What It’s Like To Lose Someone To Suicide

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[@doom3798]

this is the only reason i'm still alive. i can't put my family through this

[@NeverLooksAtComments]

+a simple doge you, a simple doge?

[@doom3798]

NeverLooksAtComments even doges get a lil sad sometimes

[@llamacornchan2611]

I'm sorry,i'm so sorry i hope you get better 💕

[@Queen-qv4tm]

+a simple doge everything is temporary, and you will be okay

[@doom3798]

Llamacorn Chan thank you so much

[@Bekahcraig]

the only reason I'm still on this planet is that I am afraid of how it would affect the people who love me.

[@cowboydelnorte3078]

My brother is the only reason I’m here. If he passes I may go too. But sometimes I feel I should just leave now but I don’t want him to be hurt and to live contemplating on how he could’ve saved me or said something or even blaming himself bc it’s not about that it’s just me a lot of times I simply don’t want to be here I hate the human race and blame God for all that we are to this very second but whatever love doesn’t matter on earth it never did power is what matters and it’s poison

[@BenChung78]

@@cowboydelnorte3078 Just know that GOD is not the type who abuses and uses people for power. The ones who abuse and use people for power are evil people....not GOD. So learn to trust in GOD and not in the others who abuse and use people the wrong way. Peace only comes from GOD anyhow. You see...Christians believe that GOD sent His son into the world so that people can be free from sin and misery...not to abuse people and use us.....but to set people free from the source of misery that is having the wrong mindset of seeing everyone and everything as something to be used and acquired for oneself. Jesus saves from sin and gives a hope stronger than death. But one has to be humble and believe in order to receive that hope.

[@gattinafatata]

It's not the only reason, it's not how it works! You may be suffering but you have love around yourself, you want to be alive even though you're struggling with mental health. You don't just decide if you're going to die so easily, you're still in time. I hope you get better.

[@yurelldetorres1071]

Exactly dude my friends are the only reason im still hrre

[@bokastark3925]

How are you doing now 💕

[@SuperVladdrakula]

"Suicide isn't selfish. What's truly selfish is neglecting someone so badly to the point that they want to kill themselves." Words of a wise person...

[@endormimi5261]

This video saved my life as an 18 year old. I’m now nearly 24 and still alive. Thank you to those who shared their stories. Thank you. Just thank you. I love you all

[@PHEROMONE-wz9bz]

U happy now ?

[@endormimi5261]

@@PHEROMONE-wz9bz It's been up and down but in that time I met and got engaged to the love of my life, emigrated to france, started on a new career path and am planning to have my own family after my wedding. So yes I still have my mental health struggles but to be alive and not dead at 18 is a blessing

[@SuperVladdrakula]

@@endormimi5261 "but to be alive and not dead at 18 is a blessing" _Utter BS..._

[@Goawaypl5]

I hope I'll be able to make it to that age. Sometimes it's harder than others times. But lately it's gotten really bad, I was going to end it all about a week ago but one of my friends just kept texting me, she didn't know I was going to do it but she stopped it without knowing what was going on.

[@yshannng]

We are all suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids that suicide is never an answer

[@bbywiitch]

True

[@DaddyisabttokiIIhimself]

This is way to true

[@desha-soleilbarrow7780]

you just described me...

[@namcicle2309]

I don’t like the accuracy of this shite

[@user-ud1cd7rj6p]

True oml

[@annalee9281]

If you’re reading this, I’m sorry. You’re on this video for a reason and that just breaks my heart

[@mimimagic1895]

No. I'm sorry. For letting everyone down. It was the last time. See ya everybody

[@bigcountryspoundcake4513]

Anna Lee Pretty assuming of you but alright then

[@userNOTfound1-3]

@@mimimagic1895 Hang in there luv. The feeling comes and goes... I know. Your life is worth living, you'll see.

[@agrimabist1112]

❤️

[@puripurimimi2803]

@@mimimagic1895 please, we love you, we want to see you happy and prosperous

[@moneo007]

The only reason I haven't done it, it's because I'm afraid I will survive it...

[@MinjiJeongg]

Please know that you’re loved ❤️‍🩹

[@buddy3635]

Please don't go. I promise promise promise you life gets better. What can I do to help?

[@moneo007]

@buddy3635 at the moment, I feel useless 😔

[@buddy3635]

@@moneo007 What's your life situation right now? Are you in school, working, something else?

[@ingenuised]

No chance of surviving a gun to the head, quick and painless, if you are afraid of a gun you are afraid of death which is why you shouldn't commit

[@kathymeza3444]

People always say that the ones that commit suicide are selfish but I feel like everyone else is selfish wanting that person that is in pain mentally or physically to stay here in pain.

[@kathymeza3444]

@@behonest8658 I'm not struggling with suicide I am saying I want out and it is selfish of people to want me to keep going in pain. I have been living with this horrendous pain for more than 15 years and it is just getting worse. There is no way in my mind and heart that I should keep going just to keep others happy. I didn't understand it completely until my mom was diagnosed with stage 4 pancreas cancer and was told if she didn't have chemo it would be 3 maybe 4 weeks until she passed but if she took the chemo it would keep her around for at least a year. We all pushed her to take the chemo because we were selfish and didn't want to let her go. That was the most horrible year for her in and out of the hospital in pain all the time getting sicker and sicker and hurting more and more. We could have had 3 or 4 really good weeks with her she could have been happy and she could have died peacefully but no we pushed her to keep us happy.

[@empressofhearts7300]

I don't want anyone to stay here to suffer, I just want them to get better on whatever it might be.

[@SuperVladdrakula]

@@empressofhearts7300 "I just want them to get better on whatever it might be." And what if it's not possible?

[@empressofhearts7300]

@@SuperVladdrakula If it's not, then find something for them to still be able to enjoy life

[@SuperVladdrakula]

@@empressofhearts7300 And what if that's _still_ not possible?

[@HardlyBoring1]

I hate it when people say that suicide is selfish, you may think its selfish because they are making people suffer by them committing suicide but you don't know why they did it, you don't know what made them turn to suicide, stop calling it selfish

[@charalscrybaby2754]

+Dan Wills i finally found someone who thinks like me>

[@charalscrybaby2754]

+Dan Wills i finally found someone who thinks like me>

[@samanthaskye00]

+Dan Wills I agree with you 110%. I want to hit ppl when they say it is

[@Apezz19]

I wouldnt call it selfish until i know what is the real problem and the cause of it..we might not know exactly how it feels, but its our job to comfort other when they cant comfort themself..the world was warm, lets make it warm again, together..

[@fathzable]

so true

[@emmamargaard4510]

I don’t want to die, and I don’t want to live either. I wish I was never born

[@inameier1257]

Well I'm glad you're here and do you know why? According to your profile picture, you stan or like a man who is incredibly wonderful and kind. And because of that, you must me a wonderful, kind person as well. I don't know what you believe in, but I believe that everyone is here on this earth at this time for a reason. And so are you and maybe it doesn't seem like it's worth living right now, but I promise you one day it will get better. And you'll know why you're here. We influence so many people around us without even knowing it. Let's take the two of us as an example. I just read your comment and even tho I have no idea who you are, I care about you now. I want you to be here! Whenever you think there's so reason to stay or no reason for you to be born at all, you can now think about the stranger out there (hi, that's me, I'm Emmi :)) that cares about you being here. I want you to be strong and to fight for happiness. One day you will realize it's worth it. And I promise you this day is nearer than you think. So please stay strong and never stop fighting for yourself and others. Everybody can be the someone who makes a difference to somebody else. Please stay, you deserve all the happiness in the world. And if you want to, you can always contact me. But if you want me to stay the stranger who cares about you, that's fine as well. TPWK :)

[@emmamargaard4510]

@@inameier1257 this made me smile, you’re so sweet. Thank you sm🥺 this means so much, to know someone cares. I wish you all happiness in the world ❤️

[@youtubeaccount1441]

Same

[@ea062]

Never read anything so relatable, I just want to sleep forever peacefully. But I also want to know what happens if I don’t, will it get better? Hopefully. I’m gonna keep pushing through for now, nothing can ever be the same ya know? We all change. I hope we all can find a sense of peace 💜

[@naahbro]

Same why I born

[@kaguramiochanlu9942]

I dont want to keep hearing the "dont kill yourself because youre just passing on the pain" thing. I know its worked for others and im glad. But like to me, so im just gonna sit here and take it then? For others? What about me? Man i want to live because i want to live, not because other people will be sad if i dont live.

