agoraphobia continues to control my life

[@Sharonlee334]

Bless you. I was agoraphobic for a few years. You can overcome this, I promise. I was 21 when mine started, I'm now 52. I promise you it will get better! Hugs!

[@UniqueSoundProductions]

Sharon Wise If you don't mind me asking, what are some of the ways you got over yours? Thank you.

[@XOXO-mb2vh]

Midnightt64 Hi. I'm 43 and I had to realize I'm not what I think I am. Thoughtful people had to wake me up. Understanding people with lots of patience had to make me realize these hangups are just me. Thoughts are powerful. Feelings are even stronger. Love what you are. This is our normal. Best of luck😘

[@andreajennings3242]

Sharon Wise i was right around 17 when i had agoraphobia. It didn't go away until i had therapy. Having shizophrenia also makes my home a living hell.

[@cece3547]

Thnks for giving me hope

[@oliviamacpherson6884]

this is the most authentic video about this topic that I have seen

[@sohailahmad8221]

Olivia Macpherson [e-mail]

[@missdee4927]

School for me was hell because of my agoraphobia.

[@thenovice3736]

MissMulattofromFL same

[@squireca]

if people don't have it,they don't get it.

[@MsKiprusoff]

agreed, I have been trying to rebel against it and i was told I might have it, but cause I go outside sometimes my therapist thinks i dont have it. I deliver all my groceries and dont go out if i dont have to. I dont work, and i go out just to therapist, doctor and psychiatrist.

[@pinoyako888]

when you start panicking you just want to be home as soon as possible that's why i hate it when i'm far from my house i feel like my heart gonna explode

[@stanloonauglies9358]

Omg i have agoraphobia and it sucks so fucking much. I'm literally terrified of going outside because it gives me so much anxiety. I hate crowded places. I can never be myself when Im outside. AND NO ONE UNDERSTANDS

[@felixlab9951]

emiiee cx i understand iv had it for 1 year and im 52,lost job assets ,friends,family,i do understand you,as a man i feel like a loser,but must persevere we all must suicide is not a option,all the best to you

[@karlydunow8710]

I related to every single thing you said. I feel alone all the time and I’ve lost friends etc because of my anxiety, panic attacks and agoraphobia. Im sick of people tellin me to just ‘get over it’ or ‘stop making this shit up.’ You can’t make this shit up. Why would we choose to live like this? I wouldn’t wish it on anybody.

[@bplumb82]

It's the worst. Personally I feel like I'm always letting people down because I can't go anywhere. If my son wants to go to the movies or something, I have to make excuses. I can't work either. I wish I could. Thanks for making this video.

[@travistrice239]

I completely understand how you feel I am in the same situation and it feels like your are just stuck in one spot while everyone else is having fun.

[@gypsy7984]

Yes im the same way it feels like youre just dead inside

[@AisforAtheist]

glad i found your channel. im in the process of trying to recover (again) from agoraphobia and panic disorder. im still not able to work. i hope things have eased up a bit for you since april. this video made me cry cuz it's so similar to the things i write and say to myself every single day.

[@Blakerzahn]

I'm suffering so bad with this right now):

[@margaretglass9018]

I so feel u right now!

[@Neighbor818]

The drugs only make it worse, having an addiction ..and agoraphobia is the worse shit ever. I cant do shit without having my xanax or everything else with me. i almost didnt comment , sometimes i feel like no one else knows wtf im going through

[@das1054]

Yes I had an addiction and it only made me stuck

[@stublad]

I just wanted to echo other peoples sentiments here also in that you are definitely one of the only genuine Agoraphobia people I've found on KZbin. I've seen some other videos but they seem a bit clickbaity to me or kind of like not really about true Agoraphobia. But I just watched your video from a couple of years ago when you first explained your situation and it really resonated with me. I've suffered with Agoraphobia on and off for a couple of years now, with my most recent shit getting bad in December last year and I've not been out of the house the last two months. Just hearing how it affects someone else does make you feel less alone with it. You do feel really isolated because all you have are your family and internet friends (most of whom act like they get it, but they really don't unless they've experienced it themselves). It's kind of comforting to know there's others like us out there. The sucky thing is that we can't all meet up in person and be a support group to each other because of how we can't get about lol! The part that really struck a chord with me in your older video was about people thinking you don't want to go outside or that you're scared to. Then you said about that you'd love to travel. I'm exactly the same, I don't want to be stuck in a house 24/7. I'd love to travel the world and visit all kinds of different countries and places too. People just don't get it though. Anyway, I hope that you're having more ups than downs lately and that shit is all good. Thanks for sharing a part of your life with us!

[@stylinzon]

Stu Blad this is still one of the nicest comments ive ever gotten. thank you.

[@hilgahendrix7984]

Stu Blad is it just me or is it a modern world problem? If the world wasn't so weird and every one wasn't a drone lol I get around people and I can't relate that's pretty much it ,and I don't really feel like walking around my neighborhood because I don't care about seeing houses I wanna see nature YOU FEEL ME?

[@stublad]

It's all good :) Hope you're still figuring your way through it all and kicking its ass! Not checked your videos out lately but I'm gonna catch up now.

[@stublad]

I think the modern world problem thing has some truth in it for sure. If we were forced to be out doing stuff all the time to survive we probably wouldn't be dealing with this in the same way.

