Addiction: Christa Schram

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ShaneReinert

ShaneReinert

Күн бұрын

To keep up with The Addiction Series please go to / theaddictionseries Christa's life took her through loss, addiction, and being homeless before God helped her life turned around. This is her story.
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@mountzod
@mountzod 5 жыл бұрын
I'm literally watching a couple of these everyday at this point. Almost 3 months sober and in recovery. Thank you so much for these! ❤✝️✝️
@ryandearmun
@ryandearmun 4 жыл бұрын
Mt. Zod you still sober bro?
@emeryjones8099
@emeryjones8099 4 жыл бұрын
I get worried when they don’t reply😔
@chanelparker2727
@chanelparker2727 4 жыл бұрын
I know this is an old post but congratulations ❤❤❤
@periperi966
@periperi966 4 жыл бұрын
@@emeryjones8099 it can take a couple of goes. Nice that you care, says slot about you! :)
@BURDYMAN777
@BURDYMAN777 3 жыл бұрын
Hey. I hope you are still doing good. If not, I hope you get help. Don't be afraid to ask for help as soon as you realize you need it. The disappointment and embarrassment you are worried about are NOTHING compared to the disappointment and pain your family will go through if you keep using.
@IDK-kv8ob
@IDK-kv8ob 5 жыл бұрын
Who the heck downvotes these?!! Thank you for your testimony.
@KJ-kd5rx
@KJ-kd5rx 4 жыл бұрын
I was literally wondering the same thing!!
@Waxseason
@Waxseason 3 жыл бұрын
Thanks bro
@birdcityoutreach5119
@birdcityoutreach5119 3 жыл бұрын
Right?
@jehareis7350
@jehareis7350 3 жыл бұрын
The people who downvoted this. I regard them as (unfortunately) non-comprehensive. I do not agree with her about everything she says, but that is my overblown ego. BUT even my ego wishes the best for everyone. My ego set aside: I love her as I love you. Now I wish I could love my myself as I do love other people. I guess I feel pity for myself and I wish someone could help me with this, but I know it is only me in the end who can help me. This is not the reason I "love" everybody, I just understand and have empathy. Sorry talking about me.
@jasonmbritt
@jasonmbritt 3 жыл бұрын
That's EXACTLY what I was thinking! If you can't FEEL this ... God help you! You are LOST
@vanessasurfs3091
@vanessasurfs3091 5 жыл бұрын
I was woken up randomly to come watch this. 8months sober.
@donjohnson6471
@donjohnson6471 4 жыл бұрын
Vanessa surfs Congratulations! Keep going!
@ryandearmun
@ryandearmun 4 жыл бұрын
Are you still sober?
@saramaywlj5185
@saramaywlj5185 4 жыл бұрын
Congratulations @Vanessa are you still stober!
@annunacky4463
@annunacky4463 4 жыл бұрын
Hope you are still hanging in there. If not please get help to get back on the road to health and soul rest.
@MCBoftheDMV
@MCBoftheDMV Ай бұрын
I woke up to this video also, and needed it at Day 10 of sobriety, I hope you are living a beautiful, peaceful life today and I am never going back to that old way of living.
@aprilhughes8175
@aprilhughes8175 3 жыл бұрын
And here you are. Every time I relapse I run into you or find you. Crazy. She is God sent 🙏🙏. Now I am getting off benzodiazepines! I was too broken and delusional last year and I went to a doctor getting on to MAT drugs. Not pushing through in my career as a teacher not changing anything honestly. I have finally surrendered and just woke to a nightmare of fighting the devil. I am crying bc every time I am lost you are present. How ironic is that? Thank you so much for this. This woman prayed over me once and healed me! Here trauma mirrors mine to a "T". Her presence is God healing. I saw her once after praying to God last year that I wouldn't relapse. I had my friend pick me up. I told her please let's go shopping or I am going to relapse. I prayed to God to give me a sign not to give up. And sure enough Christa was there. Next week I was struggling again. I didn't know this woman. I had seen her before but I was on pain pills and high when our sons were playing on the same baseball team when my son was very little. I knew she was a special person of God. Praying to God once again to give me a sign I accidentally hit my phone and it opens FB. She is doing a live and praying and healing ppl. I had been suffering migraines, battling my addiction, and she knew all of this. She prayed over me and instantly I tingle from head to toe. I haven't had a migraine since!! Ironic how God works. Christa, my harvest has came finally! Trying to find a church and NA group. Please lmk if you have suggestions. Love this!
