I honestly don’t make meetings as often as I should…. But watching these inspirational videos keep me sober. One day at a time!! 6 months clean!!!🙏🏾🤞🏾📖
@clarityofyah Жыл бұрын
Hallelujah 🎉❤
@PatCrawford-jm9rm Жыл бұрын
Only 6 months bro. You need to go to the meetings more frequently sooner than later... Why not start tomorrow? Try to make five a week or more
@SQNcom8 ай бұрын
Amazing and beautiful testimony. What a Christian warrior. She gets it! Praise Jesus!
@mountzod5 жыл бұрын
I'm literally watching a couple of these everyday at this point. Almost 3 months sober and in recovery. Thank you so much for these! ❤✝️✝️
@ryandearmun4 жыл бұрын
Mt. Zod you still sober bro?
@emeryjones80994 жыл бұрын
I get worried when they don’t reply😔
@chanelparker27274 жыл бұрын
I know this is an old post but congratulations ❤❤❤
@periperi9664 жыл бұрын
@@emeryjones8099 it can take a couple of goes. Nice that you care, says slot about you! :)
@BURDYMAN7774 жыл бұрын
Hey. I hope you are still doing good. If not, I hope you get help. Don't be afraid to ask for help as soon as you realize you need it. The disappointment and embarrassment you are worried about are NOTHING compared to the disappointment and pain your family will go through if you keep using.
@MCBoftheDMV3 ай бұрын
I’m on Day 10 of my recovery journey, I believe God led me to your video and your story completely reminded me of how the Lord showed up in my life 2 weeks ago and filled my heart and soul with that light and peace that I had never felt and had begged for my entire life. Thank you for sharing your story and making this video, there are so many like us that need to be reminded we are not alone and there is truly a way out of the hell we have been living. Praise Jesus and AA/NA ❤
@Moon_Presence4 жыл бұрын
SHE IS SO INSPIRATIONAL!! I have been watching videos such as these to help me stay sober. It works!!
@IDK-kv8ob5 жыл бұрын
Who the heck downvotes these?!! Thank you for your testimony.
@KJ-kd5rx4 жыл бұрын
I was literally wondering the same thing!!
@Waxseason4 жыл бұрын
Thanks bro
@birdcityoutreach51194 жыл бұрын
Right?
@jehareis73503 жыл бұрын
The people who downvoted this. I regard them as (unfortunately) non-comprehensive. I do not agree with her about everything she says, but that is my overblown ego. BUT even my ego wishes the best for everyone. My ego set aside: I love her as I love you. Now I wish I could love my myself as I do love other people. I guess I feel pity for myself and I wish someone could help me with this, but I know it is only me in the end who can help me. This is not the reason I "love" everybody, I just understand and have empathy. Sorry talking about me.
@jasonmbritt3 жыл бұрын
That's EXACTLY what I was thinking! If you can't FEEL this ... God help you! You are LOST
@vanessasurfs30915 жыл бұрын
I was woken up randomly to come watch this. 8months sober.
@donjohnson64714 жыл бұрын
Vanessa surfs Congratulations! Keep going!
@ryandearmun4 жыл бұрын
Are you still sober?
@Designsby2e4 жыл бұрын
Congratulations @Vanessa are you still stober!
@annunacky44634 жыл бұрын
Hope you are still hanging in there. If not please get help to get back on the road to health and soul rest.
@MCBoftheDMV3 ай бұрын
I woke up to this video also, and needed it at Day 10 of sobriety, I hope you are living a beautiful, peaceful life today and I am never going back to that old way of living.
@briesthoughts22615 жыл бұрын
She is so brave to tell her story. She is a survivor 👏👏👏👏
@ksams28776 жыл бұрын
Your testimony saved my son! Praise God!
