An Unfinished Melody

After five long years, I'm back to try to finish this channel and to find some closure after all this time.
I hope you'll join me.
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Main Twitter: / legendofrebekah

[@---ut6fk]

The fact of the matter is: you put 1000x more thought into this series than the creators ever did

[@marievanloon4977]

100%

[@pragnyaroy9942]

Agreed!!!

[@pep_king]

LMFAO that's actually true

[@Anonymous-zw9ud]

Stop copy-pasting the same comment

[@OctagonalGolbat]

Let's place the blame where it belongs - with Moffat and Gatiss. I still return to your videos to help me with critical analysis at uni, and every time it's a bittersweet delight. We thought we lived in a better world, and so for a while we did, even if it was only a fantasy. But I'd still choose that naïvité over their cynicism and mockery every time. And I'm so grateful to the people who wrote me a better story, even if it couldn't last.

[@amalofoto]

Yes!!! A thousand times this. I would rather have naive happiness than mocking cynicism any day. I'm an English major in no small part because of this phase in my life, and I also still rewatch them to get me in the right mindset for analysis and close readings.

[@howlynnmartin1356]

I don't know any more. Seeing the world with its masks, and (not just the cloth ones💊😷😤) I don't even fault them for leaving us with a spicy hot mess because the whole world has turned into a spicy hot mess. The last 10 seconds without Mary voice over and without the angsty music.. we did get everything but a smoopy kiss and a seggs scene? Gatiss always said softly, no big deal, just normal. Sherlock was glowing happy and not AT a dead body, but baby and John.🚬🦇🥃🕸🎈🎻

[@zoetevka4653]

♥️♥️♥️

[@TJLCExplained]

Thank you all for the lovely response to this video so far! I have spent most of the afternoon crying a tiny bit, thanks for being so kind. 💛 Since a couple people have asked... I still go by Rebekah or Rebs and my pronouns are she/her

[@tisha7657]

even if series 4 left the worst impression on me, it was your channel that got me started on my major interest in literary and media analysis. i can't thank you enough for that

[@moreli2001]

This feels like closure for me. The Sherlock fandom was a huge part of my life 6-5 years ago, and watching TJLC videos was almost the sole reason I learnt English back then. The impact you had in my teenhood was really big. And I'm so so happy you are finally getting peace with all this, we were so heartbroken that you felt so much blame for all this. I also felt so heartbroken after series 4, but I never thought it was your fault. You were just a young person having fun and being passionate about things. The pandemic made me rewatch Sherlock, and I also found it wasn't so bad as I remembered. I'm looking forward to your ending, I've read so many rewrites of series 4, I'm extremely intrigued for your take on it. Thank you so much for everything ☺️

[@zoetevka4653]

🙏🏻♥️🙏🏻

[@sporesims9303]

Gosh, I learned so much English with TJLC, I was so bad and needed to look up every word. And eventually I had the courage to host a FinnPoe shipping group, release a FinnPoe fan zine, all in English

[@Magdaliese]

I just stumbled upon this update by accident and I totally agree! Every word you said is exactly what I feel 😊

[@Nellipusen]

the 2021 superwholock comeback is now officially complete

[@bellasgonemissing9705]

I think, if anything, at least for me, TJLC made the hurt of season 4 more bearable. It let me know that I wasn't being overdramatic and my feelings were shared by thousands of other people. the creation of supportive, queer community is so important TJLC gave me a space to feel comfortable in my queer identity while feeling like I was a part of something and let myself be unashamedly enthusiastic about something. That's always what I've taken away from this, never any hard feelings

[@hallelumaybe]

There’s nothing you should feel sorry for. I was right here with you getting so much joy from tjlc back then. I still get joy from it when I occasionally look back on it and remember how happy it made me from 2014-2017. I wouldn’t take any of it back, even after the disappointment of s4. Thank you I look forward to this!

[@lizzieborden8180]

let me just say upfront: THANK YOU for everything!!! i was 12 when i watched your videos and you literally made me fluent in english! now i graduated and am in my first year of uni studying cinema and managing my way through media analysis all because of this very channel!!!! no matter what that awful series 4 actually was, your videos taught me so much, they basically made me see the world through a different lens (and learn english) and were my introduction to actual serious cinema and critical analysis. i can’t even express how hyped i am to watch this, but i must express my gratitude towards all the good your videos made me!!!! they’ll be forever in my heart, no matter what

[@TJLCExplained]

That's amazing!!! Thank you so much for sharing that with me, I am so touched.