[@lulovely2016]

Agoraphobia is just the worst. I feel your pain x

[@barockhill]

Thank you for being so genuine and showing this publicly. It really just made me feel like I wasn't so alone all the sudden. And reading these comments had made me feel even better, is there a support group for this or something?

[@stylinzon]

i don't know if there's a support group for it but i would love to be in one or start one, perhaps? its good to know youre not the only person suffering, you don't feel so alone then :/

[@stylinzon]

and thank you! i'm glad you were able to feel a little bit of comfort here. if you need anything, contact me anytime.

[@rexforensic3530]

well medical treatment is kinda bs...I am having severe anxiety disorder too, it's all about your mindset. Talk to ppl like online if you don't feel comfortable talking in person

[@JuanOrtiz-bc8tq]

stylinzon are you still struggling with agoraphobia

[@ASMR-XI-ZUI]

Brienn Rockhill I struggle with this on a daily basis. my mum is so controlling and making my condition worse. she won't let me see my boyfreind.

[@jonathanwirtshafter2605]

I was diagnosed with anxiety disorders at 18 I am now 31 and suffer from anxiety and now that I'm older I have anxiety attacks and a shit tons of agoraphobia,I didn't even know there was a word for my phobia until a few years back. and I've doubt with the Vicks addiction about 3 years back and thankfully stopped. finally on medications and have a home care nurse who sees me twice a week. I'm still housebound and I've become really lazy. I even have a problem with eating at night verses during the day. my anxiety attacks have been happen more even at home, but I manage them just by letting them ware off naturally. advise wise.. if you feel you can't do something simply just don't do it,because your just gonna overwhelm yourself more. I honestly think you making a KZbin channel will help you in a lot of ways more then one to help cope with things. it makes me feel more of a relief just watching your video and knowing we are not alone. even though we don't know each other personally. . I feel a connection with you,I really appreciate you having the courage to standout and make this video,I know it wasn't easy publicly but it helps to express and get feedback from people who actually can relate. I think your really sweet and I'm here if you wanna talk anytime. thanks Jon. ps do you have a fb?

[@nicholasp1987]

jonathan wirtshafter I read your comment, I am in the exact same position. I don't know anyone else with the condition. I've been agoraphobic going on 5 years and suffered with anxiety and depression even longer. I can get out but I have a comfort zone. it is so sad that so many don't understand our condition and I sometimes feel so alone. it's also hard sometimes as a guy people expect you to suck it up and not let it get to you. I too have become extremely lazy, I just spend my time watching comedies and playing video games to try and take my mind off it. I also have a crazy sleep pattern and eat at random times. it is awful. I'm glad I have found people who can relate. it's so hard to make friends and keep them with this condition. Sorry for the long comment just want you to know I feel your pain man. :)

[@nicholasp1987]

jonathan wirtshafter lol just re read your comment, and realised I'm the same age as you! freaky lol. I was hoping by 31 I'd be a lot better.

[@justus6418]

jonathan wirtshafter I have had agoraphobia for over 20 years...I don't even have the energy to try anymore. I am simply existing at this point. I don't know anyone else who has it and not a lot of people understand. It is a horrible struggle.

[@tarayviarodriguez2337]

Sweet Pea I understand because I'm in the same boat. It's so hard when all you want to be is normal. I have lost my marriage, job, and friends because I suffer with this.

[@Yorkie111]

I'm agoraphobic now for about 4 years but I have anxiety since I was 13 I'm now 28. Does anyone else feel like people just have given up on them? My family used to be really good when I was younger, trying to help me, getting me therapy etc, Now I just exist. They have given up and in turn so have I. I just live a nocturnal life to avoid any people and occupy myself with gaming. I just dont have the energy to try anymore. I am on meds, that don't really help, been on the same ones for so many years. Scared to try other meds and stop these ones.

[@albertlevy8818]

I have had agoraphobia for longer than I'm willing to admit. I relate to every word you've said. I don't have the answer to this life debilitating disease but you are not alone.

[@beachraven]

anyone who dosnt understand angaraphobia should b thrown in a pit of cobras til they get it

[@mitzilily206]

I understand, I suffer from severe agoraphobia too. Since I was 13 that's when it started with the symptoms, I'm 23 now. Living life with agoraphobia is hard. Sometimes suicide seems like it's the only way out but we have to just keep holding on.

[@cece3547]

Iv been thinking to commit suicide

[@foreverkrr4507]

I have had sever anxiety for as long as I could remember. I stopped leaving my house at 18 till 23. Today I am 24 and what helped me was myself. Taking control of my mind again, anytime anxiety rises and I'm in an unfamiliar place I stop, look at objects and begin naming the objects around me such as "chair, door, lamp" simple objects that are familiar to me and begin to think "what am I afraid of? what do I think is going to happen?" most of the time the answer to that is nothing, nothing is going to happen, I am afraid of nothing at all. Which brings me back down and out of my panic. It takes time but you will get there! Hope you are doing better and hope you got the job!

[@skinstarrr]

I don't normally bother commenting on KZbin, but you totally got to me. Every single thing you said is exactly how I feel too. You think you get better, then there's suddenly a deep low. People think you're doing better, but you infact got worse. Every single step in life feels like the biggest challenge, and you feel like the weakest person in the world. You are so sick of it all and you feel completely lost and broken. Hearing for the first time you have agoraphobia is like a kick in the stomach. Never have I felt so trapped in my own mind. Try stay strong, we have to beat this shit eventually.