@mountzod5 жыл бұрын
✝️ ✝️
@jasonmbritt3 жыл бұрын
WOW! Awesomeness. Plain and simple. #BlownAway
@aprilhughes81753 жыл бұрын
And here you are. Every time I relapse I run into you or find you. Crazy. She is God sent 🙏🙏. Now I am getting off benzodiazepines! I was too broken and delusional last year and I went to a doctor getting on to MAT drugs. Not pushing through in my career as a teacher not changing anything honestly. I have finally surrendered and just woke to a nightmare of fighting the devil. I am crying bc every time I am lost you are present. How ironic is that? Thank you so much for this. This woman prayed over me once and healed me! Here trauma mirrors mine to a "T". Her presence is God healing. I saw her once after praying to God last year that I wouldn't relapse. I had my friend pick me up. I told her please let's go shopping or I am going to relapse. I prayed to God to give me a sign not to give up. And sure enough Christa was there. Next week I was struggling again. I didn't know this woman. I had seen her before but I was on pain pills and high when our sons were playing on the same baseball team when my son was very little. I knew she was a special person of God. Praying to God once again to give me a sign I accidentally hit my phone and it opens FB. She is doing a live and praying and healing ppl. I had been suffering migraines, battling my addiction, and she knew all of this. She prayed over me and instantly I tingle from head to toe. I haven't had a migraine since!! Ironic how God works. Christa, my harvest has came finally! Trying to find a church and NA group. Please lmk if you have suggestions. Love this!
@palladium6074 жыл бұрын
This is SUCH a remarkable story. Really and truly inspiring even for the skeptics out there 🙌 👏 🙏
@Tameeekababy3 жыл бұрын
This was so powerful, gave me so much hope and inspiration. God is soo good and faithful to his word, hallelujah!! 🙏🏽❤️🙌🏽💝💖💕
@heatherzloty71432 жыл бұрын
Thank you for giving a powerful and truthful testimony about the power and UNCONDITIONAL love Jesus has for those that call upon him in humility 😊❤️
@tobiasnielsen86934 жыл бұрын
I'm 23 years old, I wan't to kiss and hug you from hearing your story. I'm struggling with a poly drug addiction myself in Denmark. I hope the best for you.
@tobiasnielsen86934 жыл бұрын
3 weeks sober by the way
@Nat.Dialogue4 жыл бұрын
You are on the right path
@amandalawuo36383 жыл бұрын
Tobias I am going to advice u to pray ask Jesus into your heart find a church and a pastor who can help u practically and spiritually if indeed u are serious about getting help I know you can find a way I pray u get the support you need
@MortishaPoppins3 жыл бұрын
@@tobiasnielsen8693 I hope that you are still doing well
@victoriagraham64704 жыл бұрын
Hi, 9 years and 10 months sober from Gin Martini's, one day at a time. Believe in what you cannot see.
@periperi9664 жыл бұрын
Smile breathe and believe! Well done to you
@thisblackgirl5 жыл бұрын
God brought me here for a reason!..I woke up the other day and this was playing on my laptop. God bless you Christa, and THANK YOU for sharing your story. MAY GOD CONTINUE TO BLESS YOU WITH HIS RICHEST BLESSINGS. I'm also a Christian and into the beauty business and I have no resources at all to start a business ..but GOD!
@Lisa-vj6pz11 ай бұрын
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ sister God bless you God bless you and yours always..... I'm sorry anybody ever hurt you that way...... I'm sorry that anybody ever got hurt.... I am half Japanese and.... You almost seem like you would be a relative of mine..... Your story is amazing..... Your connection to God is so Divine and real..... Cuz you kept that heart connection to God he showed up for you...... God bless your mother God bless your family God bless everybody that you help..... Your story is one of the most unique stories yet very similar in a lot of ways you know..... I know so many struggling..... Trying to do..... Your story has restored my faith.... With some of these individuals that I have come into contact with even under my own family roof.... It clearly is being driven by the darkness for sure and you were able to convey that message and show the light..... You are truly a beautiful soul inside and out.... I am glad that God walks with you everyday.... I am glad that you have become an empowered human being..... Not trapped and confined by the darkness..... I'm going to save your story ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ you are incredible be blessed and anointed from God always... Thank you so much for sharing your story.....
@JB06176 жыл бұрын
What a testimony!!!!!... BEAUTIFUL!!!! GOD IS SOOOO GOOD!!!!!!
@codyjemison95584 жыл бұрын
Dude, listening to you speak about the Lord and the adoration in your voice is the best thing ever. 🙏🙏
@cynthiaheadrick6087 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing your beautiful soul with me!! Gives me so much hope for my daughter especially who is (as far as I know) homeless. Much love to you and keep sharing HIS message of redemption❤
@heatherzloty71432 жыл бұрын
And you will know that they are real Christian’s by their LOVE!!! Praise God for his work in the human heart!
