Ask a Psychopath - What is it like to be you?

What is it like to go through life with psychopathy?
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Confessions of a Sociopath: A Life Spent Hiding in Plain Sight
by M.E. Thomas
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[@Matt-vz5wy]

What’s interesting to me is that her emotional pallet is basically what people perceive as perfection and similar to how many people imagine heaven. No fear, sadness, guilt, fear of judgement etc. it’s almost like psychopathy, which we almost universally recognize as an inhibitor of progress in life is also the goal we’ve set for ourselves. I wonder, if it were possible for a person to experience her reality for a short period of time, if it would be as euphoric as someone might imagine the absence of negative feelings to be, or if it would be a terrifying memory. The human mind is a strange thing.

[@4haruchan]

She cant connect to others normally thats why she doesnt care about others

[@thejoe9065]

Yes, its called lack of empathy. If i do something bad to someone else and then feel bad cause of it i might not do it again. And others might not do it in the first place cause they can already anticipate that it will make them feel bad and not be worth the emotional stress. That + laws etc. helps civilization to work on a certain level. If noone would really care and just make decisions without ever involving empathy.. i think during covid 19, if we had a house of 10 psychopath world rulers, they would have just let most of the old people die, etc. cleaned house a bit with the people that are not needed.

[@saqweq]

Psychopaths can feel basic emotions like love, joy, sadness, fear, anger but only to a shallow degree.

[@Lil_Mermaid_]

I see it as like an extreme denial

[@nikobitan7294]

This is why so many people idolise psychopaths and have such irrational ideas about them, even when said psychopaths would stab them in the back at first opportunity. They envy their complete immunity to any limiting societal psychological factors in their lives. It sounds "alpha" and "assertive" to not care about what others think, and this appeals to our monkey brain. However, living as a psychopath is not heavenly. If you look into it, psychopaths are very prone to depression and boredom because their lives are so devoid of meaning and value. They cannot connect to other people, they cannot find joy in interacting with society, they don't care about other people's happiness, hell, even ideals like humanity's happiness are irrelevant to them (most fictional psychopaths have a strong rational moral compass - real psychopaths don't). They get most of their entertainment from chasing adrenaline and sadism, whether physical or psychological (such as ruining innocent people's lives). So no, it wouldn't feel heavenly. It looks heavenly to people who think psychopathy is just doing whatever you want, but any normal person would find this existence empty. It would feel like living in a world completely devoid of people.

[@coltenkelso5764]

You can still feel that superficial charm that psychopaths have. But you can also tell she is being honest.

[@Yetipfote]

I see how we trust psychopaths: they radiate fearlessness because they truly cannot feel fear.

[@auraaura2417]

At the surface maybe, I also observe they exhibit a different kind of fear - not getting what they want or being targeted.

[@Yetipfote]

@@auraaura2417 oh interesting!! Thanks!

[@Maxime_K-G]

As someone with autism, I wish I would care less about what other people think and dare to take more risks. It's kind of inspiring to hear that it doesn't have to be that way. Even if I would never want to renounce every form of empathy.

[@bryanutility9609]

Say yes to your life! Don’t worry so much. If you need courage get exercise to encourage your spirit.

[@ROCT1917]

Just take more risks, thats your decision to make. You miss all the shots you dont take. Youre bound to succeed at something if you keep trying. Wishing you the best

[@IloveJesus777j77]

​@@bryanutility9609Jesus is coming back. Believe He died for your sins and rose again then repent to be saved.

[@IloveJesus777j77]

​@@ROCT1917Jesus is coming back. Believe He died for your sins and rose again then repent to be saved.

[@bryanutility9609]

@@IloveJesus777j77 I don’t care if he died for my sins & comes back or not. 😂

[@mariastevens6406]

How she described having a personality disorder is so spot on. Mine isn't psychopathy, but wow did that definition hit home

[@SLqB11]

Psychopaths rationalize emotions and that's what makes us go thru life without people even noticing it. That does not mean that we're immoral or evil or willing to hurt people. But yes, there are those with complete absence of empathy, they don't necessarily need to be psychopaths.

[@kevin4680]

Indeed

[@hlmitchel]

@@SLqB11 You are rationalizing morality. If you do not have empathy or if you've never chosen to help others and instead, put yourself first, you are indeed, evil. With all due respect, my suggestion is to speak with a vetted, Christian Pastor. My suggestion is to ask Jesus into your life. Mark chapter 12 verse 30 through 31. Romans chapter 10 verse 9 through 11. Also, Mark chapter 9 verse 23

[@LambentIchor]

@@hlmitchel A psychopath doesn't need to delude themselves with religion.

[@kunntakentay]

@@SLqB11perfectly said

[@jessicaholting2362]

Not caring what people think is very freeing. That is one thing we can learn from psychopaths. But I draw the line at giving up your sense of kindness, compassion and empathy for others. We must hold on to that. A way you can learn from them is let’s say someone criticizes you for something like eating too much or not cleaning your house..something that doesn’t hurt anyone…smile and don’t care.

[@nikobitan7294]

That has nothing to do with how psychopaths approach life. You are still using your sense of empathy, but reinforcing it with rationality to determine whether certain things are truly morally unacceptable or merely the result of intimidation tactics by narcissistic or insecure individuals. Psychopaths don't evaluate what they do on any moral basis. If it benefits them, it's good, if it doesn't, it's bad. Torturing someone just because it might make their day less boring is perfectly fine. The reason why they smile and don't care is because they think of everyone else as pawns and objects.

[@LordVader1094]

@@nikobitan7294 Exactly. There's no real good lessons of behavior to follow with psychopaths if you have proper empathy.

[@2009Andersen]

I would rather feel than not to feel. It is the essens in life and keeps you surviving and being aware of danger.