[@zoetevka4653]

🙏🏻♥️🙏🏻

[@Zandalorscat]

TJLC is what got me onto tumblr, which in turn got me into Critical Role, which got me into DnD, which led to meeting my now girlfriend of 3 years. We live together and have a cat. 😺

[@gipsiusy]

I'm so sorry you feel the need to apologize when you were the first one to be hurt and felt betrayed like all of us. I've missed you, Rebecka, I really did, and I ask nothing else from you than be healty and happy in whatever way you need to

[@sallyall]

Exactly that ⤴️❤️

[@lgl9823]

Wow, I remember watching your videos when I was in high school, now I’ll be graduating from university in only three more months... I really hope all of you are doing amazing, TJLC was a big part of figuring out my sexuality and accepting myself, even though I’m still not sure how to define myself this fandom made me feel that no matter what I was, there was nothing wrong with me, that being different is not a bad thing , and that there’s people who can accept me. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR DOING THIS VIDEOS. I hope you can find the closure that you need :)

[@TJLCExplained]

Thank you so much, I'm so happy the videos could have any kind of positive impact on you

[@noahatlas5240]

The blame lies 100% on the two creators of the show. You didn't manipulate or trick anyone into believing something that wasn't there. You worked with what you were given, and I will die on the hill that we were queerbaited, absolutely. None of this is your fault. I'm no longer the lonely teenager I was desperately trying to find comfort in Johnlock, but a big part of me still holds immense fondness for it. Truly excited for this series

[@nightmaresparadox]

We have waited 4 years, what is another 15 hours? It's finally happening!!

[@tangent7078]

i know the video isn't up yet or anything but genuinely thank you. that whole summer of 2016 was so much fun and i'll always remember it fondly, especially your videos

[@Kaeuzchen53]

Getting your hopes up and believing in not-getting-queerbated is not a bad thing. It shows you're brave enough to believe in good things. Your views on Sherlock were very refreshing in this heteronormative society that we live in. And i'm so glad this channel is back, your videos were always so comforting to me and brought me happiness and giggeling (especially the meatdagger episode) and for that i'm still thankful!

[@geneva1895]

Hi there, I know that no matter what, you're still going to feel guilt about the massive disappointment that was season 4, but I want you to know that you hold no blame in my eyes. I discovered your videos when series 4 had just come out and I had just started watching the show. I knew the ending but got so excited anyway, your reading of the show brought so much joy and excitement and got me interested in media analysis. TJLC helped me find a community that I loved in a time I needed it the most. It gave me comfort from my 13 year old mental illness and helped me come to terms with my own sexuality by showing me that gay love is beautiful and noble. Even a few months ago, going back and watching Sherlock, I was able to fall back into that excitement in a reading of metaphors that really made a better story than what was just in the text. As you've said many times before, if it's not gay, then WHY?? TJLC and your videos specifically made it all click for me, and for that I thank you very much.

[@bekahhamblen4514]

I can't believe you've come back 😭 you've influenced me so much those years ago, I binged all of your videos, and I wanted you to come back after season 4. I never blamed you for my disappointment, never! I stopped watching after The Final Problem and felt immense disappointment but I never blamed you, if anything I wanted to see what you thought of season 4. I've missed you so much and I'm so glad you're back! I'm going to binge all your videos again, now as a 21 year old who still dreams of Johnlock, much love! ❤

[@zoetevka4653]

🙏🏻♥️🙏🏻

[@rivkavermeij]

After the last season of Sherlock I took a hard break from it, and I haven't looked back since (or tried to at least). I was angry at the show and the makers, but never at you. As someone else said: you put more thought and effort into the series than the writers themselves did, and you can be proud of that. I don't regret getting into Johnlock at all, and I definitely don't regret watching your videos. I still feel disgusted when I think back to the last season of Sherlock, and I will probably never be able to look at Gatiss and Moffat's (other/next) works positively ever again, just know that it's not your fault and there's no need to apologise. I look forward to the rest of what you're going to upload, I hope it will bring me some more closure as well, all the love ❤️

[@moreli2001]

IM SO HAPPY REBS, WE'VE ALL MISSED YOU SO MUCH!

[@peckgardner]

Can't believe we've been on this hiatus longer than the series one. I'M SO EXCITED I MISS U SO MUCH

[@henryknight2107]

honestly i was quite disappointed when season 5 aired but that was not your fault and i'm pretty much over it now, and everything i took away from tjlc explained was good for me, those videos first got me interested in media analysis and i remember them fondly. i'm looking forward to rewatching them now when i have time! thank you for making them public again and for making these other projects, they sound super cool and i can't wait!!

