Do you have a purpose in life that you truly believe in? Without it anything you do will make you feel like wanting to k&@l yourself. Trying to sell people things that you don't believe in will probably also make you want to k&*l yourself. Just be honest with your viewers and as long as its authentic it'll be okay

Ok this is just ridiculous. I subscribed a while back when you were talking about boycotting fast fashion and workers rights. But now you’re saying you’d off yourself working as a waitress?! I think you need therapy to just process but this is giving privileged vibes. Also, LA is not a theme park where people can just go to live a fairy tale. Many working class people live there barely scraping by. Watch the Florida Project to see just a fraction of life.

I feel like we’re not acknowledging enough just how tough it can be to get by in todays society. If you suffer from mental and/or physical health issues, like many many people and especially many women do, it’s not always as easy or even possible to ‘just get a job’. I struggled with this for years myself, and I did in fact ‘just get a job’ on many occasions in multiple different fields, but I always had to quit after a while because I just couldn’t get myself to go anymore. Society and those around me (and my own self talk as a result) made me feel lazy. Turns out I was just dealing with a debilitating illness that was slowly destroying my body, had never known that I had it and always learned to completely ignore my body’s subtle cues to the point I didn’t even know I was doing it. Years and years of this same pattern repeating itself I nearly died from said illness and am still trying to reach any kind of normal functioning two years later. It would have never got so severe if I hadn’t been completely pushing my body past its limits just to (not even) earn a living for myself. Not saying this is Kristen’s situation per se, just saying we never know another’s life and we live in quite a fucked up society where we often have to completely bypass ourselves to earn money. It’s really tough out there. Kristen hasn’t figured it out yet she’s choosing to be vulnerable in this video and I think that deserves a lot of respect

Τελικά είσαι ή δεν είσαι καλά? ❤

This is a parody of a human being

It's very sad that you are feeling this low but just in case you read the comments here is some advice. I am a doctor and also have a masters but still i struggle with money and who doesn't? At one point while i was between jobs I had to work service to get by and it was okay. You will be fine just take a breath and start working. Not everybody loves their job but we have to get by somehow. Continue with your KZbin content that was your career until now. You have so many followers and find a job for now. Saying that you would rather unalive yourself i am sorry but it sounds childish to me. Get out there and fight. Also relying on crypto that might never exist is also not a good direction in my opinion. Good luck

Love yah!!

When you're at rock bottom is a good time to check your foundation. Some of your older videos helped me a lot when i was feeling lost. Your last two videos seemed like you were on track to start life coaching. Maybe that could be feasible. You have a lot to offer people and have helped many including myself. I hope you can find your footing and make it out of this as the person you want to be.

You’re videos are so relatable! I also had such high expectations of myself career-wise and have lately been so disappointed in myself for feeling like I’ve had to settle for a job that’s like OK but not really want I wanted and is just to pay the bills (which it’s also not very good for haha). Your career does not define you and our value as people is in no way tied to how much money we can or cannot get ahold of!

I'd like to suggest gigs more related to your experience than crypto like managing social media, graphics/ design freelance, getting back on KZbin or even start a new channel with new topics/ideas 💡

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What brand is your cute thrifted gingham dress?

Not cryptocurrency 🫥

The crypto plug during hawk tuah coin scandal is crazy 😭 At least your flop era is lowkey serving glad to have you back

Its all about mindset. I currently get to do marketing for a city Parks and Rec department. Overall i feel valued and get to promote programs and facilities that overall make the world and the community a better place. Ill never be rich, but i will be comfortable.

Crypto? Babe hustle away but dont be surprised if people rightfully dont want to support you anymore

‘It takes getting everything You ever wanted and then losing it To know what true freedom is’ that is what Lana says And I WANT A THRIFTING VIDEO

I say this with all of the love of all the world, there are some things that are definitely below you as the human with morals you’ve shown that you are. You shilling a crypto app IS below you. We all make mistakes an this was i guess your first one this year :) Truly, I want nothing but the best for you, and it seems that getting a day job might be really good for you honestly! This doesnt have to be something that makes you want to literally die! You could also start a patreon for example, or teach marketing/ communication. Just naming a few things. Also, part of the humbling process might mean making different life choices. Moving to a cheaper area, not renting a jaguar, but a Toyota etc. You can do this and I am rooting for you!