[@beniyoemma9480]

can feel u.. i've been 1.5 years live with panic attack and agoraphobia.. you are not alone... you can i can we can be free from those anxiety things!!

[@miltonsoto9809]

I want to hug you, i'm 15 and i have agoraphobia and it's hard for me going to school,and i want to see my friends, and my mom and sister dosen't even take this serious (maybe because be in my confort zone makes me "normal") and my other family dosen't know, and as you said people dosen't understand it I'm sorry that you and many people have this

[@karlydunow8710]

And like you, nobody understands it. They never will until it happens to them. I understand and feel your pain. It’s good to know we really aren’t alone even though we feel like we are 24/7

[@XOXO-mb2vh]

She's so sweet. She's come so far. I see she's so strong.

[@Mbeepyd]

It must be so horrible to be struggling so much and not have a helpful reaction from your loved ones. Luckily my parents aren't too bad, but it's still awful knowing they are frustrated

[@TheOnlyHonor]

Thank you for sharing this, I have been housebound to Agoraphobia since 2005, I have very rarely heard or seen anyone speaking about it.

[@cgreen5913]

how come if we had to swim a river to get to the other side to survive we would. if we had to escape a burning house we would. but as soon as we have to speak to someone or go around crowds we crumble, go weak at the knees. just completely shut down. good luck, rooting for you

[@moonbatt]

I act “normal” in front of people too. They think I’m fine and that is SO frustrating!!

[@yukimasahiko]

I was thinking I was afraid of the sky... Been like that for 3 1/2 years since my mom passed 3 years ago. My psychiatrist told me I was bi polar and need to volunteer at a soup kitchen. Yesterday, I saw a doctor and he immediately told me, Its agoraphobia. I started looking it up and it matches every symptom I experience. My psychiatrist, Told me he don't like to place labels on people. But I need a label, So I know what is wrong. I thought I was scared of the sky. I feel like a huge burden on my brother and sister in law... I live with them, And I always been sickly cause Migraines. Ever since I was 5... Never allowed to be out much. Cause passing out, But I still wasnt afraid. And loved everything about the outdoors. But since my moms passing. My legs turn to jelly and I fall. I cant walk from the parking spot to the entrance of a building. I will freak out and run back to the car. I been suicidal because of it. Sorry for the long post and ty for talking about ur experience.

[@randiiversen4542]

I have agoraphobia too. Everyday I cry and I wish I could be normal, and no one understands..... you should be really proud of yourself that you even have a job. Sometimes I can't even get out of my room.... things will get better ❤️

[@mariadecker375]

This video really touched me. My son and my father both have agoraphobia. Neither like to talk about it. My son is 18 and I want to help him and I dont know how. I appreciate you sharing. This helps me understand.

[@puppyprism]

This was painful to watch mostly because I'm so sad that other people deal with this too :-( I've been getting treatment for severe social anxiety and now I believe I am agoraphobic. My fear has gotten so strong that I don't leave the house.. and it sucks so much. No one understands at all since it's an invisible illness. I'm constantly under pressure from my parents bc they think I'm just being lazy.. but that's not it at all. I want nothing more than to get out and be normal but it's impossible. Anyway, I'm glad I finally have a name for what I'm dealing with and I'm not the only one in the world

[@Cristiantree25]

I had been through it too for about 3 years mostly house bound completely for months at a time ruined my life/ future but it was mostly caused by health problems etc and I have completely recovered from now for over 2 years almost but even after a year I still felt weird sometimes but please I would recommend not getting into it even more. I wish I had never done so. best advise is to just try and realize why you don't want to go outside. Is it seeing people, people judging you, etc but I would say maybe plan ahead and start at the best possible time might be at night or in the very early morning and just try for more and more every day and plan your route. I know it sounds stupid but will probably Help. hope this will help but I think the best way to overcome it is to one day be like "meh fuck it" and go out then again and so on but I hated relying on family etc and my depression/anxiety and suicidal thoughts only got worse when ignoring my problem. I wish you the best of luck :))

[@stylinzon]

i completely agree with you elliot. sylvie, i understand. my parents and people at school constantly thought i was faking it. i let the agoraphobia overcome me for years and i did nothing about it because i was too afraid to. 6 years being agoraphobic, and my parents finally had enough. maybe you should look into homebound psychiatrists that will come to your house, like mine did. if you've been getting treatment for your social anxiety, maybe see if they will help you with your anxiety/agoraphobia. i know getting help for mine really changed my life. i was finally put on proper medication and it took months on end, but eventually one morning i woke up and just said "meh fuck it" and i pushed myself outside and here i am nearly 2 years later and my life is still restricted, but i can at least go some places now and leave my house. now i know not everyone is going to have a 'meh fuck it day' and it took me so long to get to the point where i was fed up with it and becoming too depressed and suicidal over not going outside. and it's not the BEST feeling, knowing you have boundries and safe zones, but its a better feeling than knowing you can't go outside or in a car at all without panicking. if you ever need anything, i'm here for you, just a message away. you can get through this :)

