It takes me about 2 hours to eat. Since I was a young child & Teenager. And still having this terrible eating Disorder I’m 47 years old with Cerebral Palsy & Anxiety.

it nice that you are trying to put this video out there for people to understand the feeling of those who have the eating disorders but have you put yourself in the shoes of the parents who have to abide by all these rules and meanwhile watch their child starve themselves? you have no idea the pain that disorders like this cause and the utter helplessness that they feel in dealing with it. there is nothing that can describe how it tears you apart inside.

I think about you 2 a lot. I hope you guys are doing ok!

Does anorexia have a comorbidity with ocd? I noticed you talked about numbers and being obsessed with food and weight.

why no fruit in cereal or yogurt??? i don’t get that. and no “unpermitted food”??? don’t they want us to eat? like what???? 😭😭😭

“If you had weight to gain” if? How does one get treatment without being underweight? Nobody takes me seriously and I’ve had these issues for like 3 years 🙁 but I’m also POC so we’re half as likely to get a diagnosis or treatment 🙁

It was so annoying eating for 40minutes for me and if I finished 2 fast they would always say something abt it😭LIKE WHO EATS FOR 40MINUTES LORD

i have a question about the no hats/scarves thing - do they allow extra layers with medical exemptions, for example raynauds?

You are simply adorable and I love your personality ❤ I found your channel after watching the Renfrew Doc. Subbed😘 why was shaking of the legs forbidden WTHH... Your editing is *on point, love it!!!*

THANK YOU FOR POSTING YOUR KNOWLEDGE AND EXPERIENCES. I HOPE YOU ARE DOING WELL.

hope you two are doing well ❤

For people who need to know the best way to get out of treatment as someone who managed to: 1.eat what they say without fighting: I know its hard and brutally exhausting but the more you do it the less hard it is and eventually they wont be as strict 2.the weight gain is a problem. You can't really fight it because your weight is monitored and its your bodies natural way of healing from the disorder. However if you don't fight it and let your body naturally gain the weight it needs. You can totally lose the weight once you get the crazy people off your back (mainly by gaining weight or moving out when you are an adult) 3.don't kill yourself. I know it sounds nuts. But people who go here actually really do engage in suicide behaviors (like myself) this will only hurt yourself in the end because you are letting them not only steal your food freedom but also your entire life. Eventually things will get better it may take years but eventually the ed gets better and so does the treatment and you will have your life back

Im sorry but this is not treatment this is abuse

I think you need to go to the hospital the body is not giving healthiness

I work at an ED treatment center and this would NEVER happen! Completely unacceptable and uncalled for. Also the place where I work is a no touch facility so the staff member shaking you in your sleep is so baffling omg! You're so strong and brave. Keep speaking up and standing up for what's right! Xoxo!

No mixing fruit with your breakfast?? Porridge tastes so much better with fruit. Same with breakfast cereal. Otherwise, it’s so bland. I also think it’s very normal to have these things with fruit. Even toast with banana is a thing.

I remember I had to scrape parm cheese off my plate and had to eat a giant spoonful of it because it was left over from my pasta 😅

This is my new favorite channel I hope they BLOW UP and go viral!!!

Love the background music

These two young girls are beautiful and wise beyond their years

i had a friend who said that he hated anorexic people, how they should "just eat" and "they should just bulk and be better" i didn't have the heart to tell him how much it hurt me to hear that...

The 35 minute thing is probably because that’s close to the 30 minute lunch break you get at a job or the 25 minute lunch public schools give. That is actually a challenge I’ve had due to Crohn’s. It hurts if I eat too fast. We need to normalize giving people at least an hour. For something like this, they shouldn’t have a time limit, at least for new patients. Like ‘be done before your next group’ or something. I’m sure the 30 minute standard is doing damage to most people’s GI track even if they don’t have an ED or any sort of GI disorder.

I'm a dad. My daughter is struggling with anorexia. Thanks for being brave enough to share all this. Truly enlightening.

God loves you John 3:16 Romans 6:23

I love my ed I dont want to recover but im being forced to

So you’re saying we should have fear foods and restrict and basically only eat things that are zero carb zero fat basically zero protein and zero calories or salt. Girl what. As someone who only eats like three foods I feel you but convincing people on the internet who see you a credible role model and you have influence over why would you make such a nonsensical video

I hope you’re okay x

Thank you so much for this!! I am headed to inpatient this coming week for the first time and was terrified but your video helped calm me down!! I’m still scared but my ED has taken over my life and I know I need to go!! I hope I can reach the level of recovery that you have reached. I hope you have an amazing weekend!

These rules are ridiculous considering it would make someones desire to be thinner even more that when u finally get released ur anorexia would be so terrible and ur mental health in there and knce ur released would go📉📉📉

You look like the girl from game of thrones

Hi hun , I'm sorry but why has your face become so ballooned up ? 😢

i hope you’re both doing well! love you both & sending you love & hugs 🩷 haven’t forgotten about you!!

Do u get same amount of food as other girls? Even tho everybody has differnt weight and height??

What center did you go?

You put it into words perfectly. I never felt that anyone close to me actually understanded how bad it actually FELT. This video is perfect explanition about anorexia. I’ll save it for later if I’ll need to explain my situation and feelings of ed to someone. Than you for making this video, and I hope you stay healthy, happy and ed-free ❤

Thank you for not romantizing the severe disorder, not giving tipps or trigger. I see it's been 4 years since you uploaded this video, but you sound as if you have been already on a very good way - understanding the danger and sharing a positive fight spirit, not being desperate and giving up. You sound as if you would speak, not this devilish sick sadistic voice... I hope you feel good today ! Thanks for this video

I remember so many of these rules. At ERC though they did flush checks too so the person would look in the toilet after you went and say it's okay for you to flush :P and post meal group would just be a normal group like DBT or something until the end of the day when they unlocked your rooms for you and often wouldn't let you do other things like coloring or knitting, just a stress ball or something like that during group

:(

I have a question… I had a gastric bypass about 14 yrs ago… irony… I had complications and still have problems with this forced anorexia and bulimia type situation. Because of vitamin deficiency I had the worst pain… I’m kinda used to it now but at it’s worst there was soso much pain…. Bones, and skin, and muscles, and organs…. So much pain. Do eating disorders generally do this? I can’t imagine the mental added anguish but if the pain is similar you guys are beasts. Mental AND physical…. Physical caused by mental…. Mental added because of physical…. It seems like one of the worst physical cycles. At one point I was also addicted to opioids so addiction I get…. That alone is soul consuming…and that took away the pain…

As a person who has been in inpatient facilities for 4 months, all of these rules are very true. It was so bad at some of the treatment centers..

Hope you’re doing okay or feeling a little better!

I struggled with bulimia as a teenager and went into recovery and just relapsed anorexic i needed this video to help me out of my relapsed

Thats true ive been there i remember all that . Or they gave you ensure or something thats same thing happen to me

Stop because imagine mot being able to mix your curry w your rice

I wonder if this is the same for BED 🤔

I really really hope you are ok. Your health matters so much. I will look on instagram xx

Hey, hope you're doing okay.. I stumbled upon your channel like a month ago, and it's really helping me.

You seem really fun and smart. I get watching yourself could make you cringe cuz I think of myself and I watch videos of myself and it makes me cringe so I get it but you're so fun and interesting and smart so don't cringe because we're not cringing

i hope you’re doing okay

hey! we haven't forgotten about you really hope that you are doing well for yourself and taking care hopefully one day we can have you back :)