Why I will NEVER own a lop again...

[@jnf896]

I always feel like animals have a way of knowing their time is coming and telling their people. In his last days of life, my bunny groomed himself while sitting in my lap and groomed me multiple times, neither of which he had ever done in his 12.5 years of life. Mocha knew his time was coming and gave you a beautiful memory before he passed. I’m very sorry for your loss ♥️

[@melissatranfield4054]

That's lovely to read. I lost my darling mini lop, Chamomile, this year - he was 12 years old. He passed from old age, and he had bad arthritis so we were going through physiotherapy, acupuncture, laser therapy. I feel like we bonded even more this past year, which made it more painful to say goodbye to him, but as always, it's worth it to have the love of such a gorgeous, wonderful creature and enjoy a beautiful relationship for so long.

[@Mythical4227]

I will never be ready to say goodbye to my bunnies 😭

[@serenity5323]

Our 2 year old mini Dutch grooms, gives bunny kisses, pretty much daily. It's likely her disposition being receiving touch-love and snuggles each day. Bunnies 🥰🥰🥰

[@katiebunny3396]

Wow ya, I agree.

[@claire3318_]

yes!! my rabbit actually let me pet her in her last month of life and would come up to me just for head pets, which i had never seen in her almost 11 years before ❤️

[@philboyer4477]

I found your channel because my daughter now owns a rabbit. She is probably about the same age as you. I rarely comment on KZbin, but THANK YOU for being transparent and brave in telling your story of your mental health issues. I know for sure this video has, and will continue to, help others who have anxiety, depression, or any other brain chemistry disorder that so many humans experience. Also - kudus for ditching the hair and make up. I am not against someone doing their hair or make up, but you should do it because YOU want to do it. How your hair, skin, or nails look is not related to how valuable you are. What makes you wonderful is not how you look on camera (or in person). What makes you special is that there has never been, nor will there ever be again, YOU. You are the only person who can leave a "you-shaped" mark on the world around you. Now I am going to buy some of your merch to support!!

[@sleeppzy]

@Kianite agreed

[@violette7600]

How has your daughter gone with just having one ? Has the rabbit seemed lonely?

[@princesspikachu3915]

@@violette7600i know the question is for someone else but I have a single bunny and he gets along just fine because he bonded with me, my husband, and daughter. He is rarely by himself because I’m a “stay at home bun mom” and he travels with. He is free roamed and loves bananas. He likes trying to take my phone when he isn’t getting attention. 😅

[@emma_nutella58]

You never forget your first bunny, they always have a special place in your heart

[@jailynmartodikromo5179]

FRRR

[@amandaweymouth1748]

poor mocha :( Im sorry you had to go through that. He was so lucky to have such a dedicated bun mom (and sweet lulu). Never will I ever get a lop! Also please don't stop making videos because of your appearance. We watch your channel for the super informative content and your personality! You look beautiful as you are!

[@Rose-oo9gn]

Girl it’s fine there are tons of dolled up people for everyone to watch. Many of us also appreciate non dolled up creators. No worries.

[@rebeccajones9757]

I agree.

[@user-enchanted]

I wish it was normalized for women just to be able to exist on camera and not have to get dressed up or put on makeup not even on camera just in society

[@IMeMineWho]

I rather distrust the dolled up bunny influencers. They are not performers. I have been a performer for years and just because you have a camera in your home and YT does not make one a singer or actor. I feel like they use their bunny for fane and $ as opposed to sharing their bunny or wisdom.

[@mavieautomatique6645]

Just be your true self. ❤

[@jodiebeesbumblings9358]

This broke my heart, I’m so sorry for your loss, rest in peace Mocha 😔 Pets are more than just pets, they are literally family ❤️

[@ghaana2280]

After my bunny died ..I constantly see him in my dreams..I don't believe in those things but I feel his presence sometimes around his favourite spots..I never thought I would love a bunny like I did😔❤️

[@Feeltheblessing]

It was a deep pain for me. Probably a pain never felt when I lost my first rabbit. 😭

[@DebNKY]

I feel that. I've loved hamsters, cats, and dogs, but my bunny was something special. Maybe it's because it took a couple of months for her to trust me. She was a beautiful lionhead, and she's been gone for two years. I'm not ready for another yet, but maybe someday. The loss was too great. She was my emotional support animal in a way nobody else had been.

[@gdurant]

Oh you're a wonderful person and love to you because the father above whose name is Yahweh and his son Jesus Christ will be resurrecting our beloved bunnies and all of our beloved animals for the new world. Trust the creator of the universe who loves your bunny just as much as you do as he created that wonderful fluff ball and you will be together in the New world once again.

[@IMeMineWho]

​@@DebNKYI get that.

[@polin6077]

Thank you for sharing your story. At the end December it'll be a year since our lop boy passed away. He was super healthy, even had his blood checked, just in case, vaciinated, perfect bunny diet. Then, in just a few hours, a vet visit and sudden death, right in front of our eyes . He was just 3. It really broke and traumatized us. And no one around understood how we could grieve for a rabbit like this. He was our little buddy, always happy and loving, a literal ray of sunshine even on darkest of our days. And to see that ray of light convulse in pain and die, and you can do nothing to stop it.. it changes you forever. I never heard my boyfriend scream like this. Hearing other people talk about the same pain really makes it easier, makes you feel understood. So thank you again. Your bun had the best life and best owner friend, and in the end I believe that's what matters the most ❤️ lots of love

[@Wowapple99]

Girl you’re naturally pretty don’t worry about makeup :) I come to your channel for rabbit info, I’m never “offended” about your appearance! You look great, don’t worry

[@michaeljenardligan6173]

So sorry for your loss. But I'll just leave this quote for you: "It's better to have loved than never have loved." 🐰🐇❤️✨

[@maddiemcgoldrick8804]

I just recently lost my lop rabbit a couple months ago. He kept going into stasis and we did everything as well. Im sorry to hear about mocha. You video made me feel better, so thank you for posting!