[@puppyprism]

Eliott Jasper ***** thank you both so much! I actually just saw a psychiatrist after waiting 8 months for an appointment so now I'm finally trying medication again (so far the side effects suck but hopefully it'll start doing something good soon) but yeah! I'm taking very little baby steps and it's not exactly good enough for my parents but it's honestly all I can handle now, but to me, any progress is better than none :-) thanks again for the advice and encouragement

[@AlishaArlene]

*HUGS* I have had agoraphobia since I was 16, and I am now 29. I know EXACTLY how you feel. I, personally, am a Christian and Jesus has gotten me through SO much, but its still a struggle. Like you, I have my comfort zones. I completely understand how it really does affect every single aspect of your life. Other people who do not have agoraphobia do NOT understand. I can't (comfortably) travel more than 15-20 min. from my house, and I can only go places I am used to. There were several years when I couldn't leave my house without extreme panic, and even months where I couldn't leave my bedroom because it was so bad. I absolutely understand how it affects jobs! Its funny because you said exactly what I used to think- I don't want jobs like working as a cashier at the local grocery store for the rest of my life! I don't want to work at the local fast food restaurant just because it's only 2 minutes up the road! What did I do? I prayed for Jesus to help me, and for the past year and a half, I have had a wonderful job that I love as a Database Coordinator- and I work from home.

[@juliejealousy]

Thank you for talking about this.. I can barely find videos where people mention this disorder and what it's like to live with it. I have panic disorder with agoraphobia. I think it's something that got progressively worse as I got older. When I was younger, I was forced to be at school, and although I hated it, I managed. Now that I don't have many friends or go out I just got used to it. The lack of exposure to people and public places led to many unfortunate experiences in doctors offices and family gatherings, specifically by Christmas 2013. I am doing so much better now, but it's not gone. People in my family are understanding because mental illness is common but none of them struggle the way I do, at least with going out. I have cousins on the autism spectrum that get overwhelmed and beg to leave somewhere, but they don't end up having a panic attack if they have to stay out. I hope I can overcome all of this as I'm finishing up my bachelors of psychology online this year and am applying to graduate school to be a counselor. I do work at an elementary school and, though I've had a few panic attacks there, it only happens when too many people are in my classroom. Kids don't bother me, which is why I want to work with them. I noticed a lot of comments opening up in a rant style and I wanted to share... thank you so much for putting yourself out there and I hope you're doing better.

[@dymphnasainte6396]

I so understand I'm in tears.....right where u r I was doing ok but situations got me back 2 being a prisoner in my apartment...I don't have any friends & lately my family exception my mom.... is accusing me of things I didn't do.....I have 2 hit my myself 2 make myself breath it's no life...I wish I knew u I feel like I am u except unattractive( me not u) my blessings r sent + thank u 4 sharing u r a miracle in my eyes

[@ruthfleming5072]

I am very proud of you, having the same disorder myself, you are not alone. I actually feel soooooo alone because nobody understands. I hope things are better now.

[@summerbotosan4520]

I also just came home from New York City and it has made my life 10 x worse especially getting caught it traffic

[@Yikkkes23]

watching this freaks me out because this is literally me its horrifying to deal with and even worse when people dont understand its soooooo frustrating and it hurts when family or friends dont. keep strong =)

[@jeffgouldsmith5396]

Thanks for sharing this. So people who suffer with it know they are not alone. The good news is this cureable. I hope you are doing well.

[@MD-ih2jh]

Thank you! I feel like this right now too. It's so hard to explain the anxiety.

[@Southpaw128]

this sounds like a paralyzing anxiety disorder, I'm watching this video to try to understand it some more. This seems like something you have to confront with yourself. Every time you put yourself in a tough or uncomfortable situation see it as an opportunity for growth. I'm sending prayers your way

[@kamaropayne5226]

Your parents don't understand. Oh man, this is killing me to watch you in so much pain. It's been some time since you filmed this, I'm wondering if anything has improved. Please reach out. There are so many struggling like you. You can draw great comfort and strength from others who know what you're feeling. I am thinking of you, and praying for you. Try to give your healing over to the universe; it will put you in line with the right people, the right things, to facilitate your healing and getting stronger and happier. You will start seeing synchronicity; also known as 'coincidence', haha. Bless you sweet girl, you are in my thoughts and my prayers 🌸🙏🏻

[@felicityurselmann3318]

thankyou for posting this video, ive been agoraphobic for 24yrs, its really difficult.what has helped me is having himalayan salt lamps at home and taking magnesium.and anyone who has this there are lots of others out there and we can slowly improve-baby steps.

[@redruby6090]

You have no idea how brave you are for even putting up this video and be so vulnerable. I admire you! But I was really touched by your tears and words. I feel so very bad for you and wish you could just beat this and enjoy your life instead of having to deal with pain and anxiety every single day. Hope it gets better for you soon sweetheart.

[@mikemike9475]

hi, i feel all your pain. open space like blue sky with cloud just magnify my fear. I jogged everyday for 1 hour and it helps tremendously

[@lexiepickles9153]

Imagine feeling like this and having 3 kids to take care of 100% alone! My husband is deployed for a year I feel like I’m dying more and more every single day.

[@margaretglass9018]

I cried with u as u told us about ur struggle how brave u r! U give me hope ya know u make a difference love n light sister!

