High Functioning Autism (It's NOT what you think!!) | Patrons Choice

High Functioning Autism is not what you think. There are a lot of stereotypes out there but what it actually looks like in adults can be quite different. It's also a myth that 'high functioning' means reduced challenges. Often the opposite is true. High functioning means, invisible needs, and if those needs aren't supported the results can be catastrophic.
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// WELCOME TO ASPERGERS FROM THE INSIDE!!
My name is Paul and I discovered I have Aspergers at age 30.
If you're new you can check out a playlist of some of my most popular videos here: / aspergersfromtheinside
Yes, I know, I don't look autistic. That's exactly why I started this blog, because if I didn't show you, you would never know.
As the name suggests, this channel is devoted to giving you insight into the world of Aspergers.
This blog started off being just my story, but I've learned SO MUCH about my own condition
from meeting others on the Autism Spectrum that now I make sure to feature their stories as well.
I've come a long way in my own personal journey.
Now I'm sharing what I've found so you don't have to learn it the hard way too.
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// WHAT TO EXPECT FROM THIS BLOG
I value your time which means there are NO KZbin ADS on my videos.
You can expect me to get to the point with concise useful information.
I focus on what is most important and don't shy away from difficult topics.
The best way to learn about Autism is to see it in real life ( i.e. via the stories of many, many people on the spectrum).
In this channel I endeavour to show you what Autism and Aspergers look like in real people and to also give you some insight as to what's happening on the inside.
I upload a new video every weekend with some bonus content thrown in mid-week too.
There's always new stuff coming through so be sure to check back and see what you've missed. (Is this where I'm supposed to tell you to hit that subscribe button?)
Topics Include:
- What is Aspergers/Autism?
- Aspie Tips, coping strategies, and advice on common issues
- Learning Emotional Intelligence (this is my special interest!)
- Autism in real life: stories from special guests
Everything I do is and endeavour to go deeper and take you 'behind the scenes' to understand what may, at first glance, seem 'odd'.
oh, and I love busting stereotypes and turning preconceptions upsidedown :)
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// ABOUT ME
I discovered I have aspergers at the age of thrity.
It has been my life's mission to understand these funny creatures we call humans.
My special interest is a combination of emotional intelligence, psychology, neuroscience, thinking styles, behaviour, and motivation. (I.e. what makes people tick)
My background is in engineering and I see the world in systems to be analysed.
My passion is for taking the incredibly complex, deciphering the pattern, and explaining it very simply.
My philosophy is that blogging is an adventure best shared.
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// EMOTIONAL INTELLIGENCE TRAINING
I also run autism friendly online emotional intelligence training. So if you like my direct, systematic style, and would like to improve your own emotional intelligence skills, check it out here:
emotionsexplained.com.au
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// CONTACT
Blogging is an adventure best shared which means I'd love to hear from you!
Feel free to leave me a comment or send me and email at any time and I'll do my best to respond promptly.
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Thanks for reading and I hope you enjoy this channel!
I look forward to hearing from you!
Peace,
~Paul

[@dangerouskoin4874]

I used to work at microsoft, had a beautiful wife of 10 years, lots of friends aaaand.... now I'm 37, off and on homeless, divorced, no job, and am struggling to restart my life. You pretty much nailed it. I have no idea how to fit into this world any more, how to make friends or even if I want to since people are not understanding... If anyone else relates to this I'm sorry. So damn sorry.

[@gingerhansen1902]

🤗 I do relate and I'm sorry for you too. I hope things are going better for you now.

[@dmrfnk]

I first fell off the rails after high school, just barely completed it. Now I've been in my first job for about six years and am pretty much burnt out, half the time just hoping to get sacked. Watching this part four really struck me hard. Also just found out myself of my autism this weekend watching Paul's videos (via adhd self-diagnosis two months back) after looking for help in relatively good public healthcare for nearly 20 years. Looking forward to watching some videos with more positive content. I hope the op and everyone else relating will find their way to better times.

[@edwardrook8146]

I have noticed many people who don't have this kind of struggle have their good social connection to thank for bouncing back, having somewhere to stay and they easily get a job. My life was the kind of mess you describe. Don't give up! You'll get another shot. I'll pray for you too.

[@firojakasam9129]

No yr not understanding all u people just full of lies and just want attention because and make fool out of people stop eating pigs u might just become human what ever that is

[@ravenmeyer3740]

People are not nice. Most people don’t have empathy or compassion. I think I just found a friend who is autistic. I don’t know if I am, but I sure can relate to most of it. Being abrupt, only means that you are stating your case. How else are you supposed to communicate? Another thing is, you don’t have anything in common with anyone because what do you talk about? Nobody seems to read, or understand global issues, or are interested in reptiles, or bugs, or trees, or other cultures, countries, etc. Even different belief systems. If you don’t have children or family you are an alien. If you don’t have a job, then they think it’s on you. I am beginner to realize that many people feel or experience life much the same way as you. One thing that gets me by, I love being alone and live by myself. I don’t interface with people very often. Just a thought.

[@AutieTalk]

When people are classed in the category of 'mild autism' the expectations placed upon them are huge and that's a big problem in itself. You've explained all of this really well.

[@autismfromtheInside]

thanks!

[@DaleSteel]

What expectations

[@asonstrom4056]

@@DaleSteel The expectations to appear normal and function as NTs. Because "high functioning" Autistic people don't have obvious visible symptoms, people expect them to perform at a high level all the time without addressing the invisible struggles Paul speaks about in the video.

[@DaleSteel]

@@asonstrom4056 some people could tell i didn't act or do things 'normal' bit vast majority including parents didn't realise i had it

[@tristantheoofer2]

i have to get a grade of 85 by teh end of le marking period or i pay 140 bucks bc its private school. its nearly impossible for meh to have a 90+ on anything as a grade and i fucking hate teh 85 thing. i just feel liek its nearly impossible to get dat 85 liek id be fine with an 80 and i wouldnt give a shit.

[@ginniefayesrantsjamsandmor2015]

Thank you for this. The best quote I have ever seen regarding "mild autism" is this...."when you say that I have mild autism, what I need you to really understand is that what you are saying is that my autism affects YOU mildly."

[@isimonsez]

👎🏼

[@patb6486]

@@isimonsez why?

[@bernlin2000]

Hell yes, that's why I "don't" have "mild autism"...because apparently I was autistic enough to piss people off and note that I was (IN FACT) actually autistic. 🤣 I think it goes to show that a lot of people try (or pretend) to be empathetic, but largely have absolutely zero reference point besides their own current feelings, their own current hormone levels. There's very little logic or deep thought when it comes to trying to empathize with others, apparently. And I tried so hard for so long, too. People just need to be more direct and stop trying to "codify" everything: not everything has to have some hidden meaning or cipher involved.

[@Force1Com]

I have burgers in my azz

[@unknownpresences5627]

​@@bernlin2000 this is why I'm sorta against polite politics cause that's what it does and it's not fair

[@36Jon36]

I was constantly overwhelmed and burnt out at my job for years until one day I broke down and started yelling and hitting the doors and kicking stuff around. Everyone was so surprised because I always looked "so calm and composed." People were just asking me extremely concerned, "what happened?" I like how this video described it. Nothing happened. I was already in constant anguish everyday, it was just something extra that took me over my limit.

[@laurenpaterson3475]

Yes my son like that he puts up with a lot of stuff then gets upset

[@merwench]

ONE DAY? I'm 60 and on permanent disability. I can't even COUNT the number of times that happened to me (& how many jobs I had before the PTSD got too much) over the course of my 24-year career. I didn't get fired from ALL of them. I was forced to quit some & injured by others due to repetitive motions.

[@merwench]

@@laurenpaterson3475 Yep, story of my life.

[@rogermoore8048]

I know, I have been there too.

[@taylorfm-tk4by]

I relate and I don't has asd that I know of but I'm research

[@dustynpesuti_4162]

This was eye-opening! So in other words, high functioning autism more or less equals mental-stoicism. We suffer every day, yet we become experts at hiding it, at least to a point.

[@wasabiANDkimchi]

TRUTH.

[@mementomori6585]

I love stoicism for this reason. I worked out from a young age that I was better at other people with enduring long term discomfort. Like it was a super power that I hated.

[@wynnhorton1208]

stoicism is a positive thing. I think autism's negative side is that we *do* have pain and that is what can break us. I wish I was more stoic, not less. That pain, like this guy in the video says, is what makes me snap and sometimes I know I am saying the wrong (too truthful) thing, but sometimes i don't. Reacting is the problem. Stoics don't react usually.

[@DavidBowman-mq1bm]

That sounds about right.

[@Sara-dw9hj]

Stoicism sounds so heroic it makes you feel good about yourself. The thing for me is that I can be in a stoic fase until BOOM! I'm not anymore and I break and shut down. I don't usually snap but I do have my moments...

[@hisnewlife3543]

I hate it when people say, “But you appear so normal.”

[@stevenvanhulle7242]

That's kind of our own "fault": many aspies are intelligent AND keen observers, so they'll often (involuntarily) mimic others' behavior in order to fit in. The drawback is that their condition often goes unnoticed for as long as decades. (I was 57 when I found out.) BTW, even worse is: "But you don't LOOK autistic." 😣

[@jesterskully563]

His New Life IKR?

[@Zero-pe3iq]

Hell plenty of people don't even know they are on the spectrum for a very long time. So sometimes even you; yourself consider yourself unique perhaps but not to have a notable different brain than most other people. You think of yourself as someone with issues, but not someone who has a brain that isn't typical. So I mean its not like even people who may have almost everyone convinced they aren't notable different can very much be an aspies. Then again I wouldn't identity with label like that even if it turns out my issues(of which there are many) and quirky way of being was mild autism. Because personally I have no interest in identifying as a person with such a loaded term like autism. Aspie can get the same idea across to someone, so the word change doesn't help so I wouldn't do that either. At least I don't think I would.

[@krazeemetalchickstewart9961]

I know that its annoying

[@pepegalord460]

Take it as a compliment, most people on the spectrum are standing out, in an cringy/awkward way.

[@NikiR88]

It’s scary how relatable this is. People don’t realise how much I’m struggling until I breakdown

[@ruidadgmailcanada8508]

Hope you’re doing ok Niki. 😊

[@Andionesiathekid]

A year ago I was crying almost everyday at school because I can't do something or being made fun of bc you guessed it I cried alot and now that I have fought the person that made fun of me a few months ago I cried ALOT less like almost never he made fun of me still but I did not cry anymore I just don't care anymore so i have anger issues but I don't want to express it

[@user-fr2tg7pz8r]

I have just been diagnosed with the autism formerly known as Asperger's, ADHD, and generalized anxiety disorder. I will be 51 next month. I have always known I was different, but I have had to fight so hard to get tested. I have learned to mask so well, even people who knew me before I learned to mask are doubtful of my diagnosis. I don't doubt it at all. I'm finally starting to understand myself, and I finally know that I am not alone. Thank you for making these videos.

