where have i been?

[@fiona_blair]

ur toe lived a long and happy life and now we must mourn her 💜

[@chucklebutt4470]

She (the toe) just took a little trip upstate to live on the old family farm! Y'know, the Toe Farm!

[@evi-annezwaal4032]

no one: Marie: went through something horrible but still has beautiful nails

[@readjon]

The best nails !

[@marieroseeee]

@emtnails_ QWWWWWEEEEEN 🥰

[@evi-annezwaal4032]

@@marieroseeee LUVVITT🥰🥰🥰

[@ColoTobe]

Wow I'm glad you are as okay as you are. This sounds like it was a serious accident.

[@marieroseeee]

Thankyou so much 💕💕💕

[@chelseadutton7884]

holy shit! i was not expecting a video like this, im praying for you that you aren’t in any pain and you have a quick recovery. i’m so sorry this has happened, we are all here to support you through lockdown as much as we can! sending all the love to you! please don’t rush back into videos etc, take time for yourself too! stay safe💛xxxxxx

[@queenjulianalovesherfatban2064]

Me: cries every time I have a blood test Marie: "it's just a toe"

[@RunAndLetGo]

"Rip my toe" a natural response to losing a toe 😂

[@chucklebutt4470]

I used to be a "psych myself up while going through the stages of death" fear of needles person! I'm still not a fan but I had a genetic disorder make itself known in my 30's (5 years ago, I'm old). I've had to get many many blood tests since, IVs for surgeries etc. The pain is nothing, as you probably know, it's all of the terrible buildups!! I focus on my phone and ask that they not tell me when they're putting it in. :>

[@graceplatt9313]

Omg Marie! I'm so sorry this has happened 😞 sounds like it was a really serious accident. Self-harm is a coping mechanism so please don't feel guilty for relapsing!! Just make sure you rest up and don't worry about being inactive on social media- we all need a break sometimes. Wishing you the speediest recovery & lots of love 💘

[@ollieollieollieeee8727]

Rip Marie's toe, sending love & a speedy recovery 💞

[@Sophie-fx3tq]

Aww Marie I'm so sorry!! That's so hectic and traumatic but it looks like you're getting through it really well ❤️ I'm so so so sorry about the sh blip, just remember that numbers are better as motivators and don't indicate your worth ❤️❤️❤️I lapsed a couple days before one year this year and I commented on one of your videos and you were so amazing and supportive so I hope you're extending that kindness to yourself 🖤🖤🖤I'm so proud of you and sending you lots of love xx

[@eadaoinokeeffe4538]

Oh Marie I am so glad you’re okay I was so worried 🥺❤️ Do not feel the need to apologise to anyone!!! Put your physical and mental health first right now and just focus on mending yourself. You are amazing and your sheer strength is so so so admirable. I love you so much always and I am so glad you are ok ❤️❤️❤️

[@jessicascarlett4258]

marie i’m so sorry this has happened :( your strength is truly unbelievable. i hope everything recovers fairly quickly and remember we are all here for you

[@defonotlex]

don’t be sorry marie❤️you don’t have to ever explain yourself. sending so much love to you, you are amazing 💘💘

[@mspiper2852]

It’s indescribably traumatic to lose a body part no matter how “small” or “insignificant” (speaking from experience). Marie, it’s okay to be devastated even if you tell yourself it shouldn’t be a big deal. It is. And that’s okay. Any way you need to deal with it in each moment is a legitimate expression of grief or acceptance (or somewhere in between). I just try to keep my health and safety as a priority, which is at times difficult to do with mental health issues. (I prefer call them “brain issues” because that’s what they are. It’s truly my brain fighting against me. Mental health sounds to me as if there’s some way I should be able to control it and get over it when, in fact, as you know, nothing could be further from the truth.) Please don’t forget all who love and care for you, and too, to the contrary, don’t let others’ (or your own) perceived or real expectations become an albatross. Peace & Love to you. 💕 I’ll leave you with a quote: “Happiness is a foolish pursuit.” - Jerry Seinfeld He went on to say, life itself is what we should pursue.

[@zoebrandis5321]

I was worried about you, I'm happy you gave a little update, but don't feel pressured. You don't owe us any information, take your time :) love you xxx Happy to hear you are healing!!