[@tecneon]

My cat had seizures near the end of his life too- I totally understand having anxiety about it but it makes me happy how hard you tried for your bunny 😭 you gave her so much love and thank you for sharing your story 💖

[@steel8675]

Yes, after the death of my cat I feel stress when hearing the word serizure or seeing a specific breed of the cat. One of the worst things being a pet owner is the death of the animal.

[@levirios2680]

i completely understand where you're coming from. one of my rabbits is a holland lop (deaf too) and i really don't think i could ever own another one again. he's only 2 but when he had barely turned 1 he got super sick and the vets had trouble figuring out why. we brought him to the vet bc he was having balance issues and kept falling over and flailing and at the time she told us "oh he has a deep inner ear infection, here's medicine for that" so we took him home and two weeks later he was much worse. he couldn't even stand up, i had to have him sat between two pillows inside of an old laundry basket bc if he wasn't sandwhiched between something he would just roll forever. took him back to the vet and they ran some tests and told us he most likely had e cuniculi, which was super hard to hear. They gave us medicine and said if he didn't improve within 2 weeks he would probably pass away. Which was awful to hear bc he had JUST turned 1 yr old. He was so sick he couldn't eat, drink, use the restroom by himself. I literally had to syringe feed him water and critical care every half hour for almost a month straight. I am honestly surprised he survived, i didn't think he would. But by a miracle he made a full recovery, he doesn't even have a head tilt anymore. I'm so glad he did recover but i never want to go through something like that again. I've owned dogs, cats, fish, hamsters, rats, bugs, and i've never had to go through something like that with a pet. It was terrible. This turned into a very long comment but yeah owning lops is not easy and i wish people would have told me about all the complications they can have before i got one.

[@DebNKY]

I'm so sorry for you losing Mocha. I know how loved he was. Thank you for sharing his story. And you're a pretty girl, you look perfect. Don't worry.

[@jaykang3276]

My black holland lop dashi just past away few months ago. He did t eat for 2 days n when I called the vet on Christmas Day, all vets were closed. Dashi past away Christmas night! I’m still having hard time missing him. I’ve heard people say don’t worry, it’s just a bunny☹️! Bunny or not, he was my bestfriend n a family member.

[@lisaboo5806]

Losing a bun is very difficult. Sometimes we never know why they pass away. They are very fragile and people sometimes don't realize how much work they require. 💗🙏

[@Smolrussian]

Beautifully said💕 I lost my bun today to stasis we fought did everything by the book I’ve never had a bunny pass to stasis and it was so heartbreaking and she seized so I finally took her to the vet and had her euthanized because at that time she fractured her spine which paralyzed her it’s been a hard day 😔

[@lisaboo5806]

@@Smolrussian I'm so sorry. Peace for your hearts. It's never easy 😔😪🙏

[@mizzmo2769]

@@Smolrussian Im so sorry to hear of your bunny loss. We also lost out Mochie to statis yesterday and it was so heartbreaking. We done all we could, but sadly it wasnt enough. His brother is still with us, and we are so grateful he is healthy and well. 😭❤🐇

[@catherinewholey3630]

My first rabbit was a lop. He was a rescue and had "snuffles" when I got him which my vet treated with penicillin injections. He was great for awhile and then got a horrible ear infection which got worse and worse. (Lops are suseptable to ear infections because the way their ears flop over causes the era canal to be permanently closed which encourages infection). After months of antibiotics he ended up having a lateral wall canal ablasion on each ear followed by a total ear canal ablasion in each ear-difficult and potentially painful operational proceedures. He was at the vets for weeks for pain control and then came home.His little bunny wife (not a lop) was with him throughout to keep him company. The vets made many mistakes (I wont go into here)including not enough antibiotic protection. He was pts shortly after coming home- the infection remained and there was nothing else the vet could do. I was devistated after everything he had been through and all the assurances from the vet that "he would be ok" I have since fostered two lop girls both elderly and both with eye issues. I was their "retirement home" and they were to stay with me for the rest of their lives. One was pts as the eye issue had many complications and the other girl is on permanent eye drops. I agree 100% that the ethics of lop breeding is questionable. They are adorable but come with a whole host of potential health issues

[@Mythical4227]

That’s devastating. I hope you’re okay after that loss. Lop rabbits and especially mini lop breeds are like the bulldogs of bunnies, they were bred to look a certain way and it came with a ton of medical issues.

[@WildWhispr]

@@Mythical4227 Yes it's so sad, I loved my girl Layla more than I ever thought possible to love anyone, but watching her suffer with re-occuring ear infections and eventually have to be pts because of her breed sure does make me feel a type of way towards those who breed rabbits for aesthetics, completely disregarding the inherent health issues that come with the breed. Yes, they may be cute and charming and have the most delightful personalities, but given the choice I really do think lops should go extinct because no animal deserves to suffer like my Layla did, it's just not worth it.

[@Kaitlen2425]

My lop ear bunny is a rescue as well. 😮 My bunny was neglected very bad, I may do a video on about it, soon Gee how can people be so cruel to the bunnies. They're so sweet the most Sweetest atleast I think so anyways

[@alexa20014]

My bun just had that same surgery on her one ear and is recovering well but they are thinking she may one day need it on the other ear someday too 😔 it was so tough putting her through that once I hope it doesn’t have to happen again

[@Kaitlen2425]

@@alexa20014 That poor baby ❤️ I'm sorry, it's so hard and hurts so bad to see them in that condition and pain, 💔

[@heyitsjuri]

Mocha and Lulu’s relationship is so cuteeeee, Lulu waking up Mocha when it’s time for food is just 🥺🥺🥺 and her cleaning up Mocha’s face too, such sweet bunnies…I miss them a lot :’) btw I hope you’re feeling better now and thanks a lot for speaking up about it

[@marybelliotti894]

Poor Mocha. Thank you so much for talking about it! It helps others, like me! I had an awful experience with several lops. For some reason, I am drawn to broken black lops. My sweetest bunny ever was Wilbur. 🐰 He was so loving! He actually loved for me to hold him like a baby! He would lay on his back in my arms and soak up all the lovin I could give him. It made my husband so jealous! Around age 8 he started with a head wobble. Then his right eye started bulging out of his face. He had a lot of goopy eye that became impossible to keep clean. The vet we took him to gave him a pain killer called tramadol, which Wilbur had a bad reaction to. His whole face swelled up for about 10 hours. My sweet Wilbur will always be in my ♥️. Our next bunny was Wally. He was the smartest and biggest bunny I ever had. He started with digestive issues at age 6 and didn’t last much longer. We never knew why. To this day, I feel so guilty because I don’t know what caused him to get sick. Did he get ahold of something on his own or did I feed him something that made him sick? Currently, we have a 2 year old spitfire named Tobias. He’s the biggest challenge we’ve had yet in a bunny, but also our daily entertainment. He tries to act so tough but loves to fall asleep in our arms. 💤 Owning any pet can be traumatizing, I know. But it’s also the natural cycle of life. I will always have animals because life is short and seems empty without the joy and love they bring.

