2024: NOT GIVING UP YET

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00:00 Introduction
00:49 four tidbits
05:21 fitness tests
10:06 copilot workout
11:14 2023 recap

[@stephaniemoore-fuller9082]

166 days out of 365 days is 45%, way more than a third, and almost a half! You go girl!

[@jessicastevens5782]

just coming to say the same

[@pippamint176]

ha! just whipped out the calculator and was about to comment too. she has done so well!

[@aurorasaur]

Came to say the same! Working out it nearly every other day is an accomplishment in it's own right, but that's not even taking down time from injuries into account!

[@stephanieok5365]

Exercising 3x a week is like 156 days of exercise, so 160+ is great. I mean, you have to rest your body too.

[@paulapinetree]

This is the girl math we need ❤

[@mfn1311]

It’s good that you’re not giving up, I mean you’ve come so far in my opinion. I am proud of you!

[@unboxedbybre]

💯 agree with this! It may not seem like it but you indeed have come very far! You’ve got this!

[@gigilina1782]

agreed-such a major shift in your strength, comfort in the gym, and relationship to yourself since i first started watching!! 🤍

[@marygrey4630]

As someone that has been following you almost since the beginning, i can clearly say that you've made it so far in life and ever since you started posting. You've been working on your health including mental health, you've made youtube your main job, you've even BOUGHT A HOUSE, you've practically renovated everything yourself, you are constantly working on yourself, you keep up with your family and not many people can do as much as you did at your age! I know you might think to yourself you're getting older etc but you are actually still super young especially with all that you've achieved till this day. And admitting to having health issues including mental is a humongous step and the fact that you activly choose to help yourself and better yourself is amazing and i hope you are proud of yourself because you really schould be.

[@christineschmidutz5057]

Bea a suggestion for you. Maybe a huge mural in your gym. Something that makes it a joy to walk into? A jurassic garden of 🦕 maybe?

[@heavenlycute]

That’s an awesome idea!

[@LindaC616]

Fabulous idea!

[@claudiabirgy698]

Sometimes surviving is a goal 🧡 look at everything you went through! And you're here today wanting to go forward. How freaking cool is that

[@user-jg8nj3jp6i]

Bull?;!;

[@user-jg8nj3jp6i]

Being a prisoner tracker to it ain't gonna happen I'm my own boss get off don't trust no more can't work life destroyed not mad hurt don't make know difference I'm done

[@SuperAesquivel]

Hi my name is Adriana I’m 50 years old, I just want you to know that I admire you because you don’t give up, I’ve been watching your videos maybe like three years already and you are so funny and transparent that’s why I keep watching your videos. Keep going and don’t give up. I’m from Mexico leaving in San Antonio Tx I just want you to know this because maybe my spelling is not right Happy new year 🎊🎈🎆

[@LindaC616]

Chica, ¡todo perfecto! 👍

[@celinuchis90]

¡Saludos desde Querétaro!

[@ScruffyIsMyName]

Greetings from Australia! 🇦🇺 Your English is better than mine!

[@SuperAesquivel]

@@ScruffyIsMyName thank you

[@confusedchild2561]

❤

[@jeromie89]

Just saw this quote: "Failure is ok, as long as you don't let your first failure be your last failure." As long as we are still trying, we are still progressing and learning. Things will fall into place at the right time. ❤

[@xXGracieGhostXx]

Exactly! A KZbin trainer I watch always quotes "failure is forward," meaning that you never know how to better yourself unless you fall and get back up again! Stay strong everyone!

[@Krise343]

I had Covid middle of October, productive cough continued and went right in to being sick again. I still have cough! SO many people sick with this cough! Wishing everyone a new year of strength, healing and happiness! Let’s Go 2024!!!

[@theirishcailin333]

Drinking pineapple juice is supposed to be good for a cough. Also cut an onion in half and leave close to you at night, it draws all badness out, great if children have a cough too. What country are you in? There's a brilliant cough bottle you can get in Holland and barrett, when my son was about 4 he had a cough that wouldn't go, gave him this cough bottle (does not taste nice) and it was gone in days and never returned

[@sandyvdh6226]

Generally cough syrup does not really help well...unless to make you drowsy... If still possible drink hot drink with honey and have fresh fruit fruit juices. Also people think lemon and pineapple but don't forget that potatoes and Bell Peppers have a fair amount of vitamine C too! The onion is true but I personally never tested it... onion has antiviral capacities... As exercise will boost your immune system you be glad to find out moving as little as 12 min to a rate that makes you breath harder aka moderate intense is enough to make you significantly healthier ...

[@TheRachag]

Xylitol dry mouth lozenges to soothe the throat seeem to get rid of it after a month of having it.

