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AYOOO!! My name is Stephanie Buttermore and in a few words I am a fitness enthusiast but a scientist at heart!
Just obtained my Ph.D. in pathology and cell biology with a research focus on the molecular mechanisms that drive ovarian cancer progression. Hope you stick around! xoxo

[@StephanieButtermore]

Thank you for sticking with me during the most difficult part of this journey. I wouldn't be able to do it without you and wish you knew how much you mean to me. I love you so much. 🙏

[@-amosc.presley-7192]

@Stephanie Buttermore _Thanks, for your comment. It really had encouraged me a whole lot.

[@YasminA-jm9zs]

You said you’d stop working out every day but on IG you’ve been working out every day. Can you gives us an update on that?

[@marvilus]

You really are the sweetest. You just keep Loving you (and Jeff lol). Regardless.

[@pwnsensei]

Thank you for updating us with all this interesting information!

[@naomii494]

Stephanie Buttermore I love your lip piercing were do you buy yours from is there a website or a link you could get it from?

[@irishbosschick]

In 4 months, your body acceptance role modeling has done more for my eating disordered brain than 12 years of therapy.

[@jujuliana5023]

Mood

[@TheKakkalakka]

Wow good for you

[@montana6098]

same for me as well!

[@luisa9er]

irishbosschick that‘s such a wonderful thing to hear that you‘re on a good way! Keep fighting, trust me it‘s worth it

[@brittanyswansboro3741]

Same! Thank you for your bravery and honesty, Stephanie!

[@emilyboekhoff2376]

It’s so refreshing to see someone finally choose to make a change so they feel better instead of everyone always trying to lose weight.

[@wisemage0]

@Lady Wander and apparently she's stronger now, too. Really highlights the absurdity of prioritizing appearance over comfort and strength.

[@raddgreatrad1654]

She regret it by now lol

[@nettyspeaks]

Lose*

[@bimbowithadegree420]

Its good to see people showing that feeling better does not necessarily mean just weight loss. Being super lean as a woman, its just unsustainable. I wished an influencer had done what she's doing now back when i started my fitness journey, because all i got from trying to look super lean, was an eating disorder

[@paolapai]

@@bimbowithadegree420 then you just wanted to be skinny, not lean with muscles. I actually had to stop trying to build muscles because the huge amount of food I had to eat to mantain my muscles was unbearable.

[@melissapiontek3886]

I fee like Steph is paving a way for women back to truly healthy bodies and body image , profoundly impressed by this whole ordeal!

[@thebigo3752]

That doesn't mean go out and binge eat everything you see and gain 40 pounds that shit ain't healthy

[@bailey2624]

just eat right problem solved go carnivore

[@cuntpaggot9962]

no one is paving anything for anyone.. lol.. just another marketing thing... wait till a video about some new DIET PLAN comes out from her..... or how she's not happy because of internet.. lol.. whatever.... good luck have fun...

[@Nick-lc5hk]

gaining 50 lbs in 2 months is not healthy and neither is her current body.

[@katiehuynh03]

Nick Giandonato I’ve only watched a couple of her videos about this but this is not her end goal.

[@graciehorton5874]

I’ve struggled with an eating disorder for 12 years. I’ve been hospitalized on and off. Your past 4 months have helped me mentally and emotionally more than any therapist or hospital has.

[@Pingucado]

isn't that the exact same as the top comment, just worded differently?

[@graciehorton5874]

kaddaaaaaaaaaaaaa I don’t know, I was just sharing my opinion/experience.

[@lauraestes9304]

I was anorexic as a child. We do feel better when lean. There's a reason we want to be lean. So after trying it all I found the raw vegan lifestyle. I tried all the forms of this lifestyle as well. Check out the Medical Mediums channel. He's brilliant. My diet now has been mostly raw salads I mean huge salads ! I've done this for 20 years and I'm 53 and in the best shape of my life. Ficus on eating greens because when you are hungry you need minerals. Everyone is mineral deficient in this modern world. A carrot today has 40 times less mineral content than it had when your grandparents were born. So we keep feeling hungry because the food hasn't got any minerals. The way around this is to get a juicer and juice the veggies and eat a lot of them !!! As you repair the mineral deficiency your hunger goes away !!!! I dare anyone to try this and then tell me they regret it.

[@danalivingabroad]

For some reason, moms can be the most critical of their daughters bodies.

[@JulieAziza]

Dana Balsley perhaps it’s because most people tend to project their own insecurities and/or self-criticisms onto others.

[@morecakesmorelays3270]

Because they care about their daughters attracting a mate duh so they are right

[@fetterkater7484]

@@morecakesmorelays3270 no, they are not right. And parents usually don't criticise their sons like that and they should also look good to attract a mate, shouldn't they?

[@morecakesmorelays3270]

@@fetterkater7484 I wish my mom explained to me that I was fat and that I was eating too much as a child. Because dealing with hurt feelings is better than dealing with obesity. I lost alot of weight after many years and struggled alot. I believe sometimes parents should do what's best for their kids even if it's not "nice".

[@williambrown7437]

fetter Kater I completely disagree with this. I’ve always been fit and if I gain or lose any weight everyone in my family makes a comment about me getting too skinny or getting too fat. My mom and siblings never mentions my sisters weight. Families are all different but I promise you a lot of men are critiqued about their appearance as much as women are. The length of my hair, and facial hair and weight are always open for critique in my family.

