FTM: Duet with myself
5:00
5 жыл бұрын
FTM: My new life
9:46
5 жыл бұрын
FTM: 16 weeks post-op - How I feel
17:28
FTM: timeline 1983 - 2018
7:21
6 жыл бұрын
FTM: voice comparisons 3 - 9 months
0:59
FTM: 9 months on T
7:56
6 жыл бұрын
FTM: voice comparisons 2 - 3 months
1:31
FTM: raw doubts
6:04
6 жыл бұрын
FTM: 3 months on T
4:37
6 жыл бұрын
FTM: 2 months on T
7:34
7 жыл бұрын
FTM: 1 month on T
5:09
7 жыл бұрын
FTM: T-Day and 2 weeks on T update
11:40
FTM: I am cooking my peen ;)
4:19
7 жыл бұрын
WIYP - German road trip #PodstockDE
17:01
FTM: getting on T  - hopes & fears
7:52
FTM - road trip part II
7:26
7 жыл бұрын
FTM - road trip part I
14:33
7 жыл бұрын
VLOG 02: 2nd roundup
5:34
7 жыл бұрын
FTM: Tobys Trans Update
7:48
7 жыл бұрын
VLOG 01: 1st roundup of my house
6:15
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@cobus8461
@cobus8461 3 ай бұрын
Please help. I wasted 2 sheets. Sheet do not stick to prothesis. Used new sheets and adhesive. First time there was no problem. Could it be the prothesis self that have a problem?
@TobyMcMill
@TobyMcMill 3 ай бұрын
please get in touch with gendercat, make some pictures and add your invoice or order ID. as mentioned earlier, I had the same problem with my 3rd order. the adhesive just stayed liquid - no matter what I tried.
@cobus8461
@cobus8461 3 ай бұрын
@@TobyMcMill will do. Thank you
@cobus8461
@cobus8461 3 ай бұрын
@@TobyMcMill my adhesive do get dry but does not stick at the back of my prosthesis.
@kaidenking270
@kaidenking270 4 ай бұрын
Great video, thank you for making this! How long does it last for if you wear it most days before you need to remove it and replace it? I live in australia and its very expensive to get it shipped
@TobyMcMill
@TobyMcMill 4 ай бұрын
I would say around 1 to 2 months maybe before it looks kinda worn out and too dirty. most times I order multiple sheets & adhesive. I still need to confirm with the company what the average life span of the adhesive is, because I still have lots of adhesive left and although I had it in the fridge it did not work (I tried it 3 times). so maybe it's too old and cannot be used after a year or so. I would clearly say: do not order more than 1 pack in the beginning. yeah, I feel your pain. seems that no company in the EU is offering something similar either.
@kaidenking270
@kaidenking270 4 ай бұрын
@@TobyMcMillthank you so much for responding so fast! ❤
@TobyMcMill
@TobyMcMill 4 ай бұрын
@@kaidenking270 you're welcome :)
@cobus8461
@cobus8461 3 ай бұрын
Hi my first attemp was perfect. I waste 2 sheets now. Doesn't want to stick on prothesis. It came off the prothesis. I waited 12 min and it was very dry. When I pull plastic off everything is coming off. I used new adhesive.
@headhxnchoo.2raw
@headhxnchoo.2raw 5 ай бұрын
what’s the link to your business?
@TobyMcMill
@TobyMcMill 5 ай бұрын
creatado.com - but I will be closing Shopify down. most Pride stuff right now is on Etsy: creatado.etsy.com
@user-xe2hf6fi8d
@user-xe2hf6fi8d 7 ай бұрын
This helped me so much. Thank you so much for making this!
@TobyMcMill
@TobyMcMill 7 ай бұрын
you are more than welcome :)
@czarlie287
@czarlie287 8 ай бұрын
thank you for posting this! I feel like i struggle a lot when i try to do it so it's nice to see other people explain how to do it!
@TobyMcMill
@TobyMcMill 7 ай бұрын
you're welcome! :)
@b_cl_design5014
@b_cl_design5014 Жыл бұрын
I'm so happy for you that you found your way. I was born 1984 and startet my transition with 36. Baxk then you didn't know something like trans exists, nobody told you, it wasn't on tv or media and there was no internet. So from 3 years onwards I had these feelings, that turned to pain when I realized I won't turn into a boy by getting older, then I was 6 years. The pain was terrible, it didn't go away even I accepted the fact I was born this way. Not knowing it can be treated often make you wish to die. So I want people to realize that nobody wants to make their kids trans, vecause we don't wish anyone to have to go through the same hell. We want to tell kids that this exists to tell them the truth and to help the few transkids among them who suffer from early age on.