[@selinaogorman8380]

I applaud her honesty regarding her as a psychopath I know most narcissists can’t even be honest to others at all including there partners I wouldn’t trust her still I appreciate her honesty and it’s better you tell people who you really are that way you won’t have high hopes to be possible into someone life because sometimes people want friends and enjoy someone company with a psychopath you won’t get any friendship with them at least a real friendship with them your going to be disappointed and let down because they won’t be there when you need them by your side especially in a worst case situation like a passing of a loved one.

[@Paganini2222]

Somebody check her backyard!

[@louisskulnik7390]

Omg that Jack Nicholson Joker Smile...

[@HighSpeedNoDrag]

I was thinking Sam Kinison.

[@starbite]

Everyone saying that not feeling negative feelings would be great and that not caring what others think would be great. It’s actually really isolating and affects relationships to friends and family because they won’t feel you care about them when you are failing to grieve with them and when you are turning a blind eye to their worries.

[@izdotcarter]

Many people are in a current crisis, or haven’t developed adequate tools (are young or immature) so it seems like turning off all emotion is the solution to life. I love my feelings, even the difficult ones. They guide me and inform me of things that are important.

[@starbite]

@@izdotcarter very eloquently put. I agree.

[@Mogojoegotube]

It's really interesting to see that she clearly has a complete understanding of empathy and although she might not feel it, she might still display signs of showing or giving empathy towards something especially how she mentioned going through school for others must've been really hard. That in itself is her showing empathy.

[@nikobitan7294]

There's been a study showing that psychopaths can, to a very limited degree, put themselves in someone's shoes, but in practice they just use that to predict and manipulate people better. They have no real understanding, or desire to understand what the person themself is feeling. That's not really empathy. Empathy implies relating to a person and having *some* connection to their feelings, achievements, values. I may not jump from joy when a complete stranger gets cured of cancer, but I understand that it's a good thing. And I can understand these emotions and values even if they don't directly lead to benefits for me. Not so for psychopaths. If you think you're seeing empathy it's either because they've learned to superficially say these things in an emphatic way, or they're intentionally lying to make you trust them. In the example you mentioned, psychopaths are defined by narcissism so they think that normal people are inferior and pathetic for having lives and experiences of their own, and will rationalise using them as playthings if they are not directly useful to them (not out of any moral justification, mind you, but moreso when objectively explaining what makes them target them). I imagine "I don't know how you got through high school..." is a way of wording that mentality in a more politically correct package.

[@tristanssimpson1324]

Yeah, it is interesting. She does have cognitive empathy, but not emotional empathy. Essentially she just reads people, without feeling what they’re feeling. No doubt therapy has helped her converse in a way that is more palatable for normal people as well. It’s advantageous to her to sound relatable, even if only superficially.

[@vaska1999]

She's read about it and has gone through years of therapy, too.

[@collinsmcrae]

That's not clear at all. Sure, she knows the language around it and definitions she's read or has been told, but she's telling you point blank that she doesn't actually know what those things are actually like, necessarily.

[@theeguy9022]

It's called cognitive empathy and yea, it's a lifesaver for us. We might stumble a few times but it's always possible to learn where you went wrong, especially since when you're like this from birth and you can passively study your classmates as they age

[@allisonhughes4348]

Love how the question is what is it like “living with psychopathy” as opposed to “being a psychopath”

[@zeroth-zm9kc]

Her speaking skills are on next level

[@JMoruzzi]

High innate intelligence + training as a lawyer will do that for you.

[@DB_-]

She would make a great sales rep for Psychos R Us -" it's a superpower, no fear, its freeing, I feel bad for those in school who don' have it".

[@hermessantos1601]

I suffer from Dysthymia, and have had many depressive crises throughout my life. By the way, I'm fighting against one right now. I envy her for not suffering because of what other people think and how they treat you. That's a big part of depression.

[@TheRainbowGal]

um I've been dealing with depression caused by PTSD for my ENTIRE LIFE and have literally been hospitalized for it and no one has used the term "dysthymia" around me before..... THANK YOU. This seriously seems to hit the nail on the head of the specific type of persistent depression I experience. And I'm dealing with a really bad "flare up" currently. This comment just gave me so much solace because I can now delve deeper and research more. Thank you, I really can't say that enough.

[@hermessantos1601]

@@TheRainbowGal I wish you the best. I've been better lately, with the help of Logo therapy in the writings of Dr. Viktor Frankl, especially 'Man's search for meaning'.

[@IloveJesus777j77]

​@@TheRainbowGalJesus is coming back. Believe He died for your sins and rose again then repent to be saved.

[@IloveJesus777j77]

​@@hermessantos1601Jesus is coming back. Believe He died for your sins and rose again then repent to be saved.

[@outstanding-xj5ve]

Maybe we should make a sweet truly beautiful place where we sensitiv not are affecting. I admire you greatly and I can say that going through life with all this unnecessary pain & agony is not in any way worth to endure. Thank you for this video. ❤

[@emilrais3655]

It's so fascinating listening to her explain her experience. I wonder what it's like to be in a monogamous relationship with a psychopath. Whether such a relationship could be satisfying and how it would be governed. Perhaps through utility, perhaps through contract - perhaps through love?

[@daviderickennedy2194]

BTDT You realize you have no "relationship", you are just an object, they bond to no-one. It "satisfying" until you realize it's all fake, they are just using you. Note this woman is waring a mask, this is NOTHING like what she is in reality. If you want to learn more, never learn it from a psychopath, it's a million lies. They tell you what you might want to hear.