[@YaBoIcHRi5]

Mom told me i was too fat Went to gym Mom told me i was to skinny I bulked up Mom told me i am too big. 😓😓😓 I am a guy and i support your journey and you are looking beautiful everytime! Jeff is a lucky man!

[@carnationcorsages]

PreTTyBoYcHRi5* too big ? No way

[@lucdemanmukenge6562]

@@carnationcorsages my mom says the same but l am skinny af lol, mothers and their way of seeing muscle lol

[@MygirlsGJPB]

Just say- thats nice, Mom and live your life.

[@megk317]

PreTTyBoYcHRi5* relatable

[@msammy21]

I can relate to this way too much haha

[@cjripley32]

This is honestly so different from what the rest of the culture is feeding us, the fact that she's literally doing this for her own health as opposed to eating to look a certain way. She's absolutely glowing, I'm stunned, this is so inspiring

[@CorinaHall]

I love how your face has filled out during the process. You really do look healthier and happier.

[@TeacherToolkitDemo]

The fuck planet are you women from 😂

[@MsJanetWood]

Yes, her face does look prettier.

[@msgirly6827]

@@TeacherToolkitDemo what type of planet are men like you from? What was so mind blowingly weird to you about what she said that you had to comment this?

[@TeacherToolkitDemo]

@@msgirly6827 jesus christ she even has bloodwork up at 7 minutes. Literally just saw this. Fucking hilarious. Unless you are using exogenous substances your hormones dont go fucking wild like this. I've known loads of "fitness competitors" go batshit crazy when they quit and this is why. The lies in the "fitness industry" literally disgust me.

[@fomalhauto]

@@TeacherToolkitDemo you come off like a real jerk

[@Katecchace]

I just want to say I was borderline anorexic before you started your journey and really close to hospitalization and now I’ve been following on your footsteps and going all in and I’ve gained 21 pounds and my body image is horrible but I know that it’s just a part of the process and you are my only role model who sheds light on the importance of going all in so Thankyou and please keep updating on your journey ♥️♥️♥️♥️

[@ObeyKhadija]

katie Castillo good for you girl keep going!!

[@eglemorkunaite3088]

Very proud of you ❤️❤️

[@Katecchace]

Thalia Rice wow I love that we can find a good community of people here on this platform and yea I completely get where you’re coming from 💛

[@Katecchace]

Eglė Morkūnaitė thankyou

[@Katecchace]

ObeyKhadija Thankyou so much 💛

[@mmonroe259]

Love that you actually mention and showed that you have stretch marks and spider veins, which so many women do as well! ...I feel like so many fitness gurus pretend their bodies are perfect and that gaining or losing weight and or muscle doesn’t affect their body! Thanks for keeping it real!

[@stamatinaspyratou7517]

I was anorexic and I was hospitalized for a month in summer but now I’m inspired by your journey and I went all in the last 3 months I’ve gained 10 pounds and I could say I’m close to finally liking my body image, thank you for all this

[@justperpetuallybothered3474]

Yay! That's wonderful, I hope you're still getting better!

[@jadez682]

Sending you love! Hope you're feeling better!

[@sarah29880]

💕💕💕👌🏻

[@imamirrorballxo]

💛💛

[@SarahScofield94941]

I hope you're feeling well 🙏🙏 lots of love 😇😊

[@surfergirl22330]

Also when I gained a bunch of weight my best friend told me “you’re beautiful because you’re beautiful, not because you’re skinny... let’s go buy new clothes- excuse for a shopping spree”

[@Ashaliyeva]

Bgkanz I love that! 💕

[@hursyed3130]

:”)

[@candidlyopinionated19]

I need a friend like that

[@cindygarcia7946]

What an amazing friend 😭💕

[@ashgonnaketchum9623]

Bgkanz that’s so sweet & true 🥺

[@nora02173]

I only get more and more convinced that you're an absolutely incredible person

[@sadieadler4383]

I've met her in person and she was so nice to me.

[@rosez4eva]

Women are treated similarly to men when it comes to training, exercising, dieting, etc. But women aren’t just smaller men, they have different needs. A lot of fitness KZbin channels don’t directly address this so I’m really glad you are.

[@are3287]

All the same training, excercising and dieting facts apply to both men and women.

[@hannahz2263]

@@are3287 they don't. just by looking at hormones and hormone cycles you should see that that statement is so not true

[@giedre8921]

Im not a follower, dont know you. But this is just amazing. Real body.. skinny, thick or curvy. As long as you arent hungry.

[@ploy5121]

Just dropped everything to watch this

[@jj.wahlberg]

Ploy Ottesen same

[@lena-aline]

sameee

[@BellaMichel]

Same :D

[@redgiantwhitedwarf]

Yuh

[@jenligi9495]

That clip of you being hurt from your mom's comment broke my friggen heart, I felt that! and for you to walk away and understand that she's not in the right state of mind showed how strong and mature you are. For the record, you were beautiful smaller and you are just as beautiful now ❤

[@serenaroseauthentics1391]

Maybe this means the female body isn’t designed to be abs lean.Perhaps our appetite drive dictates how much body fat we are supposed to hold(?)

