]

this had my cracking up, i'm crying and laughing what the heckshjajdh

[@laurieewbank3351]

alex. Yeah I just made a new cut

[@jorgeavila2441]

I love you UwU

[@emilykelly9669]

Feel better my dude, I'm late, I know.

[@shandiwarren6454]

I hope you had a good day today!

[@LauraGammack]

The music is over before she asks "when?" for the last time. I have many favourite parts of this song but I think that last part is one of my favourites for sure! So well done! xoxo

[@AmiYamato]

This is lovely, Dodie. I love strings.

[@alyssavocadoo]

Ami!

[@doddleoddle]

+Ami Yamato thank you!!!

[@lonelylobsterr7870]

Beautiful. Cant wait to put it on repeat. Im sixteen and this song threw me through a loop. I've done nothing memorable with my youth. Although to be fair I havent really tried that hard.

[@KaterinaMat]

Lauren Watson I'm 16 too and I hate it. I want to be 20 something and get out of my home town. Anyone else?

[@kirstyjaynerussell]

same omfg

[@micaelablushes7168]

Kate M. - no no no no enjoy it enjoy it enjoy it!

[@sharlieblack3505]

you have time on your side, youth on your side :) There is plenty of time to make a mark if you want to, or do whatever you want.

[@KaterinaMat]

Micaela Blushes I'm honestly having a hard time trying to have a good time. I spent 99% of my days being miserable. Help?

[@paintingstarss]

honestly, this song gets more relatable the older I get, which is a little frightening.

[@tamozade1740]

Dodie: * hits one note * Me: *I would die for you. you’re so precious. You must be protected smol bean.*

[@kk-hs8qi]

STOP. I SHAVED LAST NIGHT YOU CANT GIVE ME GOOSEBUMPS LIKE THAT. IT HUUUURTS

[@doddleoddle]

Fave comment

[@kk-hs8qi]

omg

[@amelai3259]

this is the BEST comment

[@breadddie]

I'm not even sixteen yet but I relate to the song. Yeah I'm like 2 years old I haven't lived life blah blah but I still get nostalgic. To times when I was actually happy

[@albertomaciel1253]

mediocremaddie same 😕

[@laurasmovies7018]

mediocremaddie exactly!

[@cephi]

i relate

[@me-cf5te]

Same

[@claralite]

yess

[@idontknow-tj5vo]

going back to this version after listening to when in the ablum is... holy fuck

[@rebeccaogden4583]

Violin notes for this?

[@ThatGuy-rc2sg]

dodie yellow?

[@smugcuddz]

So? Have you ever TRIED DIFFERENT THINGS

[@Tothewindowtothewalls]

I need the cello part of this

[@puerhluv7412]

eileen fish So do I 😫

[@ofunne892]

Go on muse score

[@howdyitsren]

Dodie, you probably won't read this. When I was listening to the ep yesterday, I realized something. As of the moment I right this, I am seventeen, even though I have only been seventeen for about 5 minutes now. And I'm realizing that all of my happiest memories are in the past. My choir trip, jam sessions, jazz camp, getting my uke, getting accepted to university with my friends, planning a future in another city with a few of my closest friends. I'm realizing that that excitement will never happen again. I think this song hit hard. I am waiting for so many things while still trying to go back to my few happy moments. This song means a lot to me, because I want to stop faking diary entries and stop waiting to live. Thank you for this song, because it's how I was living. I'll never be sixteen again but as of now I am seventeen and i will try to start to live. Even when I'm depersonalized and gone from the world, I will try to remember that I am alive and even thought my happiest memories were last year, even if I don't fall in love or live an amazing adventure, that I will have good moments. And even though his song fills me with melancholy and worry, I want to thank you for it. Thank you, Dodie. (im still in disbelief that the ep came out the day before my birthday)

[@severin9221]

i'm totally gonna cry, Dodie's songs make me so emotional and your comment is touching too ahhh. be happy, beautiful person. bet you're the best seventeen out there! xx

[@ninjajellyfish9902]

Katie Challacombe It's amazing how Dodies songs can hit so many people in so many different ways she is such a talented song writer and should be more well known

[@rachelt4274]

+

[@notsaro]

This EP is gonna change the game

[@nikexforce]

SARO i watch your vids! keep up the great work!

[@hannahelland9278]

and my life

[@coversbykatie8892]

I first heard this song when I was 16. Hearing it on her new album all these years later really hits different

[@himeshoney]

I'm gonna be 21 in 3 months and I'm sitting here, just missing the days back in fall 2017 when I just started college qwq I just want it all to come back: Having a job at the mall even though I was pretty horrible at customer service, collecting all the courage I could by talking to the cute boy in my science class, performing and writing spoken word at every chance I got, pushing myself into these uncomfortable situations to gain confidence, all the lovely classmates and professors I befriended. As much as I love life now, those were some prime days that I don't think I'll get again. I know better days are coming, but ugh I'm just so reminiscent.

[@bara8622]

oh god "i'll never be sixteen again" fucked me up. I am sixteen. And now im having an existential crisis.

[@virgoluv2020]

Same tho

[@moltodolce7071]

me too im gone :'(

[@Danycrumble]

Don't be sad. Life is so much better six years from 16.

[@leilop123]

Me too :,((((

[@flavia4321gregorio]

Same. Tomorrow I'll have this big test to get into college and all I did today was cry. (Btw I'm sorry, my English is really bad, I'm Latina)

[@belle5238]

wOAH DODIE ARE YOU TRYINg to KILL ME WITH THIS AMAZING SONG

[@belle5238]

ily xx

[@brooklynnoe6492]

ikr

[@heyimelaine]

This wasn’t one of my favorites at the time it came out. A good song yes, but it didn’t make it onto any of my playlists. Now going through massive transitions, changing university, moving away from my childhood home, making new friends while old friends move away, this song really really hits different

[@evahadjiyanis8387]

I am so so so ready for the new version of this song on her album! March can’t come soon enough!!