I Ate 5,000 Calories Every Day For A Month (Why I Did It & What Happened)

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[@StephanieButtermore]

I know this video was a long time coming, so I hope you enjoy it! I am still "all in" and I'm still eating roughly 5k calories a day. I will make sure to do periodic updates on my channel of how everything is going so you guys can stay in the loop! As I said in the video, this is a long term process so I hope you guys stick around and follow along. I have so much content planned for the next few months so make sure to stay tuned! I love you all so much and I can't say enough how much your support means to me...you guys are the reason I'm still going strong 💕🙏I also want to give a HUGE thank you to Kayla and Erik for coming on my channel to talk about their journey. They both make amazing content so make sure to check them out! I've linked their channels in the description box.👆Love you and I'll see you soon! 💋

[@Maydenne]

So incredibly proud of you. Happy to be watching right now.

[@SarahSpurling]

Cant wait for the settling point theory/fatness regulator hypothesis video!

[@claudiaglows]

Stephanie Buttermore we love you more than ever! You are setting an incredible example and I wish more fitness professionals would cut the bull and be honest about starving themselves! I was anorexic for 2 decades, so I knew how much it sucks to have a dysfunctional relationship with food and a fucked up body image. Keep going! You can do this, and we are cheering you on all the way! Do not be scared, it will all balance out.

[@EHarasty7]

Thank you so much for taking a scientific approach and for including the female-specific data as well! I’m an engineer so I love lots of info and reasoning! I’m proud of you and you are strong!

[@claudiaglows]

P.s. you are not just physically growing, which will settle down and your metabolism will adjust, but you are growing emotionally and spiritually! Thank you for sharing your journey with us❤️

[@lindatn4455]

“The more u control food, the more food will control you” so true.

[@kmarie8206]

Linda TN Exactly how I’ve started to feel now that I track macros and calories.

[@jimmyjump6395]

🤦‍♂️

[@user-fx4rz8yj8h]

Wow so so true!!

[@user-td7xf3gz4l]

What??

[@imamirrorballxo]

@@kmarie8206 I hope you make peace with food 💛

[@sqisy]

anyone else think her face and body look great now? like, sis your weight gain is just making you more beautiful!

[@sp500-steph7]

Peach lol I know 💯💯💯

[@jasonluke6364]

yes

[@Abi-un4uk]

I’ve been thinking that aswell! Her face looks so pretty

[@Mac-dt3iz]

I think saying "way better" is kinda mean but yea she looks great

[@EmilyGreys]

I know this is nice, but I am exactly like her and weighed the same and have put on the same as her. I don’t feel good about myself and people tell me I look better but it literally drives me insane when people say that because I hate it if that makes sense

[@ErikTheElectric]

It was an honor to be included in this video Stephanie! I know I speak for myself and so many others by saying how motivating and inspiring this was. Keep up the awesome work, it's so great to see you so happy!

[@MariekeNoortje8104]

You're doing amazing yourself Erik! I would love to see the entire interview Stephanie did with you, I'm sure it would be really helpful for many of us. Thanks for inspiring! x

[@StephanieButtermore]

I’m so happy to have you on my channel. I feel like you are a wealth of knowledge and can speak on so many topics. I would to have you on again 🙏

[@jacquelinegranados3166]

When i grow up i want a guy who supports me like that

[@anastasiainjakin1331]

Same

[@naasiakapri2498]

Jacqueline Granados rightttt so great how he treats her

[@nick9234]

He must be crying inside.

[@bbj4613]

Nick I’m sure they equally talk to each other about how they feel. I’d imagine seeing his long term girlfriend overcoming an eating disorder made him pretty happy :)

[@yonyokai4593]

@@nick9234 shut up

[@lucky41210grl]

“My body changed a lot but my butt looks great and thats what counts” BIG MOOD

[@a.p.m.r.980]

Memememe lol when I started eating carbs other than frickin sweet potatoes and half of a banana 🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️

[@billsmith8825]

That is some stupid s*** right there.

[@kingofnara]

@@billsmith8825 nice asses are never stupid

[@dogerboi]

@@cyberblock7619 Sucks to suck

[@aamandazittlau5505]

HAUL well the good news is that nobody asked you. Because nobody gives a fuck about your opinion. 😇

[@cookierocks1000]

"the more you try to control food, the more food controls you" such a good quote for all of us struggling with our relationship with food

[@LK-ly5ic]

Who else almost cried when she started tearing up about her swimsuit😭😭😭 you’re SO beautiful Steph 💜

[@Kelly_Explores]

I DID cry! 😭 I know the struggle and can relate so much. She's so strong for sharing this journey!

[@Thecatladybooknook_PennyD]

Yep cried. Im there

[@gachapotatocookie2309]

L K 😭

[@karenmaldonado778]

L K yup, me right here 😭

[@jenh3864]

I did tear up 😥

[@yomama7521]

as a girl who experiences a lot of bloating, seeing you show your stomach bloating on the internet makes me feel so much more confident and comfortable accepting my own 💕😭

[@MelB868]

She doesn’t look bloated I’m bigger than that normal

[@yomama7521]

Mel B I meant that after eating lots of food the stomach bloating is visible, im not referring to anything else

[@gabaselamin4145]

@@MelB868 she is at 0:13

[@imamirrorballxo]

Remember that you are gorgeous 💛

[@omao4938]

Mel B That’s just being either pregnant or fat.

[@5udhanva]

Jeff being a positive force in Steph's life is one of the most wholesome thing I've seen. Being physically and mentally healthy is so crucial. You're awesome. :D

[@ellepie2122]

Sudhanva Aghalayam I teared up seeing his support😭 he’s a blessing

[@lillabenak8802]

It is not your six pack that keeps us coming back, but your SMILE! Love you!

