I'm 18 and recently went no contact with my mom. I feel so much guilt and sadness knowing I can't see my 6 younger siblings and that my mom doesn't seem to care. everyone tells me she loves me the worst part is I'm not sure she really did, I feel like im glad I have peace but I miss the idea of having a mom rather than my actual mom and I feel like im grieving for my inner child who can't believe his mom just seems to move on without him. so here I am trying to find some kind of answers to why I feel this way with so many conflicting feelings and emotions lol.

I put this off. Now in my 50's and can't handle it. If I go no contact, that will be all the family I have left, but I discovered they are prepared to abandon me with the token "gift"after my father dies so they can be done with me. I am otherwise healthy and fit and do have some friends. I just can't handle this stuff anymore. During some major red flag visit to them, I swear I heard a voice whisper in my ear, "Walk away" - but my thinking mind is having a hard time of it. I drove two states to visit the and they took off on their vacation they never told me about, though they knew I was coming. Then I found this other stuff out.

I've been with two Latinas: one had BPD with ASPD tendencies and the other was a spiritual narcissist. She would say things like "she felt 10 years ahead of everyone else, especially men" or "tonight I felt my spirit calling my name, the world will end in 2 years and only those who are spiritually awakened will be liberated from this world". She also said that my ego was too big when I opened up and said that sometimes my self-esteem was low, while at the same time telling her best friend that depression was pointless and that she wouldn't learn anything from her (so she didn't help her anymore) and that she was actively cheating on her boyfriend with me... oh yes, and that she wanted to have sex without protection. "All the six men I've slept with so far have agreed to insert it blank, and you're the first one who won't". She also went on and on about fate and how a broken escalator was something that told her to stay (in the place where we were at the time, with me). She was completely out of her mind. I felt that no matter what she did, her cognitive dissonance would justify everything and absolve her of any responsibility (like cheating). A voice telling her what to do isn't herself, or so she must think. It brings excitement into her life. She also accused me of being too boring when I expressed that I didn't like her cheating at all, asking me "do you really want to spend your life being innocent?" There you go with a textbook example of gaslighting (thanks Dr. Ramani). It was a really eye-opening moment because it helped me to stand up for myself. I immediately dumped her, kicked her out of my flat and never spoke to her again. She insulted and manipulated me to the point where I'd had enough. My tolerance for frustration is really high, but there are moments when it's just too much. Well, about a year later she wrote me a message out of the blue, saying no more and no less, that she had let go of her anger and that she was now a friend from the past who remembered me well. Maybe you can guess what tactic she was using here. It's just interesting to see what people are capable of - she's a very emotionally intelligent person and she has a very good job in a country that doesn't reward hard work very much. So I guess her narcissism served its purpose. Side note: it's been 2 years and 1 month and the world hasn't ended (yet).

Where is Mederith?

Mederith donde estás?

Infinitas gracias! ❤Todo tal cual, muy esclarecedor

Sobre todos los encubiertos espirituales, yo fui testigo de como estaba por ejemplo agotado y dando clases se iba recargando, una vez usó una técnica del espejo donde te veías con un sólo ojo y fue una experiencia incómoda, era un retiro de sanar el arbol familiar donde todos salimos con muy poca energía, muchos perdieron la voz, otros afónicos y a uno tuvo un suceso en su país bastante lamentable que no mencionaré.

Es exactamente así Meredith. Además al principio era más entregado, luego fue menguando sin darme cuenta, comenzaba a inventar que tenía dolores de espalda, le dolía el cuello y por ello debía estar cómoda, también decía que tenía heridas en la boca para no besar, pero comía chile 😂más adelante me decía que yo tenía un sabor raro en la boca, fui al dentista, me hice pruebas y el dentista me decía que no tenía problemas de aliento. Si había muchos juegos de poder y una vez me hirió y vi una sonrisa macabra seguida de un falso perdón. al final solo el recibía, yo pense que eran sus dolores y lo cansado que estaba. Es un maestro espiritual chaman mexicano vidente muy conocido y la gente le adoraba, yo también le adoraba y admiraba por eso me enganche fácilmente. Muy romántico, se echaba serenatas todos los viernes por teléfono con su padre, mensajes de amor, me dedicaba clases de forma encubierta y pensé que era el amor más hermoso que había experimentado pero todo es falso, saber que viviste en la mentira es doloroso pero se puede salir. änimo a todos por los que pasan por ello. Un abrazo y gracias.

All so true. After 4 mos I still hadn't met one friend but heard about them alot.also wasn't allowed over the narcs house, since the ex still lived there..and was probably still the main source of supply/ etc.. Also not allowed on fb page! I finally got fed up after being put on the proverbial shelf for weeks! Guess I asked too many questions about it all.

I'm in this place. My daughter and SIL have aligned with my daughter's stepmother in a smear campaign and estrangement from me. It started when they began to date and got worse and worse. They all break boundaries then shame me or guilt me for not allowing them to walk all over me. We, my husband and I, have better boundaries now which helped, but we're being punished by stonewalling, ghosting, and limited communication with our grands. Any attempt at resolution leads to gaslighting and hurtful words. I called out the abuse, and now we're here at this cruel place where they just dont recognize us. It's like if they can't use us and abuse us, then we have no value to them.. I've learned that I'm responsible for caring for my own well being, and my daughter, her husband, and her step mom are responsible for their actions. It hurts but I've learned to L et go of any expectations and am cautious in my contact with them. The grands could benefit from our love but I'm not in control of seeing them, so I've had to grieve that aspect of my life, It will never be the loving respectful relationship I would like. It's a tragedy really.