@palladium607
@palladium607 4 жыл бұрын
This is SUCH a remarkable story. Really and truly inspiring even for the skeptics out there 🙌 👏 🙏
@heatherzloty7143
@heatherzloty7143 2 жыл бұрын
Thank you for giving a powerful and truthful testimony about the power and UNCONDITIONAL love Jesus has for those that call upon him in humility 😊❤️
@MCBoftheDMV
@MCBoftheDMV Ай бұрын
I’m on Day 10 of my recovery journey, I believe God led me to your video and your story completely reminded me of how the Lord showed up in my life 2 weeks ago and filled my heart and soul with that light and peace that I had never felt and had begged for my entire life. Thank you for sharing your story and making this video, there are so many like us that need to be reminded we are not alone and there is truly a way out of the hell we have been living. Praise Jesus and AA/NA ❤
@fernandapartridge5174
@fernandapartridge5174 4 жыл бұрын
I’m not a believer as such, but what this lady has talked about is very powerful. Beautifully told, by a very strong and special person. Loved this. Very inspirational. ❤️
@amandalawuo3638
@amandalawuo3638 3 жыл бұрын
I pray for you
@thisblackgirl
@thisblackgirl 5 жыл бұрын
God brought me here for a reason!..I woke up the other day and this was playing on my laptop. God bless you Christa, and THANK YOU for sharing your story. MAY GOD CONTINUE TO BLESS YOU WITH HIS RICHEST BLESSINGS. I'm also a Christian and into the beauty business and I have no resources at all to start a business ..but GOD!
@homerturner3435
@homerturner3435 2 жыл бұрын
I honestly don’t make meetings as often as I should…. But watching these inspirational videos keep me sober. One day at a time!! 6 months clean!!!🙏🏾🤞🏾📖
@clarityofyah
@clarityofyah Жыл бұрын
Hallelujah 🎉❤
@PatCrawford-jm9rm
@PatCrawford-jm9rm Жыл бұрын
Only 6 months bro. You need to go to the meetings more frequently sooner than later... Why not start tomorrow? Try to make five a week or more
@SQNcom
@SQNcom 6 ай бұрын
Amazing and beautiful testimony. What a Christian warrior. She gets it! Praise Jesus!
@cynthiaheadrick6087
@cynthiaheadrick6087 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing your beautiful soul with me!! Gives me so much hope for my daughter especially who is (as far as I know) homeless. Much love to you and keep sharing HIS message of redemption❤
@Laura32562
@Laura32562 5 жыл бұрын
Went to bed last night and left my phone playing a KZbin video which had auto play feature. During the early morning hours I woke up turn8ng over and auto play was playing this video about Ben dying and the evil black things pushing him to kill himself and for her to do drugs...i am addicted to food, overeating and could relate to what she said. So today I watched the whole thing and this is an amazing, inspiring story. Thank you for sharing. God bless...
@summervonholten7643
@summervonholten7643 Жыл бұрын
You are amazing and you empower people. The fact that you are so raw in laying out your life to the entire world is just such great powerful medicine to help heal people. Congrats on your salon and I loved your story. God bless!
@johnboy6594
@johnboy6594 5 жыл бұрын
You are filled with the light of God. I can feel your beautiful energy. God is Good. How do people not see this?
@loredanarayney8020
@loredanarayney8020 6 жыл бұрын
Your story is so encouraging. I saved it on my playlist just so I can go back and listen to you, when I need to. Thank you so much for sharing. Xo
@matieurod752
@matieurod752 Жыл бұрын
Thank you. With my heart I believe in you , this story is amazing , I Love you Miss Christa Shram! 💯❤️
@ChristopArchi-ne9hn
@ChristopArchi-ne9hn 11 ай бұрын
I can't even put into words to describe how this woman, you if you see this comment, has made me feel by listening to your story so I won't even try. All I'm going to do is say THANK YOU ❤
@ChristaElisha
@ChristaElisha 10 ай бұрын
Praise the Lord! 😭🙌🏼❤️ Today I celebrated 12 years clean! And a few years ago I started my own KZbin channel if you ever want to watch more inspiring content ❤️
@jcamacho.2563
@jcamacho.2563 6 жыл бұрын
Wow. I know im here for a reason. God bless you Christa Joy. Felt the spirit. Pray for me plz.
@davinastanton3865
@davinastanton3865 6 жыл бұрын
j Camacho . I am praying for you. But you can do this. Read the other's ladies please. Always here if you need to chat. 💗
@jcamacho.2563
@jcamacho.2563 5 жыл бұрын
@@davinastanton3865 hello
@gabrielle2dream559
@gabrielle2dream559 5 жыл бұрын
Praying for you
@noahtrapasso881
@noahtrapasso881 5 жыл бұрын
Prayed for you cuzzin
@TheMmorgan10
@TheMmorgan10 5 жыл бұрын
You guys are so brave to be able to face yourselves and your addictions. I'm so glad tto hear how well you are doing. Don't ever forget that you have to take sobriety one day at a time. I have been on a MAT program for 18 years . Chronic pain started my road to functional alcoholism and I quit drinking before my first grandson was born, but the pain and additional injuries took me into pain pills, which led me to .a Methadone Clinic where I still go to monthly today for my refills. I can't really afford it any more, but can't take the pain without it. Best of luck to each of you!