[@griseldahuerta2964]

Absolutely!!!

[@mlmf5530]

Lilla Benak agree

[@channahmcd]

THIS.

[@hayley123-n9d]

YES YES YES YES!!!! SO true! We love you for you Steph 💖

[@V334YY]

WELL SAID and so true ❤️❤️❤️

[@Serena-rq3qx]

The one piece crying scene was so honest, thank you for leaving that in.

[@user-ug8tl2zq1n]

Yes it was so relatable 😭 I love Stephanie even more now

[@luna_belle5029]

❤agreed

[@oliviamayers5219]

This is the only positive weight related video I’ve ever watched and not analysed myself after👍

[@cherrybomb4184]

I hear you!

[@angrycactus158]

Same thing here, that’s why I love Stephanie!

[@mylover599yes]

When Jeff said “I think your face looks really pretty too” I melted

[@claudiaglows]

Wambui G me too! So sweet ❤️

[@Xsarahm95X]

I'm in recovery from anorexia and this has really helped my mindset. Thank you thank you thank you! You are amazing x

[@nati7813]

I hope all goes well with recovery! you can do anything you put your mind to. stay strong! you are beautiful

[@petraklarianka]

Stay strong! Everything will be good❤️

[@theballistiks]

my friend is 187 cm 55kg

[@k.b.s4703]

@Ma Rie maybe because o she's incognito here and we dont know who her friend is specifically

[@Xsarahm95X]

@@nati7813 I appreciate that more than you know - thank you so much! You are so kind

[@elizabethnguyen17107]

Jeff is right. You definitely look more feminine and beautiful. I'm very interested in this concept and will continue following your journey. Much love to you Steph. ♡

[@HearMeLearn]

Nothing “more feminine” about just gaining more fat, but she still looks good, and if she’s happy and healthy then good for her

[@fomalhauto]

@@HearMeLearn actually there is women actually normally carry more fat than men I think that it's the soft body that makes woman look feminine

[@laurenbethmoore]

I’m diagnosed with and in treatment for anorexia nervosa and this is really lovely to see and so inspiring 💓 I never see positive videos about weight gain and it’s a really good change & I wish u the best !! 💞

[@sophiabargnesi454]

Lauren Moore you are so strong!! Keep going, you got this!!💕💕💕

[@laurenbethmoore]

Sophia Bargnesi thank you ❤️

[@robynsmith6974]

I can't imagine going through what you are going through. You are very brave and unbelievably strong❤️ you got this☺️

[@laurenbethmoore]

Robyn Smith thank you so much!! 💓

[@hayleerodriguez2711]

Lauren Moore I’m so proud of the work that you are putting into yourself! I hope you can reach a stage of recovery and feel vibrant and confident

[@xosummers5364]

Kind of cried when I saw Stephanie cry ‘cause it was just a flashback of my own eating disorder and how I felt when I would gain weight

[@emmagordon4764]

Xo Summers me too, I would feel so incredibly disgusted with myself. I feel like this Video has helped me in my recovery, which has been about 2 years long but I’m gradually getting better :), her enthusiasm about gaining weight and eating as much as she wants to has been really helpful to me! I hope you’re healthier and feeling better now :) xx

[@taira7007]

This comment made me feel even more motivated to stick to my doctors plan... If you don't mind, I would like to share my story with someone. I developed an eating disorder when I was entering HS (my profile picture is my last picture before I decided to lose weight and get fit -I was never overweight, just thought I wasn't pretty enough). After 3 months, I had lost over 20 kgs (no idea how much that is in pounds) and then one day I fainted while walking to my biology class. I thought I was just dehydrated, but I was hospitalized for months since my heartbeat was dangerously irregular and my weight extremely low. For the past 10 years I've been dealing with extreme hunger since I recovered from anorexia, but I won't allow myself to eat more than what I should even tho I am hungry ALL THE TIME. I am scared to gain weight, but maybe going All In will be the only thing that will make me free once and for all

[@claudiapad9432]

I also understand that. ❣️

[@danieladelafuente6839]

I’m sad about the comments about how she “still looks hot/fit/thin” this isn’t about looks, it’s about making peace with food, physical and mental health and letting go of the diet mentality and the idea of an ideal body.

[@rockoramadevil]

You right, but maybe that kind of comments are just another modality that people use to support her...nothing rude, just their opinion which is great

[@Haileyjane2004]

Very true!!!! I need to have a better relationship with food. I have issues with my weight, like in my head.

[@dianadinca8518]

Well, it actually is because the aesthetic part affects her when she feels down and a sincere compliment might be helpful when she is hard on herself. It's social media, you can say absolutely everything and remain anonymous but stopping for a kind message means you felt it.

[@mcmuinorac5848]

I agree with Diana. Steph says she doesn't like how she feels or looks.... but we're saying she don't have to worry about that. So Imma keep saying. Steph, you lookin' great! :)

[@danieladelafuente6839]

@@mcmuinorac5848 ah yes, you look great is different than 'you still look fit/thin' :)

[@dvnxcv]

That bathing suit clip broke my heart. Stephanie, you are going to be SO glad you did this. Thank you for sharing it with us. This is seriously the best thing ever and I'm so glad you feel happy.

[@marissaheartsmakeup1]

Danica Whiteman I agree with you!! She’s amazing!!! Thank you Stephanie!!!!

[@lorenaleeee]

I‘m not really „hungry“, it‘s more of a craving that can not be calmed. After every meal, before every meal and even during I just think about food, when I will be able to eat the next time etc. People say „trust your body“, „feed these cravings and then it‘ll be gone“, but it never did. That‘s why I don‘t trust my body, that‘s why I count my calories and that‘s why I developed Anorexia and Orthorexia.