It is mind bending and challenges my sense of reality after helping my adult narc daughter with a divorce and gave $80k+ to her legal costs and living expenses that were higher than mine until I finally said ‘I refuse to be your emotional punching bag’

Buen día con todos. La madre de mi ex encaja en todos esos tipos a la perfección. Ese qué tipo de narcisista es?

El sabado amaba a mi hijo y a mi y el domingo ya estaba con otra. Me bloqueó y puso el nombre de la chica en el estado de su WhatsApp, mostrandola orgulloso. Cuando teniamos planes hasta unas horas antes. Toda la familia callada nadie le dijo nada. El feliz con su nueva vida, yo sin palabras, sin nada mas que algo en la garganta que no me deja de doler

Sentido de derecho es lo que sintió mi madre con las cosas de mi padre y mias siempre invasiva Llegó al punto de quebrar económicamente a mi padre😢

Te hacen sentir tonto, para que desistas de metacomunicar (es decir, de hablar sobre lo que está pasando). En fin…

Bueno y si es mujer

Dios mio estoy fallando en todo. Todo lo que Mederith dice es mi radiografía emocional, psicológica y actitudinal, que aún no entendía pprqué no me podía mover de mi sofá. Tengo mucho trabajo por hacer. Gracias Méderith.

Si no tienes con quién hablar, grábate un video, lo ves y luego lo borras, si quieres.

"Cuando pongo un limite, me da la ley de hielo" 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

Finding someone to talk to is the most difficult part. Trying to understand what is happening while you are faced with court actions where a wrong decision could affect the rest of your life. I have often thought of a new way. To have someone to strategize with. For instance, there must be a lot of ex army, police and people from other fields with experience in understanding deceptive people. What we are experiencing is normal to them. They could save us a fortune with lawyers. Plus, it would open new jobs to people with these skills. Keen to hear anyone's thoughts on this. I can only see positives for this. But there must be negatives that I am overlooking.

Just found your channel. Lucky me. I’m always on the hunt for those with eyes to see.

Please tell you friend Narc $ucks that I wrote a book about my experience called The Sword that Divides. I made it free on the site of the same name. I used storytelling and example to slowly show the reader the abu$e.

Heavens Gate is sounding like not a cult. Seriously do your research. They are the only “cult” that didn’t operate like one.

Btw.....they LOVE LOVE doing witchcraft....voodoo...and black magic on others to see them fail...get distracted from their purpose....etc....

Energy is the new currency.....👑

They have dirty..filthy..nasty..dark..energy....twisted and sick....

Also slamming doors.....banging pots and pans......running water.....loud obnoxious music playing.. etc.....two year olds in 50-60-70 year old "adults"...

Uneducated people are PLAYING into their TOXIC GAME........🥶👹👺😈

Buen día con todos. Excelente descripción! Así es, tal cual! La familia de mi ex narcisista es tal cual y la describes, y la líder de esa familia narcisista es su mamá.

F#$k her she chose to treat you and act that way toward you

wow thank you for this

❤ Que hermoso que hablas el español super fluido, lindo video gracias 😊

It’s not a smirk it’s narc orgasm

Mil gracias Meredith... Es una bendición escuchar tus consejos... ❤

11:05 Etapa (1) Enfrentar la disonancia cognitiva de con quien estás (conocimiento del vinculo traumatico). 12:02 Etapa (2) Auto Responsabilidad *Aceptación Interna* La vergüenza Tóxica se muere 15:20. 17:55. 18:45 soltar las seguridades falsas. 20:50 no esconder la inautenticidad

Ojalá volvieras a KZbin 😢 tus videos me ayudaron muchísimo

me llegó tarde este video, pasé el hoovering...y volvió a descartarme

Three years in the 5D but because of fears, we haven't met He use 🔥/❄️, sometimes ❤+++ and sometimes 🤐(silent treatment)

Lo peor es tratar de salir a salvo con niños

@innerintegration *I hope you helped Dr Simon with youtube and promotion? ? ? ...I noticed a distinct lack of response to his request, both times he made it. It would be a sign of good character to help an older gentleman and especially one who has make such important contributions long before the advent of youtube...

DR Simon has been absolutely pivotal for me. A lone voice in the wilderness. Thank you for your sanity.

Holy shit!!! So true

OMG great caveats Meredith.. wonderful.. such understanding.

Porque veo este video tan tarde

Both my parents were narcissistic, of course I've dated narcs, my overt narc mother did everything you're saying not to do when I'd break up with a narc. She'd make comments like - "you couldn't handle it" "you don't know how to handle a man" gas lighting by saying it was all my fault. #1 problem. She was too involved to begin with. I stopped dating for 8 years until she died. Then 10 years after her death, i learned about narcissism. It all came together. 🧡

Vuelve @meredhit extraño tus videos ! ❤

I miss the sexual compatibility which It Is hard to find. I would gladly hit that again 😂 maybe have a sexual relationship. But that would be It, I would never put up with all the crap again 😂😂😂 not worth it. But I lived the relationship with the narc with rationality and never provided much supply, because I knew he was a narc from day One.

Como educar a adolecentes despues de salir con un psicopata y ahora me enfrento a sus conductas

Yo si pasé por esto, pero él decía que por que nada más había presentado a su pareja anterior ante la familia y amigos y que pues no quería presentar a nadie más… ahí comprendí que él aún estaba esperanzado a regresar con su ex, pero en el Inter él salía con varias jaja así que lo dejé