[@milkbunnies]

Oh man I am right in the exact place you are… turning 51 tomorrow and got diagnosed over the last few months.

[@anja4755]

I hope you will be more at peace with it. You must need a good entourage.

[@suewallace2845]

I am a 75 yr. old woman and was diagnosed with Autistic Spectrum Disorder when I was 73. What a relief to finally understand why I had felt different all my life. Like you have experienced, some people (mostly family) haven’t believed my diagnosis. This video was so helpful. I’m usually able to mask my mental/emotional anguish, but occasionally have a verbal “blow-up”, mostly because I have OCD, which causes me to put unrealistic expectations on other people’s (and my) behaviors. Then I mentally berate myself for not being kind enough, compassionate enough, understanding enough, etc. This video really helped me better understand my inner hidden struggles.

[@sage2181]

I have some sort of relationship going on with someone on the spectrum who was hiding it from me and I started seeing it more and more and finally asked. I fell deeply for him but he couldn't go at my pace and I was really struggling with his lack of verbal emotional connection until my cat died and I asked him after we broke up to stay on the phone with me and he said I am here for you and he hysterically sobbed along with me at the death of my cat. That helped me understand how much feeling and emotion and empathy he has inside his heart, he just shows it most of the time in different ways or can't fully express it which is hard for me. I've worked hard to try and understand his needs for a lot of alone time and even isolation and be empathetic and understanding because I love the way his mind works and how he notices things I don't. While I don't think he is choosing me to love and I am moving forward because I want him to find his happiness and don't think he has mature relationship experiences which he will need to find on his own, I care deeply for him and probably even love him and told him I don't judge him in any way and hope he feels the same. I'm a huge communicator and very open hearted openly and the one thing we really connected with was our mutual physicality for each other and touch and our love of space and science. My experience with him has taught me to really let people be where they are at and accept them and the beautiful way their minds may work differently from my own quirky one, while also making sure both our needs are met and re-organzing a relationship when it's not right for both of you and changing it to how it is. I still care so deeply and he has been checking on me with virtual hugs since my cat died, I know I need a partner who loves me and who isn't wanting to date others and who doesn't need so much isolation. But I also want him to find his happiness and the person who makes his heart sing, even if that might not be me. I do feel we are both growing and he told me the other day he felt scared as part of things with me too because no one has ever cared about him so much.

[@dianemackay1496]

This is a beautiful explanation on this subject and I understand more. I have a friend who is struggling with all you mentioned here as a newly diagnosed "high functioning autism". The comments are also helpful in understanding how it manifests in people differently. As a society we all need more compassion and understanding when people don't behave as we think they should. I'm moved by this video and will refer back for more reflection. Blessings and know people support you!!

[@SimplyKattastic]

Whenever I hear someone call their child "mildly Autistic", I always think of spice levels and say "I'm the spicy kind"

[@ALu-nq8rf]

"Hot autistics in your area"

[@NoiseDay]

Yes, I am extra hot autistic.

[@tristantheoofer2]

i liek spicy

[@mayhair]

@@ALu-nq8rf I'd sign up for that service.

[@mindbender3379]

Perfect!!!😃

[@shayelea]

I’m finally starting to understand why it always took me so long to find a new job when I needed to. I mask really well (even, apparently, from myself!) but I’m sure people always just perceived something “off” about me socially. It’s also why my friends and family never believe how poorly I interview, because once I get to know someone I’m more comfortable around them and a lot of those (I assume) off-putting vibes go away.

[@Typanoid]

Feeling comfortable is absolutely crucial. I've had the experience of trying to talk to someone I'd normally talk really well with in a one-on-one scenario, but put in an unfamiliar place, surrounded by a lot of other people I'm not comfortable with, I just can't open up, can't find the words, or put concepts together properly.

[@aleksandram981]

THIS!! I struggle so hard with conversations with colleagues but when it comes to giving info to a customer I kill it! (As I know it’s a 5 minute interaction at best, I can talk for that long and have topics pre planned like a robot)

[@lastjellyontheplate8828]

Same here, social events always troubled me and still do.

[@SarahWells777]

I am exactly the same way..

[@Theviewerdude]

I'm trying to figure out if maybe I am autistic but have just learned to mask really well. Taking on a sales job and THEN becoming self employed definitely provided the necessary stress to do it well lol. Sink or swim. It is absolutely exhausting, but I can pull it off. That complicates trying to figure out if you are neurotypical or not. Maybe I'm not, but just have learned how to mask exceptionally well.

[@scottdrury7404]

Thank you so much for this. As an autistic adult with a profession and high level of intelligence, I get labeled “high functioning” mostly. I’m not. It’s just like you said. For short periods, I can make it appear to the outside world that all the parts of my life are working well. First off, maintaining that appearance takes every ounce of effort I have when I’m functioning at my best. Second, I can only maintain that level of energy use for at most a few weeks at a time. Third, I’ve never once in my entire life had more than two areas of my life functioning even moderately well. I can’t maintain a full-time job. I can’t maintain my living environment on my own. I can’t maintain social relationships. People see me, and do not understand. They think I’m lazy, or messy, or antisocial. I’m not any of those. I’m just limited in how much I can do. Even mental health professionals don’t understand my challenges, even when clearly explained. It’s very frustrating. Your videos help a lot in understanding and maintaining myself. Thanks again.

[@trina1962]

YES!YES!YES! I thought I was so tired and lazy when I would crash and say the most awful things to myself. I'm 42 and Just got diagnosed and I'm crying because now I know there us a REASON and I'm not just a faulty person.

[@scottdrury7404]

@@trina1962 Yes! Diagnosed ASD a year ago. I always thought I was a broken mess. Now I feel like a whole person. Life is so much easier for me, now that I understand how being autistic has shaped who I am. So happy you have reached this place, too. ❤️

[@Theundergroundwoman]

​@@scottdrury7404 I'm 20 and a student, I'm scared of never becoming a fully normal adult. What I've understood so far is that it's going to be hard for me. So I'm considering getting a diagnosis too...

[@brianmeen2158]

The “energy problems” with autism are brutal. Zapped by brief social interactions or duties. It’s awful and I’m about in as good physical shape as a guy can get. This makes it harder for those to accept or understand me.

[@brianmeen2158]

@@Theundergroundwoman definitely get a diagnosis and then look into possible treatments. You do not want to try and deal with autism on your own

[@lmichaud8586]

This is the best explanation of high functioning autism I've ever seen. "Invisible struggles" is a nice way to put it. Like when a magician is performing a trick, and makes it look easy. But, all that's going on (Behind what the eye can see) requires a ton of research, processing and practice. It drains a ton of energy. People should be grateful for all the hidden work you are doing for them (to appear normal), but they can't see it, so they won't give you a standing ovation even if you certainly deserve one. Then, suddenly, you stop the magic tricks cause your battery is under 5%, and you are booed off the stage. That's life.

[@tessconnors4463]

I love this analogy. And I love magic tricks.

[@ksthoughtpalace3042]

I want to cry, you described this so perfectly. I wish everyone I meet would watch this.

[@kattyrevel5910]

I am crying right now! Paul has so much insight and has shown me so much more about myself, thanks dude 😊

[@jenniesparks9621]

Paul, I'm grateful to you for your calm & informed perspective. After a not so Thank-full holiday yesterday I was glad to find you. I badly needed to hear your even tempered truth telling voice speaking to me today. Thank you.

[@lupearacelycastrohidalgo6330]

A girl that I love has aspergers and I'm absorbing a lot of information like this to understand her! this explains the way she is so much! she's so lovely and I just want to give her all of my love, empathy and understand her

[@ccirish4519]

Are you really crying tho. Lol man.

[@pariahmouse7794]

Same reaction!

[@AndroidsGhost]

I really wish there were more help for people who get diagnosed later than life. It seems "what can we do for autistic people?" ALmost always equates to, "What can we do for autistic children/teens." Then even if there are resources for adults they seem to be for those who already have jobs. "yay our company is so progressive we are hiring qualified candadites who just so happen to have autism."

[@canny7x]

Part of the issue, at least from my perspective, is that most psychologists don't even know how to identify ASD in the first place. Let alone how to 'help' someone 'on the spectrum'. (I wasn't diagnosed with ASD until I was 59. But over the years it seems I was diagnosed with everything else.) *rolleyes*

[@AndroidsGhost]

@Jonathan Ouch. I've been unemployed since october just unable to find more work after I crashed and burned at my last job. I am doing my best to not just go where ever will take me, but it's hard to keep hope up that anything better than a long series of unfulfilling dead end jobs await.

[@a8lg6p]

@Jonathan I feel ya, man. I have ADD, and with every one of these videos I watch, I become more convinced that I'm also autistic. I did ok in college, but I just coasted by with GPA of 3.2. I read academic literature for fun, but never what I was assigned. Enlisted in the military for lack of a better idea, which paid for an online MA that I never used (it's good on my resume at least), but then got kicked out for not doing my job for a week... Long story, sort of...had just been diagnosed with ADD, but they took me off Adderall, and I couldn't find a good psychiatrist, but they would give me Paxil, which seemed at the time to offer better hope of overcoming my autistic issues (even though neither I nor the doctors recognized them as that)...so I sort of abused it, which contributed to me being in a sort of manic state for a while, during which I was obsessed with some stupid personal project...kept putting off my tedious brainless work, which no one noticed until they did after a week, so I was kicked out, could no longer pay the credit card debt I had accumulated... So I taught English overseas for a decade. Would have been stuck there in a dead-end career, but decided I needed to make a change, and with the support of my parents, taught myself to be a programmer, which I only began to discover later in life that I enjoyed and had a knack for, which is the one job in my life where I don't have a hard time getting my work done. (My big mistake was trying desperately to overcome my challenges instead of playing to my strengths...I failed at sales, waiting tables...I was mostly an adequate but not particularly good teacher, and I got fired from that once too.) It keeps me engaged. But if it weren't for that, I don't know what the fuck I would have done. At 35, I had plenty of education but no real job skills. I'm still never married and have not a penny to my name. I think I'm turning my life around finally. Everyone always assumed I was going places and would be more successful than most. But I was on the verge of stocking shelves at Walmart or something before I finally got my first programmer job after a year and a half. I can see how easy it can be for people with issues to fall through the cracks and get stuck. ADD + autism is a serious recipe for major difficulties in all domains of life...relationships, career, finances...

