AUTISM AND ADDICTION- MY BIGGEST STRUGGLE.

HI FRIENDS!
This is a rant video about my latest struggles with addiction, executive dysfunction, sensory overwhelm, cannabis, and so much more. I want to get more real and raw about how much I struggle to exist in my brain every day.
Addicts are not "addicts"- I am tired of feeling ashamed and I am tired of my relationship with substances. I am convinced that addiction is something more like a brain injury and I want us to start treating it that way.
I also believe that cannabis is one of the best things for an autistic brain... in some ways it has saved my life. That doesn't mean that I don't struggle with the side effects of it and the stigma that still lies around it... I have told myself for years that I need to be fully sober again, and now it's time for a new conversation.
Thank you for listening and letting me vent. I hope my videos help you feel less alone :)

[@michellebaker6845]

Girl, TikTok is so addictive, I’m with you. I used to be able to watch movies beginning to end without stopping, it takes me days to watch now. I haven’t read a book in a year and I used to read multiple books a month.

[@the.illest]

Babe yes! I am body doubling cleaning my house while listening to you 💜

[@alliepriestley]

yayyyyy I love that so much

[@jessrebadow9803]

The knowing I’m not alone with feeling like shit and how hard life is has saved my life and the way I live my life. I’m so much kinder to myself now I have no choice but to live life the way I have to just to survive. My brain is just different and just knowing that has helped alot but it’s definitely hard to make a lifetime of changes and it will be difficult

[@alliepriestley]

Yes!!! Knowing you're not alone makes the torture bearable. So glad you are here!!!

[@planetordinary]

so EXCITED to watch this rn while i walk on the treadmill - thank you Allie! 💓🫶

[@alliepriestley]

Thank you SO MUCH for the support you lovely lovely human

[@highlytaylor9830]

God, I love and hear you!!! Thank you so much for this. Don’t ever think these raw and “imperfect” moments aren’t appreciated, The vulnerability is WHAT I like most about your content. Thanks for taking time to make this long form content for us!

[@alliepriestley]

Thank you so so so much omg

[@imsarahpowers]

Allie I found you on Tiktok and I’m so grateful that I did!! I love your content and you are my comfort person no matter what content you post. I love it all! And I hope you are doing good today! ❤

[@alliepriestley]

Omg thank you so much for this comment it means the world to me!

[@superkaylyn44]

I’m at the end and I’m crying with you and I feel this…. I have been in such a dark place and it really does help to know I’m not crazy and my brain isn’t broken 🥺🥺🥺🥺

[@captiveangel18]

Thank you Allie. I feel much less alone thanks to you. My executive dysfunction and tiktok addiction seems like all I am outside of work. Being only on pot feels so much better than all that other shit I used to do, at least. You are a comfort and I’m grateful I hopped over to KZbin before bedtime ❤

[@Jennasworld1876]

This makes my whole week! I promise a lot more calm and comforting content soon!! ❤

[@jessrebadow9803]

Yes! I love weed it helps with my ADHD and autism! I feel no shame about anymore. I’m working on finding simple joy again, I feel like letting myself be childlike again.

[@jessrebadow9803]

I’m also totally use this video to get through putting my Christmas stuff again.

[@alliepriestley]

@@jessrebadow9803 yayyy I love that!

[@alliepriestley]

same!!! it truly is medicine

[@deej_611]

I just found you and I want you to know everything you said you wanted to do to help others with brains like us is exactly what listening to this did for me today. Thank you so much Allie.

[@17lili17]

allie you’re helping me so much, understanding my autism and my overuse of weed. THE TIKTOK ADDICTION not being able to watch movies etc… SAME!!! thank you so much

[@alliepriestley]

I am so happy and grateful you are here!!!! Thank you for the support and I promise and ton more calm and comforting content to come!!! 🖤

[@17lili17]

@@alliepriestley you are a ⭐️

[@NewAgeNoLonger]

I’m only 4 minutes in but I have to stop and say I literally turned this on to body double to😂. I can’t escape TT either. I litterally stop in the middle of everything imaginable to scroll it’s so bad. fortunately as a creator my page has never really blown up. I know I’d be so much more addicted if I was getting those regular dopamine hits bigger creators get. 27 minute update: got my dishes mostly done but I’m out of breath cuz I’ve been so sedentary cuz TT. Final- you are definitely helping Allie thank you so much.

[@amandaforster9099]

👏👏 At least we’re all in this together

[@alliepriestley]

OMG I LOVE THIS WHOLE COMMENT AND THE PROGRESSION THANK YOUUUUUUU :))))

[@SourEggz]

Honestly - I love your love long-form videos and I love your sense of humour! Genuinely! I think you have a lot of interesting perspectives, delivery and I have this feeling you’ll flourish even more on KZbin! Seriously, I love your sincerity, your brand of chaos and intellect! I look forward to your posts!

[@alliepriestley]

Thank you so much!!

[@Trytosingalong_]

Just used this for body doubling. Thank you. I love your vulnerability in this video. ❤

[@alliepriestley]

YAYYYYY im so glad that makes my day and that you so so much

[@Mkunk]

Fellow PDA Autistic & TikTok addict (I had my 11yr old set a screen time password for 30 mins a day of socials🥴) I appreciate the hell out of you putting yourself out there and being so honest - it is beyond comforting I am so excited for your future videos (even if they’re just you talking like this) 🖤

[@alliepriestley]

Thank you so so so much! I need to do the screen time thing for real!