[@angelawright-swifte6247]

Exactly, people saying that doesn’t help me feel any better it makes me feel guilty.

[@awadoo4503]

Some people blame them saying theyre selfish! really? don't you realize that death is the last thing anyone wants? It was really unbearable what they were going through that they finally saw no escape but to die!

[@thangamuthur7097]

We don't want to die, we just want to disappear like never existed at all.

[@TheOnlyHollywood1]

Death is the closest thing we'll get to that

[@snoopy-mf7nv]

But we can't. I know I felt the same.

[@nenalovepullip8684]

@@TheOnlyHollywood1 but it's better to live all can change!!

[@namcicle2309]

I wish there was an easier way out

[@thangamuthur7097]

@@namcicle2309 Don't we all. Depression teaches life: it's never a one day work. Work every day and forgive yourself when you screw up. You might have heard/read it already but still: Move away from internet (or the whole smartphone), listen to Music, try to find some conversation groups and 'Meditate'. Concentrate on your breath when things go wrong. It helped me a lot.

[@northlovelady-allen6441]

If I could leave without hurting anyone I would.

[@nickdick454]

You just found your reason to stay

[@arielrodriguez1892]

@@thiswndrlnd8119 Mona they only care after the guy or girls ended their life like always why they didn't do anything to help him or her in the first place I don't care anyways I am just giving my opinion on the video have a nice day.

[@arielrodriguez1892]

@@thiswndrlnd8119 Mona that's fine I am glad u have that many friends but I front have any I only go from my home to work and then from work to my home I accept my life the way it is but It makes me sick seeing all this people in the video acting like they care when in the momment they didn't do anything now it is too late to cry

[@AceOfWaffles]

@@arielrodriguez1892 They probably had NO IDEA that their loved one was struggling, or just how bad it was getting! It's terrible to say those people didn't care until they were dead. You don't know that. People care about you. They really do. They just don't understand and/or don't know how to help.

[@ruicosta4044]

That's the only thing holding me back but everyday the feeling gets stronger

[@ghost-gh5ce]

Happens to me every 3 months or so , get so depressed i just stay in my bed the entire day crying , watching videos like this and contemplating life . Every time i end up looking to my right (that s where my little 8y/o brother sleeps) , and the thought of seeing him crying because i m not there shatters me in pain , that s the only reason i m still here , i ll thank him when he grows up .

[@kimareum29]

The question should not be how it feels to lose someone instead ; " why it became that bad that nothing felt good than being dead".

[@patreskirschner8193]

That's the question nobody is talking about :/

[@Dani_77709]

I'm so sick and tired of "you're not alone" Yes, yes in the end I am on my own. Dealing with this unbearable pain when I'm awake. I'm alone at 3am, silently crying and screaming without making a sound. I tried everything and it doesn't get better. Stop lying. This pain is with you forever. It's a mental torture. I always return in this state. Always. And I'm so, so tired.

[@kc-wr1ui]

u should really talk to someone i hope your ok stay strong

[@janiraannette6173]

Exactly nelli

[@kc-wr1ui]

@Nelli Torre yeah i guess so

[@lizcherrez]

Life is like being alcoholic, there is no cure and you may feel completly in control somedays and other days you feel in the need of a drink. It's hard, you wish you weren't alcoholic, you feel you don't deserve nothing but you have to keep living if you want less bad days. Of course you can't ignore that you are an alcoholic but neither control your life. If you justo gave up on everything, you will regret and drinking meawhile you say "I'm drinking because of the shame of being an alcoholic!" (The example if from 'The Little Prince')

[@applef1uffy]

That’s true, no one knows what it’s like but you. I’m not going to pretend I know exactly what you’re going through. But I’m here to talk

[@randimurphy6835]

Mental Health Week is the best thing Buzzfeed has ever done.

[@randimurphy6835]

+irapedmymothersthroat Are you kidding me? Do you not understand what this video in particular is about? This video is about losing someone to suicide, which some of the time suicide can be caused by a poor mental health state. Also, losing someone else to suicide can cause mental health issues such as depression, anxiety, panic attacks, agoraphobia, etc. So don't you or anyone else dare tell me mental health is not important.

[@mayaphipps5195]

+irapedmymothersthroat it's really not important? Millions of people die every year from mental health (suicide because of their health problem) and even more people stay strong and fight with this. You are insulting them, me, my sisters, my best friend, and so much more. It takes lives, ruins relationships, self esteem, and more. So please don't say that

[@katlin9274]

+Emily Loera don't feed the trolls

[@daraley1098]

+irapedmymothersthroat reported as spam. little brat get of the internet.

[@zariya7665]

Yes.. I feel its making me more mentally healthy

[@patpost3938]

im fighting for myself. I know how hard it is but if you're here doing the same thing I am so very proud of you.

[@buddy3635]

I'm glad you're still fighting. Let me know if you need backup💛

[@the.seagull.35]

How are you doing?

[@Urpersonalplaylist736]

My sister committed suicide 2 weeks ago. I check her room and saw she wasn’t there. I cried. I miss my big sister so much. I need her. My best friend said everything was going to be okay but it’s not. It will never be. I will never see my sister again. I miss you big sister. I love you

[@SuperVladdrakula]

Life simply doesn't incline to itself...

[@cierrakateraa3124]

@@studioustok same.

[@sweetcreamnpeaches9577]

The only reason I’m holding on right now is because I don’t want my younger sisters to be sad but it’s getting really hard to hold on

[@the.seagull.35]

​@@sweetcreamnpeaches9577how are you doing?

[@laboskisota2963]

Here's the thing: People only care after the fact, before that everyone wishes you would shut up and stop being so negative.

[@victorianrainbow6366]

That's so true. One day, I found the courage to talk to a friend about my depression. They comforted me that day, but then, everytime I tried to vent about my depression, they seemed annoyed that I was touching that topic again. So I never talked about it again, I guess.

[@user-gb6vw4qb9x]

koi no yokan I know your most likely sick of hearing this ( I was) but things really do get better, please take care of yourself ✨

[@victorianrainbow6366]

@@user-gb6vw4qb9x thank you so much

[@shoulol7424]

Pretty much. It's sad, but so true. People don't want to hear your problems and negativity all the time. Your loved ones, the only ones who you feel you can tell about it, tell you to go away cause' your so annoying and negative. It hurts. 😔

[@LihleNdita]

So true, I once tried to genuinely open up to a friend only for her to say I drained her and that I always have problems. I get negativity isn't going to be well received but don't act like and say you care when we all know you'll only care if something ever happened

[@Joeyblondewolf2]

I found out my coworker friend ended his life while I was at work. We were all crying... the day before he came to visit us and left. He looked so happy but it makes me feel so useless I didn't see his sadness through his fake smile... He was 17.

[@JoleneRoxs72]

That is incredibly difficult to go through.. I am so sorry. Please take life as it is and try to enjoy the little moments. I hope we can all bring awareness to these things. Beneath a hard shell lies a vulnerable sensitive person... it's important that we all try to help each other. We don't know what others are going through .. the best we can do is listen and support them.. to be those people they can trust and confide in. I used to want to die everyday of my life and I am forever grateful I was strong enough to pull myself out of it and had that support system that wanted me to succeed and be better... I am currently in university to pursue law enforcement. I hope to be that person that others come to for help even when it seems there is no hope left. Please take care and I hope we all learn to love and look after one another... we all need it.

[@kristyna.kocianova]

A lot of people who are resolved to kill themselves look very cheerful and at peace before they do it. They have a plan already and feel relaxed. It's not your fault in any way. Don't feel guilty about not spotting this, because it can definitely look like your friend is doing better but they are just saying goodbye...

[@awickedformerdisneysinger8445]

My condolences to you and the other people in his life who cared for and loved him. Do not feel guilty. Sometimes, all that anyone can do is let them know that they are cared for.

[@Emily-hk6wc]

I just want to say, it may not have been a fake smile. If he dad already planned his death and everything, changes are he was actually happy. He was going to be out of pain soon.