@VisibleMajority
@VisibleMajority 5 жыл бұрын
Transforming and beautiful. God bless you Christa ❤️
@davidday9367
@davidday9367 9 ай бұрын
Just like you Jesus revealed himself to me as a child but I turned away & spent probably 20 years off and on of my adult life abusing hard drugs but Jesus never gave up on me and now I have been sober for probably 8 years and I praise Jesus every day Amen ! 🙏
@meredithjohnson6857
@meredithjohnson6857 6 жыл бұрын
Our story is so similar that I feel like I was sent to this page for a reason.
@davinastanton3865
@davinastanton3865 6 жыл бұрын
Meredith Johnson You can do this. Please believe me when I say this. Two of my daughter's were Heroin Addicts. Four years clean now. Methadone has saved so many lives. I am now a Mental health nurse and drugs councillor. Always here if you need to chat. With love. 💗
@ziggybammurphy191
@ziggybammurphy191 5 жыл бұрын
Methadone is tried and true...and its stigmatized so badly...it works...period...people also shouldnt have to jump through hoops to get it...a family physician should be able to prescribe it and Suboxone also...its crazy that they can prescribe narcotics, but cant prescribe the stuff to get u clean...something is wrong there...
@tinydancer2544
@tinydancer2544 5 жыл бұрын
@@davinastanton3865 Davina what are your thoughts on Suboxone. I'm getting started on medically assisted treatment with Suboxone but hear so many conflicting experiences about it.
@franki-annadegboyega7081
@franki-annadegboyega7081 4 жыл бұрын
@@tinydancer2544 i know u didnt ask me but il tell you mine because i had heard so many conflicting info aswel. So they started me on it and it really does block the withdrawls also after a few days of it building up it acts as a blocker to so even if u tried to use it wudnt have the same effect because it sticks to ur receptors so there is no space for another drug. With methodone u get a drowsy not quite urself feeling that i didnt want with the soboxane tho u feel normal. What i did was try and be on it for as little as possible so as not to get withdrawls from it but if u do it right when u want to come of it lower it very little every 4 weeks or so that way ur body does not notice as time goes by. I used it for 8 months and for 6 of those months i was lowering it little by little with assistance from a doctor aswell. It really is worth a go it saved my life and from the moment i took it i wasnt sick and i wasnt drugging was such a good feeling not having to run about day to day doing all sorts. Also forget anybodys judgement this is ur life and if u need it to save urs or make the journey easier then no one else has the right to say anything, they are simply ignorant! Good luck il pray for u. You can do it :-)
@MissVanSam
@MissVanSam 5 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I love listening to it and can even relate to some of it. You are not alone I will be praying for you beautiful soul. Love from that small Dutch country Nederland💕🇱🇺
@dublinsfaircity
@dublinsfaircity 5 жыл бұрын
Beautiful and articulate lady. Deep words that hit home. Thanks. Love from Ireland.
@wallacefreedom76
@wallacefreedom76 5 жыл бұрын
Christa, thanks so much for sharing. Just got watching the whole thing. Thank you, I needed to hear your testimony today. Thank you for sharing.
@greengrassdiaries4941
@greengrassdiaries4941 4 жыл бұрын
What an incredible story. Thank you so much for sharing.
@Lisa-vj6pz
@Lisa-vj6pz 10 ай бұрын
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ sister God bless you God bless you and yours always..... I'm sorry anybody ever hurt you that way...... I'm sorry that anybody ever got hurt.... I am half Japanese and.... You almost seem like you would be a relative of mine..... Your story is amazing..... Your connection to God is so Divine and real..... Cuz you kept that heart connection to God he showed up for you...... God bless your mother God bless your family God bless everybody that you help..... Your story is one of the most unique stories yet very similar in a lot of ways you know..... I know so many struggling..... Trying to do..... Your story has restored my faith.... With some of these individuals that I have come into contact with even under my own family roof.... It clearly is being driven by the darkness for sure and you were able to convey that message and show the light..... You are truly a beautiful soul inside and out.... I am glad that God walks with you everyday.... I am glad that you have become an empowered human being..... Not trapped and confined by the darkness..... I'm going to save your story ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ you are incredible be blessed and anointed from God always... Thank you so much for sharing your story.....
@cswafford1987
@cswafford1987 4 жыл бұрын
Yes Amen! I needed to hear this. (Confirmation) Thank you!💕
@mayare1919
@mayare1919 4 жыл бұрын
Great story, deep bottoms and immense pain. Since this is on KZbin, I wish you shared how you picked up to begin with, and how you got to the needle all of a sudden. Also it sounds like you were giving God these ultimatums to save you as if He worked for you. Despite all that, He saved you!
@AmyNCole-luv4God
@AmyNCole-luv4God 4 жыл бұрын
Amazing story! God is good. Such a beautiful message.