[@noelleirina5628]

Appetite is extremely psychologically and emotionally conditioned. Women are designed to have a higher fat percentage than men, yes. But that doesn't mean women are meant to be soft and squishy by design. Then there's also different body types in terms of proportion and how lean your muscles are naturally (ectomorph, mesomorph, endomorph). Either way, claiming it's not natural for a woman's body to be lean is just ignorance.

[@nigerianhurr90]

Noelle Irina so is saying women aren’t meant to be soft or squishy you just contradicted yourself. Like you said we don’t all carry weight the same way.

[@summerrain11399]

That’s just not true. You can be all in and still weigh 120 pounds. It depends on your body type. Some women and also some men are not meant to be super lean and some can be lean and still eat as much as they want to.

[@serenaroseauthentics1391]

summerrain11399 yes I totally agree. Everyone has that one friend who can just eat & eat yet still remain skinny. Metabolism is a huge factor. I have an under active thyroid so if I went all in, I’d become very obese.

[@Meccarox]

The average woman carries less fat in their stomach than the average man so it's actually easier for women to have visible abs as long as they train them.

[@chelseyisner921]

You look so much happier. You’re absolutely glowing

[@stayhappylittlemermaid]

He who has health, has hope and he who has hope, has everything. ✨✨

[@ReeseCup45]

stayhappylittle mermaid your comment made me cry, you brought me back to earth. I didn’t know I needed to see this, thank you.

[@clareluo7447]

LAW OF SYLLOGISM

[@stayhappylittlemermaid]

@@ReeseCup45 that really god to hear💪take care

[@kristinishere1616]

i wouldn't call gaining 35lbs for no reason healthy. it's not like she had amenorrhea as an excuse, she just wanted to stuff herself with food after starving herself

[@jessicabenjamin9426]

@@kristinishere1616 you're disgusting for saying that. You clearly don't understand why she started this journey to begin with

[@annebaldwin9708]

Stephanie, I’m only 13 so I might not have all the wisdom and experience in the world as others older than me, but I’ve seen all the incredibly uplifting messages you’ve been getting and they are all exactly what you deserve! I may just be restating things people have said but I just couldn’t help it, you are such an inspiration and your personality is one that truly shines. Thank you so much for just being who you are and sharing that with us, keep going, you truly are unstoppable!!!

[@stani.k]

For your age , the way you speak is so mature and sweet! Keep being a kind individual ☺️☺️

[@StephanieButtermore]

Thank you so much! This was such a sweet comment and you sound so much older than 13!!!! I appreciate you so much 🙏♥️

[@marcelaljavo6016]

I'm recently 13, too 😊😊 what's up 👋🏻👋🏻

[@vliciouss]

You have more wisdom than you think ! 💕💕

[@an.gie.gie0811]

Anne Baldwin what you said is so mature and wise. You’re a great person :)

[@katiie7]

I wish all the men that didn’t understand this had menstrual cycles so they could grasp the hormone cycles each week and how much stress of any kind physical mental etc can affect it greatly and you suffer more. Men seem to have it easier especially with an abundance of testosterone to help put on muscle and maintain energy without relying on adrenal hormones if sex hormones go down

[@taunokekkonen5733]

We don't have it easier because we are at the receiving end of those physical and mental stress outcomes. Ever notice how gay men are always so happy?

[@Yazz_my]

Tauno Kekkonen that is such a selfish thing to say, the original comment is talking about actual hormones and how they affect our bodies and you’re over here bitching about being at the “receiving end”

[@MichaelPeterson-rx9jd]

Stop complaining. It makes us look weak. Just be grateful for the body that you have, women are amazing creatures, for having to deal with hormonal changes, menstruation, childbirth, postpartum depression, balancing career and family life, etc. and still be resilient. Now THAT'S what you call a healthy mentality. -a woman

[@taunokekkonen5733]

@@MichaelPeterson-rx9jd what Katie said does not make her or women look weak. You trying to stop her makes you look weak. I think the discussion got sidetracked from my commet..so let's rectify. What Stephanie is doing is exactly right and an amazing real role model for young (and older) women and is very needed in the Instagram-filtered world most live in now. What I was trying to say that even tho she is doing it for her own mental and physical health, she does not live in a vacuum and if the bf got originally involved because of the looks only, it'll show now. Also what I tried to say is that a normal body like her's now is more attractive to men than the 3% body fat shriveled look.

[@MichaelPeterson-rx9jd]

@@taunokekkonen5733 It does. Just look at the leftist movement... and feminism.. need I say more? Problem is, people complain and focus too much on things they can't change. That's not healthy. A healthy mentality would be accepting reality first, accepting your own body, self-love and self-care, knowing your assets and how you can use it effectively, knowing your own weaknesses and working on it...Whining about biology is utterly pathetic IMO.

[@WayneGoss]

You are a lovely beautiful person. You really are xx

[@allisonheaslet3806]

literally almost started crying when she was crying, I wish I could reach through the screen and give you the biggest hug. THANK YOU for documenting your journey- it means more than you know!

[@allisonheaslet3806]

Leroy Brown hell yes. Im a crier. I also pretty much cried during that Budweiser puppy and horse commercial

[@Hallowench]

Same.

