6 Months Off Birth Control

It has offcially been 6 months since I had my Mirena IUD removed. I document every month and how my body is adjusting to being off hormonal birth control after 6 years. This month was unlike any other....there is a lot of crying...at least I warned you.
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[@ckolling1]

Girlfriend!!! Don't be sorry for feeling emotional. I've been there. I am an autism mom to an amazing 9 year old. I am also a mommy to a fabulous 4 year old. We started trying when our oldest was 2 and nothing ever happened. I finally came to the idea that our oldest needed just us because of his special needs and he would be our only. It was hard, but we accepted it. We finally stopped trying and moved on and boom! Surprise! I have really irregular periods and I had to track everything to get pregnant with my oldest, but our youngest was a surprise after we stopped trying. We had people that kept asking about when we were having more and i just got so sick of it. I also had my boys at 31 and 36. You are young and just take one day at a time. God has a plan. I have learned to trust that. You are amazing Lauren!

[@lanieleigh9970]

OM Goodness Lauren, don’t ever apologize for crying!!! You are such a strong person from everything I have seen on your channel! From one mom who struggled to conceive to another don’t lose hope! I have had six pregnancies that resulted in two beautiful children and four angels. A child will come to your family when the time is right. Just rely on your faith and your family.

[@jeanetter256]

Don’t feel dumb! Your emotions are completely valid! Yes you are completely right about not asking people when your having a baby or are you having more children. People need to mind their business! It is sooo painful you have NO idea what others may be going though or have already gone through. I’ve gone though so much! Thank you for being so open and honest but you don’t always have to be so open and honest we all need our space and privacy and understand. Love you Lauren!

[@linneaoren4828]

watching this in the car on my way to church... keeping you and your lovable family in my thoughts.

[@carolynasher269]

GURL!!!! NEVER apologize for what you are feeling! Yes, we are in a pandemic, and yes, there are women who are struggling, but that does NOT negate your emotions and thoughts. We are with you and support you no matter what. Love you!!

[@phoenixplough5480]

Do not be embarrassed at all for your emotions. You are not alone. I am 34 and also struggle with infertility. I have PCOS and Endometriosis. My husband and I have been married for 8 years and have not yet been blessed with a child. We are planning on beginning to try again this summer. Thank you so much for sharing your story. It really helps to know that I am not alone.

[@marissachoate2538]

Please don't give up. I know that is a lot easier said than done but please girl... Do not give up. You are beautiful inside and out. I am so glad you share this journey with all of us. Thank you for that. I will keep praying. I love your little family ❤

[@669bikrchic]

Oh hunny...you have absolutely no reason to be sorry...I have been there too at one time seeing lines on a test and they weren’t there..it’s so frustrating. We are here for you darlin and you truly have nothing to be sorry for or feel ashamed about! Hormone changes are a bitch! And will make your life hell! Keep vlogging and leaning on your peeps! Much love! ❤️

[@Rebelgirl-kv6bd]

It is so NOT dumb and PLEASE don't put yourself down, your feelings are 100% valid !! You are a beautiful woman and I hope & pray that things get better for you soon, it breaks my heart seeing you this way😔!!

[@MissLeahMitchell]

I have PCOS too. I feel everything you're saying. I've never had any kids or any pregnancy scares and it makes me sad every single day. Everyone has different struggles. Don't feel bad for having your own personal struggles even if theres bigger ones in the world. You can worry about more than one thing in a a minute, hour, day, week or month. It's hard feeling guilty and sad. So don't guilt yourself ever.

[@samphillips7192]

Hi Lauren, I just wanted to hug you! You are a wonderful Mamma to Ella, and will be a wonderful Mamma again xxx I pray God gives you such strength! You can do this hon, there is no need to apologise for your tears! Hope, you John and Ella are OK xx Sending you all love from the UK xx

[@ameliahaste376]

Oh Lauren! I am so sorry this has happened to you! You are not alone and I relate to this soooo much! I appreciate you being so raw and real! I was in your shoes! I have struggled with miscarriage and now am struggling to get pregnant. Before, I didn’t realize how it affected people to ask when they were going to have babies. But being on the others end it can absolutely shatter you inside to get those questions. Prayers and baby dust sent your way! Love your channel! 💜

[@linleigh8464]

Don't ever apologize for what you are feeling and I can relate. We are trying and it is difficult due to health related things. Prayers for you & it will happen when you least expect it.

