Why I Chose To Be Homeless | Part 1

[@rachelspencer777]

I understand that “stuck” or “caged” feeling of staying in the same hometown for too long. I was extremely sheltered growing up by my very religious family and I’ve lived in my birth town my whole life (24 years) and even though I tried living elsewhere (Iowa and Mexico) with cousins whom I love, I always ended up back here in my hometown. I could get super into it, but to sum it up, I feel so much more content now than I did a few years ago. I’m so sorry that your family acts that way :( I’m SO GLAD that you realized your worth. I think you’re extremely brave for not only taking the leap to live on your own, but also for sharing your story, fears, and hopes with us on KZbin. Keep being amazing 🌟🩷

[@jacobbgreen]

@@rachelspencer777 rachel i love u so much and always get such joy when u comment. it really brightens my day to see me posting can create an open conversation on these situations, cause truth is i feel so many ppl go through it but dont know what to capacity they can share or where to go. i appreciate u sharing with me, and for always being here 🫶🏽 im gonna keep being brave, and keep sharing, because it seems to be making a difference, which is rewarding enough for me. i appreciate the lengths u go to make me feel seen and heard always, and i love u 🌻

[@rachelspencer777]

@ I love u too 💕

[@pmn44]

One of the hardest lessons I learned in my life is that family doesn't mean unconditional love and everything good. I've suffered emotional abuse from my oldest sister and 8 years ago found out the reason - she confessed she was always jealous of me because we have different fathers and she felt I had the better-looking dad and good genes. Today I don't have any expectations for our relationship and I have also set boundaries because I don't need that negativity, and I don't need any more games and passive aggressive behavior towards me. I am fine with things now because I am taking care of myself and my emotional wellbeing. It is a journey, Jacob, and I pray that if you haven't already.....found the inner peace you need and deserve.

[@jacobbgreen]

thank u for sharing, and im sorry this is something u went through, although im assuming ur in a place now where ur realize its helped u l, thank u for being here to support me on my journey. life has ups and downs but its always calming to be surrounded by people who get u and who care, i love u 🩵

[@pmn44]

@@jacobbgreen - Of course, you're welcome! It's interesting how challenging life experiences build strength and self-awareness. Going through that did help me because the growth I've seen in myself is noticeable - to me. It's all so personal. Please take good care of yourself and be safe. I am glad you find the communication on this platform helpful and encouraging. I love u too 💞

[@moonshapedsmile]

just stumbled across your channel and your story is so impactful. you’re such an inspiring person and the way you create boundaries and stand up for yourself is admirable. im currently going through a similar situation and it’s such a weight off of my shoulders knowing that im not alone. please continue to be strong and be safe! happy new year to you jacob, i wish you nothing but the best 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷

[@jacobbgreen]

hi moon! im happy u found my page, and i hope u find a way through ur current situation. im here for u always, and im grateful for ur recognition & love, ill keep showing up 🤍

[@barbiemonroe]

We family now Jacob we got your back❤ nothing but ❤ here

[@jacobbgreen]

@@barbiemonroe i love u monroe 🙂‍↔️ thank u for always showing up to support me, family forever 🫶🏽

[@xolilemtembu8522]

I'm proud of you stranger and I'm rooting for you

[@jacobbgreen]

@@xolilemtembu8522 thank you 🥺

[@volume7478]

i enjoy watching your videos bc i can see myself a lot in you 😭 i related to just about everything u said. from being caged to old environments to being the peacekeeper. pouring your heart into your family only to get nothing but disrespect (especially homophobia in my experience). it’s exhausting. im sorry u had to go through that :( thanks for sharing ur story with us, im looking forward to the next parts 🫶

[@jacobbgreen]

volume it makes me so happy to keep seeing ur comments, ive always felt alone but i am so grateful to genuinely connect with ppl who see me & love me for me. thank u for sharing ur experience with me! it is definitely hard, and hard to wrap ur head around, but sharing allows me to release what i can 🌻 i love u and am so happy to hear ur waiting for the next parts, stay tuned! gogo ⛓️‍💥

[@SaltyLassie]

Your true feelings, you display so well in your expressions.