@fernandapartridge51745 жыл бұрын
I’m not a believer as such, but what this lady has talked about is very powerful. Beautifully told, by a very strong and special person. Loved this. Very inspirational. ❤️
@amandalawuo36383 жыл бұрын
I pray for you
@mammabear40765 жыл бұрын
Christa... I sent your story to my sister, and my niece, trying to help save their lives, I had only watched 1/3 of your show at the moment when I sent your video to them. As I listened and watched, I realized it was for me. I needed to hear God. I needed the relationship I used to have when I was a child, in between the sexual abuse that I had experienced. I may not use drugs, but trust me ...I have my vices. I've forgiven every man that has sexually abused me ... I've sent letters to all of them & I forgave them. But everything still seem to be stalling in my life, my relationship with God... Thank you for speaking and saying what God wanted you to say ... I think you just saved my life, and my relationship with God. Hope Truth and Love was all I needed to hear and see... Thank you for speaking out & not hiding your life from the world. We needed you! God bless you and that you touch, do & Say.
@periperi9664 жыл бұрын
We need you:)
@kellyandersen38565 жыл бұрын
Your message has profoundly affected me. I am going back to church with my family to remind myself of some thing I may have been forgetting.
@ChristopArchi-ne9hn Жыл бұрын
I can't even put into words to describe how this woman, you if you see this comment, has made me feel by listening to your story so I won't even try. All I'm going to do is say THANK YOU ❤
@ChristaElisha Жыл бұрын
Praise the Lord! 😭🙌🏼❤️ Today I celebrated 12 years clean! And a few years ago I started my own KZbin channel if you ever want to watch more inspiring content ❤️
@matieurod752 Жыл бұрын
Thank you. With my heart I believe in you , this story is amazing , I Love you Miss Christa Shram! 💯❤️
@nvartidinyan84612 жыл бұрын
Incredible story, GOD is good!
@marinahuijsen11214 жыл бұрын
I am halfway in your story..it takes my breath away..unbelieveble..my tears are running already thanks so much for this honest story ...i need air to continu your story..
@marinahuijsen11214 жыл бұрын
I am on 3/4 now and still crying...
@Spartacus_Snakeplissken13 жыл бұрын
Crista, God bless u. God loves us. I love u. You're an angel.
@johnnypools69716 жыл бұрын
I have 1 day today. My addiction turns me into a liar, a thief, and all around hollow person trapped in a wide awake nightmare This is my fourth attempt at sobriety. Each time it gets worse. The losses Ive suffered are heartbreaking and almost to much to bear and if I think about them I feel like I will go insane. I'm scared and angry at myself. I feel like a failure because I can't get this. But I can't focus on that or else I will use again. My life always got better when I stayed sober and worked the program. I have to be careful because this disease is bigger than me and is based on lies which my addictive mind believes. To be honest I don't know how I made it this far without committing suicide. The evil is real. I can finally understand the addict who struggles to stay clean and keeps falling where I never could before. If I make it through life
@shyla.from.the.westcoast5 жыл бұрын
You’re doing great, any step in the right direction should be celebrated. Like is beautiful, I was addicted to pain meds at the very young age of 14 & attempted suicide. I managed to turn my life around. It gets better.
@CMoore85395 жыл бұрын
bmb6 Never Ever Give Up!♥️ I’ve got two years clean time after 30 years of addiction. If I can do this Anyone Can.
@BreeLocgoddess5 жыл бұрын
bmb6 how’s it going for u??
@johnnypools69715 жыл бұрын
@@BreeLocgoddess I'm still using. My life is so bad right now a multitude of problems that just get worse I hate doing this but when I tried to stop today I was so sick ,crawling out of my skin with anxiety and i have to work. Im going to have to go away I can't do this on my own. I just don't feel that my life will get better. Also tried tapering but once I start I have no ability to ration myself. It just takes over. I have no control over anything
@jeffbach73665 жыл бұрын
How are you doing, if you need to talk I'm a good listener, every day is an accomplishment.
@johnboy65945 жыл бұрын
You are filled with the light of God. I can feel your beautiful energy. God is Good. How do people not see this?
@eyesopen5088 Жыл бұрын
I love this story sooo much.. I am at work with my earbuds in trying not to cry…
@aimeebee30935 жыл бұрын
God , thank you for leading me here. I needed this so much, but you already know that ...
@johnturner13157 ай бұрын
I can see God in you Holy Spirit is with you, thank you so very much for sharing your life. God is good all the time.