@periperi966
@periperi966 4 жыл бұрын
Soooo good! We felt all of your story so thanks for sharing, very courageous. :) It's important I remember not to compare my life with others but know that my competition is between my lower nature of pain, fear and resentment vs my Higher Power that has no expectations other than to be familiar with my birth rite, one of divine loving, forgiveness/compassion and true happiness. We're not alone we are loved and we shouldn't be shy about that fact. Thanks
@low-keyrighteous9575
@low-keyrighteous9575 4 жыл бұрын
Gorgeous gal. Thank you for sharing your strength. It's beautiful to hear after your struggle you were still able to truly know your worth and value . Sometimes we can be thankful to God for being chicken, just as we should thank Him for this life and everything else. He gives us our strength to get through our darkness by being our amazing , guiding light . Always and forever God bless you sister . Stay strong ... Hallelujah
@robertrigertjr.4943
@robertrigertjr.4943 4 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for your inspiring edifying story. We truly all are bros.@ sisters and worthy of his love as his children.
@Polecat-qz5om
@Polecat-qz5om 5 жыл бұрын
♥️ this touched my heart so much. I have had a similar life and I am a hair stylist as well. God bless you.
@theKaufmanTapes
@theKaufmanTapes 4 жыл бұрын
This was amazing! I’m so inspired. I don’t know where this video came from. Thank the Lord for small miracles.
@tracyjohnson3496
@tracyjohnson3496 Жыл бұрын
Amazing! Thank you Jesus!🙏🏽❤
@fi0_
@fi0_ 5 жыл бұрын
Wow incredible story how could anyone unlike this! God bless you
@traceyreece4415
@traceyreece4415 6 жыл бұрын
Ur so brave and your story is educational to so many other's I really thank u for your story..I wish u the up most best in your life.your a true inspiration to so many..thank u for sharing it.xxx
@caganb
@caganb 2 жыл бұрын
Thank you
@rhondarichardson778
@rhondarichardson778 6 ай бұрын
I hear that. It is really helping me too! Thank you
@brandonjensen6013
@brandonjensen6013 4 жыл бұрын
I keep telling my wife that the devil wont let me go...every time i make progress in my life i get sucked back in!
@alqadeeb
@alqadeeb 4 жыл бұрын
The devil will never let you go... This is why you pray to God to protect and safe you. Not easy partner but doable
@ComplexPtsdRecovery
@ComplexPtsdRecovery 3 жыл бұрын
Brandon find someone who can teach you about the underlying trauma driving the addiction, understanding the neuroscience can help you
@amandalawuo3638
@amandalawuo3638 3 жыл бұрын
U have a good heart huni that's christ in u working that lady will never forget you x
@jassiahpisapia1741
@jassiahpisapia1741 4 жыл бұрын
im on day two and feel like i cant make it thru this withdrawel
@chanelparker2727
@chanelparker2727 4 жыл бұрын
I hope you stuck with it.. It gets SOO much better. And you ARE Soo much braver than you realize. Positive thoughts sent your way 😊
@debdavis8958
@debdavis8958 4 жыл бұрын
This is so inspirational The delivery is such a heartfelt message . Thank you for sharing. ~blessings~
@potatotomato4446
@potatotomato4446 4 жыл бұрын
THANK YOU!
@heatherzloty7143
@heatherzloty7143 2 жыл бұрын
Isn’t it really cool that her name is CHRIST A JOY??????
@auntymoi
@auntymoi 8 ай бұрын
I am so happy for her. I'm truly glad she is clean and has such a positive message about God and Hope. I have to point this out , about the way she talks about God. If it was anything other than the Christian God, this girl would be considered delusional and psychotic...
@kimmymichele12
@kimmymichele12 3 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for sharing!!!!❤❤❤
@janiegibbons919
@janiegibbons919 4 жыл бұрын
Amen, yes God's love
@caroline1425yt
@caroline1425yt 5 жыл бұрын
Praise God! So very happy for you! ❤️
@gkskforever6909
@gkskforever6909 4 жыл бұрын
Amazing Testimony!
@birdcityoutreach5119
@birdcityoutreach5119 3 жыл бұрын
136 days
@thewrongniggas6184
@thewrongniggas6184 5 жыл бұрын
Wow she's beautiful
@Herzeleydt_Diesentrueb
@Herzeleydt_Diesentrueb 5 жыл бұрын
wrong Niggah - She is sure as beautiful as she is intelligent...
@JayLangly
@JayLangly 6 жыл бұрын
Damn girl-- I feel your pain there- <a href="#" class="seekto" data-time="3573">59:33</a>
@coolcat5798
@coolcat5798 5 жыл бұрын
R _ uhhý5
@amandalawuo3638
@amandalawuo3638 3 жыл бұрын
Hey girl u are a beautiful woman who has a past just like all of us. Jesus saves he is the best. I felt ur pain when u spoke about the abuse i used to ask God where were you Jesus u not the only one. God bless you and remember Jesus loves you so much and so do I XXXX
@onderex
@onderex 4 жыл бұрын
She is very pretty
@FunkadelicPancho
@FunkadelicPancho 5 жыл бұрын
It's cool she found something to really get her through life but, what kind of loving god allows a child to be abused? Some kids dont make it through that...where is god for them?