[@hiyorioh]

What breed do you recommend then?

[@karsyn4616]

i would say just google it, mostly just go for rabbits that have a healthy nose, aka not the permanent baby face and normal ears.

[@princesspikachu3915]

No dwarf or lops. They have health issues.

[@BeerHandStrong]

As a new owner of a lop boy through adoption, he's my first, he absolutely owns our hearts. He's sneezy and on a second antibiotic at a year old for it, we're going to love him extra extra every day because he's such an affectionate bun, never seen an animal show such connection ❤️

[@ilyej9317]

This story made me cry I could never go through this or talk about that ever again. I'm sorry this ever happened to you, and I'm sorry this ever happened to him.

[@Rzkt]

I’m crying😭😭 Thank you for sharing. You went through a lot. Mocha and Lulu are so lucky to have you. I really hope my bunny have a long life🥺

[@Bryn155]

Just lost my dutch bunny in a very traumatic way too, I'm so sorry for your loss, thank you for sharing your story ❤️

[@desirae8591]

You are so amazing and I’m so sorry that losing Mocha had to be so traumatic. I see how painful it is for you and I understand how awful grief is. Anticipatory grief is very traumatic in a way all it’s own. Sending you and your Mocha love right now as we can still send them love, death cannot take our love.

[@SirXer]

Thank you for talking about this with everyone, I can tell it wasn't easy for you and I appreciate the strength it took to share this. I hope you have many great memories of you both together to hold close to heart

[@jennylane9960]

Thank u so much for this video. My first was a holland lop that a friend gifted me. I had no clue about what a rabbit needs and all things rabbit. It was a learning process for both of us but we bonded and I started enjoying the joys of being a bunny momma. I got him fixed around a year old and the vet I chose was who I used later. I noticed one day he wasn't wanting to eat also he wasn't pooping much. I called the vet in a panic and long story short we were at that vet first thing in the morning but they recommended that he go to an emergency vet. He was in serious gi stasis and stayed 2 nights at the emergency place. Shortly after he recovered from that he started getting large cyst like spots on his face. We would do surgery to drain it then antibiotics and it would work bit then it would pop up in another spot in his face. He ended up 3 draining surgeries and so many antibiotics we tried he even was on shots it just wasn't clearing up. He started showing signs of the snuffles so I took him to another vet that found out what was going on was his teeth they were so overgrown they were in his sinuses effecting his breathing and he didn't want to eat I was feeding him critical care for the last bit. The new vet made a plan for care and I took him backa few days later. My boy his name is Benny but he was such a trooper and so strong. Not even an hour after I dropped him off they called and said he wasn't doing good. They hadn't even done much but he couldn't handle the meds. They called right back and said he was stable then the vet called and asked if she could take him home for the weekend for round the clock care. Then about 20 minutes later they called needing my permission to put him to sleep. They said he was really having a hard time. Im crying now writing this bc im still so heart broken over it. I wish that I had went to the other vet sooner and it kills me to think he was so sick. I never thought when I dropped him off that it would be the last time I would get to be with him. Benny was only 3 and a half I feel like I was robbed of sweet time with him. He was such a special boy and I never imagined having a pet rabbit and being so attached. I think it's funny that people that are crazy over rabbits are so much alike. They have special names and how much you buy them and spoil them. Rabbits are very special animals.

[@not_so_pro1477]

I have a rabbit right now named Mocha and he is just a baby. I am now thinking about when he will be old and I don't think I will be ready for it when it happens. I am very sensitive to thinking of a animal passing away and I have to kinda prepare myself for my dog to pass. I think you are so brave for sharing this so props to you.

[@laradscorrea]

Enjoy while you can for 12 years hoppefully 🥰

[@ML-ly9hg]

Every time I adopt a new pet I prepare myself mentally (imagine how they could die, posible complications, good and bad days: all this with lots of reflection) and if I feel I can endure it then I take them. You can do this often and when the time comes (sooner or later) you'll be much more prepared.

[@Imjustaghostbat]

1000% agree, lops are heartbreak after heartbreak. So sorry for your loss

[@meganbruce41]

My old french lop that passed away in September had similar eye issues and they couldn’t tell what it was either and we were basically just told to keep an eye on it. He passed away suddenly in his sleep one day. He was only 1. And honestly it was traumatic because he had no other health issues apart from the eyes. He was fine he was happy he wasn’t in pain. We have no idea what happened. But he honestly was the most special animal I’ve ever ever met hands down. I miss him so much and I’m just glad I got to care for him for a year ❤️

[@kathywillett3920]

@Megan Bruce.. sounds like you were his angel. Crying my eyes out over your experience. Wishing you the best.

[@slemge]

I totally get it. One of our rabbits, Daisy, had a chronic health issue that caused her to go into stasis frequently and the vets could never figure out the cause. She would go through it multiple times a year and I got pretty desperate toward the last few years of her life. I started to learn about megacolon in rabbits in my own research but she passed unexpectedly before I had the chance to bring that up to her vet so I don't know if that's what it was. She was 9.5 years old at the time and had gone through it for at least 6 years. I still get stressed out thinking about her eating and everything. We had even started keeping a food journal for her to try and figure out if something like a specific veggie was causing it.