[@delaneynolan5351]

I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS SINCE I WAS A BABY GAY IN HIGH SCHOOL

[@ritasmith3372]

Five years ago, I was a mom with two preteens at home and TJLC passed me by. That said, I hated TFP, swore at Mofftiss for their misogynistic and ridiculous machinations and refused to ever watch season 4 again. Then, when my entire family was quarantined last spring, I escaped into Johnlock on AO3 and started writing my own. That meant rewatching the series. There is some brilliant work there, especially by the actors--but you knew that. I even ended up rewatching season 4. I love much of the character development in those episodes, but still can't stand much of the plot. Anyway, this is turning into an essay--my apologies. I found your channel as I was recovering from surgery this past month, and, I must say, your work still holds up. Even knowing where the writers would take the show, I find your analysis thoughtful, relevant, and inspiring. I missed so much subtext the first time around--as one would, watching with their kids, worrying about school the next day and if the laundry needed changing. Thank you for putting your work back up for those of us late to the party. I am looking forward to reading your version of season 4!

[@johnw8706]

Solo quiero decirte una cosa, no tienes la culpa de nada. La serie tiene indicios de Queerbaiting, usaron eso para enganchar. Pero los personajes se aman y eso es un hecho, no importa que final le hayan dado o como rompieron todo en la temporada 4. No es tu culpa, solo interpretaste lo mismo que nosotros. Tus videos son un regalo para este fandom, un fandom que aún sobrevive, en donde tus videos son apreciados, como la obra maestra que son. Gracias por todo. 💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝

[@Sly-Moose]

IT'S ALL BACK! 😭😭 The vids are all back!! AAAAAAAA! FINALLY, MY BFF TACHI CAN SEE THIS GREATNESS! *I'M GONNA BINGE REWATCH LIKE NEVER BEFORE!!!!*

[@adimensionaldodo9498]

Omg the nostalgia, this is gonna be a big one

[@lubonader9553]

Omg my feels my heart. I'm 32 yeara old and this show and particularly TJLC meant so much to me. It feels like it's been forever and it was buried somewhere in my mind but now it's all so beautiful and exciting like it used to be. My heart is racing, my feels are all over the place. It's wonderful to see we are not dead after all this time but we stand here, proud and happy. This made me feel so much like I belonged somewhere and it's still the same feeling. Thank you so much for this. You made me smile and cry tears of joy. Thank you again.

[@cryptidcomics616]

This hit me. I was here since beginning. I was so sure, but when I didn't happen, I only wondered- What will Rebeccah have to say? But you disappeared. I never blamed you and I'm glad your back. I'm glad fifteen year old me gets this video.

[@dantem.ginsey4608]

This channel is what made me fall in love with text analysis, and here I am, years later, starting my first year as an English student

[@mrlnxf8455]

you have not let us down, if anything the showrunners let us down. thank you for the fun times we all had with your videos.

[@crisdoesntcare5025]

I don't know how to express how glad I am for this return of yours. The thing I want to underline the most: you didn't let us down. It wasn't your fault that season four ended up like that. In fact I am so glad for all your work, it was really important to me, no matter what. I think that season 4 was a disappointment from many point of view, not only because of tjlc, so your analysis actually helped me, it allowed me to keep liking one of my favorite series despite its ending, because the rest of it made sense to me thanks to you. That finale would have ruined the whole series for me if it wasn't for you. Thank you so much ❤️ and good luck with your projects ❤️

[@polartariatpenguin8865]

I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw this thumbnail on my main feed. I'm so sorry that you've been feeling this way for all that time. From what I can recall five years ago, when I finished watching the s04e03 my first thought (after calming down from all that mess) was if you're okay and how are you doing, I was worried that your mental health suffered a lot since you've been such an engaged member of this fandom. To you I owe the love for media criticism and that's no exaggeration. You were the first person to inspire me to not take litereture and film for granted, you taught me that everything could be put in a work with a certain intention. It has hugely shaped my perception of the world. Can't say more than thank you. I was 15 when I got invested in TJLC and now that I'm 20 and in a completely different place in my life, I'm glad that I can see you again. Hope you're well and please take care of yourself, don't put too much pressure on yourself with this project Oh, and I'd love a podfic!! (also, I don't know your pronouns if somebody could enlighten me I'd be grateful!!)