[@michelledesousa6605]

I know the feeling I am same as you. Lots hugs I cried seeing you video and seeing I am not alone.Its true society don’t understand what we go through

[@MelModica]

My heart goes out to you and everyone here dealing with anxiety, I’ve been dealing with this off and on for years, I have some how managed to work most of my life but I try to find jobs where I work alone mainly house and office cleaning, but I had a couple years where I couldn’t go to school and I couldn’t work! You definitely can get better, do you have any pets? My cats and dog help me a lot with anxiety, maybe you can get a therapy dog? I’ve read a lot of books on anxiety and I was pleasantly surprised because the books helped me a lot. I feel like I can’t breathe sometimes and I know it is scary, I envy people that don’t have anxiety they just have no idea how tough it is! We are strong people.I hope you feel better, don’t give up, I know it’s not easy but it definitely can get better. I am proud of you for getting a job and trying to get out of the house, it makes me sad to see young people going through this cause my anxiety started when I was a child and I am 38 and I had to push myself a lot! I know it sucks, only person I can talk to that understands is my sister.

[@AllThatRemains5]

thank you for sharing this. it's really made me realise that I actually do have agoraphobia because watching this was like looking in a mirror for me. I can't go out, I can't get a job, I have 0 friends. luckily my family is great, but they don't understand, no one I know understands. I stay inside all the time, which sucks because I literally have 24 hours a day 7 days a week to think about how shitty everything is inside my head. the loneliness is killing me. I had a gf for four years and and one month into that relationship my father died suddenly and everything was downhill from there save for the odd few nice memories, she never understood my depression and anxiety, she rarely made time for me either. she left me 2 years ago because I couldn't get a job which sent my depression and anxiety off the charts until I started making friends in my building, but they all turned out to be toxic. one of them assaulted me after a year of making fun of me and belittling me. since then I have not left my apartment due to my already existing social anxiety and due to the fact the person who assaulted me still lives in my building and taunts me everytime we cross paths when I'm forced to go get food. I go back home to my mother's once a month for my monthly psychiatrist appointments, but always brings me back after a couple of days because I "need to be on my own" and I "need to get off my lazy ass and get a job". it's so difficult living like this, in fear of the world beyond my door when what I want so badly is to live a normal life and have a family one day but I doubt that'll happen. I fear I'll just drink myself to death all alone like my father. it feels weird typing this comment cause I literally have no one to talk to about this and I'm nervous about posting it. but thank you for posting your videos, I feel just a little bit less alone now :)

[@davidrook699]

Serious thanks for the awesome, real, honest video. I feel way better knowing someone else out there has the exact same experiences. Incredible… I’ve said identical things as you, things I never hear anyone else say. Wish I could help you.

[@stephanieredondo3196]

I started getting anxiety attacks when I was 18. Then I hit 20. I got agoraphobia all due to my nice friend who would hang out with me at night, and when it was time to start working a job or going to school, 23 years old I still can not cope.

[@tarayviarodriguez2337]

I honestly thought I was the only suffering to this extinct. I wouldn't wish this on my worse enemy. I have lost so much because of this. When all you want is peace and to be happy yet you're a prisoner to your home and depressing thoughts.

[@timm2020]

I will be praying for you. Agoraphobia life is a rough life. With God you can overcome it. -God Bless!

[@eduardosolana6367]

I feel your pain. I live in New York City and have been suffering from anxiety and panic attracts for 6 years now which evolved into agoraphobia. I lost my job 6 months ago because of it. Running out of my savings and still haven't managed to get a job. I leave my apartment once or twice a week because I forced myself. The subway is my biggest fear. I feel for you and thanks for sharing your story

[@Shinisoup]

I'm so glad to have found an agoraphobic KZbinr. I'm a housebound, people never understand, they think they do but they don't. Like "Hey, long time no see wanna meet up?" "no I can't I have severe anxiety and agoraphobia I literally never leave my house" "haha yeah I know how that is, so when you wanna meet?" I've had that conversation with so many people, like no just because you didn't leave your house one time for a week doesn't mean you understand crippling anxiety! I know they don't mean to be ignorant but I'm so jealous of them for that, to not know what it's like, to live a normal life, in my eyes they have everything, so much freedom and potential whereas I'm wasting away, amounting to nothing, to never be remembered by anyone for anything. I fucking hate myself.

[@stylinzon]

oh man i understand that all too well... nobody understands when you're agoraphobic. they claim to know what anxiety is like but completely disregard any of your struggles. i had/have so many people in my life like that, and it's frustrating because they guilt me for not being able to go certain places with them. and same... i envy anyone who does not live with this illness and can live a happy, free life without these sorts of worries. and i know you probably don't want to hear this because i hated it when i was entirely homebound, but it gets better. just trust me. i've made progress, sure, but i still don't feel like it's good enough. i still hate myself. but there's going to come a day where you don't feel like this anymore. just keep pushing through. i know it's so so so difficult but i believe in you.

[@Shinisoup]

***** I'm so much better than I was a year ago and so much better than the year before that, the steps are really small and really slow but I'm getting somewhere, at least I go to doctors appointments now. Hopefully I can get to a dentist before all my teeth fall out D: Even if you feel sometimes like you're failing just know you're inspiration to me, a former housebound who drives and has a job? holy shit, I want that so much!