This crashout needs to be studied

Your content is great and you are drop-dead gorgeous, smart, talented, and interesting-it’s all gonna work out. Trust the unfolding and enjoy the journey! 💜 Everything you’re saying is extremely relatable! Also if you’re ever interested in collabing we would love to gab with you about building a truly free creative life, female empowerment, veganism, etc etc 🤪

Argh I'm sorry to hear how you are feeling Kristen. Last year I quit my job in research to get away from precarious working conditons and in order to follow my career goals more cosistently, and I'm still without a job after half a year since the job market is very tough in my field. At times I really feel like a loser, but then I try to tell myself to not base my worth on being productive/having a job. It is easy to feel that way when everyone around you is working (it seems). So I can relate to your feeling! Lowering expectations has also been a learning curve for me and not thinking in terms of all or nothing mentality. Sending good energy your way, it will go uphill again :)

I think going through life thinking you’re too special or different to work a standard job is privilege. This experience you’re going through is part of growing up, realising that you’re no better than anyone else, and everyone’s dealing with the cards they’re dealt. Attaching self worth to ‘success’ is dangerous, as over night it can be gone, and then so is your self worth. The way you treat your friends, family and people around you, including those retail workers and bar staff are what should make up your self worth. When you get back on your feet, do something that boosts your self worth and grounds you - volunteering for example.

Girl what? You're pushing crypto because you don't want a 9-to-5, because that would be below you? There are other "normal" jobs than just waitressing. You're absolutely not a loser for starting over from scratch, but refusing to get a normal job (even if it's just to get back on your feet) is not it. Maybe I'm completely misunderstanding you and I apologize if I am, but this video is coming across really privileged and as a slap in the face of those of us who have to work whatever jobs to get by. Hell, I have a masters and a postmasters and I'm currently working retail at age 30 until I find a job in my field. You. Are. Never. Too. Good. For. Any. Job. Overqualified, maybe, but never too good. Isn't KZbin your main source of income? Why not upload more often? You've made fantastic video essays in the past, why not pick that up again?

are you serious? i say this with all love but - GIRL, get a job. you can work on your writing and art and becoming a better person while still supporting yourself. it sounds like you could really use the life lessons that a "loser" job (wow, btw - the "i would rather off myself than be a waitress" comment was WILD) could teach you. best of luck you to you, but you need a reality check 🤷‍♀️ (also, CRYPTO? wow, you've really gone downhill)

I can relate to your entitlement, I can relate to the embarrassment and I also can relate to how bad mental health can make you lazy and lead you to reject something that you deem beneath you as the last straw you can’t carry or it will be the end. But since you moved to the US you seem an entirely different person, and I’m saying this with all the credit of sympathy and genuine esteem I’ve accumulated for you in so many years. Not a crypto credit though. That’s just sad. Taking clothes off of thrift stores for your gain is sad. In my experience, doing something that aligned with my morals and being aware I was trying my best despite my masters degree helped me much more than any self humiliation begging for people to mine crypto will ever help you. I won’t unsubscribe because you’re brilliant, smart, beautiful and one of my favourite creators ever, and I wish the best for you. You don’t seem like you’re in a good place and I’m sure you don’t need to be condescended by a stranger with some apparent parasocial affection for you, but burning the respect of the platform that paid your bills for years by promoting something opposite to the values you followed and spread doesn’t seem the right move to me both economically and for your well being. All the best.

What a great Dolly. I also 'ended up' in LA in my youth, for a couple of years.

28:16 how about pressing the dislike button and posting non-specific-to-you hate comments to farm engagement?

You`re working in an industry with lots of survivalship bias. I`m sure you`ve seen people less talented than yourself succeed and came to the quite logical conclusion that you should succeed as well. This must be so frustrating. But beneath the surface, there`s simply so much need for luck. So I don`t think that failing makes you a failure. A lot of capable people will sadly fail under this system. I hope you`ll get back on your feet and achieve great things with this channel. I think you still have the potential. But if not, I hope you will move onto something that will bring you joy and happyness and that you will look back on this chapter of your life not as a failure, but a success that, like everything, came to an end. Good luck!

I've learned adulthood is 90% being humbled and learning how to let go of your ego and see yourself as no better (or worse!) than everyone else. Humbling, if done right, can be very life affirming and help one feel closer to other people, feeling superior is lonely and isolating.