@sharonrose62108 ай бұрын
2 months off alcohol a year off everything else! These testimonies are super encouraging!
@kimberlyjohnson305 жыл бұрын
Christa schram im so glad it was God's will for you to live now god is using you as an instrument as a vessel for his glory you are winning souls for god and thats the most beautiful thing you can do i love your testimony and i love you and although I've never been an addict you still give me hope and your an inspiration to the world may god continue to bless you and your family in jesus name amen 😘😘😘😘😘😘
@jasonmbritt3 жыл бұрын
Where's the LOVE button KZbin? Forget like. How could anybody POSSIBLY dislike this?
@summervonholten7643 Жыл бұрын
You are amazing and you empower people. The fact that you are so raw in laying out your life to the entire world is just such great powerful medicine to help heal people. Congrats on your salon and I loved your story. God bless!
@tracyjohnson3496 Жыл бұрын
Amazing! Thank you Jesus!🙏🏽❤
@kimmymichele123 жыл бұрын
Only GOD could have lead me to listen to your story.....exactly what i needed!!! Thank you LORD JESUS!!!!
@loredanarayney80206 жыл бұрын
Your story is so encouraging. I saved it on my playlist just so I can go back and listen to you, when I need to. Thank you so much for sharing. Xo
@conniemarlow9719 Жыл бұрын
❤❤❤❤❤ohhh my, how I enjoyed your story, and I am so proud of you!!!!! Much love from EAST TENNESSEE ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏❤️🙏❤️🙏🙏💗🙏💗💗💗💗💗💗🙏🙏🙏Many prayers for you and your family!!!❤❤❤❤❤
@Globelle Жыл бұрын
You are so right. Jesus is LIVING God and there is the enemy seeking to devour. Have just started watching but keep doing what your doing!!! God Bless You
@Laura325625 жыл бұрын
Went to bed last night and left my phone playing a KZbin video which had auto play feature. During the early morning hours I woke up turn8ng over and auto play was playing this video about Ben dying and the evil black things pushing him to kill himself and for her to do drugs...i am addicted to food, overeating and could relate to what she said. So today I watched the whole thing and this is an amazing, inspiring story. Thank you for sharing. God bless...
@VisibleMajority5 жыл бұрын
Transforming and beautiful. God bless you Christa ❤️
@TheMmorgan105 жыл бұрын
You guys are so brave to be able to face yourselves and your addictions. I'm so glad tto hear how well you are doing. Don't ever forget that you have to take sobriety one day at a time. I have been on a MAT program for 18 years . Chronic pain started my road to functional alcoholism and I quit drinking before my first grandson was born, but the pain and additional injuries took me into pain pills, which led me to .a Methadone Clinic where I still go to monthly today for my refills. I can't really afford it any more, but can't take the pain without it. Best of luck to each of you!
@tamarpeters46542 ай бұрын
Praise God 🙏🏽 it's so rare to get clean without an alternative drug and going cold turkey I hear is impossible but with faith in god all things are possible my sister my joy you are an inspiration to me and many others .god saves lives I'm up next he knows my❤ and if nobody told you I love you today I love you ❤️
@kaykaykay69693 ай бұрын
I loved loved💕💛💕 her story. God is good!!
@chrisjones37894 жыл бұрын
She is beautiful glad she's on the right path. Keep spreading positivity
@yungcris52114 жыл бұрын
Even if I don’t go to church I still found this story incredible. Teared up many times. It’s hard to be the thing everyone expects keep your head up guys.
@xetex25633 жыл бұрын
Hi 7 Years Sober now and enjoying it....
@stevewaterman12714 ай бұрын
Ma'am I don't know who you are or anything about you but I heard you for the first time last night and I'm listening to your testimony five times it is truly impacted me deeply life changing thank you thank you
@jcamacho.25636 жыл бұрын
Wow. I know im here for a reason. God bless you Christa Joy. Felt the spirit. Pray for me plz.
@davinastanton38656 жыл бұрын
j Camacho . I am praying for you. But you can do this. Read the other's ladies please. Always here if you need to chat. 💗
@jcamacho.25635 жыл бұрын
@@davinastanton3865 hello
@gabrielle2dream5595 жыл бұрын
Praying for you
@noahtrapasso8815 жыл бұрын
Prayed for you cuzzin
@cswafford19874 жыл бұрын
Yes Amen! I needed to hear this. (Confirmation) Thank you!💕
@meredithjohnson68576 жыл бұрын
Our story is so similar that I feel like I was sent to this page for a reason.