[@valeriecunningham1574]

Lauren, please do not be upset with yourself for feeling what you are feeling. You are so kind and generous with others, please be that for yourself as well. You are such a special person with a wonderful heart. We are all here for you and we love you. Take care.

[@stephaniewaits9874]

I saw you on Fathering Autism. You are beautiful inside and out. You are not fat just more to love. Good things come to those who wait. Give it a little more time. You've got this.

[@kristicollett7887]

BabyGirl, no, this is not "dumb". God will bless you when He sees you are ready. I was told for many years that I couldn't have kids. My first daughter has a neuro tube defect called anencephaly, she went to heaven. After I had 2 mid term miscarriages. Then my 4th pregnancy, my miracle came. With my son (my ASD MIRACLE), I bled for 13 weeks and was very stressed, but God blessed me. Don't count yourself out. Give it to God. I'm praying for you and sending you a BIG virtual HUG.

[@jodyburke8328]

I lost 2 full term babies. Had iud taken out. My son was 2 then. Never thought i could get pg again. Got divorced met a great man, when i was 37 , my son was 18 then i got pg, found out i had cervical cancer but i had another baby another boy. One son is 46 and one is 29 and i am cancer free. Let go and let god.

[@loriadams7724]

I’m so sorry. A hoped for pregnancy, is still is a loss. Be kind to yourself. You are beautiful Mama, and I pray that you are pregnant soon. 🙏🏻💖

[@janaleonard4702]

No Need to apologize frand! Not pathetic at all! Give yourself grace! PCOS is rough! It messes up your cycles something terrible, the length between cycles is off, the number of days, light flow, heavy flow, and the emotions are a train wreck. I have been there! It took us 5 years to conceive our daughter, we used drugs to help ovulate then with our son it took me about 2 years to conceive, we used drugs to ovulate, trigger shots and IUI to conceive my son. It was hard! So emotional! You're in my prayers!

[@Tenamf]

It’s not dumb !!!! And don’t put ur self down ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

[@TheButterflyLife83]

Oh sweet girl you are not silly at all and you have every right to be sad and teary this is a huge thing!! Love from Australia 🇦🇺

[@amyleffmann3589]

Please don't apologize for your emotions. You are feeling and sharing. I am so sorry you're going through this. I think sometimes we say we don't want something to happen to protect our hearts. Its probably a good thing to go get checked out. Its been 6 months and probably time to also recheck those hormones after being off b/c. Your honesty and being real will help others. ❤

[@deekrebs592]

My heart goes out to you!! My sister and I both struggled with PCOS. She managed a single pregnancy, while I ended up having my ovaries removed. My niece is now struggling to get pregnant for a second time. She's been through months and months of fertility treatment without any success. I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Hang in there!!

[@karlaparker5274]

Your feelings are validated. You will get that positive when it is not expected. You're an amazing mom, and you will be blessed with another beautiful baby when the time is right!

[@HeatherRAsbell]

Your loss is your loss... please don’t mitigate your loss of another month and another chance. Your heart deserves the right to hope AND grieve. Praying for you!

[@laurahobbs2700]

My brother and ex-SIL had my nephew quite unplanned and it happened very early in their relationship. They then tried to get pregnant when my nephew was one and it took them a year. They then got pregnant and had beautiful twin girls!! Hang in there Lauren - your baby is going to come!! Don’t worry about crying - we all have emotional times. Good luck at the doctors and you ARE blessed with a great husband and daughter!! ❤️

[@msansolo1]

I'm sorry you're going through this. I do appreciate that you are shedding light on what it's like for the infertility community. Even though you may not be a part of it. My husband and I have been trying for 3 years; natural, medication assisted, 5 iui's, and unfortunately an ivf cycle that ended in miscarriage. I have pcos as well. No other symptoms aside from the string of pearls. It's awful. Over the years I have definitely become numb. Seeing you cry and be so devastated reminds me how much hurt and disappointment I actually bury inside. You're not alone. This can still happen for you. You truly have no idea how much you can endure until you're forced to endure it. I would recommend following up with your doc anyway just to have monitoring bloodwork done, so you can see definitively whats going on. You'll be ok!