[@nikobitan7294]

Psychopaths don't feel love. They can feel some entertainment from interacting with others (on a more muted level, given that they lack access to deeper emotions that people use to connect with things on a more complex level) but it's the same feeling you might get from playing in a sandbox. It's completely devoid of any deeper meaning, and chances are you'll get bored quickly. If one day their partner stopped being useful to them, i.e. they got bored of them, or the partner refused to do them favours, or the partner got injured, and at the same time the psychopath decided they're really curious to see what the inside of a human looks like, they'd do it without a second thought. The only thing that would stop them is the threat of jail, or the lack of future benefits they could squeeze out of the person.

[@dunawayamy9257]

Damn !

[@3k166]

I was diagnosed with aspd and i can say with a good amounts of certainty that a psychopath atleast in my case cant really form an emotional bond like love but i can form a bond through enjoying being around you like a friend, However in the case of a relationship the treatment would be more inherently personal and maybe sexual ergo, i must display affection. like @nikobitan7249 is saying. I cant truly be affectionate but i can enjoy being around you enough that in my mind the affection i would show you can be used as a payment to further keep said relationship. The bond that may occur would likely be something like: "this person makes me happy so i will keep them happy so they do not leave" and "if i they do not make me happy i will leave". yes it is a bond which is emotional but not on the same level as a normal person would. Its very self serving and the affection you would receive would not be real affection but more of a tactic to keep you around to continue to make me happy. making you happy and feeling loved is just a method of achieving my own happiness and if i did not need to do that. I would not

[@peterwhitey4992]

@@nikobitan7294 Psychopaths aren't all the same. Like with any other disorder, there's a range. Some actually desire to, and live a pretty normal life, with a partner, trying to be normal and good.

[@danman6612]

It shows how not having emotional empathy or fear can make you do destructive things and not care. People can numb their fear and emotional empathy (in the short-term anyway) through multiple ways, whether it's by brainwashing, drugs, or even feeling intense emotions like anger, but psychopaths have that fear and emotional empathy switch permanently off, which makes them potentially far more dangerous than the average person.

[@williamstrachan]

Yeah, it's like when leprosy damages the nerves that let you detect pain, and then you injure yourself because you don't realise you're touching something hot until you smell burning... empathy is society's version of those nerves. Would society even work without empathy?

[@ThePitchblue]

dangerous, but also stupid. empathy and fear helps our survival. hence psychos aren't as equipped for survival as they are presented, which is ironical.

[@shawnstephens1251]

Her fear switch is not permanently off, otherwise she would have already become dangerous. She fears repercussions just anybody else. Listening to her for two minutes, I know I would never trust her, but in my opinion, emotional people are far more potentially dangerous.

[@danman6612]

Psychopaths do not have the same relationship with fear as non-psychopaths. She said she has regretted things, but only because it didn't work out for her, and even though she knows she's a danger to herself, she doesn't care and would welcome death. That doesn't sound like someone who experiences fear.

[@shawnstephens1251]

@@danman6612 What it sounds like and what it is are two different things. Many people master their fear and just as many don't experience fear until it's too late. What you describe is a conditioned response. Statistically, a person who truly didn't experience fear would probably not survive into adulthood since it is an essential survival tool. If she truly welcomed death, she would already be so.

[@sphinx1017]

It sounds great actually! No fear, sadness etc. she feels good most of the time.

[@LaughingStock55]

Is it great to only care about yourself and to hurt other people around you for your own gratification? Yes it's great for the psychopath. It's hell on everyone else.

[@jasreallySUCCS]

⁠@LaughingStock55 well, duh.

[@jasreallySUCCS]

Ok ok, yeah you're totally right. Total hell to be in these people's lives

[@lxdj2948]

In another she describes about how she tried to killed a possum and the funny part is that I've spoken with another psychopath before personally and let's just say she's probably one of the lower end of violent psychopaths which may seem surprising to many people

[@seasons1974]

There is a difference between a sociopath and a psychopath. She is a sociopath.

[@tompa8539]

@@seasons1974 I'm quite sure she is a factor one prosocial (Good relationship with her parents and so forth) psychopath. Sociopath is an older word for psychopath, but today it means factor two psychopath. And they can often be more "emotional" and show anger and even some anxiety in public. Sociopaths are not always manipulative or narcissistic, but they fulfill some of the other psychopatic traits instead.

[@cf8595]

I think this series is pretty incredible. I would applaud her vulnerability, but then again, she technically doesn't have that, because it would require her to feel a sense of susceptibility to judgment. Which also begs the question - is it ethical to put this on display? Because she can't feel the exploitation, but in a way, could it be like putting someone up with a low IQ and them not understanding the stakes of what they are saying? She might not be understanding the social implications of the things she is saying and how many people might see her as a societal nuisance or worse...

[@4haruchan]

Well psychopaths can aknowledge they are being judged and they can experience intense anger or frustration. They can want people to like them

[@4haruchan]

At least to have a social reputation. Thats important to them most times i guess

[@12Kyra121]

I don't see a problem with this. She doesn't feel emotions, but that doesn't mean she doesn't understand them. She knows, given how smart she is, the implications better than you and I, I'm pressuming.

[@veronica-]

I'm sure she knows how psychopaths are perceived by the general public, she's had to deal with it in her life, but doesn't care. She seems very capable of consenting, she shouldn't be treated like someone akin to a child who shouldn't be allowed to do interviews because it might reflect poorly on her, she has the right make choices too.

[@SirMan48]

She's sick. Her mental illness is being exploited and she doesn't realize it. Or she does. And just convinces herself she doesn't care.

[@luk4aaaa]

It’s so fascinating to see a psychopath talk knowing it is one, but also understanding that they’re speaking truth and not lying. I have met a couple psychopaths before and they had the sort of same kind of thing(?) when they would tell absolute truths or be completely honest, you could just kind of tell.

[@AndersonStreet311]

Fascinating especially how fight or flight feels

[@KorisnickoIme84]

I'm hyper sensitive with depression/social anxiety and I kinda envy her with not giving sh*t about nothing,what others think,no need for affection or having friends..just being happy all the time..