[@MsDamosmum]

I get so frustrated that all the research and strategies are for kids and teens Not because I begrudge them (I certainly hope they have an easier time of it than we seem to have had) But why not support for adults and mature adults too. Trying to get through a day's work feels more like two and a half days. There seems to be so much to get done I often don't eat a proper meal because I've not got the brain power left to organise the task! I'll sometimes have a glass of wine and a pack of crisps instead of an evening meal.

[@foozjen]

@Jonathan I feel your pain. I had a number of jobs like that in my younger days. Going to work was a a form of torture. I'll never forget when a date I barely knew way back said to me, "I want my wife to work. I want her to be fulfilled." I remember thinking, "Fulfillment? On the job? What is he talking about?" I never went out with him again because I knew I would be in 2 hells of having to work and dealing with babies and small children. I knew I would never be able to do both. Back to your problem though, have you thought about finding a job coach? My son who has some similar issues to you and cannot keep a job, is going that route through a state agency.

[@filmparacosm945]

I started crying toward the end of this video because listening to you describe that "55-year-old" was hearing an aged story of my current struggles and it impacted me so, so deeply that I can barely begin to explain how I feel. I have been extensively researching ASD on/off for nearly a year now and although I have only this evening come to the conclusion that I can no longer deny the overwhelming confirmation that I have autism, it was this video that made me cry thinking, "I can finally let go of the shame I feel for being unemployment, friendless, and single for the last two-and-a-half years thinking there's something so horribly wrong with me that no one will ever understand or be able to help, so what's even the point of living?" My rampant cynicism, nihilism, and pessimism have remained unyielding and progressively worsening with each passing day for years and I feel like I can finally breathe and allow myself to be hopeful. I thought it was me, all me. I thought I was some defective human, damaged far too much to ever believe anything will ever get better, but I feel so much less alone. I finally have the smallest fragment of hope. Actual, genuine hope. You will never know how grateful I am that I happened upon this. I wish there were enough words in the English language to describe that gratitude to you.

[@diarts4458]

My 21 year old daughter has just been diagnosed with High Functioning Autism and this video makes so much sense. The duck frantically paddling underwater while gliding by is a great comparison. We’re learning every day and with videos like this we feel more in tune with things and less alone, thank you so much.

[@anacarolinasouza3804]

sorry, it's been a year, but it was so heartwarming to know about a parent of an autistic adult who actually tries to understand how their child's brain works and how to help them. (saying as someone who was diagnosed last year as a 22yo)

[@malpaw2371]

@@lilylaura6955 Fuck off. Autism isn’t a disease herbs have no effect on “treatment” Stop seeing autism as something to “cure” you’re gonna fuck your kid up. The herbs aren’t doing anything your daughter, like most autistic people, is understanding that you expect her to do better and is trying to react to your expectations to make you happy in reality you’re causing her a lot of stress. Its like asking a dog to not be a dog. People like you suck

[@kevindiaz-lane4404]

The shoulder wave movement is a replacement to the bouncing ball. Some viewer complained that the bouncing ball was distracting so Paul gave that up and the motor-sensory need found a subconscious substitute. 😉 Let Paul run his own show the way that works best for him, and you adapt to his adaptations for once! It’s not equitable that aspies are always the ones who have to make all that internal effort to fit into neuro-typical’s world.... After all, much of how the world functions and accepted norms are usually pretty arbitrary. IOWs, one is not right and the other wrong

[@virtualmartini]

In fact, neurotypicals really hardly ever have to modify their behavior because they already naturally do what they're 'supposed' to do - so really asking them to modify it to make someone else comfortable for once shouldn't upset them - they are so unused to the very idea of it that they do get upset though. This creates a lot of friction between neurotypicals and aspies, because we (aspies) see it as a little pathetic that people can't do for a few minutes what we've been doing our whole lives, just to give us a breather.

[@chrislin2774]

Neurotypicals should never have to modify their behaviors. Aspies should always take note on what it takes to proceed a reasonable transaction and they have a choice to conform or not. If it's emotionally or psychologically taxing, the person with Asperger's have a choice and need to be aware of consequences just like any other human being. I don't think empathy or lack thereof is a problem. If a person decides to slow down a transaction, society will continue to move forward with or without them.

[@OtaconEmmerich]

This seems like a nice balance, as an aspie myself I can understand the tik as I've got a few myself. If this works for him it seems perfectly fine to me.

[@SatanenPerkele]

I don't get aspergers who performs OCD stimming.

[@reson8]

@@chrislin2774 I completely disagree. Everyone should modify their behaviour to keep people happy as much as they are able to. The NT entitlement is omnipresent.

[@swiftsiamese854]

Exactly what I need to know about my son, 26 yrs old, master's degree accounting, difficulty finding work. Very intelligent, but doesn't come off well at interviewing.

[@madshorn5826]

The Danish company "Specialisterne" match people on the spectrum with jobs matching their competencies. Mostly in computer science I think, but once a company has seen how accommodating a little can bring huge returns they may be willing to utilize expertise from autists in other areas. I think Google and Microsoft are among the affiliated companies. Try writing Specialisterne an email and see if they have some suggestions for companies near you. Or if they've got some open positions on their website. specialisterneusa.com/ Best of luck.

[@kls701]

@@madshorn5826 Thank you for posting! I am going to look into that!

[@suzannewhitehead6087]

I have a flair for booking keeping, but realised a bit too late and my math is rather bad, so I would never be able to get work doing the books, which is frustrating, because I find such joy in managing home accounting.

[@madshorn5826]

@@suzannewhitehead6087 Make sure what level of math is required and maybe give math another try. As a high school math teacher I have seen a lot of pupils led to believe that they were "bad at math" when in reality they just needed the right nudge. Try giving Khan Academy a go. It is a free service where you can learn math (and biology and physics and ...) and jump in at ANY level and go from there. The concept is a short video and 10 exercises. When the exercises is correct you get a badge and a new video. I think there is an intro test to let you start at the right level, but it is not compulsive.

[@sal99]

I have read many times that accounting is a good career choice for many people on the spectrum. Your son could get experience in small firms maybe through agencies that help get temporary posts in accountancy. The agencies also provide support with how to perform in interviews and offer jobs in different areas of accountancy. After this he may be more confident with having interviews at bigger firms.

[@johnmaddison3427]

I am 47 years of age and that is the first time anyone has ever described what goes on in my head. I am for probably the first time in my life truly lost for words 😀

[@narutogoldylocks]

I’m waiting to get tested so idk if I have ASD or not, but I’m halfway through the video and HOLY SH*T THIS IS ME. I am ALWAYS on the brink of having a meltdown, & this is something my mother never understood. Some small thing would happen & bam. I’d be on the floor bawling my eyes out. This has happened through my adult life, btw. And her response has always been, “What HAPPENED all of a sudden?!” And she gets super angry at me & yells at me. I moved out a year ago & it has improved my mental health but geez Louise. It is really hard to explain to people that just doing basic life function stuff is difficult for me & SO energy draining because I seem to function just fine.

[@writerwannabe8778]

What you describe could be autism, or it could be something else. Emotion regulation is something difficult for people with autism, but also for people with adhd. I am autistic and we're wondering if I also have adhd. Diagnoses and figuring out in general what exactly is happening inside our minds, is tricky. It's so complex. Also because there's a lot to a person, a lot to life. Just remember: there's a lot to you, so if you do have autism, that's not all there is to you, but you have a right to treatment if it gets in the way of things, you are worth it without having to do anything to deserve it, you are just as valuable on your bad days as you are on your good days. And if someone doesn't understand, you are not to blame, but explain or let it go, whatever helps you most. Remember that they don't need to understand, only respect what you ask of them and if they don't understand, let them in on what is happening or that there's happening more than they know inside. Even if it's hard. Even if it takes energy. Even if you cannot do it, charge your batteries first, but let people in on what is going on inside. I promise you things will get better and people will understand more than you think, as long as you let them in on what it all means. People assume when they don't know things and they judge unfamiliar things. So get them to understand. The best of luck. I hope all of your dreams come true, I hope you will feel better soon and find peace and strength to make it through life and actually get to live, too ❤

[@kylebarvel]

Yea, I appear “normal”. High functioning is like being Dr. Jekyll and Mr Hyde but the other side is like amplified challenges that other people can’t see

[@verdakorako4599]

I really like your illustration of the duck. The duck is paddling it's feet underwater and no one sees how hard it has to paddle to try and keep up with the other ducks.

[@greggstevens9930]

👍Our feet are not webbed, yet we are expected to keep up!

[@SingPure]

@@greggstevens9930 Right the analogy really is that Autistic/Aspergers/ADD/ADHD people have one or even 2 feet which are say not webbed - and that is what is hidden - so from the surface all might seem mostly normal - but it is soo much harder to keep up without having the 'normal' (for a duck) webbed feet.

[@fuyuseetaa]

I was always regarded as "high-functioning" because people would always say I was very intelligent and articulate, they couldn't even tell I was autistic. But upon watching this video I think that the idea I was ever "high-functioning" was an illusion... I've struggled pretty much my entire life with making friends (even more with keeping them) and doing my homework. It was so bad I had to go to a specialized private school that drained all of our money, and while I did end up surviving, I've been a NEET ever since. Maybe I was never "high-functioning" at all and I've been sweeping my very real disability under the rug. "It's not that bad, I don't even think I'm struggling. I'm just being lazy!" (Not even mentioning my other mental illnesses by the way.) This video was really eye-opening. Thank you.

[@olenick9590]

Whats NEET mean? Thank u🙏

[@LightSoul-8]

@@olenick9590"Not in Education, Employment, or Training"

[@olenick9590]

@@LightSoul-8 wow...thank u🙏 i never knew...NEET affects sooo many folks esp in terms of health(occupational, financial, mental health, social health,etc etc)

[@VaronPlateando]

well, if you consider 'multiple intelligence theory' by howard gardner et al. there's be multiple areas | spheres of intelligences to manifest in. the so-called IQ is only addressing 3 of them (math-logical, verbal expr., spatial imagination), as these can be easily probed into and abstractly codified. but those spheres all need to be probed into in media of related expression - see musical intelligence or bodily-kinaesthetical: what does just asking anyone about it come up with ?! and same + even more so with intra- + inter-personal intelligence (all distinct from 'emotional' one, because emotions accompany any cognitive activity else). so my take is that 'high-functioning' primarily relates to capacity to not obviously bother NTs despite all the stresses and additional burden to bear for just dealing with average them and 'society' (and saying goes: fish can't see water). as long as latter 'adaptive successes' are invisible and irrecognisable to NTs, one does apparently 'function well' amongst them (incl. those who'd utter diagnoses), sufficing to ignore else. and all while there are of course multiple antagonistic tribes, excluded substrates + cohorts etc. with primarily rampant NT normies.

