Are Schizophrenia Simulations Accurate?

I live with schizoaffective disorder and in this video, I react to and discuss three different schizophrenia simulations. You can find links to the full videos discussed and shown below.
Videos shown:
"Schizophrenia Simulation"
• Video
"Realistic Schizophrenia Simulation"
• Realistic Schizophreni...
"Sometimes (I'm schizoaffective)/All Of The Time (I'm human)"
• Sometimes (I'm schizoa...
When I discuss each video:
00:00 - Introduction
02:32 - "Schizophrenia Simulation"
14:30 - "Realistic Schizophrenia Simulation"
25:18 - "Sometimes (I'm schizoaffective)/All Of The Time (I'm human)"
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[@akira4085]

Are you sure your not just possesed?

[@fn3ee]

What kind of question is that

[@akira4085]

@@fn3ee well I mean it's possable , right?

[@2KMMC2]

Still waiting for you to the voice you know so well

[@godsentjesustosetusallfree9859]

Is it possible for you to make your own simulation?

[@mindblock3928]

The first one could double as a "tall person" simulator.

[@Tser]

My exact thoughts. "Wow, this is what it's like to be tall!"

[@dorkasaurus.gretch]

:o I've always wondered

[@stilljustawalrus8135]

LOL I thought that too😂😂

[@oj5015]

Ahaha same

[@glockmodder]

@@dorkasaurus.gretch its exactly like that lol

[@autisticguitar666]

wow but now imagine living homeless with this.

[@TheGuywithaChannel]

That's why educational videos like these are so important; hopefully people with the power to make change see them!

[@autisticguitar666]

@MPaulina MZúñiga what do you mean?

[@autisticguitar666]

@MPaulina MZúñiga Well I think especially if you have mental health problems it can be beneficial to have someone around, don´t you agree?

[@shannonhenry7608]

😔

[@H33t3Speaks]

I remember.

[@heartyou7840]

I think that the hardest part of living with schizophrenia is the fact that you must survive in pure logic. You can't trust your intuition, it's just broken. Chances are you'll end up hurting yourself and others most of the time, because the gut feeling that tells you something is wrong is always active

[@dreamerwav698]

thats an interesting way of putting it! definitely helps me see it a more clear light, thank you :)

[@rachelambereverleigh9308]

Most Schizophrenics do NOT hurt others. The majority of them hides behind closed doors. Definitely most of them are completely harmless towards others

[@DavedtheWay]

wow so true. How does one cope with this shit?

[@LittleGlockLittle]

Yeah I'm not schizophrenic but have been in psych wards more than once and I've seen some of the breakdowns they can cause it was sad to see the way people treat them one of the kindest humans I've ever met was schizophrenic the only time I wasn't having a good time around her was when she had an panic episode but she was so kind otherwise

[@computerjantje]

That is a very good point. thank you for mentioning it.

[@samanthamurphy9187]

My late son, Mikail, was schizophrenic and bi-polar. This world was SO HARD for him. As much as I miss my son I'm consoled by the knowledge that he doesn't have to fight those Demons anymore. He's finally at peace. God I miss him so much.

[@Cthulhuly]

Sorry for your loss Samantha my partner has it I hope I don't lose her

[@mlblvchiladybug]

Oh darl I'm so so sorry for your loss. I hope you're doing alright.

[@samanthamurphy9187]

I'm great most days. I promised my son I'd live a long, happy life filled with adventure for both of us. I will.

[@samanthamurphy9187]

@@SM-ko9nd When he was young and it was up to me he did. But he hated how it felt so as an adult he fought his demons on his own with me as his support.

[@stilluntamed6353]

Condolences

[@Thomas_fn]

imagine someone who has high self esteem constantly hearing “your sexy “get em beast” shit like that

[@liljim2221]

You mean Kanye?

[@sassysasha9127]

@@liljim2221 DEAD🤣🤣🤣

[@ogechiokeke3929]

The sabbath is on a Saturday not on a Sunday this is the mark of the beast. If the world forces this on you don’t budge. The head symbolizes your choice and your hand represents your work. Keep the sabbath day Holy.

[@zimora4422]

LMAO

[@ogechiokeke3929]

@@zimora4422 Don’t do that it’s a sin. God hates it when you sin. Stop with the swearing and slander Jesus Christ hates it. Ask for forgiveness and repent of all your sins

[@cloud.watcher]

people with schizophrenia must be so patient, i can’t even imagine how frustrating and it unfair it feels

[@tregudger1411dog]

In retrospect I am very patient, but there are moments where I have little to no patience and everything really pisses me off such as people the task at hand (especially at work) and music that i listen to all day to try to stay occupied in my mind. Shout out to everyone with a mental illness who choose's to live, I understand how difficult it is. life was difficult enough with out a diagnosis

[@zaifitzgerald2734]

i just diagnosed schizopernic last month, glad it's not that bad. Just some voices, laugh, and sometimes shadow people standing around me.

[@stonewilson3337]

@@tregudger1411dog music helps me a lot, also working out has been a life saver and improving my mental health.

[@haaatski]

@@zaifitzgerald2734 you ok man?

[@zaifitzgerald2734]

@@haaatski its better now, thanks

[@daymienkaiser]

I was diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder when I was 24. Personally for me, the voices can be so deceiving that it’s almost impossible for anyone to convince me that they aren’t real. My worst attack ever was one of the first, prior to being medicated. It lead to hallucinating in all 5 senses which was so surreal and overwhelming. I have interacted with people I thought I was in sexual encounters with and also physical altercations as well. It’s a different kind of terror when your dad runs out of his corporate office and is violently shaking you out of an attack because you thought you were actually in a physical fight with someone in a parking lot, pointing a gun at a man in a truck beside me that doesn’t even exist because you thought they drew their weapon on you first and was threatening to kill me. I purchased the gun a few days before because “they” had warned me that they were coming for me. The voices prior to that day were warning “they” were coming for me because they convinced me that I had run over a child and I ran away because I was so scared. My dad at the time was working at Disney ABC in Burbank, CA. When he ran out, he was telling me that “she” (the girl I kept telling him I ran over) wasn’t real and I argued with him for nearly 20 minutes. I was screaming at the truck with my gun drawn trying to show him they were trying to kill me for running their child over and that I didn’t see her and I was so sorry. I won’t go on, but it was truly the most terrifying moment of my entire life and I’m glad I had my dad there to take me to get admitted and held until the medicine started working. I wish this evil illness upon no one.

[@sick53]

when u get the chance could you tell me more about the fight with your hallucinated figures do they respond or just attack u and are they familiar to u

[@stellamariefanboy.6768]

Do you got any recommendations on how to help people with schizophrenia? What happens when they’re in an episode? Should I do something? If you don’t mind me asking, (I’ll revoke my comment if it’s rude or annoying)

[@hwllopa]

this is definitely the devils work. its real, but you can learn to ignore it. stay strong!

[@ArkaMondal-xi2oj]

Hey, I'm 16 and my brother's 13, and he's had autism spectrum disorder and Schizophrenia ever since the start of the Covid pandemic. It's incredibly rare for someone his age to have schizophrenia and he hasn't improved since. Can you please tell me how you got better and what I can do to help. He is on Risperdal right now, but i don't know if its right for him, as there has been basically no improvement for a year.

[@reggin6512]

​@ArkaMondal-xi2oj show pictures of him before the episode, talk about memories that happend outside of the episode. 2 really good words to say are 'It's okay"

[@pootoobaby738]

My cousin hears multiple negative voices all at once, like a cafeteria where everyone is talking full volume, saying horrible things to him or hearing random pointless conversations. I feel for him because his case is so severe. Love to the schizophrenics out there

[@arleneeie]

Tell him he can trust u

[@LaciRae]

i hear the collective conscious (cafeteria) also. it’s never negative tho. sometimes i hear clear conversations or “speeches” but they’re never about me personally. they’re either pointless or insanely interesting. it’s been this way my entire life. i hope it doesn’t turn negative some day.

[@Teenpig24]

You explain this so carefully and sounds like what I have heard from others with schizophrenia

[@PTS..to..SP..and.BEYOND]

My daughter hears a running commentary of everything she is doing. She will be driving a car and hear, “she is turning left .. she turned left.. stopped at the stop sign, etc etc”. I asked her what happens if you turn the radio on and sorta loud, will it cover up the voices? And she said no, instead the voices start singing their commentary instead. She has been at our house and will be in the next room…. She will come running into the room I am in and start yelling at me for talking about her. It is really sad cause once she came crying and said, “mom why do you think I am such a horrible person; if you really need to talk about me can you at least wait until I leave the house. What you say hurts so bad”. We will be like, “baby, we weren’t talking about you or anyone at all. We were talking about what week we want to go camping and how the weather might be like”. Sometimes it is so hard to convince her that we were in no way at all talking about her. And it sucks for me to think that she sometimes believes the things she “hears” us say.

[@PTS..to..SP..and.BEYOND]

She had security cameras set up at her business and she would make me watch the videos over with her because every time she watched a particular clip she would see a different animal or different “creature/human like” walking thru the room. And she wanted me to tell her **which one** was the real thing. There was absolutly nothing there. One time she was so convinced that she was seeing things in these security videos that she showed me like 5 or 6 different clips in a row, and each one had nothing. I almost started to think I was the one that was “off” because I didn’t see anything and she was so damn convincing that there was something there. I asked, “can’t you just not even look at the security cameras?” She just couldn’t. Something was always telling her that she had to check the cameras and if she didn’t something bad was going to happen to her.