@brendareed5050
@brendareed5050 4 жыл бұрын
connor adcock the same God that allows you to turn from Him while you try and fix your life, is the same God that saves you when you realize you failed and you need him. Gods heart is that all will be saved but we have a will and we get in our own way of experiencing his love and guidance in our life. We are either influenced by evil or love; that is Satan or God the Father.
@amandalawuo3638
@amandalawuo3638 3 жыл бұрын
Yes I see where u are coming from. Us humans look at God as a magician and that if he is powerful enough to create the world than he can stop all the evil but there is too sides to ever coin. Humans have turned their backs on God the creator so that's why evil men and women do evil to the innocent ppl. God at the beginning gave us choices morals gut feeling but we choose to ignore it. He wants us to choose gd but the fact is we can't without God. God in us is what makes us good. The next question is why doesn't he stop control us to b different to save the innocent people I have a question how did u feel when a adult false u to do something God loves us he don't want robots control us making us robots isn't his style we have to choose him we have to reach out to God. God is loving parent he aches for those who are in pain because of evil he cries but he wount do how we humans do things by threats demands control in order to get what we want. He is love gentel patient compassionate. This world is full of evil wickedness because of the hands of us humans God has nothing to do with it u try and tell a murder to stop killing without God he or she can't for ever . God is powerful mighty but it doesn't mean he is a magician in a bottle for us to wish our problems away. Those ppl who have been victims of other ppls wickedness Jesus embraces them heals them slowly if they will allow him in. I know when I went through a really horrid time it was not Jesus turning a blind eye not caring but it was him doing something in the background where human eyes cannot see human minds can't makes sense of no matter how interlect u are. Bad things bring ppl to God without sickness pain suffering why would we need a God. We need God because there is a need this world is broken we have comtaminated this world with our filth and that's just it. The devil has influenced us to do some really evil things but that's what satan the devil does. I remember witnessing a mother choosing drugs over her child I thought that's sick. I Used to judge look down on but now I get it I had no clue what I was talking about. God will not intervine on free will to choose good or evil. He doesn't want robots he wants real ppl in relationship with him broken ppl ppl that recognise that they are messed up and need God to help them this can't b done with robots. Try asking a robot to do what he isn't programmed to do. Or ask a robot why he is a robot see if u can build a real life breathing relationship between the two of u try it and see
@smedina197sm
@smedina197sm 5 жыл бұрын
Wow your gorgeous 😍
@Amamay315
@Amamay315 11 ай бұрын
Lucky you
@ernesthemingwayrocks9732
@ernesthemingwayrocks9732 4 жыл бұрын
If any of you want to know how Christa turned out, here’s another part of her story. God has her preaching his word! kzbin.info/www/bejne/aKaTfWx8npiEhM0
@mgtowanonymous3120
@mgtowanonymous3120 3 жыл бұрын
Bout to attempt to go through it after election day. I've lived in court rooms all my life due to evil people. Found out the one I loved was getting raiped all the time by her own dad. He would never see a day in jail or prison . All counts dismissed and there was a ton. Was basically every weekend. So fuhkn sick. During the cps process that I started as a child to protect these people begin to play with our relationship giving us "permissions" this carried through my gravest mistake. Getting her pregnant. The sht i know now as a red pill . Good God the mistakes I made. Her true self started coming out. Endless foster homes and bullsht later. Her raipest family moved her around state to state. Making me have to fuhkn go everywhere to find her an my child. Everytime I would win anything in court after tyrannically being forced to do all the typical stalling bullsht for me to win WHICH SHLULDA BEEN AUTOMATIC . I was never an addict. I was a normal person. Didn't even sneak cigarettes. I would learn over years the games cps and the system plays an that I wasn't just "unlucky" It would not only destroy our relationship . But then the broken mom an dad = broken children . Would come out. The father who raiped her an mother who turned a blind eye convinced her to get rid of me How disgusting is that?^^ I would later find my child would he taken around this raipest dad of hers. An just so much sht that is to much to type . Normal court. Appeals court. Winning. Loosing after winning because there is no more rule of law+ if u have a cawk an balls swinging between ur legs the woman can have i love satan and black demon eyes on her face she will win 100% of the time. She would later go to abuse my child punching teeth out of her mouth . Time would go by . I would get full custody from this Then 1 day years later school would call me an tell me if my child doesn't stop my child will be suspended. I did what every real caring parent would do after warning in advance cause this was the 2nd time . Ass whooppin and grounding in a room with nothing to do. I would call the mistake for a mom saying she's fuhkn up u need to not let her just run free when she comes for visitation. Word for word is what I said. Mistake for a mother would use cps as a weapon to strike like the taipen pit viper black widow from hell she has become . They would come to my house kidnap my child. I even recorded the police looking puzzled an giving me no