[@mikemaj8467]

You bring up excellent points that provide input to the question if autism gets worse with age. I am a 53 year old male who has always maintained a full time job since I was 18. Around 35 I could see I was getting more and more burned out but didn't know why. I was just diagnosed at the age of 52 and am in the middle of my first leave of absence from work. I am hoping I can transition to receiving SSDI benefits. My spouse of 24 years is disabled and not receiving income or assistance. This didn't bother me as earlier on I was making a decent wage, but as my burn out became more evident as I aged I would continue to lose jobs and my wage has decreased significantly. I am so stressed between trying to support both of us financially and balance our mental health. It's really a struggle. It's hard to find mental health care.

[@WindspielArt]

I'm waiting for a diagnosis (they said I have to wait at least 6 month for an appointment) but what you say about invisible struggles is sooo true. I CAN do all the things I have to. I CAN make eye contact, I CAN get out of bed every morning, I CAN talk to people about things I dont care... But its so exhausting. I'm at a day clinic at the moment because of depression and they dont get it... And I cant stop funktioning, stop hiding my struggles, because its the only thing I think I can do well... the only thing I know how to live since 33 years :( And I get told "but you are sooooo intelligent" all the time... I wish I wasnt!

[@spareld]

Maybe you need a friend :)

[@MariaNI-yf1bz]

Same here. Im so sorry to hear that.

[@lavenderlane9113]

You just described me. x

[@spenceriow]

I am in the exact same boat. Everyone says I am so intelligent, I have so much potential, they just get it. I am currently on a waiting list for two years to get some support.

[@darn6129]

And also when someone says "but you're so intelligent" when you tell them that you might have autism, they insinuated that if you have autism then that means your dumb! Which is the complete opposite and just goes to show they have no idea what autism really is like. I hope you finally got a diagnosis and treatment.

[@silvershadow5652]

Where I am Aspergers Syndrome stopped being used as a classification, and I was reclassified as high functioning autism. I often am trying very hard to remain coherent in conversation, to the point where when I break down I effectively am incapable of communication. It is disheartening when resources that were there to help dry up, and when you can spend over a decade applying to jobs and no one wants to hire you. Its worse when you try to explain why things are difficult and they say, "no you are so bright so you must just be lazy to not be able to do what you need to." If people dont see the constant day to day struggle they dont think there is one, and it takes everyone by surprise when you just cant do anything. It doesnt matter if you are positive or negative, bubbly or pessimistic. People dont want to take the time to listen and only treat you on what they see upfront, and sometimes you have to just grin and bear it to be around anyone. And it breaks you. I wish it were easy to explain it clearly to people, and I wish that places were more willing to work with someone who struggles in silence. Its gotten to where I dont even try to warn people I have these kinds of issues, as they dismiss them before long because I look fine. I look ok. As the results are the same either way, its less stressful to use less effort on people who dont care beyond what they see.

[@tristantheoofer2]

dude i alsp struggle with teh speech thing. alot of teh time i stutter. alot

[@JohnnyYeTaecanUktena]

I don't even tell people i just let them think i am a blunt sarcastic asshole which sadly being a blunt sarcastic asshole has its benefits in life as people actually start to like you then

[@Nick_Lamb]

You can't be all things to all people. Masking has always been a great tool for me. Are you still struggling? Perhaps you are trying to be too genuine. That is the impression I get from your comment.

[@silvershadow5652]

@@Nick_Lamb I am not talking about trying to do whatever I can for people, I am talking about basic function. If I get too stressed, I am unable to put any thoughts into words, and must struggle to try to communicate nonverbally, assuming they have the patience for that and do not assume Im blowing them off and get upset. It takes what is to others a surprising amount of effort to keep up with a conversation in real time, as well, as if I dont put alot of effort in there are pauses between when someone else talks and when I do. It was so noticeable what when I was a child Ive gotten into trouble for noncompliance at times. I do not have many people I interact with regularly. I appreciate the attempt to help, and masking is something Im trying to add to my repertoire, but it was not what I was trying to convey in my original post.

[@Nick_Lamb]

@@silvershadow5652 "I am not talking about doing whatever I can for people" When I said "you can't be all things to all people" I meant basic function, sorry. You can't appear in the way you want for every person. For me when I feel my mask has slipped or I have performed a social misstep I can go into a shut down where I need to leave, and often this puts people in a concern mode which makes my symptoms worsen. Sometimes this happens just when I've had too many conversations, or a certain kind of conversation, or something unexpected happens and the event changes. This state is very hard for others(and me really)to understand, and that misunderstanding makes it get worse for me. The tip of masking, if you are working on it, is essentially to let go of that need for perfect expression. Do you mirror others behavior as well? Do you use comedy at all? To me, a laugh is always good. Although I have been in situations where people would not *stop* laughing just because of how I looked to them. That was frustrating but I kind of still enjoyed it. For conversations in real time I have found "commenting" on what was said and dropping it instead of trying to express my full thoughts works well. As for me, when I start they just keep going until the conversation partner finds one thing that they misinterpreted and the whole conversation becomes that and I shut down. Happens in my comments to though sometimes. Anyways, if you want to be friends here is my discord: NickL #2764

[@avengedprophet1559]

It‘s this mentality that harms undiagnosed autistic people, which tells us to grit our teeth, push through and become successful. I did that. Except for the „become successful“ part. On paper my life looked great, until I quit my job because I couldn‘t continue going to this place. It was a living hell for almost 4 years. School was bad due to the bullying but I had enough capacities to get good marks (most of the time). It was work that exceeded my capacities by a lot. Being monitored more closely, not having any routine anymore, people noticing my inconsistent productivity (in school I could always just learn some more to catch up for the exams at least), being expected to multitask all of a sudden, getting interrupted every few minutes, having way more workload and responsibility and to top that all of, every second task was treated as an emergency that had to be done immediately. I‘ll never work as an IT administrator ever again. Being understaffed seems to be normal there so the stress is often intense. When I said I quit everyone was shocked or at least very surprised. I never told anyone about my problems because I was afraid that my limits and boundaries would let them think I‘m weak so I pretended it was fine. Though I was also thaught to just push through and ignore my needs because I needed to be „worth the money“. The only moment I stood up for myself was when someone wanted me to go back to work after an operation on my nose early (due to breathing problems). I knew that this could have a very bad impact on my health so I politely declined that suggestion (because my nose was very unstable after the operation and the whole ordeal might have to be repeated if my blood pressure would rise early after the operation). Impostor syndrom might be one of the worst and most harmful things about masking because part of it is denying our needs until it‘s too late.

[@bayanbishara6666]

thank you so much for sharing this with us. appreciate it

[@Jennifer_150]

This so perfectly describes my “invisible” lifelong struggle with depression and anxiety. Thank you!

[@kerrywatkin1847]

Thank you for explaining that. I have a daughter who is “high functioning “ and until now I hadn’t really understood the diagnosis. I didn’t like the term because I could see how much she struggled even though she is very intelligent and appears to be able to do most things life throws at her. I now understand that she is always living on the edge and that must be enormously exhausting. Yet another thing for me to talk to her about and maybe workout how to help her with. Thanks again. I find these clips so very useful.

[@princezzpuffypants6287]

On behalf of everyone on the spectrum, thanks for trying so hard to understand your daughter. So many of us have parents who make no real effort to comprehend us. We know we are difficult and that it takes extra work for us to understand each other. We are doing our best to understand you (our parents/family/friends) and we (I) appreciate it when you meet us half way.

[@habituscraeftig]

Your daughter is lucky that you understand the effort she puts in at such an intuitive level. My parents were schoolteachers and fought tooth and nail for my ADHD (only diagnosis, at the time) to be taken seriously by the schooling system, but I still got my fair share of "Why can't you just-?" from one particular parent at home. And it was always while I was actively working on accomplishing something that for me was incredibly difficult and took an enormous amount of effort. And I get that what they were trying to ask was "Why can't you just [X] without all this extra effort?" but too me, it was incredibly frustrating, because here I AM IN FACT DOING [X], and I am putting in all this effort to make sure [X] in fact happens, and it was incredibly off-putting that instead of recognition for all the work I was putting in, I was essentially told that doing [X] the way I was doing [X] wasn't good enough, because I was supposed to somehow also make it loom effortless. And it's not my job to Mask at home. I'm not being cross. I'm not being unpleasant. But I can't make-believe that this is easy for me, I clearly don't have the bandwidth for that, or you wouldn't be saying anything. And I shouldn't have to be hiding that from my parents. Ultimately, they were aware of how much effort I was putting in, but sometimes their discomfort with my struggles got misdirected at me, and it felt like it was something I was supposed to "fix," and it was really frustrating because (even though I wasn't diagnosed with Aspergers at the time) I had this perfectly functional medical explanation for EXACTLY why I "couldn't just-," and my parents who were able to articulate my needs and difficulties to others somehow still failed to actually cope with watching me struggle in front of them. I don't want to malign my parents. The parent who always asked this question was the one who ended up fixing my biggest problems by getting me out of high school and into a college environment where I could flourish. It was just one specific example of something that always rankled.

[@TheFanDubFan]

You sound like a loving parent 😊

[@JayArr96]

I just want to echo the responses you've already gotten, despite this being such an old comment. At the end of last year, my life fell completely apart. I sought help, was informed by my therapist that she DIDN'T believe I was autistic, when I was diagnosed and had already gone through the cycle of accepting that part of me many years ago. Since then, I have been pointed in the direction of a Brain Institute and have been properly diagnosed. I am autistic. This video puts words to how I feel from a professional and I'm so glad it's fueled you to understand your daughter's autism further. My parents have helped me every step of the way and now I think I may be finally getting my life on track after 25 years of spinning my wheels in place. The power you parents hold in the lives of your children is a precious opportunity to change a life. I am thankful for my parents and for parents like you.

[@TheFanDubFan]

@@bolinhong2598 Disclaimer: If people read this and get their hopes up, please do research on alternative medicine first, it often doesn't work. At the very least, please look into the porcedure and the side effects so you don't put your child (or yourself) in danger.

[@deftloli]

Wow. You just described my entire life especially the last 5 yrs. Thank you for explaining what I've could never been able to articulate so well! You rock Paul!

[@loverainthunder]

Agreed!!!!!