[@TJLCExplained]

Thank you so much! 💛💛 My pronouns are she/her. I'll add a pinned comment clarifying that

[@miss_daisy3]

i used to watch tjlc explained in middle school. now im in college. absolutely wild, your channel has been in my life for longer than most of my friends. your analysis has comforted me during the worst times of my life. you haven't failed me, if that counts for anything. i am incredibly excited for your projects. everything you create is so thorough and wonderful. this has brightened my day and given me something to look forward to, thank you so much for all your hard work and passion.

[@0796431]

I can't believe YOU'RE BACK!!!!!!!! 💖💖💖💖💖😭🙏

[@moon-the-band]

I’m so proud of you for all the healing you’ve done & are continuing to do 💜 it feels surreal to have this channel back up and thriving; can’t believe it’s been 5 years. Welcome back 🌈

[@alexandrawinter9527]

I'm so happy that you came back. First of all: I love your work, always loved. I remember when Season 4 happened and not even for a moment I stop believing TJLC. They (BBC) chose not to take the risk and it sucks, but also...it is what it is. I'm pretty sure that your version of Season 4 will make more sense than "super creepy secret sister" or "cheater John" or "jumping from an exploding flat with no injuries". I really want to thank you for all of your work back then and now. You'are an amazing storyteller, I love your analysis and I waited five long years to tell you this when I knew you're gonna read. And yes, you probably noticed that I'm not a native english speaker (and for this reason I almost never leave comments on stuff) ...but I really appreciate your work and thought you should know.

[@thevampirelover]

As a casual follower of BBC Sherlock (I'm much more of an acd canon nerd) who was very invested in your thorough analysis work on this channel, I'm so glad to see you are okay and I genuinely think you had a great process as far as media analysis goes. Meaning in art is subjective and flexible and just because season 4 was a letdown (it was a narrative letdown quite separately from tjlc imo), that doesn't mean you didn't do good work. Looking forward to future videos!

[@JustFourFun100]

I also just came back and rewatched the show after not thinking about it for a few years. I decided to try to watch the show through the eyes of a new viewer and just see it as friendship… but it was impossible! The love and agony is too deep. I loved your video series and am very sorry you went through such a hard time post S4 considering how much you’d given to fans. For the record I don’t think you were wrong about anything, just the timing was wrong. I love Series 4 when viewing it through Sherlock’s eyes. Such a deep poignant emotional journey. Anyway, you’re looking wonderful and I’m so excited you’re finishing your series.

[@pragnyaroy9942]

I agree.... I've tried seeing it just as a friendship but for me it's too apparent!

[@browncesario]

i’ve said this before but i think the channel totally holds up purely in a meta sense, it’s just the assuredness in which the conspiracy was presented. i’ve absolutely gone back and watched over the years and enjoyed them!! i absolutely understand the shame, especially because the news even went after you those first few weeks which was absolutely vile. i’m really glad you’ve started to make peace.

[@vaaarna]

you didn't let us down !!!!!! the writers and showruners did!!!

[@iseulyscatanese3378]

You have nothing to feel sorry for! Your videos have been interesting, smart, funny, and a lot of fun. Did I believe them? Yes. Was I disappointed? Of course. But it is in no way your fault! Even without your videos, a lot of things in the series pointed towards a Johnlock ending. I watched your videos because I already believed it, and I would've been disappointed with or without your interpretation (I mean, I've been shipping Johnlock since the first time I read the books when I was a kid sooooo). I really think that they could have gone this way, and that they thought about it. I am so happy that you're writing your version of series 4, I know it's going to be great. Thank you.

[@marshallharck]

your channel was the best memory i have of the whole experience, I'm glad coming back to it has been somewhat healing for you 💜

[@ziripond3502]

Sherlock was my first major window into the Fandom Life and your channel really captures the best aspects of theorising, community support and all round comradery

[@imnotselma3305]

I was a teenager when series four came out, but I never felt mislead by you. I was the person watching every single episode on this channel leading up to the release, tjlc was all I talked about with my friends for months, I stayed up past midnight on school days to pirate the episodes as they came out. Of course I was dissapointed when johnlock didn’t become cannon. But I was never dissapointed in you. Why? Because you never felt like an authority on the matter. You were a fellow fan, an equal, who just happened to be better at literary analysis than me, we were in this together. I was devastated, but when I thought of your channel I always imagined us being devastated together. And this channel did for a fact massively improve my reading skills by opening my eyes to all the little things a writer can add to their texts to convey meaning, how deep it can go, and I still use those skills. I’m no longer a teenager, and I look back at this channel with fondness. And the videos still mean a lot to me

[@silvergirl6320]

I'm so glad for your future projects--see you in the comments box! (You are not five years late; it takes time to acquire critical distance on things like this.) And believe / know that whoever was responsible for the disappointment of viewers in the pivot of S4, it was NOT you. Happy to see you again.