[@diannecass880]

You look fine. I watched to hear your story, but understand we will have many animals pass our way. You gave your best above & beyond. That's a wonderful life for any pet. 💚

[@TheNikkie29]

Our second rabbit is like a service bunny for our first, who is also a deaf loop. He was super easy to scare before the bonding, and then he got so chill just staying in his flops next to second bun, and now he's even more confident looking and begging for food with second bun by his side

[@meli9174]

Rest In Peace Mocha! Thank you for sharing this story! 🥺

[@bunniesandbeyond581]

Thanks for this video Haley! This was actually really timely because I have been testing one of my rabbits for mystery symptoms over the last couple days. I’ve gone to two different vets within the last 24 hours. It appears to be a combination of an inner ear infection and E Cuniculi. (He is a lop bunny) he is now on an antibiotic and an anti parasitic med as are the bunnies he is bonded to, because E. Cuniculi is contagious. Right now I’m just praying he lives and my other bunnies don’t get sick. I enjoyed this video! I liked the relaxed style. I’m glad you didn’t let any insecurities about makeup keep you from filming. You are beautiful naturally!

[@kimberlykhan9477]

Aaah the things people don't tell you! My condolences on Mocha. I had rabbits before who developed ear issues, ear canker is what the vet called it. I now own a lop for the 1st time which i bought from a breeder last year August. Only after i read they are more prone to health issues but i constantly check his ears from past experience. Having pets you never know what health issues they may develop its hard having to put them through the ringer with vet visits and the treatment its as though we experience their pain with all the injections, surgery etc its really tough i try my best to limit injections with my bun unless i really don't have a choice.

[@SqueakTheKittehxx]

Rabbits have a way of showing their vulnerable side to those they trust with all their being. Thank you for sharing this story with us 💕 Also, metacam is a wonderdrug for cats, rabbits and guinea pigs. It helps with arthritis symptoms, inflammation etc.

[@gisellealvarez2941]

I am so sorry for you loss ❤ I had a little bun and she unfortunately passed away about a month into getting her. She wasn't growing and she wasn't eating a lot. On the day that she passed she wanted attention and she was happy. I saw her have a seizure and just make the most horrifying sound that I don't wish on any pet owner. I held her as she had the spasm. She passed away in my arms and I was a mess. I felt traumatized to the point where I didn't want another rabbit. I was very depressed, I would go to work and cry in the break room, and I would cry during my lunch. I would go home and just cry and remember how she ran around the room. My mother gave me another bun as a gift, she saw how I was. One bunny cannot replace another but they can help with the healing process. I always think that I have a little guardian angel in our room that watches over my little Snowball and I.

[@kristenbasco]

This video is very insightful. I actually cried listening to your story about mocha… especially seeing that clip of him after his seizure. I have a lop and he had so much health issues and he was only 3 at the time. September is a very traumatic month for me because I thought I was going to lose my lop due to stasis. I’m so grateful I still have him here with me, but I understand what you mean by traumatic because going through that was something I’ll never forget. I probably spent thousands of dollars from all the vet/hospital visits.

[@martinburdge8820]

My daughter pestered us both to have a mini lop, We eventually gave in and got a mini lop we named him frank and we have had him for around 7yrs during those years we have found out he is riddled with arthritis but on medication to help him he has had a couple of cyst under his chin which was treated and cured, We had to have his front teeth removed due to them not been able to wear down plus growing awkwardly, Frank has stolen my heart I would not be without him he is a wonderful mini lop and fantastic as a house rabbit, He has recently had one what I would call a fit but since then gone back to normal, He has the freedom of the house which I believe an animal should not be caged up 24/7, On average is out of his cage at least 12 hrs a day, He loves laying on the sofa with me and falling asleep, I think you done an amazing thing your rabbit he would have known you loved him so much, When frank passes away we have decided to keep his ashes in a box with a picture of him I could not bare putting in a whole I always think when you do that you forget about the wonderful pet you had, Once again thanks for your u-tube video and was inspiring to watch and I do hope one day you will get another mini lop.

[@abbisnow1]

I have a lop at the moment, the lady I got him off mentioned that she thought he may be deaf, he follows me everywhere he’s so sweet, but it’s good information to know just incase, Thankyou for sharing your story x

[@mizissi9161]

I have a mini lop soon to turn 1 in a few days and I’m so glad u shared this part of your life it helped me prepare for what’s to come and what I may have to go through with my bun Wednesday. Don’t doubt yourself u don’t need to put a new face on for the camera we are here for u and the buns not someone with a mask

[@fitzguineavision]

natural beauty is the best kind of beauty!

[@teekotrain6845]

I completely and wholeheartedly agree. It's like....first off I'd be embarrassed to not wear it if I wore it like a lot of girls do, and also, who wants to spend their time making themselves fake? Like it's pretending you're someone you're not. Fake hair, fake boobs, butt, teeth, eyebrows, lips, nails, eye color hair color, eyelashes, like these bitches be fake as hell. And it makes them ugly to me.

[@fitzguineavision]

@@teekotrain6845 there's nothing wrong with wearing makeup, but the key to true make up wearing is to make it look like your not wearing any. That is what a lot of people don't seem to realise. the fake hair, whatever, fake teeth, well I'm a gummy bear that is in need of dentures. so that doesn't count as being ugly. I just think that natural beauty is ok. nothing to be shamed about .

[@thequeerbee2026]

@@teekotrain6845 let's not judge people for their choices, people can look however they want it may not be your taste and that's fine but no need to insult those who do

[@hemlockprimaryschool5890]

Thank you so much for telling your story of mental health issues. The more it’s talked about, the easier it is for others to tell their story. ❤️

[@emileyfisher]