[@LinhHoang-bv6rj]

The world is so hard, be soft on yourself, take your time to listen to your body, it's a long journey, it's okay.

[@Dana-ll2qo]

This is exactly the thing I’m going through for so long!! Also I think this trust issues with my body is why I keep being in this stupid eating disorder 🙄

[@mariahb1817]

wow I can relate w this so much & I’ve been anorexic for ab 8-9 months now? made me drop 70 lbs yet somehow I have more energy

[@lorenaleeee]

@@mariahb1817 I know what you mean.. It wasn't only increased energy for me, but also increased motivation to move. (Well it could be also described as a feeling of obligation) Once I started to eat more I just felt so tired and drained. So many negative aspects (which over time disappeared as my body just had to get used to the healthy amount of food) really tied me down on my eating disorder and scared me to go further in recovery.. But it is worth it and now I no longer look scary, but many compliment me for my toned and finally curvy body! You got this and I believe in you!!

[@mariahb1817]

@@lorenaleeee wow it’s scary how much I relate to that lmao & tysm! 🥺💕

[@rachelameliobaldwin1803]

The part in your one piece made me cry, Jeff was so sweet. He can't even see why you are insecure. You look so healthy now, I think that's way more important than being super lean and tiny!

[@musicforeverr1]

“The more you try and control food, the more food controls you” PREACH GIRL

[@emmak8688]

No it doesn't. You can count calories and eat healthy and not develop disordered eating. Steph obv has other issues and an eating disorder and can't control herself.

[@uvotmin]

@@emmak8688 and then food still controls you because you'll lose weight, it's still a valid statement

[@Chrxstina]

Eliz q Counting calories is unhealthy. It is so easy to obsess over numbers and develop an unhealthy eating mindset. Food is fuel not numbers.

[@emmak8688]

@@Chrxstina it's really not. Knowing how much energy you are consuming is not bad for you lmao. I get people who struggle with disordered eating may not like doing it but for normal people who are into fitness and weightlifting, it's a great tool. Just because you or others struggle with your eating habits and may abuse counting calories doesn't mean every fucking person does to. Fucking get a grip on yourself. I you seriously get all triggered or whatever by knowing how much food you are eating then you need help. fucking baby

[@shirosh809]

@@emmak8688 100% agree. I know some youtubers who build their bodies to be strong and healthy and normal looking(check out kayleigh noelle and her BF,franny arrieta,nikki blacketter,whitney simmons) they count calories/watch what they eat but don't have an ED. Stef totally has some kind of an ED. Not sure what kind-but she has one.

[@laineywilson2931]

I’m so glad you put in that clip of you with your one-piece. It made me tear up because of how familiar and relatable that feeling is. It was so raw and real. Thank you for sharing your journey with us on such a public forum. I have so much respect for you.

[@claudiaglows]

Lainey Wilson agreed! ❤️

[@casy6203]

Yep, I loved that too!!

[@evelyn-ks2gk]

i teared up a little too

[@NightshadeGoddess]

honestly relate to that clip so much

[@rynthorn1551]

Same. That feeling was real as fuck.

[@MissTrueChizz]

“The more you try to control food, the more it would control you” damn this one hit me

[@qecy3190]

I disagree tho. Depends on your mind set. Maybe its for those who struggle with extreme hunger. Ehhh i dunno

[@MissTrueChizz]

QeCy WineDoll I think what she means by that is that when you become obsessive over something you can become addicted to that control, so it intern controls you and your behaviour

[@manisingh1619]

Pooja kaur Kida

[@pr3cious193]

That only applies to people with eating disorders and she's a prime example of that cos she clearly has an eating disorder

[@kmarie8206]

Yeah I totally agree!

[@CathDaddy]

Seeing you cry about the swimsuit just broke my heart 🥺 Jeff loves you so much ❤️❤️ it’s about being healthy, none of that other stuff matters

[@HaBBaHR22]

omg same. i cried seeing her nose all rosy because you could tell she had cried. i got so sad, literally tears came to my eyes.

[@valerierodriguez1397]

Cath ❤️❤️

[@zynnk6362]

I cried too. Because it was so relatable. It feels great to be able to eat unrestricted but really when clothes dont fit or I didnt look as good, I'd cry. I'm rooting for Stephanie and maybe I'll damn those diets soon too.

[@bigbugs123]

Made my eyes fill with tears. I totally relate.

[@tluz7059]

I cried when you started crying about your bikini and Jeff was complimenting you cause I’ve been there before. Crazy how critical we are of our own bodies when others don’t see the flaws at all 😭

[@navyagupta8983]

Tania L me too

[@EmilyBagshaw]

aw I so agree with this

[@kittytantu123]

I cried too

[@malloryg4251]

Omg, I really felt that when she broke down. I'm so happy for her that she has Jeff in her life. I went through a similar process on my own and felt so worthless. It helps so much to have support from the people you love.

[@mhcmhco]

I fucking lost it

[@AS-mw3fi]

I’m anorexic so this idea of ‘all in’ is so inspiring and basically opens up my eyes to the fact that my weight doesn’t affect how beautiful I am and as long as I love myself I’ll be happy☺️☺️ Thank you!!!!!!

[@claudiaglows]

Anaïs Liette S thank you so much for sharing! I used to be anorexic fir 2 decades and I totally understand where you are coming from! People like Stefanie are setting a great example of things possible. Hang in there, recovery is completely possible!!! I wish you the best of luck ❤️

[@lovisaandersson8298]

yeah same here, its very eyeopening for other opportunities!

