where you go when you don't belong

Hi guys!!
First of all thank you to everyone who is here and watches my videos, I feel very lucky to have more than 10.000 people on this channel! The comments I receive are nothing short of magical, thank you for this.
Secondly, another TVlog this week! This time I speak about the 7 seconds that it takes to judge something or someone. It’s crazy how fast our minds work to make up our minds about others. I live in London and always felt a sense of disconnect with others, sometimes it feels like we’re too busy minding our business and miss out seeing each other, it almost feels like the world is in reverse sometimes. I hope you enjoy this video and that you’ve had a good week!
Ps: excuse my terrible acting at the start in the car scene
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Music used in this video:
1. School by Supertramp
2. From A Common Centre by K. Leimer
3. Prophecies by Philip Glass
4. Eu Não Vou Mais by Ed Lincoln
5. Comin’ Home Baby by Booker T. & the M.G.’s
6. Llano by Harold Budd
You can find a collection of all the tracks I’ve used in this, and previous episodes on my Spotify playlist: open.spotify.c...
This channel is not monetized; all ad revenue goes to the respective owners of the tracks
Extra info:
Camera: I use a Sony ZVE10, a Panasonic and JVC camcorder and sometimes an off brand Go Pro
Editing: Final Cut Pro X
What do I study?: Neuroscience!
How old are you?: 21
Where are you from?: The Netherlands, I'm half Brazilian half Dutch
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[@Yours_sincerely_thedreamer]

As freeing as the whole „you can be anything if you just work hard enough“ mindset of our western culture is, it has a really really dark side. Because if you turn it around it says: If you dont become something great you haven’t worked hard enough and you are a failure. It is the doctrine of our generation, the rhythm to which we jog in the morning, do our skin routine and learn for exams. We become fragmented from society, our own little microcosms that struggle to survive in the little jars that our heads are. It becomes all about us and that we become better, greater, more unique, more special. We think we will be happy and be loved if we reach that goal, but the truth is to be loved we have to start looking at other people and love them. To be happy we have to stop constantly judging ourselves and pulling ourselves further.

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hi luisa-can i call u that? apologies for overstepping any bounds. i’ve been dealing with a severe bout of anhedonia due to post-psychosis depression, so to say that i’ve been emotionally castrated would be a gross understatement. nothing seems to be able to grip my attention, except your video happened to be a rare exception. watching this gave me hope, and made me feel more connected to humanity than i have in months….maybe even years. you remind me a lot of myself before shit hit the fan and insanity cannibalized my soul for the better half of my early twenties. moments like these are what i like to call “glimmers,” the fog lifts for a moment and i remember….it… that feeling that buzzes through your entire being when you drop an obscure reference and instead of being met with a dull expression of annoyance and contempt, the other person’s eyes light up and the corners of their mouth peels back and there’s that….synergy….im rambling but i haven’t felt this seen in a while. your voice is powerful. don’t forget that

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Hi star, this is one of the most touching comments i’ve received, thank you for taking the time to write it. I’m really glad that my videos can help you in any way possible and I really hope they will continue to bring you peace. If you don’t already, you should think about writing !! Thank you for this :)

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Great video again! Your wording of your thoughts is really incredible and really mind opening, it made me think about the 7 seconds people may judge me, similar to you involving secret farts- Cough cough- anyway that eating scene was incredible and I really loved the track you used behind that! Although I cant understand, "Eu Não Vou Mais", it made me want to jam! Lastly thanks for sharing the saying that there is nothing stopping oneself into being phenomenal, and the fact that you should believe in yourself. It genuinely is really helpful. Anyways good luck on your Neuroscience exams! I should also probably be studying for my own exams, but im taking Comp Sci so it is much easier.😅

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That's what happens when we were not "expected" apparently... but how to transform the matrix?

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what camera do you use? mine broke so I’m looking for a new one ;)

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I wanna know too !

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Pbbly imovie, judging for the macbook pro shots

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This video has so much sauce, the direction and music is so well done.

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This is about exactly where I am in life since I can remember.

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This is so… good. I see we all haven’t lost touch with ourselves out here in the Tubes. This has truly inspired me to journal out my real thought. I have been waiting for I didn’t know what. My favorite art movie theater closed down and I have been feeling bereft because a mood would always strike and I just had to see what was playing there. I would sit with my perfect bag of popcorn with the other quietly interesting people and we would silently share the experience but no-one ever engaged in conversation because I imagined we were all engaged in meaningful inner dialogue. That is why people like us needed to meet at the interesting people theater. ❤

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Oof Now those were a lot of emotions Thank you

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[@AnnaMariaLuisa.]

thank you a lot, this was beautifully said :)) ❤️

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toothbrush moment is really jokey

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ahaha i thought the toothbrush was gonna say something else

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What movies or shows inspire your monologues/narration?

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AA LOVE THIS!! The Cinematography >>>

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