@davinastanton38656 жыл бұрын
Meredith Johnson You can do this. Please believe me when I say this. Two of my daughter's were Heroin Addicts. Four years clean now. Methadone has saved so many lives. I am now a Mental health nurse and drugs councillor. Always here if you need to chat. With love. 💗
@ziggybammurphy1915 жыл бұрын
Methadone is tried and true...and its stigmatized so badly...it works...period...people also shouldnt have to jump through hoops to get it...a family physician should be able to prescribe it and Suboxone also...its crazy that they can prescribe narcotics, but cant prescribe the stuff to get u clean...something is wrong there...
@tinydancer25445 жыл бұрын
@@davinastanton3865 Davina what are your thoughts on Suboxone. I'm getting started on medically assisted treatment with Suboxone but hear so many conflicting experiences about it.
@franki-annadegboyega70815 жыл бұрын
@@tinydancer2544 i know u didnt ask me but il tell you mine because i had heard so many conflicting info aswel. So they started me on it and it really does block the withdrawls also after a few days of it building up it acts as a blocker to so even if u tried to use it wudnt have the same effect because it sticks to ur receptors so there is no space for another drug. With methodone u get a drowsy not quite urself feeling that i didnt want with the soboxane tho u feel normal. What i did was try and be on it for as little as possible so as not to get withdrawls from it but if u do it right when u want to come of it lower it very little every 4 weeks or so that way ur body does not notice as time goes by. I used it for 8 months and for 6 of those months i was lowering it little by little with assistance from a doctor aswell. It really is worth a go it saved my life and from the moment i took it i wasnt sick and i wasnt drugging was such a good feeling not having to run about day to day doing all sorts. Also forget anybodys judgement this is ur life and if u need it to save urs or make the journey easier then no one else has the right to say anything, they are simply ignorant! Good luck il pray for u. You can do it :-)
@dublinsfaircity5 жыл бұрын
Beautiful and articulate lady. Deep words that hit home. Thanks. Love from Ireland.
@kimmymichele123 жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing your story Christa.....Beautiful....you gave me hope.....GOD IS GOOD!!! GOD BLESS YOU!!!!
@hicksa13 жыл бұрын
What an amazing person!
@MissVanSam5 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I love listening to it and can even relate to some of it. You are not alone I will be praying for you beautiful soul. Love from that small Dutch country Nederland💕🇱🇺
@loredanarayney80206 жыл бұрын
Beautiful!
@estherwaters22183 жыл бұрын
Thank you
@robertrigertjr.49434 жыл бұрын
Love the God connection in her testimony.#JESUS 100% REAL Blessings and prayers.
@AmyNCole-luv4God4 жыл бұрын
Amazing story! God is good. Such a beautiful message.
@mayare19194 жыл бұрын
Great story, deep bottoms and immense pain. Since this is on KZbin, I wish you shared how you picked up to begin with, and how you got to the needle all of a sudden. Also it sounds like you were giving God these ultimatums to save you as if He worked for you. Despite all that, He saved you!
@wallacefreedom765 жыл бұрын
Christa, thanks so much for sharing. Just got watching the whole thing. Thank you, I needed to hear your testimony today. Thank you for sharing.
@davidday936711 ай бұрын
Just like you Jesus revealed himself to me as a child but I turned away & spent probably 20 years off and on of my adult life abusing hard drugs but Jesus never gave up on me and now I have been sober for probably 8 years and I praise Jesus every day Amen ! 🙏
@low-keyrighteous95754 жыл бұрын
Gorgeous gal. Thank you for sharing your strength. It's beautiful to hear after your struggle you were still able to truly know your worth and value . Sometimes we can be thankful to God for being chicken, just as we should thank Him for this life and everything else. He gives us our strength to get through our darkness by being our amazing , guiding light . Always and forever God bless you sister . Stay strong ... Hallelujah
@periperi9664 жыл бұрын
Soooo good! We felt all of your story so thanks for sharing, very courageous. :) It's important I remember not to compare my life with others but know that my competition is between my lower nature of pain, fear and resentment vs my Higher Power that has no expectations other than to be familiar with my birth rite, one of divine loving, forgiveness/compassion and true happiness. We're not alone we are loved and we shouldn't be shy about that fact. Thanks
@JessRDH Жыл бұрын
Beautiful young woman, you are truly and inspiration. As a recovering addict, i have stumbled across your story. Wow just wow. God truly has and had you. Keep doing and jeep going strong
@emilduda38162 жыл бұрын
We believe in God here in Poland, but you in America are on next level.