[@samanthawest27]

It was a hard year. I moved into a new home and should have been on top of the world but when my freelancing writing dried up I got stuck in this weird frozen state where I’m scared to try for anything. Pushing ourselves into the fear zone with anxiety is just awful. Thank you for showing your vulnerability, I see you dealing with the same things I do with such honesty and it reminds me to give myself grace. You’re such an open person, 100% yourself no matter what, and we all adore you for it!

[@TeresaNC1]

Sharing your story of terrifying anxiety really hit home with me in relationship to my grandson. No one has connected the change in his meds for his fears/anxiety/panic and I now think I'll mention this and also mention the possibility of them talking with his therapist about the necessity of the changes. You have done great this year and are inspiring so many of us. Please keep it up, lovely lady!

[@user-kh5wi7xk7h]

You accomplished so much Bea💗 getting trough those episodes, moving house, building your house, going on without your job, having close family relations, dating and now getting a boyfriend! Moving in together, cooking all kinds of dishes, working out almost 50%of the days despite of being sick some times, getting your Guinea pigs, looking after the dogs, being crafty and creative, and Al lot more I don’t know off, starting all kinds of projects!!! You are way to hard on yourself!!! Good to have health goals still, you can do it!! Even if some stuff fails, that’s just reality. Love you!!

[@cassandraargo9017]

The benefit of being home sick is getting to be early on a Bea video for once!!! Yay 🙂 I love that you are not giving up on yourself and that you essentially declaring that 2024 is the year of Bea!!!

[@heavenlycute]

Best wishes for a safe and speedy recovery ☺️

[@KnotHead01]

Giiirrrlll. Stay on track. You got this! I just hit 40 and i fell like my body feel apart. Wish i would have started this health journey WAY before this. Now i feel like I'm crawling out of a hole. Learn from my mistake.... Keep it up!

[@kristinamoody3180]

When I eat whole foods I feel so much better. I do get lost in the bad food choices at times but when I really try. I really do feel sooooo much better. Oh and the daily simple stretching is a game changer. I recently had a back injury and work and that was a wake up call for me. YOU CAN DO THIS. :)

[@Beautiful_Days9249]

You are getting through it. Step by step. You are just like me. I am 54 and will not drive through a car wash. I have a fear of freeway driving and forced myself to take a vacation in 2017 and drove 5 states on the freeway. Exposure therapy helped my agorophobia in my 20s. Support from a person helps tremendously to get over things. So glad you have Steve in your life. You will feel more apt to exposure therapy.

[@jonap5740]

Oh boy, I feel you on this one, driving on the freeway is very terrifying. Good for you. I use my navigation app to show me a way to get places without going on highways at all, but I have yet to use it.

[@phyllisreinking4208]

@loraherbert9249 I hear you. For a long time I couldn’t drive through a car wash and had high anxiety as a passenger driving in a parking garage with those creepy low ceilings. My husband is wonderful and will always go the back roads to avoid interstate driving (where everyone seems to think they’re in a high speed video game).

[@youtubeuser6418]

I totally understand the feeling trapped issue! I struggle with the freeway, red lights, car washes, hair salon chair, dentist chair, will not be on a plane ... Im working through it and its getting better but its been years of therapy and work. It all started when I had a huge panic attack years ago and struggled with disassociation as well. You are definitely not alone in feeling trapped!

[@omoragan]

I love the fitness test idea. Can't believe I haven't thought about gauging progress. You got this, Bea!

[@karichilibeck3163]

I love this idea as well. So much better than always relying on a scale for progress.

[@yesi.A]

I’m with you on not giving up. It honestly doesn’t matter how many times we start as long as we focus on ourselves and happiness we are succeeding.

[@MissingLaRue]

I love that you share what you went through because I’m telling you I went through THE EXACT SAME THING. You helped me feel like I’m not alone and helped me realize this is something a lot of people go through even if it’s not talked about often. Please know you are not alone and what you do by sharing your life including all ups and downs helps so many others and I appreciate you so much for that ❤

[@womanofacertainage5892]

Same. Solidarity, sisters! And brothers!

[@moon-rj2wj]

yes bea, 2024 will be our year!! gardening is so so fun, i so recommend starting :) my mum and i grow a lot of things and its such a nice bonding experience

[@mayokimmer]

Bea I watch you because I love how you tackle life. I root for you to be happy, weight loss goal or not. You are wonderful and I love that you share useful insight on so many things that has helped me, from mental health, creativity, healthy recipes, and exercise all witty description. Thanks for another great year!