[@jflsdknf]

Same

[@mikewho822]

How many people do you think she’s burned throughout her life...

[@ceejayhaughton7360]

Alot

[@dlibby4979]

Im envious of her, she doesnt feel fear. What a life that would be, so different to mines, so many things I could do.

[@David-ti8ci]

Except those things you would be "free" to do, might put you in prison. It's fear that prevents you from hurting someone if they offend you. Now imagine that fear isn't there...

[@myheatgoesboomboomboom1655]

Im a psycopath but if you meet me youd never know i didnt even know i was blind to it you wholdent tell the diffrience we do get scard to we just think its fun i heard someone say its like if a normul person got super drunk like the mind lack sense but youre super energtic like you driving a car with super speed i never noticed that i tought i had ptsd but im kinda ready to run from danger all the time like danger is alwayes around youre very susspicuse but you also think life is great at the same time think of it like this youre in a forest its very dark and infront of you there is a gaint paython snake and he cant kil you he is not allowed he can kil everyone els but not you becuse the snake is you but when the snake looks around everyone looks like him so he trys and live a normul life

[@user-mi5tu2rq6r]

I’m not a psychopath but on the fear note I never feared riding my e bike until I had an accident the other week and ripped my chin open down to the bone If I had landed on my face it would have taken the end of my nose off or knocked my teeth out We have fear for a reason

[@Jc-do4fy]

She’s more well adjusted than most people I know.

[@mr.vargas5648]

You mistake her being calm for being well adjusted. That's how they fool people around them.

[@ryiningZolzz-qt3wn]

@@mr.vargas5648 she doesn't try to fool anyone, she just is who she is. You're making conclusions about her based upon your own behavior.

[@sarabellum4880]

Ii have to say thanks for sharing your perspective but I realize it means nothing. This is so fascinating

[@andrewcombe8907]

It is a worry she is a qualified lawyer.

[@host7368]

most of them are.

[@HighSpeedNoDrag]

No as the Firm probably hired her based (merely) on her Academic Achievements.

[@Kyruusstatic]

Why? She's probably the type who defends corporations, busts unions, draws up eviction notices even when they're illegitimate, fights veterans not get their benefits and their widows

[@VeNuS2910]

this explains why psychopaths do not understand the consequences of their crime.

[@darrenhill]

I've noticed in some of her interviews, she stares off in the direction of the books. And her eyes seem unrelenting cold.

[@daddydaycareah3994]

Someone who’d be interesting to talk to but definitely not someone I’d have in my life.

[@Merc4lif3]

May the force be with you

[@odonnelldenise]

I believe it would be like a fish in water not "feeling" or "knowing" it is in water. So neither euphoric nor traumatic. Consider you fear heights while another person fears mushroom. Or that you enjoy the smell of onions while another does not. If you were to then trade bodies, your new lack of fear of heights and disgust of onions would now just register as "normal" to you.

[@scottslomka240]

future winner of a darwin award

[@scarletwarlock3261]

The way she talks is wild. Open and honest though I must give her that. And I love her fashion she dresses so nice snd her hair looks wonderful.

[@msliberated3899]

???😂😂

[@jhonnyshmurda7332]

What type of a psychopath would delete the comment section

[@AlphaCrucis]

Well, she's not wrong. Having emotions is miserable. With I was a psychopath.

[@Flickit100]

What bravery to admit you're a psychopath. That is quite unique and not many people with this condition could do this.

[@SiebteFassung]

Bravery? Not on her part. One can only be brave if one has fear. Ergo, psychopaths can't be brave. If anything, this is an experiment for her out of curiosity

[@caralho5237]

Its not bravery when there arent any negative consequences

[@theeguy9022]

As the ones above me has stated, we cannot be brave. Being brave inherently means that a person is afraid and is still capable of overcoming such a thing. The correct term would be fearless although that's not always the case, phobias are actually something that can affect us normally.

[@tompa8539]

I think her narcissistic side love the attention.

[@paulmaxwell8851]

Wrong. We have zero evidence that she never experiences fear. Don't confuse lack of empathy for lack of all feelings.

[@pure666evil]

as a psychopath I agree with this description

[@user-hz1tu8pl7z]

The feeling of utter emotional morality dissonance. The lack of guilt prohibits her feels of the sense of wrong or “immoral” conduct of her actions . Much as when a child gets spanked for a bad action, the child would feel guilt or shame from the punishment, much like her she would question why the actions would be reprimanded and quickly dismiss it . Strange but fascinating

[@michaelmcgee335]

There are left-wing wokey’s far worse than her and some of them are even in power.

[@torena5907]

I'm sorry for whatever happened to you that made you think physical punishment is normal or acceptable.

[@MondoBeno]

I read some reviews by her former students. Her name was Jamie Lund, though she may have changed it to Townshend. I don't know what she does now, but few law firms will hire someone who admits to this on the web. They say that she had a creepy stair when she was a law school instructor.

[@simple_injoy]

Can u pls link the videos?@@joanarc7963

[@penultimania4295]

"warning from god" lmao - god created them. You don't get to pick and choose who god created, just because you don't like them.

[@user-wz7fe2bq5c]

Oh ya I love going fast too! I feel things when I go fast I dont feel anything most of the time. My motorcycle is broke down atm and I really want to ride it FAST!

[@KiKi-te9yd]

My ex would look off to his right like that too. Before I realised what a liar he is, I always wondered why his body language looked like he was uncomfortable... this lady is exactly the same

[@KairaTepes]

that's a myth. it's true that right-handed people _might_ look to their right when fabricating a story, as a left-handed person, i do the opposite. some right-handed people can function the way i function, and some can literally look you in the eye while lying

[@theeguy9022]

This rule (which is hardly true), is not something you want to rely on with us. Do you really want to pretend that we feel any shame when we lie to you?, we can look at your eyes perfectly fine and make all the right expressions, that's simply all there is to it. If someone is a bad liar, they won't be grounded in truth and there will be fault in the story, look for those faults and confront the person with it, know how they will attempt to spin it around on you, so make sure you're ready to defend your point calmly.

