The story of my life (or at least of the last months)

[@carmenjecht6809]

Thank you so much for sharing Toby. So sad that it didn't work out...but you're on the right track : talk about it....as much as it hurts....it helps. Don't let people shut you up by them saying that you're strong....yes you ARE strong and you WILL rise again...but maybe just not yet. It takes time...take all the time you need!! But please don't forget to try to have a little fun sometimes....distraction can be good also. I do wish you all the best xxx Alles wird gut!!!

[@sarahotto8190]

Thank you for sharing your stroy. I am deeply sorry you had to go through all of this. You don't have to be strong all the time, it's okay to have a broken heart. Take your time to process all of this, it's a lot. You will rise and get better. Sending loving energy your way.

[@gedankengedons1900]

Ach Toby. 😟 Es tut mir so leid dich zu sehen, deine Trauer ist wirklich greifbar. Ich kann dir nichts sagen was deine Situation bessern würde. Ich würde dich umarmen, wenn ich es könnte und du das möchtest. Ich hoffe und wünsche es dir von vollem Herzen, dass du mit der Zeit und Distanz deine Wunden heilen wird... und wie du schon sagst.... wenn man sich Scheiße gewohnt ist, dann weiß man auch es wird irgendwann besser. Irgendwann kann ne sehr lange Zeit sein, aber ich glaube fest daran dass du dadurch kommen wirst. Ich glaube an dich, selbst wenn du es jetzt nicht sehen kannst, denke ich dass du es mit Hilfe deines Suppornetzwerk schaffen wirst. 💛 - Lara

[@rachellemaire4286]

Thanks for sharing!

[@RushnNoiz]

There are plenty more CIS gay men who accept TRANS men who haven't had bottom surgery that you think you know. ME INCLUDED. Don't give up on love. You're perfect the way you are, and will find someone who will accept you as you are, and then you will have to accept him as he is as well. Don't let your past experiences dictate what your future will be in any relationship. Even at our age, we are all deserving of love. I would be the most happiest man on earth it there were more men like you around. I also got hurt, in fact by a trans man. And I mean really hurt. And for over a year I just could not get over it. I loved him so much. But I did survive, and I promise you, you will too. Just remember, the insecurities in one self ends up being the baggage of the lover. Don't let that happen to you. You deserve love. (Bear Hugs) Thank you so much for your story. Your new fan and subscriber ... Rush (DJ Rush'n Noiz)

[@TobyMcMill]

Dear Rush, thank you so much for your kind words! I do believe there are at least a couple of gay men out there who would accept me - but it's pretty hard to find them. mostly you will be treated as a fetish or bisexuals want you as "kind of a woman" - well, at least that's my experience. after my divorce I can honestly say: no heterosexuals NO NEVER AGAIN! 😂 leads to nothing. thank you for sharing your experience with me (and the www). I am working hard on my post-divorce life and on my healing. this will take a while for so many reasons I can't talk about as I would like to in public. but be assured I will never give up on love. but for now finding my self worth again and putting my life back together is the priority. hugs from Germany, Toby

[@RushnNoiz]

@@TobyMcMill - I'm glad. Feel free to DM me anytime. I love making new friends, and you seem pretty nice. 😁 You never know, could end up going to Germany for a gig. 😁 (DJ) (Big Bear 🐻 Hug) from Montreal Quebec Canada.

[@jutjup1000]

Du siehst ganz schön runter gerockt aus. 😱 Ich habe deine Podcasts damals mitverfolgt und ich hätte mich gewundert wenn dein Unterfangen in den USA glücklich verlaufen wäre. Tut mir aber trotzdem leid für dich dass es nicht geklappt hat.

[@martinruetzler2856]

💔

[@ArnimSommer]

+1

[@JC-jd1us]

Damn that sucks Ive found more guys being accepting than women but maybe thats just the area I'm in.