[@strongsarah]

yes, some distance is NORMAL to need after an upset like s4, we all did.

[@Zandalorscat]

I'm so excited to hear from you and see how you're doing! TJLC was so important to me way back when. There were so many smart and creative people in the fandom and I really miss them. I'm not part of the Sherlock fandom anymore but will always have fond memories.

[@zoetevka4653]

🙏🏻♥️🙏🏻

[@ladyblakeney]

I'm so glad you're back, even for a little while. I was genuinely worried about you after S4 came out. I'm happy that you finally found a way to work through everything!

[@sofiaacosta9109]

While the last season of Sherlock left us all disappointed and heartbroken, none of that was your fault. I genuinely think some of your analysis was very plausible for the show. And even though it didn't pan out, I still found joy in your videos because finally there was someone else sharing the same ideas and passion for the show that I had and it was great to see that I wasn't alone in that. You and your videos also helped me find my love for media analysis and video essays, and to this day I love looking into the deeper meanings of things and I couldn't thank you enough for that. Honestly I am just glad you are back and getting closure on it all. I'm so excited to see all the new stuff that is cooking up!!!

[@kat-bq1xf]

YOOOOOOO

[@thiagoferreira5283]

oh my god this is giving me war flashbacks

[@rebeccalima6603]

I can‘t even put into words how happy seeing this just made me

[@ivory112]

it's so good to see you again!! please don't feel bad about what happened. I remember looking forward to every episode of tjlc and it's one the nicer memories I associate with the show now. you did nothing wrong and you don't have to apologize. I can't wait to read your new project!!

[@michellep.6613]

I started watching your videos when I was 15 and in the worst place of my life. Your videos brought me joy and a place to escape to. Now I am 20, living with my partner, I know who I am and what I want and I'm doing my Bachelor. You are part of the reason I am still here. Your videos brought me hope and joy and I could forget about my worries for a little bit of time. I am so grateful for finding your video in my subscriptions today just to tell you how much you mean to me. So thank you!

[@indiajasmine3723]

we have a very very similar story:)

[@arregatoarregato2438]

Реббека, вы прекрасны! И вы ни в чем не виноваты. Вы искренний и умный человек и ваш анализ Шерлок ВВС был прекрасным и вдохновляющим. Я очень рада, что вы вернулись!) Thank you!)))

[@maisysinclair]

omg what a full circle moment!!! so glad to see you back after the heartbreak of s4

[@DominicaL1134]

Thank you for doing this! You are amazing!!!

[@Junoisverysleepy]

Yooooooooo it’s been four years in the making

[@mrlnxf8455]

everyone already said what i could say. so... just: thank you.

[@bearryfunful]

I will always appreciate your impressive research and passion you'd put into this channel. To be honest, I always felt that BBC Sherlock fandom is something more than series itself. All the best, can't wait for your project.

[@norab4402]

Your channel pretty much taught me english !! It also was a respite from the general anxieties of being a teenager. I'm really happy to see it come back. Edit after watching : I personally didn't ever resent your work after season 4, i think there is a collective responsibility for people getting their hopes wildly up, you were just enthusiastic about the show and TJLC. If you feel you need it, you obviously have my forgiveness! A full season rewrite is such a cool (and massive) project, I'm looking forward to reading it ^^

[@ReiYuriko]

We love you! Please don’t feel guilty.

[@ladyorange2000]

For this couple of years I've been thinking about BBC Sherlock every now and then and I was so angry each time. I was frustrated, irritated and plain angry. But it was because of the fact that we still don't have any adaptation of Conan Doyle's work in which johnlock would be canon. And then there was memories of TJLC explained. Those gave me so much joy and warmth, you can't even imagine. I was there for the Advent Calendar (even translated one episode in Russian!) and I watched every single video. It never hurt because of you. Since the beginning of 2021 I've been thinking about this channel a lot more frequently and visited it a couple of times (even found a few videos downloaded on my pc) and I can't describe how awesome it was to see that you were coming back! Thank you for all those memories and that we will be getting more.

