Thanks for the video

this is very real!!! after working from the time i was 15 till i was medically retired from the army. i havent been able to hold a job since.!!! combat stress and the military effects each veteran differently.

Havent watched you for ages!

I'm only a first year university student and whenever my parents forces me to get a part-time job in the holidays, I tend to have really bad anxiety

You are being watched and listened to it's 2024

I've started dealing with this recently, and it's a bit reassuring that others are going through it, and that it can be worked on. In my case, I know for certain that the fear is irrational because I don't even know what I'm afraid of happening at work. I really like my job, and I get along fine with most of my co-workers, but every step from taking my morning shower to actually walking through the doors at work fills me with intense dread. Sometimes I'll get so far as to make it to the parking lot, and I'll have a panic attack and completely break down when I try to open my car door. The panic attacks are so intense that I've developed agoraphobia, and sometimes the thought of leaving my house for any reason fills me with dread because I'm so worried that I'm going to have a panic attack that I end up having a panic attack.

Before I was early retired and had an awful job (training) with daily bullying by a cholerical co-worker I deliberately did things in hopes I wouldn't survive it or get severely ill and wouldn't be able to go back to work. I was laughed at when I gave hints to my boss. Said that the psych pills I take to wrap me in cotton wool to hopefully tolerate the bullying diminish my eye sight and had several almost-accidents (I even drove a car although I was so instable). I was surrounded by gaslighters, people that told me I must be lazy, not worth anything etc. - from the time I was born happened this, the feeling of not being welcomed, not loved. When people get parents that don't deserve a precious child, highly sensitive + ADHD and therefore not easy to handle by cluster-b personalities.

Maybe i don't have BPD. Maybe i really do have PDD :D Whenever i have irritability & anger i think i have BPD but it's always without any reason, it's just on a particularly bad day when i can't think about anything or take any inconveiniences and just explode at everything. But it's untypical for me. It's not how i usually am. Plus all the other symptoms fit. My daily life is constantly a struggle to even just make food (which is why when i take on too much, i strain myself to the point where anything going slightly different than i was able to conjure up in my head, i have a fit)

My parents could not have done a blessed thing to make me want to try dbt. I had to be ready. My late 30s. Sometimes it takes that long. If I can offer one tip: don’t enable our bad behavior. Set boundaries. Don’t financially save us all the time. Make us responsible

This primary thing in my life should've been settled long time ago. I worked on many jobs but always either I quit the job cause of my fucking social anxiety and fear of responsibility till the end of my life. The longest route I'd say on the job I had is 2 years, every other job lasted for like a few months and that's it. I had an interview for the job at emmezeta store yesterday finally I feel that this job is gonna get me far wish me luck you guys. I got a move out of my parents house and start a new life. Need to commit that I need to work no matter what job it is cannot wait for that ONE job in particular that I finished school degree for cause there is none of that at the moment. I hate this illness that I'm struggling with I got fired cause of social anxiety. This is the major problem that if it continues on this path I'm gonna end up on street dear God help me.

Horrible

You are describing Focal or partial seizures.

Some people are born with overly sensitive nervous systems and everything is experienced as trauma.

I recognize myself so much through your experience. I feel seen

My Dr says I have this condition but I disagree I have erratic mood swings , bad depression then when I feel better occasionally he says that's hypo mania ?

Good to see you! Go for it, dear.

Amazing gal, Thankyou.🌸🌸🌸🙏🏻😊

Hi, I’m from 2024, it’s called bedrotting today

I don't have BPD, but am watching this to learn more about it, but I also have a little paranoia regarding the webcam on my laptop. It's only fleeting though - as I think of how bored anyone watching me via my webcam must be - looking at my eyes dart from side to side while I'm reading stuff or watching youtube clips. I can't think of anything more boring for the poor sods! 🤣😂😀

Hope you are doing well, came across your channel and felt connected ❤

Just learning about BPD, as a parent of a 22 year old daughter with BPD I would love to hear more of coping skills

ik this video is old now, but I just found it after doing some google searches. I'm almost 26 and the longest I've held down a job is 7 months, I haven't worked in almost a year, I feel so crippled mentally and I feel so alone. Being able to put a name to what I'm going through is kind of scary.. I hate working, it makes me so anxious and scared. I feel like a burden because I'm not helping with money, but the thought of even looking for a job, let alone applying and doing an interview, it keeps me awake and gives me full blown panic attacks. It helps to know other people know what this feels like...

watched this video when i used to hit myself in the face a couple years ago, which i slowly came out of. it had been years since i had last done it but today i was so overwhelmed with anger that i started punching and slapping myself over and over again, more than i’d ever done before. my face feels very sore rn i hope i didn’t do any serious damage but i can’t see any bruises (yet at least). it fucking sucks cuz i remember how hard it was to stop doing it last time, hopefully i can still be that strong and eradicate this reaction immediately thank you for creating a place where people who struggle with this can feel understood and share their experience <3

emetophobia I have struggled with it my whole life

I’m 55 just diagnosed! 😢

Blame it on my adhd satan cursed upon me

Thank you so much for the video. I am totally 100% relatable to this. How bad do you catastrophise from anxiety? It gets so bad for me. I fucked myself over every way possible. I’m just going through divorce done with that but still doing the psychological evaluation, I was abused though in my marriage, really hoping to get this under control you seem to be very grounded. I like your idea of show evidence but my brain still doesn’t listen. I hope you have a great day. Do you think that being in a narcissistic relationship and being abused causes borderline personality? It was not like this until my abusive marriage

