I can't find happy memories of Costya at the moment, though I know they are there.

My beautiful son died recently after years of addictions and alcoholism. I can't find happy memories at the moment, it all seems so tragic. They are there, the happy memories, they will come as the shock passes and the dust settles.
I have no energy and have lost purpose for now. I know it is a process, but it is such an unknowable journey, each loss and each grief is different. I find myself looking at two of the paintings I did of him over the years, for the Addicts And Those Who Love Them exhibition, and remember so well each situation. I am so glad and comforted that I was with him at those times now, though at the time it was very dramatic.
#addiction #grief #death

[@ilyaasmo6582]

What a beautiful painting

[@EileenR11]

Such a beautiful boy. ❤ So much sadness. Words are hard at such times, but just wanted to say I am thinking of you. xxx

[@antoniarolls]

He loved you so much too. Thank you Eileen x