[@sweettea455]

My own inner dialogue tells me this kind of stuff, telling me I'm worthless and nobody likes me, (because I have high functioning depression and generalised anxiety disorder), I couldn't imagine how hard it would be to have uncontrollable voices telling u that too :(

[@chelsea196]

Same here. It’s hard for people to understand because they take it as I’m so important that everyone it watching me, thinking negatively, judging etc. it’s not that tho. I couldn’t imagine 😢

[@bluecannibaleyes]

Yeah from my experience with anxiety, some of those videos kind of depict what it’s like to have an anxiety attack, although without the *literal* voices. Some of it was very similar to the thought process of my own inner voice during an anxiety attack, though. I feel like the physical symptoms (muscle tension, shortness of breath, sweating, difficulty swallowing, etc.) that go along with it can’t really be emulated through just a video, though. I’d imagine that people with schizophrenia would often experience similar physical symptoms as well during a psychotic episode. The people who made the videos probably felt that ‘sensationalizing’ it/exaggerating it a bit was the best way to get the viewer to experience some of the same anxiety that the schizophrenic person would be experiencing, like how people feel afraid when watching a horror movie. I think it has to do more with the medium being unable to accurately produce a physical anxiety response in most people without having them view something that is frightening to them. For someone with anxiety like me, just hearing a doorbell ring will set off an instant fight or flight response. But for a normal person, it’d probably take something a bit more out of the ordinary like an unexpected explosion in a coffee cup to have them experience a similar startle reaction. So they had to ‘sensationalize’ it in order to replicate the mental/physical state for the average viewer.

[@chazchillings3019]

I’ve had these thoughts from my own narrative. Even like steal this, punch that person. It is surprising though that these people have it on a daily basis.

[@grace5291]

Chelsea Ciais man I had an awful therapist once who told me no one cared about me when I explained my fears of everyone who saw me judging me...

[@chelsea196]

Grace that’s so terrible! I’m so sorry! They definitely should not be a therapist. I’ve never seen one I’m told that people are supposed to just deal and to “get over it” or it’s not real. Some people can be terrible. I just want someone in my life that actually understands. Sometimes I feel crazy inside. I feel all these things except I just don’t hear an actual voice in my head. But my over active imagination and over thinking. People think it’s me feeling so important that the whole world is always looking at me. It’s can’t go to the store alone because I feel people are watching, judging etc. and it’s NOT because I believe I’m so important that people are always looking at and paying attention to me. Or because someone does something I over think and assume I did something wrong

[@jackd.rifter3299]

I'm diagnosed schizophrenic and for me, it's like I can hear my friends saying bad things about me from another room and I obsess over it until I go to the other room and I realize nobody was ever there and they all went to bed hours ago.

[@deleted3650]

its only starting had similar symptoms it will get worse but im cured now since i stopped smoking weed and was drinking medicine for 3 years now i dont hear anything hope you too will get cured remember to drink your medicine even if it makes you feel like vegetable . my brain develop tolerance after year and medicine started helping if you wonder what medicine helped me i live in EU so idk will u have it its Gabapentinum and Haloperidol and cyclodol combo

[@jackd.rifter3299]

@Deleted There's no cure for schizophrenia, I've been schizophrenic since I was 8 years old and it doesn't go away even if I take medication.

[@jackd.rifter3299]

@Ded0099 Yeah, it happens more than I would like to admit. I will admit I always have a smaller feeling that everyone's lying to me and that it's like "The Truman Show" but I know these friends would tell me and they even told me today that they really appreciate me and I'm not an inconvenience at all.

[@VoltairesRevenge]

@@jackd.rifter3299 Well, what else would they say? It’s not like they’re going to tell you. And that’s where it kicks into high gear to me because everyone is a liar.

[@isabellaandrade2678]

I have bipolar but yes oh my god I went through this when I was going through psychosis, I would feel so many people there who weren’t even there

[@Medicalguy]

People with this condition are the most badass people in my opinion. To live essentially a waking nightmare that is out of your control and being able to shrug it off is real inspiring to me as a medical provider.

[@DealtwithImpunity]

The majority of them do not walk it off, that's why the suicide rate is so high and life expectation so short for them

[@MargaritaMagdalena]

I've lived with a schizophrenic for 12 years, 8 of those I was under 18. This is not my experience at all. The schizo in my life was toe-curlingly arrogant, cynical, rude, obscene, immature, and incredibly selfish and entitled. The real bad..sses are the loved ones of these people who have to put up with them, especially the helpless underage children.

[@someoneunknown7655]

@@MargaritaMagdalenalooking at your comments on this video it’s pretty clear that you’re projecting your trauma onto people with schizophrenia as a whole. It’s extremely hurtful for people with schizophrenia and for people with loved ones with schizophrenia. I’m sure there’s are better ways for you to express your trauma that doesn’t involve being needlessly rude in youtube comments

[@MargaritaMagdalena]

@@someoneunknown7655 "your projecting"

[@MargaritaMagdalena]

@@someoneunknown7655 🤣🤣🤣

[@EthanBuzzy]

I've got OCD and PTSD so I get really bad intrusive thoughts, extreme delusions and paranoia, so I can understand some of this, but I feel like the voices are quieter and easier to ignore than with what you go through, so I respect you for going through what many people would be scared of, daily.

[@sonicartzldesignerclan5763]

there million of sorts of schizophrenia and just a few can listen voices thats the only reason why people like you and other know this sickness cause hearing voices is creepy but like i said out of 10 people with schizo just one will hear voices the other got other syndroms. Hearing voices dosnt mean you got schizophrenia thats the biggest mystic failure people ever spreaded. You can hear voices with autism too and even as a non sick person you can hear voices in your head. Cause our brain can work like that based on how the links are connected.

[@madalines]

exactly this... its not exactly voices as it is my own thoughts being all jumbled and arguing and critiquing over every little thing i do. my inner monologue and the voice in my brain are like two little people arguing over my every move lmao

[@IX_4]

Nice cat

[@EthanBuzzy]

@@IX_4 it is not my cat, sorry, but yes very nice cat

[@1truthbegettingtold275]

I promise you, those thoughts are demons. I recently had some paranormal experiences, here to make sure I ain't crazy even though I know what I saw in my room with my lighter levitating and walking on a haunted road. I had been dealing with loneliness from women after a life of PTSD and it gave amplification to intrusive thoughts or gave them entirely. I feel better now most of the time.

[@xxxhomearest3527]

All fun and games untill the voices dont stop when the video does

[@tsbredlight9481]

😂😂 bruh

[@jsisisisjjsjsjsj2819]

Thanks for the laugh🤣

[@marihell4296]

lol me

[@almonds8895]

o of

[@Z5Z5Z5]

💀

[@Bloodyred2010]

i LOVE how she says “personally i” every time she mentions her symptoms and how they differ from what she’s seeing. it shows that she’s aware that others with schizophrenia have their own unique voices/symptoms.

[@10MinutestoRouletteFortune]

yes, we all experience other things as not one person experiences the same. Early on we learn that in therapy and group sessions are sure to point out how our experiences are unlike other's.

[@Bloodyred2010]

Allison Phillips you obviously have zero idea what you’re talking about so i’m not even going to start with you. i hope you educate yourself more before inserting yourself into things.

[@JustBrowsingLol]

wow you’re so smart, dodo.

[@docmartin9252]

@@allisonphillips4333 that's not fair, she is talking from her point of view, if you think you have a better perspective on this problem than others your probably more delusional than most.

[@vintagegirl3989]

Off topic but you’re so pretty! Do u have insta ¿

[@CristiandlfDeval]

I was diagnosed with schizophrenia 20 years ago as a teenage. Spent my whole life fighting schizophrenia. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.

[@KicksConceptsshoes]

Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here.

[@JanetRichardson-mq5es]

Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Australia. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them

[@SusanaGomez-mp8sk]

YES very sure of Dr.benfungi. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.

[@Edennnn926]

100% agree I used to have Psychosis and paranoid thoughts like "people thinking about me talking about me etc. Very odd behavior after getting off Adderall from 7-16. Antidepressants at 18-29. 31 now. I took way to much, but took about 20g of Gold caps (Psilocybin containing mushroom) I analyzed my entire life. The emotions that came out helped me understand behavior etc more. Wont ever need to do it again because I'm happy and contempt forever, but I wish more people did this to alter their perception of reality. Would help with healing much trauma

[@JohnDavis-zr8gf]

How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta

[@somewhatwoolly]

I really appreciate how much less scary you make schizophrenia seem. It runs in my family and I've been afraid of developing it my whole life. I'm smack in the middle of the common window of development and have been thinking about it more often the past couple of years. It still seems like a scary condition but the shadow I've felt looming over my life seems a lot less dark having watched a number of your videos. Thank you so much. The content you create is so important and your willingness to be vulnerable is really admirable.

[@vivalanina]

She seems to fiddle with her engagement ring whenever she's looking for comfort and I find that very touching. :)

[@plokijum]

Relationship goals 😭

[@your_dad_on_vacation]

I always fiddle with my ring (like twisting, spinning, and sliding up and down my finger) it's very comforting and calming

[@RageBearer]

Having a physical item like a ring or other object can be a method of grounding in reality

[@Jackmerius_Tacktheritrix5733]

Best of luck to the simp that would put up with this for a lifetime and pass it on to his future kids.

[@Ameliamaemay1990]

@@Jackmerius_Tacktheritrix5733 put up with what? What is the “this” you are referring to? Please explain in detail how what you said is worth typing. 👍🏻

[@normxlfxm]

My voice once screamed "he's walking away because you stink" before and it was way funnier irl than they made it seem in the video because mine came out of nowhere, it did scare me but it was too random to make me spiral

[@CutestMaximus]

You don't have to answer (Sorry if this is rude), but does your voice sound like a person you have met before, or is it just random? Also, do you have multiple voices?

[@-sebastianmichaelis-1441]

@@CutestMaximus The voices I hear normally sound like someone is standing next to me. It is the voice of my father, but it can be different for other people.

[@vonniesmind2084]

The voices I hear, some are woman and calming actually, and they speak to you. I call them that bad friend that don't know she too old for the club. One of them in particular the one that sounds like a combination of a man and woman is rude. Keeps on interrupting convos making jokes while I'm in a serious situation or talking while I'm trying to pay attention just saying nonsense. So yeah I'm the type that keeps laughing and talking to myself. They literally sound like they right behind you. The worst is when they sound like people in my actual life because that's when I react. The voices favorite thing to do is pointing out "options" on how to handle situations and they sound completely ridiculous.

[@CutestMaximus]

@@-sebastianmichaelis-1441 Thanks for letting me know! I was generally curious.