[@KiKi-te9yd]

To clarify... its not a rule that they look a certain direction every time, I worded that badly. I just noticed at times he seemed awkward like that. Absolutely right, they can look at you with direct eye contact and lie blatantly to your face. Eventually I learned his routines and caught him out red handed or on email enough times that I couldn't trust a single word he said. There would be the sympathy manipulations where he would tell me I was the only one who cared about him, while he was organizing sex with another random hookup. Friends fathers who died/'funerals attended ' so he could go on dates, work trips etc etc. Just gross. It was the best and absolute worst time of my life, and the charmer has since made a point of trashing my reputation as much as he could. Just gross.

[@Minneolaos]

Not a sign of lying. People Look to The right when they imagine how to relay information in The Form of a story. It's used when a broad generalization IS made. Details are omitted so that a general view IS given. The exceptions to a rule are Are added later.

[@camilascatonebedin3002]

Ok but I can totally understand what she is trying to say with how not being a psychopath can actually seem miserable at times.

[@Jessicabeyers90]

I think anyone who judges and disparages this woman, for who she is, needs to look at themselves. Being vulnerable and baring your soul to the world takes courage and humilty. (Even of they can't feel it) Everyone wants to be accepted in the world. I've just 'come out' myself. Being a covert narcassist. Alot of things she spoke about I could relate to. It's refreshing actually to know there are other damaged souls out there who are going through the difficult journey of changing themselves. All we want to feel is 'normal' and develop a sense of self... Its a horrible knowing, you feel depressed and empty all the time. If you are reading this, please try and put yourself in this lady's shoes. Yes, she may have odd reactions such as smiling at inappropriate times, but why zoom in on that. Why not be grateful to her for opening up which would inevidetably help millions of people either protect and educate themselves. If you were a psychopath would you be game to publically open up, knowing the stigma? It makes me angry reading negative comments on people who are being real. Rather we praise and idolise celebrities who are more fucked up as everyone else. But they wear the mask because thats how they want to be seen'. I can speak from experience that i was so fearful telling anymore let alone admitting i had a personality disorder. Because i thought i would loose all ny loved ones. It was quite the opposite. I received more love and compassion. Because for the first time in my life, i was being 'real' with myself and others. That inspired me to really own the fake person i developed. Ive learnt that we cant change unless we accept, forgive ourselves and let go... So i can build a new person. And confident i will through the Dhamra path and meditation. Somehow society idolises people who seem to be happy and have their shit together. Holding onto a facade for the outside to see. I think of most celebrities... How miserable, self absorbed they are. The pressure to keep up the smiles... Fake fake fake. Yet we idolise them. The poor celebs probably dont even know they are suffering. Then they kill themselves because they see their emptiness and dont know how or where to get help. So please try and have compassion for us. Even those who havnt recognised it within themselves If you have been burnt over by a psychopath or narcassist, im sorry to hear that. Ive burnt people also. Im not proud of it, and certainly feel shame. But the one thing that can cripple a narcassit is compassion. So please people, show your support to this amazing woman. She is giving the world a great gift by sharing. And giving a voice to the other f*** up suffering souls out there like myself, to recognise these patterns within themselves too and seek therapy also. Jessica - Brisbane/ Australia

[@friedaholmes3782]

Thanks for Sharing, All Creatures Have Their Place in Time. They Exited a Womb As Well.

[@rangerrecon]

I'll tell you what it's like - it's great; you don't have emotions getting in the way of day-to-day activities. Your obviously disconnect from some people (e.g. people don't understand why your not upset about something that they are upset about), but I've found the emotions like empathy are there, you just have to "turn them on". Likewise with fear - your brain doesn't see an issue with a particular task/situation, but the body is signaling that something is a really dumb idea so you kind of have to turn on the emotions to see if there is fear and, if so, why.

[@mau345]

Is that psychopathy or just healthy emotional regulation? Lol.

[@ElizaFragmented]

Yeah, that’s pretty much how it is.

[@user-wz7fe2bq5c]

OMG I'm a psychopath! I relate to what she is saying. I try really hard to emulate how others feel and I feel my best when I just dont care its trying to care the way they think I should that causes me to get off kilter. I only do it anyway because I know its what I should do according to others.

[@ginnywannadab4708]

she is just highly logical

[@DOOMJESUS]

SOMEONE HAS PERSUADED THIS WOMAN TO BELIEVE THAT SHE IS A SICK PERSON. I WONDER WHY.

[@jpintero6330]

Spock is logical. He would not drown an animal like she has.

[@CyberFighter-hu7xo]

No she is predatory

[@SiebteFassung]

It's so funny how she is frenetically blinking in order not to forget blinking. Psychopaths do tend to blink less. This exaggerated blinking is part of her mask. In this situation, neurotypicals might understand it as a sign that she is feeling nervous. But it's kinda weird that she's feeling nervous when she also seems so confident. A neurotypical who doesn't know she's a psychopath would probably think that she's an emotional, but also laid-back person who doesn't express her feelings much. Her mask is well crafted. I would like to see a video with her mask off. But I understand that this would not be a good thing for her public image, so it's out of question lol

[@coronacruiseship]

Youre stretching soooo hard its crazy, criticising someone for blinking😂

[@SiebteFassung]

@@coronacruiseship It's not a criticism. I like analyzing psychopaths and people with abnormal psychology. I had met a few in the past, some of which were my friends. I knew beforehand that they are psychopaths before our friendship started. It's good to understand the natural behaviors that we neurotypicals perform without being aware of

[@Ljcoleslaw]

@@coronacruiseship yes exactly. All this made up body language analysis is post-hoc justification for their biases

[@AABB-px8lc]

my mom psychopath, and despite ditterent face, all dynamics very similar. Mom tend to blink a bit faster exactly as in this video in case she trying explain complex things, like long chain of events. In normal she blink much less.