[@florence6531]

Cried a little watching this. Honestly feels like you’re not alone when you realise how people go through so much behind the scenes when they’re not showing their happy go lucky side. I understand what it’s like to have people see you as this bright and cheerful person who lifts up spirits but you’re also doing it to help lift up your own. As well as this ‘all in’ journey you’re also sharing another vulnerable side to you showing you’re human and you face things that everyone faces and I completely respect that. I love your ‘all in’ videos but I also love to see a real person sharing real life. Thank you x

[@lemoncalippo1554]

Flo Kilb me too

[@sweetangiegirl1]

This is such a sweet, compassionate message. Very classy!

[@Nina-dp3gx]

Even when we know our mothers have mental health challenges; their words can affect us. You are so normal. Thanks for sharing 🙏🏻

[@carla5525]

This is such a necessary video for everyone that has body image struggles. So inspirational and brave. I can’t even put into words how thankful I am for you.

[@chloe-dr4rk]

Carla333 exactly. it’s easy to be like “look how much weight i lost wow what a glow up!!!” rather than “this isn’t what i would want to look like and it’s difficult to do, but gaining weight will help me mentally and physically”

[@dancearound009]

Never have I wanted to jump through the screen more than now and give someone the biggest hug!

[@mariealbers844]

Me too!!

[@summer-re7zu]

I feel you so much that the criticism from close family is the hardest..

[@nickylovespie]

it's hard because they're the ones who are supposed to love you unconditionally... but then you hear that criticism.

[@regan9855]

My mom tried to hug me today,but she stepped back as soon as she touched me saying 'ewww that's a skeleton'...

[@L._._]

I have a mentally ill mother too. Mine is bipolar 1 with schizophrenic tendencies. When she is having manic episodes she says nasty hurtful things...And she is unmedicated and refuses all help. It's so hard. I struggle sometimes accepting this is the mom I get...wanting more from her she will never have to give. I felt your pain when you were crying ♥️ anyone reading this who can relate..you're not alone.

[@annazhang2328]

Don't worry too much,my family is the same,I'm from a chinese family with chinese values regarding weight,my mom and dad always points out my weight gain and talk about it with rought words,it's just how they are,it hurts for sure,but remember,they still love us.Sis,I still hate that thought😂

[@user-zb9np9nz7j]

anzhkj :3 I am russian and my parents are the same😂 I think they love us even more than those parents who dont notice change in their children. They care about us, they just worry that we will eat more and become obese if we don’t start controling ourselves.

[@justmeee3130]

@@user-zb9np9nz7j if your parents don't support you no matter what size you are you maybe need to reconsider your opinions about what loving your child really is.

[@TeacherToolkitDemo]

Because your parents care about your health and will tell you if you are turning into a fat bastard. You should thank them for their honesty.

[@justmeee3130]

@@TeacherToolkitDemo but talking about it with 'rough' words as she said is not oke.. My parents motivate me to eat healthy and exercise but in a positive way and I am healthy. no rough words needed.

[@TeacherToolkitDemo]

@@justmeee3130 some people don't listen to nicely nice crap all the time do they. Chinese people especially do not mince their words when it comes to bodyweight. Go outside Shanghai and Beijing and people will literally point at you across the street to tell you how fat you are lol.

[@madeleineharrower6698]

I can’t tell you how much I appreciate you documenting your journey. I didn’t realise I needed this, but holy shit! You have done what most people are too scared to do. So Thx so much xx

[@danikamilesi6699]

at the beginning I thought you were like the "other fitness women" . But since you started your new journey All IN, I saw the real you. And the way you take care of your mother, damn it's so heartbreaking. I understand what you are going through.. and I can honestly say that I admire you. Send you a big hugh 😘

[@amandac57999]

I’ve gained about 50 pounds over the past year. While I still look in proportion, it’s REALLY hard to accept. I’m so proud of you for having the courage to put yourself out there like this. It’s so beautiful! Ps. I’ve also gotten A LOT sweatier.

[@gaiacaputi]

Same identical story here

[@paolapai]

That's an unhealthy amount of weight to gain in a year.

[@amandac57999]

cvndk123 Lol. That’s a bold assumption for not knowing what my starting weight was, ass hole.

[@sophiabargnesi454]

You are so strong, I am so proud of you!💕💕

[@italianplastick4031]

Same I've put on 20 kilos this year and damn it's hard to except

[@vophie]

the HEATHLIEST transformation i have EVER SEEEN I LOVE YOU

[@michellebalsillie4325]

I just wanted to hug you so bad when you were talking about your mom....

[@tdieterman2153]

Same

[@karenpainter5158]

Yup!!! Had a proper little cry with you there Stephanie

[@SheliaAHuggins]

I wanted to cry

[@borami22]

I honestly think you’re face looks so much more beautiful with fuller cheeks. You’re absolutely gorgeous the way you are right now. You’ve always been. But it something that’s makes you glow more these days. I love it. You are amazing!