[@ThomasDoubting5]

He's ace

[@Authenictruthoid]

The last part sounded like me ! But I'm a lot older . Plan to get tested next month. Peace

[@peterbelanger4094]

at 7:25 he almost describes me EXACTLY, except I'm 50, and had to drop out of college (3 times) because it was too overwhelming. The loneliness is soul crushing. I am incapable of making friends online, and I have NO options for finding friends offline. I just am not capable of connecting with others through text alone, I need the multi-sensory input of in person communication in order to effectively socialize with others. Even video chat is too disconnected for me. But in the physical world (even during "normal" times) the number of places I can go to socialize is limited. On top of that my primary "stim" is cigarette smoking....I smoke a LOT!, yes nicotine is addictive, but how much I smoke, it has to be more than just that .....I can never stop, and it pushes everyone away. But without social connection, I feel so hopeless, I see not reason to stop... I WANT these things to kill me!!! That's something non smokers do not understand, some of us smokers, especially the heavy ones, are doing this on purpose because we want to die. It's not just about understanding it's bad for health, WE KNOW THAT! That is entirely WHY we smoke, we see no reason to quit. And being outcast and treated as a social pariah for smoking only makes it worse. (So, when you see a smoker, don't lecture then about the ill effects of smoking, you are telling them something they already know. Help them feel worthwhile, and why their life is worth preserving.) I never married, I don't have kids. My only friend lives 1000 miles away. I just wait for life to end :(

[@jasmina.8473]

Hey Peter, I hope you are still doing okay. I don't know how to help you, but I know the feeling of being isolated and utterly alone. I have thought about moving to live closer to my home town and my family even if we aren't close. At least there, everything around me will feel familiar.

[@punditgi]

As a neurotypical person dealing with a middle aged person in denial about their Asperger's syndrome this video is immensely helpful. Keep up the great work! 🎉😊

[@druxkro4442]

As a 38 year old man, I’m literally just learning this week that I most likely have late-diagnosed “high functioning” autism. Please keep creating content like this. It is truly invaluable to myself and probably many others on here. I can relate so well to how you explain it.

[@dickmacgurn590]

High functioning just means that you perform adequately at most tasks despite your handicap.

[@manlyadvice1789]

That evaluation only applies when seen from the outside.

[@DaleSteel]

Handicap or gift? It likely means you above normal intelligence i know I got an high IQ

[@CynicalOldDwarf]

@@DaleSteel Depends on if you had a nurturing childhood to make use of that high IQ All the IQ in the world isn't going to help you if you're dragged down by neurotic baggage from adverse childhood experiences. Like Learning? You won't when you go through an education system that focuses on what you're bad at instead of what you're good at. Need people to support you? Not something you're going to look for when your trust has been damaged and betrayed by family, friends, and teachers.

[@princezzpuffypants6287]

I dont consider my autism a disability. I normally hate the term "differently abled" (as though someone with no legs has some other special ability that makes up for their inability to walk?), but in the case of autism, I really AM differently abled. I may not handle large social gatherings well, but working one on one with someone, I can generally help them solve problems even if they've been working on them quite some time because I view the world, and therfore their situation, so differently... just one example

[@rendeverance]

@@CynicalOldDwarf what you say is true 😥

[@thed.a.4939]

The third part describes me perfectly! Like someone once said, "Twice the effort, half the outcome."

[@travisjamesmanitopyes7592]

Ouf

[@Bramicus]

When you were talking about the middle-aged high-functioning Aspergers person who was very intelligent and had a great job, and then he had a relationship failure and everything fell apart, he lost his job, couldn't form another lasting romantic relationship, had a hard time making friends, and couldn't get a lasting job for a decade, it was like you were talking about me.

[@ItsMathStatsMe]

This is so right-on! Thank you! I only recently discovered I was autistic. The realization has helped me make sense of so many confusing things about myself. One of the biggest realizations is that I'm not a person who is sometimes amazing and talented and sometimes totally stuck and nonfunctional, but, rather, I'm a person who always has great talents, but can only utilize them under certain circumstances, and that's okay. There will be lots of stuck days, and these are just as much a part of my true identity as my productive days. If I face this realization and plan space in my life for stuck days, I'm much better off. 🙌

[@Eristhenes]

This video made me cry and laugh and laugh and cry because I have struggled my whole life (51 years) and never understood why I had such difficulty until I accidentally discovered Asperger's in a psychology class. I kept rewinding to your #3, which eerily explains my current life. I left a job of 29 years (to disaster) and am climbing my way back up. My new job is fast pasted and busy which has me struggling like I have never struggled before, particularly with my executive functioning issues: I have horrible short term memory and have to walk around with a pad an pen; don't give me instruction with more than two sentences because my brain short-circuits after that; I have difficulty completing tasks because I am so easily distracted and forget to go back and finish my original task and cannot seem to plan correctly to finish all my tasks during the day. Yeah, I'm gonna fired! But people are always impressed with my intelligence and always expect me to be more successful than I am. They do not know how hard I struggle just to appear "normal" and to keep up. When you say, " The key here is the amount of effort it takes to do really, really well ...because of that increased bit of effort we are often at our limit all the time" and "actually, I am at the very bring of completely falling apart all the time( I laughed and cried at that one)," this is me, now. I am constantly trying to talk myself off the ledge, telling myself to keep calm, do one thing at a time and then move on to the next, but sometimes tasks and management demands do not allow this luxury. I feel like I need to start investigating something else to do which does not make such heavy demands on my executive functioning issues. You doing a spectacular service for us late-in-life diagnosees, I cannot express how much your work and experience are helping me to cope and understand my existence more. Thank you.

[@jonnykopp]

@Eristhenes - I use tools like TaskWarrior to keep everything tracked and to be able to give perspective to the total list of things I'm trying to get done. Good luck to you on getting back onto your feet.

[@Eristhenes]

@@jonnykopp Thanks for the heads up and the well-wishing- I'll check out TaskWarrior. Much obliged!

[@stvbrsn]

Eristhenes hey, you have a twin. I’m 51 as well, and when I heard point #3 I immediately saved it to my “to be shared” folder to present to my family. In my case, hearing it didn’t make me laugh or cry (that was the entirety of last week) because I’ve gotten most of that out of me for the moment. But I did widen my eyes considerably and spend about 5 minutes staring off into space, mouth agape.

[@Njderig]

Eristhenes wow I have a very similar situation to yours. I have bad short term memory and struggle with concentration and easily distracted and get overwhelmed easily. I mess up a lot and that has caused me to get fired from several jobs because I work slow even though I try very hard and it makes me sad when I see how easily everyone else gets by. People also think I’m very intelligent and I’m certain ways I am but I’m not very successful according to society.

[@chrislin2774]

I seem to have similar problems. Bad short term memory, feeling like my brain short circuits at times but they're manageable and can achieve correction with the right routines and constructive avenues to relieve stressful times. Combination of effort and perseverance should make things easier and breathe better. Take care.

[@mrmrlee]

In my experience, government or municipal jobs often appeal to those on the spectrum. Highly structured, with less emphasis on interpersonal relationships than a small company, for example. The negative being that those on the spectrum are often underemployed, underpaid in these jobs based on their actual talent level yet they prefer the safer environment rather than a more lucrative, yet "riskier" private sector job.

[@Miollvynir]

Huh... I think you just made it click that my grandpa is on the spectrum.

[@cruiser6260]

Those secure jobs are very sought after by everyone. Govt employees get all the benefits and regular pay rises. Casual and gig economy workforce dreams of that security

[@MrJessebo]

@SonGokuSSJG so true! I just opened the most nerve wracking fortune cookie of my entire life. It read "you will soon be singled out at work for a promotion" and i was like "noooo," I'm perfectly fine where i am!

[@BBMc107]

True. I always thought that I would be happiest as a corporate sally. I have a safe job at an office, where I have little contact with humans. I once told my therapist to stop pushing me to be a leader. “I am very comfortable being #2. I don’t want to be in charge.” The top is a social position and I can’t handle the chronic stress of it.

[@northgeorgiamom8956]

My daughter has a government job! She loves the rules and structure. Is even happier now with her own office.

[@Gigi-wb8pe]

I relate to this so much. I think I hold my opinions, feelings and emotions in because when I express them, it causes a problem. I'm "too blunt" or "too aggressive" or "too direct"... always TOO something! Yet, in my heart, I'm not that at all. I find it impossible to communicate any difficult or observant idea in a way that NTs can handle, so I hold it in until BOOM. But even my BOOM is 100% internal - resulting in chronic migraines, anxiety and anger. I found out I was Autistic just a year ago and I'm 53. All of these years I've just been shaming myself for having "a really bad temper". Wow.

[@davidallen5776]

I found out over the years that when it comes to disabilities such as this, and dealing with those that have them, a lot of people are still stuck in a Fifties time warp, treating them as if they have the black plague and thus looking for ways to cast them out before they can ever try fitting in. It's a sad state of affairs, but the truth is the light!

[@stevenoverlord]

Well put. People revolt at things they don't understand. I think the neurotypicals feel threatened by Neurodivergents

[@fmenear]

I love your description of invisible struggles. My son is so smart and "high functioning " it's easy for me to forget about his invisible struggles and not understand when something small sets him off. Then I feel horrible. He will say "your not treating my like someone who has autism" ❤

[@tristantheoofer2]

my mom literaly denied i have adhd. looked up teh symptoms... i have (almost) all of them. and i have autism and by dat i mean 90% of teh symptoms edit: of (lol) edit2: added shit onto this comment lul

[@Typanoid]

@@tristantheoofer2 Sounds like you might have the internal kind (occasionally still referred to as ADD), because I doubt your Mom would deny it if you had the outward hyperactivity kind.

[@tristantheoofer2]

@@Typanoid wym teh hyperactivity kind lol. i also have autism btw

[@alexamunoz7943]

Sometimes my 6 yr old will shout, “you don’t understand!” In the middle of a melt down. Pretty sure I’m autistic too... I just don’t have melt downs.

[@rahowherox1177]

I always felt treated better by peers and strangers than my mum... she cared and cares but she won't change behavior to suit. Refuses to, and she's on the spectrum too. My mate whose son is also autistic and a very good and caring man in general and with family does the same, he believes he's preparing son for harsh world and will purposely confuse and frustrate. I speak to him about it, but cannot convince him to adjust... but he does for me (he's my boss too

[@rowenabisschoff]

Struggles are invisible 😢I’m literally tearing up. Thanks for your channel.