[@r1thy4]

i'm so sorry, no one should have to go through that. pls don't blame yourself for what he did. you're so strong, i hope someday the pain will go away

[@sonisatim2015]

I’ve considered suicide for a very long time. The reason I haven’t done it yet is that I don’t want my family to suffer mentally.

[@anonympassingby1983]

I hope their love is your power, not the burden. I don't know you but I'll wish you to have a power to stand still. you'll be doing great after this time.

[@kananelolesesa4447]

Every morning when my eyes open I become so frustrated because I realize that I actually made it to the next day.

[@La_lu_nes]

we’re glad you are still here with us!

[@SuperVladdrakula]

@@La_lu_nes "we’re glad you are still here with us!" You're pitiful sadists... You're glad at the sight of someone's suffering. What does that tell about you?

[@fishcakez]

i feel really guilty for being depressed and having suicidal thoughts.

[@user-rz7qr7yh2b]

going through anxiety and ocd myself i can tell you that we should have faith , suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. as long as we are alive ,hope is there my friend, be patient and strong

[@CitizenofGallifrey]

@@user-rz7qr7yh2b My autism is not a temporary problem, it is a permanent disease that I am afflicted with.

[@user-rz7qr7yh2b]

@@CitizenofGallifrey I know my friend... But whatever problems you may have you always have the choice to stay strong and get the best out of every situation. If you search you can find examples of people in the worst possible situations who managed to thrive

[@scythe7269]

You shouldn't ever feel guilty for anything. It wasn't the path you chose. Power through it, do good in this life and hopefully you won't have the same problems in your next life. That's all I'm trying to do as a person suffering with ocd and intrusive thoughts myself.

[@scythe7269]

@@CitizenofGallifrey Yes you do have a permanent disease. Does it affect you daily? Yes it does. Is it bad from your perspective? Yes it is. But there are people who have it much worse. I can't compare my ocd and intrusive thoughts to autism because 1. I am not autistic and 2. I do not know the severity of your autism but you see people on the streets daily. They suffer more than anyone in the world and the person you see begging hasn't committed suicide because they believe it can get better. I pray for everyone to have the same mindset as the less fortunate.

[@sadie5112]

"People will miss you". I don't need them to miss me when I'm dead, I need them to miss me when I'm alive.

[@fiastomlaiz2015]

Life's hard but the struggle to keep yourself alive is harder

[@SuperVladdrakula]

The worst thing is that it is absolutely rewardless endeavour...

[@lemonchan2013]

please try therapy hon! youre absolutely wrong, and that’s a good thing, i would know, i was depressed as well and when you receive therapy and talk it out and learn about neuroscience and how people in your life and the situations you are in affect you, it begins to make sense that your way of thinking is overly-critical on yourself. this is a good thing. just try therapy, no matter what!

[@martinrasmussen6869]

People only care when you are gone because its reflect badly on them.

[@SuperVladdrakula]

True...

[@donaldkeith139]

I disagree. What you wrote is exactly what my own demon tries to tell me... "they don't really care" "they only want you around because you do stuff for them" And then my brain would agree "yeah that's right" "they don't really love me"

[@SuperVladdrakula]

@@donaldkeith139 _No one_ cares for anyone... They only pretend to at best and only care about extorting things out of each other... It's just flat out truth... If it wasn't, life would have given a very different image... There wouldn't have been so much suffering and misery in the first place...

[@llawliet9yearsago920]

Not really.. If my best friend were to die or something.. I'd wanna die as well

[@ageis3250]

@@donaldkeith139 But its true...

[@rejeanarainn5662]

My sister committed suicide in April. She came to my house that day with biggest smile on her face and a look in her eyes I couldn't pinpoint. That look was her knowing she would never see me again. I have no words...

[@zayneyeehaw401]

i hate when people say dont kill yourselves because of your family ect it makes it feel like more of a burden and even worse about the situation

[@adityaHB456]

Zayne Yeehaw exactly..😥😥

[@MariaKiran1]

Exactly.

[@snoopy-mf7nv]

I know especially if you have a family of narcissists and they treat you like your life is supposed to be an enslavement to serving their narcissism.

[@brendancoffman4342]

I know people care for me, I just don't care for myself, nor do I desire to. Apathy and discouragement are powerful in what they can do to one's will

[@charlez1174]

This is exactly how I feel. I know I have so many people that care about me but I just don’t care about myself. Like I don’t understand people like me and I just don’t want to be here. I hate living every day.

[@NamNguyen-ls6pb]

there are times i feel the same too. so many times. but please just find yourself even one thing to enjoy. I only want you to feel better regardless of what others may say

[@midloran]

I will be sad if Brendan won't exist anymore

[@ingenuised]

"There's no better salvation than never having to be born into this world" - Eren Yaeger

[@SuperVladdrakula]

So true...

[@the_man_behind_the_mask116]

Eren...

[@Juicyfruit12345]

Mid anime

[@the_man_behind_the_mask116]

@@Juicyfruit12345 shut Up

[@ultimatedumbass4640]

Eren literally didn't agree with this statement. It was a farce.

[@slavdoggo5262]

People would care and cry only if you're gone, as long as you're alive and still living, you are like an invisible person

[@aviezerscop401]

Wanna be an invisible penpal?😊

[@slavdoggo5262]

@@aviezerscop401 sure

[@nickn2794]

HII! I created a Discord group where we can discuss about our problems. You're not alone! discord.gg/BjJxFSpK I'm not a therapist, but I've had/having these problems too, I can listen

[@slavdoggo5262]

@@mollymalone2838 agreed

[@peterevans6480]

@@mollymalone2838 exactly, you're frustrating to deal with until youre not there anymore

[@lolidk2024]

i saved my sister from suicide once, and i didn’t even know. i knew she was having hard times and she locked herself in the bathroom. i knocked on the door and told her that i’m here and that i love her. a few months later she told me she was gonna slit her wrists that day but when i told her i loved her, she decided that she’ll keep going for me. and i have never been more proud of both her and myself. i saved someone and she was strong enough to stay alive.

[@Jivi_Galaxy]

🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼👍👍👍😊😊😊

[@jacklandy5704]

We need more people like you in this world. If I could get the chance to meet you in person I'd gladly shake your hand. Good job and I hope your sister is OK.

[@klyzl]

im 16 and my sister is 4 she often finds me crying in me room and just stays there quiet until im done i love her so much I can't imagine what would she would remember of me when she grows up and im not there to take care of her anymore or even learn the simple things of being a teenager i dont want to leave her with my parents but I can't take this anymore i hpe they takecare of her

[@LucieCornelia]

@@klyzl Remember that it will be okay. If you're depressed I suggest ither getting a pet or borrowing a pet or volunteering at somewhere animal related. They are so innocent and creating a bond with an animal changes you. You could also focus on the things that makes you happy or distracts you from the pain if only temporary. I know you might often hear the bs about not being alone by people who only say and don't actually do anything. You might be alone, but then you have to find someone. Someone you can talk to, listen to, trust, feel loved by. It might take time but you will find that person of not people. You have a place here, but no one can tell you where that is. You have to find it. Whatever it might be. You belong.

[@crybaby7085]

we all waiting for that person to say im with you

[@anonymousfromearth9754]

It hurts when your friends say they would be there with you whenever you feel depressed.. but then when you text about your problem, your text gets ignored which makes you feel more guilty then ever.

[@Sunny-gy3jv]

I’m so sorry

[@I_HATE_THE_TOS]

They don't care until you actually do it.

[@tabj2615]

It happens, it really does. If close people doesn't help you came to the right place, I'll hear you absolutely, let me know if I can help somehow :(

[@thesnakeman8492]

At least they can rest now. People just do t understand how tiring it is just to stay alive when you just want to be gone. Don’t be angry at them, just know they are at peace now.

[@SuperVladdrakula]

You're right...

[@hid8290]

*It's hard to survive in a mind that wants to die*

[@deanalvarado795]

100% truth

[@SuperVladdrakula]

Who needs to survive?

[@SaithMasu12]

Try to ease the mind, as much as possible. Thats what i do. Understand that whatever the mind comes up with, it isnt reality. Give it some rest. Maybe do some breathing techniques or meditate. Ease the mind as much as possible and i guarantee you, you will feel better.