@BoReads
@BoReads Жыл бұрын
I watched this while eating a hotdog.
@JC-jd1us
@JC-jd1us Жыл бұрын
Damn that sucks Ive found more guys being accepting than women but maybe thats just the area I'm in.
@JC-jd1us
@JC-jd1us Жыл бұрын
Nice, if you've ever messed up on this how did you fix it?
@TobyMcMill
@TobyMcMill Жыл бұрын
actually you can't fix it :) it's a try & error thing. so I accept it as it is for the time being, hoping that next time I work more carefully. for the lifespan of one glue attachment it's okay.
@Zigzipy
@Zigzipy Жыл бұрын
Which colours did you choose? IT LOOKS AMAZING.
@TobyMcMill
@TobyMcMill Жыл бұрын
you mean from his color chart with tons of options? 😅 I need to find the email again, don't remember that right now.
@jessionti5177
@jessionti5177 2 жыл бұрын
Oh man, ich bekomme das jetzt erst mit weil ich ein Jahr kaum online war. Ich dachte Du züchtest längst Waschbären und so… Wir haben zwar damals nur einmal nach Deiner OP telefoniert aber ich hab oft an Dich gedacht. Ich wünsche Dir Alles gute. 🍀
@floriandeters9061
@floriandeters9061 2 жыл бұрын
Toby.... krass wie Du Dich zudem verändert hast, der Du heute bist. Mega und noch immer aller aller größten Respekt vor Deinem Schritt. Ich verfolge Deine Geschichte seit dem Podcast Whats in KZbin Pants.... wäre cool wenn Du mal wieder was von Dir in Deutsch hören bzw sehen lässt.... Grüße aus Wietze Flo
@TobyMcMill
@TobyMcMill 2 жыл бұрын
Flo!!! OMG ja du warst ja quasi follower der ersten stunde!!! 😂 okay, ich guck mal.....ist echt schwierig, das gleiche mit twitter. sage ich was auf deutsch, verliere ich einen U.S. follower, rede ich englisch, hauen die deutschen ab 🤷‍♂🤣 wie man's macht..... LG
@floriandeters9061
@floriandeters9061 2 жыл бұрын
@@TobyMcMill du machst das schon.... bleib einfach so wie Du bist, das ist nämlich genau richtig
@user-vu7rv1xf1l
@user-vu7rv1xf1l 2 жыл бұрын
This was uncanny for me.... I am also born in 1983, & my photos & story is SO similar even down to Robin Hood & the transwoman!! And the age & order things happened. Although for me I only ever dated men.
@TobyMcMill
@TobyMcMill 2 жыл бұрын
oh wow.....😲😲😲 yeah "similarities" were the things that scared me the most when I stumbled across all of those ftm timelines on yt back in 2016. it felt like: other people have already been living my life.....totally weird!
@RushnNoiz
@RushnNoiz 2 жыл бұрын
There are plenty more CIS gay men who accept TRANS men who haven't had bottom surgery that you think you know. ME INCLUDED. Don't give up on love. You're perfect the way you are, and will find someone who will accept you as you are, and then you will have to accept him as he is as well. Don't let your past experiences dictate what your future will be in any relationship. Even at our age, we are all deserving of love. I would be the most happiest man on earth it there were more men like you around. I also got hurt, in fact by a trans man. And I mean really hurt. And for over a year I just could not get over it. I loved him so much. But I did survive, and I promise you, you will too. Just remember, the insecurities in one self ends up being the baggage of the lover. Don't let that happen to you. You deserve love. (Bear Hugs) Thank you so much for your story. Your new fan and subscriber ... Rush (DJ Rush'n Noiz)
@TobyMcMill
@TobyMcMill 2 жыл бұрын
Dear Rush, thank you so much for your kind words! I do believe there are at least a couple of gay men out there who would accept me - but it's pretty hard to find them. mostly you will be treated as a fetish or bisexuals want you as "kind of a woman" - well, at least that's my experience. after my divorce I can honestly say: no heterosexuals NO NEVER AGAIN! 😂 leads to nothing. thank you for sharing your experience with me (and the www). I am working hard on my post-divorce life and on my healing. this will take a while for so many reasons I can't talk about as I would like to in public. but be assured I will never give up on love. but for now finding my self worth again and putting my life back together is the priority. hugs from Germany, Toby
@RushnNoiz
@RushnNoiz 2 жыл бұрын
@@TobyMcMill - I'm glad. Feel free to DM me anytime. I love making new friends, and you seem pretty nice. 😁 You never know, could end up going to Germany for a gig. 😁 (DJ) (Big Bear 🐻 Hug) from Montreal Quebec Canada.