[@deannapeiravi6483]

Bea you have been on a bumpy road and youre still dedicated to living life and doing it well. Youre an inspiration ❤ thank you for letting us tag along on your journey. I have many of the same goals and bumps in my road. Its easy to get discouraged. I am so thankful to you and your channel and all the shenanigans along the way. Happy New Year to you and your family🎉

[@tricia9049]

I've been in this position before and have felt the same way about this year! I think it's partially an ADHD thing...our short term memory and long term memory get all fuzzed together and the hardest, most recent memories tend to show up first. I'm hoping you can move through the late fall/early winter memories of being sick/injured without so much shame and can mostly look at this year in awe of your personal development and recovery from last summer! Right there with you ♥️ happy new year coming up!

[@lhmccool67]

Ah, Bea! As the mama of 3 humans who struggle with intense anxiety just like you, I just wanted to hug you while you were being so vulnerable! 🫂 It's easy for me to say, "You're not alone", and it doesn't really help when you're in the thick of it. Hang in there. You're such a loveable person and we're all proud of and rooting for you! ❤️❤️

[@juliemejias3661]

Beatrice, do not give up. As long as you keep trying, you will eventually get there I have been watching your channel from the very beginning. You have such a great energy. I started dieting with you. From when you started vlogging. When I started I was obese. It has not been easy and I had some hard days, but I am now thin. I lost 100 pounds! It feels so great to be thin and I have so much energy. Do not give up on yourself. If you have a bad day or month, just start again. I did intermittent fasting, protein drinks, starved myself sometimes too. But, I knew I wanted to lose all the extra weight and I did it. I follow Daniella Joy. on youtube. She is so motivating . She lost 128 pounds on her own too.Just keep trying and visualize yourself in your mind how great you will look. People should not hate on you. It is so hard. But it is possible. I am older with a slow metabolism and I did it. I worked out at home and in the gym. The bottom line is you must be in a calorie deficit to lose weight. All the workouts alone will not drop the weight.Every time I look in the mirror, I can not believe it's me. Good luck in your weight loss journey!

[@janelleknowles394]

I joined a fitness center in my small town. I keep you in my head to help me get through workouts. Trying new things and surviving 😁

[@jonap5740]

That's such a nice thing to let Bea know! I find keeping someone in my head very helpful as well.

[@coolgirls4855]

Hi Bea, hope you had a lovely Christmas. May you both be blessed with good health and happiness in 2024 xx, ❤️🇮🇪

[@974shobin]

Guuuuurrrlllll, taking care of yourself is the number one goal to achieve and you are doing that pretty well. Following your journey give me strength! You are so inspiring! Thank you Bea! sending you loads of love for the end of this year

[@awkwardtrumpet128]

biggest thing I ever came to terms with is that things that are out of our control will always be there -- there will always be reasons to get off track. But having systems in place (I always use a train analogy.. a train that's always chugging even if I hop off for a moment, but ready for me to hop back on once I'm ready) make it so much easier to stay on track. not momentary fads or challenges or checkpoint-style goals, but the system of a lifestyle. a routine that actually works for me and is forgiving and allows me flexibility to explore and have wiggle room. here's to 2023, and on to 2024 (:

[@chelseybranham1608]

I had my gallbladder removed this morning and for the past few weeks ive been really motivated to improve my health and keep that say main goal thats lifelong goal. Im disabled so I want to be mobile and healthy as long as im able. But after surgery this morning I tried to sit up in bed to take ibuprophen and physically couldnt. I panicked and started crying and had to call my brother to pull my up to sitting. Luckily ive been able to get up on my own since. But that was one of the most terryfying feelings ive ever had. Im a 277 pounds at 5'9 and this expierince has really made me evaluate my bad food choices and strive to make better less impulsive and healthier choices. My health is so important to me and im going to do my best to improve my quality of life. Seeing you push to be healthy despite setbacks really inspires me to keep going. I wish you all the success with your goals!

[@starbux1981]

YOU INSPIRE ME STILL to stay motivated at life in general honestly, and to set goals for myself when I thought i just could not anymore. YOU GO GIRL I am proud of your progress, even making these videos is FAR more progress than MOST people. When i started eating whole food, about 9 years ago and.... i went plant based, ik-ik its not for everyone, BUT, i eat so much food, 3 meals a day, and i EFFORTLESSLY lost 30 lbs in 3 1/2 months and was blown away. I had been eating what i thought was healthy, working out, and even took....supplements to aid in weight loss with no results, (maybe down a pound or two in a month, but it would would come back + more sometimes) i tell you the cleaner and garden fresh style of eating has been such an easy, and simple way I've lost and maintained weight. (total weight loss for me over approx. 3 years was 110 lbs after i cleaned up my food habits)

[@lionemom]