I am so sorry!! I totally understand how you were feeling... (long post lol!) So I had owned guinea pigs for many many years. I have gone through deaths of them many times. I had wanted a skinny pig (hairless guinea pig) for years but could never find one at any rescues. When there finally was one available, I of course adopted him. It was the best day ever. I had been looking for one for about 5 or 6 years. I was so excited and happy. He was only 2 years old so I assumed I was going to get to enjoy him for many years. I had him for 2 months when he passed away out of nowhere. It was so sudden and unexpected. I cried so hard and was just in shock. I hated and blamed myself. I had lost so many guinea pigs before, but all were from old age and were expected. I thought it was all my fault and thought that I must have done something wrong since he was a skinny pig and I had never owned one before. I thought did I not feed him enough? Was he cold? What did I do!? I had to leave all my skinny pig groups on Facebook because seeing pictures of them made me cry and made me hate myself all over again. I thought I could never own one again because it would be too hard. I went a few years with just my furry guinea pigs when I decided I was ready for another skinny. I joined my skinny pig groups on Facebook again and that same day there was a lady just 2 hours from me looking to rehome her 2 bonded 8 week old pigs, one being a skinny. She had just got them a week earlier but her landlord told her she couldn't have them. I of course jumped on the opportunity and got them both. It was like it was meant to be. I have had them for a year and a half now. Having Nala (my current skinny) has helped me so much. I have realized that Liam's death (my first skinny) was not my fault at all. I'm doing everything the exact same care wise with Nala as I was with Liam and she is doing amazing. Liam must have just had terrible genetics which is common with skinnies. Nala has made me not be sad when I see hairless piggies, but instead feel happy. I no longer associate bad things with skinnies. Nala has helped me SO MUCH mentally! For YEARS I was blaming myself for Liam's death and beating myself up about it DAILY! I am so happy and grateful those days are behind me!!!

[@tamzin00]

Your parents are amazing for driving you those long hours to Madison!! My parents would never 🥲. The quote, “it’s cheaper to buy a new rabbit” comes to mind… I’m so glad I’m an adult now

[@notpadme]

my parents are the same and are even against me taking mine to the vet in general!

[@Butterfly-mt5ml]

Oh wow. I don’t understand peoples way of thinking sometimes. If you get an animal, they’re going to need to go to the doctor at times and it should be expected.

[@freddy6146]

My bunny just passed away 2days ago for unknown reason. It was heartbreaking but now that i noticed she did approach to me few day back full of tears and maybe that was her way to saying goodbye to me. I loved her so much

[@jessica9060]

I have only just been diagnosed as autistic so have spent my life masking. For these past few years my mental health has declined, earlier this year my parents got me a mini lop rabbit ( I have always been OBSESSED with rabbits) to hopefully help encourage me to recover. I am still severely struggling and I’m meant to be hospitalised but because I’m autistic we have basically made a hospital at home. This touched me so much. I can’t imagine what it would be like to go through this with my rabbit. I’m now sat with my rabbit just watching him sleep, so grateful he’s happy and healthy. Thank you for sharing. I’m so sorry for your loss 🤍

[@nataliesadler8620]

God, I can’t imagine what it was like to live like that for over a year - I’m so sorry 💔 you were such an incredible bunny mom to Mocha, though. I had somewhat of a similar situation with my first (and only) 3 yr old bun Morrison over the summer. He’s a lionhead and has had several “mini” GI episodes- usually over his heavy shedding season during summertime. In June, it was the WORST. One day he was fine, and the next he was dying. He was hospitalized at an emergency vet hospital for 5 days, which cost at least $1700 for all of his treatment/tests. Eventually they found out that the GI episode was most likely caused by tiny dental spurs on his molars. They shaved those down, and he’s been fine ever since! But the entire experience was so traumatic for both of us - and every day, I still think about it. If he’s acting slightly “off” (which is usually me just being paranoid), I freak out and watch him all day to his chagrin lol. I wish yours could have been a happy ending too, but he had an amazing life with you! I hope Morrison makes it to 8 years, 10 years… Maybe 27 years like his namesake 😅

[@Samgriarte]

we love a fresh faced haley, your natural face is so beautiful :) thank you for sharing your story, i had to take care of my elderly dogs for the last couple years of their life, i definetely see your journey, your grief, trauma and why you feel that way. i got a rabbit that got along with my last dog, jill, during her last years of her life and now we have such an amazing bond. he's been such a sweet companion :)

[@rainzulema]

Im so sorry for the loss of your Mocha. I have two lops! & I could not imagine that heartache. Thank you so much for sharing your story 🤍

[@Pokepucky]

I‘ve had lionhead bunnies since forever. When I was still in middle school, one bun I had, Felix, started drinking excessively, and I mean really a lot. Took the vet some time to find his kidneys were failing. He still lived for at least 1 year, but at last I had to put him down as he wasn’t eating or drinking anymore. I was holding hin when the vet gave him the injection and he slowly passed away. I think it was the right thing to do so he would feel save in his last moments, but I’m still not completely fine even after so many years. I do have bunnies even now, but i became overly cautious with their health.

[@azc.09]

RIP you sound like a great rabbit owner; sending love

[@alexandrapatricio2727]

I heard your story and could imagine what suffering you had to went through and i must say you were extremely brave to endure such a dramatic bunny life story. I lost my lovely lionhead a month ago and i am having a hard time dealing with his absense . He was 7 and a half years and i lost him to gi stasis because i was convinced that after so many gi episodes i had already mastered the disease ( it was the arrogance of thinking that i could save him once more that made me be less attentive i guess ) and he ended up dying in my harms. Your story and the suffering of your bunny made me think of buldoggs and the genetic transformations we, as humans, put animals through in order to make money, it is always money. I imagine that Mocha lived such a long time because he had a loving , dedicate soul around making every suffering worth while. Also, as a anxiety older woman i understand that your body had its own limitations, and it had to come out in any other form, as you had no time to think of yourself during those years. Congratulations for your channel and the service you make to so many animals, and us.

[@davidharron5491]

Yes , The lop rabbits are not a good choice of breed as for all the issues you have noted. You are not alone in finding the breed having these very big problems that become insurmountable. At the least many hours and expenses of vet care and suffering for the rabbit. They should not be allowed to breed. They look cute but these issues are real and those who promote the breed are unethical and should know better. You are brave to talk publicly about your experiances. We have had 25 years of rescuing rabbits in California of all breeds and found your experiance not unusual. For those new to rabbits and buying for cuteness and for children. These rabbits are not a good choice. David Harron

[@PokewoodTheater]

I lost one of my mini lop just a few hours ago. She was very floppy and wouldn’t stay up. I wrapped her up in a towel so that she was warm as she was very cold and she had a few spasms. She died as I was taking her to the vet She will always be remembered!