@sirtoneyd31383 жыл бұрын
Beautiful stuff!
@robertrigertjr.49434 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for your inspiring edifying story. We truly all are bros.@ sisters and worthy of his love as his children.
@2uconner5 жыл бұрын
Addictions is everybody we all are addicted to something ...I hope and pray we can clear ourselves and I hope and pray we are prayed for thru the right ppl be strong and be loved through the friends that stand by you esp yourself and creator and higher power thank you for reading this pls pray for me
@MoustacheAlexander5 жыл бұрын
I don't believe word one about religion but I'm glad that you are alive and that your kids now have a chance of a good life.
@lisamendez74795 жыл бұрын
Mr. Dixon, she isn't talking about religion! She is speaking about the love of JESUS/GOD and a relationship with him that we all NEED!
@noahtrapasso8815 жыл бұрын
I’ll pray you see the truth about Jesus the one and only true God mr.Dixon
@amandalawuo36383 жыл бұрын
Yes I somehow get why u wouldn't God made us in such a way that we can not understand why the world is the way it is. We humans go on logic what we see hear feel go through that's why faith is so so unexplainable. But I do know that Jesus is real because my lifestyle speaks for it self my story alone is full of God I mean if not God than who would save me from myself. The doctors could not save me I was on a down hill spiral. All the determination self motivation could not save me. It was when God met me his power grace mixed with my determination motivation that's when change happened. I am a different person today because of Jesus. You have obviously been through certain things for u to say u don't believe I respect that I am just sad for u that's all. By the way Jesus and religion are not the same. Religion is outwards and self reliant but has no power behinde its more harsh eg when u make a mistake u beat ur self up over and over again no compassion for ur self or others Religion is fake as in it paints a picture of look at me Iam higher than u better ect Jesus is I need u God I am a sinner I am nothing but dust I need ur grace ( un merrited favour of God as a gift) everything I have and I am is because of u. I can't take credit because Iam in relationship with the creator of the universe. I suppose ppl with dark past like me find it easier to believe in God because we no if not for God we b dead in prison or in a mental health unit for life.
@traceyreece44156 жыл бұрын
Ur so brave and your story is educational to so many other's I really thank u for your story..I wish u the up most best in your life.your a true inspiration to so many..thank u for sharing it.xxx
@rhondarichardson7788 ай бұрын
I hear that. It is really helping me too! Thank you
@Polecat-qz5om5 жыл бұрын
♥️ this touched my heart so much. I have had a similar life and I am a hair stylist as well. God bless you.
@heatherzloty71432 жыл бұрын
Isn’t it really cool that her name is CHRIST A JOY??????
@theKaufmanTapes4 жыл бұрын
This was amazing! I’m so inspired. I don’t know where this video came from. Thank the Lord for small miracles.
@Theholyherbs5 жыл бұрын
Wow incredible story how could anyone unlike this! God bless you
@amandalawuo36383 жыл бұрын
U have a good heart huni that's christ in u working that lady will never forget you x
@93maverick4 жыл бұрын
Such a beautiful soul
@Laura-st6od4 жыл бұрын
Wow, we have had so much of similar life experiences..losing your brother, that's where I just prayed for you, I was sitting there on the toilet peeing, feeling sorry for myself, I have Covid-19 and I feel so weird, it's mild im at home quarantined..but i have had so much trauma.my kids dad bled to death from punching his girlfriend's window after i picked him up that day..some told me to pick him up..i felt it in my stomach, he had a problem with alcohol and cocaine, still trying to get at her that day, I made sure he and I spent time as friends/parents, it spiraled me into pain pill addiction as well, my sister drove herself off the road or passed out without her seatbelt on last July 30th 2019, my big sister, only sibling she was 38, I just turned 35 Aug 27th, I want to go to Cosmetology School, next month when I get a better car. I have BPD, im on suboxen, but i feel God wants me to get off of it bc its a crutch. It has saved my life and I look forward to having group with other addicts, I also have had 27 kidney stone surgeries. My Dad and my 14 yr old son are what also keeps me going. Ive bee. Strengthening my relationship with God, trying to just learn how to really live life finally. I was really good as I got pregnant at 19, had my son at 20, lost his Dad and the grief was so horrible I can relate so much to your story. We were raised in Catholic schools..my sisters 20 yr old son is withdrawn from the famjly alot but i want to get my son back and have a close relationship with my nephew bc my sister is not here I want to step and try to help him heal. Thank you for your testimony
@cliffkonkle34674 жыл бұрын
I just wanted to say I hope you heal and I LOVE YOU.