[@bertasanchez9325]

So sorry! Hurts me to see anyone like this. I never was able to conceive. My ex and I adopted two beautiful babies and thus I was blessed to become a mother. Your emotional pain is real. Don't be sorry is minimize what you are going through, just because there is a pandemic. You still need to feel and validate what you Are going through. Hugs ❣️

[@maggiemae2779]

I feel you. My husband and I had to go through counseling after trying to get pregnant for a while. It is such an emotionally fragile time (especially for a woman). We still do not have a child and, after months and months and months, maybe even years, I have finally learned to stop “getting my hopes up” although it continues to sting every time that spotting starts each month :( Hang in there.

[@lizourricariet1226]

Lauren, you're not dumb for feeling how you do. Your feelings are valid.

[@jessicaparry286]

I experienced something like this a few years ago after my miscarriage. My doctor explained it as a phantom pregnancy. You're feelings are always valid and you should never apologize for speaking about your feelings 💞

[@onelovebug22]

How you feel IS NOT DUMB! your body is giving you signs and you have a maternal instinct that out weighs our “common sense”. I just went thru a miscarriage last week and had the same mixed emotions. I’m praying for you and John 💕

[@caylaelise]

It isn't dumb at all! Your feelings are valid and you are 100% entitled to them. You cannot compare your feelings or grief to anyone else's. Love you girl!

[@sarahholsapple586]

Caught your video on a whim...and I totally feel you and all those emotions too. First month we started trying to conceive our 2nd child, I could’ve sworn I was pregnant. I had so many weird pregnancy symptoms, that I’ve never had with my period. But, test after test would come back negative. So, I did research and it is totally possible to have hormonal changes and pregnancy symptoms even before the egg implants into the uterus. Knowing this made me feel so much better, because it justified what I as feeling, and that I wasn’t making myself feel pregnant. Unfortunately, that egg did not successfully plant for me...and we are currently still trying. So don’t apologize for your authentic feelings. They are legitimate and they are yours. My thoughts are with you, on your journey!

[@lwaldron09]

Girl everything you’ve said hits to a T.... 6 months here, trying, tracking, getting my hopes up month after month... Literally everything you’ve said, minus having a kiddo already but that doesn’t make it any different. I HATE the holidays, family gatherings, or large functionings because the question! I F’ing hate the “stop stressing about it and it will happen” 😭😭 Girl I love you, swear to you this video come at the perfect time, it makes me feel a little better.

[@jillianquinn-dickinson6625]

I've fallen behind on watching videos so I'm late to the party but this one hit hard. I've been doing the whole "telling people you don't want a baby but you really do" thing for years. I usually even have myself convinced as well but sometimes it hits me, and it hits real hard. I just turned 38, have no kids and have PCOS. We haven't really been trying, but we haven't been preventing it either for years and I've had some months like you described. It's an emotional roller coaster and I surprised myself with how upset I was when I ended up not being pregnant. Not only had I convinced most friends and family that we didn't want kids, I had kind of convinced myself too. In my case it was easier to say I don't want any kids then it was to admit that maybe I can't have any. It is hard when people ask sometimes which is why it's always been easier to say we aren't interested yet. But now that I'm 38 I've started having family make comments assuming that we aren't ever going to have kids and point out how old I am when I say we are undecided. Ohhhh boy does that shit sting even more. Don't feel pathetic, they are valid emotions and sometimes you've got to cry it out. I appreciate you always being so open and vulnerable with us because it does help some of us to not feel alone sometimes.

