Im glad you got a chair, have you looked into connectove tissue disorders like hypermobile EDS or marphans?

Why are you cuddling with an animal when are trying to get well?

Never go to a hospital or psychologist. They won't help you.help yourself . lots of info now that there's internet .

Another reason you can be checked in is for a severe manic episode w. or w/o psychosis. Sometimes (like me) because mania keeps you awake for days at a time, you can be admitted for medicated rest. Esp. If you have a history of suicide attempts and can't prescribed a sleeping med to take home

Thanks for sharing

I could tell you were struggling with mental health when I saw your hoodie

Hey Devin, I admire your perseverance in life. You have so many obstacles (as we all do) but you just keep pushing through. That takes a lot of work and effort. I just want you to know that what you struggled with- with your mom tearing you down and telling you how awful of a person you are and how you are a bad kid and everything- my mom did that as well. She was very physically and emotionally neglectful. She didn't get drunk and she wasn't as intense about it as you might have experienced but it still greatly affected me throughout my whole life and to this day. She was always calling me and my brother bad kids. She would always talk bad about us to any family member who would listen. She and my aunts would sit in the kitchen and speak badly of us often. My brother and I were amazing kids though. My brother was valedictorian of his elementary and high school for God 's sake!!! We tried so hard! We turned out to be people pleasing doormats in many ways. That of course has led us to continuing abuse and neglect in our adult lives. It was so painful and still is to carry such self hatred in me. You are strong and you will become the therapist you want to be! Thanks for your videos. -from a fellow human being

I needed this. I never wanted to be a burden to anyone but this video reminds me how it can work out with someone who truly has a heart of gold. to accept you beyond your illness.

Thanks, Devon for your courage… I hope you make many more videos

i'm 13 and i'm only having thoughts abt harming myself and others that come and go so idk if i should go to a mental hospital but if i end up having to i'm scared because apparently the state that i live in is one of the worst states for mental help in the united states

I have a learning disability and mental illness, specifically depression. I am also on the autistic spectrum. My IQ is in the mid to high 70s. I used to think of myself as attractive, but I now realize that my condition has affected my self-perception. I am a 34-year-old cancer survivor, and I am currently single. I had two significant experiences with women. The first was a relationship that lasted almost 2 years, but it ended because I wasn't making progress in life and I took her for granted. The second woman I had a connection with was also on the autistic spectrum, and her family was very protective of her. They monitored our communication and ultimately decided that I wasn't the right person for her, even though I only wanted to be friends. She was 26 at the time, and I was 31. There were some flirtatious moments, but nothing serious came of it. We didn't get a chance to develop our connection further; she was told to cut me off. We never had actual sex. Her older sister has three children and one more from her ex-boyfriend after she got out of an abusive marriage, so I kind of understood where they were coming from, but still, it was unfair. I think we would’ve been together if it weren’t for them. I also just don’t show enough effort. I’m just there for the fun and emotionally when it comes to relating, showing love and care, and being there for them even when it’s hard, and being helpful, and being able to take care of someone through tough times. It’s not in my forte.

I prefer not to disclose my disability to anyone I'm dating unless I feel confident that they are comfortable being with someone who has a mental disability or is on the spectrum. Even though it may not be the ideal approach, it has never really worked out for me. If they are not the right person and they choose to leave after learning about my disability, at least there was some intimacy and enjoyment before they departed. I dislike encountering physical boundaries, especially if they seem to show more attention to their friends and share things with them but not with me because I'm just a date, or if she seems closer to her female friend. The only exception to this is if someone mistreats me in any way, I'm out, that's it. like who would have personal boundaries when it comes to physical sex? I don’t think that’s very common for a partner to set boundaries on things they will not do for their husband or boyfriend to please them, but then they want to be pleased. like for example, what they wear for their man like spandex, having fetishes towards women in bodysuits leggings sporty one piece swimsuit, the wetness other bodies from the water would be an example of my fetish. pool sex Jerking me off. if any of you guys have those kind of fetishes or some weird stuff, never bring it up on the first date other than that if you have like a feet fetish or something that could be considered gross or uncommon other than what I have, don’t expect that they gonna stay with you.

so they treated you like a wild animal ?