[@ChexNyx]

Kata Nina It can be, actually. Depends

[@Glomly]

I had schizophrenic episodes a few times and all voices I've heard were never exactly clear. Usually it was my brain interpretating different noises, assigning them real meaning. I could hear people "talking" through walls (it happened in a hotel) and i thought i could understand what the conversation was about (and surprisingly they were all about me, and all disturbing). For example i thought my neighbor was planning to call cops on me and just generally hated me. There were more symptoms of "hallucinations" but looking back i see that all of them were generally me assigning extra meaning to things that do not actually contain enough information to extract real meaning from. What helped me is when i realized that I definitely CAN hear the difference between someone ACTUALLY saying something to my face and those "voices", so i learned to not hear them at all anymore.

[@p996onyasix8]

I've been getting something like that to it's almost like your tricking your self it's not like they sound real or anything I can definitely tell the difference between a real voice and these muffle background noise that you trick your self to thinking its voices I think it's just normal paranoia as I been afraid of caching schizophrenia I'm also autistic so I get these kinda weird paranoid fears alot I definitely don't go threw this crazy stuff I seen in this vid I feel bad for people that have to go threw this

[@neckbackcripplinganxietyattack]

I don’t have schizophrenia, but I had what was close to a psychotic episode once, a dissociative episode. I was convinced everyone round me was a robot, and I was the only one who was real. It was terrifying, the scariest thing I’ve ever experienced, so isolating. Cannot imagine going through that again, props to anyone living with this full time.

[@X.x.SwagMaster420.x.X]

Idk if I have schizophrenia or not but I woke up one day and saw my blanket form a face and morph into a fleshy substance

[@kennethwilliams2738]

Something like your not actually alive, your in a coma and the life you are living is just a dream. These thoughts can be terrifying. The best way to deal with such a conundrum, just live and do the best you can haha. I would be pretty happy if I was better at something than a super advanced robot lol. Or “who cares if I am in a coma, I’m living and life is beautiful” nature is beautiful. Make it a beautiful dream :)

[@brianna094]

That experience is terrifying because it almost seems plausible

[@Comet_editz]

i actually really relate to this exact experience. it's very scary. 🫂

[@robinackermann7711]

@@X.x.SwagMaster420.x.X Those are called Hypnopompic hallucinations and are often times associated with sleep paralysis

[@threedollaya8860]

quarantine has taught me so much more about the human mind than school ever has.

[@cubecomber9162]

Quarantine doesn't teach you things, you teach yourself things in quarantine.

[@chadretrofilms7824]

A man has no name shut up

[@foodforever3633]

@@robertpaulson4960 America sucks

[@prism8083]

Same man

[@ninabonita1129]

FACTSSSS

[@ashleygarcia.a]

Bro I even felt overwhelmed watching this. I can’t imagine what schizophrenic people go through dealing with these voices.

[@rose21869]

yea it’s hard..

[@rose21869]

Most time I just hide in my room.. it’s hard to believe that these things are only in your head

[@paweszczygielski7892]

I found that so annoying

[@joshuagraham3]

Sounds like doing homework while your parents fight in the back ground

[@aspen2098]

I can't even get a job due to my psychosis and schizophrenia. I have to be entirely dependant on my fiance. It's awful. I feel less than human every single second of my life and there's absolutely no way to stop it :(

[@Santibag]

ADHD and Autism can be problematic in today's society, but schizophrenia is just scary. I'm glad there are some things you guys can do to manage it. I hope for a definite treatment to be invented too.

[@Leopardvixen369]

I’m also AuDHD. It really stinks in today’s environment, especially because I have sensitive hearing and other sensory issues. Certain fabrics are a no go. Fabric can actually make me angry just looking at it. I also have problems making friends. I have no best friend. I have one friend I don’t see often. I’m not the best at reciprocating in a friendship. I’m often lonely. I spend most of my time by myself wrapped up in one of my hyperfocuses. My brain is often super overstimulated. All this is nothing compared to schizophrenia. This video is no joke. I feel so sorry for people who have schizophrenia. 😢

[@johannacochran9599]

@@Leopardvixen369yes. Totally identify and agree.

[@12toro]

Autism is really bad for me. I can't enjoy anything and learning is hard unless it is something I know. I constantly have paranoia that everyone I know hates me. I feel like I can't communicate without feeling pain in my chest. I have suicidal thoughts constantly. I do things based on fantasies I have of famous people I look up to hypothetically finding me or seeing me even though I know it will never happen. But my obsessions influence my behavior and i feel fear. I am overly sensitive etc. Thankfully I have a bit of a hold and I am "higher" on the spectrum. People "lower" can't even communicate on average with the majority of the outside world due to overstimulization.

[@12toro]

I don't know if I want a full treatment but at the same time I wish I didn't have any negative symptoms

[@kiararosario2552]

so, I have OCD, anxiety and depression, and i experience all of these symptoms but to a much lesser degree. I suppose the difference would be how well i’m able to distinguish my delusions from reality, however when i am in a very anxious and ocd ruminating state of mind, it feels very very similar to this. it’s interesting to think about how mental illness symptoms share so many similarities, and yet are very different.

[@bellaa8663]

i have the same diagnosis and the same exact experience watching this. like mirrors are parallel universes, there's hair remover in my shampoo, contamination obsessions, intrusive thoughts very very bad. shadows out the corner of my eye. feeling like people are always talking about me. it's crazy to me how these same same things happen. but it's not the same. makes me wonder if ocd could be a type of schizoeffective disorder.

[@madalines]

@@bellaa8663right??

[@fictional-girl_05]

I think it's really cool how while she could have totally been "No, this isn't how this happens at all", she usually just goes with, "I can't speak for other people, but that's not how I've experienced it personally."

[@ileryon4019]

Well thats how it should be

[@morganalabeille5004]

Yeah experiences can vary pretty wildly between different people with the same conditions.

[@fictional-girl_05]

@@morganalabeille5004 Yeah I mean I have autism but in no way is my experience going to be exactly the same as another autistic person’s.

[@psychadelicpotato8580]

@@ileryon4019 yeah but sadly thats not how people are

[@lai8544]

Yes, she is really nice

[@apriljasso9731]

My dad is a paranoid schizophrenic and I love him more than life. He's 100% disabled and a Vietnam Veteran. He's also my hero and the smartest person I've ever met and the best dad in the world in spite of his illness. He's my superman.

[@BBlueGirl]

I wish all the best for you and your father 😊

[@servicarrider]

You are a lucky girl. Best of luck to you and your dad.

[@kondrashovoleg]

This comment is sweetness itself

[@serahroselyne5069]

My dad is also paranoid schizophrenic.. I was 11 when he was diagnosed.. It was a rough road and i didn't understand it so i took his behavior personal and was mad at him for a while because of it. He is also 100% disabled because of it. Ive been working in mental health for a few years now and our relationship os better than its ever. Hes one of the strongest, most brave people ive ever met.

[@TheGong00zler]

❤️❤️

[@regularben5357]

Wow that last simulation was very revealing for me. I have a hard time seeing my illness for what it is I think because I frequently block out these experiences then forget about them until they return again. But this helped me see that I’m dealing with delusions paranoia and intrusive thoughts. Thanks so much for you’re compassion and understanding.

[@esmeraldalucio406]

I agree wholeheartedly with this. It just becomes so normal especially when you get in the motion of tuning things out. Also putting a name and definition on it really puts things into perspective 😅 for so long I didn't put 2 and 2 together

[@margoburns9085]

You are incredibly brave. My close friend goes through these same periods. I am his main support outside of his medical team. He shares almost every thought you have talked about. Sending you and your family love and support❤

[@briahnnacurtis9510]

ive dated two people with this disorder (one of them being my current boyfriend who i plan on marrying) and i just like to comfort him and let him know that im here for him and reassure him a lot. one thing that broke my heart is that he told me sometimes he will hear my voice and he will jump up and get all excited because he thinks im at his house and say "babe? baby?" and then he realizes its just the voices. im moving in with him in less than two weeks and im just ready to actually be there and help him.

[@Naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa1]

You’re a literal queen

[@martianmerit4285]

You are awesome.

[@Naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa1]

@@martianmerit4285 no u❤️❤️❤️

[@aspenhelsten6927]

You’re amazing

[@sprinklesofbts]

Wishing all the best for your relationship!

[@foreverysa8208]

For everyone talking about her blinking; I study psychology and one of the early signs of s.e. dx is accelerated blinking. It’s neurological and like she said its due to overwhelming stimuli. She’s watching videos full of triggers.. I would say that’s quite overwhelming which is causing some of her own symptoms to flare causing the blinking. She may not even be aware that she’s doing it. Could also be a coping mechanism to deal with what she’s watching.

[@onedadsbattle]

Curious if you know why the opposite would happen. I tend to forget to blink, sometimes for long periods of time..........

[@mightybean7840]

When I was working in the hospital in the float pool, there were times our mental ward would be short handed so they would send me there. And were a few schizophrenics that would not blink. I would talk with them and they would just stare at me with such intensity no blinking. It would be quite uncomfortable, unsettling. I would wonder what are they seeing? Are they purposely not blinking? Out in the street if someone looks at you like that it is time for flight or fight. Despite the thousand yard stare, I did enjoy some of conversations, interesting in fact. One patient did converse with me using Word salad, that was really interesting. But those stares were like seeing a world I couldn't see.

[@Dean444ful]

She’s actually said before that some of the medication for schizophrenia can cause compulsory blinking. She begins blinking before anything triggering appears in the video and I’ve also seen her blinking in other of her videos. I think it’s mostly her medication but could be that some of these triggers increase her blinking

[@deankissell3196]

@@mightybean7840 blink =flight stare=fight???? 🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️

[@matthewgodwin4626]

Some antipsychotic medications cause dry mucous membranes as well, needing higher blinking rates to keep the eyes moistened.

[@niraea]

i found this really interesting and relatable as someone who's had psychotic/delusional episodes due to bipolar disorder! i never had auditory hallucinations (at least not in the form of voices) but the parts about things just feeling *scary*, having intense paranoia and being afraid of your loved ones, thinking you're hearing targeted subliminal messages, and the world being overstimulating really struck a chord with me.

[@sarashinai528]

These kinds of personal explanations of actual experiences, especially in juxtaposition to videos that try to represent something that's so difficult to communicate, are so crucial. Thank you for taking the time and energy to do this and help us all learn.

[@doriennaraine3004]

Schizophrenia sounds scary. I couldnt imagine. Stay strong all.

[@isabeljens9610]

Dorienna Raine I’m so sad for my mom and scared not knowing or being able to help her in any way.