[@suelng33]

When I started my fitness journey 4 years ago, you were one of the fitness women I loved following. Throughout these 4 years my life has had major ups and downs. I started feeling like most of the women that I followed were so lean and I was trying to get to that image. As a mother-of-four I had to go to extremes to get the look that I thought I wanted. The look that you had in most of your videos. I literally went to the gym 6 days a week, twice a day 4 hours a day, had absolutely no carbs, counted my calories and was basically feeling great, up until I realized my life evolved around my image and the gym. I started other hobbies and went to the gym less and less. Within 6 months of inconsistent gym regiment, but still eating fairly healthy I basically gained 10 lbs and lost all my lean look. I was feeling really discouraged and I stopped following you and all the fitness women that I wanted to look like. I just wanted to live my life in moderation and be happy with my body. Currently I'm not happy with my body or myself. And that has a lot to do with what's going on with my life, but I happen to stumble on this video and was really surprised that you have been going through so much this year. Not trying to be ignorant, but when you watch these KZbinrs with their positive attitude and picture perfect images all the time, I can't help but envy what seems like a perfect life. I'm so glad that you decided to be real and honest with yourself and your viewers. Your humanity is very encouraging and I hope the rest of your journey in life goes well for you and your loved ones this coming up year.

[@sammionne239]

Hey steph! I am a doctor in training and I want to thank you so so so much for putting yourself out there and being a role model for young girls around the world. YOUR JOURNEY is exactly what the world needs. I used to watch you frequently because I admired your pursuit of science through a PhD. But now? I watch every new video when it gets uploaded. Authentic, introspective, and full of personal experiences demonstrating the emotional highs and lows. Thank you. Let's put an end to disordered eating and help girls AND GUYS put health and life fulfilment first.

[@taylormiller2633]

So inspiring, I love Stephanie because she’s not like other youtubers, she doesn’t flaunt her life, she doesn’t brag about how prefect she is, she is a real person like us and that’s awesome, it’s nothing to be ashamed of.

[@03Ryen]

I can see that you've been terrified, depressed, and broken throughout this journey. I can also tell that the reason why you felt as much is because you are honest about your content. That is such a brave thing to do. You are not fearless, no. You had fears and yet you marched on. That is genuinely something most of us could not do. I cannot begin to imagine diving into psychological torture and bare it all at the same time. You are not the first to do "all in" but you bring light to it so others may follow. You are crazy as most great scientists are. When we get there, to the end of this trail, I pray that we find what we are looking for. The physiological and psychological peace that we need right now. Thank you, Stephanie.

[@jasonwismer2670]

Ladies, (and men out there) this is a beautiful person. Facing your fears and risking the emotions of failure and judgement takes a lot of courage. She did something for herself, regardless of other's criticism. I'm glad for her, and hope other people take that lesson not just in your weight, but as you pursue your goals and dreams in life.

[@octupy01]

because of your honesty and your quest for health and well-being, i actually take you a lot more seriously as a fitness trainer - six pack or not.

[@Megs125]

Quick let’s all fly to Florida and give this woman a hug!

[@urbancickaya]

yyeessss

[@nivesrosy]

Would be totally up for that🤗

[@bvresplendor3169]

Stupid

[@igorvengerovsky2897]

She uses self tanner in Florida?)))

[@lleah2839]

Sayeed Patel you’re stupid :)

[@liarotnerner]

Omg when she talked about her mother's reaction I actually cried with her.

[@avigailbc1]

ליאת רוטנר גם אני

[@lkiiig9245]

Lol grow the fuck up who cares

[@jartecus]

Kubixal what about you?

[@lindseywelsh]

Me too!

[@stefaneylenea]

Me too. That is my relationship with my toxic father.

[@phoebebritten8635]

I think also what a lot of people forget in today's society and especially the fitness industry is that woman biologically are not built for having similar muscle mass to men or having very low body fat percentages.

[@justperpetuallybothered3474]

Exactly! Don't get me wrong, weightlifting and clean eating can be wonderful, but a woman's body only grows so much muscle, and can only hold on to so little fat. We are not men, and if our fitness journey revolves around the goals prescribed by the male-centric fitness industry, our health will inevitably deteriorate.

[@noelleirina5628]

Women aren't built to have a huge fat percentage either. Look at female athletes. That's what female bodies are built to look like on a strict regimen. It's not unnatural. It's bullshit. Women are constantly conditioned to be soft and gentle and physically just weak. Strength is feminine. Muscle mass is feminine. Low fat percentage is feminine. It's just not comparable to what male bodies do.

[@noelleirina5628]

@@justperpetuallybothered3474 on the contrary, women are constantly told to be scared of growing muscles because that will make them bulky and not feminine. And I'm sure the health of women is deteriorating because of the "male centric" fitness industry and not because people have horrible diets and don't ever exercise.

[@lvimports4963]

eat healthy and exercise, woman in video is delusional and misguiding others , you dont have to starve in order to have fit body. Its not healthy midset to eather starv or overeat.

[@justperpetuallybothered3474]

@@noelleirina5628 you're missing the point. I made it abundantly fucking clear that weightlifting and clean eating is a "wonderful thing", if you can read. HOWEVER, women, due to our reproductive roles, have a higher healthy body fat range than do men, and unless we inject ourselves with male sex hormones we can NOT have the same amount of muscles as men. Muscles in general are just harder for women to build. If you had any reading comprehension skills you'd understand that many women make the mistake of thinking that they can be this ultra lean, ripped thing and maintain their health, but they can't. Our happy medium is not the same. We can still build some muscle and maintain a healthy range of fat, but our best can not compete with the likes of men, not long term, and not for our health.

[@kristinzimmerman3310]

I've been starving myself until I'm so hungry that I binge eat for such a long time that I don't even know when it started, or that it wasnt normal. The idea of eating whenever I'm hungry is literally self love in physical form and I'm so happy you shared your journey. I wish I could better explain how much your videos mean to me. I'm gunna go eat a bowl of cereal, so thank you.