And in the UK you can attempt and as long as you’re medically safe, they have you talk to a psychiatrist and then 12 hours later I was home and worse off, at least my experience

I so connect with the hoarding, accumulating stuff as if that stuff would be somehow sensible units, not items. A 'they', instead of 'these'.

I'm feeling you, sister. It's like hearing myself ranting to myself. Exact same thoughts.

Your mother is morally insane. She is abusive, jealous and manipulative. This Jekyll/Hyde personality (hot-cold) gives bipolar vibes but also strong narcissism and attachment disorder. No boundaries, enmeshment and gaslighting.

I'm really enjoying your vlogs. I also have CPTSD, anxiety and autoimmune disorder, I have POTS. Also troubles sleeping. I have hip dysplasia and hip pain, as well, my hip condition is inherited. I'm also queer and did a major in gender studies. I feel connected to your content. Would love to get an update on you. Take care! Greets from Europe

This happened to me years ago and to this day I have nightmares of it. Stay strong and you can bet! this!

Ketamine works very quickly for suicidal ideations. I know through my own experience. Thank you for opening up and being honest. It brings more awareness to the social stigma that is mental illness.

Can i ask you a question

I have dyslexia, adhd,autism and dpd. :) (i live in hell)

This must be American

you did great

Last year I went to a physc ward I hated it I never got a room or bed I had sleep on a lazy boy chair and I had to remind them to give me my meds I hated it

I feel what you were feeling I have been suicidal thought for over 15 years I had a bad childhood and i was molested at 10 and 14 and raped at 16

We are not drug seekers! We have legitimate chronic pain that can be documented by imaging and MRI scans. I’m so tired of being treated like an addict because I am prescribed opioid medications. I’m so sorry people suffering everyday have to submit to this nonsense!

My first day I had headaches I threw up my food. And I keep getting up at night shaky.

Thank you for posting this I'd rather be put on anti depression drugs.

You can't have glasses in the nut house😮

Psychiatric medications are evil. Stay far far away. Firstly they say directly on the bottle may cause homicidal or suicidal tendencies. That’s not you that is the drugs talking when you have those thoughts . best of luck. I hope you’re feeling better. I’m on steroids right now it sucks. I can’t stop eating and I’m on day four or five

would rather use marijuana and not deal with Atl VA

I was an outpatient at one, and i saw a couple of staff walking faster to get away from an inpatient who was simply trying to make conversation.

I had my own cellphone that was allowed to have it. It had to be kept at the nurses station to charge when not in use though, There was supposed to be a rule that only during a certain time of the day but they weren't following the rule most of the time.

I wrote a lot of Poetry in a journal

The one I went to wouldn't even let you have Your own underwear and Clothes

Flat out treating patients like criminals not right

I am going crazy from the excessive stress and i wish I could rest in a hospital for a while, but im too terrified of other patients and the staff themselves

I think my wife of 19 years is delusional she had a lot of stressful traumatic events in a weeks time back in March she faked a seizure one day and started talking like a baby then she said Buddha and Anubis came to her one day and told her she was on borrowed time and to make arrangements to travel to the afterlife. And she died when she was 12 and they came 3 days prior She told my daughter a “spirit guide” came to her and told her I was having affair I tried to get her help and she took off to her parents. She lost her job and got a 3 month severance she said she’s gonna make money as a podcaster, then she was gonna marketing and selling sponsorship packages, then she was gonna sell merchandise for her podcast, then she was going to be a lawyer , then she was gonna start a nonprofit and make revenue, now she’s writing a book. I told her I had a dream about Buddha the other day and she said no you didn’t I’m talking to him now.

My gf checked herself in gonna bring her some clothes today

Rumination is my biggest enemy

I'm in 2024, and was just given this Med for what was thought was Migraines, It was the worse experience from this Med. I had RCVS, and with this condition and this Steroid together it had my head really in bad shape.😢

I didn't experience this to

Thanks for these videos

And that is what I thought

I found out that in this process I cried alot

Very well done and so very helpful and very true like I said I was in one for 5 to 7 days. And now that I am healthy I do not regret it

Absolutely correct

I agree