Oh girl... Why are you getting into crypto scams? What happened to you? Why are you promoting it to your audience? It's useless in practical life; it only serves to make certain individuals money, while draining other people's wallets and depleting resources. Is this really who you want to be?

I used to say that i'd rather off myself than get a service job because i feel horrible and overwhelmed interacting with so many people over a course of like one hour even, let alone the whole shift. Now i work a service job, and the first month in i wanted to off myself and cried almost every day. I still feel bad most of the time and i've been dissociating (? i think it's called that) most of the time when i have to talk to customers for more than 2 hours straight. There are days when i am chatty and it all comes naturally, but most of the days are not like that even though i'm trying my best to keep up positive attitude. I personally would never think that what you said meant "i'm better than working a service job", to me it would sound like "that's not something for me, it would be too much pressure on me". Also i have coworkers who love their job even if it's overwhelming, for some it's their dream career, and i respect everyone working in service. It takes so much energy. I know my life doesn't end if i have a job i heavily dislike or i don't succeed in something, but it's difficult to live with that for a long period of time, like when it's constant failiure and rejection, i feel like. I think i understand this feeling a lot. Just wanted to share my story, even though it's not super relevant. Thanks for the video.

This was really comforting to watch, thank you for filming and uploading this chat x

Kristen, thank you so much for this video. I resonate deeply with everything you shared. Over the past few years, I’ve been through depression, burnout, and some of the most humbling experiences of my life. I have a master’s degree from a top European university, and for a long time, I thought I was on the path to “success.” I’ve had quick achievements after uni, and taken over our family businesses, becoming a full-time entrepreneur, and board member/ consultant at other companies. My thoughts on business and entrepreneurship had even gotten published in top magazines. On paper, it seemed like I have it all. But life has a way of humbling you when you least expect it. After the pandemic, our family businesses started struggling and were close to falling apart. I needed to find a job to stay afloat. But despite my education, speaking five languages, working internationally, and having a solid network, I couldn’t get a single offer. I couldn’t even get a job at the government, where I had worked prior to being an entrepreneur. Rejection after rejection. Eventually, I had to go on unemployment benefits-something I never thought would happen to me. I’ve faced so many moments of deep embarrassment. Sometimes, I couldn’t sleep for nights, replaying all the senarios and deep shame in my head. Looking back, I see that I’ve been obsessed with overachieving, with proving myself-to the world, to my parents, and maybe most of all, to myself. My dad is an immigrant, and my mom is a refugee, and for so long, I thought I needed to be “special,” to do something extraordinary, to prove that I could rise above it all. But I’ve come to realize that I’m not that special-and that’s okay. All of these experiences-the rejections, the failures, the humbling moments-have made me so resilient, but they’ve also been incredibly freeing. I’ve gone through hell and back, and yet, I’m here - alive, and finally laughing at all the moments that were anything but the way I imagined them to be. My family businesses are slowly getting back on track. My life is still not where I want it to be, but strangely enough, I’ve gained so much peace from all of this. I’ve learned that I don’t need to keep pushing that hard. Not being that special, not wanting to be special all the time, and just living a slow, private life has been such a gift. Life really has the most unimaginable and unexpected ways of humbling you when you most need it. And I needed that humility so much. I’ve also learned that by openly talking about my failures, my embarrassment, my feelings, and my emotions-about my life truly, literally being a roller coaster that I didn’t want to be on for the most part-I take away their power. And that’s been truly liberating. So, thank you, Kristen. Maybe none of us is special, or maybe all of us are special. Regardless, I think your video is a reminder that none of us are alone in figuring it all out. Much love to you all. <3

You're going to be fine girl, after years of feeling like nothing will ever happen in my favor, I'm in a full let's do it mode. Spontaneous adventures, not knowing what will happen or where it'll take me, but just going for whatever my heart says. Life isn't to be figured out, enjoy yourself!!!