[@claudiaglows]

Lovisa Andersson Urs! Life is way to short to starve it away! It took me 2 decades to realize that , but I am just glad I finally did. I wish you the vet best of luck

[@micahpraveen2621]

Anaïs Liette S I am too, but hunger doesn’t bother me, and I don’t have any cravings so I probably wouldn’t do this 😅😅

[@EMunaBee]

Have you seen Alice Olivia on KZbin? She went through it. Her channel - she - is so sweet and insightful.

Wow, I just can't emphasize it enough, THIS is quality content. I love your scientific approach on all your videos but I also deeply appreciate that you let us see you in a very vulnerable place. I went through this same situation from 2012 to 2016 and it was so rough. But the thing that was most difficult is that I felt like I was the only person in the world going through it. I was very involved in fitness and I feel like the knowledge damned me and saved me at the same time. I couldn't make any food choices in peace because I knew too much, but I also was aware that I was in a bad place and that things needed to change. I also didn't know that there was help for this or even a name because I've never heard anyone talking about it while I was on my healing process. I deeply appreciate you posting this because even after many years in recovery I sometimes judge myself. Thank you. Big hug and my most sincere support on your journey.

[@Caki996]

"Loving your body only when it's in perfect shape is like loving your kids only when they're well-behaved." Who you are is enough, no matter what anyone else says! Love you so much, thank you for everything you're doing. ❤

[@raya74]

Well said💚

[@1ARGS2020]

You look absolutely amazing. This is by far THEE most motivating and inspirational thing I have ever seen. You are changing the “health and fitness” game. Thank you. Just thank you.

[@loveistheessence]

AMEN!

[@jennygranqvist1797]

Every girl should have a guy like Jeff! He is so supportive, kind and so handsome Love you to together!

[@chulcat]

Jenny Granqvist for real 😫😫😫❤️

[@annikakleiber7139]

When he said u still look so hot i fucking cried like marry him 😭

[@baby-kk9pj]

we all need a libra

[@milenakanschus533]

And I totally agree with him.. Your shape is so beautiful and yeah feminin.. You're awesome ♡

[@deerheart87]

Until he runs off and cheats ...

[@markmartin8211]

I am a male who has dealt with an eating disorder for the past 14 years of my life and I find this video very inspirational. So, thanks for making this video and passing it along.

[@mylittlelist]

Wishing you strength and best wishes Mark

[@mylittlelist]

How are you getting on lovely Mark?x

[@markmartin8211]

@@mylittlelist Recovery is going well. Thanks for asking. ☺

[@mylittlelist]

@@markmartin8211 so pleased to hear that :) all the best onward..you got this!

[@markmartin8211]

@@mylittlelist Thank you very much! I had a major relapse two years ago, but I fought back without any extra help. Today, I am my strongest that I have ever been in my whole life. The things I am able to do with what feels like no effort is astonishing and so much more rewarding than restricting and losing weight. It's abnormal being on the other side, where I am no longer the lightest person in the room anymore, but it's also very liberating. :)

[@kymburs]

Got teary-eyed hearing Jeff’s kind and loving words. Just want to thank and recognize his role in your All-in journey.

[@nowwhat1434]

Yeah I’m so happy for her. She was worried about her audience leaving when she gained weight. I would have been more worried about my boyfriend leaving lol

[@alicewatts]

Awww Jeff is soo sweet. Love how much he supports you 😭❤️❤️❤️

[@svetatikhonova8718]

When your boyfriend was saying how good you still looked I genuinely started crying like wow u guys are the sweetest

[@MelB868]

Oh please she is still super skinny

[@bergercookie]

Fairly Cool omg I totally felt that too !!!! He’s so supportive and loving to her as a man should be. I’m in love with them together it warms my heart ❤️

[@nick9234]

Yea pretty sure he was crying inside too.

[@H.K.5]

@@MelB868 Because of genetics. Not all women are naturally curvy.

[@adk5997]

Nick maybe that why you are alone.. girlfriends cry inside listening to you, maybe seeing you too..😬😂

[@renrenn9288]

You look younger when u gained weight ngl

[@r.e.a.d.6727]

Healthier

[@luckyduckimona9787]

9GS ink Yes, fat fills the wrinkles.

[@JAnx01]

Short term.

[@lisgoldqn]

@@JAnx01 fuck off mate

[@karthikrox6310]

@@JAnx01 not really dude, she gained weight but she's not fat. She's at the healthy range now, she used to be too skinny before.

[@sapphohxrself]

As someone in the thick of an eating disorder, I respect the hell out of you for doing this. I dunno if I ever could reconcile positive bodily change with my dysmorphia

[@aivilopana1735]

Stay strong! You deserve healing and love. If recovery is hard, that means it's working. Don't be hard on yourself, and listen to your body. It's okay

[@kayes.6418]

I even thought what you're thinking. The day you finally let go is the most freeing thing you'll experience.

[@x.miisty]

I’m struggling in the same way

[@aivilopana1735]

@@x.miisty someday, you will look back and be so happy about how strong you have been. Let's recover together! I know you can do it

[@valeriaa2928]

“The more you try to control food, the more it controls you”, she couldn’t have said it better. I think that is just exactly how a lot of people feel, thank you Stephanie for sharing this journey with us; you are a total inspiration.

[@TiffanyGjerek]

“A back pack doesn’t judge you when you get fat. A fanny pack let’s you know” loool Steph 🤣🤣

[@B0n1_b0n1]

1.7k likes, no comments?

[@scottlewis5521]

crazy. I'm the opposite. when I overeat (even if it's healthy food, but definitely moreso with bad food) I just want to pass out and i'm lethargic and unmotivated the rest of the day. The most energy and the best I've felt physically was when I was eating at a pretty large deficit.

[@oanamardare27]

This is also my case. I feel better when I am in a calorie deficit. But everybody is different.