reason other than "let them do there investigation" and the good ole "the judge will handle it". Typical.dsgcraceful npc order following pcs of sht stain on humanitys shoes. Brian from.high impact flix b4 his main channel got banned would cover the disgust of my story after I sent it to him. In court there was 0 prosecutor. No one to tell me what I did . No charges to have to fight. Full custody and all rights were removed from me and all givin to the black widow. After years of money. Of court dates. To protect the very person who turned on me. Destroyed my family. Destroyed me. I had addresses of everyone involved. Thr case workers judges police all of them. I was going to end them. My fatherly instincts DEMANDED that I take there lives. ^ it NEVER leaves. It NEVER goes away. So I went full blown into all substances and alchol. Been rotting for years. Gna be honest. There's a 95/99% chance im gna fail . Here's how I an "planning" it. I'm gna saddistically work out forever daily like goggins or wes watson . If I can get through the withdrawl. My story is was longer than what I just said. It only skims the surface. To this day. I have 0 record. Never arrested. Never is jail. Never in prison. I was normal. Now I'm permantly changed. And tbh even looking at females make me want to puke. Thats how fuhkd up I am now. An being someone who had been searching for answers ever since this happend an knows the truth of what's going on in the world right now makes this sht even harder to deal with. To any who read this. Addicts don't "like to get high" For some of us. We HAVE to do ruthless things the like u have only seen in horror films or video games. Or suppress. A MAN does NOT LET SOMEONE KIDNAP HIS CHILDREN. HE SHOOTS THEM DEAD. I am suffering immensely . We will see what happens I suppose. Its depressing from all angles. 1 of the things I hate the most about substances is the "auto pilot". Time is litteraly on fast-forward for me . An I can't stand it. To anyone else who is JUSTIFIABLY SO Using substances. U don't have to prove anything to anyone. And I wish u luck in whatever u try to do. Its getting insane out here. I guess in the end revenge is coming either way. Cause I will NOT live in a sht world order. We are seconds away from the greatest stand we will ever have to make . An these cuhnts arnt gna get away with tranquilizing us to sleep. ^ is one of the only things. Motivating me to turn away from suppressing. Well. Thanks for listening I guess. I guess if we are watching these kind of videos we are on the right track. Good luck guys.
@Nat.Dialogue
@Nat.Dialogue 3 жыл бұрын
Where you at Dude
@gurpreetdhesi7505
@gurpreetdhesi7505 3 жыл бұрын
Love for everyone remember theres only 8-9% off us in this world god made us with that addictive behaviour why? I have no idea only GOD will give us that answer when we leave earth but i still believe alot of our addictions can be a wrong decision choice that we make which eventually creates other problems but in the we love GOD & we always will look around the world since this deadly virus that has taken my father away we all from top peeps to good lower peeps still havent learnt shit not one 1 person has mentioned GOD at all why? Wtf is wrong with us
@sandymitchell1606
@sandymitchell1606 8 ай бұрын
She looks like Shania Twain
@Moon_Presence
@Moon_Presence 4 жыл бұрын
SHE IS SO INSPIRATIONAL!! I have been watching videos such as these to help me stay sober. It works!!
@victoriagraham6470
@victoriagraham6470 4 жыл бұрын
Hi, 9 years and 10 months sober from Gin Martini's, one day at a time. Believe in what you cannot see.
@periperi966
@periperi966 4 жыл бұрын
Smile breathe and believe! Well done to you
@johnnypools6971
@johnnypools6971 5 жыл бұрын
I have 1 day today. My addiction turns me into a liar, a thief, and all around hollow person trapped in a wide awake nightmare This is my fourth attempt at sobriety. Each time it gets worse. The losses Ive suffered are heartbreaking and almost to much to bear and if I think about them I feel like I will go insane. I'm scared and angry at myself. I feel like a failure because I can't get this. But I can't focus on that or else I will use again. My life always got better when I stayed sober and worked the program. I have to be careful because this disease is bigger than me and is based on lies which my addictive mind believes. To be honest I don't know how I made it this far without committing suicide. The evil is real. I can finally understand the addict who struggles to stay clean and keeps falling where I never could before. If I make it through life
@shyla.from.the.westcoast
@shyla.from.the.westcoast 5 жыл бұрын
You’re doing great, any step in the right direction should be celebrated. Like is beautiful, I was addicted to pain meds at the very young age of 14 & attempted suicide. I managed to turn my life around. It gets better.
@CMoore8539
@CMoore8539 5 жыл бұрын
bmb6 Never Ever Give Up!♥️ I’ve got two years clean time after 30 years of addiction. If I can do this Anyone Can.
@BreeLocgoddess
@BreeLocgoddess 5 жыл бұрын
bmb6 how’s it going for u??
@johnnypools6971
@johnnypools6971 5 жыл бұрын
@@BreeLocgoddess I'm still using. My life is so bad right now a multitude of problems that just get worse I hate doing this but when I tried to stop today I was so sick ,crawling out of my skin with anxiety and i have to work. Im going to have to go away I can't do this on my own. I just don't feel that my life will get better. Also tried tapering but once I start I have no ability to ration myself. It just takes over. I have no control over anything
@jeffbach7366
@jeffbach7366 5 жыл бұрын
How are you doing, if you need to talk I'm a good listener, every day is an accomplishment.
@ksams2877
@ksams2877 6 жыл бұрын
Your testimony saved my son! Praise God!