[@IraeimDrawsStuff]

You have NO IDEA how much I am looking forward to your ideal version of S4!!!! On a more serious note... as someone who found out and got into tjlc through your videos, I did go through a pretty rough grieving period after S4 aired. But once I came to terms with it, I was honestly okay; except I couldn't help but worry and wonder about you. I had deleted tumblr by then so I had no way of knowing how you were doing... So this video is such a big relief. I am sorry to hear that you suffered so much guilt because of this channel, but please know that, regardless of what the show ended up being, the time I spent watching your videos and learning new ways to analysis fiction changed me for the better as a person and as a writer.

[@smallthings4463]

I actually didn't find your videos until well after S4 aired (I didn't start watching until 2018 because I live under a rock, apparently). I turned to the internet to find out if anyone else felt that S4 was just....off/wrong/etc. I was directed to those "crazy" TJLC people by a BBC Sherlock forum and, well, fell into an absolute hole. I read a lot of meta regarding S4 before I even watched your videos, but I always loved watching them even knowing beforehand that your predictions for S4 weren't correct. I just thought, well, everything she's seeing here in the subtext and character analysis, etc. is correct, the only difference is we needed S4 to happen before the payoff in S5 (I won't bore you with my theories on why S4 was necessary, as much as it's torture). That's why I find TJLCE so enjoyable to watch. I find a lot of comfort in re-watching these videos and I hope you never take them down. I learned a lot about literary analysis and how to look for subtext from your videos so I just wanted to say thank you. I've always wanted to say thank you. I hope you continue to do well, and as someone who still expects S5 I still definitely want to read your re-write fic when it's done

[@ashleyhayes7780]

You shouldn't blame yourself. A lot of people thought the same thing you did. Even if BBC Sherlock didn't end up the way we wanted it to, I still enjoy your videos so, so much, and I was overjoyed when your channel came back up!

[@nbk5d2c]

Wow i can’t wait for all this goodness. Always a fan.

[@stephanieclark8327]

You didn't fail us whatsoever. The writers of Sherlock failed us. I have never stopped loving your work because it's the most incredible in-depth analysis I have ever seen and has taught me so much about analysing a show. I very much look forwards to reading your re-write of season four and wish you the very best for all future projects.

[@lindee8224]

It’s good to see you! I have a lot of thoughts, but the main one is that I hope you know that there is and was a lot of value in tjlce. The videos were always impeccably put together and researched, and were extremely valuable beyond their connection with the show. Personally, they taught me to love media/literary analysis and doing close reading of the shows/texts I loved, which led me to study English. I never connected my disappointment in the show with your work, and never for a second regretted believing in this reading of the show. Frankly, I don’t hold anyone accountable for not enjoying s4, except the writers of the show. I looked forward to your videos a lot and even if I’d taken nothing away from them, they would have still made me very happy, and I suspect there are more people that feel that way. I’m excited for what’s coming, and I’m glad you’re back.

[@Angie-Way]

I shipped johnlock before I came across TJLC explained, and loved the channel and gained so much joy from it. Regardless of what happened with series 4 and how I felt about it (and how I now feel about Sherlock), I will always remember this channel fondly. Personally, although remembering the series brings up a lot of hurt from when I eventually woke up to what I believe was unmistakable queerbaiting, whether one reads into the show or not, I am so excited for whatever content you might put out. Never be sorry for the hope and happiness you brought into peoples lives.

[@pep_king]

it's good to see you again. after sharing with us your hurt after s4 aired, i am very glad that you are doing well. the guilt you felt is shared by many people in the tjlc community- when moffat said the reading we were hoping for- *waiting* for wasn't to become a thing and to just _leave it,_ only to be told that the writers lie _all the time_ to keep things secret: it left us very confused and doubtful about the beautiful and tragic relationship between sherlock and john. despite all the doubt, we turned to you and your channel to remind us of the very subtlest (and most obnoxious) of details and analysis that left us believing in tjlc once again. when s4 aired, a lot of us still tuned in to binge these videos to cope, because you're right: all the analysis video about each aspect of this show was in the realm of possibility. that's why it's truly not your fault, and why people still come back to your videos. some even majoring in critical analysis and other literature majors because of this this reading. this channel is just as much of our lives as it is yours. those of us who hadn't moved on from the show still holds this romantice reading of tjlc to heart each and every day. we have you to thank for that.

[@kaemart3465]

Please don't feel responsible. Your videos brought me a brand of happiness so real that even the creators cannot take it from me.

[@maybedjd3123]

Please make a podfic! It will be perfect! I'm happy you are coming back, even though season 4 was traumatizing, I still remember your videos very fondly.