I'm glad you got some positive reinforcement from the Co-Pilot wrap up! We are always going to be our worst critic, and I think it's a skill we need to build to actually give ourselves credit for what we HAVE accomplished. Also, when I left my IT Support career in 2021, it took me MONTHS to adjust and not be in a freeze state. The way I go through life has significantly changed. I am way more intentional in the way I do pretty much everything. It's slower, but it's what I needed to do for my mental health. It sounds like what you have been through with the dissociative and anxiety episodes that you're doing something similar and I just want to add my voice to say, you're doing great. I think it's a constant struggle to shut out the societal pressure to do more and be "productive", but it's just BS made up by people who want us to do things to make money to spend that money so they make more money. You do you! Happy you're here and I'M A FAN!!

[@monochromicorns]

Thank you for always sharing your authentic self and persevering. I’ve been following your journey for a few years and I’m so inspired by your tenacity and optimism, even through your struggles. Keep it up, girl!

[@jennifermeyer748]

I dealt with the same anxiety and disassociation in my mid 30s. A therapist explained that the anxiety is so great that my brain shut parts down to deal with the constant fight or flight, which leads to the disassociation. Trouble with car washes, elevators, and bridges for the clasterphobic feelings lingered for years. I am finally feeling fantastic again. I take meds and have monthly therapy sessions even when I don't think I need it...I need it. You got this. You aren't alone.

[@elizabethjackson4276]

I got sick for a while this month as well and its so refreshing and motivating to see you go through the ups and downs of focusing on health and wellness! thank you for the impact you make when it comes to being realistic and reminding us to keep on pushing. Youre killin it!!

[@soapylulu]

Bea can I suggest doing things you like rather than loath? You can can build stamina with fast walking, dancing and cycling. My body hates running and I usually end up injured.

[@richelle_chen]

Bea, I went through something so similar to you, a several months long sustained anxiety attack/a long ass dissociative episode where I can't even explain the feelings I was going through (and I had no previous history of anxiety or panic attacks like this). Coming out of it was gradual, but eventually happened but still have the anxiety and fear about it happening again when I go on trips/spaces I feel trapped, like movie theaters). Thank you for sharing! I haven't heard anyone else talk about anything like it, even my therapist isn't sure what it was/what triggered it!

[@KW-up2ox]

Yes Bea! Way to get grounded in more meaningful goals in a way that makes sense for you. I recently decided to shift away from heavier weights & focus on flexibility & mobility for the sake of finally becoming the runner I’ve always wants to be. Honestly, right now I’m shuffling down the street like a grandpa tortoise but my joints are solid & my thighs haven’t ripped thru my leggings yet so imma keep going lol 😂 Love the idea of a monthly fitness test too, might try to start doing that as well. Here’s to not giving up in 2024!! 🎉🎉🎉

[@katarinakarats7473]

Just keep swimming, just keep swimming 🐟 And just keep being you, Bea; you got this, we got this, we’ve got each other! Bring it on, 2024 💪🏻

[@AWJ-zf8cf]

Bea!! I had similar episodes but a little different. But I can no longer go through car washes!!! I am so proud of you. You help me continue with working on things. 😊🎉

[@jillianharrisdesigne]

Thank you for being vulnerable and open. Its a reminder to give ourselves (and each other) grace as life happens and throws us curve balls.

[@bayleesagnelli1207]

Happy to have a Bea video on a Thursday! Accidentally have a resolution-esque energy going into the new year too. Would like to do another group like you have done in the past! We all got this.

[@thebizydogvlog5409]

GIRL. I had almost this exact thing happen to me in 2021. Except I wasn’t medicated. I used to be so solid, a hot shot under pressure, no fear and then had a couple weird episodes including sinking feeling spells and 3 total ocular migraines. I started having panic attacks when I was driving because I had my eyes go blurry while going 70mph once and I almost crashed. I was hospitalized for possible ocular stroke with every test and imaging done…. Nothing. Like you said, I kept trying to explain to people that it was panic, but not in any way I’ve ever felt before. And now I live with it and now I am medicated to help hold it all together. Thinking now that it may be long Covid symptoms mimicking stroke or concussion (it’s a thing!)

[@heavenlycute]

Wishing you all the good things in 2024, Bea!

[@carolynsmith3376]

I relate so much to having a huge mental health struggle, more or less “getting through it,” and then being in constant fear of it coming back. ❤ Definitely take time for yourself if you need it. I didn’t do that this year and regret it.

[@sirenamber]

You're amazing. You have worked hard! You're a normal human doing normal human things and that's why we love you. We dont expect perfection. It's good that you focus on all aspects of your health, not just physical. You inspire so many of us. But if you need a break, take it, we'll wait.