Oh, honey, what are you, 30? I am 52 and I failed at everything! I have failed marriage, failed relationship (which was toxic and existed only in my imagination), I failed in every art I tried, my novel had 0 sales in 3 years, my art has like 3 views per year (and it's free!), even my free novels have like 5 views per year or less! My job is hanging by a thread thanks to IT crisis in Europe (and my salary barely covers basics), I sleep on broken couch, due to my depression and anxiety my apartment is a dirty mess! You are still very young, and at least you are fighting and trying and your results are not even bad, you have over 350000 followers! Most people fail, we all have multiple failures in life, most of us never succeed in anything or in most things, like me. I lost hope my reality will ever get better so I am trying just to get the best of what I have. That's something I can do. Kisses from someone who failed and whatever!

It’s nice to have you back and I’m excited for more Car Chronicles in this era

thank you sm for this video, Kristen. your words always come when I need them, it's so reasuring to hear someone going through the same and kinda coping with it the same way. Reading the comments makes me feel less alone, less like a failure. I'll be more kind to myself.

Promoting gambling would be more embarrassing though. (Don't do it)

im getting confused, but I will assume that your partner is a they them pronounce? cause it got a little confusing 😄 💜 can I say something kristen? and idk if you will receive this WELL, but I promise it is worries from my heart, after watching you for years.... 👀💜 I feel like if I was your friend, looking in, (of course I am not so I am assuming, and I know one shouldn't assume.. alas...) I would tell you: I feel like this is the season of HIMYM and you're Ted, and I am lily telling you that it feels like you are jumping into someone else's life. living their dreams, their country, their dog, their space, and you do not seem happy at all. you seem really lost. 💜 and I am not saying real relationships are easy, and that we should not compromise and life is hard sometimes, but this has just been my feeling, since watching you in nyc. and then you going poof, and then coming back now with these updates of, that you're really lost. with no money. YES, maybe it's a rough patch, but I just want you to be careful. don't throw away your core and your own goals. it feels like you are losing yourself a little, and I worry, you will follow your partner state after state and one day end up without her, and then what do you have left? you know, maybe I am all wrong, and I hope I really hope I am. and I mean no offense. it's not to bash your partner - who I don't know at all. all I see I see is YOU. and you've honestly never seen more lost or sad, on this channel than you do now. please take care kristen!!! on another note, it's really great to be humbled in life, and to make job decisions that can give you dinner on the table and I KNOW things will work out for you! I believe in you.

I don't recommend you stay in LA if you're out of money, the economy here has been broken for a while with many businesses closing and people out of work while the cost of living skyrockets

Keep your faith. It’s okay to lay low and regroup. But keep your faith 💗

Oh that's quite upsetting... Maybe I missed something but can't you just find a regular 9 to 5 job like the most of us? Is that gonna make you ""a loser"" like me, a person who used to work as a cashier not so long time ago? I really don't know what to think about this video haha

Success doesn't happen for anyone throughout his life that doesn't make a person a loser though.. if you need some humbling energy well.. even if you write books that get published that doesn't guarantee that you will have financial safety.. basically even if you become one of the elit witers you will still be scared of falling and becoming irrelevant So that alone makes life a constant "struggle " for everyone with no exceptions I bet you have struggled in the past as all of us did that doesn't mean you won't get what you want the easy way again You never know ❤

Wish you all the best in your endeavours this year and beyond, no matter where you end up. Really hope things turn around for you, you're a very intelligent, talented and good person.

Cheer up! You got this!

You are not a looser Kristen, you're just human, and the human experience is about being rejected and making mistakes. The fall is the size of the expectations you have, it's fine not suceding everytime, so be careful with the pressure and judment you put in yourself. You're doing enough by taking care of yourself, and you're enough just for existing. I really hope you can find comfort in this ❤

After Trump got elected for a second time, I believe it

Girl, you are all of us. Dont put yourself in a box. Make a new box. A little bit of Help : You come across as a genuine, no bullshit kind of girl. That by itself is an asset. Use it, and it will trickle in all areas. We are all looking for that. Dont be a waitress. Thank you x love ❤

KRISTEN, a little humbleness - sure, probably healthy for everyone. but *please* don't let all of this affect your sense of self-worth as much! you're gorgeous and amazing and the world would be a better place if there were more of you (i guess we'd have to figure out who's doing service work then ... but you know what i mean 😅 ). we are all more or less forced to participate in a sick game of ressources on this planet and it's certainly not your fault if all the amazing qualities you bring to the table aren't as directly monetarily valued as they should be in a utopian world. i know you're even still gonna find a way. thanks for being so open! 🤍

welcome to the loser's club, we love having you :D