[@billyboner8519]

It can be. But it can be strangely pleasant too. Like a ketamine trip.. Avoiding people helps.. haha

[@themanwiththecrystaleyes464]

I hear and see a man who helps me out in my daily life. It can be scary and depressing but in my case life is completely manageable. Not everyone who’s diagnosed with schizophrenia is a mental ward patient.

[@LoremLorem]

@@themanwiththecrystaleyes464 That's cool dude 😁👍

[@seven7upndown241]

@j You spay spiritual but u dont undestand what it is ans who is in charge of it. And when u said it u know that there are demons and angels that are spirits and how i know that they exsist is the same way u know u have your own spirit. And if u dont put the light ones in ur brain darkness will fill it by itself that is how it works.

[@tprime2702]

Schizophrenia was explained to me as, "You are stressed out, and Navi from Ocarina of Time is narrorating what your doing back to you; and she's a cynic."

[@Tyler_Gill_Music]

LOL

[@avarosesmith9807]

BRO SAME WTH

[@thiscantbrie1456]

hey! listen! no one likes you!

[@sksbc3895]

For anyone suffering from schizoaffective disorder/schizophrenia/depression/anxiety etc., I suggest searching online and reading everything you can find on 'bread madness' or 'bread insanity'. Removing wheat from my diet turned my mental health issues (depression and anxiety) around 100%. The negative effects of wheat on mental health have been known for decades, but the wheat industry is a billion-dollar industry so this information is kept low-key. You can read individual cases online from medical journals proving that the removal of wheat for some people, cures mental illness. This may not work for everyone, but it's worth a try. I can only imagine how frightening these symptoms of schizophrenia/schizoaffective disorder are. Also, watch "What's With Wheat?" for a more in-depth look at the subject.

[@mentok3027]

@@sksbc3895 Just fucking wonderful! I recently found out I'm diabetic so Doctors have been telling me to avoid bread/carbs, and now you're telling me avoiding bread will make the voices go away too??? The voices are telling me to eat a sammich now because I'm self loathing. DAMMNIT!

[@alice20001]

It's incredibly insightful to hear firsthand accounts of people affected by a disorder. Case studies and books do a really good job at talking about medication, what understanding we have, and what avances are being made. But talking to the people directly, if they feel comfortable about it, is another level.

[@Cinnamorxll]

My best friend was the one who recommended this channel for me, and I’m so glad she did. She has Schizophrenia, and I’m so happy there is someone like you who makes videos like these to spread awareness. She has always been very friendly and social, however the effects of Schizophrenia make it harder for her to make friends as some people see her as “crazy” or “weird”. Luckily, that’s not a lot of people and many of our schoolmates love her and do their absolute best to understand her. I’m so proud of her for making it through all of this, even if it came with many struggles. She’s on medication, but she goes off it sometimes, not a lot though as lots of the symptoms have been put under decent control. As someone who also struggles with mental illness (BPD, Depression, PTSD, ADHD, and Histrionic Personality Disorder), it’s great to see so many more people talk about this stuff! In my country not many people feel comfortable expressing this, so this makes me very happy. Sending lots of love! ❤️ あなたにたくさんの愛を送ります!

[@davidrutitsky9518]

My mom has schizophrenia and at times she hears me say the most disgusting things towards her. It's nice to get a look into how she feels so I can help her.

[@finisher3x]

Been dealing with that for over 40 years with my mom. It will wear on you too, especially when she becomes fearful or not trusting you. It also forces you to become the best psychologist you can be, in order to convince her that you didn't and would never say those bad things about her.

[@idaliareyes4456]

@@finisher3x I am going through the same thing with my mom idk what to do 💔💔💔💔💔. Meds for years and I have never had a mom just a mother I miss that

[@idaliareyes4456]

@@zenoameli I’m missing the little parts of her that I do remember ... of someone there maybe it was me being naive and I truly want to believe that she actually really loved me ... she’s in the same town and last time I seen her was when my July 13 2020 grandma died ( her mom ) and she told me my dad is not my dad he’s dead and the other guy is dead and so are my two brothers I was the oldest!!! I feel lost

[@idaliareyes4456]

@@zenoameli good morning and Thank you for taking time and caring for a complete stranger and u said I promise she loves you!!! That hit hard ....

[@sksbc3895]

Big dog Big Bear.... For anyone suffering from schizoaffective disorder/schizophrenia/depression/anxiety etc., I suggest searching online and reading everything you can find on 'bread madness' or 'bread insanity'. Removing wheat from my diet turned my mental health issues (depression and anxiety) around 100%. The negative effects of wheat on mental health have been known for decades, but the wheat industry is a billion-dollar industry so this information is kept low-key. You can read individual cases online from medical journals proving that the removal of wheat for some people, cures mental illness. This may not work for everyone, but it's worth a try. I can only imagine how frightening these symptoms of schizophrenia/schizoaffective disorder are. Also, watch "What's With Wheat?" for a more in-depth look at the subject.

[@richardspinelli1433]

Im a full blown schizophrenic and bipolar have in the worst way suffered my whole life. Sent to prison. On the streets for years. And one day i called the cops on myself and they took me to a rehab and they said they didn't have a bed so i did it again they took me back to the same rehab they said we can't help you. So i crossed the bridge into Harlem and called the cops again and they took me to the hospital and they admitted me to the psychiatric center and they changed my life. I then went on to a mica program did two years. And now have my housing apartment and on my medication and we'll connected sober 3 years. Hope someone reads this

[@madichallen6312]

Props man hope you’re doing good 🤙

[@richardspinelli1433]

@@madichallen6312 Thank you so much im so grateful that this message was read.I never thought I would be in this position in life im in a really good place and have my life together. Mental illness doesn't go away you could only maintain. God bless.

[@dgates6165]

Good for you, man!!! Happy to hear that you're doing well now! Also, I applaud your courage for sharing that about your life!! Take care!

[@richardspinelli1433]

@@dgates6165 thank you god bless

[@mariafox9226]

I’m proud of your successes and realizing that you needed help.

[@thespiralmafia9070]

Hey Lauren, thank you for making this video. I’m a nursing student hoping to get into the behavioral health field and this really brings a good perspective on patients with schizophrenia.

[@adrianzapata4723]

I really appreciate how detailed and thorough you are about each video and its accuracies and inaccuracies. Very insightful. Like when you mentioned in the second how the hallucinations can sometimes interact with real people.

[@k.p.3739]

Strongest people alive....i couldn't imagine how annoying it is.....

[@IamRIDAH]

Don’t try to either lmao

[@topsiekreets1595]

I'm not strong enough. I've had schizophrenia for many years but was making it . The 5 years ago to the month I aquired me a good dose of PTSD. With total amnesia regarding the PTSD. But sence then I've lost all friends ,make it to work mabey 2 days a week and live in a tent in my dad's back yard. Bc no one can handle me screaming when I sleep. Not strong enough

[@topsiekreets1595]

And the PTSD really set the schizophrenia in to where I hit reply public

[@diegoamorim7924]

Topsie Kreets my heart goes out to you❤️

[@CelestialExility]

I have schizophrenia, but my symptoms are very mild. Maybe I'm lucky?

[@Strawberry_shortcake732]

With these simulations, I never find them to be accurate compared to my own experiences. They seem more like horror movies than my disorder.

[@jessebanda9775]

You are lucky I sufder for schizoaffective disorder too and I get scared all the time also a excoworker of mine she used to have schizoaffectve disorder too and she told me she used to see awful things

[@gingerisevil02]

They make me terrified like I'm not good with horror stuff

[@303c5]

I aggre with you

[@codywilliams6194]

sad to say but mines like that all the time, I can barely leave the house and my life has become a horror movie

[@mariemin1539]

The videos aren't going to 100 percent accurate with what YOU are dealing with, but maybe some can relate, i have schizophrenia and if i say so myself i think that there where to many whisper in the background, i never experienced that many whispers and voices all in one time. I sometimes "see" shadows when i'm walking home from college and the voices are all like "they following" "they will kidnap you" "you should hurry home" "faster" "don't be stupid who'll want to kidnap you" and all thing like that, also, when i'm home sometimes i have delusions and see children, animals, and people in general that i don't know and i'll try to continue like i saw nothing cause i know they're not real, is really hard cause i sometimes don't know if the people i'm passing by in daily basis are real or not

[@PaulAdamssongs]

I worked in MH nearly 40 years. You are offering a great service and am sure you are going to be helpful to many!! Very impressive! Thanks.

[@starbannanayt9780]

As a teen who was diagnosed with bipolar schizo-affective disorder 2 years ago, I can really relate with the negative voices, they get really rough and hard to deal with. My hallucinations and delusions are so severe,that keeping in touch with reality and distinguishing between fake and real is like solving a rubik's cube. I moved out of my parents house and have been holding a full time job for 3 years.

[@BlackWidowRocks]

That's great you've been able to be independent! Must be tough to manage but good for you.

[@WoWGirl6]

In some cases schizophrenia sounds like a magnified version of everyone else's insecurities. Like if your fears, paranoia, and insecurities went wild.

[@karenday9109]

That’s what I thought!

[@monkiram]

The difference is that unlike those of us without schizophrenia, they literally "hear" these voices. The primary auditory cortex of their brain lights up on an MRI when they are "hearing voices". This means that their brain processes these like it does other real sounds. For those of us with intrusive thoughts without schizophrenia, we imagine these words but our brain doesn't erroneously believe it physically heard them. Does that make sense? But yes I agree, it's interesting how many of us without hallucinations have thoughts exactly like this

[@WoWGirl6]

@@monkiram yeah it makes a lot of sense. That’s interesting. And yeah I definitely feel many of the things they often “hear.” But that’s my only way of understanding their condition.

[@kameronbetzer8379]

@@monkiram so whereas people with schizophrenia experience this when awake. I sometimes have auditory hallucinations while falling asleep. Most of the time it sounds exactly like a family member abruptly shouting my name out of nowhere. It's usually a big shock like i just fell for a jumpscare.