[@localmemegals1936]

He’s such a strong bun and so are you, I can’t imagine how scary that would have been, it must be hard to talk about too, would just like to say well done too you ❤️

[@melissatranfield4054]

One of the greatest things you can do as an animal lover, bunny mama/cat/dog mama is to nurse and take care of your older or sick animal, to go the distance with them and ensure they are given the best treatment possible and end of life care possible. It's incredibly hard but I wouldn't have had it any other way with my own, for example. He passed this year at 12 years old, which was utterly devastating for me and the whole family, but it was a privilege to nurse him. I am so so sorry about what you and Mocha went through but so glad you were there for him. Compassionate people like you are so needed.

[@southsidesweep]

So grateful you made this video. So much to say. First of all you love your animals in a fashion that I do. Second you brought up how much vet services are. I know first hand. I had a mini rex and a blue Dutch. In April of 2020 she passed. One month from being 10. She was diagnosed with a lump on her lung in July of 2019 and the vet didn't know without surgery what it would be. But notified me because of her age that she might not survive a surgery. So sh lived with it for almost a year. My other died because of fly strike because of her age and she was diagnosed with arthritis 9 months prior. I had to give her baths every other day the last 6 months of her life and still ended up with fly strike sadly. And she had just had her 10th birthday the month before. I now have 2 rescue bunnies that I love. But will always remember my first pair since I got them as babies at 8 weeks old one year apart. They were so special. I love my current ones but in a different special way.

[@___Victoria_sunny]

Hey girl, first of all: thanks for sharing your story. 2nd: you look so beautiful with your hair like that and with no make up, you look so pretty just the way you are, not for a single second worry about it bc you look so fine, just your seeet voice makes this video worth watching, you sound very educated. Remember to be nice to yourself!

[@mashakalinkina7207]

Im sorry you had such an upsetting last bit with Mocha. :/ He clearly had a great life with you, & was able to pass at home, not being poked or bothered in a vets office-thats a beautiful thing. 🌸 I think my rabbit had the first seizure i know of tonight. Its def upsetting for sure. :/ Hes a 3 pound 13 year old netherland dwarf who doesnt look elderly at all. He developed a small we think benign mammary tumor ~2+ years ago thats now the size of a softball. Apparently he has a slight age-related heart murmur & a bit of arthritis. But is still doing all the hallmarks of wanting to be here: peeing/pooping/eating/fastidious grooming/seeking + enjoying affection/enjoying treats/telling me off occasionally when i have to do something he doesnt like/getting excited and mini zoomies. Tonight he got upset, started erratically running, stopping, then tipping/falling over 5-6 times. He was leaning over heavily to one side + splaying. He tucked himself into a corner he never goes to and i laid down with him petting him reassuring him he was safe & to try to relax, that it was ok to go & how much I loved him. I couldnt easily tell his heart-rate as he was shivering with atypical slightly labored quick breathing. I presumed it was tachychardia/a heart attack because he has a heart murmur and that he was actively dying. And then 10-15 mins later, he just snapped out of it as suddenly as it started. Went right back to grooming & munching kale as if nothing happened. Swear hes gonna outlive us all. 😂 I Hope he passes at home. I dont want him to go, he was my first animal & had such a pitiful unfair start & I've had him since he was trashed after Easter 13 years ago. But if he's going to, would prefer it be at home, so he can just “go to sleep” in his own familiar environment. Its really hard for sure. :/ Im hoping he passes at home so hes not being bothered or nervous about a stranger/artificial death. If he appears to be suffering/really not happy, obviously will do that, but am trying to avoid it. Hes shockingly healthy + spritely with still quite healthy muscle tone and strength. I feel like itll be clear if he doesnt want to do this anymore. Rabbit roommates are def a special breed of highly empathetic folks.

[@robertdoulton9308]

Oh sweetie, I feel for you. I recently lost my little guy Hank. He was only 3 and passed away suddenly. It was your channel that taught me so much when I first got him. Thank you, I’m very grateful

[@theshabiedit]

my guinea pi was 6 years old and my family gave him all the love support and food he wanted...at the end while I was out of country he was seizing similar to your Mocha...the vets had him put under crit care ED and stabilized him but couldn't return him home which broke my heart. He did so many catheters and insulin bolus check...everything was normal except that after eating his insulin will be drastically low in an hour....at the end he never recovered from his seizure and we never recovered watching him seize that morning. Its the worst pain and like you when I see a guinea pig I get the same anxiety..

[@cindychapman5900]

We watch because we like you and respect your knowledge and deep love for your pets. If you could see through your video camera to see what we all look like, I am pretty sure you wouldn’t worry anymore (speaking for myself😂0 Your physical and emotional health mean more to us than how you look. Dear Mocha…thankfully she and you were blessed with those early healthier years. And blessed with Lulu also.

[@artchic528]

Anxiety disorder is a hell of a beast. It robs you of so much in your life, yet, it comes from a place of instinct, so you can’t get rid of it entirely. I’m sorry you have struggled with severe anxiety. Mocha wouldn’t want that for you, nor to be afraid to find love in your heart for another lop bunny. I know it’s not as simple as that, but all the same I hope you can find a place of peace in your life.

[@kiki-wang]

Thanks for making this video!! This is so beautiful, educational and helpful! The stories with mocha, you and lulu is so touching, cried for all these moments

[@joosama2589]

I'm so sorry for your loss. He surely had a happy life with you and you should be proud and happy about it. And that's what should matter the most...

[@schammond8993]

Death is a topic we humans have a difficult time discussing. I have honey bees, chickens and bunnies. In learning about these wonderful creatures the one thing that stands out is that Nature can be a very brutal world. Grief is a recovery process. You made it thru this video which shows you are getting stronger. Good job.

[@lejlaletic7591]

Wow. All I can say is wow. My minilop died two days ago. He was only 5.5 years old. He also had the weepy eyes and we could never figure it out. He became super sleepy over the weekend, by the time we got to the emergency his heart slowed down and he passed away. He was sooo loving, he loved cuddles and he was so close to our family. I’m completely heartbroken. But looks like he had exactly the same issues as Mocha. We also suspected that he was deaf because he would get startled if he didn’t see us coming. I loved him and i hope he didn’t die and live in pain.