[@ursula.m8265]

I think more and more people are suffering from agoraphobia lately! I am 48 years old and I am suffering for 3 years now. With medications but it is not getting better.

[@nenesailo5355]

This is the most genuine vid ive seen on youtube! Thanks for sharing!! And you are beautiful. You kinda remind me of Winona rider 😊 I have agoraphobia.. panic attacks..anxiety disorder ..and all these eventually leads to depression at times. The hardest thing abt is when my friends dont understand it. But i believe thru prayers we’ll all get healed soon 🙏🏻

[@thehappymindproject6293]

Hey, I suffered from Agoraphobia for years and I'm so sorry to see that you're struggling with this xxxx

[@Wine_smoker]

I totally understand what your going threw.. i hope u got a positive future

[@vivalashona]

I am sorry about the fact you have it as well and I would love if you checked out my video all about how I deal with my agoraphobia over on my channel and leave any advice you have for dealing with it, or see what I do to cope! This type of video gave me the courage to upload it

[@Wine_smoker]

vivalashona sure will between people who live with agoraphobia we gotta watch eachothers back 😉

[@MrThemeMachine]

I really know how you feel. I am home bound, today I tried to go into town for an appointment, a 40 minute walk from my home, and I got to the traffic lights 4 minutes from my home. I had a severe panic attack. Crying, light headed, chest pains, hyperventilating and feeling like I'm going to be sick. That's when you realise people are looking and pointing at you... It makes it 100 times worse. I had to go home immediately, It is extremely frustrating. I feel so disappointed and angry at myself. It's like I can't function like a normal human being. People just think its easy to get up go and it's so severe for me. I'm about to start CBT therapy for it.

[@beachraven]

your not dumb and your beautiful

[@warwatch]

I know how u feel its horrible to have , the feeling of being somewhere u cant easily escape like being in a car or waiting in a waiting line its the feeling of being trapped and it could be anywhere I don't know the answer because I have it too I've suffered depression for a long time too

[@Julian1607]

Good luck and stay strong , In the deep winter here in Alaska I can understand how you feel its dark ,cold and its no wonder why bears just hibernate .only captive bears don't den up . You are normal , people are all different , some just keep better secrets .

[@vanessazoleta9489]

You are such an amazing person! Stay strong!

[@brittanycalhoun6892]

Being in the car longer then 5 minutes is too much for me. I feel like im suffocating. People dont understand

[@KevyneShandris]

Great video, as it shows agoraphobia as it is. I had a stroke last summer and then my sister died 6 month later due to cancer. It was too much stress at once and it what set my own cause of agoraphobia. Because I walk ataxic due to the stroke, I fear falling and that mainly kept me indoors. Became petrified of falling and not being able to get up on my own (like walking across a street [there's almost no sidewalks where I live]). Already had a femur fracture as a kid (that almost killed me literally) before, so know personally how painful bone breaks are, and how I walk around like I'm drunk as my sight is messed up after the stroke, it made me really consciousness of how I look in public, too. Agoraphobia doesn't happen overnight. It's things over time that build up one week or month at a time, and it can sneak up on people. Sometimes it's a simple fear, sometimes it's much complex, but it is hell when you do have it. Government; work; even medical services don't care if you do have this condition, they just make you feel even MORE conscious of the fear(s) and make it worse. To cure it depends on how severe the agoraphobia is. If it's mild treatment can be done outside the house with enough anxiety meds with CBT/Mindful psychotherapies; severe and/or with medical conditions, treatment starts at home to reintroduce a person to the world again. Agoraphobia didn't start in a day, and isn't cured in a day, either. The thing a lot of other folks don't know is: when you're in your comfort zone you're relatively fine. Not fearful and all -- and that's HOW and WHY people with it, and panic disorders, don't realize agoraphobia is happening. It starts by not going out one weekend. Then a week. Then two weeks. Then a month and it gradually becomes you not going out but maybe 1 time a month for food. Phone. Computer. Video games it's fine. *But NOT going out the door*. Going out the door for me I shake like a leaf, as that fear is worse than even starving. When you're already down to only going out 1 day a month for food ... when you get too scared even then ... yeah, it becomes a medical problem not just a psychological one.

[@maolaw8939]

Sister , you need to understand that everything is alright and there nothing threaten your life .. here the key : change the way you look at things , things change . Because fear runs life and to b honest with you there's nothing to fear , I've Been there and I know her well how it feels , thoughts aren't facts.

[@catherinehermansen4376]

Thank you for sharing. I suffer from it too, and doctors have let me down. I'm not even on meds right now. When I have meds I can function a little bit. I'm in Port Orange. If I can do anything to help, let me know. I'm sure I will be able to leave my house once I am properly medicated again. Florida has not been kind to me.

[@elizabelthe]

This was incredibly fascinating. I'm so sorry that you have to live with this. I hope you're doing better :)

[@ness2261]

you made cry. I feel your pain. Recently, due to life stressed and some more stuff, I have been struggling with it and lost my last job.