[@amyvandrunenfitness9792]

So sorry that you’re experiencing any external negativity on your “all in” journey to health! I find you SO interesting and informative and I really look forward to your “all in” vlogs, thanks for sharing this journey!

[@alessiataverna7753]

My mom is also really mentally ill.. so I totally resonated with you when you expressed your sadness :( thank you for being so open

[@kristalanway8994]

My mom also has mental ilness and i understand completely how you feel. Its always a struggle.

[@alessiataverna7753]

@@kristalanway8994 sending lots of love your way💕

[@CW-ri1ug]

I felt your hurt when your mom commented on your body. My mom does it too, and I’ve endured worse from other people, but coming from her, it cut deep. I’ve never had an eating disorder, an am naturally lean. But her comment of me “starving myself” really hurt.

[@Edusm17]

I have been going "All in," for 28 years. I think I need to do the opposite of you and use self control...

[@loya.ls.4552]

What's the meaning of all in

[@Edusm17]

I just meant I have always eaten until I felt satiated, and my internal monitor has failed. I am losing weight now, and I have to be extremely strict to lose even a pound. Doctor stated that I need to lose at least 40 pounds for my back problem.

[@norajamieson7257]

The part when you were crying about your mom broke my heart. I went through this process a few years ago and the my dad would sometimes say things that would just hit me so hard. It hurts so badly when the people closest to you criticize you so harshly, but you have to remember just because you love them doesn't mean that their opinion is right. Stay strong, I love you so, so much 💕

[@amystubby]

I know. I have a somewhat similar dynamic with my mom and my therapist and I spend a ton of time breaking down how not to take her "editorials" on my appearance personally. It's tough.

[@lanadavis5820]

Thanks, I needed to hear this.

[@norajamieson7257]

@@lanadavis5820 I'm so happy that I could help ❤

[@allielink7947]

Studies on starvation and eating disorders show that it takes (typically) at least one year for the body to fully regulate and reach homeostasis once you begin the refeeding or "all in" process. :) keep going!

[@matthewmcnamara8159]

She's already obese, she's literally gonna be morbidly obese if she were to keep going. This makes no sense

[@missano3856]

@@cadencegriffin5416 I agree with him and I'm about as lean as can be continuously maintained.

[@cadencegriffin5416]

miss ano you think she’s obese? at approximately 145 pounds? that’s literally in the normal bmi range for a woman of her height

[@Hon56]

@@cadencegriffin5416 She have 40 % body fat it's obesity not normal for the body.

[@sleepymaddy7659]

@@Hon56 why the fuck can y'all not just shut up. You all have a private life. Try to do e v e r y t h i n g in your life perfect before you judge others. Is that so hard to just shut up?

[@Roel93]

My eyes started leaking fluids and I snottered a little when you were talking about how much you miss and need Jeff. That is so adorable and everything a man wants to hear 😭🥺

[@samantha.sanchez5403]

As a former dancer who has struggled to adapt to my new body, watching your journey has helped me feel less alone and more beautiful. Thank you for sharing :)

[@elysefuller7274]

Seeing Stephanie breakdown about being alone made me tear up. I’ve never related to something more.

[@lindseywelsh]

Agreed!!!!

[@amitche7286]

Your emotional response to the comments from your mother was so raw. I was crying with you and giving you a virtual hug. I love how honest and brave you are. Body image issues are hard for everyone but putting it all out there is such a transparent way of shining light on how prevalent it is. Watching you go all in has helped me be much more accepting of myself in my current state and also helps instill a mindset of health and happiness over weight and guilt. Much love and appreciation for your strength. Hugs from California.

[@tati2199]

Can I just say, without makeup your face looks so healthy, plump and hydrated... so gorgeous ♥️☺️

[@saultrealtorcarol]

Stephanie! My menstrual cycles have always been heavy and painful. I have finally found the cure - evening primrose oil. When it's a few days before my period I start taking one capsule a day, and literally I have only a 0.5 pain level on a 1-10 level. Just a slight twinge to let me know that it's there, but I literally feel nothing else. It's wonderful and I highly recommend it :) no more Advil!

[@riiiiin]

Damn this girl shot herself like she in a research experiment. That's a doctor for you *clap clap clap*. Thank you for documenting and for making such a sensitive and personal issue open so the rest of us can also take strides towards our health: mental and physical.

[@Egghead1199]

She kinda is one lol

[@pungiaan8885]

I don't even know how to say this: I was absolutely touched by this video. I've liked your content before and I've always loved your personality. But I feel like in this video, you were 100% you. You showed yourself in weak moments, which requires braveness. I just want to hug you right now and say thank you for letting us take part of this journey! You are so strong (physically of course but also mentally), and I am absolutely stunned by how you are growing as a person. (Also, thank you so much for helping me with my ED-battle. Some day, I'll go all in, too!) Thank you so so much! ❤

[@katievonderlippe3667]

Thank you for being such a positive influence. I am currently struggling with my own body image and seeing so many KZbinrs focusing on weight loss is so difficult to see. I don’t look like them. No matter how hard I try and no matter how much I workout, starve myself, or throw up I still feel like there is something wrong with the way I look. Seeing you go through this process is so uplifting and I honestly love you for sharing it with all of us❤️

[@jennamarylou1538]

possible unpopular opinion: pretty people look good at any healthy weight you’re gorgeous. you look beautiful no matter what number is on the scale

[@sofiatria5169]

I agree. I know that if I see Adriana Lima with +20 lbs, it definitely would not change my opinion that she is gorgeous.