[@MariaRaby14]

I'm 34 weeks along with our second baby boy. We did try for both of our children and my goodness I took so many tests looking for lines. I have never been diagnosed with PCOS or any fertility problems but in a way, I get it. It took eleven months to conceive our first son and three for this one. No, I don't know the feeling of waiting years for that positive but when your heart's desire is to be a mom (or mom to more than one child) the waiting seems like it will never end. But I have faith it'll happen. Cry if and when you want to, I know I did. Don't apologize for your emotional state right now because it's your life at this moment and that's ok. You're a wonderful mom to Ella and when the time comes for a new addition to your family you'll be even more amazing. Stay strong, Lauren. ❤️

[@cathyhodge2799]

Lauren please dont feel like you need to apologize for your feelings. You are not being dumb, you are telling us how you feel. Love, hugs and prayers for you..

[@amylage4054]

Sweet Lauren you are allowed to feel and be sad. Sending hugs

[@rlb179]

Don’t feel bad for being emotional about this. This is your journey and your emotions! You’re excited/we’re excited for a baby Brazee but in due time! I can’t imagine what you’re going thru but what you’re feelings are valid even if it’s only been 6 months! We support you now and we’ll support you at any stage in your journey! ❤️

[@carolynwalker9920]

It's really hard when you want it to happen and it doesn't. Don't apologise for your emotions. Sometimes when you are trying so hard it doesn't happen. I went through a similar situation. It took me two years but it happened. Don't give up hope. Sending healing thoughts and prayers. X

[@melissabarnes6216]

Big hugs to you! I’m so glad you are talking about this. I’m sorry it is so difficult. I’m 37, been trying for 13 years to have a baby. I also have PCOS and endometriosis. My hormones are usually all over the place and some months I’m convinced I’m pregnant. I’ll have every symptom, tests negative, I’ll convince myself it’s one of those deals it’s just not showing up. Go to the doc, he does an ultrasound to make sure all is ok, no baby showing on the monitor. I’ve even thought maybe he/she is hidden good and we just can’t see them. I have driven myself insane many times. I have missed my period this month and I’m convinced I am again. I cry and cry, pray and pray. When I ask God to take the urning away if it will never happen, it gets so much stronger. I’m worried now maybe I’m going through early menopause because my period isn’t coming like it usually does and I just feel weird. You name it, I’ve thought it. I know sometimes when I have changed something my body will go haywire. Maybe your hormones are trying to adjust. No matter what it is, I know it sucks and you are in my thoughts! Even if you do already have your baby girl, it does hurt to want something so bad and never know if it will happen. Hang in there girl. I hope the doc is able to find out what’s going on! 💕

[@crystalholden2966]

I don't know if you will see this since I'm playing catch up. Maybe I'll sync up with you guys on a live stream. Your not looking for advice I get it. But Keto and your channel helped me so I'm hoping to pay it forward. I tried 9+ years so I completely get it. I get the same way as you. After 5 months of Keto (dropped 65lbs in 2018) no birth control and found out I was pregnant. Something about keto helped me ( I also struggle with PCOS). Praying for your family. Stay strong, God has a plan for you and your bundle of joy will come along at a perfect time (God's time). It's so worth the wait.

[@debbieostrowski5462]

Its so good your are truthful and show your emotions, it so hard for lots,, at 69 and i still dont tell anyone really how i'm feeling.. keep on being You.

[@lisamatthews2268]

God will bless you when its time, laren it will work out. Breath girl!.. i know its easier said then done. We love you!.

[@lithottamera6089]

I have just felt your emotions. I'm sorry. Great video

[@chronicinokla]

I'm sending you hugs. I have PCOS and have had two miscarriages and two children. I had positive pregnancy test and then a cyst ruptured and I miscarriaged. I was told that I needed to wait for six months. I was then told your obese, have PCOS and high stress. You're not likely to get pregnant. Then flat told by insensitive military Dr that I wouldn't be able to get pregnant again. Luckily only God knows. I have had what Drs call miracle babies. Eight years apart. I understand all to well the disappoint and crushed heart let down when your period happens. I send you HUGS. It fracken sucks. You are human babe let yourself feel those feelings. Please do not tell yourself your being dumb. You are not. I am glad to hear that you are in tune with your body. Please follow up with your Dr. It can be hormone swing, a fibroid cyst that is messing with hormones. So it's always good to trust yourself and advocate that you know something was different. Love you sweetheart

[@jenniferrutherford347]

I have PCOS and had a 2nd trimester miscarriage last July. My husband and I have been "not preventing" since November and we've had couple times where I could've sworn that I was pregnant and then my period would come. I don't have normal cycles and I know I need to get my hormones balanced and lose weight. The negative pregnancy tests wear on your even when you want a baby, but are unsure if the timing is good. I keep telling myself that it's all in God's timing, but it's so hard being patient. I feel what you're feeling soooo much.