[@userNOTfound1-3]

When you've already decided .. trying to undo it takes a lot

[@hid8290]

@SC I this comment caught me off guard. I'm happy now because of prayer. I gave my life to God and now I'm happier than ever. Still alone but not so much because I can control my mind now

[@sonephomreuanglit1760]

If you are suicidal and you’re still alive, I'm very proud of you. ❤️ (Edit : Omg I didn’t expect to have 47 likes but thanks, love your guys stay strong) ❤️🥀

[@lingardinhold5409]

I have mental lines live Dubai I am fighting angist my anxiety People look down me Am only 22 they are jealous because who I am best teen in Dubai

[@nadiamills4781]

I almost lost my bestie then my family almost lost me

[@EvelynOnline9205]

No I’m not

[@youtubeaccount1441]

Well Im disappionted in myself

[@jcorley45]

"life's really short, just enjoy it." Great idea! I'll just stop being depressed, anxious, lonely, and miserable like I have been for years, and just choose to be happy instead. I never would have thought of that; thanks! Also; a lot of suicide victims do think about the aftermath and they feel bad about it, but they also know that most people have no idea what they are going through. Especially those who have sought help and nothing works for them. It gets to the point where you are just sick and tired of trying, and you lose all your ambition and will to keep going.

[@SuperVladdrakula]

"It gets to the point where you are just sick and tired of trying" Yeah, especially when it never works anyway...

[@305killer]

people think we can enjoy life while we know everything we want from it is gona never happen

[@SuperVladdrakula]

@@305killer Yes... So true...

[@deathrow5581]

You are incredibly special. The odds of you being born in this life time are hard to even comprehend. How lucky are we to be alive now and not 100+ years ago. Appreciate the simple things. Rescue a dog from the pound. Watch the sunset and sunrise. I know you don't know me, but your death would have a profound impact on me. As it would for people who know you, too. Every story of suicide hurts me deeply, and I am sure many others can agree with me on that. Please keep living. Even if you think no one cares, believe me, they really do.

[@SuperVladdrakula]

@@deathrow5581 "your death would have a profound impact on me.' _Liar..._ You wouldn't even know of it... And continue like nothing happened... "You are incredibly special." Take your lies somewhere else... "Even if you think no one cares, believe me, they really do." No, just no. There is absolutely _nothing_ to give that thought...

[@NoNo-lp9ox]

My friend took her life yesterday, and it killed me to hear this. I’ve cried so much, but never this much, not even close, I’ve considered a few times of joining her as a way of ending the grief. A wise man once said “suicide does not end the pain, for it passes it on to someone else, you & I need to remember that for the rest of our lives

[@snowieskiesabove]

I’m so sorry

[@potato_directioner1327]

im so sorry for ur loss. if u ever need someone to talk to im here for u 🥺🥺🥺

[@helgageraldine513]

I'm sorry for ur lose. My brother committed suicide last month and there are times when I feel like ending my life, too. But thinking about how this will affect my parents is what keeps me from doing it. Losing another child to suicide will definitely break them.

[@preski000]

One day I was at school and I went into the bathroom and I heard a girl sobbing in one of the stalls, I went to see who it was and when she said for me to go away I realized that it was a girl that had been particularly mean to me and other students over the past few months. I asked her what was wrong over and over again while she repeatedly told me to get out of the bathroom. The locks on the bathroom door had those weird slits in them so I used my finger nails to unlock the door and I saw her sitting on the toilet holding a tube of sleeping pills, when she saw that I had opened the door and seen what she was doing she sobbed eve harder in defeat and let me take the pills from her hands and we sat on the floor of the bathroom in the middle of 5th period for 45 minutes crying and and telling each other that it was going to be ok. That’s the story of how my 11th grade bully became my best friend to this day, we’re celebrating 6 years of friend ship and staying alive and heathy this fall. I might add that I had survived a suicide attempt and understood what she was going through.

[@earnestpeeplesjr8948]

Presley Gauthier God Bless you

[@AliceP.]

What a beautiful story

[@moonchildeus]

Presley Gauthier you are great

[@AceOfWaffles]

That's amazing.

[@user-oq7ee2ol6i]

If I'm "sooooo loved" by my family and friends why don't they show it when I'm alive?

[@khaligoihl9455]

I have never related to something more :(

[@khaligoihl9455]

@@user-oq7ee2ol6i yeah I get what you mean. sometimes people say they care but don't show it

[@fiona7088]

Trust me you are loved. ❤️❤️Some people just don’t know how to tell you even if they care a lot. They just need some time to push themselves to tell you . I know that sounds horrible but Idk how to explain this but they might be lost aswell..

[@khaligoihl9455]

@@fiona7088 you have no idea how much I needed to hear this! thank you

[@user-oq7ee2ol6i]

@@fiona7088 I want to off myself but they don't care about that

[@juliusvalencia5126]

I watch this because I wanna know what my mom would feel. I can't afford to break my mom's heart that's why I'm still hanging on as long as I can.

[@farzana.mumtaz]

May God give you peace and happiness. Dont give up

[@erpmo3326]

This comment made me cry.

[@farzana.mumtaz]

@@erpmo3326 😢😢

[@Beril_.]

Exactly.

[@wildexploration6487]

me too bro

[@toruuchii]

I'm scared that I'll leave my pain for someone else. And this is the only reason why in still here. People are starting to distance their selves from me and I'm taking it as a sign

[@surfskate9610]

Hey I know that Im just someone on the internet but you please dont you are loved, I love you go talk to someone hmu if you need

[@ladyintheradiator]

You seem like a really good person and i’m sure those around you are better now because of you in it. I hope you’re okay

[@jagrutidash4855]

please don't be disheartened .,.. u seem like a great person ... i might not know u .. but u know that u are loved ... don't ever do this to yourself

[@That_dom_guy]

I wish I could give my life to someone who wants to live

[@CandyKitty_Doll]

Same, I want to give it to my grandpa who died last year from ALS and he never wanted to die.

[@UseADamnCoaster]

Exactly. Had a friend die of cancer a few months ago when he had a bright future. I have no future and no desire to create one. All I could think about was how if trading places with my friend was an option, I would have done it instantly, without any hesitation or regret.

[@Cikcicjdmsk]

People that say that suicide is a selfish act are making me sick. You don’t have any idea how selfless suicidal people are. They are keep pushing and keep trying to stay alive for their loved ones until the end! Unfortunately, sometimes It’s too much to bare! The pain is just too much. Not be able to breath. Not be able to sleep. Not be able to eat or enjoy something. Neither exit your house for months. And instead keep enduring this for your loved ones because you love them too much to hurt them. Suicide it’s not a solution but show some respect to the beautiful souls that suffered so much that could not find a way out! Stay strong.

[@hayat707]

Vasiliki Michailidou 👏👏👏

[@rainasajid6678]

And the people who after hearing about someone's suicide say the departed soul should have reached out to someone, they are sick too! Like if a person would have someone whom he could trust and could cry his heart out, he would have done it already. And we don't have such people in our lives mostly.

[@8923903910]

Raina Ali yes you are so right

[@8923903910]

Hello Gaara Of The Sand

[@mk6alex]

No, this is coming from someone who was suicidal. It’s selfish for a certain extent of people. If I spoke to myself when I was younger I would be mad at myself. I would tell myself how dare you even think of this. You have so many people in your life. Don’t you dare.

[@hemchui6655]

I'm tired of pretending like everything is ok

[@wildtalesofanamericanjungl1145]

I have struggled with suicidal thoughts my whole life. From the young age of 13 to now (I’m 43). I’ve heard it all: - It’s selfish, think of who you are leaving behind. - It will get better, just give it time. - get help! First off, I’ve never felt that I don’t want to live. It’s more I don’t want to live “this way.” I’m writing this so I haven’t done it yet. I’ve managed to stop myself. And here’s the kicker: by stopping myself it just makes the pain last longer. I have kids and I would not want to put them or my wife or anyone (but especially my kids) through this. And that’s why I endure the pain, hardship, sorrow and feeling of hopelessness. But it gets harder and harder with every year. The other thing is that for those of us who struggle with this the fear of admitting it to the ones we love means the possible unraveling of our and our loved ones lives. Would this change my relationships if they knew? Would this change my job or possible promotion? Would this hurt how others view me…you may not think these things matter, but they do. I think that’s why I don’t attempt to end my life, but in the back of my mind I’m ok if say I get into a wreck and die. At least I go out but it was just an accident. Then again I don’t want others to die because of me. Why am I typing this? Honestly I don’t know. Maybe it’s just the only therapy I can get. No I don’t want to talk to a stranger, that’s not what I want. So for now I’ll keep trucking on, thinking of my kids until the day I can take no more. For those of you who don’t understand I can’t explain it. The best explanation I can offer is this: Imagine you broke your finger and it hurts so bad! But if you fix it the pain will be gone but so will you…so you leave it because you want to be around. But nobody can handle that pain forever. Just know that it’s not life they don’t want, it’s THIS PAINFUL life they are in now.