[@koldbrevv]

That's my case as well... even though I'm only a month in my weight loss process, I've noticed a huge difference in my mood when I'm on a calorie deficit.

[@KathwithaK]

Maybe it depends on whether you are underweight or overweight/what side you tend towards.

[@fp2551]

That might be because you are currently sitting above your body's happy setpoint? Your body knows what weight it's happiest at and it will normally drive you to get there, whether that is losing or gaining weight. Just a thought 😊

[@martinadebendetto3950]

I guess it also depends on the kind of food you eat, she mentioned she was eating whole foods, and, at least in my experience, if I overeat it's because of fast foods or at least tasty, processed things

[@kakoberg8565]

You are soooo brave for doing this. Gaining weight is not easy for a women. But you look so beautiful and healthy. You are glowing girl!!!

[@gingerbread7107]

Well its easy for me

[@mmmmalv5157]

ginger bread it’s easy for me as well haha

[@GabijaS18]

ginger bread I think they meant it’s not easy mentally haha

[@aymaravilca1442]

You look so much happier and healthier! It's amazing to see you like this, keep going girl! You're really inspiring ❤

[@BBMJ247]

Girl I know it’s so hard to feel great about yourself when ‘gaining’ weight but YOU LOOK so alive and radiant with this weight gain! You seem so happy and it radiates through the screen!! Sending good vibes your way xx

[@WayneGoss]

This video is everything! everything! xx

[@potago9468]

wow Wayne here

[@moa3821]

most anticipated vid in history. in all seriousness its the best youve looked. socially media puts pressure on women involved in fitness to have low bodyfat% which is unsustainable, dangerous for most

[@crenshawshank]

I never thought I could feel so personally proud of someone I've never met. Just wow.

[@diyfitness985]

Agreed😀💚💚

[@kecrn4132]

Agreed! She is amazing!

[@ryanp5826]

Proud of what?

[@TripDadLife]

@@ryanp5826 I'm not sure either. Bravery? Something super first world problem-y.

[@rslongshot7453]

@@ryanp5826 New generation moment

[@sarahcramberry6185]

Felt happy when I saw the notification. I clicked right away.

[@StephanieButtermore]

yay!!

[@isabelladiaz6628]

some one same!

[@Judimama]

This is SO GOOD. “When the body feels SAFE.” I eat 2,500-3,000 every day and still stay within a 5-7lb range effortlessly. It DOES WORK!! I want to do a “what I eat every day” FOR REALS

[@sugarush5811]

This is currently what I'm eating as well.. hope it works

[@blueside2247]

I would cry a lot too when I over eat or gain weight I really hated myself and I blamed myself a lot....after watching this a realized I’m not the only one going trough this!!!!thank you Stephanie !!!♥︎♥︎and if your reading this don’t be to hard on yourself♥︎♥︎♥︎!!

[@claudiaglows]

전전kookie you are definitely not the only one! I have been there! Recovering from an eating disorder or disorders eating is hard, but so worth it

[@alexgramby8547]

전전kookie armmmy

[@MAY-qs9zx]

Alex Gramby shut the fuck up

[@julz8616]

It feels so good to watch a fitness youtuber who actually makes me love my body the more i watch her. You are seriously an inspiration and I love how raw and honest you are. I wish you all the best girl and hope you continue to succeed on this journey :)

[@allisonrice780]

me checking every 10 mins to see if it was up😁😁

[@StephanieButtermore]

Awwww!! I hope it was worth the wait! I worked hard on this one! 🙏

[@prajakta_shinde_]

Same here!!!

[@lolas1442]

"A backpack doesn't judge you when you get fat! A fanny pack let's you know" 😂 I laughed so hard

[@r.8621]

In my opinion you look much better/healthier. You're energy is through the roof😂 Keep on going 💪🏻

[@raven_0525]

It’s okay to not be lean as long as you’re healthy physically, mentally and emotionally 💗 We love you & we got you Steph ✨

[@TheALife23]

I agree 100%

[@supimsatan]

Imo she is lean.

[@raven_0525]

supimsatan Yes she still is 😁

[@lanidhhg8706]

Not tracking calories was the best thing I ever did for my mental health. Just putting it out there.

[@danieladelafuente6839]

Lani DHHG she needs to stop tracking

[@jake40341]

Are you a guy or a gal.. just asking.

[@lokeane]

Saaame!

[@Gabriela14444]

If you don’t track your calories you can loose control easily, there is nothing wrong about tracking calories

[@danieladelafuente6839]

Gabriela tracking keeps you in the diet mentality and you could never make peace with food or eat intuitively while tracking. As Stephanie or her guest said in her video the more you try to control food the more food controls you.

[@elysianemily]

OMG THE ENERGY! When i was refeeding in recovery from my eating disorder, my parents noticed that I was singing again, and personally I felt sillier and wittier. I also found myself caring more about non-food related things such as books, movies, politics, etc. Thank you thank you THANK YOU for making this series. It's videos like these that make my recovery a lot easier to manage

[@valeriegomez4702]

I struggle with food, my weight, my confidence and watching this video made me feels so safe and understood ❤️ love you steph!

[@claudiaglows]

valerie Gomez good luck! I have been there! I was anorexic for 2 decades, but, there is a way out. I wish you the best of luck ❤️

[@darlingmirandakay]

Who else is crying like a FOOL through the whole video?!?!?! Goddamn, I struggle so much with body image too, babe. The bathing suit clips really got to me. I remember when you posted them to your story, I stopped what I was doing and just cried with you. ❤

[@inessaracherrak4238]

Miranda Reads that clip hit really close to home for me too. I know that feeling, i’ve been that feeling so many times

[@krystellegibson9614]

Yes! Totally agree. I think every girl has had at least one moment when they try something on and it doesn't fit right and it just breaks you. Love how open and vulnerable she is 💕

[@claudiaglows]

Miranda Reads I agree! I was tearing up as well. I had an eating disorder for 2 decades, so body image issue is something I know all to well! Doesn’t it such, that along with all the other stuff we have to deal with daily, we feel so bad about our bodies at time?! Instead, we should be thanking them non stop for caring us around and allowing us to life a full life Screw body image issues, let’s learn to love and appreciate our bodies for all they do for us !