[@kelseymaher1786]

I've been working through "Cook As You Are" by Ruby Tandoh (She's from the Great British Bake Off if you want to see her baking). The cookbook is set up for situations (like "cook through your cabinet," "I don't want to cook", etc). Highly recommend it as you garden and continue to explore cooking. 👩‍🍳

[@maryconrad1634]

The only thing I’m consistent about is not truly giving up. Proud of you 🎉

[@palladium607]

Ive been following you since the very beginning. My hourney has looked so much like yours. You encourage me to keep trying until i find what works for me. I really respect and admire you. Thank you for being real, being you, and for not giving up! I cant express how relatable you are and how much i adore you!❤❤❤

[@patriciaphillips3622]

I am an old lady still dealing with lots that you deal with on your journey. the only thing I can say is that I have not completely quit & given up, despite so many things derailing my efforts. the whole of December has been terrible. so pleased to see a real person on a real journey that doesn’t always go to plan to inspire me to go into this new year still trying. all the best to you as you continue on your journey as well. thanks for sharing.

[@Nomad_Flicker]

Hey Bea. I have been watching you since...heck, I don't even remember. You were still on the fitness marshall dancing challenge I think. Seeing you go through so much and yet always picking yourself up has been amazing. Thanks to watching you, I have been challenging myself more. Changed my style, worked out more, tried new things. I even found and grabbed some heel-like shoes just because I remembered you had 5 pairs of them. I am so happy I found you on KZbin and I can do nothing but continue to cheer you on! You give some perspectives and respite to see you stay yourself and still going

[@sophiiniko]

Hi B! On a similar journey over here in Oz. Mobility and flexibility have been my main focus point which have helped so much. Which has made it easier for me in the gym. I've been following Tom Morrison on KZbin for this stuff (his back story is admirable) who I have found have worked best for me. What I found for me that really helped changed my mind set was reading the power of now by Eckhart Tolle. Just practicing presence has allowed me to accomplish things I didn't think I would - especially around food (fellow foodie). Also listening to a lot on how the brain works (Andrew huberman is a great start) especially about refined sugar really helped.

[@hannahm3126]

You should be really proud of yourself this year, you don't even realise how good you're doing! I am so impressed by the running, that's basically an 8m km (give or take) which is unreal. Your ab strength is also so incredible, 46 seconds is awesome. And all these benchmarks are just the beginning of what you're going to achieve. The last 2 or so years since discovering your channel, I feel like we're friends and it's so nice to watch you and Steven, your girl gang (mum nan aunt) do your thing. I know there's been a lot of low points this year, but don't forget all the highs as well!

[@Extra-cr1spy]

You are one of my favorite creators. With your personality, disposition, humor, and everything else. Glad you’re back!!

[@bethlovesthings]

🎉🎉🎉 happy ny bea! Your goals are my goals! 😂 Literally, I had a bit of an awful second half of the year tbh. Lows were losing my darling cat Tux to cancer in Oct, and also being diagnosed with epilepsy. However, I love my plants & my surviving kitty Pearl and my partner & I are moving to a new place in late Jan & it has such a lovely garden that I can't wait to settle in & get into. 🏡 I have so much food I want to grow and really supersize my existing herb garden. I also tend to injure myself in unnecessary and accidental ways. 😅 Something I want to work on. I've been proud of keeping up with an exercise routine (except this week thanks to COVID) but back at it again tho! I'm so proud of yooooou!! Consistency truly is key and I weight loss def wasn't my main focus this year either so that's why we should be proud of the effort we DID make 💪 You also have US cheering you on ❤❤❤🎉🎉🎉🎉 happy 2024 Bea!

[@angelica502x]

Even though you may not be where you want to be weight-wise, you’ve still had a lot of wins in the last couple of years. You’ve worked a lot on improving your fitness, diet, mental health, living situation, job, etc. Progress isn’t measured in pounds. We’re very proud of you!

[@chacha_mogolla]

Good for you Bea! The struggle is real! Nice to have a person to be real right along with you, if that makes sense. All the best to you for 2024!