[@arianachacon2551]

I felt this so hard. Like you they started around 12-13 and I’m 20 now. It’s so freaking hard. I admire you for your strength because what we are dealing with is not easy.

[@a.w.3772]

You are not alone. Jordan Petersons videos have helped me refocus to find more meaningfulness in life...and by default, less suffering.

[@jackcarraway4707]

People who thinks suicide is selfish are clueless.

[@tebohosefatsa6627]

They don't understand how tough things can be.

[@6851843]

Caught my eye, I try to be reasonable and open. I'm interested in hearing your take on this , reason being is because about after a month or so I was really angry with my dad who ended his life . At the time I felt it was extremely selfish. This is why I'm asking. Thank you for your time.

[@ahumanbeing2283]

@@6851843 I think I might have a similar take on this to the guy above so I thought I might add. People who commit suicide (or think about it) often actually see it as selfless or somewhere in the middle. This is because they well and truly believe that the world would be better off without them. Yes, they probably acknowledge that their loved ones will experience immense pain after their death but they may also feel that, after a while, they will be ultimately better off without them. This is just my take on things, I hope it helps :)

[@rozhin6055]

@@ahumanbeing2283 Exactly! For me I feel like it would be better for everybody if I just didn't exist

[@SuperVladdrakula]

Sure, they are...

[@sgx6215]

i dont want to kill myself BUT i simply dont want to live, i want to die in like a car accident, a fight, a fire or anyrhing that would take my life instead of me taking it by myself

[@ali-vi6xv]

Same. Just something to end it. I'm tired

[@ilovespeed7467]

If you guys need someone to talk to add my Snapchat, iii_britney or Instagram, britn3ey, and I feel the same way as you :).

[@ali-vi6xv]

@Defaulter X does it matter?

[@sgx6215]

@Defaulter X suiciding is a sin, hoping to die is a different thing

[@amidayooo]

I’m so sorry to hear that .. it breaks my heart that you have to be feeling this way. ;((

[@uchihamp4245]

I’m so tired. Everyone is like “ live for me !” “ no keep living you have so much in life” “ live for your boyfriend for you’re future kids” but what about me? Did they ever sit and wonder why I should continue to live for myself.

[@donaldkeith139]

They can't understand. They cannot relate. They just do not understand what you're going through. Not because they don't care, it's just that they *can't*. So the only thing they can try to do is give you reasons that they think would be important (for them, but again, that's because they can't understand, not because they're being selfish necessarily).

[@donaldkeith139]

So they *can't* sit and think why you should continue. I'm sorry. Only you can sit and figure this out. That doesn't mean that you are left alone, even though it feels like that. It means that this is something only you can figure out. I wish we didn't have to go through this, but we do. Life is not fair, it never was. The only thing I can say with certainty is that we are much much stronger than we think. And stronger than our demons would like us to be.

[@fruzsinasomogyi3220]

People have no idea what you were facing but God knows each little detail about you and about your life❤️ He was there, by your side, at your highest and at your lowest. This whole time God is waiting for you to turn to Him for guidance (worldly thing won’t work out) Jesus Christ loves you so much, you are precious!

[@uchihamp4245]

@@fruzsinasomogyi3220 awww thank you! I love god !!

[@uchihamp4245]

@@donaldkeith139 ok

[@Mintman_Editz]

I just want to be at rest

[@lordronn472]

Same, and without my family!

[@holdyourhorses7658]

For some reason I always come back to this video when I'm feeling depressed. Today is one of those days. To whoever is reading this, you are not alone.

[@rosahx6448]

You're not either.

[@OkOk-sn2ly]

HoldYourHorses neither are you.

[@majavalentin9539]

Thanks

[@dustinbrite2422]

Its crushing when you know that nobody would really care if you were gone.

[@brycelucas286]

I know how it feels to think that nobody cares. but you can't possibly know how many people you would affect if you were gone. Those who hear about your death and don't even know you could be deeply affected. Those close to you who you thought didn't care could spend their whole lives dealing with it. It is impossible for you to know how your own death will forever change the lives of those around you.

[@dustinbrite2422]

@@brycelucas286 Maybe many people would be affected but in the end, they would quickly get over me. I dont have a single close connection with anybody in my life, not my family and not any friends(I dont have friends). We know that people die every few minutes but we dont get sad over their deaths so i dont expect people to be sad over my eventual death.

[@sailorsnail6935]

@@dustinbrite2422 Even persons that I don't like or barely know, like here on the internet... I am sad about them. I'm sad when I listen to their stories. I know what it feels like, wanting to end your life. You should be happy about every day you have. There is always someone on earth for you who cares. Suicide is just the one type of dying that takes my breath away and leaves me sick in my head and heart. I want this to stop happening.

[@sitakelemswati]

I would care

[@rebeccaciancio4723]

Watching this to stop my own suicidal thoughts 😢

[@a.w.3772]

I hope this video helped!

[@stormclouds4291]

Same

[@hemionegranger617]

it's easy to say you would've been there when the person is already gone. People send you to therapy, they can't be bothered to listen, it's too uncomfortable. But sometimes all you need is family and friends, not a stranger who listens to you for 50 minutes a week. EDIT: I started therapy and it is the best thing ever for me, I cannot recommend it highly enough if you are struggling. Honestly, now I do NOT think friends or family can replace therapy. Please do go for it if you are suicidal. I put it off for years, decades, and now I regret not starting it earlier.

[@yourazu7540]

You’re right

[@grindingyt]

im sorry to hear that you can speak to me :)

[@grindingyt]

@@yourazu7540 you ok?

[@hemionegranger617]

@@grindingyt that's very kind of you, thank you! ❤️

[@grindingyt]

@@hemionegranger617 if you ever want to speak let me know im here for you :)

[@Kylimatic]

The biggest mistake made is assuming someone is happy just because they are smiling.

[@exoticcar5482]

An even bigger mistake is society making happiness the norm in the first place

[@wtfamidoinwithmylife529]

To everyone who lost someone to suicide: they didn’t mean to hurt you or guilt trip you, they just couldn’t see the light in their future.

[@aryanpandey7928]

I feel this

[@rumaulia2709]

Yeah, i would never want to hurt my loved ones.

[@rumaulia2709]

@@vegetaismydad5382 A Lou A Lou im sorry to hear that. I don't know what you're going through now but i hope things can get better for you. I nearly lost my best friend to suicide a year ago. He said he didn't go through because i called him just mere moments before doing it. He suffered through that year but when we finally get to meet i can see that he is truly doing better. Of course it is different with every people but i do hope you can get better. If you are hurting much and your closest ones cannot help, please seek professional aid. I am not against assisted suicide but i hope you can reconsider that decision.

[@kiara5768]

the only reason I’ve stayed is because I’m terrified of what comes after death.

[@dianag.8478]

I feel the same

[@germanshepherd6638]

Life comes after death.

[@sodddit8360]

@@germanshepherd6638 No it doesn't. A domino affect comes after suicide. The endless sadness spread from the victim, to the family, and friends of the family. This is why I'm alive, I don't have it in me to mentally and emotionally crush my family.

[@annetnabuyondo7607]

Nothing, nothing happens after death, nothing

[@jenniferastrom8805]

I think if someone turns to suicide that their life must be horrible. or they must be suffering a lot mentally. You can't cure everyone who is mentally ill. If a cancer patient kills himself because the pain is unbearable everyone seems to understand. Mental pain, however, is seen as something unreal? Why is one okay not the other?

[@SuperVladdrakula]

"Why is one okay not the other?" Because people are hypocrites...