[@xarkkal7662]

I just yesterday started thinking I'm on the spectrum. I just turned 33 this month. Yesterday, I confided in my closest friend (who happens to be my ex-wife, co-parent and roommate...) that I think I might be autistic. Her response was "well if you are, you're definitely high functioning which is good!" That response really bothered me... and I couldn't find the words to explain why. This video perfectly explains it... and scarily perfectly describes me and what I'm going through... I don't know what to do

[@emilymoran9152]

I recently self-diagnosed as well, and that's nearly always the response! And yeah, I have very conflicted feelings about it. Because on the one hand...yes, I KNOW I'm doing well, all things considered. But I also know that's because I've developed work-arounds that I've gradually come to realize most people don't do! I recently hit a point in my work where the complexity of the social demands increased sharply and my systems just...broke. It was scary how fast the burnout hit, and now I feel like I might NEED a diagnosis to explain to people why I will at the very least need a long break after my term in this role is done, and possibly even an early exit if I don't manage to build new systems to cope. Anyway, I'm sure your friend/ex will come around to not saying that with a bit of education. In terms of the actual struggles...I've found that what you might call "autistic life hacks" I've found shared on channels or blogs like this have been useful.

[@travelservices1200]

Your description of what you see as a typical person with high-functioning autism in #4 is VERY similar to me...I'm only 51, and currently employed, but it's at a job I got out of "work release". I was my high school valedictorian, BA with honors from Cornell, MD from Albert Einstein College of Medicine, then medical practice in central Florida...then 20 years ago, back injury with chronic pain, divorce, difficulty working, legal troubles (nonviolent) dysthymia/depression, no friends, distant family...and thanks to your channel and videos, I think I've finally realized that I probably have Asperger's/ASD, since almost everything I've heard you speak about sounds like the inside of my own head, which is a new experience for me, and my AQ scores are from 38 to 44, and EQ from 10 to 15. Now I'm trying to find resources in South Florida (not a great place for such things) for the uninsured to try to get a possible official diagnosis, and to get past my own resistance even to be able to start calling someone to get help, but I hate talking on the phone...and I'm not even sure what I'm going to do or what I hope to accomplish, since I really see no future for myself, and haven't even seen my own kids in 8 years (by their choice). I'm very much at a loss and don't know what to do. But I really appreciate that you do these videos AND that you keep them from getting too long and rambly. It's really useful and helpful.

[@adrianlehvy826]

"Not a team player, grumpy, territorial" AKA social anxiety and i need my workspace organized a certain way so i can focus.

[@Typanoid]

It's a bad workman that blames his tools. Here's a first rate, highly sophisticated, but delicate tool that can solve complex problems and is really eager to solve problems in general (I presume) and solve them well, but the workman is an idiot and decides to use it as a simple hammer, and then gets bitchy when the sophisticated tool doesn't work well as a hammer (because the sophisticated tool wasn't DESIGNED to be a flippin' hammer in the first place!). It's an oversimplification, but I hope it gets the basic idea across.

[@reneataylor5106]

You’re right, high functioning would imply always high, but we have days when we just can’t, and it’s extremely hard, but I’ve always felt it meant able to live and care for yourself alone, but the days we can’t function people don’t see us, so they don’t really know that we are struggling in private on those days, my social has been down lately, and I’m barely able to go outside at all.

[@sallyho3000]

Renea Taylor if I lived alone my life would be far worse than it is... I get reminded to do things like shower and feed myself... Being exceptionally good at the things that I am good at belies my inability to do basic things like clean my house properly; get dressed; go through complex and rigid routines in order to leave my house without crippling anxiety... Blegh. Even talking about it feels exhausting.

[@SuperGingernutz]

@@sallyho3000 and Reena. It is always helpful and reassuring that we are not alone in our diagnosis and that we have been through strikingly similar situations throughout our lives with HFA/AS/ASD and it is tougher still when you have been diagnosed later in life. I spent the entire day in bed last Friday because I was mentally and physically knackered i.e. tired and the best I could do was let my dog out into the back garden for a bit of fresh air, stretch her paws, feed her, do her business etc. Although I enjoy going out with my dog for walks (my dog is a welcome distraction as I keep my eyes on her as we walk), there is still the anxiety and stress of going out the gate into the outside world where it is very noisy and unpredictable. I have rigid routines and get annoyed and stressed when they are messed about by my family.

[@carmenjackson8586]

Wow! Thank you! I’ve only recently discovered that I have autism (self-diagnosed) and was even still doubting it because of how high functioning I’ve perceived myself to be. Fact 4 pretty much describes the last ten years of my life. So grateful to have some sort of understanding of the whole situation. The masking I needed to develop to navigate my upbringing even had myself fooled. Didn’t realize how much energy it took until my physical body started breaking down because of the stress. This literally brought me to tears.

[@olenick9590]

Cptsd can co occur in fact most wirh asd have it...cptsd pete walker steps to manage emotional flashbacks is life changing along with occupational therapy(interoception sensory processing disorder assoc with ASD)

[@cory99998]

For me it was a falling apart where I didn't know what was happening or why I couldnt do anything, why I was failing with relationships, work, chores / life, losing contact with family, etc. I knew it wasnt depression, but I just didnt know what. I'm happy that happened in my mid 20s as it could have been much later.

[@drewbrightside7909]

Any way I can contact you and get your advice on this bro?

[@jeanlittle405]

Perfect description! You are the "Aspie Whisperer"!!! Thanks, Paul! :o)

[@elmondark]

Don't really know which i am. Most days i feel low, it can go months between laundry, socializing - weeks between doing dishes, etc. But i can be high functioning sometimes. But one thing i noticed is i'm completely stuck in life, and can't bring myself to do anything that would make a positive impact on life, like moving somewhere else, to increase chance of finding more friends/dates, go to social events, take care of myself; i feel like the rusty shell of a car that's been left outside for years, and been stripped of all removable parts. Never really done well in life, so i guess i'm low functioning, with occasionally highs. Sounds awkward, as if i'm borderline non-verbal, but i have high intelligence, and understanding of society, so i'm assumed to be normal and functional. I always thought autism was a minor function for me, but watching your vids i realize it's what i need most help with. That's both terrifying and helpful - terrifying, cause well i'm 40 and never been in a relationship, and lost hope i ever will, and now knowing i have low functioning autism...who's going to want to deal with that? Normal ppl will just put me on block list, if i even mentions bipolar, never mind low functioning autism. I thought a relationship could create a spark for action, but now i don't know. To pursue a date, i could travel far, but for myself, i struggle to find meaning in getting out of bed. I'd feel like a toy that has no purpose unless someone plays with me, cause i can't move without someone else flipping the switch on. Push my belly, and i'll say charmig things, until you switch me off and put me away, and out of your mind. But now i laugh cause it's so fucking funny how absurd it all is How anyone function at all, is beyond me. Cheers :)

[@-melanie-1115]

Robert R i am touched by your story, and recognize a lot. I crashed lately, too. I was always able to manage everything, life was doable. But now diagnosed with a serious, lifechanging illness...stuck.

[@DynastyHeroes]

Its somewhat comforting but also sad to know there are others in the same situation albeit im younger then you but in the same place. I've never had a job, a relationship, i dont have friends. I feel lost and everyday that passes i feel more lost but i dont have the answers which is why i just spend most of the day in bed asleep because atleast when im unconscious i get some rest from feeling like a failure.

[@xotleti]

Robert, you should just try to write. You're pretty good at this.

[@RainbowPyramid]

FANTASTIC VIDEO. Yes! It looks like I am doing well, but I have been on the brink for years. Other people's assumption about how well I cope only adds to the stress of life!

[@vinceczeropski5019]

Mate, unbelievably articulate explanation. Recently started dating a woman who is on the spectrum and was in the dark. Everything you are explaining makes so much sense. Whether you know it or not, you are changing lives and relationships. You'e helping me understand the people I love. I cannot hype you up enough, you are clearing the fog of misconceptions and seriously saving relationships. Thanks mate.

[@tessconnors4463]

Yes! Sharing this with my mom & brother

[@ambero.4074]

I've only watched 3 of your videos so far, but must say thank you. I'm the mom of a "high functioning autistic" and you describe so well some of the exact challenges she has that I may see, but others often really don't. I also appreciate the comparison to high functioning anxiety, as I struggle with that myself, and that statement just helped me to better understand her in relation. It is awesome that you have the courage to do this and are trying to help others.

[@vinya12]

so true. i find it harder now that i am older and people seem less caring

[@hybridgoth]

That's unfortunate you should be left to feel that way, I hope you find the care you crave.😉

[@vinya12]

@@hybridgoth Thank you hun :)

[@MariaNI-yf1bz]

I never felt that people cared. Im so sorry, but its nice that you had that experience that people cared about you. You have the tools to make new friends, please do not give up.

[@zebnemma]

I was diagnosed at 18 I never got help in my childhood so I'm not sure what's worse TBH, to never really gotten help or to have help in childhood but then it's stripped away?

[@xotleti]

That's how it feels. I never truly got help as I wasn't diagnosed but at least, as a teenager/young adult, it was possible to find someone to talk. Now in my 30s people just seem to analyze me in a glance and give up on me.

[@Samtasticlife37]

I am 58 and have struggled with depression most of my life until 40... I also think that I have a mild case of Autism with a high IQ... My daughter with a High IQ has a higher level of Autism and this channel is helping me help her and I now understand her behavior more than I ever have :) thank you!

[@Lemonz1989]

I’ve just been diagnosed with autism at age 34. I was “high functioning” in that I was never a problematic child, except for a few but manageable “eccentric” issues that my mom solved mostly without issue by doing things differently. My grades in almost all subjects were mostly excellent, and I never got into trouble in school. However, I was almost never able to make friends and when I did, I wasn’t able to handle “managing” the friendship, so they usually ended up fading away. Also, I can’t live with other people, except first-degree relatives, and even that is difficult. I was in a 7 year long relationship and never lived with him permanently. I needed my own place to “escape” to and just be me alone with my issues.

[@clintleclerc9296]

When people use the term "mild autism" I immediately counter with "wow, I've never had that brand of salsa, is it good?".

[@jyjaeskz]

This made me laugh, thanks

[@kdsmith6942]

Hahaha

[@leesmith6672]

Totally using that lol

[@blankblank8292]

I don't get it. Pls explain.

[@henrychen5302]

@@blankblank8292 I think it’s that autism is salsa and this is just another kind.

[@brunoboaz7656]

When you described the high functioning older person I had to pause the video for a bit. You described me and my life perfectly except that I am older. I watched the video to the end and then watched it again. Thank you for this video. It has given me tremendous insight.

[@JohnnyNada]

Im 28 and that'll be me one day, but I'm going to the doctor Friday to get therapy and see if I'm actually autistic

[@roizen7874]

Thank you so much for making these videos. At the age of 41 I finally reached my limit on coping with the challenges of my high functioning autism. I felt guilty that I am unable to get back into work and continue living a 'normal' life. Your videos have helped me articulate and understand the issues I am dealing with. Thank you for all you do.