[@SomewhereinOhio24]

We had a Holland lop and Mocha’s end of life story is similar to my Pringles’. My doc also found an inner ear infection…his vet told us that what we called “seizures” was more than likely vertigo. We gave him Meclizine but he couldn’t stay upright for very long and we had to hand feed. He lived for another month and died in my arms with my kids around him. He was 9-10 years old. Best.bunny.ever and I miss him everyday.😭😭😭

[@rhythmandblues_alibi]

I lost my nethie two years ago and have been considering getting a mini lop now that I feel ready for another bun. They are the most commonly available bunny breed in my area. I had heard about their ear issues though and that made me wary. They're already an expensive pet without buying a breed with known health issues. Thank you for making this video. Also, I rarely wear make-up as it makes my skin and eyes itch and burn. It's nice to see someone just normal on YT 😊

[@skyeking225]

i feel you mama, i had a lion head bunny and she was all completely fine the day before and all day and i went up to her cage area later in the day and she was lathergic in her litter box and had a seizure in my hands and passed. it is very hard and everything you feel about the situation is valid. the babies are in a good place now

[@kathiburns3695]

So sorry for your loss. Three of my babies have passed on. I understand where you are. I have 4 now. 2 are 4 years old, one is 5, and one is 10. My 10 year old is having problems with arthritis and difficulty grooming. It's a hard road. Just remember that you loved him and he loved you. He is happy where he is and you will see him again someday.

[@WildWhispr]

Honestly it's so sad, lops are so adorable and have the loveliest personalities but I don't think I could adopt one again either. We lost beloved Layla last week after a prolonged struggle with re-occuring ear infections. She has such an amazingly strong personality, always up to mischief, she really did just love to make people laugh and to be the centre of attention at all times. But in the end she suffered so much, all cramped up in that sad hunched position rabbits do when they're in pain. I'm so angry with breeders and how shallow aesthetic choices made my poor baby suffer so much. Rest in peace sweet girl, you were so loved by every single person that ever met you. Such a special little lady, we'll never ever forget you.

[@hiyorioh]

What breeds do you recommend then?

[@brialapoint2608]

I've heard about people whose rabbits died around 2-3 years. Rabbits in general. aren't always hardy and resilient.

[@Alexandriaxxanime]

Losing our babys is heartbreaking. I lost 3 of my rabbits in 2018. It happened in a space of 4 days and it broke me, I was a mess and so heartbroken. I still feel sad when I think of them now. May they rest in peace in heaven. I am so sorry to hear about your bunny Mocha, you done everything for him, he is in heaven now playing with all the other bunnys. You're amazing and strong for making this video, God bless, take care of yourself xx

[@ronaldmcdonald8303]

I'm sorry to hear you are so upset about the death of your rabbit. Mine too lived until she was 8 and a half, she died of cancer. I get her when I was 11, my sister had a Dutch English cross and she lived for over 10 years! When my first rabbit died, I just knew. She would not want me to be unhappy. So I quietly and sadly accepted her passing. She was so cute, big brown eyes like nuggets of volcanic glass, soft fur, cute and tame, I loved my bunny. My second bunny was a rex and she had beautiful metallic fur, she died when I was in rehab because the staff refused to loan me the money for a vet!!!! I miss all 3 of them, but I don't feel depressed! I just rejoice in the fun memories of those little cuties, that's what they would want!

[@ashley_mixed_arts5738]

Thank you for sharing this raw video. And nice to see someone who looks real, it is inspiring.

[@tamabradley6844]

To own any kind of animals.. we all need to have a super strong heart, and a huge acceptance of death, along with the most painful heart wrenching loss ever.. Being able to adopt, love, play, and help with Gods beautiful creatures.. is all worth the pain of loss, We loss 2 buns, and adopted 2 more, we love them and saved them. WE all will have a story to tell, because sadly no one gets out alive. Thank you Haley for sharing Mochas story, he REALLY NEEDED YOU, and you were, and ARE THE BEST BUNNY MOTHER EVER!! Yes its a sad World, but many more ways our bunnies have helped me out.. Take Care!!

[@troywalt4834]

I am so sorry that you had to live such a sad episode, I also had a traumatic experience with a paralyzed rabbit, it made me feel very sad as well, there is something about rabbit that makes it very hard to see when they are not well. But you have to remember that you were a great mom for your bunny and you gave him a lot of love and care and remember how happy he must have been that you were there for him.

[@sanneb4576]

So sorry ! I understand you don't want another lop after such a traumatic experience

[@mathchurch7599]

My lop died having a seizure on the way to the vet. Thank you for making this video ♥️

[@sambam7171]

I clicked to learn about lops but ended up learning your allergic to all makeups

[@katerapp2772]

I’m so so sorry about Mocha. I had to watch my lop have seizures a couple months ago and he unfortunately passed away in my arms that day. He was so young and we suspect a strange tooth root abscess but wasn’t normal and we couldn’t find it in any of his testing the few days prior. Very hard to watch so I totally understand how you feel.

[@mariskavandasselaarofficial]

Thank you for sharing your story with us. I'm so sorry you had to go through all this with Mocha. I can imagine how stressful and traumatizing that must have been. There's a good chance that's why you're reacting with anxiety to other lops/similar behaviour now. Have you ever thought of trauma therapy? It might help to deal with this. I've had such therapy for other things and it helped me. For instance, I got anxiety whenever I saw an office, because I got a burnout in an office. It helped me to get to appreciate having work again.

[@hollyg5279]

Relaxed is great! I enjoy your videos and was glad to hear Mocha's full story in one go. I completely understand your feelings--thank you for sharing! I'm happy to hear your business is doing so well. You're quite an entrepreneur!