[@SundiMyint]

Yay on the goal of gardening! If I may suggest, when I started gardening the first year, I started small with some easy wins. I ordered Greenstalk towers and all I had to do was water the plants from the top. Very little to no weeding. And I planted some easy starter things like radishes and salad greens! Obviously tomatoes are a fun goal but it’s nice to have items that grow at a variety of rates so you start to see your successes early on and then often 🥰

[@jeanielinguineisatthegirlcave]

Bea, not sure you are a believer buuuut, I suffered a solid few years possibly due to menopause…but when I was in a “moment” of high anxiety I would repeat the same verse and practice breathing. Today, I am AMAZED of the things I can face and do without crying, feeling faint, or…(I’ll keep that symptom off the internet 😅). The verse: FOR GOD HAS NOT GIVEN ME A SPIRIT OF FEAR, BUT OF POWER AND OF LOVE AND A SOUND MIND. Never give up! You are a beautiful, intelligent and caring soul. God bless you ❤

[@user-sd5nf8rc4m]

You are SO relatable! Thank you so much for saying out loud what so many of us are thinking & going through. It's nice to know you're not alone.😊

[@healingwhilegrowing]

Hey Bea! Just wanted to say that 1) you’re doing amazing sweetie 🩷🥰 & 2) my daughter’s pediatrician said that breathing in cold air actually helps bad coughs! She would tell us to open up the the freezer or take the baby outside at night to breathe in that colder air. 🤷🏻‍♀️

[@glonetwork8141]

I had the same issue with the carwash. It took almost 2 yrs for me to be able to have peace with it. It entailed a ton of self talk...and assuring myself I was safe. I started by closing my eyes...then I played a game on my phone and then eventually it just became ok again. It will get easier...keeping you in my prayers🙏❤️🙏

[@user-vr1jx3fl4p]

Would love to see it before, and after comparison of your fitness and body comp after two years of copilot

[@Nomakeupmama]

I love that her name is Grace LOL the epitome of everything we need in this life, especially when it comes to weight loss and being healthy. Also I've told you before that I've had serious anxiety and depression in the past and I still still deal with it but I am 10,000 times better than I was at that scariest moment. the moments that I had that were lasting forever just like what you went through in 2022. I just want to give you some hope for the future ❤️ I'm seriously better now.

[@RedJulesFire]

Bea, you are so relatable to me. I’ve been through the medication induced anxiety hell too. I’m so glad that you recognized that it wasn’t you it was the medication. And I’m not saying meds are bad for everyone but some of us need less (or none) not more. I’m the same with alcohol, I do not tolerate it well. With goal setting, I just saw a video from How to ADHD and she suggested setting goals for how you want to feel this year instead of action goals. Mainly because if you try something that doesn’t work, you can adjust your actions to better fit your goals. Just something to consider. I’m so proud of you and you’re doing great! ❤

[@coreylewis9041]

You should start some kind of a fitness group chat where your followers can join along side you and we can motivate each other and be held accountable a little bit. I know I would love that and it would definitely benefit my progress! I’m restarting my journey in the new year as well!

[@salsedavies]

The fitness ‘transformations’ we are shown on KZbin and instagram only show the successes that person has had. When in reality they may have been trying to get fit or lose weight for years and experimenting with various lifestyle changes, some of which will have worked for them, and some others that just don’t stick. It’s easy to see a 30 second video and think ‘okay, they just decided to change one day’ when actually it’s the combined habits formed over months and maybe even years. It’s great that you’re showing your trials and tribulations, it’s a great reminder for people that sometimes life happens but you don’t have to give up.

[@sallywaites8517]

Hindsight is a wonderful thing. You didn't knowingly hurt your back or your foot. I know it really sucks. Especially when you're trying to do better. I have hurt my back, I don't even know how it happened. I also have a chest infection so I really get it. I feel like I am failing too but it's not my fault and I know that. The most important thing is you got back up and you're trying again. You only fail if you stop trying, not because you got sick or accidentally hurt yourself. ❤ I also know what it is like to have awful anxiety. It takes its toll. It's extremely distressing. It's very likely it was caused by one of the meds your doctor was giving you. I am glad you were able to figure that out and stop the meds. It's taken me years to find meds that make me feel better. A lot of them were awful and made me so much worse.

[@Hookstohugs]

I love you Bea! Another year of being real, honest, quirky, fun you. Watching you grow is an honour my virtual friend (where you have absolutely no clue who I am!) I wish you further growth, healing and happiness for 2024 xx

[@Nikachu0906]

Bea, the only way you will fail is if you don’t get back up and try. Everyone fails at one point or another. I firmly believe failure is a good thing. It pushes us to get up and try again. As long as you keep getting up, you will progress. Trust me, I’m a 45 year old woman who has been pushed down or failed so manny times, I can’t even count them anymore. But I still get up every day, and try the best I can, and do the best I can. Is it perfect? No. But did I give up and lay down and quit? No. You have a huge cheering section here FOR YOU! We love you. We feel the same as you do. We all fall down and get back up, just like you do. Just know that there are a lot of us out here feeling the same way you are, to one extent or another. And know that you are helping us all by being a friend and coach to us as well. I wish you, Steve, your family and all the fur babies and safe and Happy New Year! We all will be cheering you on!!!!❤❤❤

