Why I DIDN’T Quit YouTube when Nothing was Going Right for Years, & A Heart-to-Heart

[@snowf6307]

Leeann, whatever you choose to do I'm very happy to have found your channel!! rooting for you :D i....don't think your channel is frumpy btw

[@Bloominescence]

Omg thank you so much for saying that. I really appreciate it. I’m so glad you found my channel, too so we could meet like this! It’s been 2 weeks since you left this comment and I’ve felt so sad with everything, so reading your comment means a lot to me. Thank you for your support!! ❤️

[@CyndyTangerineyyyy]

Yes to letting some things go!

[@brokethehabit]

very relatable. keep doing you.

[@Bloominescence]

Thanks, Peter. I appreciate the encouragement.

[@maypanarts]

I'm invested in this channel so I won't be leaving 😆 I completely understand though you don't want to risk lowering your views. You've got to scratch that itch! Explore and experience the things that excite you. Graphic design is a great career to get into. Were those your creations?! They are so cute! You've obviously got a talent for creativity, explore it! (Sorry I get so excited when people say they are getting into art. It brought me so much happiness that I know others will enjoy too! 😆) Thank you for being honest. I hope you are able to make the best decision for yourself.

[@Bloominescence]

Ahhhh Mary, you're actually the best. I've never had a viewer like you. You've been a real friend! I don't even care if I ever decide to leave social media or KZbin. It's been a privilege to have someone like you around. I hope we stay in touch if that ever happens. I'm still thinking about IG because it's the easiest way to do that. You can't even DM people on YT 😐 But yeah, risking losing everything you worked hard for is the scariest possibility to cope with. But I did it with teaching and I'd consider that slightly worse lol Now I understand that quitting means you make space for something new! I'm definitely scratching it! 😆 Graphic design freaks me out because everything looks better in my head 🤣 Yes, those were my creations!! I made, like, 10 emotes or something in total. I went CRAAAAZY last year. Thanks so much!! Hahaha, your excitement is fantastic 😄 I just love artists so much. Their brain works in incredible ways. I have a great appreciation for them!! And I've always found making art to be therapeutic. It's a very freeing feeling. Thank you for always being there. It means so much. I'm not that much of an indecisive person, so my thinking about this decision for a while is stressful 😁

[@maypanarts]

@@Bloominescence Aw that's so sweet of you to say. I hope we keep in touch too! I really do think if we had know each other in the actual world, we would have been friends 😊 You are a great KZbinr as you seem to show the real you! I will be exciting to see how you get on on your artistic journey! I understand the struggles when creating. I still struggle to create things the way I see it in my head 😂 keep up the great work!

[@Bloominescence]

@@maypanarts Definitely!! We seem to share the same mindset about a lot of things! Oh and your sense of of humor is great 😄 I try to share as much of my life as possible! That’s what I take pride in. I believe true connection happens when you’re vulnerable. I’m not going to lie and tell you my art journey has been great. I actually haven’t started yet. My exhaustion is reaching its peak again, so I’ve barely felt any motivation to do anything 😭 But I already prepared some videos to watch to learn how to use Clip Studio Paint! It’s interesting how I always doodled on my class notes but have always been into digital art. What helps is sketching on paper and then transferring that to the PC. Either way, whatever I visualize in my head never comes out in reality anyway, but I think that’s the fun of it 🤣

[@CyndyTangerineyyyy]

You should definitely stream on Twitch! Where did you learn how to create emotes? (: I'll still be here regardless of how frequent you upload. ^^

[@Bloominescence]

Hmmm, I went back and forth on that idea, but I realized I don't like live streaming. I can barely stand sitting to film and then editing for hours, staring at a screen 😵 Also, I'm not much of a gamer (though I love playing games), and gaming is what I'd prefer to stream. HOWEVER, I did think about maybe IRL streaming one day! I'd take viewers around with me to eat, and see things. It's definitely a possibility in the future! I picked up creating emotes on my own 😮 I always doodled on my notes in school, especially in college when I had the most boring classes 😂 My husband and mother-in-law bought a drawing tablet for me a couple years ago because I always thought about bringing my doodle comics onto the internet. I ended up using it for my YT thumbnails and then emotes 😂 Thank you so much for your support, Cyndy!!

[@andymagliulo]

I just stumbled upon your channel - thank you so much for sharing. I love your candid thoughts and energy. Super engaging, you're a natural comedian! Also, 1x a week is more than enough. I would even say bi-weekly. Do what is healthiest for you! I'll be here :)

[@Bloominescence]

Hi Andy! Ohh thanks so much for the compliments!! Even though I talk about the hardships in life, my true nature is always cracking jokes lol It’s what makes everything seem a lot less intimidating and-should I say-depressing 😁 I went from doing 3x a week to 2x and now once per week. I learned to listen to what my mind and body need, something I kept ignoring for all these years I’ve been on social media. So you’re spot on. You need to do what’s right for yourself. Thank you for your support!! I’m happy to have you here!

[@Theferalhomemaker]

Yes! So glad you didn't quite!

[@Theferalhomemaker]

*quit

[@Bloominescence]

Thank you, Brianna! I think about it every day that I'm actually happy I didn't quit. Even though my life really hasn't changed, I just knew I wouldn't have been completely happy had I made that decision because I still do enjoy creating content here! For as long as I still enjoy it, and can, I'll keep going! 😊

[@Theferalhomemaker]

@@Bloominescence I feel the same way. Even when there isn't always growth, the enjoyment makes it worth it!

[@Bloominescence]

@@Theferalhomemaker Absolutely! You never know if what you're enjoying but don't make money from becomes your hobby while you pursue other ventures that could 😁

[@delayedgratification581]

One upload a week is certainly better than zero.. gotta go for sustainability :)

[@Bloominescence]

Very true! Thank you for the encouragement 😊