[@jacobbgreen]

thank you 🥺 and thank u for taking the time to watch. i appreciate ur support this story has been difficult alone to share, more coming soon

[@heidigratton6408]

Jacob, I have empathy for you being in such a difficult situation. You’re in my thoughts. I can honestly say that if I had to leave my current apartment I’d have to rely on family or live in my car. It has become so expensive to live these days

[@jacobbgreen]

@@heidigratton6408 thank u for ur unconditional love & help heidi, i appreciate u saying that. the world is definitely expensive and will always continue to grow with dollar bills attached to every price tag. this experience has been a learning experience for sure, as. icontracted something because of it. doing the best i can do, but it doesnt teach u a lot. the thicker challenges make u such a stronger and wiser individual. dont be afraid if this is something u ever feel called to do or give a try, just try to be safe. this is not an ideal living space for me, but i still have hope & a smile on my face 🙂‍↔️

[@airashiitheempress5798]

I’m sorry that you had to go through such disrespect since you were young. I’ve seen your series and it was so heartbreaking to watch but so good I couldn’t stop watching. all the times you been mistreated by family and friends or just dealing with everyone’s bs while being the younger brother and the most attentive and caring because I have always been the same way with family and close friends. But luckily I have close relationships with all my siblings and my parents now and am very close to them today but it was a long and tumultuous journey to get here. We been thru hell and now my parents getting old and two my sisters live out of state with their families while my only older brother and eldest sister and their kids take care of my parents. We are dysfunctional but my parents always taught us to stay together because you all you have in the world. But I totally understand you and one thing I learned is that we have to respect and support other peoples boundaries. Take accountability and show up for people that will show up for you. God bless your channel and so proud of you for being able to stand your ground and show people that you deserve the same love and respect you always give others. It’s so simple but people make it so hard. Stay up and safe you deserve to be a star. Congrats and hope you accomplish all your goals and receive everything you want for your life 🙏🏾✨😊😘

[@jacobbgreen]

@airashiitheempress5798 im tearing up reading this, thank u aira for sharing and being transparent with me. it makes me so overwhelmed with joy that someone said they watched my series fully and enjoyed it, because it truly took a lot out of me, gutfully and emotionally, to retell and figure out a way to bring justice to my own life myself. it was cery hard to open up, i was never someone to do that and nobody taught me. having the love & support shine down on me when i chose right feels like an eternal win. im so grateful to have u apart of my community and my family, and we are in this together. i hope better for my family in the future, truly. i just know at this time in my life, choosing me is how i move forward. ill trust the timing and the process of it all. thank u for being here always, i love u 🙂‍↔️🤍

[@felipemarquez9258]

I just wanted to say I really commend you for being so open as well as for your strength having to retell and relive all of this your an incredibly strong person and i am so exited for your future I just know all of the time and energy your investing in your self is gonna be so worth it in the end keep your head up queen❤❤❤❤

[@jacobbgreen]

@@felipemarquez9258 felipe this message is beyond generous. i appreciate u taking the time to love & care for me, thank u for seeing me and recognizing the strength it took to retell. im happy ur here, and im happy i am too, i wasnt sure how id get here or where i was going, im grateful to be alive more than anything 💜

[@luvlytxchicpr445]

Very well communicated, Jacob. I know you felt liberated speaking your truth so far. I know I don't know every detail, but I know enough to see through people's bullsh*t. Unfortunately, sometimes you have to love people from a distance. Not to dampen the situation even more, but sometimes family are the first to f*ck over you. We have to show people how to treat us by not tolerating disrespect. I'm proud of you. ❤

[@jacobbgreen]

@@luvlytxchicpr445 thank u for this luvly, and im so glad to see u. ur support always lightens up my day 🩵 family problems can be so tough because its the first thing were born into, its the first wound created when we enter this world. u nailed it on the dot, but when do u not? i love u and always appreciate ur support 💌 sending love, thank u always :)

[@felicia1791]

Praying for you Hun❤ Love your humble personality ❤

[@jacobbgreen]

@@felicia1791 aww thank u felicia, and thanks for the prayers! sending love 💌

[@felicia1791]

@@jacobbgreen Thank you 🙏

[@mvbigmagic4048]

I don't know how old you are, but I respect so much that you are able to discern how toxic your family member was. I'm 52, and I'm just realizing..... how badly I was treated...... and how simply wrong it was for me to tolerate that kind of disrespect for so many decades. The body keeps the score. Much love and respect to you.

[@jacobbgreen]

i just turned 24, and age is just a number. im proud of u for finding ur worth, thats already the first step in healing is recognizing it. thank u for sharing, it always makes me happy to see people sharing, thats all we can do to try and make a change, u never know whos watching. thank u for being here, i love u 🫶🏽

[@freepeltiple2]

17:36 about the sister, theres a lot of power in going "no contact" and saying that term. Blocked is a loose sort of term, and its not given the same respect as going no contact with someone. And theres a lot of resources you can find under that key term for childhood trauma healing!