@mountzod
@mountzod 5 жыл бұрын
✝️ ✝️
@jasonmbritt
@jasonmbritt 3 жыл бұрын
WOW! Awesomeness. Plain and simple. #BlownAway
@briesthoughts2261
@briesthoughts2261 5 жыл бұрын
She is so brave to tell her story. She is a survivor 👏👏👏👏
@Tameeekababy
@Tameeekababy 3 жыл бұрын
This was so powerful, gave me so much hope and inspiration. God is soo good and faithful to his word, hallelujah!! 🙏🏽❤️🙌🏽💝💖💕
@kellyandersen3856
@kellyandersen3856 5 жыл бұрын
Your message has profoundly affected me. I am going back to church with my family to remind myself of some thing I may have been forgetting.
@tobiasnielsen8693
@tobiasnielsen8693 4 жыл бұрын
I'm 23 years old, I wan't to kiss and hug you from hearing your story. I'm struggling with a poly drug addiction myself in Denmark. I hope the best for you.
@tobiasnielsen8693
@tobiasnielsen8693 4 жыл бұрын
3 weeks sober by the way
@Nat.Dialogue
@Nat.Dialogue 3 жыл бұрын
You are on the right path
@amandalawuo3638
@amandalawuo3638 3 жыл бұрын
Tobias I am going to advice u to pray ask Jesus into your heart find a church and a pastor who can help u practically and spiritually if indeed u are serious about getting help I know you can find a way I pray u get the support you need
@MortishaPoppins
@MortishaPoppins 3 жыл бұрын
@@tobiasnielsen8693 I hope that you are still doing well
@marinahuijsen1121
@marinahuijsen1121 4 жыл бұрын
I am halfway in your story..it takes my breath away..unbelieveble..my tears are running already thanks so much for this honest story ...i need air to continu your story..
@marinahuijsen1121
@marinahuijsen1121 4 жыл бұрын
I am on 3/4 now and still crying...
@JB0617
@JB0617 5 жыл бұрын
What a testimony!!!!!... BEAUTIFUL!!!! GOD IS SOOOO GOOD!!!!!!
@danthompson5797
@danthompson5797 4 жыл бұрын
If Christianity is the answer, then why is it so impossible for me to accept it? I see beautiful intelligent people like this being saved by Jesus (essentially) and it always makes me wonder.. how do they maintain a constant faith with it? I only last like one week max before it all just seems embarrassingly stupid. But sometimes it makes sense to me (and of course that floods me with hope).
@amandalawuo3638
@amandalawuo3638 3 жыл бұрын
Daniel u need to accept Jesus as ur Lord and saviour Find a church and a pastor to explain slowly to u about it u need understanding acceptance basically u can't do this alone and God will slowly show u The way trust me. Feel free to message me for help until u find ur feet at times I may be at work so if I dnt reply straight away I try to asap take care of yourself
@MoustacheAlexander
@MoustacheAlexander 5 жыл бұрын
I don't believe word one about religion but I'm glad that you are alive and that your kids now have a chance of a good life.
@lisamendez7479
@lisamendez7479 5 жыл бұрын
Mr. Dixon, she isn't talking about religion! She is speaking about the love of JESUS/GOD and a relationship with him that we all NEED!
@noahtrapasso881
@noahtrapasso881 5 жыл бұрын
I’ll pray you see the truth about Jesus the one and only true God mr.Dixon
@amandalawuo3638
@amandalawuo3638 3 жыл бұрын
Yes I somehow get why u wouldn't God made us in such a way that we can not understand why the world is the way it is. We humans go on logic what we see hear feel go through that's why faith is so so unexplainable. But I do know that Jesus is real because my lifestyle speaks for it self my story alone is full of God I mean if not God than who would save me from myself. The doctors could not save me I was on a down hill spiral. All the determination self motivation could not save me. It was when God met me his power grace mixed with my determination motivation that's when change happened. I am a different person today because of Jesus. You have obviously been through certain things for u to say u don't believe I respect that I am just sad for u that's all. By the way Jesus and religion are not the same. Religion is outwards and self reliant but has no power behinde its more harsh eg when u make a mistake u beat ur self up over and over again no compassion for ur self or others Religion is fake as in it paints a picture of look at me Iam higher than u better ect Jesus is I need u God I am a sinner I am nothing but dust I need ur grace ( un merrited favour of God as a gift) everything I have and I am is because of u. I can't take credit because Iam in relationship with the creator of the universe. I suppose ppl with dark past like me find it easier to believe in God because we no if not for God we b dead in prison or in a mental health unit for life.
@conniemarlow9719
@conniemarlow9719 Жыл бұрын
❤❤❤❤❤ohhh my, how I enjoyed your story, and I am so proud of you!!!!! Much love from EAST TENNESSEE ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏❤️🙏❤️🙏🙏💗🙏💗💗💗💗💗💗🙏🙏🙏Many prayers for you and your family!!!❤❤❤❤❤
@estherwaters2218
@estherwaters2218 3 жыл бұрын
Thank you
@aimeebee3093
@aimeebee3093 5 жыл бұрын
God , thank you for leading me here. I needed this so much, but you already know that ...