[@aperson3859]

I'm genuinely so excited, I never thought I'd see this channel upload again! I'm glad that you're doing well Rebs and I can't wait to see what you say

[@ILLEGAILE]

I’m screaming you have no idea how much your videos helped me through college. I’m working now but I’ll never forget how watching Sherlock and just consuming your content made me feel like even though I wasn’t passionate in Business (my course) I could still find ways to express my creative interests. You inspired me to create my own content and to dare to dream. I have no words except thank you so so much and I can’t wait for the premiere. Edit: We love you so much and we can’t wait to support all your new projects. 💛

[@Sly-Moose]

Me: **sees notif** Hm, oh what's this? Also Me: **sees what channel it's from** 😳😱 **insta click** Edit: **gasp** Will we finally see what John's letter has to say?! I'm excited!

[@miriam7192]

i just wanted to say that i used to watch your videos and they made me think representation is possible and important, they made me feel accepted in a community, which is something i've never felt before and ultimately they helped me come to terms with my sexuality, start writing and find things to be passionate about. it's not your fault season 4 turned out the way it did and watching your videos every single day leading up to it was just gay joy every day. i'm happy your videos exist and i'm excited to see you back!

[@cholec9230]

so shocked and surprised! i hope you're happy healthy and doing well in life--we all missed you lots and were thinking about you! like others said, i can't believe this was such a huge part of my life in middle school and now i am sitting in a college class (wishing i could watch this immediately instead.) lots of love!

[@HerbOlTea]

Wow seeing this channel pop up again sent such a wave of nostalgia. I'm excited for this.

[@m1randa638]

I was 13 in 2016 and TJLC + your videos were such a source of happiness for me at the time. Series 4 was a disappointment, but your videos had such a positive impact - they were my first look into fandom and analyzing media, something I love to do now. So thank you for the time and effort you put into TJLC explained, it certainly wasn't for nothing. I'm excited for your new projects :)

[@peckgardner]

You never dissapoints us, on the contrary your videos gave us more excitement about the series. The queerbaiting was always there, it's plain obvious and no one can argue with that. Why the writers put it there? Only them know but they are the only ones to blame here since they played with people, with their own fans. We just were receptive to what they were giving us and you did a project on that, not only on the series but also on the canon stories. I'll always be grateful for your videos and I still watch them to this day ( even if I already watched them like 10 times) they live in my head rent free. So from a Sherlock Holmes fan thank you so much

[@juliangross3192]

all of that sounds like it would really help me and i'm sure many others who were burned by the show. thank you so much for your sustained effort, looks like we might actually get some catharsis/closure for this whole fandom experience. none of what happened was your fault though, i want to emphasize that again. but some group healing might be nice:)

[@Eli-pi4eh]

I’m SOOO curious on what your take is going to be in this video after S4. Personally it felt like we all got our expectations wayyy too high and were disappointed that it didn’t happen in S4. Realistically, I know I would’ve really enjoyed the last series if I hadn’t gotten so invested in TJLC and was convinced that This Is It. That sucked, but I don’t regret the fun I had watching these vids. We got SO MUCH in S4. Sherlock has an understanding of himself, they’ve both cleared the air, and John is no longer married whilst Rosie seems to have a ball with both of them. Wishing everyone here a good day, it’s nice to see the gang up and running again.

[@Aleteyya]

I'm crying right now, but thanks to you I'm smiling now. I missed you. I'm glad to see you. Greetings from Russia

[@morganadelacour]

I just want to say, even after season 4 and even when I could only look back at BBC Sherlock with bitterness, I always looked back at your videos with fondness. To me, tjlc was one of the best parts of being a fan of BBC Sherlock and not even the bitter ending could take those fond memories away. It was fun, philosophical, queer, and all of that was so important to me during that time. Sure, I turned my back on BBC Sherlock after season 4 and have seldomly looked back since, but you are not to blame for that. Maybe it's easier to think that way for me because I was never that deep in the fandom and maybe even a little bit sceptical, but nonetheless I think that you had good intentions and should not be blamed for what happened. To me, it was deeply impressive how much love and passion you put into this and I think it showed me that being passionate about a certain media was actually quite cool. So, what I'm trying to say is: To me personally, tjlc and your videos have brought a lot of joy and they weren't to blame for the disappointment I felt after season 4.