[@are3287]

Agreed.

[@kiramiftari9486]

Nailed it

[@naturedoodles728]

@@leen4573 and personality

[@user-pw5do6tu7i]

Stephanie: "for months 3 and 4 I was not with jeff" my heart: * stops *0.2s later*: cuts to face time with jeff me: "STEPHANIE WHY DO YOU HAVE TO DO THAT TO ME"

[@JordanGray]

Lol right?! Same

[@vanessamullenix4482]

That hit home for me when you talked about your mom. My mom has been mentally ill my whole life too. The struggle is real

[@myaccount0307]

I hope it gets easier, don't let it hurt you

[@nallissecretgarden4478]

*hugs*

[@كوثررر]

i’m so happy you’ve braved the internet and have shared all of this with us. you’re just an incredible person. and i appreciate you being such an amazing role model. i wish i could give you a hug every time you feel alone or when your mother is struggling. i know exactly what thats like except in my case, it’s my sister. i love you so much steph 🧡 we will always be here for ya!

[@lolladove9569]

You're such an inspiration!! Especially for girls who are recovering from shows and eating disorders. Love you

[@applecinnamon]

I’m so glad you addressed the whole “clothes” thing Stephanie. I also donated all the clothes that were too small for me post recovery to get rid of triggers and kind of “turn the page” by doing a concrete action. You’re an inspiring, amazing, smart brave woman. You should be so proud of yourself ❤️

[@LilyRyab]

That is so important! I finally started to do that. Keeping clothes around after gaining weight has been so discouraging and depressing, i just decided to get rid of the clothes that are taking up space and buy some clothes that would actually fit me and flatter my current body. And you realize that you actually don't look so bad when you wear clothes that actually fit you🙌

[@Ashley-nt8gm]

Stephanie, your body is gorgeous okay. Don’t let your stupid body image voice inside of you. You gain weight in your life, then you loose it eventually; That’s just how life works. Your personality and how you are feeling is so much more important then keeping lean.

[@ellieirene4388]

Your healthy weight gain is actually very inspiring for my healthy weight loss

[@BriJo91]

I've been battling an eating disorder for over ten years. This video is very inspiring. Thank you for being public with this! 💜

[@shreyashivaprakash7852]

I honestly feel so bad that women are criticized for their weight gain way more than men are!! I've hated myself for looking a certain way for almost all my life!! But guess what someone ... when a celebrity like you is posting honest videos like these it's refreshing and boosts the confidence of so many young girls!! Like after I started watching your 'all in' videos... I've started to honour my body, love it for keeping me alive and healthy! Now i don't starve myself to sleep in order to look a certain way! I've also started viewing my workouts differently...I no longer work out to become thin or reach a target weight,I just do it cause I love my body and wish to keep it healthy❤️ just so you know... You are an inspiration to SOOOOOO many young girls like me and you're not alone in this journey.. We're all with you!!!

[@gerryjtierney]

Oh fuck off. Fat women, skinny women, curvy women, every damn shape of woman has a horde of men who love it. Men can only be one shape. You're not a victim.

[@naomii494]

💛🙌🏼

[@beepobeepo]

@@gerryjtierney well youre insecure aintcha

[@gerryjtierney]

@@beepobeepo No, the truth is not insecure

[@s.1469]

ive been on almost all extremes of eating disorders and diet trends. you are so relatable. i started crying. its not just the food, weight, aesthetics, and science. thank you for demonstrating your strength and self love!! i really needed to see this Stephanie. thank you.

[@moonchaf]

I recovered an eating disorder while you did theese videos and I also did all in. The weigh gain was depressing but after 5 months Im back to my old healthy weight. If it wasnt for you I dont know if I would have recovered. Thank you.

[@monicacovarrubias4566]

Uploading this video made me feel that I’m not alone when it comes to being hungry and being criticized by the people you love.. i learned that even the most amazing athletic people can go through this and watching this video you have won all my respect and you have the most amazing personality and you are beautiful in and out ! I can say I literally cried seeing you shed tears because I felt you hurting and I support you 100% and I’m so glad you keep being positive and that makes you more beautiful then ever !!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️ i can’t waiting to see more of this amazing journey!! & always remember your not Alone ! So much love for you 💕

[@pierinacallirgos434]

In moments of anxiety, sadness, loneliness and doubts remember there are people (me included) that admire your work and how strong and disciplined you are. Keep on going, love you!

[@Reeseskitty]

I learned the term “honor your hunger” from watching your channel and it is so important. Thank you so much for sharing your journey. You are changing more lives than just your own. Thank you so much!

[@emanabbasi476]

IF IM HONEST being a thick curvy girl myself. I am so depressed about body image, after watching this video im loving myself even more .i dont want to lose all this weight just to be uncomfortable later on .i want to be happy in my body. and feel comfortable eating and look good. im just gonna tone down my fat but not shred let me know if thats sounds right. you look better and healthy after gaining weight and going to the gym. and more happy about yourself.