[@M.Guy1095]

You are right people always people keep saying that suicide is sin or they are selfish that why they live other in suffer but they doesn't know they suffer form interior themselves any try not conference to any and keep it in themselves and keep acting too be a normal person and some people show some sympathy after suicidal person done already suicide and some don't care during alive time and after die too so form my concept people are different have different mentality that's why they keep doing like this but those how keep try too carry on the struggling they are like suicidal mental health conditions and they done it's mean it's too much load to carry on but they keep try to control harder but last some become weak to continue they just quite like me what I am going too do but some try like this way

[@maddragon3076]

"I dont want to die... But i dont want to live"

[@shaneweathers3319]

Same here

[@hendrahalim4643]

same here...

[@misterchristopher8857]

Get involved in some form of service to others. We gain perspective by giving, sharing, growth, helping, learning and expanding our heart minds. Travel a newer path to find great happiness.

[@pinadecristofaro8771]

Same.

[@generichuman2044]

That sums it up perfectly. I suffer with depression and BPD and every day is a task. I don't want to suffer anymore but at the same time death is a finality. I think people would be better off without me but at the same time I don't want to leave them in pain. You can't win and life feels like a cruel and endless cycle.

[@wadew.1869]

All of you here, hurting, suicidal, depressed, starving yourself, being abused, or anything that is hurting you... I’m going to tell you right now that, *We deserved better*

[@helloworld-sl2lw]

thank you

[@yte4yyt186]

Let's all be honest life goes on nobody really cares about anyone but themselves I wish there was a guaranteed easy way out that wouldnt scar me for life if I survived I don't want to live anymore

[@jilk.7655]

as someone who was suicidal not a long time ago, i don’t understand why nobody ever talks about the other side, it’s always only about the relatives and close people who grieve. but i don’t understand how nobody sees the the people who committed suicide did this to free themselves from the permanent pain they suffered for years (often). why would you want to keep someone alive so bad who’s just tired and doesn’t want to?… of course it hurts, i can’t imagine the pain they go through when they lose a loved one. but imagine the pain the person who committed suicide went through to bring them to this point.

[@user-lq5hr7ip9d]

yes i think the same as someone who is struggling with suicidal thouhts is not easy to get rid of them just thinking that my parents would cry and suffer

[@tebohosefatsa6627]

@@user-lq5hr7ip9d I struggle with suicidal thoughts because of my ADHD. It's hard but I love my folks it's difficult living and difficult to kill myself.

[@nadesjnaswartz9567]

Yeah i feel the same no one will understand a sucidal persons mind untill they experience it themselves

[@craftpaint1644]

Those who've been hurt and come out a changed person understand very well how fed up someone can get when times are tough. But taking the dirt nap still with life ahead is so extreme, why not change jobs or go back to school in order to destroy an old life? - it's a state of mind man 👩‍💼🇺🇲🛠️🇷🇺

[@brie5016]

You know it’s gotten bad when you start watching these again..

[@AddieWagenknecht]

This

[@SebastianReedAndrews]

This video hits close. I lost my dad to suicide when I was eight. It's been about nine years now, and we're finally starting to get back on our feet, but it took such a long time since his death shook our whole foundation so much.

[@raquel_sofia512]

+Sebastian Reed Andrews I'm sorry

[@xImpashionedx]

I'm really sorry for your loss. I can't even begin to imagine what you and your family have gone through.

[@Z2Z9]

People who commite suicide are selfish. I don't mean to be rude they are probably having tough times but when they commite suicide they are affecting those around them who love them and cherish them. I think we all think about commiting suicide at one point but we all think about is it worth it. Some people sadly say yes

[@jacoblot6939]

aw I'm sorry to here that, and just move on bro. I lost my biological mother when I was 14 man was it rough. I remember failing every exam I had that year and crying almost every class.But I have my step mother now and I love her so much.

[@kierstynsaoirse]

+Panda San most people who commit suicide aren't being selfish because they believe that no one will care if they die because they think they're completely alone.

[@ashleybang49]

Depression is a scary thing. Some people just can’t take it. Then some people want to die but are to scared to die. It’s a vicious cycle and it can drain someone.

[@bleachboss1358]

This makes me sad. I feel terrible for even having these type of thoughts. I'm sorry guys, I'm really trying to make these thoughts go away

[@Octoberstorm333]

Me too yo. Like a lot of us search these vids while crying or breathing hard in a flight or fight mode. Too numb to sleep eat or listen to music. But these vids make us realize it’s not worth it. We gotta see what happens to us and the world. And someone will give us a crappy funeral and throw dirt on us if we just go quickly. I hope you can get yourself a good night sleep and look for more resources to cope with the thoughts of wanting to get out. I’m trying to make these thoughts go away too, so I’ll go heat up some cup noodles and try and sleep. Surely, you will smile again. Surely, you’ll laugh really hard again. You’ll live to build some good memories in the simplest ways. And that’s the best kind of memories to make. Surely, great moments are waiting for you. My bad for my annoying repetitive comment. It comes from my heart though and just for you.

[@indra-ofzo]

" suicide doesn't end the pain, it just passes it on to someone else". That quote is the reason why I got help

[@natalia-ii8uc]

You are so strong. Thank you for deciding to stay here! Many great things will come your way.

[@youtubeaccount1441]

Technically isnt passed on to someone else, but for those that feel pain it doesnt always matter. For example it doesnt matter if the parents feel pain because its their fault you exist to suffer in the first place.

[@theadultsaretalking2582]

@@youtubeaccount1441 it IS passed on to someone else. I developed severe depression and panic attacks after my best friend died, the remorse of doing nothing will hunt me forever. I don't blame him at all, but it's important to realise that even if you think you're alone and don't care about anyone anymore, there are people who care about you and they'll deeply suffer when you go

[@theadultsaretalking2582]

stay strong. whatever you're going through will pass eventually, I'm rooting for you !

[@youtubeaccount1441]

@@theadultsaretalking2582 someone should not have to have a moral obligation to live for most people. They should only have a moral obligation to live for their decendants.

[@rodnajs4048]

Who’s watching this contemplating suicide also

[@JoeIIama]

Rod Najs just know you are loved, to whoever is reading this. I can’t shake the feeling, but I know I’m loved so I will be okay

[@Hankmyboi]

I really hope you're still here love. 💗 you matter.

[@billbo7630]

For heavens sake people, what is it with all this you are loved. Thinking no one loves you probably accounts for very few suicides. To the people who have had suicidal thoughts I respect your comments, to the do gooders who at best no somebody who carried it out , you know nothing , please give it a rest.

[@prettychillpsycho]

I'm watching this in order to prevent myself from ending it all right now. So sorry for their loss

[@emie9659]

I’m glad you’re still here love 🤍

[@prettychillpsycho]

@@emie9659 that is very kind of you, thank you 🤍

[@DrizellaArandelle]

@@prettychillpsycho sending love 🤍

[@lynnk-qj9cj]

Please don’t my brother committed 3 weeks ago and this kinda pain stays forever. I’ve also attempted before I promise it gets better. Just keep growing around the pain take it day by day to heal. You got this lots of love take care.

[@prettychillpsycho]

@@lynnk-qj9cj I'm so sorry to hear this. I hope you will be able to cope with the pain somehow someday 🤍 And don't worry I didn't do it. I attempted 6 times before as well and have been in therapy ever since. It's just those really dark days that still get me... But I will continue fighting ✨

[@AJB273]

I lost my brother to suicide last month. I know it’s hard to see but for anyone contemplating suicide, please know that you are deeply loved and sorely needed by many, even by those that don’t say it and even by people you likely haven’t even met yet. Have hope and hang in there 🙏

[@stikkontakt4]

Me too my little brother a bit more than 2 weeks ago. It feels like I have been sucked into an alternative dimension where i'm not supposed to be. I've kept wishing everyday that I would've just reached out and talked to me or anybody for that matter. No feeling is forever and there will always be another and better day ahead, even if it might be hard to see at times. To anyone out there who might feel like my little brother did in that fateful moment, for the love of God each out. You are loved and people will be there for you.

[@Cowskiman]

Your bro was a puss. He chickened out on life

[@Bellaskyee]

I’m so sorry. Sending my condolences 💙.

[@JamesV84]

*Wow*... it was already _moving_ even before they said anything... But when they _spoke_, you really realise how important it is to *listen* to what they've learnt from it, I feel we could *all* learn something from this.