[@AmirHussain-wc1or]

0:45 ‘most of the time I would be feeling things like uhhh.. joy.. you know the happy ones right?’ This truly conceptualises how a psychopath doesn’t feel anything positive. Her happiness, joy, charisma is all a facade. She has no way of describing the emotions, because she has never felt them. So the way she describes them, compared to the other descriptions of other things she does, Is lacklustre.

[@AmirHussain-wc1or]

@@joanarc7963Yes, it’s astounding to think that they don’t feel anything at all. Nothing. Emptiness. Just as you and I feel remorse for an innocent soul in distress, individuals such as her have no such capabilities of doing so. This of course raises the moral question of whether they should be allowed to raise children. Saying yes could potentially mean passing on these Machiavellian and narcissistic tendencies on said children. Saying no could be countered by the question of whether or not it is even their fault to begin with, that they have been inflicted with such a curse of the mind and soul.

[@clairebrannon8130]

The background music in this video is awfully distracting and irritating.

[@iscreamfitness]

Sounds like a super power. How can you regret but not remorse ?

[@bryanutility9609]

Regret actions that could have benefitted you more. Like you regret getting caught or regret not making money.

[@Myamirah]

I find her sporadic lack of eye contact interesting. She makes eye contact briefly but the majority of time she focuses her gaze off to the right. I interpret that as her not wanting people to really make a connection with her.

[@cosicookieasd4379]

love how she compares herself so nonchalant to a top athlet and musician and their greatness in a side sentence

[@hollowinside1962]

Life would suck living like this

[@mr.vargas5648]

Very embodiment of thanatos.

[@edgar9651]

I like this woman - maybe I should visit a specialist.

[@PalaszewskiFamily]

Regret. She feels regret. She must feel other painful emotions, but suppress them subconsciously.

[@melissaburris7606]

Regret and remorse are different. Remorse is about the person you harmed. Regret is about how you were inconvenienced/hassled after u harmed them.

[@Sojto16]

She is lovly

[@ArtemisSilverBow]

Don't care what it's like for her to go through psychopathy than she cares about drowning possums or suffering pets and people - anyone but herself. Only here to leave this comment. I watched one video of hers about the possum. And that's all I needed to hear. Did she ever consider that She's the pest? None of us are trying to hose and drown her though. But I'm not interested in helping her out any more than she helped the possum. People like me are too busy helping victims of people like her.

[@SteveOLive88]

It's nice to know I'm not alone

[@johntate5050]

If you were a psychopath you wouldn't care about that.

[@SteveOLive88]

@johntate5050 calling myself a psychopath is defining who I am by antisocial personality disorder. Being defined by a disfunctionis simply something i refuse to do. It is nice however Knowing there are others who expirence things the way I do.

[@johntate5050]

I very much doubt you're a psychopath.@@SteveOLive88

[@SteveOLive88]

@kceline123 I never had any real childhood trauma. I simply observed that I was different from other people, and now I know why. I count it as a blessing not to feel the same social pressures that everyone experiences.

[@Kumballs69]

i dont like people who say im undiagnosed but, but i think i am somewhere dark triad. Kind of like this video, i didnt care about other peoples opinion, i value intelligence of everything, probably because im relatively intelligent and narcissistic. For example, if a friend wins an award, i dont feel happiness for them, only anger that i didnt win. Like this video as well, i dont really feel sadness nor regret, i really only feel anger on the negative emotion spectrum, because for me, all my emotions become anger. I dont know about these things and am undiagnosed, im just interested in learning.

[@vvelvettearss]

whats it like living like that? do you mind it? have you felt genuine love (platonic) and connection with a person before? i have similar traits but meeting the right people does change my perspective and feelings. But it may or may not come to an emotional standstill later though because ive never let things get that far and am at a loss as to what to do with it. Im working on it though. mainly from the inside and asking myself what I want from life. Sometimes it goes away . I think the fact I can be nice and kind to people is really enough Do i know what caused it and recognise its not healthy? yeah. probably Hard to shift life long traits as an adult. But there are ways to undo feelings of callousness so hopes always there

[@FilleDesSoucoupesVolantes]

I'm sorry for you and for others you may hurt. It's sad just how much narcissists can also suffer at the hands of someone. And this is the interesting thing ; a person with NPD isn't born - they develop it throughout child development, particularly in their formative years. It is emotionally-learned behaviour. The sad truth about having NPD is that your audience will love you at first, but people with high emotional intelligence will be able to see right through you and those people will not ever feel sorry for you. Those are the people that you will come to resent, as a person with NPD. You can never taunt those people. You will taunt the weak, the pure, the unselfish. But that person whom you will possibly taunt or torture for the rest of your life will eventually see through you too as you can't fool someone for long. Then you'll get bored of that person and move on to hurt someone else - but not without leaving the other person shattered and broken and bruised. You will only make their life a misery, all the while believing yourself to be the only one who can ever do any right. And you will fashion yourself as some sort of supreme being. But that is not the truth, however. Righteousness is all an illusion with the narcissist. The truth is simply because you may have learned this behavioural pattern from someone close to you in the past, unintentionally, doesn't mean your actions and bad intentions towards others can ever be justified. As an adult, your actions are indeed controllable. I advise all people with traits of narcissism personality disorder to seek intensive therapy. Statistically, very few people suffering from NPD will ever resort to getting the treatment they desperately require, often due to pride and dismissal and defiance that they do need help. Also because training and therapy will inevitably be very extensive, expensive and will be a life-long journey of self-discovery for the narcissist. Please, for the emotional stability and wellbeing of others as well as yourself, consider getting help. If you can't afford the therapy, then make it your life-long mission to the path of self-discovery and treating others like YOUR EQUAL. The truth is that there is always someone with a higher IQ and more emotional intelligence or more popular than yourself in your environments, and you will need to learn to make peace with that fact and control your behaviour REGULARLY - not whenever you may feel like it. And THAT is hard for the person with NPD or borderline NPD. Most narcissists will never heal. But through therapy it is possible. Good luck.