[@dominiqueensing8112]

Marie oh my goodness thank God you're alive. your beautiful soul is so evident like- your sat filming a video with only 9 toes, broken bones and still smiling. so grateful for you and inspired by your fight for life and recovery. sending love and hugs xxx

[@lucyx7110]

How did the accident happen? And why does the police have your phone ? Glad you are ok🥰

[@racheld6205]

Oh Marie :( I'm so sorry you were in an accident! I was hoping things were ok cos I noticed you'd gone quiet. What happened with the car accident? Is everyone else who was in the car ok? Sending lots of love and healing thoughts. ❤❤❤❤

[@jadesmith6626]

Will you do a video explaining the accident ? Obviously once the shock has passed. Can’t believe this has happened! Wishing you a speedy recovery x

[@Maisiejayofficial.]

I’m so proud of you, for everything you’ve been through so far your showing the world how strong you are. Also I spoke to my CPN and she said they won’t be doing face to face appointments she said it will all be over phone or on WebEx x

[@evecoates3261]

Omg Marie this breaks my heart, could the world not give you a god damn break🤕. Regardless get well soon❤️

[@carlaharrison4199]

stay strong sweetheart. hope you rest well and recover quickly xxx - If you need to talk ever, please do reach out. you're doing so well

[@GoAwayThankYou]

If there’s anyone on this planet that deserves all the happiness and goodness in life, it’s Marie. Sending so much love 💖

[@sydshortman]

you don't have to feel guilty for what you chose to share or not share - that being said, I so appreciate your honesty and transparency. also I don't know if this is bad but I laughed when you were so nonchalant about losing a toe. like thats a whole ass toe.

[@marieroseeee]

Hahaha!! Thank you so Much for the support 💕💖💕

[@ClaudiaRodriguez-fp6hh]

Hi Marie 😊 just wanted to send you a big hug and all the positive vibes for a speedy recovery. You are a young and strong woman and I admire you so much!! You over come so many things and suffered even more and still you get up every day and do your best. That’s admirable and you should be proud of yourself. This is just a stone on your pathway nothing more. I know it’s easy to say than done but you got this. Love you pretty girl! Keep it up ❤️

[@hadlyclutter1954]

Thank you for your honesty in sharing your SH relapse. I know that must have been hard but I can tell you're in a good place if you're able to talk about it and not hide it! So even though it was a little "blip", it's still such a sign of your growth that you can move past it and remain healthy!

[@sadiehebb1336]

Wish you a speedy recovery xxx

[@libbyharcourt4254]

damnnn marie i didnt expect this!! hope you have a speedy recovery and stay strong because you got this! xx

[@katiedalrymple2661]

been thinking of you so much over these past few weeks. sending so much love and healing thoughts. please take all the time you need for you 🤍

[@Alyssaishunting]

Wow Marie you are SO strong, all you have been through, you are an incredibly amazing human being. I am so proud of you for getting through all that you have ❤️ I am so sorry to hear about your accident, but I know you will be able to get through it, because again, you are so incredibly strong ❤️

[@domy6827]

you are so right, one blip does not erase months of being clean 🧡 I know you can do it because you've helped me know that I can do it

[@kasiam9724]

Marie, your strength and motivation is truly inspirational! Just take all the time you need for recovery, don't feel pressured to be active online! We will wait if needed 🙂 sending love and wishes for speedy recovery xxxxx

[@sigitadombrovska6596]

Honestly you’re one most amazing person I’ve ever know such a strong girl also honest and inspirational to everyone who watching you keep this up my friend sending loads of love and hugs 💗💗💗👍🏻🥰XXX

[@Toffee146]

Oh my God, Marie. 😢 I'm so shocked, and worried about you. What a terrible thing to happen. Sending hugs to you and Pip. Don't you EVER apologise. You're not in the least selfish. Take as much time as you need to recover and rest. Cuddle with Albie, eat nice food, sleep lots and just take your time. You're so important. Love sent from Sheffield. 💜♥️💜♥️💜♥️💜♥️💜

[@kristase]

I hope you heal and feel better soon! Xoxo ❤️

[@sakuram4908]

aw marie you are such a wonderful human being i really really wish you all the best my heart really goes out to you! Sending you so much love and so much healing energy- i know that youre strong enough to get through this!! listen to your inner wisdom and take all the time you need. youve got this ;)

[@tanyamarie1992]

Wishing you a speedy recovery!! xx

[@goosesmommy6626]

Oh my gosh! I feel terrible for you. You really got hurt. I’m SO sorry. Take care of yourself.