[@Gabriela-uv1ef]

I'm so grateful that you're being vulnerable

[@otu_na_naani]

Took care of my mom for 15 years. She had alzheimers. It really took a toll on myself mentally and physically. I gained 50 pounds and ended up with HBP. She has since passed and I'm able to focus on myself. Lost 23 pounds and I feel alive and healthy. I wish you well💜

[@angelrain7618]

C S Thank you for taking care of your mom! Respect! That was a priceless gift...know it takes so much out of one...Good luck with your health.🤗

[@otu_na_naani]

@@angelrain7618 Thank you, I knew she could only get the best care from family. Even though I have 2 older sisters I took it on by myself. I don't regret it, I would do it again for her.

[@angelrain7618]

C S You're an Angel 😇 I Love My Mom like That Too...❤

[@IrishRainbolt]

Steph is just like gorgeous all the time wth..

[@angelamoon1648]

wow, the part about your mom really hit home to me. I've been emotional in the past and have had to work through deeper wounds from things my mom and family have said about weight and body image. Its so much harder to brush off when it comes from people you love and are supposed to support you. Anyway, thank you for sharing your journey!!

[@taatiguimaraes]

Throughout this week I have been watching all the videos of the All In playlist and I need to say that you’re helping me a lot. I have been going to the gym for about 1yr and a half and i always think about that “perfect” body, lean and ripped, but you made me change my mind. I truly admire you Stephanie

[@alexandrasive]

this made me cry for so many reasons - i went all in three and a half years ago myself and haven't gone back since. i got my period back, i've stopped being cold and exhausted every moment of the day, my hair stopped falling out, my breath has stopped smelling weird all the time, and more recently i've started to really enjoy and love the way i look too! the last part has taken so long, and it's still shakey, but going all in is so worth it, and i'm so grateful to you for making this video. you're helping so many people to feel less alone in the struggle. just so grateful

[@1985bjaycat]

Congratulations! That's wonderful to hear.

[@alexandrasive]

@@1985bjaycat thank you so much !

[@1985bjaycat]

@@alexandrasive 🌼🌺🌻🌹🌷

[@jadamccubbin4932]

@@solarydays that's obvious, but it's not always easy for people. you probably haven't been in their position based on your ignorance, so don't judge them. it's rude.

[@ShelbyLentz]

When you talked in the beginning about how well you took criticism from strangers throughout this process, it made my heart sink. I just still can’t believe that there are random people who have absolutely nothing better to do than criticize you. Your bravery and transparency are so beyond amazing. Thank you for this 🙏🏻♥️ your health is better than anyone’s ignorant opinions. You are amazing!

[@sadieadler4383]

She needs to stand up for herself and tell these strangers off.

[@ichik333]

I love your candor! This is what self acceptance and self love looks like. It's not about airy fairy crap, but putting in the work and allowing yourself to be patient enough to achieve stability. Thank you for being so open and inviting us into this journey with you!

[@KT-pw1cq]

I’ve always watch your body builder videos and never subscribed because I know that wasn’t my ideal body type. But now I subscribed because you have such a beautiful soul and all about body positivity

[@averyhudson4590]

Stephanie, you’re so transparent and real and it’s so refreshing to have someone like you in the KZbin community. You are so so brave to go against the norm and prioritize your health in a society that only seems to support weight loss. What you do is amazing, especially being a role model for other women who look up to you. Thank you for doing what you do and stay strong during this journey ❤️

[@lesliebb8400]

I usually get bored when I’ve been watching a new fitspo girl for a while, but never Stephanie. She’s the realest of them all and seems to genuinely love her KZbin family. As long as you put out videos I’ll watch em til the day I die!

[@camper_alix7433]

You have inspired us all Stephanie! We look up to you not only as a fitness queen! But as an amazing person🖤

[@philippa5101]

Your’e amazing being a carer. I’ve been a carer and it’s hard even when you love someone. Full respect.

[@provo3000]

I’m so proud of you. You’re such an amazing figure for young women to look up to. Thank you for sharing your story and being completely vulnerable. The world seriously needs more people like you.

[@semt9]

The part about your mom really hit me. My sister is also mentally ill and requires care from family members. Sometimes she says and does things that hurt us and it's so hard to separate when it's the person or the illness sometimes. Just sending love

[@Rachel_Collins]

This is so inspiring and important. I cry over my weight and how I view my body every single damn day, it's hard to learn to love yourself. Thank you Stephanie.

[@dickwong69]

I think you still look really pretty! I also think that you're incredibly brave for sharing all of these personal experiences! Thank you!

[@christinamyers5750]

Stephanie don’t worry about the haters!! They’re gonna hate no matter what you do! What’s important is YOUR health and happiness❤️❤️❤️ I support you all the way!!

[@Fridanm13]

You are so refreshing for the fitness community, i love how honest you are, It can be so stressful to live up to some fitness modelos.

[@sarasanti6266]

You’re so brave. I admire you! Your journey requires a lot of mental strength and guts! 👏🏽 bravo

[@charlotteproverbs9567]

This is so inspiring to me! I've struggled with body image all my life, but especially in the past 2 years. My weight has fluctuated and caused me to look like a different person every month. With so many people striving to be the leanest they can be its refreshing to see someone prioritise their health, and needless to say you still look amazing!