[@SirMan48]

Whats fascinating is how sick she is. And how strong shes had to lie to herself to protect herself from danger. She describes not experiencing fear or anxiety...and then goes on to describe her anxiety and fear. She doesn't realize that what she experiences IS fear and IS anxiety, but theres a part of her that refuses to acknowledge it.

[@AtinzMizuki]

Because they have a mask, simple.

[@SRBOMBONICA86]

She doesn't feel fear

[@SandymoorFerrariClub]

That's what I was thinking. If you don't experience something, then in my experience it's really hard to even comprehend what that thing is. For example, I don't experience travel sickness or fear of the dark. I understand that something is happening to other people when they say they feel sick in a rocking boat, or driving through very winding country roads, but I couldn't explain what they are feeling even if you paid me £1000 to do so. Same thing with fear of the dark. As a child I didn't understand why other people would act more nervous in the dark, or why they don't tend to go for walks in the countryside in the dark or why they turned lights on in rooms where they didn't particularly need to see anything. TBH I still don't really understand it. Somebody explaining travel sickness or fear of the dark to me is probably going to struggle in the same way that I'd struggle to explain the colour red to somebody who is red-green colourblind, or the experiences of empathy and fear to a true psychopath. So when the lady in the video describes her experience of fear and anxiety, that certainly makes me question her diagnosis.

[@SirMan48]

@@SandymoorFerrariClub I think she's just mentally detached herself from her feelings.

[@theeguy9022]

Think of it like this, if I was to try and describe the concept of nothing, then I would fail as by describing it, it is no longer nothing, does that make sense?. It's a similar concept here as while we do not feel such things, just by mentioning them you interpret them to mean this thing that you feel that we don't. We do often carry detachment to our own feelings, but this is because most of those feelings are a crushing boredom, jealousy, anger or some other variation of them, so we present with the feelings that we see as beneficial, it's completely natural and it becomes easy to play into a mask when you're capable of almost fully believing it

[@xc9034]

Are all of her smiles and giggles fabricated? And if she wear to remove the "mask" wouldh she just be sitting with a stone cold face, explaining things with no contrast?

[@Umbrellagasm]

She said she could experience positive emotions, so some of the smiles and laughter are probably genuine

[@nikobitan7294]

@@Umbrellagasm They generally feel positive emotions from adrenaline, extreme excitement, sadistic joy etc. It's unlikely to be merely from interacting with a person, since everything they feel is so muted, and most of happiness we get from interaction is empathy-based (from feeling understood, relating to others' experiences, sharing your own etc.).

[@theeguy9022]

They are likely real, we can get some form of excitement by finally talking about why we are how we are. Personally I often laugh with others but never alone, I genuinely enjoy interacting with them and studying all their strange quirks, people are predictable yet never fail to surprise me, so there's fun in it. This isn't to say I don't get my joy from thrill seeking, playing social games and the like but it does make it easier when the boredom can be quelled for a short time with conversation

[@anamuraro]

Distorts. That sums up ego ego ego.

[@elliamillsap898]

I would really like some help identifying a possible Psychopath! He manipulated me so completely that I honestly still can't tell what was real and what wasn't... And my strength is behavior analysis! I don't know if there's just people who carry traits of Psychopathy and are simply extremely manipulative? Or if being surrounded by God fearing people his whole life would force him to have a better moral compass! Or if it was all pretend and He's just an extrEmly good actor, liar, and manipulater.

[@nobodynothing2433]

I would be her bestie. my autism is just a lessened version of this

[@SirMan48]

"i dont know how you all got through high school" That's the thing. We did.

[@magicfishmanscholarofthegr5875]

Judging her actions is a wrong way to go about this. She’s not a bad person for doing this, she’s a different person. It would be detestable if she understood why it was wrong exactly, she does not, she just did. Basically just remember some dumb stuff you did as a child before you learned what empathy is. It is not relatable sure, but it is understandable.

[@mylgphoneelgee162]

These videos kind of scared me to see... Truly honest question: How far from normal do you perceive these people to be ? On a scale of 1-100 1= these people articulate how I am and see the world exactly. This is the normal way i perceiving things 50= these traits are extremely subtle and it would be extremely difficult to differentiate them from the avg everyday person. 10= this is unimaginable to think this way, how does a person think like this?

[@JasonChanoutsos]

WHERE THE COMMENTS AT

[@oedihamijok6504]

I think they were disabled and now opened

[@redvixo]

why are we all here hours apart 😂🤣this video was made 7months ago

[@osamaamir1268]

Yeah so peaceful it's like being in the super market on Monday at 9am

[@johntate5050]

Just looking at her I get a feeling of repulsion. That constant smirk smeared across her face is a huge repellent.

[@brandyw4285]

Same! I wouldn't be surprised if we saw her on the news. Hope she never becomes a mom

[@Melanievita]

She looks like Spencer Pratt

[@user-be6gl2yk2p]

Natalie Givens

[@ObO-sd1xg]

What about people who sort of black out and attack people? They do not realize what they are doing. It is like they are watching a video from inside of themselves of them as they attack someone then they sort of snap out of it to realize what they are doing. Is that psychopathy?

[@sck1326]

Delusion at the highest level.

[@Umbrellagasm]

Are you saying she's deluded into thinking she's a psychopath?