[@hienanhpham3447]

Hi, I just want to say that you're right. You're not the only person that has first seen BBC Sherlock this year. With all my love, I believe that JohnLock is real, TJLC is right after all. Thank you for making my 2021's day. I love you so much. P/s: Sorry if my grammar is bad. I've just seriously learnt it for 3 months

[@lulumizzy]

Thank you, I know I was just a dumb kid when I watched all your videos and everything, but hearing you apologize and explain where you’ve been is really nice and I appreciate it. Ngl, season four hurt like a bitch and I haven’t touched bbc Sherlock since. Props to you for having the strength to go back and interact with the show and fandom all these years later. Thanks again for apologizing and updating us on things

[@DapperDiktator]

Thank you so much for this.

[@emilyreinl4775]

First of all, you are not the one who let us down, so please please try not to feel guilty. I am so excited to get more content from you and am really looking forward to seeing where you go with these projects - I think you're right that it may be cathartic. I have not rewatched the show since series 4 (other than the Gay Pilot), but you have now inspired me to maybe give it another watch.

[@mysteriousgirl4]

1. I missed you 2. I love you 3. I legit love listening to your voice explain discourse on this and this channel was one of my emotional support channels so I'm thrilled it's back. 4. I am fascinated with discourse and media analysis regardless of the outcome. A bad show is not your fault and we still had a lot of fun with it :) life's all about the journey, not the destination.

[@TehMael]

Even though Johnlock has become to me like an old friend who I might see once a year, I've been thinking of you since TFP and hoping you were okay. I'm glad to see that you're healing and creating 🥺 Very excited to see what's coming up!!!

[@catrionaclark8041]

This channel got me through some REALLY bad months as a teenager and though I took s4 badly it could never undo those crucial moments where these videos made me excited and optimistic for the future, so. What did we even lose here

[@fatimagilsanchez133]

I just want to say thank you. You have no idea how much you were such a safe space for me in the worst time of my life. Now, I’m feeling content and happy for the first time ever, and watching you and watching Sherlock (a show that I still love regardless of what happened) feels like I found something I lost and needed. Thank you so much, I’m glad you’re here

[@MsMarioWASD]

Ok. So, prior to S4 and TJLC explained, I had just started watching Sherlock and had never heard of Johnlock. I think I came here through Tumblr and started watching TJLC explained right before S4 aired. I binch-watched this, I did nothing but eat, sleep und watch this. (I didn't make it all the way through before S4 aired, but almost.) I loved it. With every episode I fell in love with Johnlock more and more, and iItruly started to believe. And I still do. I still believe in TJLC. At no point did you disappoint me. And no point was I ever mad at you for getting me into this or anything. (I am still mad at Mofftiss though.) In fact, I think I owe you a big thank you. It's been a couple of years so I don't quite remember, but it could be well possible that getting this much into TJLC explained and therefore Johnlock, is the reason I got into reading fanfic. And fanfic really helped me through tough times and it still does. I discovered my love fore reading, I made online friendships, I learned so much about myself. Maybe I'd never gotten into it had I now watched this. So thank you. And I am SO excited to read your fic and for your further projects on this channel.

[@melodytannerclark]

You’re right now. You were right then. Any writer knows that narrative is still open. We were abandoned in the middle of a storyline for a reason. And it’s not because of personality conflicts.

[@nikistammwitz2041]

Thank you for making this video. I don't think you have anything to feel ashamed for or guilty about. You were really passionate and excited about a version of the series that your arguments and thorough analysis made very plausible. We all chose to enjoy your content and get excited too! The producers of this particular adaptation and the general public might not have been ready for this version yet, but that does not mean that it should not be discussed and celebrated for what it could be and mean for queer people. You made a lot of this tangible and possible in our minds, and that's what I am thankful for. I also bonded with my then crush over TJLC...we got married in July! So your channel is also part of making that happen. You have created lots of possibilities and I think you can be very proud of that. I am looking forward to future content!

[@emmaalc1721]

OMG what ?? i've loved your videos back then !!!! you are back that's crazy

[@myannahansen8667]

Rebs!! Holy cow! I'm so glad you're back

[@KreativeSpinnerin]

I love your Work and this Video, and it is so awesome to see you back. Thank you so much for making it, I honestly can't wait to hear from your Fic Pods and all the other Projects, you have in the making. It must have been a tremendous effort for you, returning to all that's been, especially emotionally, I think. Thank you Rebekah, I'm so grateful, for all you've done, and I hope you stay well. As I said, don't blame yourself for anything that's been.You needed your Time to recover, that's nothing to excuse for. To me, you didn't let anyone down. ❤️Love Lara

[@fanpiresam482]

This series has meant so much to me for such a long time. I couldn't believe it when I got the notification.