[@lilacbp3908]

Well that was quick

[@bhad7201]

damn it i commented before you and this video was so sad that i forgot to comment about graphic design guy

[@JamesV84]

TeaPawncha Hi :)

[@JamesV84]

_Eva _ I watched it straight away, but took me some time to put down in words exactly what I wanted to say, but it was still impossible to convey my feelings in words...

[@JamesV84]

Whatt Ariana It's okay, getting your message across is certainly more important than beating me :)

[@maicarichelle]

i dont want my parents to feel like this but im so tired

[@cookiedoughart4914]

I know you are tired and I know that it seems like things won't get better any time soon but you have to keep going its not going to be easy but it's so worth it if you just hold on just a little bit longer . you don't know what tomorrow will be like if you aren't there please keep on going

[@Albaisnothere]

Please, stay strong. If you want to talk, I'm here.

[@lucifide4766]

samee im tiredd like so tireddd and didn't want to do anything again

[@rashmisharma3830]

I know but please we have to live

[@heyimsophie8842]

ANGEL ARE U HERE? If u need to talk I’m here for u!!

[@SuperVladdrakula]

As one wise person put it, "The act of suicide is a last desperate attempt to escape a battle that cannot be won. It isn't a cowardly act; its a calculated defense strategy to avoid further damage at the hands of the enemy."

[@deigen7586]

the thing that makes me cry is the fact that, if id kill myself, no one, NONE would talk about me like this...

[@RaghavThakur-lu7rq]

Not true mate.. there's always someone

[@ellie8784]

@@RaghavThakur-lu7rq who? My parents that emotionally abuse me? My non-existent friends? WHO?

[@RaghavThakur-lu7rq]

@@ellie8784 I don't understand why you wouldn't consider your own self as your friend.. Care for yourself as you would a loved one... And if you really want someone that cares for you, you could always adapt animals that need help..it doesn't always have to be a person.

[@hi-ls6lt]

I get that people are only trying to be nice when they say “Are you ok?” but it’s comes to a point when people keep asking it and you know you’re not ok but if you say “No” they’re like “Well what’s wrong “ and if you explain to them all you’re demons,attempts at suicide and how much you hate life they’ll never look at you the same way again. So I blink back my tears, fake a smile and say “Yeah of course I’m ok.”

[@duckiecone1055]

I can relate and it sucks cuz i hate lying but i genuinely like to listen

[@hi-ls6lt]

Debeshi Ghosh but that’s the problem. I don’t trust anyone.

[@nightwhispersbond6891]

I get this A LOT but it's good to speak up to the older ones who can help but they don't know how bad it is sometimes they think a fight with a family member while you can think it's more than that its self harm it's cold heart that you sometimes you wish would stop beating

[@cchant2041]

People who commit suicide , are not weak .... Life sucks for a lot of us and it takes a strong person to make that leap ...

[@SuperVladdrakula]

Very strong and very desperate.

[@justmadeit2]

Depression cuts off any love for people or for yourself, it’s an inner torment where your mind turns against you. Life is joyless, you lose your sense of humour, you feel agitated, you may have bad insomnia too. You can lose your appetite and lie in bed all day feeling agitated but knowing that getting up doesn’t solve things. The days feel endless and when you wake at 4 am you panic knowing you have another long day to get through. You can feel terrified and that you may have to go up to hospital even if you’ve been in hospital before because the panic at how desperate you feel sets in. Feeling sui cidal is terrifying

[@randystevens1690]

I just loss my oldest daughter to suicide, and then my oldest son to drug overdose just within a couple months apart. As a parent it's the worst thing. No words can explain.

[@Foxesneedtobetamed]

I have no words Randy. I am grieving with you. Thank you for sharing with us here :)

[@randystevens1690]

@@Foxesneedtobetamed It's times in life we truly don't understand, but faith in Jesus the size of a mustard seed, will move your mountains, and that same faith will help you overcome the obsticales along your journey. I see by the comments alot of hurting people. I believe the message of the Cross, and the saving Grace of Jesus Christ, will heal the worst of broken hearts, and encourage hope, to fight the good fight, and run the race with all your heart Amen.

[@ireneangelucci3733]

I'm so, so sorry. Sending you a massive hug

[@randystevens1690]

@@ireneangelucci3733 Thank you very much. I love you. God Bless you and your family and friends.

[@magic672]

I come here often because I want to die, but that mother in the beginning is why I'm here. That's how my mom would be, and i can't do that to her.

[@M3lly.xoo.]

I’m so happy your trying to stay. Yes, think about your mother who loves you with all her heart. Think about the pain that would cause her. Don’t just do this for her either, do this for you. Cause you’d never know if you’d ever be truly happy in the feature if your gone. You’ll be happy you’ll get there. Maybe you don’t believe it but I do, things will get better and I strongly believe that. In a nearby feature you’ll look back on this time and think “I made it”. Keep fighting I know it’s hard, but I want you to know your so strong for fighting your battle everyday.

[@Max-0101]

I have the same thought. But it’s like a pain torturing me everyday.

[@asanda.mkhize]

Stay strong bro. Praying for you

[@heyimsophie8842]

are u still here? Let’s talk about it in insta or snap!

[@zakidjellouli364]

@@heyimsophie8842 can you give me your ig , i want to talk to you if you don't mind

[@alexblowers4643]

It's times like this where I am insanely happy my 2 suicide attempts failed. I love everyone reading this. Stay strong. Ps. I'm a guy. They can struggle with this too. It's not just girls. I'm insanely happy that there was guys in this video.

[@jayc342009]

+Alex Blowers no one said it was just girls, here in the UK males are more likely to commit suicide.

[@alexblowers4643]

+Sir fap alot first of all your name. Yes. Second in America it seems cowardly for guys to deal with this. I wasn't trying to be rude

[@figgyfilmscorporation9095]

+Alex Blowers LMFAO WHEN YOU SAID" First of all, your name" I WAS DYING

[@none4530]

I would just like you tell you that men are much more likely to commit suicide, it's a fact

[@lawiza1805]

+Kyou Fujibayashi but females try to commit suicide and fail more

[@xxxAyereaxxx]

When your depression is so bad, it convinces you your loved ones would be better off without you. A warped perception is impossible to fix.

[@grindingyt]

pls dont hurt you self i care about you

[@Sharpless2]

@@grindingyt replies like that have the opposite effect of what you think. They make everything worse, im speaking from experience. I had at least 2 dozen chances to do it, i regrettably took one and now im happy to be alive. Anyways, telling a complete stranger that suffers from Depression "i care about you" is one of worst things you could possibly do. Please, and this is not meant to be mean, if you have never personally suffered from something like this (loneliness is not depression.), dont go around trying to comfort people. It is nigh impossible to make someone open up to you no matter how close you might be to them.

[@grindingyt]

@@Sharpless2 👍

[@norse1585]

Wrong, it IS possible to fix! Look into ketamine treatment if it's legal where you live, or other psychedelic assisted therapy...creates new thought patterns and breaks old ones.

[@slowedsongs602]

i don't want to end my life, i want to end my pain

[@icantsleep311]

Me too :( also i love slowed songs :)

[@AudoricArt]

honestly one of the biggest reasons I don't want to commit suicide is because of the people around me. I just don't want to put them through that.

[@Nazzamajazz]

+REALKalikokyle why would you say something like that..? you are disgraceful.

[@sa-zs2xr]

+Dori C Stay strong things will get better

[@philippam7844]

+Dori C very brave and courageous and selfless to stick through it X

[@rensren6277]

That is the same reason that stoped me so many times. My sister took her life five years ago and i remember how painful it was to see her there and not being able to help her and knowing that i didnt do anything to help her, that i didnt knew what she was going to do. I dont want my family to go through that again. I still cry at night thinking what i could've done to help her.

[@mggreen1072]

yes Im trying not to because my firiends are from like 5 year old to 18ish and my all school will know that I gave up on life

[@ratte8633]

I lost five friends to suicide. I would kill myself by my depressions any time, but I don't want my friends to go through the same as me. I lie awake in my bed every night thinking about what I could have done better. I blame myself that I could have saved them all. But I couldn't have done that... It still doesn't change the fact that I miss my angels (so I call the people I lost through suicide)...