[@jelle7]

Could say the same about empathy and emotion. Why would you feel bad about another person's misery if it doesn't affect you in any way. If anything, the suffering of others is quite enjoyable.

[@CutThro4tVanGougha]

@@jelle7yes it really is I’m a diagnosed psychopath and I typically don’t care for others well being or feelings because the half of their personal feelings such as anxiety or depression or empathy ,I just can’t relate.

[@ElHolyBoy]

She wrote a book.

[@nspector]

I'm only in part 3, but doesn't she need to take some kind of pleasure in causing other people pain to be a psychopath? She's said nothing like that so far...

[@KyleCollins-ny4em]

Bundy didn’t care what anyone thought & was free to do whatever he wanted.

[@kuibeiguahua]

Death is fineeeeee~

[@Hardcoreatheists41]

She would make a great Harley Quinn

[@conanmiddleton925]

One thing I noticed is that she keeps looking left (her right) most of the time and doesn't focus on the camera. I wonder if this is a sign of a psychopath not making eye contact in this way?

[@AABB-px8lc]

kind of, as my mom psycho, I can try to describe eye moves. Usually she look straight at me when need to accent something, like save "strong move" for things that meant to be accented, dont waste for small. Most time she talk doing things and look obviously to things she touch. But in the case she do kind of long talk to me, most time eyes move unrelated to veerbal expresssion, like she dont care that I see her eyes and she not need to do something special with them (for example , as normapl ppl especially womans use eyes as big part to increase emothional color to talk). But if she in outrage mode and going to make ultimate order - that shit scare me still after 50 years, strait unblinked no move, pupil go very small like on bright light. I 50+ year healthy man 1.5 times bigger pretend I did not care ofc, but ...

[@bryanutility9609]

Probably just a way to stay focused

[@conanmiddleton925]

@@AABB-px8lc So do you mean if she is talking normally too you for a long time she doesn't care where her eyes are focused like most normal people do? And that sounds scary when her eyes go like that

[@conanmiddleton925]

@@bryanutility9609 It could be, I just found it odd as most people during talking look at the person and glance away every few seconds. Eye contact is an important non verbal part of communication and I just found it odd that she continuously looks to the left.

[@AABB-px8lc]

@@conanmiddleton925 maybe. As I am myself by definition very biased, as whole life from born was with her nearby as closest most connected person in all sense, in past I thought it is actually really normal behavioг and I suppose do same and look similar to be good boy. In addition to increase bias, she was very attracktive person, and as I was a kid I was very proud my mom kind of better than all neighbours moms in small town, in all parameters even if exclude usual son-mom feel, like faster moves, more elegant almost as ballet just walking on street, top makeup (she spent almost hour to prepare face and clothes details before go out of house like damn pro theater actress, constantly makeing short "orders" to me and dad, (that gaslighting thing) to "paint" world where she at least tried to look normal person, in opposition me and dad are dirty pigs (with colorful details why every body organs from our hair down to lag nails so ugly, stink, and even more, we are both not even try to change ourselves at least to pretend we are kind of normal too).

[@DunnGolfing]

I noticed the comments section got turned off on a few of these videos strange indeed mind questions will never be answered unless it's what you want to hear.

[@RealityCheck1]

Notice how she kept looking to her upper-right. People who make things up look there most of the time

[@bjornnilsson7982]

History, inc

[@joannahzamora]

Omg I adore her and her honesty 😂.

[@tomcares1178]

After watching this, i need therapy

[@user-xt4jo7hj1s]

Stay far away from them..these are very very dangerous creatures. Imagine if you dont have empathy you dont care ..you stay near a machine. Anyway I do appreciate someone being honest about this and we can have some insights...but they do manipulate and burn other people big time.

[@blonderider2650]

Psychopathy is not a disorder and it doesn't distort anything. Can we see your PET scan?

[@KincaidBishop-kf8ho]

Damn i did not know these people do not has no sympathy after harming someone of feel some type of guilt

[@john-lenin]

Normal people spend their entire lives (often in therapy) to feel like that.

[@lonelylantern9135]

All the psychopaths i've known care massively what people think of them, it's more that they don't feel embarrassment, but they do want to be seen as alpha when they're often not. Bullies who want to be seen as asserive, etc. Sex offenders who want to be seen as actors. Psychopaths believe their own lies, and often seem to be grandiose.

[@ryiningZolzz-qt3wn]

those are 100% sociopaths and narcissists. And it's unlikely that you've met many psychopaths in your life as they are 3% of entire population.

[@slow_nikto]

Is psychopathy a personality disorder? I thought its a psychological one

[@psychic5719]

Psychologist study personality disorders so I’m assuming they are? Idk tho

[@NiliMoto]

Exactly where do you think our personality is „stored“? Because i can tell you its not physical and nowhere in the body.

[@MelodeathxTed]

Psychological problems are at the root of personality disorders. I think.

[@KatrinaDancer]

No, not technically. She should've said Antisocial Personality Disorder.

[@saqweq]

It’s not really officially called psychopathy but ASPD, which is a personality disorder.

[@markhawryluk6830]

I don't believe that she never cared about what other people thought.

[@user-vj7ji2yq2t]

Painful

[@Malikk5251]

I love this woman reminds me of my ex.

[@edwardgorecki7728]

She’s not a psychopath she’s a narcissist

[@debbielouiseborza60]

And a trait of psychopathy is narcissism.

[@robotx9285]

​@@debbielouiseborza60If Im not mistaken, Egotistism is a trait sociopaths/psychopaths have. While narcissistism is it' own disorder which can co-exist with aspd , but isn't exactly egotidm. Basically, ego is a inflated sense of self esteem, while narcissistism is a self centered, pridful, grandiose set up.

[@Apollo-888]

I kinda like her