[@planetluna9554]

Have you watched the Perkins Family fertility story? It’s very inspiring. Sending you love, Lauren!

[@yvonnemurray4101]

Lauren hun, please don't worry, after coming off birth control it can take a while to conceive, I know you have other things going on too but oftentimes when a couple stops worrying or just give themselves a break the magic happens. You are such an amazing woman, mother and role model please don't ever feel less than the fantastic person you ARE. XX

[@Sawenda]

It's spooky how similar our last two months have been. I had a short cycle last month as well. Ovulated early, menstruated early, the whole thing. This month I have not had any pms symptoms except a couple bouts of moodiness, but they went away quickly. I'm now three days late, took a digital yesterday and it said "not pregnant" I know I'm not pregnant, but I allowed myself to hope and it sucks. I'm older and haven't had any kids yet, my bio clock is killing me ❤ sending you love ❤

[@catloverKD]

HUGS I have a friend who went through this exact same thing. She has PCOS, and her daughter (9 in November),was a surprise. Then, when they actually started trying, she couldn't get pregnant. I think they've decided to stop trying, but that doesn't mean that it isn't possible! Never apologize for having feelings, you aren't stupid, you're in uncharted territory of course you're going to feel all the things.

[@hannahbader3428]

💜💜💜💕 you’re not at all stupid. Bodies change on the daily! I didn’t get a positive until after a MONTH past my missed period. Yup a whole freaking month. You can have a “period” while being pregnant too. So just let your body take control of it. It knows when the time is right!

[@abbystambaugh2009]

This will be me in October Lauren. I'm going off my birth control the month of my wedding and I'll be buying all the tests every month!

[@megan6574]

You're in my prayers

[@melissagonzalez2919]

Hey Girl! I have had PCOS since forever. Diagnosed at 16yrs old. Dr said I wouldn’t have babies. Well, with help of some medication I just had my third baby. We tried for 7! Years before finding a medication that worked and we were pregnant with our first. Trying for our third was hard I had a chemical pregnancy and knew I was pregnant. Dr did the blood work and it came back negative. I spend 2 months grieving a baby I didn’t even fully conceive. Then got pregnant with my third. Now I’m having cycles for the first time in my life without medication. Hoping at 36 to conceive my fourth naturally. Every month trying is the hardest month. Be careful not to become bitter, it’s so easy to slip into this ugly space where you can’t be around pregnant people or talk about babies. If you ever need a strangers ear DM me. :) I’m happy to chat. 💕 good luck and as they say baby dust to you.

[@meganstiver4028]

Girl you are not alone. It took us 7 months to get pregnant after Mirena. My cycles started normal and then they went crazy.I would bleed a couple days before my cycle then stop and then have a regular cycle. My symptoms were crazy. Don’t give up hope it will happen.

[@theblendedtruth1408]

Your mind will play game’s.i have pcos.last July I took a test 1week in July after all these symptoms and no period.it was negative. I got a period but it was spotting not a period.10days later I took a test again and I was pregnant.dont give up hope girl.you got this! Pcos makes me feel like I’m super hormonal like I’m pregnant always it can be such an emotional rollercoaster for sure!!!

[@andreabennerakaandi9256]

Never apologize for being emotional! Especially when it comes to something like this!!!! Lots of love and positive thoughts coming your way babe! You’re so so so amazing. 😘😘😘

[@reginatoole7537]

I have pcos and struggled with infertility for 11 years before I got pregnant. Your mind definitely plays tricks on you but I for sure had positives that weren't positive. With quarantine I have been eating badly and that definitely messes with my pcos. The two times I have gotten pregnant was when I did keto and it regulates my period . Sending baby dust!

[@apparitionappalachian4591]

Same here!! 😮 we have tried for 10 years, I started keto and 6 months in... we are now expecting our first!