[@meganbrondyke2387]

🙋🏽‍♀️ I cried too. Because it was like I was watching myself try on that bathing suit. I’ve done that, I’ve been there.

[@Firmly_grasp_it]

I have been watching KZbin for YEARS... and this might be my most anticipated video to date!! Haven’t been this excited since Christmas of ‘08

[@StephanieButtermore]

omg awwww thank you!!! 😭🙏

[@boomza821]

Samee hahaha 🤣

[@jennamarylou1538]

you’re honestly the most mature person i’ve ever seen. you respect your body enough to do what’s truly right for it, regardless of what you might look like. you are such an inspiration. as someone who’s battled a similar problem - losing my period but actually completely losing my appetite - it’s really, really helpful to watch your videos. thank you for all that you do, Stephanie.

[@MsJones-yq8pm]

I really don’t like to comment on anyone’s body however I’ve been following you for years and I think you look better than ever! You look beautiful, healthy and most importantly happy. Thank you so much for sharing your journey.

[@claudiaglows]

Angel Jones I totally agree ❤️

[@urbanpineapple6427]

I am LIVING for all this science!! Also for Jeff’s never ending support! I am so glad you have a guy like him in your life❤️

[@ryleebrackman6651]

15:15 “you still look hot” JEFF IS SO SWEET AHHH

[@npsck1802]

Dude, a few months ago I looked at the thumbnail and the “heavier” version of you made me afraid. Now I look at it and see that version as lean and healthy and the previous you as underweight. I want to thank you for changing my mindset.

[@hannahenglish2095]

YOURE CHANGING THE FITNESS INDUSTRY you are such a strong, powerful, beautiful woman!

[@jj.wahlberg]

Steph is so pretty it makes me want to cry

[@StephanieButtermore]

awwwwwwww 😭😭😭

[@jj.wahlberg]

Aldous Huxley thank you for your comment. I was not trying to say that I feel like I’m not beautiful or that I’m comparing myself, just saying that WOW Stephanie is gorgeous!

[@xlahco2170]

Your face is pretty, but it looks healthier now. ❤ You are glowing.

[@ash-leighcole4113]

Your body is unbelievably perfect after the weight gain and before, I personally prefer you after the weight gain, you look glowing and beautiful. I could only wish too look like you 😩

[@virgismar]

I'm actually surprised you're still super thin. You look so much better

[@mish_elle1450]

well she does have a lot of muscle mass to maintain a fast metabolism and she still works out a lot. Imagine eating 5000 cals a day with no exercise and muscle

[@phamdinhhoang1998]

@@mish_elle1450 you mean my whole life before?

[@alexanabolic5099]

not sure why you are surprised, she took more than half a pound a day, for a month. This is crazy.

[@blodhunt]

You ment "thick", not thin.

[@emilyrichards6534]

I think the point is that it's not about how "thin" she is. She is beautiful no matter what. Obsession with image drives the diet mentality and causes the loss of hunger cues and a myriad of other issues within the body

[@randomemilylalaz]

I honestly agree with Jeff, I personally think you healthier and happier at this weight and look more feminine.

[@Jenniferh0221]

Ummm I wish I looked this good with 30+ lbs.!! I respect you so much for this. This takes so much courage.

[@claudiaglows]

JenniferH0221 agreed ❤️

[@GuyLogen]

She was shredded before this though. And she still works out while bulking and eating mostly whole foods. Anyone can look good if they follow this and still remain disciplined.

[@cocamila]

Logen M not me 😭😭 I have short torso and the fact that I tend to gain weight first on my face and stomach I did not look good at all eating at quite surplus while bulking. It depends where they gain fat first.

[@trappnest4490]

Same, I gained 30Ibs in 2 months and I look terrible now

[@saniaann1179]

I cried with her when she was in the swimsuit. She's so gorgeous and beautiful the way she is and the happiness that she has gained looks beautiful on her❤️❤️❤️. She looks wayy better this way she looks happier and has a glow to herself.

[@marabaez23]

You are officially my favorite youtuber!!!. I love how intelligent, honest, vulnerable and sweet you are. You are unique and that's why people follow you. Keep getting healthy. I really love your content and Jeff's.

[@GratsielaLily]

The bathing suit moment made me cry and wish I could hug you...and at the same time, hug everyone that's ever felt like that. I know I've had many many many moments like that, putting on a bathing suit or a fancy dress for some event and having then not fit or fit but not as intended... it sucks :( Jeff is indeed such a great guy, I can only imagine not many guys would be supportive of such a process - or girls actually.... But it´s important to remember that you´re doing this for a greater good- your health, physical and mental. And also, as Jeff says, you´re still GORGEOUS! And so very courageous! I swear I don´t think I could do it...

[@catalina5956]

James O’Conner wdym? That’s literally so mean. People can feel what they want and shaming someone for how they feel is so messed up.