[@maddisonbuss6938]

Hey Marie, I’m glad you’re on the mend! I’m a CPN and we are still allowed to see face to face but we are advised to see via Skype if possible! I hope this helps☺️ sorry to hear about your SH blip, stay strong x

[@lesleyrobinson2905]

I hope you are on the mend and stay safe xx🤗

[@alexandralaudenbach7628]

Okay but with the fomo part with lockdown, I feel it. One of my biggest struggles is dealing with fomo and I can never talk to anyone about it bc Its so selfish, so I'm happy you said that. I'm so happy you are doing so well, Marie, you're such an inspiration.

[@alexandralaudenbach7628]

Also, I'm 9 months clean and this is the longest I've ever made it, its been so hard to get this far.

[@marieroseeee]

Im so proud of you!!!!! 9 months is incredible! 💕 you should be so proud of yourself. And yes, fomo is horrible !! It’s selfish but true!

[@maddyf9367]

i really wish you a speedy recovery. all my love❤️❤️❤️

[@domy6827]

a blip does not erase all the months you were clean. I like the method where you can still count your cumulative progress, like "x" months - "y" days, because it still acknowledges all the progress and days clean that you did

[@doroteahybska3405]

Stay strong! I hope you’ll feel better soon and i hope your physical health will be ok soon!

[@sophiek8915]

you have been through so much and if you can get through that you can get through anything!

[@lesleysmith7897]

Omg, I'm so sorry to hear that you were in an accident and suffered horrendous injuries 😢 Don't be hard on yourself for having a SH blip....they happen. It doesn't mean Dylan, Pip, your family and other friends will love you any less. You'll still get to see your CMHT if you get meds by injection but if not they'll still be on the end of the phone (I'm in Scotland) so it could be different for you. Take care and you stay safe. Sending lots of love and hugs ❤❤❤❤ xxxx

[@ameliahearn4617]

Wishing you a quick recovery Marie !!

[@ninaaishling7873]

Omg Marie 🥺🥺 I'm so sorry, wishing you a very speedy recovery and I sending lots of fucking love ❤️

[@jennatheanxiousdancer]

You’re the strongest woman, keep being your incredible self. Thank you for inspiring myself and so many people across the world, stay strong 💓 Sending all the love and gentle hugs your way 💗

[@dpiswife]

Aw man Marie, that's brutal!! You're an icon, I'm wishing you a quick recovery!! You're so strong dude.

[@Charlotte-ji3vl]

Once again I am so glad that you're alive (altho rip to the toe), this was such a traumatic experience and being able to speak about it must be so hard. I hope everyone (inc yourself) makes a swift recovery. sending love 💘

[@tylerbuckle424]

sending you so much love and good vibes, also dont be disapointed in yourself for the relapse, recovery isnt linear! almost making it to a year shows how much hard work you've put in to get to this point, one small blip doesn't change that. hope you get better soon

[@sarahsafe1574]

Glad you are getting physically better , sorry u were injured in an accident . Keep posting n reaching out . We care about u , pip , ella n gang . Your not alone . 2nd lockdown sucks but gives u time to recover . I am still in the 1st lockdown . 248 days in lockdown so far . No support from mental health team for 3 months then was getting 10 minutes call once a month . No family or friends . It's a struggle . Your videos give me hope . Thank u remember we r here for you always xx

[@Vicky-pv1px]

hey hun, i totally understand you... I’ve been in an accident as well, nearly two months ago. I was at hospital for over four weeks and broke 7 ribs, my ankle and the lower part of my back. It‘s been so hard, especially for my mental health because you have to be strong all the time and no one to talk to. I just want you to know that you’re not alone and other people lay in bed, can‘t move and still watch your videos. You are so strong ⭐️

[@ebelynmartinez882]

hope you get better soon marie!! stay strong!! we love you so much 💜💜💜

[@KikiKiki-do1fr]

You are so brave and admirable 😘 take care

[@domy6827]

maybe a body appreciation video? I think the perspective of 'love your body just because it is alive' would be so good like, we don't often take the chance to appreciate that our bodies are what let us experience the world, so regardless of what our bodies look like, they are awesome! Of course I want to nourish my body, because it is the vessel within which I can interact with the world, you know, spend time with the people I love, all the good things that I experience wow I got fired up lol anyway, yes, I would love to see a 'bodies are good. full stop' video