[@reginatoole7537]

@@apparitionappalachian4591 congratulations! Be careful and monitor your Blood pressure bc with both pregnancies I got preeclampsia bc of the pcos

[@puppys8998]

Lauren, sweet girl.. don’t ever minimize things that are hard for you. It isn’t dumb that you want another child, that you get your hopes up and then they crash, or that you see the lines.. Try to allow yourself to feel what you feel, you can be vulnerable with us. You’re taking a great step in contacting your doctor. PCOS (i have pcos and endo) can really really play with your emotions. I find that my own body fluctuates, and I get hopeful too. It is a hard journey, but we will be behind you and John through whatever. Six months feels like a long time, especially with how much you want another child, but try to give yourself grace. Remember that the amount of stress you are under can play a part of not conceiving. It isn’t selfish to want another child, even with having Ella already. You don’t love Ella any less just because you want another baby. Your heart will have space for baby and Ella equally. Love you and I’m praying for you. 💕

[@andreawilson3211]

You are always allowed to feel however you feel. No matter what. Don't ever let what others are going through, or you think the world is going through, or others expectations, tell you how you should feel. If you are sad be sad, if you are disappointed be disappointed. Just feel

[@Wifeysnell]

Oh my gosh! I am so emotional with you. This pandemic has me ugly crying with you. Stay positive it will come to be before you know it. We all see you really want one and it will happen in gods time. Can wait to celebrate with you when you share that you are pregnant. Hugs your way!!!

[@amygarmson]

Please never feel like what you are feeling is wrong. You are allowed to feel upset or all the feels. You are justified to feel however you need to! Looking in the positive side, it has cemented for you how much you do want another baby. You will be blessed again, when it is right for you! Love you ❤️

[@angeld9124]

I have been trying for 7 years now and I know how you feel so your not alone praying for you

[@amberyzaguirre761]

Aww I’m sorry you going threw that! I know you probably don’t want to hear this but God knows what he’s doing ! Stay positive! My husband and I struggle a lot to have our son! Never was on birth control we just couldn’t convince. It took at us 7 years to have him. We couldn’t afford IVF treatments so I just gave up trying until we were bless. After giving birth to him a couple of months I got pregnant again with my daughter

[@kimvdhave]

Lauren dont feel sorry for anything. You are one beautiful woman, so what if you are bigger, still a very strong and beautiful mother, wife and woman. And maybe you are, and if not you will be again a awesom mom. Stay strong. A very big hug from another autism mom from the Netherlands. Gr Kim

[@helendavey5472]

I have PCOS and I've been trying for a baby for 25 year's with 11 loses, it's hard knowing that my body can not create the dream I've always had, at school when asked what i wanted to do with my life i said i wanted too be a wide and a mother. Well I got too be the wife in 1996 and inn pour wedding night we started trying for a baby, it's 2020 and I'm still trying, I've had all the tests all the treatments and nothing has worked for me, it kills me, I can't go on holiday during a school holiday just seeing kids running around having fun breaks my heart, I'm ok with kids but don't show me a scan picture or a newborn, they just break me, this isn't the life i dreamed about, but this is the life i was given, I'm blessed with a wonderful man that has supported me throughout it all, I know one of these days I'm just going to have to accept that I'm never going to be a mum, but just the thought of that breaks my heart, I'm sobbing as I'm writing this, PCOS is horrible, I can grow a full face beard I have to shave twice a day and I still get the shadow, the joys of being dark haired,, I've lost ALL the hair on top of my head, I have more chest hair than my hubby, it's just not pleasant and too this day there is still NO CURE, there needs to be more research into curing this so no other woman has to go through everything i have been through (before anyone asks and they always do, we were turned down to adopt / foster due to m e having PTSD)

[@amylouboo8640]

Sending you hugs. It’s ok to be emotional

[@thefosterfamilyvlogs5938]

I had a very hard time getting pregnant with my second baby. I had secondary infertility. We tried for 18 months and it was SO hard. I knew how to track my cycles like a PRO and it just wasn’t happening month after month. It was SO painful. Especially when you want it so bad. It hurt so bad I would bawl my eyes out and pray to God to take the “want” away. I didn’t want to want a baby SO badly because it was devastating month after month to see those negative pregnancy tests. It finally did happen and it happened exactly when it was supposed to. My rainbow girl was worth those stormy hard and painful months and years of trying. Don’t give up. It will happen.