[@monkiram]

@@kameronbetzer8379 Yes this is actually a very common phenomenon. It's different from dreaming which happens during REM sleep. Hallucinations happen as you're falling asleep and as you're waking up

[@dilara2278]

when i was in a psych ward, i met a boy with schizophrenia he had just turned 18 and his symptoms apparently were so bad he could hardly talk, walk or even just do anything he always looked so weak and like he was in so much pain, he often had seizures too. he was really sweet though and i loved when he talked to me or asked me to color in his coloring books. but the really devastating part is that he had been ''normal'' up until he turned 16 and then he just suddenly started showing major symptoms. when we were eating he often fondled around with his hands and started screaming and telling them to go away. when i stable enough to go home it felt like he was actually getting better i really hope he's okay.

[@hippiehairstylist]

You think if you call that place u guys were at, you could check on him? Like, do you think they'd share any info with u at all? At least about how he's doing. I'm curious too

[@MamaWhit87]

So sweet

[@tylerlevesque1867]

Just out of nowhere at 16? Vaccine

[@venuswright6814]

@@tylerlevesque1867 lmao huh

[@Leo-vy9bk]

Oh no I’m 16 too and I literally started hearing voices in my head like right now in my kitchen and got really paranoid so I ran to my room turned on my lamp and started freaking out, so I started looking at schizophrenic symptoms and also brought me to this video. Idk man I’m shaking and really paranoid like I’m getting startled by minor things...

[@JazzyBeanCan]

I personally love what your doing and I look forward to watching more. I've been dealing with Schziophrenia, and Borderline for a good while now. Only recently have I started to reach a place where I can recognize what is just paranoid delusion and real. It makes me feel so heard to know other people are going through the same thing. I've been struggling with a lot of social anxiety as of late. And the symptoms I experience have been difficult to manage lately. This crap can be a struggle, and it helps to know im not alone. sorry for making this long. Thank you for helping us feel more human I guess 💜💜💜💜💜

[@commenceun]

It's basically the inner-critic, but with actual sounds. That's what I learned from this video. It's not only triggering for schizophrenic people, but with people who suffer from anxiety issues as well. Great video and keep up the good work❤

[@blubrdi1792]

I like that you specify “for me”/“me personally” cause there is always a chance that people are experiencing those things, and you aren’t disregarding other people’s experiences. This video was extremely helpful and educational! Thank you for this!

[@skateranddancer]

I appreciated this aspect as well.

[@merncat3384]

💞

[@ird2607]

nice name ;)

[@donottouch9110]

I found that the most annoying part of the video she kept saying lies someone cares or watches this because it's accurate for her when in really is 100% accurate cause they didn't go to her to make this video did they they went to a realward with people who have been there for years

[@blasianking4827]

@@donottouch9110 Eh, I partially see what you're saying, but ultimately she isn't claiming to be an expert or knowledgeable on the general nature of the disorder. However, by virtue of her lived experiences, and what I assume is self-research, she can testify to what she experiences and point out general inaccuracies if they are present.

[@shannong3194]

schizophrenia is like my anxiety on xgames mode

[@bobabubbletea7141]

Oh my gosh same!!! Wow. Never realized that.

[@samdoesstuff4924]

oh mah gawd he goin xgames mode

[@bobabubbletea7141]

@@samdoesstuff4924 oh mah gawd

[@amaikarai5007]

I was about to comment the same sort of thing, lol.

[@ambarquintero771]

I was thinking the same thing, it’s my anxiety but it’s me basically overthinking multiple what if scenarios, instead of other voices. The phone, answering the door, I do it but anxiety comes through.

[@zenz0ha472]

I appreciate this video so much! I'm not schizophrenic, but I knew someone who was, and he called me one night having terrifying visual hallucinations of shadow people surrounding him... It scared me to hear such fear in his voice, and trying to keep him talking and grounded in reality was painful... I cannot imagine what this must be like, so someone who's willing to explain their experience is helpful and also fascinating. I love being able to understand these types of illnesses better so that I can help those I care about to the best of my ability.

[@Melody-kc1tg]

This is the first video I watched from this channel and I really like how respectfully you comment on the videos.

[@Rp-pc1rl]

My son would refer to the voices as "they" These voices became more cruel as time went on. The voices would tell him to get violent. He became very paranoid and would pace all night when everyone was asleep. He didn't like playing his favorite games anymore because the voices were so demeaning. I felt so heartbroken over my 20 year old son. He was such a sweet, loving young man. My beautiful, I miss you.

[@sharonbell1094]

I'm so sorry. 😞❤️

[@Rp-pc1rl]

@@sharonbell1094 thank you

[@haaatski]

Is he ok now?

[@BriaredEyes]

@@haaatski pretty sure she implied he's no longer with us 😢

[@spamme.]

I'm so sorry for your loss❤️ schizophrenia is a fucking ass, and that's an understatement.

[@lukenaoumovitch4477]

It’s crazy how little you know about a person just from looking at a person. Be kind to everybody! You never know the challenges they go through!

[@smellmyfingers6902]

Yes, thank you, ur right

[@Zach.1809]

What about your “friend” who has betrayed you so many times that you don’t even remember the first time do I really have to be nice to him

[@LilMissTravelPants]

@@Zach.1809 Being kind doesn't mean you have to keep harmful people in your life. Be polite but don't be afraid to put distance up if someone is taking advantage.

[@BEERBOMB113]

Amen. Thank you for your positive energy

[@SamuelBlack84]

Nobody is kind to me

[@captainhook1178]

I was Dx w/ borderline PD back in Uni. And you're helping out a lot of people with your videos. Recently subbed and found this informative and assistive in helping people identify what they are experiencing (not necessarily Schizo) and hopefully, give them the ability to seek help or let the people around them understand how they could help out. Wish this was available a decade ago. 🥰

[@sonatine3266]

Thanks for bringing the topic closer to people like me, who doesn't suffer from this illness. I was simply interested because I've met a schizophrenic dude several times on my way home walking through my street (he was talking to himself... sometimes loud, somes not so loud and one neighbor told me about it) - and beside of that I'm someone wo gets strong medicine (pills and a infusion every 6 weeks) because of a auto immune disease and they have bad side effects, like heavy nightmares and very active dreaming in general. Sometimes it's so bad that I don't want to go to bed, because I know I will get nightmares. So yeah, obviously not comprable (illnesses should never be compared anyways), but this video helped a lot to understand.

[@AnaHaze777]

I think we all need to take a moment to realize how incredibly strong people with Schizophrenia must be. I have borderline personality disorder and with that alone my self worth and just my own inner dialogue is so negative and sad. If I had ANOTHER person in my head telling me all the horrible things I already kinda think about myself I don’t know if I could survive. I’ve been so suicidal on my own. I empathize with you deeply and am so sorry you or anyone ever has to deal with this. *edit: thank you all so much for all the kind comments. I didn’t know anyone even saw this til now. You all are strong and loved and I appreciate you ♥️

[@Layra151301]

@@videokitten bro, seriously?

[@videokitten]

I’m so glad your not suicidal anymore, you are a beautiful person!

[@Inzpectre]

Thank you for the heartwarming comment, i really needed it in a day like this where I'm paranoid no matter what. Ok so, i know it sounds crazy, it is crazy, but yesterday i was waiting for my bus to arrive and some guy trow some trash in a trash can and i don't like to share it but i thought it was a BOMB. It even got to the point where i started imagining it suddenly exploding, so my whole body started bracing for the explosion. But obviously nothing happened, i thought that I'm stupid, and thats the worst part. The voices started to tell me over and over "you're crazy, you're stupid, weak". Then after 10 minutes of those voices i got on the bus, and guess what... MORE VOICES!! I'm extremely paranoid when I'm in public and i always think everyone is against me no matter what, so i thought people on the bus where talking about me, saying terrible things about me, calling me ugly, alone sad and stupid. Those were all hallucinations, but i can't put up with it anymore... I have no idea what to do. These things happen everyday. In class today i suddenly started crying a little bit because the voices keep telling me terrible things, again i think that everyone is against me, so it makes it even worse. I keep thinking people talk negativly about me behind my back, even my closest friends. I know i can trust them, i just dont know if i can trust myself anymore. If you really took the time to read all of this, thank you! I really appreachiate it! I really do.

[@harrymorris6074]

hey annie, hope you're doing ok. i'm diagnosed with adhd, aspergers, bpd and bdd. its tough. fortunately i dont experience any forms of psychosis at all. i do however wish myself dead most days with the volume of disorders i have. i am useless at pretty much everything. i have no social interaction skills, a one minute attention span and a pure hatred for myself and my appearance. things will always get better though with medication and therapy :)

[@harrymorris6074]

@@tiredpumpkin3394 hi, thank you! yes this is encouraged by my psychiatrist as a way of developing self-peace. i believe mindfulness is very effective medicine for anybody enduring sustained mental health battles. you don't always need a diagnosis. i practise daily, it's become routine for me now. deffo has improved my ability for acceptance.

[@jigsawchan5364]

Body language and paraverbal signs clearly demonstrate how uncomfortable those videos make her feel... Hell, it makes ME feel triggered, even though I've never had such experiences... It was very noble of this girl to watch and comment on the videos for people to learn more.

[@GuitarAX7Tutor]

@@gumcat15 watch the self soothing in her hands throughout the video, and the uncomfortable moving around in the seat. Rubbing her neck and touching things that mean a lot to her like the necklace and ring.

[@le0ismyp00kie]

Your profile picture reminds of Pink Diamond from Steven universe

[@ThomasJr]

I think you misunderstood what she meant by trigger, dummy. Trigger here means that seeing those things will cause them to experience their own hallucinations. It's not triggered as in mad. but I believe perhaps you know that, I hope.

[@richardmccabe2392]

@@ThomasJr No, 'trigger' here is used in the sense that it may cause you to feel extreme distress i.e. if the content is related to past trauma and triggers upsetting feelings, that's generally what trigger warnings are for.

[@xrosyxposyx]

I was actually watching her most of the time and noticed this instantly. I don't know much about reading body language but I could see that she was uncomfortable. It's interesting seeing how she physically was reacting to the video and then hearing her comments. You can kind of see the thoughts she shared with us link back with her body language during the clips.

[@paulbreen8533]

It's really good of you to put yourself out there to help other sufferers. I really appreciate people who do that.