[@jacobbgreen]

that makes sense, i guess i was just telling it how it left my lips. and i mentioned “for 7 months” so i think it implies no contact. thank u for the attentiveness and support on the video! 🫶🏽

[@planetwrath7950]

I feel bad for the youger generations so quick to give up on family. Such a lack of unconditional love. Your not alone in cutting ties and enatrangment its part of whats fueling homelessness. I personally couldnt imagine cutting out my sibling for what you mentioned here. I kinda feel like my sister did way worse to me when we were younger and we have stil managed to alway forgive each other. Granted we didnt have social media complicating it all.

[@jacobbgreen]

@@planetwrath7950 i also think we are our own individuals living our own realities, feeling & existing differently. what hurts me may not hurt u, and vice versa. what im sensitive to or have experienced can still feel different to me even if youve been through “worse”, i get what u mean by that but it really is all subjective in the end. and i dont believe social media complicates how we process our feelings, i think it actually gives young ppl, and ppl of all ages the platform to speak things off their chest, its kinda like free therapy. its also a platform, where by u sharing u could just be helping other ppl be seen (like you), as u just shared your similar experience. thats just my personal take. thank u for supporting the channel & the video 🦋 im appreciative of u

[@agustinapersia167]

As a person that has been deeply hurt by my family, but has stayed as well, taking care of yourself and looking after yourself it’s not a bad idea either, like you can’t expect the younger generation to keep on carrying the same baggage as the ones prior, not because things have always been a certain way it means that we need to keep on going at it like that, families are getting broken because there’s a consistent lack of empathy and compassion, that’s breaking families, not choosing to cut off toxic relationships, without unconditional love a family is just a bunch of people related by blood messing with your mind and spirit much worse than if you were alone by your own free choice.

[@lindafuller446]

Kapil Gupta has a video called “The Prison of Need”. It helped me realize there’s so much peace of mind when you don’t need anybody to be a certain way. Just a suggestion.

[@jacobbgreen]

@@lindafuller446 thank u for this linda! im always open to digesting new content/perspective, ill check it out 🩷

[@EatingWithDimi]

❤❤❤❤❤ I usually have words but just hearts today. ❤❤❤❤❤

[@diamondbeats2024]

You could be a model!!! Also homelessness is the worst 💔 I’m so sorry you’re going thru this.

[@jacobbgreen]

@@diamondbeats2024 thank u diamond 🩵

[@TheVoicesOfTheVictimsSpeak]

Maybe it might help you, but you will work hard for something greater and more special. ❤🎉

[@jacobbgreen]

@@TheVoicesOfTheVictimsSpeak i believe that to be true, thank u for spreading ur hope with me, i appreciate u being here 🤍

[@TheVoicesOfTheVictimsSpeak]

@@jacobbgreen You are welcome.

[@hannahzander9541]

You have a great voice and great camera presence. I hope you're pursuing something to use your gifts and talent.

[@jacobbgreen]

@@hannahzander9541 this is a sweet message that means a lot to me 🥹 i really appreciate that hannah, i love u & thank u for seeing me!

[@MakapatagMalaon]

You have an interesting story and perspective. Sucks your family life was so dysfunctional. I’m rooting for you and I hope things work in your favor soon

[@jacobbgreen]

@@MakapatagMalaon ty maka for taking the time to listen 🩵 theres more to come soon & im grateful u were able to see where im coming from, thank u for sharing ur love & support with me, i love u

[@MakapatagMalaon]

@ I go by Mak and I’m looking forward to seeing how your journey turns out

[@qwertyqwert2772]

people just make me confused af

[@jacobbgreen]

@@qwertyqwert2772 lifes confusing, but rewarding

[@jacquelinea8719]

speak, bro 👋👋👋 ❤‍🩹 thank you for this

[@jacobbgreen]

@@jacquelinea8719 thank you for uplifting me, im doing my best to make a difference🫶🏽

[@rachelspencer777]

Heyy sissy, if you’re reading this: PLEASE at LEAST apologize for blocking your little brother and hurting him. If you’re not ready to apologize, then you’re not ready to heal the relationship.

[@jacobbgreen]

@@rachelspencer777 i fuck with u so hard rachel, u are top tier i love you!! 🫶🏽

[@rachelspencer777]

@ you’ve clearly matured past her limits 🤦🏼‍♀️ ily 2! I hope you have a good day today!