@annunacky4463
@annunacky4463 4 жыл бұрын
Not sure what brought me here? Perhaps a minor miracle...I could be a better human for sure.
@Nat.Dialogue
@Nat.Dialogue 3 жыл бұрын
It offers a valuable perspective , does it not
@mammabear4076
@mammabear4076 5 жыл бұрын
Christa... I sent your story to my sister, and my niece, trying to help save their lives, I had only watched 1/3 of your show at the moment when I sent your video to them. As I listened and watched, I realized it was for me. I needed to hear God. I needed the relationship I used to have when I was a child, in between the sexual abuse that I had experienced. I may not use drugs, but trust me ...I have my vices. I've forgiven every man that has sexually abused me ... I've sent letters to all of them & I forgave them. But everything still seem to be stalling in my life, my relationship with God... Thank you for speaking and saying what God wanted you to say ... I think you just saved my life, and my relationship with God. Hope Truth and Love was all I needed to hear and see... Thank you for speaking out & not hiding your life from the world. We needed you! God bless you and that you touch, do & Say.
@periperi966
@periperi966 4 жыл бұрын
We need you:)
@emilduda3816
@emilduda3816 2 жыл бұрын
We believe in God here in Poland, but you in America are on next level.
@nvartidinyan8461
@nvartidinyan8461 Жыл бұрын
Incredible story, GOD is good!
@johngraham9085
@johngraham9085 Жыл бұрын
❤💙❤💙❤
@xetex2563
@xetex2563 3 жыл бұрын
Hi 7 Years Sober now and enjoying it....
@tamarpeters4654
@tamarpeters4654 26 күн бұрын
Praise God 🙏🏽 it's so rare to get clean without an alternative drug and going cold turkey I hear is impossible but with faith in god all things are possible my sister my joy you are an inspiration to me and many others .god saves lives I'm up next he knows my❤ and if nobody told you I love you today I love you ❤️
@loredanarayney8020
@loredanarayney8020 6 жыл бұрын
Beautiful!
@stevewaterman1271
@stevewaterman1271 2 ай бұрын
Ma'am I don't know who you are or anything about you but I heard you for the first time last night and I'm listening to your testimony five times it is truly impacted me deeply life changing thank you thank you
@eyesopen5088
@eyesopen5088 Жыл бұрын
I love this story sooo much.. I am at work with my earbuds in trying not to cry…
@Spartacus_Snakeplissken1
@Spartacus_Snakeplissken1 3 жыл бұрын
Crista, God bless u. God loves us. I love u. You're an angel.
@Globelle
@Globelle Жыл бұрын
You are so right. Jesus is LIVING God and there is the enemy seeking to devour. Have just started watching but keep doing what your doing!!! God Bless You
@johnturner1315
@johnturner1315 5 ай бұрын
I can see God in you Holy Spirit is with you, thank you so very much for sharing your life. God is good all the time.
@keithmolloy3686
@keithmolloy3686 Жыл бұрын
Ya know I was going to post something different but all the comments are 6 months clean clean clean so I can't say anything bad about these videos I watch 2 a day Im not going to lie and say they keep me clean they do give me hope
@jasonmbritt
@jasonmbritt 3 жыл бұрын
Where's the LOVE button KZbin? Forget like. How could anybody POSSIBLY dislike this?
@heatherzloty7143
@heatherzloty7143 2 жыл бұрын
And you will know that they are real Christian’s by their LOVE!!! Praise God for his work in the human heart!
@kimberlyjohnson30
@kimberlyjohnson30 4 жыл бұрын
Christa schram im so glad it was God's will for you to live now god is using you as an instrument as a vessel for his glory you are winning souls for god and thats the most beautiful thing you can do i love your testimony and i love you and although I've never been an addict you still give me hope and your an inspiration to the world may god continue to bless you and your family in jesus name amen 😘😘😘😘😘😘
@2uconner
@2uconner 5 жыл бұрын
Addictions is everybody we all are addicted to something ...I hope and pray we can clear ourselves and I hope and pray we are prayed for thru the right ppl be strong and be loved through the friends that stand by you esp yourself and creator and higher power thank you for reading this pls pray for me
@joselito456
@joselito456 3 жыл бұрын
Haven't drank hard liquor in a year but recently relapsed on a couple of beers and fucked up again........
@caerriestrandt5153
@caerriestrandt5153 Жыл бұрын
Sending you best wishes for the journey your on..my journey started today
@kaykaykay6969
@kaykaykay6969 Ай бұрын
I loved loved💕💛💕 her story. God is good!!
@birdcityoutreach5119
@birdcityoutreach5119 3 жыл бұрын
God is the only thing that satisfies that void...real shit
@yungcris5211
@yungcris5211 4 жыл бұрын
Even if I don’t go to church I still found this story incredible. Teared up many times. It’s hard to be the thing everyone expects keep your head up guys.
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