[@lemonadewithniecey]

Gearing up for a fitness test I am working on fitness for 2024 and though I will track weight it is not a primary health metric. I am going to record some of these tests this upcoming weekend and get accurate measurements. I have also learned to accept my goals will not be accomplished in a bubble stuff is going to happen and after several years of making new years goals and not achieving them a year later I realized I need to pick goals that are not dependent on others. I tried learning to drive one year and that requires dedication from another person and recruiting people was exhausting and way way too much work I later got a neurological test and concluded my brain is not compatible with driving a car I got a family e bike for Christmas and 5 mph is max speed for me right now. I also learned if earnings money is dependent on childcare earning goals are only up to me to the extent I have control. 2020 could have been a huge $ step up but 2020 happened and my life didn't fall all the way apart I totally survived and didn't even have debt because I used that emergency savings for that world wide emergency. I am not going to make accomplishment goals but habit goals and grade it on a abcdf kinda scale not a pass fail I didn't reach my target I failed and my finish line is not December 31 it's more of an 18 month goal or series of goals. Starting with setting up my lifestyle for success and building these habits into my life so it's easier to do what I should than to be lazy. My kids agree that we want to replace our couch with yoga balls that and biking to work I will need to make some dietary easy swaps I am still working on what my goals fully are.

[@kiris1323]

Let’s build some confidence in ourselves this year! I’ve felt a lot of what you’re sharing on this last year too. I’ve gained a lot of weight, not just in my body, but in my mind too. Maybe it’s just finding an exercise we enjoy that will start the difference. Start with the body and the mind will follow.

[@laurwata]

You are a warrior for being strong throughout 2023. I wish you much love, peace, strength, happiness and prosperity in 2024 and beyond! You have a kind soul and your humor brings so much light to this world. Please take care and I look forward to more vlogs! :)

[@katieportz8120]

Thank you bea you inspire me, i got up and did yoga today, it is so hard to get put of survival mode and do something to make my future better, thank you for the inspiration

[@Taywanee]

So glad to hear it, Bea! It can be so easy to just give up after falling off track or not feeling like you’ve done enough, but it’s admirable when you decide to push through and keep going! Sending you all the good vibes to crush your goals!

[@hannahheartsedward]

I feel ya with the fear of it coming back. My psychiatrist prescribed a medication for anxiety. I don't know if I also got a stomach bug at the same time, but I didn't last a week. It caused panic attacks and I had never had then before. It took months to maybe even a year before I got back to my baseline. The panic attacks still pop up every so often and I know what works for me to get through it. I think that was either summer 2020 or sometime in 2021. I am on meds for anxiety and depression and am thankful constipation has been the only troublesome side effect. I figured out what works so my digestive system and I can mostly get along. Meds are tough, but when they are right it can make all the difference.

[@mister_manager]

I think part of the reason you have haters is that a lot of commenters are really talking to themselves? Like you're very relatable, so they see themselves in you, whether the good or the bad, and say the things they've been saying to themselves (or wish they could tell themselves). I know it's easier said than done, but I wouldn't take it personally because ultimately it's not about you, you're killing it despite anyone else's inner struggles. You don't owe anything to anyone else!

[@taelikestea]

I finally got antidepressants about a month ago, so for the first time in my life im actually hopeful that i will feel bettter and achieve my goals this year. Stay strong! U and your community, we are all in this together ❤

[@GracieStudart]

I just wanted to comment about medication and that I went through the same thing or at least something similar. I had a doctor that kept upping doses and changing medicines and taking me off and putting me on different ones for adhd and anxiety, and it made me so much worse. Almost felt like I was going through psychosis. I ended up going through withdrawals because of them (psychiatrists rarely discuss what withdrawing off of those medications is like and it is so terrible). This happened to me at the age of 23, and now 7 years later, I’m pretty much anxiety and depression free without medication. Of course I’m not anti medication as some people do need it, but I realized so many of my symptoms were FROM the medications I was on not despite the medications. It took me a full two years to recover completely, but eventually I did it. My fingers are crossed for you and I hope you get to feeling better now that you know the source! (Also as a side note the adverse side effects may not be totally gone so don’t be hard on yourself. The withdrawal effects are way more serious than many psychiatrists care to admit.)

[@laurac3575]

I understand the struggle with shit cycles and how it's easy to stay on that roller coaster. Recognizing the endless loop is the hardest part, making necessary changes is also hard but not as hard imo. For me, my sense of self worth has been the root of my crap cycles and the more I work on that and learn to actually feel good about myself the easier it's been to live in a more positive, productive type of way.