[@ProfessorNorris1]

I am really appreciating your videos, and Benjamin's. (I like how you laugh/smile about the "sensationalizd parts."). LOL. They are funny and a bit sensationalized to me also, but not over the top and the accurate depiction far out weigh the simulated parts, in my opinion. and the "overdramatized portions" add value and help to distinguish the accurate from the dramatized... Thank you from the bottom of my heart for making and sharing these. They are helpful.

[@divinekoneko]

My dad was schizophrenic and had really bad symptoms. I loved him, and he loved me. We were super close, and I had to learn that he was a person too. As a kid, I had to see him do some things he definitely regretted, because he was a great guy underneath it all, and a super talented artist/tattoo artist. R.I.P Dad.

[@teal3af49]

I’m so sorry for your loss. Maybe he’ll be giving someone a tattoo in the stars :)

[@divinekoneko]

@@teal3af49 Thank you. I'm sure he's out there in the big blue, giving some sick tattoos to his favorite musicians or something.

[@CForCendetta]

@@teal3af49 hahahaha in the stars 😂 look out we go to the stars when we die hahaha

[@jessicajohnson2904]

❤❤❤ for you

[@divinekoneko]

@@jessicajohnson2904 Thank you. 💟

[@microsoftpowerpoint3039]

him: *wakes up* also him: why do I hear boss music?

[@Murder_Of_Cr0ws]

Lol!

[@jiyaprasoon942]

L O L !

[@-kiwi-]

*_L O L !_*

[@Murder_Of_Cr0ws]

You guys are funny 😂 haha

[@J4SMINE.BUILDS]

BAHAHA

[@user-yg4br8ut5t]

i don’t know that what i experience is hallucinations (because i don’t literally hear these voices as part of my environment or mistake them for real), but the second video is scarily accurate to my internal monologue/conclusions i jump to when i’m feeling overwhelmed. very insightful videos and commentary to put them into context. thank you for sharing

[@gogoquicksilver]

it might be just intense intrusive thoughts and anxiety, i get the same

[@theroomofhiddenpredispositions]

I was diagnosed years ago with schizoaffective disorder depressive type, it's nice to find this channel thanks for making these videos. *EDIT UPDATE* When I heard things in my teen years, they sounded real just like a person talking no echo that's what makes it bad. Things I can't resolve or figure out replay in my head from sensory input residing in my memory, it snowballs when I dwell. I just needed to update this thanks.

[@internetboyfriend7165]

I once heard a muse singing La Vie en Rose for a few minutes and it was one of the most wonderful hallucinations I've ever had, they're not always bad

[@MellowJelly]

That's interesting, I've never heard of someone having a positive hallucination. Each person with schizophrenia I've spoken to have said they only get negative ones

[@MsFuzzipoo]

That's very cool! I have heard of people having enjoyable hallucinations. Actually I just remembered that I've seen it in person! I used to work in group homes for people with severe and persistent mental illness. One of our clients went though a period of time when he hallucinated a group of puppies following him around. They eventually "left" and he said he missed them but was sure they were happy where they ended up. I wish these experiences were more common! My hallucinations are 100% terrible/annoying... Anyway, I'm honestly really happy that there are people, like yourself, who have found moments of incredible joy in their illness.

[@digbeckshow9898]

@@MellowJelly Apparently depending on where you live can sometimes effect what you hear hallucination wise. People in Africa with Schizophrenia reported hearing dead relatives giving advice and angelic humming while people in the States usually report negative hallucinations. Idk i always found that interesting.

[@ryeee_9562]

They really said Stan I*zone (lmao just a joke I hope your doing well)

[@joiedorgan1014]

Autistic hallucinations can be positive and typically are a good way to decipher between schizophrenia or autism

[@justavideodiary]

I think it was very brave to sit through things that can be so difficult to watch for you. Amazing work and so needed.

[@ovok10]

True

[@taintedgrl]

Hallucinating yo momma stfu 😻

[@kyree816]

She said they’re difficult to watch for other people not her

[@jaime8505]

Agreed

[@justavideodiary]

@@m3mory_leak344 excuse me?

[@BritneyNicoleandMyeloma]

This was very interesting to watch as someone who has struggled with ptsd and ocd. I have dealt with intrusive thoughts and they are “my voice” but always fearing something outlandish and extreme. Like “what if this bridge collapses while we are driving on it” and then a visual flash of the aftermath . In my psychology courses we have had a discussion on how it isn’t too hard to imagine how typicality is a spectrum as well as “atypicality”. As we all agreed we all think things that are outlandish sometimes based on fear or worry, however there’s a mechanism that is triggered that causes us to drift to atypicality. I can see where my intrusive thoughts are different but similar. Like in psychosis and in some other disorders the thoughts have become “other” and not self any longer. This video was so informative! Thank you!

[@gamantri6540]

Excellent video. Very educational. It is really interesting to see how audiovisual tools can be used to educate us all. Thank you for your analisys, really eyeopening.

[@orestes1984]

There are so many similarities to social anxiety in the second video, except it's your own internal dialogue talking to you about what people think about you.

[@hightalk]

Yeah. This sounds like my own internal dialogue all too frequently. I also get intrusive thoughts that I would never act on. I was diagnosed with autism and ocd.

[@omgabee8532]

I was thinking this same thing. I have all of these similar thoughts, they are just coming from me, not a voice I hear.

[@kallamina]

I was thinking the same, lots of similarities to social anxiety. I never hear it like voices, I know it's my own voice and my own inner dialog (or sometimes just literal anxious feelings directed at something, if that makes sense) but all of what was said in the videos are said in my head as well - and sometimes I react to it in real life so to say. For an example, I was talking to my friend while having loads of anxiety. She didn't notice anything weird with me, even though I felt like I was just talking shit and told myself things like "what the f*ck did you just say!?" "Why did you say that!?" "You should have said it like this/differently." etc. I also had thoughts that said that my friend would dislike me or think I'm weird because of what I said and basically tell me what she was thinking about me and what she would tell our other friends about me. When my friend left and I was alone in the room, my anxiety and the heavy feeling in my chest was so bad and my thoughts so irritated and angry that I felt the urge to hurt myself. I ended up hitting myself in the forehead with an empty glass that I was holding. But I don't have any kind of schizophrenic disorder, for my part, it's all anxiety.

[@litchtheshinigami8936]

well for me it's usually not clear words but rather just a hazy thought.. now usually my thoughts are just singular words that i myself do make sense of now i'm multilingual so it could also be a conglomeration of different languages.. it makes sense to me but someone else would be confused.. basically in my case it's always something regarding social situations.. so one time i was sitting with this group and they were talking about people and actors/actresses they liked and they would be showing them around.. however me being both socially inept and asexual makes a situation like that especially if they start asking my opinion a situation i don't know how to deal with.. (now i do have ADHD as i was diagnosed with ADHD as a child i was also diagnosed as having PDD-NOS wich is a forme of autism and i know i mask heavily to a point where it's rare for me to show my emotions and if i do it's a facade of happyness) so i usually just go eh yeah he's okay i guess.. if they want me to elaborate i'll just shrug because if i told them what i really think they would probably ask even more questions usually it's the typical blonde haired basic looking model with alot of muscle tone that they show and frankly i don't care about that if i like someone i like them for their personality not for what they look like.. i don't care if they are chubby or have a perfectly chiseled pair of abs.. or what their faces are like.. as long as they have good hygene and their personality is the kind i could fall for only then would i be able to elaborate.. because well if you just show me a picture of a random person i don't know i won't know what they are like either so i'll be unable to make a judgement about it

[@lorenfulghum2393]

Even the sense of the environment being hostile, the lights too bright, being jumpy... all that can be part of social anxiety as well.

[@memandylov]

I dont have schizophrenia, but when I was in a mental hospital, there was a period where I shared a room with a much older schizophrenic woman. Before I was introduced to my roommate, I had people warning me that she's crazy and not to listen to anything she says because it'll all be lies, and I really HATED the way they talked about her and treated her. I spent a lot of the time we were alone in our room talking with her, giving her an outlet to vent her frustrations with me, even letting her borrow paper and a marker for her to write down timelines and notes and such, and while admittedly her delusions seemed outlandish and frankly impossible, her fear and emotions were 100% genuine, and while an outsider might have seen her as crazy, I grew to really like her. I spent a lot of time comforting and reassuring her, and it was really sad to see how even the staff dismissed her and treated her so poorly. I think it's really important that people understand mental health and disorders like schizophrenia better so they get treated with more care and compassion instead of dehumanizing them and labeling them as crazy. Schizophrenics, as well as people with other mental disorders, are not crazy. They're people. They're struggling and many of them are suffering, and they deserve compassion as much as anyone else. Being in a mental hospital honestly didn't do ANYTHING for my mental health, but it was certainly an enlightening experience. I got to spend time with a lot of interesting people and see how their disorders were affecting them and I learned a lot in the process, but the most important thing I learned was not to judge people. The people society likes to deem "crazy" are a lot more normal than they're made out to be, and I personally respect them for being able to put up with so much for so long. I don't think I could handle it. Please let me know if anything I said comes across the wrong way. Like I said, I don't have schizophrenia, so if anything I said comes across as offensive in any way, let me know. Spreading love and hugs to any that need or want it 💖

[@kingsizeblues616]

Nope, very well said

[@kingsizeblues616]

😂

[@spedslojp3353]

thank you for writing this

[@OttrPopAnimations]

woah

[@c.LOSER.to.G0.d]

@【𝙏𝙃𝙀　𝘾𝙊𝘾𝙆】 lol - a little humor doesn't hurt here and there :D

[@anaisabelgarridomartinez7946]

Thank you for sharing your experience with this illness. I like the last video the most as it shows this illness in a more compassionate way. This job is so important. Thank you very much.

[@TheCharlieSmithChannel]

I don’t know how I got here but this was so informative. I feel like I understand so much more because of your commentary. Thank you

[@sonnydarnell9545]

worst psychosis fit i ever had was while out camping with some friends and i actually believed they were all plotting to kill me and i had like a full mental collapse for a few hours, thank god i have good friends cause they helped me through that fit without anyone getting hurt

[@user-bg6qg4rh1b]

Woahh that’s crazy

[@LadyCladdagh]

That happened to me once at a Halloween party when I was 19. I had smoked some weed prior, and I began to believe that all the men at the party were planning on raping me and I had a full melt down. My girlfriends were there thankfully and helped me. Very scary.