[@carliemckibben979]

I’m living for what Jeff had to say about your journey 🥰 you continue to be so inspiring, much love ❤️

[@lilywojciechowski9906]

I am too! I'd like to have such support one day

[@theathip.3236]

I gained weight, I got my period back, I don't thing about eating all the time anymore (still a lot but not always) and I even ate some pieces of chocolate today because I just felt like it ^o^ I am so much happier! I don't weigh myself but I think I finally reached my set point. I am not completely out of extreme hunger but it is getting better and better. Eating industrial sugars is still a no go for me (at least not on a daily basis) and I am more into clean eating than eating a 100% intuitively but it's okay for the moment. I am able to do exceptions again and to enjoy food! A vegan diet is a very helpful way to me to feel comfortable cause I am doing something good for the animals and the planet. This motivates me and makes me feel happy with myself and my decisions. Also, my diet allows me to eat very big amounts until I am really satisfied without feeling bad about it. It just works out for me. Maybe you find happiness in other ways of eating. Good look, beautiful people out there.

[@amymitchell9985]

Theathi good for you!! Keep it up 😃❤️

[@caitlin6404]

i am so so happy for you!! well done you are amazing

[@theathip.3236]

@@caitlin6404 You are soo sooo kind!

[@angelinaesposito3058]

Now I think that may explain why I lost my period so young Because of my eating disorder

[@feliciachan3876]

I was anorexic very recently and gained 15kg (33lbs) 7 months. This is the heaviest I've been (53kg I'm 152 cm) and some people think I'm fat but this is the happiest and most energetic I've been in years. I'm an athlete so this had given me even more motivation to set more challenging goals. It's so nice to see other girls out there that has gone through what I did. Update from May 2020: my weight is still climbing and it's near 57kg now. Honestly scaring the shit out of me because I just keep outgrowing clothes and gaining a lot of fat. I think my long term hormone medication is screwing with my body. My athletic performance took a dip too and I'm always frustrated with myself. Anyone been through this too?

[@yuplookdatsme]

Anyone who calls you fat needs to stfu. You feel healthy and that's what matters most. You're doing great! Keep up the good work!

[@jlbeeen]

Yeah, it's not about weight or size, it's about what makes you feel better! It can be hard, but getting enough of what you need is important! It can be hard to deal with, especially when your favourite pants don't fit, which is what got me down a bit, but clothes can be replaced, and don't matter much. I've always had issues finding clothes, so nothing new for me. I still don't have a lot of energy due to chronic pain, but I'm getting somewhere, and mood helps a lot.

[@cuteboiji]

53kg for 152cm is actually perfectly normal?? not underweight but also not overweight in the slightest!

[@feliciachan3876]

@@cuteboiji it's a normal BMI but in the higher range. It's also quite high for a Chinese person

[@mery.MP4]

Same im going through recovery rn and the energy is??? Amaxing??

[@mengisch]

my mind is now so split up: one side wants to do that too and wants to eat until I am full, one side still wants to keep track and fears to gain weight

[@claudiaglows]

Leonie Müller i totally hear you! Recovering a Dysfunctional relationship with food as well as body image is hard! I’ve been there. But the only way out is through. I wish you the best of luck

[@sleepymaddy7659]

I know what you mean 100% I didn't weight myself for the last six month and I'm so much happier so if you want to do anything. Losing weight, gaining weight or just becoming healthier. I would never weight myself again for these reasons. Just try to do anything and only stop when you're happy. This god damn number is so unnecessary and please try to stop yourself from weighting and looking negatively at your body, you're beautiful!!

[@claudiaglows]

Sleepy Maddy very well said!!! Hi have not weighed myself in years. It’s a number, which means nothing but yet, it controls so many people’s lives! I am actually making a video on this very subject as we speak I am so happy you found the freedom to not give a damn what a number in a little pieces of equipment says ❤️

[@sleepymaddy7659]

@@claudiaglows thank you so much! I weighed myself for 3 years almost 8 times a day and controlled everything I ate and I LOVE food so it made me the saddest person on earth. Also counting calories is what I'm not doing anymore. Sometimes I do but only to see that I HAVE to eat more because sometimes I don't eat enough because I'm busy or too lazy honestly to make proper meal but that's it. Numbers in general are literally haunting so many people's lives and it's such a waste of time. We only have this one life and we should live it without a strict diet where we ban yummy food which would make us happy. When I want a donut, I'm going to eat that donut. If I want a fresh Salad, then I eat it. And all that because I WANT to and not because I should or shouldn't. Sorry for this long paragraph, it's just a topic which makes me emotional haha

[@claudiaglows]

Sleepy Maddy u am so super happy to read all this!!! I weighted myself so many times a day, I could keep track! I was anorexic for 2 decades and all that mattered was that darn number in the scale and the number of calories I ate What a waste of 2 decades!! But, at least, i am not doing it any longer. I wish more people would realize that a number should not define there self worth. And no worries at all, this topic makes me emotional as well. And that is a good thing! I am happy for you ( and me 😊) and wish you the very best of luck ❤️

[@mira7990]

Ngl but I definitely shed a tear or two around 13:00 because of how sweet and supportive your boyfriend is 😍

[@StephanieButtermore]

He’s the best ❤️

[@TheSimpleDudeOne]

He eatin better now 😫😫😫😫

[@Arctagon]

I've never seen you before, but you seem like such a genuine and kind-hearted person. You deserve all the best. Edit: I suppose I could add that watching this video came at good time. You put words to something I've been feeling for quite some time, and now I feel a lot better because I know what it is and how to deal with it. Thank you.

[@azpremium]

UH YOU LOOK SOOOOO GOOD!!!! this new physique is amazing on you, and you are GLOWING. get it sis!!!!

[@NickDompierre]

This is amazing Stephanie! I’m so happy for you! There’s nothing better than feeling great! 🙌🏻❤️

[@brianlee8073]

Nick's the type of guy that can eat whatever he wants and never gains weight!