[@quavaface7128]

Oml I'm so releaved honestly as weird as that sounds. I thought you had done something really bad :( I was worried about youu!! I'm so happy your safe though

[@kiaradorey3231]

Marie YOU HAVE OVER COME SO MUCH YOU ARE SO STRONGL! U HAVE MANAGED ALL UR LOWEST DAYS AND IT DOESN'T END HERE. My advice to you: remember all the things that helped U last time including Pip. Call her rn! U don't know me but I still fucking love and support U, Kiara!

[@yasminsweety123]

pfff .. mariee so happy you are okay !! holy shit. sending healing vibess your way xxxxlovaya

[@emmacardi1405]

prayers for a quick recovery.💗💗💗

[@ceceg.m.5540]

oh my god this sounds so serious i’m so glad you are okay. it sounds so hard, we are hear for you, take your time, REST all u want. love you !

[@jana-sophie]

I am so glad that your okay. I love and appreciate you so so much and I wish you a fast and safe recovery. Lots of love to you ❤️

[@zainashawli3245]

Hope you get better soon Marie💕 you’ve got this

[@enochiancurses]

i’m so sorry you had to go through this marie, i hope you’ll feel better soon and that lockdown won’t be too hard, just think that by the end of it you’ll probably be free from casts and bandages and able to do whatever you want🧡 you don’t owe us any explanation but thank you for being so real and honest, we don’t know each other but i really care about you and wish you all the best!

[@bethanlee5280]

OMG so glad ur ok and still here hope u get well soon my love goes out to u xxxxxxxx

[@amandazoemiddletonburgon7787]

Oh gosh you poor thing, I hope you’re ok ❤️ take all the time you need to recover and I wish you a speedy and easy recovery ❤️

[@domy6827]

so proud of you for caring about your own wellbeing 🧡🧡 you are such a good example to us. what you share helps me so much :)

[@x0tappincutie408]

Do you ever feel like when your scars fade it triggers you more? If so maybe that could be a video idea on how to deal with the fact that scars fade but it doesn’t mean what you’ve been through is not valid anymore. Hope you are getting stronger each day Marie!

[@ellararooroo]

i’m so sorry that this shit happened to you Marie!! i’m proud of you for getting through this, no matter how you have done. i’m still seeing the mental health team in person so i don’t know why you couldn’t. lots of love and i hope things aren’t as painful soon 💜✨

[@meganblack7921]

Prayers to you girl you got this 💪💛

[@rachaeljelley5365]

Oh Marie I hope you make a speedy recovery xx

[@krane8349]

I’m glad you’re okay! I hope you continue to take this time to rest and heal

[@gingerels]

honestly 2020 is throwing EVERYTHING 😞 aw I really hope you are doing ok Marie, that must have been so awful, & is so so frustrating to go through - waiting for physical injuries to heal is such a long boring process, but it will come to an end & you will come out the other side!! So pleased you are home safe, keep your head up lovely & try & keep as busy as you can, sending you so much love & best wishes ❤️ x x

[@elisastoner3705]

I'm so happy you made it through such an awful accident. You mean so much to all of us❤❤ I hope you give yourself alot of grace a patience while your healing . In the US we can see psychiatrists and therapists on Apps such as Doctors on Demand. I visit my psychiatrist and therapist online. Do you have options like that in your area? I'm sorry to hear what your going through but we're here for you as you've been here for us, big huge hug !!❤🤗🤗

[@aeaxo]

Thank god you’re alive and healing! I’m sorry you’ve had to go through the experience girl, main thing is you’re home and safe now! Sending all my love ❤️

[@alive.mp3992]

Omg I'm shocked. I'm so glad your are kinda okay right now ❤️❤️❤️

[@martyna1961]