@jutjup1000
@jutjup1000 2 жыл бұрын
Du siehst ganz schön runter gerockt aus. 😱 Ich habe deine Podcasts damals mitverfolgt und ich hätte mich gewundert wenn dein Unterfangen in den USA glücklich verlaufen wäre. Tut mir aber trotzdem leid für dich dass es nicht geklappt hat.
@Outaspace88B
@Outaspace88B 2 жыл бұрын
🫂 virtual hug and luv from France 💜💜💜
@sarahotto8190
@sarahotto8190 2 жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing your stroy. I am deeply sorry you had to go through all of this. You don't have to be strong all the time, it's okay to have a broken heart. Take your time to process all of this, it's a lot. You will rise and get better. Sending loving energy your way.
@carmenjecht6809
@carmenjecht6809 2 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for sharing Toby. So sad that it didn't work out...but you're on the right track : talk about it....as much as it hurts....it helps. Don't let people shut you up by them saying that you're strong....yes you ARE strong and you WILL rise again...but maybe just not yet. It takes time...take all the time you need!! But please don't forget to try to have a little fun sometimes....distraction can be good also. I do wish you all the best xxx Alles wird gut!!!
@martinruetzler2856
@martinruetzler2856 2 жыл бұрын
💔
@ArnimSommer
@ArnimSommer 2 жыл бұрын
+1
@gedankengedons1900
@gedankengedons1900 2 жыл бұрын
Ach Toby. 😟 Es tut mir so leid dich zu sehen, deine Trauer ist wirklich greifbar. Ich kann dir nichts sagen was deine Situation bessern würde. Ich würde dich umarmen, wenn ich es könnte und du das möchtest. Ich hoffe und wünsche es dir von vollem Herzen, dass du mit der Zeit und Distanz deine Wunden heilen wird... und wie du schon sagst.... wenn man sich Scheiße gewohnt ist, dann weiß man auch es wird irgendwann besser. Irgendwann kann ne sehr lange Zeit sein, aber ich glaube fest daran dass du dadurch kommen wirst. Ich glaube an dich, selbst wenn du es jetzt nicht sehen kannst, denke ich dass du es mit Hilfe deines Suppornetzwerk schaffen wirst. 💛 - Lara
@rachellemaire4286
@rachellemaire4286 2 жыл бұрын
Thanks for sharing!
@breeziewesley
@breeziewesley 2 жыл бұрын
So beautiful
@archwood9410
@archwood9410 3 жыл бұрын
Did your simging voice never return?
@guyinawheelchair9648
@guyinawheelchair9648 3 жыл бұрын
Your beautiful!!♥️
@kirstyxxxxx9900
@kirstyxxxxx9900 3 жыл бұрын
Glad to see this video is unprivated. I missed it as it really spoke to me. The tune is epic as well.
@TobyMcMill
@TobyMcMill 3 жыл бұрын
had my reasons to take everything down for a while :) thank you so much!