[@Kd23oth]

Please don’t feel pathetic or like you need to apologies. Fertility struggles are SO hard. Regardless of time and if you have a child, if your hopes were up it hurts. Thank you for being honest and sharing with us, but remember your feelings are valid.

[@melodiethornock1406]

I bled with my 3rd child like a period. I thought I would miscarry but I didn’t. My 2nd child it took me 1 yr. to get pregnant then miscarried at 12 wks. I thought I’d never have a baby again but I did 2 mo. after a miscarriage I got pregnant. That was a lot of years ago. Have faith it will happen for you again.

[@karenthomas7342]

Hugs 🤗. You need to relax hun. It took me 3 years to get pregnant (other contributing factors that you don't have), but one time I was so sure I was pregnant...nausea, no period, sore boobs and all. I wasn't, and I was devastated. Hang in there, try (yeah right) not to think about it too much and enjoy Ella while she doesn't have to share you! Luv ya 🤗.

[@meghanhonohanacra]

My husband and I have been trying to conceive for 15 years. I have PCOS we have done ivf and 2 failed adoptions. Still no kids You will get thru this when it’s time it will be timed

[@voncharleston]

Everything you are feeling is normal. Pcos here and took a while and some hormone help for first 2 boys 5 years apart. After 13 cycles of Clomid and similar meds and 9 years on I finally fell on my own (in the middle of emigrating to Cyprus from Scotland) with my daughter but bled at the beginning and was convinced it wasn't to be. Luckily everything worked out and she is now 14 but no-one can understand what it feels like when your body is fighting you. Feel free to message me when you are feeling down. After years of every emotion I promise you I've been there. Stay strong and just know if it's meant to be it will be. X

[@rachelfaus9497]

Thanks for putting yourself out there. I know you are helping other women out there. I also know the rollercoaster ride. It is so difficult because every womans body is different. Some miss periods and others have a "period"/bleeding during pregnancy. Some get morning sickness and others don't. Every pregnancy is different too. I remember reading of women who never got positive tests even when they were very far a long. I got pregnant with my 1st on the first try and thought it would be so easy the next time but it took us years and a miscarriage but now I have a 10yr old and a 21 month. Looking back I know it was God's timing. I'm glad your going to check in with your doctor. Hang in there. Also I use to get my tests in bulk on Amazon. You can buy a set of ovulation tests and pregnancy tests for a better cost than buying pregnancy tests all the time. All the best to you!

[@sybleythomas3496]

I swear you are telling my story.

[@samanthadipple4440]

Just to know you have that sweet baby on the way now makes this not so sad but still breaks my heart to see you sad

[@robinperniciaro1122]

Don’t apologize for the tears, it’s ok! It will happen, you will get pregnant again. You’re putting too much pressure & stress on yourself....not good for your health. 🙏🏼🙏🏼 I’m an emotional person too,. Prayers through this time, it will happen❤️Enjoy your time with your family! Stay positive 😁

[@cbedunnnella3681]

Sending you lots of love!!!💙❤🌻

[@CZPanthyr]

You don't have to apologize for your emotions. There, I said it. They are perfectly honest emotions and there's nothing wrong with feeling them. The only advice I have is to stop trying so hard. Just enjoy each day and what comes will come, no amount of worrying will change that. Once you stop stressing so hard over getting pregnant, something amazing will happen.

[@emilyraymond2772]

It took me 5 long years to have my little girl who arrived only 7 weeks ago 🥰 I am no stranger to them feelings of disappointment. It hurt in the 5th year of trying just as much as it did the first year. Allow yourself to feel them emotions and then pick yourself back up and try again 😘 xx

[@doristomlin9469]

So sorry,hang in there.