[@santaitwasntme7373]

I totally understand. I get so many panic attacks on a daily basis, just started last month. And now I suffer everyday from this. I have horrible blurry vision, I can't sleep at night, I'm very pale now, I can't breathe and I feel like I'm gonna pass out which scares me more because I keep over thinking about everything all the time. Problem with me is that it's all the time, not just when I go out it literally affects me when I'm at home, in my bed. It's a continuous thing. It's so hard to overcome it and I hate that I have to keep going to the doctors and keep trying different pills that don't end up working at all. I keep telling myself it's gonna be OK knowing it wont. I'm just trying to learn how to live with it. I totally feel your pain. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy it's one of yhe hardest things I've ever experienced

[@adamg1234]

Agoraphobia is so hard please keep trying. Keep your head and hopes high. Take it step at a time.its so tough

[@mrijeshshrestha4504]

You are courageous ! I have a mild case of it.

[@evijabuivydaite6499]

i am agoraphobic for 4 years, it went to the point that when I turn my head I get really dizzy ant its all because of 2 girls that used to bully me and I didn't want to go to school cause everyday they used to hurt my feelings.. :(

[@threadbearr8866]

I have a mild case of this. I pace for hours before I leave the house and I call off a lot of voluntary events (concerts and the like), but I make it to my work (5 minutes away) and school (30 minutes away -usually leave before traffic picks up and come home when traffic dies down). It used to be worse and it fed into my depression (I'm 28 and I lost the years 18 - 26 to depression/agoraphobia). I'm sorry this controls your life as much as it does. I feel like a dumb meat bag for the little bit mental illness affects me and I don't know what I'd do if I had it worse than I do. I hope you find a way to recovery or a useful way to cope. Mine was setting my alarm with Alarmy, locking up the alarm before bed every night, and putting the key and the barcode used to deactivate the alarm in my car. That way I have to wake up, get dressed, and go out in public to turn off my alarm. This was mainly to tackle my depression (I sleep for 14hrs at a time), but it helps with my minor case of agoraphobia just by exposure. Good luck! Life matters!

[@staciedigby2447]

I have agoraphobia too. Family and friends do not understand. I know how hard it is. You cannot describe the terror you feel to others. I've started to except this fact.

[@adamg1234]

keep swimming . agoraphobia sucksssss but thanks for putting it out there. it means a lot to people for you to have the courage to share your journey. you're stronger than you think

[@RuthCampbell123]

it was the anxietya attack pills which was a big factor in my agraphobia

[@brianchoi4188]

I'm 20 yrs. old, and I go through agoraphobia as well. But, I'm trying to overcome it. I hope you overcome yours as well. :]

[@DyingBreed1776]

You are such an attractive person so I am sure people have a harder time understanding what you go through and your parents are really fucking up not being there for you. I hope things are getting better.

[@soniczforever5470]

Hi, I understand, its hard to leave for many reason. Usually something caused the fear. I had trouble as I had undiagnosed health problem anemia, as a result I got dizzy outdoors and I got afraid. Just try and prevent what puts you off from scaring you. If you hate the bus take a different bus or the car or try and see if the reason you cant go out can be eliminated or managed. Feel better

[@CapnButtrflyBritches]

This hits home so much..

[@violet5114]

I have anxiety since I was 18, I have agoraphobia at 21, I'm 28 now. In 2013 my family planned a vacation. I was hesitant because of endless what ifs running around my head but I really want to get out of the house. I was so stressed for a week, I couldn't even eat because I kept thinking about this vacation. There were so many emotions. I was excited, scared and nervous. On our way to the airport, I kept listening to the song Be ok by Ingrid Michaelson. While waiting for our flight, panic attack hits me and I told my mom I wanna go home! But my parents just ignored me and I was really feeling terrible, like, I'm gonna die in the airport. I'm religious so I kept praying and it makes me feel a little better. When we got into the plane, I didn't feel anxious at all. I was enjoying the view, I was taking pictures of clouds, taking selfies and it felt like it was the bravest thing I've done in my life. I still have panic attacks and I'm still agoraphobia after that but it's not as terrible as before. I can go to the mall but I still have to fight with my brain and all the negativity. Sometimes, there's a day where I feel really shit and I tell my parents about it. It also helps when you talk about your feelings with someone. And I always tell myself maybe tomorrow's gonna be okay but if it's not, then another tomorrow. There will be lots of tomorrows so I'm sure one of those days, you'll feel brave enough to get out. Right now, I can leave the house but I need someone to go with me so I'm working on going out on my own. Take it slow. If panic attack strikes and your mind's telling you that you need to go home, go home and then try going out again the next day until you get comfortable. If you want someone to talk to, I'll email you. Also, whenever I go out, I chew some ginger because my stomach hurts and I feel like throwing up all the time the ginger stops me from throwing up and it relaxes me too. I don't personally know you but I understand what you're going through. I don't have any therapist, I know I can cure myself. It's a battle between me and my brain. You can also do that. You can overcome this just believe in yourself.

[@deb0815]

Hey, I also deal with agoraphobia and panic disorder, and I am also a larrie

[@Mr88karats]

I've been watching this movie and decided to look this up, but I will be praying for everybody going through this. God bless you all.

[@pinoyako888]

i'm trying to walk as far as i can but when i look back and thinking i got too far my heart beat start to race fast and that's when my mind start to think wild like i might die if i don't get home sooner

[@abriellemango2305]

Watching you is like watching myself. I love you!!!!