I’m 16 y.o, I think my self harm started like 2,5 years ago, i don’t remember honestly, i was so stressed out after school, that everything was getting on my nerves and i punched myself, i bit my knees, which leaded to bruises, i scratched my arms and legs(i had really long nails at the time), also I scratched myself with scissors, and what i gonna say, I rarely was bleeding, all my self harm was fading away really quickly, but i didn’t even understand that it’s not ok, and now everything is worse, I haven’t recovered from my eating disorder, i haven’t been to therapist, but i have concerns that i might have depression, i cut with a razor really often, i accidentally left a scar on my hand and I am very embarrassed, so i always wear gloves, i am kinda tired of it, I also have passive suicidal thoughts, but not always, i hate not only the way I look, but also the way I am, I regret my existence, even after good time with friends i become so freaking anxious, that I can’t fall asleep for hours, I also can’t go to bed, unless i feel a strong physical discomfort, i don’t consume pills to reduce menstrual pain anymore, i feel like I am not worth it, i cry everyday, sometimes a couple times, I often can’t exist in my body, I wanna leave it, because of my hysterics, I am riding a swing so intensely and for so much time, that i become feeling dizzy and nauseous, i usually do it for 2 hours, i am trying to reduce human contact, of course I go out with friends sometimes, but I make sure that it occurs seldom, I am afraid to go to therapist, because they may prescribe me some antidepressants, which can lead to weight gain, also I don’t have money and I won’t let my parents know about my struggles

Thanks for this hope u doing ok. Im not. Lol. Bless and thanks. For honesty

My mom had the chemical depression youre talking about. She slept a lot and the doctors gave her way too many pills that made it worse. I have situational depression. Im ugly and late 50s so I gate myself so I let myself go. Young people laugh at me in public and look disgusted. I cant stay home because of my job. I just wish I could die

I feel like i fucked up my life im 24 & never got a job and cant even apply for interviews

im a good driver but if i think about my driving to much i get anxious especially if someones behind me then i start thinking the car behind me is judging me on how im driving and i get really nervous and if they pass me i assume its because i look like a bad driver not because im going the speed limit lol

Literary me😢

I am one of the people who have to do your share plus my work. Im sorry but I'm tired of it.

Yeah it gets lot worse if don't have shrooms good weed with all those pills it takes away from skin complex sty

The accent slipped when you pulled up your pants.

This last video is 3 years ago, I hope you are well. Will you post again? Love

Not sure if it’s the same thing, but for me, one very real thing would trigger me (getting yelled at at work, making a mistake, then being replaced by someone else for a future shift due to my mistake), and it will send me spiralling. From then on, I start to replay every mundane interaction I have with people and somehow in my head, I’ve done something wrong, I’ve accidentally been mean, I’ve embarrassed myself, something like that, even though I know logically that even if I have done something, it’s so small that most people wouldn’t have even picked up on it. I know that realistically, I’ve not really done anything, but my mind keeps sending me flashes of these very mundane events that somehow feel intensely embarrassing and make me feel stupid/like a bad person.

Sugar, refined foods, carbs, processed alcohols; stick to anything truly organic & non gmo. (Coffee is cited - but make sure it is organic/freetrade & mineralized. American coffee is tricky. Thank You for this video! xoxo #EatCleanAlways.

Oh dear. I feel that so much it is almost unbearable.

I want to start and try a relation with someone with a bad case of diagnosed bpd. I hope I can get every bit of knowledge from people with experience. I know every case is different. I know there's more people out there. I want to stay with this person with his recently started healing era

Thanks for sharing ...everything is making sense now!😂

I attended classes via The Family Connections Program for parents and although it didn't give me magical powers, it was very helpful and gave me some better communication tools. My adult daughter has indicated she has BPD but then also at times denies it and would rather identify with a ton of other things that have some crossover behaviors. I've offered to pay for her to go to DBT treatment but she is resistant. I just wish she'd commit to it because I truly believe the skills will help her in so many ways.

I hope you are doing better. I think I struggle with this. Right now I'm in an episode where I can't move at all. I stare at my phone and scroll but if I did't have my phone I would stare at the wall until my vision fades. I feel like I'm trapped in ice and all I can do is move my eyes and cry. My cat and my partner can sometimes break me out of it but they're not here now. It's painful, even if I scream at myself to move I am frozen. I'll probably get out of this eventually but at the moment I feel useless.

I mean, i do like your video, but the things you say, they do not do them for us. It's one sided. Communication e.g. is most times impossible, i'm being stonewalled aloooot. Etc etc, it's exhausting and abusive. We have needs to. Who cares for US?

Afterv18 years together e 2 children's now my husband with bordelain disorder is asking me a divorce....I love him but he is telling me that he loves me but he is not in love with me any more..What can I do???

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gemma I watch this and it breaks my heart I know mental health services are shit I have had to support myself without any help it has always been down to me to sort myself out but I hear you people like us need support we shouldn't need tio cope by ourselves its crazy the nhs is getting even worse I don't know how much longer it can go on really