[@judy3turn]

Thank you for whatever struggles you have overcome to get these important messages out.

[@brostenen]

The problem is, when everyone you have met, run away and avoid you, when they have had a conversation with you for 10 minutes. The problem is, when you are running invisible through life. The problem is, when everyone treats you like you have the black death. Even though you tried to call people and keep in touch for the last 20 years, and nobody started any conversation, by paying you a visit or giving a phone call. You see.... That is when you try to mold your own brain and accept, that you are not good enough to be rewarded any social interaction at all. That is when you accept, that you have no place in life and that there are no room for you, in other peoples life.... That is how you see the world, right before you hit 45 years of age, when you are that person. The problem is. Nobody knows that you are in this world, because you are the invisible person, that shadow that always are, yet nobody take notice of. A grain of sand on the beach, is what one is reduced to.

[@lufia1624]

I feel this entirely.

[@peterbelanger4094]

I;m 50, I know what you are talking about. All I do now is wait for the end of my life.

[@Wolit51]

Yes, this is exactly my experience.

[@spenceriow]

@@peterbelanger4094 I'm 34, already waiting for the end of my life. No friends, no family, just totally invisible to everyone. I ask for God to take me in my sleep and just get it over with.

[@cruiser6260]

The grain of sand on the beach is the herd animal that fits in..

[@ThomasDoubting5]

Can I just say that your ability to talk and articulate your experiences with such ease. Awesome

[@nicoledeshore6997]

Even when i explain the struggles people don’t care so I just re cope with counseling

[@AuroraLalune]

It’s never as ‘easy’ as it looks

[@joycebrewer4150]

@@AuroraLalune That is for sure the truth!

[@SmallSpoonBrigade]

@@AuroraLalune Yes, I'm curious how many videos he records to get a good one. If I know the topic that I'm talking about, I can go on for up to an hour without any notes, but if it's not an area that I'm interested in, I'd be lucky to go a minute. Even for the neurotypical out there, a video can require multiple takes to get everything right, so it's not even an autistic v., neurotypical thing.

[@littlewillowlinda]

There’s such a big gap for adults. My friends knew this about me but still gave me crap for not trying hard enough to meet new people/ get a job etc. and even when something unexpected happens and I’m trying to cool myself off they didn’t understand why I was making such a “big deal”. Unfortunately I chose to be alone after that but it just sucks that people don’t seem to care at all after a while of pretending to be inclusive.

[@heatherjohnson2956]

I’m so thankful for you and that you took the time to share this helpful information.

[@neverforget3520]

Always starting over from zero. Thank you.

[@ThomasDoubting5]

I understand how that feels

[@anhaicapitomaking8102]

Well put.

[@rhianimal19]

Last one hired, first one fired. You only get hired when they run out of bodies. You're the first one downsized because you don't easily develop secondary relationships with other workers. They want employees who can wear many hats and juggle a lot of extra responsibilities instead of a specialist who is very good at their primary job. You go for very long periods of under employment which results in lack of healthcare, which means no treatment regimen. So you spin out of control making it harder to maintain stability. You depend on relatives who get tired of you "fucking up and losing jobs," until they pull the plug. You begin self medicating to compensate and get accused of being irresponsible or a drug addict. If you're hIgH fUnCtIoNiNg you work your way back to sustainability, only to repeat the cycle next time. Over. And over. And over. You don't live life, you SURVIVE life.

[@katedawson6654]

@@rhianimal19 100% its a curse.

[@artfulaspie9775]

Too many employers expect you can jump into a role. No. We may need support & that's rare. I still prefer Asperger's as a term because HFA just doesn't describe anything. My social anxiety has turned from depression to hatred of most people - I have accepted the crash & burn rather than the weekends in bed because I could not cope with a working week. Fortunately, I have a decent clinical psychologist these days.

[@evab2274]

@#artfulaspie could you please explain in a little more detail what you mena by 'crush and burn' and about weekends in because you couldn't cope with a working week? I'm trying to understand my husband. It's still early days for us in understanding and coping. Thanks

[@d60dfath3r]

I'll put it to you this way since I know exactly what he means. My first day of every weekend for the last 5 weeks has been spent with a migraine (first one hospitalized me). It comes from "decompressing" all of the shit people give me at work. My whole weekend is basically just spent recuperating enough to barely make it through another week. This is due to endless harassment and bullying at work

[@ladybookworms]

I've always wondered why I hate the people around me so much and have been alarmed at the degrees it has risen to over the past few years. And then less than a month ago I found out about the correlation between the depression and being unable to cope with having to go out and work everyday and socialize and do all these things you're expected to do to be 'usefull' and not a bum. If only I was able to do half the things I've wanted to do I'd be happy, successful, people around me would be better off (I like to think they would) and all would go swimmingly! But NO! There is this specific way of being that is accepted and everything else is classified as 'weird'. Well it's a crying shame all this talent and ideas and skill etc being wasted like this.

[@davidherron9151]

Yes I am reaching the hate stage now at 40

[@Typanoid]

@@evab2274 It means: "Too exhausted to do anything". You're too exhausted to even remember basic words and their meaning. You can't listen to words or even understand them, because your brain is too exhausted to process them. (words and sounds become just "painful noise"). You're too exhausted to think straight and remember what you wanted/needed to do just 5 seconds ago - you might get up to get a sandwich, next you know, you're in the kitchen, but you forgot why you went there in the first place. It's a really dumb idea to even approach you or say anything to you, because you can't process what they want/what they're saying. At best, you can't even react. At worst, you go into a full-blown panic attack: You either leap up and run out of the house as fast as you can, or you get explosively/dangerously mad and will yell/scream/throw stuff and be generally unpleasant. (And you have basically no self control whatsoever, because the mental resources needed to exert self control are spent!) Sometimes the inability to react when spoken to is a panic attack, because you're too terrified/exhausted to make use of the "fight" (angry) mode, or the "flight" (run like Hell) mode. I believe that is what "Crash and burn" means.

[@bronwynreijnders7205]

I like the "invisible struggle" explanation. Most days, I feel like I'm carrying a house on my back, and I can't stop walking. I just have to keep plodding because if I stop then the whole thing comes tumbling down. I'm so exhausted that I want to cry, but I have to cry while I walk. I'm a 35yo woman. I'm a scientist who can't get a job in my field (I have trouble with r4elationships so I have literally no network). If I don't do the dishes / laundry / mow the lawn / care for my dogs, then it won't get done. Nobody will ever come and take the burden for a bit so I can just rest and for once not have to worry about keeping everything together and the household running. I never want to be one of those people who live in a house full of garbage and pests. Some days I can jump around and get everything done. Other days I want to curl up on the floor because I don't even have the energy to cry, but I have to keep on going because life doesn't stop or even slow down. I'm just so exhausted every day, so when my housemate plays music it makes me want to scream in frustration because now on top of everything, I have to deal with extra audial input. And I know that's unfair to her and she's not doing anything wrong. But I have a full time job, co-own a house, have pets, pay my bills and even have a few friendships. But JFC, sometimes I only have 2 or 3 spoons and people are lining up to try to take them. I can't afford formal therapy, but Aspergers is what makes the most sense to me. It explains so much about my life.

[@susanlindsay7970]

I'm so happy to have found this channel. You helped me understand several adult family members and even myself. Thank you for being so detailed.

[@eriksellstrom2679]

Thank you so much for making this video. It speaks to exactly what I’m going through right now. I have “high functioning” autism. I have an iq in the upper 150s. However, I can’t hold down a job, I am in a graduate school program and keep failing courses because I can’t finish papers on time, and seem to lose every relationship I ever form. People can’t see the invisible struggles I’m going through and seem genuinely surprised when I fail at something. “You’re so smart and talented” they keep saying. They are so baffled that I can’t do well in life or capitalize on that intellectual or talent advantage. When I try to explain it to them - in similar terms to what you use in your video - they just don’t get it. I feel so lonely, depressed, and increasingly and overwhelmingly hopeless.

[@emilyjh75]

If I had a nickel for every time I heard "but you're so smart and/or talented!" I would be a rich woman today! People are always flabbergasted when I tell them I have no friends, because they assume I am highly competent in every area. Church has been a life-saver for me, to have somewhere to go, something to do, and people to do it with.

[@a8lg6p]

Upper 150s? Damn. I can only imagine how alienating that would be. Even with my measly barely making the Mensa cutoff IQ, I find it pretty hard to relate to people when so few of them can even understand any of my interests. Combined with all the stuff Paul talks about, which describes me perfectly. I had a great gf once...she said I talked like an alien. Or a book. Somehow I seem to be pretty good at being in a relationship once I'm in one, if it's with someone I actually want to be with... I left her after a year...maybe shouldn't have in retrospect, but I wasn't ready to settle down then... It's still the only relationship I've had that lasted more than a few months, and I'm almost 40. I'm usually the one who ends it... But getting into a relationship with someone I'd consider as potential marriage material...I haven't done it yet. Maybe my standards are too high... - See, this makes it even worse, having problems you can't even tell anyone about without sounding like a total asshole. I want a woman I can relate to, who can know WTF I'm talking about half the time, which means she'd have to be at least pretty smart. And I'm also above-average in looks, and I keep in shape...I'd like a woman who's similar. Call me shallow, but looks are important, and I can't make myself feel something that I don't. I just want someone who's about as smart and good-looking as I am. Doesn't seem like too much to ask for. And it shouldn't be a problem, except for the fact that I'm fucking autistic. I can do random hook ups, but the ones I really like, I tend to scare away by being too intense. Plus the fact that I've had a spotty employment history, and still have barely a penny to my name. - I'm finally starting a decent career, and getting my life on track. I'm confident it will work out. I think the tables really start to turn in the mating market around my age, especially since I quit drinking and am in better shape than I was 20 years ago, except for a gray hair or two. - Did I get side-tracked? Imagine that. Anyway, I can totally relate to everyone assuming you're going to be really successful, only to see your life crash and burn hard, and even then, no one gets why it's hard for you, and if you try to explain, they just think you're lazy and ungrateful and entitled. - I scored 130 overall, but my processing speed is crap (49th percentile), and my verbal comprehension is in the 99.6th percentile. So my best friends are books, and the people who I feel I most able to relate to, who seem to think like me, are published authors with PhDs who regularly do circuits on podcasts. People who I'll never be half successful as, because I could never get my shit together. And I get it, that's an unrealistic comparison, and I'd be lucky to be even moderately successful, which is better off than most people ever will be. But it actually has at times been a struggle just to stay employed and able to pay bills.

[@jasonrabe1664]

Dude that was awesome. I enjoyed every syllable. I can relate.