[@viperr06]

Im so sorry hope someone will help u and I hope God will make u feel better and I pray for u to feel better soon,dont end your life there are people who loves you be strong and fight 🙏💙

[@hursimear3408]

Black Angel I don’t like people who reject someone on the account that they have insecurities, as if having any weakness is unbecoming of a worthy man. I’m not going to assume that is the way she is, but it sounds that way from your description. On a second note: I don’t believe there is “the one”, I’m a hypocrite for saying this but you could find someone else you know? Someone just as good, better probably. But I know the temptation, I know how it feels to just not feel like trying. But if you’re going to live u might as well find someone else. Don’t fixate on her. She doesn’t sound that great for you anyway tbh. A true lover will be with you through your strong days and your weak days

[@ladybug4840]

i can never convince myself to commit suicide and im jealous of others who did. its not bc im scared to die, its bc im scared of what happens after death.

[@eduardarodrigues9564]

I was a very happy child, I don't know what happened over time but I really miss my old mind when it wasn't plagued by bad thoughts. I wanna die.

[@Sunny-gy3jv]

Sending love

[@eduardarodrigues9564]

@@Sunny-gy3jv Thanks💜

[@joshuavanzant962]

Man that’s tough

[@danabusxhh7088]

Every suicidal person at one point gives hints hoping someone will stop them or help but, it just kinda does not happen

[@snakewithacheeto5561]

Yeah.

[@ayeshagohar2908]

It's sad how they never notice

[@naklayay8465]

Its another Type of pain when they notice but dont do anything

[@idontwannabeanonymous4725]

Nah, I'm not. I was hoping that day I'm successfully ending my life, but I failed (heck, I failed in everything, even when I try to ending my life). My family found me, then take me to the hospital for giving me the antidote, and after they can saved me, they really didn't think that I would do that, because it is, I don't want to be saved. Well, what I mean by commenting this is, it's not all suicidal person wants someone to stop them, we can't generalized all suicidal person. So we can't blame on people around because they didn't care enough, because they might care, but they can't read our suicidal minds, and some people are just really depressed and think death is happiness.

[@idontwannabeanonymous4725]

Hope my comments give u new insight.

[@victoriamanfield3711]

My Dad recently died by suicide, I never thought it would happen… My Dad hid his depression from all of my family. He was so driven, a great communicator, businessman and family man, but even though he seemed to have it all together on the outside, he was suffering so intensely on the inside. I miss him all the time, I never thought this would happen… I think it is so important to listen to people’s silent cries for help. Starting with taking away the damaging stigma surrounding mental health, we need to keep talking about it! ❤️

[@kaylanguyen3517]

i'm so sorry for you, hope him rest in peace

[@alexapache1734]

I am so sorry for your loss may he rest in piece it is normal to feel grief tht does not mean weakness you know?

[@checx400]

U mad or NA 😂😂😂😂😂😂

[@tabj2615]

I'm so sorry Victoria, I really am :( hope you have family and friends around. Hug from Portugal

[@kronos_1337.]

:(

[@poetic9024]

They all care when you're gone.

[@M.Guy1095]

Yes

[@youngimprovingman7700]

When it's too late.

[@bettysingle4959]

988 suicide prevention call now thank me later

[@The_Mishima]

My psychological abusive father and his family for all the years of my life trying to lawfully get me from my mother because she didnt want to marry a psychopath And he dosent even care if i hit my leg at his house or saying in front of him i want to kill myself (one of those are true) but if i kill myself he will just say to the public that he cared about me and that living with my mom wasnt a good idea and then will take my sisters away from my mom.

[@rikkemarial.b.2567]

Excuse me.....They would not care when you are gone, if They did not care in the first place.

[@LookBackAtItBarbie]

I come back to this video often. I have gotten to a really low place in my life. It sounds sick, but I come back to this video so I can imagine that one of these people is my relative, my friend, my anything. I’m sad and I’m sorry that these people have to deal with such tremendous loss, but at the same time… I come back to imagine someone is sad to lose me. Or that someone wants me to be there. Or that someone is just.. thinking of me. It is so painful to have gotten to this point. I have felt so many times that I have escaped this feeling but I can never escape it and I’m just exhausted. The worst part might be the only reason I can’t bring myself to go is because I wouldn’t be able to watch this video again and imagine I am important or even matter at all to someone. I hate this.

[@huonggiangnguyen4250]

Stay strong 💪 I haven’t met you but I believe there’s always the light. You’re worthy of every reasons to stay 💪

[@gabymorketchup5045]

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[@leah1527]

I want to die but I don’t want to hurt my parents, shit’s frustrating

[@amanicoolbeans7408]

Leah Life gets better mamas

[@danilynn.]

Same. My dad already lost my mom, it would kill him

[@KJ-sx5wd]

Leah same. it would hurt my mom so bad.

[@jimmyog]

the same stopped me, I've actually improved a lot since that low point. Had the rope around the neck and couldn't figure out the best place to tie it to. That was literally 3 days ago so trust me you can weather the storm, and get help, try to find joy in the little things in life. We're lucky to be alive, find peace within yourself and on the other side of the double edged sword unlucky to be burdened with such pain.

[@stephanielincoln1238]

@@jimmyog please don't I know what it's like to lose someone that way my friend hung himself back in 2004 I blamed myself I started telling myself it should have been me. everyone in your life would have a empty feeling in there heart forever if u died.even though we don't know each other I would be sad if u died. u matter to me. I'll keep you in my prayers 💐😊💕

[@oreowolfrose5979]

I want to die....but I don't want to hurt my loved ones and family....

[@rudolfoorozco1218]

wolfe rose sans rich same hear, but hey where lucky to even have family:) appreciate every moment bro, god bless u

[@weirdteenagelife2617]

same here.

[@dajahauner6394]

Me too honey..

[@user-lu6lo2rg4i]

watching this to pretend that someone would care if I died

[@30clipn86]

I care

[@allie2831]

I'm so sorry you are going through this

[@ameliabuns4058]

well I honestly wish I didn't have my horrible family, they'd be in a miss if I died

[@SuperVladdrakula]

@Mastnaer Ceef So true...

[@fredtheboxer1974]

Bro life is a gift if you kill yourself you never get that gift back the gods of the most love and care about all there children. Pray to the to the gods of the most high

[@Magicae_Maximus24]

My older brother was 28. He died by suicide on November 10th 2019 and everyday is a struggle for me to keep myself alive. I want so badly to join him. But every time I try, I think of my little brother. I think of the example I’m setting for him and then I remember my brothers words before he left “look out for him. You may not see it but he looks up to you.” I remember those words as clear as day. I miss my older brother.

[@mango7736]

You got this my friend. Don’t let those bad days take control of your life. It’s so much more valuable. I hope you feel better soon and stay strong. People love you. ❤

[@sandraliaz4553]

I don’t wanna end my life I just want the pain to be gone

[@Xx_Alichino_xX]

Please don’t, if you need to talk to someone, I’m here

[@bhad7201]

I really love how buzzfeed is making people aware of these situations. Thanks.

[@koalarenegade2171]

same. It's amazing to see that they are starting conversation about serious topics

[@marinalevicka6808]

People dont take me seriously when i speak out about it and that makes me want to do it even more

[@fredtheboxer1974]

Don't do bro life is a gift and if you kill yourself you never get that gift back pray to the gods of the most high

[@MJ-qi4mm]

I imagine my mother and my sister searching for issues of suicide after my death and she came across this comment of mine and did not know me... My mother, this is your son, I love you, and please forget me, the pain that I felt was so great, it was tearing my soul every day. I wanted to cry, but I could not. Perhaps you feel some pain because of me. Please see a psychiatrist... I love you, my love, my dear

[@SuperVladdrakula]

I don't think specifically your mother would realise it's you from this comment alone...

[@ingenuised]

Don't let your mother's love give you the illusion of any supposed purpose in your life, all motherhood behaviour amounts to is simply retaining the genes of themselves through you- its all selfish and nothing to do with you, your existence could have just as easily been omitted in the womb or out of the womb all because she felt like it, all of it's just fixed chemical patterns created by billions of years of self preservation irregardless of whether you are the cherry on top or just a crumb lying on the table, I'm not saying selfish = bad, just that it shouldn't conflate with your reason to live, it's better to live when YOU want to live not someone else wanting you to live

[@the.seagull.35]

MJ this comment broke my heart. I can only imagine the pain it would cause them to find this 💔 and the pain you must have felt when writing this. I really hope you're doing better.

[@fla652]

are you still here?