[@mayarose5902]

Billie Bum hes a friend of stephanie

[@hunnybunny7198]

@Billie Bum there is no need to assume everyone is gay especially when you don't know him. not everyone is and btw, he does have a girlfriend

[@emilyhou1990]

To me, this process looks like an ED recovery process. Really similar to what I went through during recovery from compulsive/excessive exercising and restrictive eating. The re-feeding consisted of A LOT of calories a day under the supervision of a program (I was at an in-patient program because I couldn't do it myself). Now, I am able to eat intuitively and am satisfied at around 2000 calories a day. When I was in the re-feeding phase, I probably ate like 5-6000 calories and felt like I could still eat more. Not trying to label anything but I think Stephanie was dieting to the point where her body physically went into a state similar to what ED patients have. That's why she never feels satiated even with so many calories! So happy to see you go on this journey. You are crushing it. The other side is so much more beautiful!!

[@Inglescomgus]

Whats ED ?

[@marcsi1233]

@@Inglescomgus eating disorder

[@christinamiller9134]

I totally agree. A lot of things hit home for me in this, especially when she was talking about feeling kind of like a kid again by just being able to eat normally. I'm in recovery for orthorexia nervosa and can 100% relate to that.

[@kirivangley20]

Exactly what I thought too

[@Dezruhk]

Erik(who was in this video too) actually struggled with an eating disorder, in case you didnt know! He is quite inspiring, being a competetive eater now.

[@user-ti2ph6qb1y]

I literally had to go back a few times because I just kept getting distracted by how beautiful you are 😭 currently on the recovery path and your videos are helping SO MUCH

[@kararioswatson]

Jeff is so sweet 😭😭😭 I love how he compliments and supports you!!

[@itsrachelmay]

Stephanie!! You look amazing! Your skin is glowing and your body is booming!! I'm so happy for you

[@bagoftricks6985]

I'm way too chicken to do this honestly, the courage to dive all in for this is actually insane

[@joyrebecca3063]

Same, but I really want too🥺❤️

[@val-qw3bl]

Same tbh

[@TheSchultzZ]

you guys can always just increase your calories slowly per week and see what happens

[@mooviedude141]

Well this is the dangers of the fitness community, promoting shredded ripped bodies at the cost of starvation and unhealthy relationships with food.

[@lemonade2473]

We need fat as much as we need muscle. As far as we know, fat produces and stores hormones and fat soluble vitamins. Too little fat can wreak havoc on bodily function. I know ☹️ not from fitness restriction, I just grew up not eating enough. Maybe it’s a eating disorder or whatever.

[@kimt4512]

Well said

[@7thCobweb]

Ardissia redditProudlightskinblack horrible attitude.. food is precious and keeps u alive. it's not the enemy. and never will be

[@metallic4888]

Ardissia redditProudlightskinblack no, bad habits are the enemy

[@MelB868]

I have like 42.5 percent of body fat so yeah I don’t worry about having too little.

[@Jesszenn]

It’s crazy her body looks so much better with the weight gain. We’re conditioned to think thinner is better, but here she is still thin with some curves & she looks amazing. Her booty is goals. She looks so beautiful.

[@MelB868]

She still looks super skinny to me.

[@zaraelsaid1849]

I'm really happy that Jeff is so sweet and supportive. He really is the best. Huge preach for him 💕💜🙏🏻. Thank god you have him.

[@alexandranicoletamoldovanu4620]

@KZbinr999 fuck off

[@anabol4234]

@KZbinr999 Too beta to tell her? She knows herself that it's a problem u degenerate LMAO. You are the beta here kid

[@daedhalusp.t.2746]

Your mental strength is SO inspirational! Wish you all the best and the endurance you need on your all-in journey

[@Cqn4118]

Omg, I know in your original announcement video about going all in that you were worried you’d be losing followers - but honestly, I started following you BECAUSE of your all in journey!! I just feel like you’re so brave for letting yourself be as vulnerable as you are in these progress videos. It’s super refreshing and gives so many people a different perspective into fitness. Adore you so much!! 💕💕💕

[@user-ku1np8bs8n]

“Mommy did you know today is national donut day?” “No I know it’s Father’s Day” “This is a more important holiday” 😂😂 ICONIC LINE

[@Lieksels63]

True for me too :')

[@shebasamuel6985]

"A backpack doesn't judge you,but a fanny pack does"🤣😂😂. Stef your the cutest😍😁. Loads of love girl❤. Keep growing stronger!!💪💪

[@StephanieButtermore]

sheba Samuel 😂😂😂 thank you!!!!!!

[@tay8397]

Oh my gosh the one piece part made me cry 😭 you’re so brave, and courageous for filming your vulnerable moments, amazing video!!

[@jazminzacarias6597]

Tayla Maddison girl I cried too!

[@diyfitness985]

Yes, she's AMAZING😀💚💚

[@nimezumii]

I'm glad I'm not the only one that cried ;-;

[@brittany4812]

This is absolutely AMAZING. Being a bikini competitor this is extremely helpful. And what really hit home is when you mentioned it made you almost feel back to when you were a child and didn’t think about the food being consumed, I often think back to those days and wish I could feel that way again! This is amazing!!!!!! Thank you again for sharing xoxo

[@Soochy_]

Seeing you cry broke my heart and I admire your decision for keeping it in the video, I know it must have been so difficult. You’re doing such a good thing and I respect you even more for it! I also admire and respect Jeff for being there during your highs and lows! Stay strong!! ❤️

[@nicolenskjj]

Sochy _ I really like your display picture hehehe

[@senpai0fdeath832]

You look greeeeeaaat, keep doing what you’re doing. Jeff’s a real one.

[@maggiegarlitz37]

i love this!!! could you possibly talk about how your digestion and gut health have been affected by all of this?

[@NeverStoppedSinging]

Yees! I want to know about that so much !