[@saramchugh4618]

Oh Honey, please don't apologize for how you feel, it is okay to cry and be sad and to grieve what you thought was there. I wish I could hug you, it is not pathetic or bad. I have been there, it sucks. your sweet baby will come in time. 💖😘🤗

[@soniajarman4301]

lauren you are so lucky we have a 8yr old asd adhd hubby doesn't want another baby makes me sad that he has made up my mind for me already, love you guys, it will happen when you least expect it xxx

[@mrsbova11]

It could be a lot of things. Your hormones changing from coming off of the iud, pcos, stress. BUT not to ignite your hopes. My mom had her period throughout her pregnancy with me. Sending you love and support.

[@rhettlowder2165]

Praying 🙏🏼 for girly ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@christieschmidt8960]

HUGSSSSSSSS! 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

[@janaleonard4702]

Yes people PLEASE don't ask when people are having a baby.... It's heart wrenching! The flip side is I had a family member tell me to just stop trying and it will happen, or adopt and it will happen or maybe God just doesn't want you to have kids so stop trying. People can be so RUDE and hurtful! People be kind!!!

[@MomofTwins2006]

I have PCOS also. Wasn’t able to conceive on our own had to take Clomid to get pregnant with our first then when he was two we decided to try again for our girl took us a year of trying we did clomid, 2 IUI’s, we were going to go do IVF but I woke up the morning and got my period and called the Dr Office and told them I wanted to try again on own with a hcg shot and that did it! I got pregnant with Twins!!!! 2 Fraternal Girls!! I’ll pray you have a positive result soon. Oh BTW I should have stock in pregnancy tests because I thought every time I was pregnant. So I know how you feel Lauren, I’ve cried many tears over having babies. Oh and I had the Mirena IUD and it was hell.

[@ladytimeoin]

After I had first Mirena IUD removed (after about a yr because it dislodged) it took several months for my cycle to return. I conceived my daughter before I had a period. My Dr said that just because the "book" says your fertility/menstruation comes back shortly after removal for some people it can take a while.

[@smg.6685]

Hi Lauren! Just wanted to say hey and I love ya! I couldn't finish watching this video because I've been on the TTC journey since January of this year, and just went through everything that you described in this video on Mothers Day (of all days). It's so difficult, but just know that I'm thinking of you. This is going to work out for both of us when it's supposed to. Sending you all the love! -Shay

[@erinsaenz4125]

Not pathetic! Normal!! The mind is powerful. God will provide when its the right time.

[@brokenangel1085]

Hi Laura . I like you have pcos . It took us 4-1 year to conceive our son through iui . He is also asd. We were back in forth if we should have another ,but decided to go for it after talking to a genetic drs . We are doing IVF . Next month is my transfer . I pray that it works for you . Please don’t give up and have hope ❤️

[@filipamontano2447]

Stay positive when you are not thinking to much it will happen dont stress out lots of hugs 💕💕💕

[@sandycoponen4561]

Try to keep calm till you see the Doc. I had mini periods for at least 2 mths while being pregnant for at least 2 of my children.

[@melissaschneiter5938]

I have PCOS. I got pregnant with my oldest on the pill and before my PCOS diagnosis. It took me 6 years to get pregnant with my middle daughter, and a year and a half with my youngest. I also had an IUD after my middle and now again after my youngest. My periods were very irregular. Anywhere from 29 to 60 days. For my middle we tried medication and for my youngest I cut sugar, dairy and gluten for over 6 months. We weren't getting pregnant and I was like maybe I'm done, my husband said let's try a few more months and do it every 3 days. It worked the first month. Don't get too hard on yourself! Now you know you really want it and that is good to know!

[@manicur911]

We had 2 babies after my PCOS diagnosis. I definitely would have your doctor give you a blood test to check for pregnancy. You know your body best. You’re not pathetic, give yourself a break. You have to give us an update after you see your doc. Hang in there!

[@sabrinawallen3266]

Oh God love you! I am sorry. I cried with you and felt your pain. Don’t think you’re dumb please don’t think that Loren. You have every right to be sad. Im praying that you will become pregnant. Just have faith and know God will give you a baby! I’m 38 and I’ve never been able to have children. It’s hard very hard! But I know God has a reason for everything! I’m going to be sending & saying so many prayers for you! I love you sweet friend!

[@beautifullmess7777]

Never annoyed! Thanks for being so transparent through this.