@karenmacphee9186
@karenmacphee9186 3 жыл бұрын
Love this 🙏💝
@TobyMcMill
@TobyMcMill 3 жыл бұрын
too bad that I stopped it, I guess :) but okay...I will make a vid comparing now and back then. btw: I am still not sure if this whole voice cracking is over. maybe I am one of those people, where it takes years...🤷‍♂️
@karenmacphee9186
@karenmacphee9186 3 жыл бұрын
I’ve love these stories. I have a similar story up to figuring out I’m trans. As a child back in the 70s I would put socks in my underwear and stand in front of the mirror. I was gay from the get go but I didn’t know about it being an option until after high school. I always dressed androgynous and liked looking like a guy. I came out as gay but like you, went back and forth as I was raised in the south and part of me always believe I was supposed to be a wife and take care of a husband. That’s all I new. Here I am 53 next month, married to a much older man who I take care of and I’m a home maker. Goals... not. It is what it is. In retrospect, I am pretty certain that if things were known then like they are now and with social media, I would be Ken and not Karen. I wanted to say that this video was done extremely well and I loved the story. You are gorgeous and never stop singing. I love your voice 🥰🙏 Blessings friend and Thank you again for your inspirational story 💞
@TobyMcMill
@TobyMcMill 3 жыл бұрын
Dear Ken :) I almost had to cry by reading your comment. Thank you so much for sharing this. Your story is also one, that needs to be told. And who knows what your future might bring - maybe one day, when you're grey and old and grumpy, you can tell your story to the staff of a nursing home, or some old friends. Being trans will always be a journey for me. I am not finished, constantly trying to find my way in society and also a way to myself. We are all on a journey. Sometimes I miss someone saying my old name. And I think this is totally okay and fine. Because the person I was is also a huge part of the person I am. By now I know at least some people who are about your age, who did not transition and don't want to in the future, having the same arguments as you, just accepting things as they are. So I hope, you will have many more happy years to come, even if things aren't always pretty. I will definitely sing again and finally upload more videos once I manage to leave Germany (hopefully soon :)) Again, thank you so much for your openness! Stay safe & healthy! 💚
@karenmacphee9186
@karenmacphee9186 3 жыл бұрын
@@TobyMcMill That was really sweet 🥰🙏 Thank you Toby. You’re so right that everyone has a story. I find myself listening and looking to others more and more as time goes by to learn more and Love more. All we really have is our story. Huge hug 🤗. 💗💞
@daeve5520
@daeve5520 3 жыл бұрын
<3
@daniel4God4ever
@daniel4God4ever 3 жыл бұрын
Remember ...This world ..your body..is an illusion....what is eternal is your soul
@codig3868
@codig3868 4 жыл бұрын
I’ve heard about this happening outside of the United States. Not with just the trans community but also woman who’ve been wanting to resize their best end up getting botched up.
@TobyMcMill
@TobyMcMill 4 жыл бұрын
yeah I wouldn't go so far to say that many of us were or are getting botched. it's a risk we all know about before. at least our health insurance system pays for everything. and right now I am not sure if I would have wanted nipples for an additional 5 or $10,000 or even more (if I would have been in the US e.g.) LOL
@codig3868
@codig3868 4 жыл бұрын
I’m not gonna lie I’ve been getting the same stuff when it comes to the growing pains. So I agree I think testosterone does make us trans men grow. Just so you know I’m 3 months in
@snacho7203
@snacho7203 4 жыл бұрын
Ich habe gerade deinen Podcast gefunden und heilige scheiße! Deine Stimme von der ersten Folge bis jetzt hat sich immens verändert!!! :D
@miarosie
@miarosie 4 жыл бұрын
That was wonderful Toby. Your voices matched beautifully and each has it’s own character and depth. Loved it.
@TobyMcMill
@TobyMcMill 4 жыл бұрын
thank you so much!!!! :)
@thattoothbrush
@thattoothbrush 4 жыл бұрын
I am proud of you (': You are very inspiring thank you
@vaaldeelo
@vaaldeelo 4 жыл бұрын
5:15 C h e e s e B r e a d .
@ChaosRaccoonTV
@ChaosRaccoonTV 4 жыл бұрын
Hey! I found your story very relatable to me. I always felt like there was something wrong but I didn’t know what. I didn’t know how to act like a girl. When I turned 18 I got my first girl crush in college and thought I was lesbian. Then I thought I was agender. Then someone told me that I ‘look’ trans. So I looked it up and still denied it and got back to agender. And then again trans. I’m still pre T but your story is inspiring!!!
@TobyMcMill
@TobyMcMill 3 жыл бұрын
oh somehow I missed to answer on this comment. damn......hope, you're doing fine & thank you so much for sharing part of your story!
@kingthief9118
@kingthief9118 4 жыл бұрын
I have a FTM friend, he's pretty cool. I could tell you are much happier after transitioning My friend he goes by Jax, his mom won't accept him as a boy only as a lesbian. He does the best he can to pass as a male. With time I hope his mom accepts the fact that he's a boy, and allows him to be on hormone medicine.
@izzyspell2629
@izzyspell2629 4 жыл бұрын
Oh my god this makes me so happy 😊💙 I wish you everything best in life!