I'm in tears, Marie.. I love you so much! I just want to give you a big hug rn.. I'm so fcking happy you're alright. I was worried about you when you went offline but I thought it was just poor mental health and you'd come back and be ok. I genuinely started tearing up at the intro. At first glance I thought it was mental health related and I'm so proud of you for it not being mental health and that relapse is totally ok because you just experienced something traumatic. But you mentioning an accident is heartbreaking. It looks really serious but you seem like you're handling it well so go you! I'm so sorry it happened but I'm glad you're doing better and don't ever feel guilty about not posting, life is hard and sometimes there are more important things than a stupid youtube video. You take care of yourself and remember that we all adore you! Marie, you are an absolute sweetheart and I'm so glad you're ok! 💗

[@marieroseeee]

ThAnkyou so much Martyna 😘 ‘this means so much to me. Sending big love cxxxx

[@kylasharkey]

Oh my gosh Marie im so sorry! Im so glad you're healing so well and i hope it keeps going amazing 💖

[@claragf2010]

I was so worried about you not being on social media. I'm so sorry about the accident, sending lots of love to you ❤💕

[@conniesally6001]

Sending so many hugs (gentle ones of course) xxx

[@oliviakoy9854]

I am so sorry this accident happened to you! I hope you are doing well and getting stronger, mentally and physically ily queen

[@rachelflorence726]

Marie 🥺🥺🥺 I’m so glad you’re ok!! This video made me cry you don’t deserve this. I hope you’ll be ok in lockdown, I’ll be thinking of you across the pond in America. Love you always xx

[@SammyGrimm]

I’m so sorry babe! I’m so happy you’re okay 💖

[@meganbuncexx7804]

stay strong sweetie, you deserve the best recovery! xx

[@amyrowlands3431]

Sending you lots of speedy recovery love, I love your videos I think your amazing stay strong beaut 🥰😘 xxx

[@rhon0x]

RTAs can be very traumatising and it sounds like it was pretty serious too :( I'm glad you are recovering well and your progress is showing!

[@rhon0x]

Oh and I don't think they're allowing face-to-face consultations regarding mental health at the moment, everything is done on video call and phone calls. I've been video calling my therapist throughout the whole pandemic because of it all. Obvs they will be doing face to face things when its an emergency which requires patient contact :)

[@greenbugs007]

Oh my gosh I'm so sorry this happened to you that is absolute shit luck of the draw. It's going to be rough but you'll be stronger. I was in a bad accident in Feb and there is some mental residual crap but it gets better fast enough ! You'll be stronger for it

[@marieroseeee]

ThAnkyou so much - hoping you’re okay too! Sending hugs x

[@montannamariespringer4657]

Oh my goodness you poor poor thing!!! I’m so so sorry this happened. You are so strong Marie ❤️x

[@becpinkspirationvizi1017]

Sending you lots of love & hope your recovery goes well. I can understand injuries. Don’t feel sorry for not being able to be on social media, I’m so glad that you are okay & sending you love. And know it’s okay to feel sad, frustrated & more after injuries & recovering physically. I’m proud that you can recognise the relapse. Take one new day at a time. 💖💕

[@icefallssnowstorms3224]

I’m so sorry this happened to you Marie. Hope you have a speedy recovery.

[@alisheamerritt8311]

Im so glad ur ok omg ur so amazing say strong praying for u

[@annmarie9163]

Prayers for a great recovery. Yeah, I had a blip, you had a blip. Damn lock down is testing me .....

[@elliemay2212]

Sending love and hugs, speedy recovery xxxxxxxx

[@thehoundhedgehoghippie7346]

Awh love you angel 💜 sending my best wishes xxx

[@mamitachichi]

Thinking of you, prayers for a speedy recovery.

[@sarawatkins1086]

Oh my goodness Marie. So glad you are okay! What a massive shock for you. Sending so much love. Be kind to yourself and it’s okay that you had a SH blip. It happens. Please don’t beat yourself up. So glad you are ok. Xxxx

[@julluetulle]

I wish you a really speedy recovery, you’ve got this! Xx

[@marieroseeee]

Thanks Julie!! Xxxx

[@emilydallas03]

aw I hope you get better soon Marie and have a speedy recovery!! also rip your toe :( sending lots of love xxxxx

[@gingersnap5460]

Omg Marie I’m so happy that your okay! I’m so sorry you had to go through this I’ll be praying for you, I hope you feel better soon! I love you and miss you!😘💕

[@zararakkar9544]

Your beautiful, grateful, and these hard times make us strong. You inspire me so much marie 💓

[@maddy7680]

You are so incredibly strong Marie!! I’m so glad you’re okay💗