@potatotomato44464 жыл бұрын
THANK YOU!
@brandonjensen60134 жыл бұрын
I keep telling my wife that the devil wont let me go...every time i make progress in my life i get sucked back in!
@alqadeeb4 жыл бұрын
The devil will never let you go... This is why you pray to God to protect and safe you. Not easy partner but doable
@ComplexPtsdRecovery4 жыл бұрын
Brandon find someone who can teach you about the underlying trauma driving the addiction, understanding the neuroscience can help you
@jassiahpisapia17414 жыл бұрын
im on day two and feel like i cant make it thru this withdrawel
@chanelparker27274 жыл бұрын
I hope you stuck with it.. It gets SOO much better. And you ARE Soo much braver than you realize. Positive thoughts sent your way 😊
@kimmymichele123 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for sharing!!!!❤❤❤
@gerimarkham96064 жыл бұрын
Thank u crista for sharing.. sooo inspiring and beautiful xxx
@johngraham9085 Жыл бұрын
❤💙❤💙❤
@briesthoughts22615 жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing this.
@thewrongniggas61845 жыл бұрын
Wow she's beautiful
@Herzeleydt_Diesentrueb5 жыл бұрын
wrong Niggah - She is sure as beautiful as she is intelligent...
@cayemcneal75235 жыл бұрын
Sweetie dad ordered your steps for you to be able to share. Your creativity was given to you to bless others. You show others heavens, The kingdom,GOD...
@cayemcneal75235 жыл бұрын
Thank you thank you thank you
@johnnypools69715 жыл бұрын
As much as I want God's love it feels like every one gets to have it except me. Like he's fed up with me. This has to be the enemy talking to me, but even though I believe that I still feel this way
@mistylbell35485 жыл бұрын
bmb6 have you ever dug into the Bible and read it alone, for yourself? Gods word is powerful, pray and get in the word, you will feel him.
@rocrhyme41995 жыл бұрын
There is no enemy only anxiety making u question yourself. You have the strength inside you no make believe forces needed.
@amandalawuo36383 жыл бұрын
Actually the devil is real he accuses the believers that's his job. Do u belong to a physical church and have a pastor to help u through these issues u have. U need the help of a annionted pastor to help u. The dark spirits that u are fighting with u are no match for u get beaten u need power from Jesus u need a pastor to help u. A pastor who has time and has certain qualities of a pastor I send u some scriptures to help u The Bible specifically speaks about the qualifications for those who will lead a congregation of people. These qualifications have been the same for almost 2,000 years. Jesus is the perfect fulfillment of these qualifications as the “senior pastor” of the Church. Above Reproach (Titus 1:6, 7; 1 Tim 3:2) This is the overarching, summarizing characteristic. You will find similar (but not identical) lists in First Timothy and Titus. Living a life above reproach is the first requirement in both lists and Titus repeats it. The other items on the list explain what “above reproach” means. If we peruse the two lists, as well as First Peter, we find 17 qualifications of an elder who is above reproach. A pastor must be devoted to his wife; one-woman man (Titus 1:6; 1 Tim 3:2). The pastor’s marriage illustrates Christ’s love for His church-His bride (Eph. 5:22 ff.). A Pastor must love his wife exclusively with his mind, will and emotions and not just his body. A pastor’s children must be in submission, though not perfect (Titus 1:6; 1 Tim 3:4-5). If a man does not know how to manage his own family, he will not know how to take care of God’s church. The first flock for a pastor is his own family as Pastor Dad. A Pastor’s qualification for the church starts in his home management as he leads them up in the discipline and admonition of the Lord (Eph. 6:4). A pastor is a faithful steward (Titus 1:7). Here the term used is overseer (Greek episkopos). It is not another office, but a functional title of the elder. It is what he does. He is a steward, a manager of God’s resources and Jesus’ flock. He takes responsibility, but not ownership. A pastor must be humble - not arrogant (Titus 1:7). A pastor must constantly demonstrate the gospel by admitting when he is wrong and assuming responsibility and restoring relationships. A pastor must be gentle - not quick-tempered (Titus 1:7; 1 Tim 3:3). No man will be of any use in the kingdom that is quick-tempered. The difference