[@JONNYSORENSEN_AU]

This video is spot on. I'm someone with loads of hobbies and interests that don't cross over with many others, don't relate well to people in public or strangers (or really want to interact with them if I dont have to). I've struggled with employment all my life but got lucky and moved into a job where my oddities work for me rather than against me. On the surface I can come across as rude, abrupt or seem like a narcissitic asshole. But I'm actually none of those things, it's my lack of skill in interacting with people that comes across that way and I have to always work at communicating better, or at least not creating a false impression. People who get to know me will pretty much agree that: I listen really well, have empathy for people, will go out of my way to help other people (including strangers, like helping someone in the street who fell over, or their car broke down etc) . I've rarely found (at any age) that I can interact much with people my own age, usually my friends and people I've known have been ten or twenty years older (and mature in their outlook on life) and I just have no time for idiots, no time for people who are very shallow etc or who just bimbo around and waste my time, or people who are just very selfish or immature. Friends and family (whom I love dearly) will also agree I am the most annoying person they know and can drive them crazy at times (unintentionally).

[@moniqueloomis9772]

Oh my goodness. Are you my twin? You described my experiences.

[@GrotesqueChris]

Great explanation! I was diagnosed with Aspergers 6 months ago (and ADD 1,5 years ago), so I started watching your videos a while back (also joined Facebook group), and it has made it so much easier for me to understand myself and get the puzzle together, I am now 34 years old, and finally have started living my life it feels like! Big thank you for all of your videos, and FB community! Much respect!

[@pikachuisshook5535]

I think that another reason people with autism struggle to find work is that some of us struggle to speak to more than one person at once, which makes us seem awkward and clunky at interviews

[@mailitedd185]

I love this and I love so many of your videos and share them with my friends so that they can understand me better. Thank you so much for posting these. I am a 52 year old "high functioning" Autistic female who just got diagnosed almost five years ago and getting people to understand me can be so difficult sometimes. I can have many many days when my functioning levels are so severe that they become life threatening. But it is impossible for people to understand this because I look so normal and it is almost impossible to get any help because all the resources are for children or "low functioning" people. Thank you so much for your videos. They are wonderful

[@madshorn5826]

I like a smartphone with an old battery as a metaphor for "looking normal" but not being able to sustain competence and energy 24/7.

[@SuperGingernutz]

Spot on post, sister. I'm in my early 50's and HFA/AS/ADHD (plus PTSD). We have been through similar experiences to yourself. Resources are criminally lacking for our place on the spectrum but there is plenty for children and 'low functioning' Autistic people, as you said. Besides, as I say to my sister/doctor/friends: What is 'normal'?

[@peterbelanger4094]

I totally understand. I'm 50 and I feel the same way. Too bad it's so hard to connect with others like us. Online interactions are soooo inadequate. Though I understand that there is a real human being on the other side of these words. The words on a computer screen only serve as a thick wall preventing real connection. And society has become so dependent on social media, that it has ruined many of the real, physical world ways of getting human contact. (then current events make that problem even worse) What I'm saying is I know how hard it is to get people to understand. For me at least, I find it to be easier in person. But that gets tougher to do every day. I know others like me exist, thanks to videos like this, but we are all apart, in distant places from one another. And even in "normal" times, it is difficult to find local resources for meeting people in person who understand. I imagine the internet to be like a physical bulletin board, in some dusty, deserted wasteland. there are notes posted on the board that I know some person must have put there, but as I scan the barren horizon, there is not a soul to be seen. Like in some post-apocalyptic movie. :(

[@mailitedd185]

@@madshorn5826 I totally relate 100%

[@mailitedd185]

@@SuperGingernutz you are so right. I am trying so hard to educate people on what our needs actually are but no one seems to want to listen or care

[@karenlockridge7392]

I'm 55 and trying to figure out if I'm ASD or ADHD. Everyday of my life has been a struggle pretty much. I taught school for many years, but felt like a failure the whole time. Thank you for this video. It explains things really well.

[@kriscontinuum3267]

It might be both. I have both. It's... a challenge to say the least. lol

[@BrokeStudentBeauty]

This is a great video, it helps me as a neurotypical person understand my autistic daughter so much more. Thank you for all your wonderful content!

[@jules2633]

You are helping me alot and most definitely alot of others aswell. I was diagnosed with high functioning autism at the age of 7 and never really believed it because nobody, not even the 4 different therapists I had as a kid were able to explain it to me which resulted in me always questioning my diagnosis until now. Thanks man you are doing a great job.

[@gemimarigby2471]

We’re doing poorly enough that often times maintaining a job, getting and keeping friends, a romantic relationship, getting things done and managing routine things like finances and hygiene is hard, but we’re intelligent enough and are able to mimic and be chameleons BECAUSE WE HAVE TO TO SURVIVE, that we don’t get help.

[@suzannewhitehead6087]

I was diagnosed beginning of this year, with grade 2 to 3 asd and they said I was pretty low functioning, because of all the normal things I cannot do, but you have said it how it really is. Indeed, the INNER struggle. Some are shocked to find I struggle, because I appear "normal", until I have crashed and I guess I am in the "crash" mode now. I am unable to work ( due to where I live actually) and hate seeing strangers more now than before. I actually have walked out to go to bins ( live in France), and turned back again, because of seeing just one person. I have always appeared to be "normal" to others, but finally, that "normality" has worn thin and now, ones are seeing the issues I deal with and even, some are agreeing that it must be so very hard to function in a society, where people don't get you?

[@C_Kava]

De mon expérience là bas, les Francais on tendence a être vraiment très très con et mal éduqués quand a la santé mentale.

[@frettystories]

Dude. You seriously do an AWESOME job with these analogies and explaining things in your videos. Great job.

[@lurrr217]

this is precious, it is so incredibly validating. also, reading the comments makes me feel understood and seen. really needed that.

[@TY-cy3hq]

Thank you for providing real examples. I know way to many people who don't believe that someone has the diagnosis because they can't put the symptoms together. Healthcare providers included!

[@MsDamosmum]

I always think high functioning makes us sound like we function just as well if not better than all the smart, well paid people on the planet. It sounds like a super power! Being able to appear 'so normal' is actually part of the problem, right?! You did really well explaining this, thank you for putting it across in a way that makes great sense.

[@forsakenjones4695]

It's not a dam superpower!

[@evecwrest]

I have a 20-year-old son diagnosed with high functioning autism at 11 years old. Your channel, in this video in particular, have changed everything about the way I see him and understand him. Thank you!

[@sharonmierau1979]

Wow! I am blown away. My husband, who is 70 years old, has undiagnosed HFA. I call it Aspergers. I known it for 7 years. He now accept it and we are learning together how to live and peaceful and productive life. Thanks so much for you information.

[@CrystalMouse1]

I definitely am not functioning. I am not a part of society at all.

[@anothomas6789]

💀

[@skyscraper908]

samesies

[@jonathonjubb6626]

I nearly typed ' you are not alone' then realised how silly that was; you will probably sympathise....

[@coreycox2345]

@@jonathonjubb6626 It is a choice.

[@jonathonjubb6626]

@@coreycox2345 What is?

[@paulredwood5320]

You've described me totally! Thank you for sharing. Me understanding myself is more important than teaching others about me. x

[@DunderMifflin_ThisisPam]

You are an adept communicator, Paul! Thank you for helping us understand.

[@orangetreevintagewaresotvw9590]

Diagnosed when I was 56 when I retired. Worked with individuals with Autism for my career as an SLP specializing in Autism. When diagnosed it was an epiphany. Thank you for filling in the blanks regarding my lack of knowledge about myself. The epiphanies still keep coming!

[@orangetreevintagewaresotvw9590]

@Thawne My husband is very ill and I'm his care taker. I couldn't do it all anymore soI had to retire.

[@nemmielicious]

This was incredibly insightful, thank you so much for making this video.

[@unaaurora9]

You've helped me put how I'm feeling into something I can now explain to others. I struggle with that sometimes, especially making simple enough for them to understand. This week I have been low functioning, all I could manage to do was arting, nothing else, not even feeding myself or getting showered. Thank you 💜

[@linda_sue]

I'm so thankful for your heart to make these videos. I also cannot stand for my shirt to be crooked like yours was here. I was pulling at the too-tight neck of my sweatshirt as I listened to you and realized that during the day, I'm too busy in my head to know if I'm moving in an atypical way because of the pressure of my clothing. I notice I pull the neck, make struggling motions, and that I'm stressed by the feel of it, but my head is very busy. You're helping me understand so much about my inner stress.

[@toastedtcake2947]

You don’t know how much I appreciate your videos. You explain things so well. Thank you so much.

[@TheMcObserver]

You are doing a great work, I am sure it is helpful for so many people!

[@gagrin1565]

Stellar. As someone who came off the wagon about 6 years ago (in my late 20s) and thankfully has a supportive family I can only imagine what it's like for people without. Finally have my diagnosis and that's opening up some help, but for a while there I was genuinely worried I was going to burn my remaining good will at home too. No illusions here, they saved my life and I don't know if I'll ever be capable of returning that level of support.

[@Spreadsheets_and_pizza]

I’ve been watching a few of your videos recently. My 7 year old has an ASD diagnosis and going through the process has given me insight and explanations for a lot of my own personal experiences. I have identified with a number of experiences you have described in your videos, to varying degrees, but what you described in part 3 about the invisible struggle was absolutely spot on. Thank you.

[@urdessstardancer9598]

What a fantastic video. You have explained this better than so many "experts" in the field. Your video has really helped me to gain a better understanding.

[@chocopanda16]

Thank you so much for this video. Everything you said is so true. and so comforting to know that someone understands me.

[@bekahsierra7313]

Thank you for this insight. I knew people on college who were high functioning and were a lot like Sheldon Cooper, and I found a lot of comfort in his character myself bc I have the same rigidity and difficulty understanding relationships. But I recently started talking to this guy who’s high functioning, and this is the first time I’m struggling to communicate within someone who’s on the spectrum. He’s a really nice guy, and I’m seeing that I don’t know nearly enough about autism. So hearing your experience is great. There’s only so much to learn from a doctor explaining it.

[@zirusoxemus5546]

Thank you for the videos they are so helpful. I'm 37 and just been told I have Aspergers and it has changed my life and your videos are really helping me

[@edwardbrett6133]

My goodness your a wonderfull communicator ! I'm adhd, have just had my very initial suspicions confirmed by psychologist of a potential aspy diagnosis. I beleive I started watching you months and months ago for this reason! Looking forward to exploring your posts again in this light thankyou! I hope your making a good career out of this! You certainly deserve to!!