Scream and cry, "don't bottle it up" and u are passing it....life is not easy without being in recovery, 2 years are nothing in ur new life think how long ur destroying life lastet when u had everything, moneywise so much for all coffee's u desire now spend on shit to numb urself. U doing dam fine with ur situation, which i fully see after our videochat, not just fine great! But bad, sad, doubting, screamin, crying, bitching, fed up ....we all feel sometimes and than we feel love, strong, free, proud, inspired, hungry, happy, giving a shit about the tons of lemons we sit on knowing by now: the wheel is always turning. So for me yes we have the right to feel a little shitty today🥳🏋️♀️🤸♀️🥰