[@JonnyQ408]

I feel you, I recently started having anxiety, panic attacks for 2 months, mines actually at the mall out of no where, than a few days later I had my second attack so I went home early, and the next day my 3rd attack, so once again I went home, I took a month off just to get it together, so when I went back to work, I felt uneasy all I can think about was my attacks at work, so I went home, and a few weeks later I lost my job that I had for 8 years. Now I can't leave my house. It sucks but you're not alone, at least you can leave the house unlike me.

[@stylinzon]

i am so sorry all of that happened to you. i know it's difficult. i was unable to leave my house for almost 5 years, and it was extremely difficult to overcome. even now, i can't leave my house very far but you're right, i do feel very fortunate with the progress that i have made. it may seem horrible right now but i promise you, it can get better. just take some time to yourself, maybe consider homebound therapy like i did and get on some medication to help. without those two factors, i would've never been able to leave my house at all. i believe in you. if you ever need anything, just contact me anytime.

[@JonnyQ408]

+stylinzon I'd actually left the house 2 days ago, for the first time in 3 weeks ago I had zero symptoms of anxiety for 4 days straight, than it came back, but those 4 days I left my house without having any thoughts or fears, I rode my bicycle during the day, and at night for a few minutes it felt like the old me, as for two days ago I was nervous, but I knew I had to leave my house, and went on a car ride, I didn't drive, but I was anxious, dizzy, etc, but I didn't care, I just wanted to face my fears. Actually watching videos like yours has help me understand stand I'm not alone, but I hope one day each and everyone of us that has to deal with anxiety or any other illnesses finds a cure and be happy again.

[@ashleghscott7801]

You can do anything you put your mind to love Ashleigh😇😇😇🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@kristiansoto4135]

THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOU HELP ME NOT FEEL SO ALONE AND DIFFERENT. THE ONLY MED THAT HELPED ME WAS KLOOPIN AND MY NEW DR DOESNT WANT TO PERSCRIBE IT. WHAT OTHER MEDS HELP? AND AGAIN THANKS FOR SHARING YOURE SO BRAVE DOING THIS

[@TheCandidemusic]

I found this after finding out that the flaming lips guitarist Ronald Jones has agoraphobia and it was one of the reasons he doesn't make music anymore so this and that are like a layer cake of sadness, truly heart breaking.

[@monag7811]

you don't deserve this i love u I'm on your side. I'm going through something similar

[@prajwol.001]

I didn't know such a thing even existed.Hope ypu recover from this.have hope

[@moonbatt]

I also cannot drive far away. I can’t go on the freeway. I constantly get lost and then I panic even more. No one understands.

[@kamaropayne5226]

Dude that snot bubble was AMAZING 😄😄😄👍🏻👍🏻

[@KeshiaK39]

You're SO not alone 💕

[@anjelikahstevens9713]

I have to go to Maine at the end of this month and it’s an 8 hour drive from where I live... my agoraphobia is so bad, idk how I’m gonna do it

[@MamaSwede]

I'm more comfortable going north than south. South is Seattle and other bigger cities and I have grown up in the country. I've been dealing with this for a long time. 10 years ago I was able to drive myself anywhere... even by myself. Now I literally live in my bedroom. It has gotten a bit worse lately.. allergies have made me feel like I can't breathe which in return causes a panic attack which makes me feel like I can't breathe even more. I haven't worked for 7 years I would say. I can't go back to school which I so desperately want to. I got put on zoloft which has helped a little bit but I still have weird triggers. Like I'm currently sitting in the car waiting for my boyfriend to come back and it is hot out. The heat started to make me panic and feel like I couldn't breathe. If I eat till I feel a bit full instead of just eating till I'm not hungry I get a panic attack. I'm doing everything trying to get better and it's been really tough. Feel like it is an uphill battle that I just won't ever beat. I hope we both get better and start to feel more normal. If anyone has any questions I'm more than willing to answer or give some tips that has helped me a little bit.

[@noctisocculta4820]

Sorry to hear, it's pretty tough to deal with. Have you stocked up on antihistamines? Antacids, paracetamol, ibuprofen, and chewing gum are great too. The antacids can help with the chest pain and nausea because sometimes acid reflux and indigestion mimic or worsen symptoms. Chewing gum can be relaxing, as chewing relaxes the brain both with the association with food and stimulation of the jaw and teeth joints. The painkillers can just help some days, as they calm some emotional pain as well as physical pain. Hope you're feeling better.

[@MamaSwede]

Noctis Occulta Since its fall my allergies have gotten better just had issues with my body trying not to get a cold. I have been chewing gum more now though since I have been clenching my teeth when I get stressed so that helps and I take ibuprofen since I get headaches almost every day pretty much. Other weird triggers now are when I get full after eating I get panicky or when my melatonin and a otc sleep aide kicks in it does it as well. Think I should do yoga. My lavender oil has been helping a lot when I'm out and about though. Thank you so much for the advice means a lot ❤️

[@tamaratobin1195]

Yess!!!!!! The heat makes it worse and sitting in a car even im not driving i cant be in car only if i sit in the backseat i cant be in the front seat.. I have to taxi too work beacuse i cant be on the bus during rush hour no way i wouldn't even try it because it will be a mess.. I thought i was alone i this i thought i was crazy!!!