[@asterirxse7146]

One time I thought I telepathically killed my cat on accident. Terrifying.

[@bencarter1483]

@@LadyCladdagh you were probably experiencing a panic attack. I had a similar experience on weed. Marijuana always made me super anxious. I'm glad I've moved on from it

[@pixwool]

Zachary Darnell I cant imagine how terrible that would’ve felt. I have paranoia that flares up and makes me think everything is out to get me sometimes, but I can’t tell how terrible you felt then.

[@chamjam_enthusiast]

storytime from a person with schizophrenia: for background im an unmedicated 16 year old and i still live with my parents. during the end of last schoolyear, my psychosis was really terrible. for some reason during class i just got the overwhelming feeling that some group was stalking me and trying to kill me. i was so scared that i was crying and i had backed myself into a corner away from windows and doors so that i could keep an eye on everyone in the room. i decided to get my phone out and text my mom that some group was after me and trying to kill me. she told me that none of that was happening and that i should try to calm down and that she would come and get me if i couldnt calm myself down. which, looking back at it, was good advice and i know she was just trying to help. but at the time i took it as she was part of the group that was hunting me and when i got home she and my father would kill me. so i got even more terrified and begged her not to pick me up. i spent the whole schoolday crying and seeing dark figures out of the corner of my eyes. i constantly heard voices telling me that everyone knew what i was going through and that they werent helping me bc they hated me and wanted me dead to begin with. when the day was over and i went home, i quickly grabbed a knife from the kitchen and ran upstairs to barricade myself in my room. my mother got in and tried to ask me what was wrong while i screamed and cried and told her not to hurt me and to get out. she didnt listen and moved towards me. i lunged at her with my knife but i didnt cut her. i tried to, but she moved out of the way before i could. she finally left after that, running back downstairs away from me. the knife was later taken away from me while i slept it took me weeks to come out of that delusion and i wouldnt eat anything besides prepackaged snack foods that id eat in the middle of the night bc i thought she poisoned all of my food. i wouldnt talk to my parents and id do everything in my power to stay away from them. writing this now and thinking about it is extremely upsetting to me and im even tearing up a bit, but i need you all to understand how terrifying psychosis can be and how hard it can be to manage these symptoms when youre unmedicated.

[@alienmonkey6304]

I have a question, did you ever think during those intense times, that somebody may have done witchcraft against you ?

[@justmicky6254]

This is insane i have v2k and I can't say I have schizophrenia

[@valentinafuffa535]

Hello, thank you for sharing your story. I'm so sorry you had to go through this but in a way I am glad you can now look back at it and you somehow are able to recover, it makes me very hopeful. An online friend of mine is currently having some very similar symptomps and is now hospitalized. It's sad because I feel so powerless. The worst part of it all is I have no idea what to say whenever she has her attacks, I'm afraid she would consider myself and her other friends to also be in some huge absurd conspiracy, like what happened with you and your mom when she tried to give you some advices. I know it is a very tough question that probably has no answer but what do you think would have been the best words for your mom to choose when she was trying to comfort you? What would have been the best way to make you feel better? Thank you so much if you will answer this

[@madisonzibelli2030]

very happy you feel better, sending lots of love and compassion

[@the_snailll]

oh babe, i'm so sorry you have to go through that. thank you for sharing your story.

[@edwinacaparelli9911]

I've never had schizophrenia, but what you guys describe is exactly what I felt after not sleeping after days of methamphetamine abuse. I was hearing voices I was thinking people were coming for me, I was seeing things. I didn't hear direct voices but I had thoughts in my head that were very uncomfortable. I have a lot of respect for people that are able to find healthy ways to cope with their illness. What you're doing on this channel is amazing, I think it's lovely and I have a lot of friends that are schizophrenic. It's really nice to see the positivity on these platforms regarding schizophrenia. ❤

[@Kodama666]

it is really interesting to hear te comparison from someone who actually experiences, this definitely allows me to really relate more with yall, and also i would even say that a lot of this is pretty rational reactions yknow like if i heard voices telling me to not open the door or drink coffee, obviously i would feel some paranoia or anxiety about those actions beautiful video. im someone whos pretty interested in psychology and neurological disorders and it has still been near impossible to really try and understand or relate to this particular disorder class, but i really want to, and i hope that we all as a society are able to at some point, so that we can be more accepting of and find better ways to treat the people who suffer with this

[@Kodama666]

also im curious i had a crazy experience once with a neighbor & good friend of mine who is schizophrenic and was in the midst of a very intense episode, and all of their family was wrapped up in their delusion and it made them feel uncomfortable but i happened to see them and interact with them during this and i seemed to have like "grounded" them to some degree? or like, my best explanation is that they had no delusions or hallucinations involving me at all so whatever i said to help them seemed to realy get through to them, is this common or anything? can anyone with schizophrenia chip in here and maybe elaborate on what something like this might be like for you

[@madelinefendley2703]

As someone who has severe social anxiety, PLEASE stop saying this is “almost the same.” It’s not. Anxiety may make you unstable and indecisive but we aren’t constantly bombarded by voices. The only voice I hear as someone with diagnosed severe anxiety is my own inner voice, I don’t physically hear other voices in my head. Yes we fight with ourselves and we doubt and question ourselves multiple times before doing something, but there isn’t a physical voice screaming at us and making it harder to focus and process. Anxiety isn’t a hallucination it’s just your internal voice

[@indiamorgan6715]

me too. i have been diagnosed with anxiety and my dad has been diagnosed with schizophrenia.

[@krisjackson5500]

I agree. The inner voice is still you; the part of you full of doubt, second guessing and dwelling on things whilst you're battling with rationality and trying your best to overcome this. I imagine voices with schizophrenia feel like how real sound is perceived, by which physical vibrations hit your ear drums and your brain processes and interprets them. If you were to sit and count to 10 with your "inner voice", this is how it is with anxiety, completely controlled by you, but also controlled by an inconceivable amount of ideas that make you doubt everything or view things with a clouded perspective. At least that's my interpretation of my anxiety, though it's of course very hard to paint a vivid enough picture with words alone. I always tell my friends "Imagine you have the nerves of a job interview coming up in the next hour. The internal battle of what you should and shouldn't say. The physiological sweating, pulsating temples and short of breathe as you start to become overwhelmed and second guess yourself. You might even talk yourself out of it and justify this with a reason, though it's just the nerves. Now imagine all these feelings, but you don't have an interview. You still feel this way, sometimes for no reason, some times because you have to go into a shop, or sometimes they manifest in retrospect, as you dwell on something that has already happened."

[@justmejld8592]

She's saying how it is with her. Pay attention to what she is saying

[@krisjackson5500]

@@justmejld8592 I think this comment is in reply to some people who are comparing their internal dialogue that they experience with anxiety to the voices heard with schizophrenia. There's quite a few people doing it in the comments.

[@amandasnider2644]

And my internal voice can be an Ahole

[@A_ndrea]

My best friend had schizophrenia & she died by suicide summer 2019. The part where he said “go ahead eat it. It’ll make you fatter than you already are” made me feel so insanely sad that she had to live with this, and could not control it. Devastates me beyond comprehension. I remember her obsessing about her weight and in real time it’s easy to say “you look great etc.” like it matters. It never mattered. This is what she lived with. My sweet friend, Lindsay. I miss her so much. ❤

[@brookewilson1950]

I'm so sorry for your loss. It's such a difficult illness 🥺❤️

[@JulieVDK01396]

Sending love youre way, such a good friend you are AND i promise that youre best riend is reading this comment..

[@aleksanderwaskowski1862]

It is sounds like bipolar with psychotic mania not paranoid schizophrenia ...

[@casualties9478]

@@aleksanderwaskowski1862no matter what it was it was reality for her

[@aleksanderwaskowski1862]

@@casualties9478 one of maniacal psychosis is "kill family and make suecide" by clomipramine anafranil in bipolar. If You reply i share mine full experience with details. Bipolar name is serotonin schizophrenia ?

[@sarahdermody6665]

Thanks for sharing these and your views. It really puts things into perspective for me as a (grown up) child of someone with chronic psychosis x

[@stubbyhawk1]

Jsyk, you are doing an amazing job humanizing people living with this condition too... kudos to you and good luck on your journey.

[@vercingetorix9005]

I went through a period of time where I was convinced that I was developing schizophrenia because of undiagnosed anxiety. Depersonalization, derealazation the works. The idea of experiencing psychosis and being at war with my own mind is honestly the most terrifying thing I can possible imagine. Bro my heart goes out to people who have to live with this illness.

[@poucelina4313]

same

[@Phoenix1062]

Yes me too. I was starting to think I had it because my mom did. But she also caused it kind of by taking so much medication. So I don't think I would have it because she did. But growing up watching her have it gets me to thinking sometimes that it's more then anxiety. I was so depressed.because of it at o e time.

[@heatherlefaye2600]

Same

[@Ammoniumbicarbonat]

I had this too at the start of this year; it was absolutely emotionally exhausting

[@EPICSOUNDTRAX]

@@Phoenix1062 I think schizophrenia is not direct to children it will jump one generation.In other words you will be completely healthy but your children will probably have it or have tendencies.

[@Glasmond]

The distorted, very tall perspective from the first video is actually not the guy being super tall with this tube vision, but called Dysmetropsia/AIWS (Alice in Wonderland Syndrome). It’s a sort of hallucination or distortion, triggered by different things (with me usually when I’m very dehydrated or something really fear inducing happened), that can trigger other symptoms like a psychosis. It’s the most accurate representation that I’ve ever seen. It’s scary and makes you go very slow and careful or lie down.

[@Yatukih_001]

And when did Alice in Wonderland syndrome became known? After the Disney film Alice in Wonderland was produced, based on the same story. People we have to let go of this Hollyweird stuff because its ruining peoples´minds!

[@rotzlo]

@@Yatukih_001 Bruh.......just dont write a comment, if you're just gonna spew bullshit.

[@athqna8625]

@@Yatukih_001 are you actually dumb adhadhdhjgf

[@luciasoosova2182]

@@Yatukih_001 Jesus, no! It was originally named Todd's syndrome aften John Todd, british psychiatrist described it in 1955 AND he noticed that many of his patients compared their sensations to the Alica in the Wonderland, when Alice became big and that extremely small after she drank the Liquid and ate the cake. The book is from 1865 and the movie you are blaming was released in 2010. Btw, Lewis Carol was just inspired by his own sensations.