[@nessarose3692]

Thank you so much for sharing this info I really do appreciate you. And my condolences R.I.P mocha. I have a lop rabbit that is 8 this year and his bonded partner just passed away yesterday and we are besides ourselves. It hurts so much more to see him looking around and sniffing for her 💔 he also has hearing problems and has a leaky eye right now we are in and out of the vets. God their are such blessings to have in your life but the pain of losing them 💔. I hope and pray u feel better also 💝

[@brittanyvasquez9222]

I agree with you. I had a grey rabbit that her death was traumatizing for me. And when i see rabbits that look like her i get kinda upset

[@nene2328]

Same, but with white lops that have blue eyes. :(

[@julieyounger4773]

I can understand your reluctance to get another lop. I had a very special tortie cat when I was ages 10-26. Now I am 52 and just now feel ready to have another tortie 💙

[@amberbower2304]

I had a traumatic experience with a lop too! Someone gave me an older one, and before long, she started having a head tilt. Soon she started seizing and couldn't stand up. When we took her to the vet, they determined that her back teeth had basically grown up through her skull and into her brain! They said it was common for lops. Heartbreaking. That made me never want another lop!

[@birthcontrolraccoon9785]

Losing any pet really hurts. I had a golden retriever who was well behaved and affectionate. It still hurts even after 15 years.

[@FierceProtocol]

Thank you for this information. I just got my first rabbit; a lop. I am very pleased to report that pumpkin can definitely hear thank goodness. I am very great full for your channel. Thank you!

[@devcodes312]

Thank you for sharing the difficulty you had with your pet bunny Mocha! I had two bunnies pass away in 2019, it was really tough for me. The first, Buster, was FINE, absolutely fine the night before. He had just been to the vet and his bloodwork and everything came out fine just a month before! He passed away and it was a surreal experience for me. Such an insane shock to my system. After an autopsy, they discovered he may have had sepsis. WHAT. HOW?! It was a huge shock. And then later that year, my other bunny, Bunnicula passed away and that really put me in a weird place for a while. They never really knew why she passed and I got all the autopsy tests done. I try to live everyday with graciousness that I have my animals in my life. They can be taken away from this earth so quickly

[@AceKaci]

I’m so sorry you had to go through that. I’ve been through similar things with my bunny and guinea pigs. It’s so hard. I really feel for you. Thanks for sharing. If you haven’t already, look into EMDR therapy. It’s especially good for PTSD. EMDR helps “reprogram” the body so you won’t have such strong physical reactions to triggers. Hopefully then you could see a lop who looks like him without having that extreme anxiety anymore. It’ll still hurt emotionally, but you’ll be able to stay in control.

[@peeweenpatch]

It's perfectly understandable, especially considering how much you invested yourself in his care! I've been in a similar situation with my girl lop from Aug 2014 to Aug 2016, during which time she was on and off sick with head tilt and hind end paresis. I also later had a rabbit with severe seizures, vet thought was lymphoma... Losing them both was devastating. But so far my worst and most traumatic loss is that of my foster baby whom I wanted to adopt. She passed away 10 days after her spay and an autopsy showed no definite reason... She was only 6 months and was, as far as we know, healthy. Like Mocha, she too ate the morning of the day she passed by seizure, and she hadn't eaten on her own for days before. I was so happy and thought she was on the way to recovery...

[@cindychapman5900]

Every loss is painful. People also sometimes have an unexpected period of seeming better shortly before they die. It gets one’s hopes up but it is painful either way, with or without a perceived recovery. Sad.

[@savnoelle1060]

Now that you talked about your rabbit being deaf it makes me wonder if my lop is partly deaf. Whenever I try to call her or wake her up with my voice it seems as though she doesn’t hear me very well.

[@5kidsandme676]

Thank you so much for sharing this difficult time with us. It was interesting and informative. I had a grey Rex named Winter who died suddenly and I still don’t know why. It really bothers me because I was pregnant at the time and could no longer sit on the floor and play with him. I’ve always wondered if that had something to do with it but it was very traumatic to me and I haven’t been able to have any bunnies since. My daughter is almost 7 now and I get so much enjoyment from just seeing your bunnies play it helps me when I start thinking about how much I miss Winter. Thanks so much for your videos!

[@saintsomnia8030]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I always thought lops were cute, but now I'm gonna think twice before I get one (maybe get a nethie instead). You are very brave and I'm sure Mocha would be proud of you

[@Stephankne]

My two lops are very high maintenance 🥺

[@SUBM4CH1N3]

Nethies are super temperamental

[@ShadowXerneas]

OMG I am so sorry. I lost my kitty, Gemini, after 14 years to what the vets believed was stomach cancer. Normally, she was talkitive, purring all the time, and loved attention. But the last couple months of her life, she lost a lot of weight, she didn't want attention or food and was basically a shell of what she used to be. Losing her was the hardest pet loss I ever been through. My sister was with me at the vets, and as the vet gave me the option to end her suffering, Gemini looked at me and started purring and gave me little kisses like she was telling me it was ok. In that moment, I knew what I needed to do. I hugged my sweet girl, told her goodbye and that I would see her again on the other side. I was devetstated for about 2 weeks after losing her, it's been 2 months and I still tear up talking about it. I'm guessing the only reason I'm doing better now is because my dad suggested I adopted a new kitten, not only for me, but for my remaining cat, Kibry cause he was looking and crying her for since she died. So I went to the shelter and saw they had several kittens, but they all looked like Gemini and I just couldn't handle it. But in the back, there was this tiny grey kitten and according to his story, he was born on the streets, lost his mother at 2 weeks, and came in with a degloved tail. Most people passed on him cause he had no tail. I felt so bad for him and immediantly filled out the paperwork to adopt him. Gizmo is now 4 months old and has won the hearts of everyone in the house, even Kirby. He gives me so much love and my friend says it's because he knows I rescued him.

[@oceanelf2512]

Yikes. Understandable, an experience like that would make me anxious as well.

[@lenaugle4776]

You are gorgeous inside and out. Makeup isn't necessary. Rest in peace little guy. My condolences, he crossed the rainbow bridge

[@crazybunny25]

Thanks so much for sharing your story. I also suffer mental health problems and anxiety being the worst of my issues. So I totally resonate what a traumatic time you have gone through. I dread the day that Apollo travels on the rainbow bridge 🌈 You done everything and more that you could have. P.s your stunning and dont need make up 🥰