[@nonyabeznez7384]

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[@Lonniedigital]

💙💙

[@renewashington791]

Jacob, I’m So Sorry about what you’re experiencing right now. But please know that you’re **Not aLone** when it comes to Dysfunctional families. We have Only to turn on the tv news 📺 to hear about aLL the havoc being Wreaked in so-caLLed “families”. The thing that I Try to remember tho is that I MUST and WILL HAVE PEACE 🦋 🌺 💟 Therefore, I beseech you, Jacob, to Please Protect your Peace at aLL cost!! Because it reaLLy seems to me that on some level you’re being Gaslighted by certain members of your family!! It’s difficult, but perhaps it’s necessary for you to Back Up and Step Off so that you’ll have the ability to Do The Things that are important for your own HeaLing and Mental Health.

[@jacobbgreen]

@@renewashington791 thank u rene 🥺 im still in the thick of it it feels, and i do wish things were different, but they arent. and for what its teaching me, im grateful for it. ill do what i need to do for my energy and my peace, and thank u for being here to lean on, i love u always 🌻

[@renewashington791]

@ I **Love You More** dear Heart 💜 🤗 I’m kinda down Bad myself at the moment, but As SOON as I see a Ray of Light that I KNOW the Most High 👑 will shine My Way in order to Guide me thru, I Will NOT forget You 🥰 but I will share whatever BLessings are Bestowed upon me. UntiL that time and in whatever Circumstance we find ourselves, I Pray that we will ALways remember God’s Thoughts toward us (JEREMIAH 29:11)

[@vlanillla]

beautiful

[@jacobbgreen]

Thank you! 😊

[@florafury]

Don't feel bad about letting go of family. Sometimes it is needed to reset boundaries and for you to be finally treated as an adult. I went years without speaking to my mom. We finally have a speaking relationship again and we have a much better and respectful relationship as a result. Right now, I'm currently not speaking to my brother b/c he is a Trump loving, Andrew Tate loving a**hole who is afraid to tell his son (my nephew) about his gay aunt (me). Maybe one day he'll have a change of heart but I'm not holding my breath. He is an older sibling too and I've always been the one who took care of him (been the nurturer). I finally let that all go and saw that certain members of family were selfish, immature and lacked empathy. Stay strong and safe. Please get yourself involved in a community that will embrace and love you for who you are. I see a performer spirit in you and I know that a performer community would embrace you. I eventually got a lot of chosen family and friends through my performer community who have been much more supportive than my own.

[@jacobbgreen]

i always love hearing from u flora 🥺 im sorry about ur brother, it can hurt when someone uve known ur whole life & have given so much too cant care enough to give u the loyalty, the space to be respected for who u are, and even if he doesnt agree, to give his kids the chance to make that choice for themselves. u are very strong and i appreciate u taking the time to show me love. i hope my connotation of family changes soon, and i believe it will. thank u for seeing right through me, i love u always back 🫶🏽

[@florafury]

@@jacobbgreen Always. Be careful during these LA fires too. Was thinking about you during that.

[@jacobbgreen]

@ thank u flora! its been a little all over the place, ended up trying to drive and find a different place to park at midnight. ill keep u updated 🩵

[@R1se-Inspire]

Thanks for the video! 😁👋

[@jacobbgreen]

thank u for watching inspire 🌻

[@thevixenxiii]

Nope the fact she unblocked just to ask about helping her with her TikTok wow … nope

[@jacobbgreen]

this 👍🏽

[@livlovely5250]

This is besides the point, but i just wanted to let you know you're a very beautiful person. Inside and out! ❤ sorry about your family. I understand that struggle very well.

[@jacobbgreen]

@@livlovely5250 thank u liv 🥺 i appreciate u being here

[@Wewereneveryoung]

Um... you could definitely model 😮

[@jacobbgreen]

@@Wewereneveryoung thank you :)

[@TonJane-i2i]

Fake homeless stop capin

[@jacobbgreen]

@@TonJane-i2i this is the dumbest comment i’ve ever seen award 🏆

[@TonJane-i2i]

@jacobbgreen thank u I work very hard 😆 🤣

[@-0mon]

​​@TonJane-i2i Why be hateful towards this person when you could be loving. I hope you receive the love you deserve despite your attitude towards this person Bless you, and bless others and stop the hatred because that isn't really who you truly are.

[@Pedrodocstalks]

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[@MayAhmed-x4r]

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