[@doflya129]

It looks like he’s just tall to me and the camera angle makes it look like this but it might be also AIWS

[@Nathanfx2006]

Ive been curious about this for awhile, appreciate the shared insight.

[@jellysuffers6334]

TW: mentions of nightmarish psychosis experiences/////// I loved how you mentioned certain parts of each videos don’t apply to you but may apply to others, I feel the same way about them. I hear many voices all the time, mostly negative, commands or “Jump scares” as I call them, random screams, threats, wheezing whispers, then sometimes it’s just voices calling out random words or numbers. I actually did laugh at the explosion in the cup, I kinda see what they were trying to do?? Lol I’ve seen maggots float up in my drinks or other kinds of bugs, so maybe that’s what they were trying to convey? My therapist tells me my hallucinations put me into a horror movie, and it’s very true. I see terrifying visions and people half dead or already dead, and I can’t drive because I’d see animals or dead people on the road. Overall the videos I think are only accurate in some variable ways according to each individuals personal experience with psychosis. But it’s validating to see it outside of my head regardless! You’re amazing for this, I had to take several breaks watching.

[@Sweetlittlehugs]

Someone I loved with Schizophrenia took his own life. He was a big teddy bear. Sweetest man ever, you would never be afraid of him or think anything was wrong.

[@yuriyhoff7037]

aw I’m so sorry ❤️

[@jayiii1766]

Quarantine is the result of this, RIP

[@tbooker5547]

So so sorry 😢😩

[@kybreyes54]

My grandson took his life just past may 26 2020. After having couple severe episodes and being treated for 10 yrs

[@okidoki3201]

The meds kill people

[@Watcher-of-Forms]

I've actually seen a schizophrenic person react to this video and she said the explosion in the coffee cup was very consistent with her own hallucinations.

[@MellowJelly]

Yeah! It's so important to note that each individual with schizophrenia can be widely different and the hallucinations can vary greatly

[@billyboner8519]

Yip. I see galaxies colliding in my coffee, in flowers, snakes , fish swimming in the carpet, and zombies drifting in my mind when my eyes are closed.. Docs first thought I had been on the Acid.. but no..

[@littleshadow2707]

As a psychologist and holistic life coach living with OCD and ADHD, I want to tell anyone living with this psychological/mental issue or any other alike, you have the greatest big hug and friend if ever need be! YOU ARE NOT alone, YOU ARE loved, YOU ARE NOT stupid/dumb YOU ARE talented YOU ARE NOT lost YOU ARE wanted by people who love you YOU ARE amazing, YOU ARE NOT CRAZY as people say, YOU ARE a little misunderstood... yet YOU ARE CREATIVE, YOU ARE KIND, YOU ARE SMART, YOU ARE FUN... and YOU ARE THE LIFE OF THE PARTY! We the people or say as fellow humankind love you all!

[@Leamame]

I loved the last video. the other ones only showed people how are experiencing voices and that is just one symptom whilst in a psychosis. I had a psychotic break a little over a year ago, hopefully I will not experience an other one, fingers crossed... But I didn't hear any voices. I related very much with the last delusion he talked about. I thought I was able to solve the worlds problems. Everything made sense to me. I interpreted every street sign, commercial, TV Show, conversation as a confirmation of my believes/my delusion of grandeur. These kind of symptoms are not often depicted accurately. Not everybody experiencing a psychosis feels threatened by their environment. I just felt like my friends and family and doctors didn't understand me. I couldn't get my points across, because they only made sense to me (or other patients in the psychiatric clinic I was in). Thank you so much for reacting to these simulations. I think it really helps to get rid of the stigma around psychosis and schizophrenia. Much love

[@ChrisThul487]

When mine first started, they sounded like my neighbors talking about me and mocking me just within earshot. I didn’t know the voices weren’t real for a couple months and I covered the windows with posters. Horrifying experience.

[@oscarwilde9581]

oof I experienced that a few times when I was sleep-deprived and kind of withdrawing from adderall in college. I haven't since but I was super worried for a while that I might be schizophrenic. Any time I think I see something move out of the corner of my eye I'm still a little worried.

[@madelinetownsend1004]

I'm sorry you had to go through that. I hope you're doing much better now.

[@lillyheredia9]

My aunt used to put blankets over the fireplace because of the voices

[@Alejandro-eo7lh]

@@oscarwilde9581 That thing of something black moving in the corner of the eye happens me a lot when I'm sleepy and looking at the computer.

[@a.reallymcrealperson256]

My dad used to constantly accuse me and my brother of playing tricks on him, the neighbors always spying and talking about him, often times he would randomly come up to me and pop me right in the mouth and say "you don't talk like that." I was really young at the time, I didn't even know any bad words yet. It's really hard living someone who has schizophrenia. He was also really violent and super dangerous off his meds. And he hated the meds, he ended up in the institution so many times that finally he was court ordered to take his meds once a month by way of injection. If he doesn't show up for the shot they will come looking for him

[@ljcherry22]

My sibling is experiencing schizophrenia and hearing those voices saying I hate you made me cry and I just had to text him I love him. Never want him to think he's not loved. It's been heartbreaking to see him suffer.

[@synkronized]

you're a good sister:)

[@totenkopf30]

@@synkronized maybe SHE is the one whispering him all that shit and tells him that hes all fucked up in the head

[@zahrakez2673]

@@totenkopf30 I hope you get the proper help you need😔 please take care of yourself

[@totenkopf30]

@@zahrakez2673 hahahaha, Im sooo drunk!!!

[@Seireiranlololololo]

@@totenkopf30 ???

[@DQWHATITDOTHO]

I’ve been diagnosed with schizophrenia & this video was reasonable in some ways & I’ll definitely be showing my family this video so they can understand me a bit more thanks ❣️

[@nassima.a]

I’m not schizophrenic but I’m borderline. So I do suffer from psychosis too, I don’t hear voices but I hear sounds that aren’t here, I see shadows and the size of things change, even myself. But mostly, psychosis for me is losing touch with reality in term of dissociating, seeing the world as a blurry mess of emotions and insanity 😀 and nothing feels real anymore.

[@traviejnr]

I relate to this so much. I also have horrible dreams that actually occur during the day that I can’t shake from my headspace or my external vision, unless I get up from where I am sitting or standing and shake it off, and even then, sometimes it doesn’t work 😢 it’s almost like I don’t have voices, but I have people projecting images of things that terrify me the most directly into the front of my brain, and I can’t stop it. I hope this is the extent of everything for us, and we don’t descent further! ❤❤

[@visionvixxen]

Is that szhicophrenia or depersonalization?

[@nassima.a]

@@visionvixxen depersonalization with psychosis, I don’t have schizophrenia but i have a borderline personality disorder

[@nesia47]

My dad never got diagnosed with schizophrenia but everywhere I search and try to find answers or whenever we talk to friends or family members they all say it was schizophrenia. He used to hallucinate and hear voices it got so bad. I wish I could of helped sooner. Unfortunately the voices got to him. I miss him everyday Rest In Peace Dad.

[@Seireiranlololololo]

What do you mean by "the voice got to him"?

[@CaptainEpicFace]

@@Seireiranlololololo killed himself

[@Seireiranlololololo]

@@CaptainEpicFace a

[@Meeshee57]

🥺🙏🏾

[@lyfeasmemecsit6203]

I’m sorry and know that some illnesses are stronger than Love But I’m sure your daddy Loved and cared for you. He just couldn’t get the help for himself. I hope you gain peace and know THAT ITS MOT YOUR FAULT IN ANY WAY ❤️‼️

[@drgaurikumar9494]

U make my anxiety look like nothing. I am really sorry. U r very brave . U deserve love deeper than ocean itself.

[@patrickmeneses1972]

And U deserve love too Gauri! ☺️

[@aurakatie99]

i find it hard to distinguish between this and my anxiety

[@chloescorner6681]

Your anxiety is valid

[@sofiaprado5994]

@@aurakatie99 i think schizophrenia is more hallucinatory compared to anxiety among other things, but ppl have different anxiety levels, i have anxiety too!

[@aurakatie99]

Sofia Prado yeah u probably literally think u can hear voices tbf. Sorry you have anxiety hope ur coping ok

[@gypsiboy85]

THANK YOU for your video. I have schotzophrenia and im sick of people overly dramatizing what its really like and not going in with the sensaionalism of these type of videos. i appreciate the honestness of your video.

[@yaaaaarn]

my uncle has really high needs schizophrenia and i like these videos because they help me understand when he’s in psychosis and what my mom grew up with

[@toxicoutlaw9424]

The worst part for me is that every voice manifest as a close friend or family member calling to me.

[@azsli2]

YES!! Especially when they arnt home.

[@Lallint]

mom: Honey, come help me bring in groceries, im home! Me: Okay! *20 seconds later* Me: Motherf-

[@toxicoutlaw9424]

@@Lallint the absolute betrayal. Even your voices are tellin you to get off your ass.

[@karleykb8881]

Wait so I’m 14 and I’ve had a very traumatic past and sometimes I think I hear my mom call me or maybe ask a small question and I say to did you call me and she says no should I look into it or maybe just cause from anxiety?

[@karleykb8881]

Also like other people like my brother or a friend

[@hellobye900]

My brother has it bad. He thinks my mums poisoning him. It hurts because he is loved and he doesn't see it. He gets nasty voices too he shouts and swears at them... but sometimes he laughs out loud... he trys to hold it together. It hurts so bad. Hes said some really worrying things

[@emocrybaby]

I hope your brother feels better that must suck to deal with

[@Nostalgia_Addict]

I hope you, your brother and your family are safe and well in these trying times. I hope your brother gets better

[@mx-gs3zc]

Get a priest and do a exorcism

[@debbiewilson6584]

@@mx-gs3zc totally archaic thinking. We're not living in the dark ages and the mentally ill are not possessed by demons. This is dangerous thinking.

[@hugobrown5101]

It’s scary how much I can relate to this

[@karencreighton7939]

This is so helpful to me in understanding my relatives and my patients. Thank you!