@TobyMcMill
@TobyMcMill 4 жыл бұрын
thank you 😊
@Cemhta
@Cemhta 4 жыл бұрын
I appreciate you uploading your video, most transitioning videos I've seen are from people that were 18, and it's nice to see you can also transition when you are a bit older. I am a cis woman and when I was a kid I used to look myself in the mirror and close my eyes as tight as I could wishing to be a boy when I opened them up, but it never worked and I got so sad... I never thought about trans man, and I had a lot of dumb prejudices about it, like I had to be insane and such (you know, ignorance). But about 4 months ago, I found Jamiee Dodger's channel and I've been amazed about how a lot has changed with transitioning... I also tried being a Lesbian, my sexuality is a complete mess. I am currently 28, but I don't think I'll ever transition, because I'm too coward, and perhaps my dysphoria is not as strong because I'm currently a extremely antisocial Ace, so I don't have any issues with partners or sex. What bothers me the most are the friggin boobs, they're so annoying... And menstruation ugh. I still feel like I can act however I want to act, and my physical body shouldn't be in the way to do so and perhaps that's why I will never transition.
@char8532
@char8532 4 жыл бұрын
‘i tried to be a lesbian again’ ME LMAO
@raintran2446
@raintran2446 4 жыл бұрын
Hello mister, I am a trans guy as a lad and I love your story so freaking much!!!! I am glad you had so many supportive people around you, and was able to live with your true self. I am almost on the way to my transition as well, so exciting!!!(๑>◡<๑)
@andreiflavianepsih9447
@andreiflavianepsih9447 4 жыл бұрын
Thats și beautyful Man 🧡♥️♥️
@brynleebirch7356
@brynleebirch7356 4 жыл бұрын
Im 13 and i just figuring this all out. And im honeslty scared for my life. But this was so inspiring and it made me really excited for my future. Im just not sure how to tell anyone. I have a feeling if i tell my mom she will finally let me get my hair cut and stop trying to force me to wear girl clothes and push me into somebody that i dont want to be. And maybe if i tell her. Then ill finally be happy. I just dont know how to do this. Any advise?
@TobyMcMill
@TobyMcMill 4 жыл бұрын
thank you! well...I would say, practice the whole coming-out-thing with friends. telling it your parents is always the hardest part. I mean...it was for me - and it doesn't matter if your 14 or 34 - it is hard! and for me, yeah, my parents needed the most time to understand and to be accepting. but I do have the confidence now, even if they would not have been accepting at all. but if your younger it's different. just take the time you need, to find the right words - and then: give them time as well. I really hope everything works out fine for you.
@brynleebirch7356
@brynleebirch7356 4 жыл бұрын
Thank you.
@slit4leehan
@slit4leehan 4 жыл бұрын
As a very young trans guy, your journey is probably the most inspiring out of all of the one's I've seen. I still have a long way to go but I'm sure I'll get there.
@TobyMcMill
@TobyMcMill 4 жыл бұрын
thank you so much!!! and all the best for your journey! :) you will get there. it just takes time.....
@justsomeguywithagoatee2876
@justsomeguywithagoatee2876 4 жыл бұрын
1:34 Homie, I think you felt trapped inside because you were being possessed.
@hugenut1921
@hugenut1921 4 жыл бұрын
Does this recipe work for vagina? Asking for a friend
@eunaekim9216
@eunaekim9216 4 жыл бұрын
I am not transgender, but you have inspired me to pursue my own goals as to my body!
@libertyschultz9807
@libertyschultz9807 4 жыл бұрын
Just wanted to see how you were doing and see how things are going. Hope all is well and that you are doing well mentally, physically and emotionally❤ much love from mn, USA❤
@TobyMcMill
@TobyMcMill 4 жыл бұрын
thank you! I am fine, just living (and stuck) on an island with the poorest internet connection ever :/ can`t upload anything.
@libertyschultz9807
@libertyschultz9807 4 жыл бұрын
@@TobyMcMill oh okay. I just started watching your videos and seen you havent uploaded in awhile and I got worried and I wanted to make sure you were okay. Thank you for sharing your journey as far as I have seen on your channel. I like seeing transgendered stories and seeing updates with how transitioning is going overall. I'm glad you're doing okay so far and if you ever need someone to talk too, I'm here to listen. I wish nothing but happiness and good things your way and things to get even better than they are now. I'm here supporting you on every step of the way. Hopefully things get better and you can eventually get off the island and get better internet connection to update us again on your channel. ❤❤
@TobyMcMill
@TobyMcMill 4 жыл бұрын
@@libertyschultz9807 here are some more "news": kzbin.info/door/x6uaGejU-nanSTEwAwdgNA