[@kristycargile6917]

Bea! I can feel how emotional you are talking about your anxiety...hugs to you friend! I just hope you realize the inspiration you are... I just adore the effort you make in this world! Good luck Bea!! 🌹

[@faithinallthingsw4088]

Keep going🎉 You are so inspirational because of your willingness to be vulnerable with feelings and struggles we all have and are trying to work through.

[@callmespammie]

Bea, I hope you're so proud of yourself for making it through this year with your accomplishments! YOU did that!! you're a rockstar! my empathetic and compassionate self wanted to give you a hug near the end of the video as you opened up about the events you struggled with last year. you're so strong and I hope you remind yourself that it's okay and give yourself the grace and space you need to heal through that. it was a difficult time. of course you're going to be emotional talking about it's impact on you!! I hope you know your community here on KZbin supports you and loves you just as equally as a friend in real life! ❤️ keep up the great work! 2024 is going to be even better!

[@julz_m]

I'm struggling with FEAR as well, I've recently learned our gut microbiome can affect how we feel, especially feelings of fear - I hope to see you dig into this more in the new year. Keep Going! We love you 💖

[@estherbartholdy]

We love you, no matter what. 💖Sending you love and light, blessed be! May 2024 be a great year for you and your loved ones. A big hug from Guatemala.

[@JoyandSerenity.]

I also find resolutions a bit of a non starter, you will most likely fail and it basically sets you back till spring. I do have a goal for the year however, pushing the positive vibes and being realistic, my goal is GROWTH. I want to grow my garden more, I want to grow my mental health and resiliance, and I want to grow physical fitness.

[@SolveigIn]

That sounds like an exhausting year!!! Like damn hard! BUT you did also work out more than ever, pick yourself up with such a strength, decorated your home, met the love of your life and added three little piggies and a doggo to your family 😍 happy new year 🎉 you are amazing

[@chantellethomas832]

You go girl ❤💪 I hear you on showing up for yourself! You inspired me with clean eating and making more meals. 2024 will be about getting healthy! You've got this!

[@cottentheact6740]

You are staying at it and that’s all that matters. I’ll join you on a healthy year for 2024 and reachable goals. You are amazing and I appreciate that you are real and raw and those who have been following for a while can see you have made many amazing changes for the better. One step at a time girl we are rooting for you.

[@splarfzonk]

You've come so far dude. You're amazing.

[@ArahniaSiddel1]

I have been working on push-ups for what feels like forever, but filming my modified ones was the best thing I ever did. It allowed me to see my form progress whereas it only felt like I could say I made progress if I got a full "Standard" push-up before. Wall push-ups, counter push-ups, and push-ups with resistance bands for help are still big steps!

[@wafaneji8799]

The title put the biggest smile on my face 😊 I love seeing you thrive and encouraged

[@megangrant2597]

Your experience mirrors mine so much. I have started working on my health and then everything goes to sh*t and I give up and I get depressed and the I decide to start again and I am exhausted. Mentally and physically. I am still coughing, it's been nore than a month now. My son have been sick 3 times for the pas month and a half and basically I have no time and strength to do anything.

[@loristeele4589]

Thank you Bea, you motivated me to do my own fitness test. Going to try to see progress. Let’s go 2024. 😊

[@sunshineonmyshouldersmakes8331]

You're my new favorite! A girl I can relate to and real af and smart and funny! You go girl!!! You're doing FANTASTIC

[@Lilwitchyreads]

I recommend starting with growing tomatoes for the gardening! I did it last year for the first time and it was a big success. Good luck!

[@hildagarcia4555]

You are doing great. I have followed your journey from the beginning. I wish I could be as motivated as you have been the last 3 years. Be kinder to yourself for what you have accomplished. ❤

[@Ballaurena13]

Seems to be the season of sick. I signed up for a gym for the first time in my life just after Thanksgiving only to immediately get too sick to go. Finally feeling better now, especially when I start the day with wild Pacific salmon, which I'm putting out there for anyone else who could use some energy level balancing. Avoid farmed, BTW, as it is full of pollution toxins and not considered safe to have more than half a serving a month. Yikes! I'm glad (and sorry) to hear I'm not the only one who can't do alcohol. 1 drink and I will have a headache before I leave a restaurant. In fact until God did some healing I got a hangover from even a Shirley Temple due to the food coloring. At least I don't have that problem any more. Happy new year, Bea, and may 2024 go better than 2023.

[@maryshannon3326]

Never give up, Bea! I'm so proud of you for all you have accomplished but mainly for for learning to care for yourself better and get through some incredibly tough times. You are strong and resilient! May your new year be blessed with excellent health and happiness. 🙏

[@way2good4uxox]

Girl…the shitloop! I did this too! I just started working on that this new year too 💕💕