between how Jesus demonstrated anger is that He was angry at the abuse of others in the name of religion and the dishonoring of God. We get angry at how it affects us. A pastor must be sober - not a drunkard (Titus 1:7; 1 Tim 3:3). This is not just overindulgence in alcohol but is idiomatic for any behavior that fuels addictive responses. A pastor must be peaceful - not violent (Titus 1:7; 1 Tim 3:3). A pastor is prone to inflict violence through his words. He is to be a peacemaker. A pastor must have financial integrity - not greedy for gain (Titus 1:7; 1 Tim 3:3; 1 Peter 5:3). A pastor is to be upright in his financial dealings and not accused of pursuing money over the kingdom of God. A pastor must be hospitable (Titus 1:8; 1 Tim 3:2). A pastor’s home is to be open for others to enjoy. A pastor’s home is not a heaven on earth, but rather a place of ministry. A pastor must be a lover of good (Titus 1:8). A pastor genuinely loves what is good. He does not just think he should love it. A pastor must be self-controlled (Titus 1:8; 1 Tim 3:2). Self-control is a characterization of every area of a pastor’s life: diet, time, mouth, exercise, relationships, sex, and money. A pastor must be upright (Titus 1:8). He has integrity in his relationships and in how he treats others. A pastor must be holy (Titus 1:8). His life is devoted wholeheartedly to Jesus externally and internally. A pastor must be able to teach (Titus 1:9; 1 Tim 3:2). All of the other qualifications are character qualities. This is the only ability-based requirement. He is to be able to teach sound doctrine, not just be able to communicate in an excellent manner. His teaching can be to one or two, to twenty, to a hundred or to a thousand. Most of the churches in Crete were house churches. The elders were to defend the faith once delivered to the saints against the numerous false teachers that arose. A pastor must be spiritually mature (1 Tim 3:6). Positions of authority without spiritual maturity lead to the trap of pride. When pride grows in a man, sin abounds. A pastor must be respectable (1 Tim 3:7). That does not mean that everyone must like him or even appreciate him. It means that there is no credible witness to an ongoing sinful behavior. A pastor must be an example to the flock (1 Peter 5:3). Elders are examples of biblical expressions sexually, time management, marriage, parenting, worship, relationships and any other way. A pastor should be someone your sons could pattern their life after and the kind of man your daughter should marry. Conclusion What would you do if an elder violates one of these requirements? 1 Timothy 5:19-20 warns us not to accuse an elder flippantly. Matthew 18:15-18 gives us the steps: 1) Go to the elder alone, 2) If still unsatisfied, go with another person, 3) If still unsatisfied, let the greater eldership know. If accusations are verified and the elder remains unrepentant, rebuking that elder before all is the next biblical step. I hope that this is helpful
@amandalawuo36383 жыл бұрын
@@rocrhyme4199 I know alot of ppl believe that but I suggest reading the bible and finding a pastor who has been annionted with the power of God to teach u about the devil. If u not a believer in Jesus Christ then feel free to ignore this comment
@debdavis89584 жыл бұрын
This is so inspirational The delivery is such a heartfelt message . Thank you for sharing. ~blessings~
@gkskforever69094 жыл бұрын
Amazing Testimony!
@birdcityoutreach51194 жыл бұрын
God is the only thing that satisfies that void...real shit
@jennymahar18065 жыл бұрын
Wow... I needed to hear this. Thank you!!
@jennymahar18065 жыл бұрын
I do hair, too..
@jennymahar18065 жыл бұрын
And 5 days clean
@furbabys19104 жыл бұрын
I understand where your coming from, friends like that are worse then enemies ,I’ve been there had soo many bad so call friends , I hope your ok now 🙂
@furbabys19104 жыл бұрын
I’m soo like you , I goes out with my lil girl and my lil dogs and talk to ppl , as a lot of ppl are lonely out there .
@travistrammell89985 жыл бұрын
Powerful words. This has changed me for the better. Thank you
@auntymoi10 ай бұрын
I am so happy for her. I'm truly glad she is clean and has such a positive message about God and Hope. I have to point this out , about the way she talks about God. If it was anything other than the Christian God, this girl would be considered delusional and psychotic...