[@Mkunk]

@@alliepriestley Its so hard! I tried it for months with just myself and blew through the limit everyday - but my daughter setting it with a password is holding my feet to the fire 😩🔥

[@j00000li]

You are so real, and i respect that so much fr, i love your videos sm. And i can relate to you in a lot of things like truly thank you.

[@alliepriestley]

Wow that is the best compliment ever thank you so so much. Being real is the thing I want to be the most. Thank you for being here it’s so hard switching platforms and these comments keep me going!

[@Coldplayful1]

I never saw you as harsh… I see passion! Honestly you changed my perspective on the spiritual “path” I was trying so hard to be on. I didn’t know it was effecting my depression. Also my daughter is autistic, anxiety dis. and adhd. I’m sure I am as well but not diagnosed. Long time pot head here too! 😂 Tried AA and worked in the addiction field.. that’s another story of disillusion. Your content had taught me so much! So thank you! I also want to work on self medicating and my TikTok addiction. I can’t imagine the stress that comes with being a content creator. The people that have come after you have been insane and you handle it well. I admire your courage. 💜

[@alliepriestley]

Wow... thank you so much! Everything in this comment means the world to me and I so grateful to connect with people like you!

[@moderatafonte]

I just started listening to this and you’re my body double today 😊. It is so helpful. Please please please continue to post long form content, when/if you can. You have a gift and your voice is needed and appreciated. Lots of love to you. ❤

[@Ken-xd9zu]

God I relate to this so much. “I’m gonna punch ya.. I’m talking to myself” 💀 fr me to me constantly

[@ericam1289]

Thank you for the reminder to be productive, I was going to organize my room but started to watch this instead. Sometimes I forget I can do both at the same time lmao. Also, I personally would Love to see more raw content from you. You're the only person I've seen on TikTok/etc who talks about certain topics that have had a huge impact on my life negatively the way you do. You're so real about it. Its rare to see people come out on the other side of certain spiritual and recovery communities. Thank you for your content, honestly

[@Jennasworld1876]

You got it!!!! Please let me know if there are certain topics that you would love to hear about!!! This is the kindest compliment thank you and I am so excited to get way more raw and real here and thank you forever for the suppport!!!

[@micheleele7299]

Hi Allie…Loved this video….bc I do get it….so much in common with you & I love your humor & personality…..you are real & like all of you have some issues but you are transparent & accepting of everyone unless you feel you need to speak to help people…..You rock!!! ♥️🙏✨

[@witchbitch1312]

I was about to sit here on top of my legs while they fall asleep in my desk chair while I'm biting my nails and disassociating while listening to this but you're right-- PAUSING this, setting up some paints, and then pressing play :)

[@alliepriestley]

YAYYYYY im so so so glad. Thank you for being here!!!

[@jadeerae4449]

Dude, the body double thing is so sweet. That’s exactly what I’ve been doing with you lately!:)

[@jessicagogan3902]

I get so excited when you post, thank you for being so real, open and honest. I laughed so hard because I was stoned when you sang the song about it being okay to be stoned hahahaha❤ like I never met you but I relate so much to you

[@superkaylyn44]

I got ready for work and worked on a crochet cardigan while I listen to this. Thank you I can’t wait for more of your long form vids ❤❤❤❤

[@alliepriestley]

that's so cool!!!

[@alextarot]

Im clean for almost 15 years with couple of pot slidebacks..now i drink one beer at times, and thats enough for me. I started w chill pills, went to alchocol abuse, then *heavy* pot smoking, in total for all around 6-7 years. Now im on psyche meds. .but my anxiety never goes away, except for short moments when i feel grounded and relaxed (not often but it feels sooooo good, without comparison to any substancies). Still, if i needed to chose between being addicted to alchocol or weed, id chose smoking any day! Like regualr alchocol use, even if ur not getting drunk ever, is ruining ppl's brain cells to the point of being fucking zombies. Its literaly destroing and killing every ounce of humanity in ppl. Its disgusting.

[@MrzBulldoppz]

It seems we're sharing a boat, but at least I'm in good company! You're amazing ❤️❤️❤️

[@alliepriestley]

thank you so so so much!

[@hannah01200]

a few may judge, but you’ve built a community of people who would NEVER judge you and loves you unconditionally because you’re a good person who actively works towards being the best version of themselves they can be. you’re allowed to feel anxious about it but i want to reassure you that we, or at least i, will never judge you

[@ashmac87]

29:46 I get it. I'm always trying to dissociate from reality. My entire life!

[@michaelasereinasmr9659]

girl i just wanted to say i understand you! you are not alone

[@jennamaryjean]

I needed this

[@alliepriestley]

Thank you for being here!

[@superkaylyn44]

You are already my comfort person. ❤❤

[@alliepriestley]

Thank you so much kali love you!

[@ashmac87]

I've been telling even my parents, "yeah I smoke cannabis so I don't kill myself." it's freeing.

[@the.illest]

With you on medibles. I have a very high tolerance, as well as need a lot for brain balance. I use feco (Rso) bc edibles don’t hit as well for me.

[@KillerKaleyXx]

I’ve followed you for a while but just recently started watching your stuff. I’ve never been diagnosed with anything because I’ve always been too scared to go get help…. But I can relate to your content so much. Phew… what was I doing in my teens/early 20s… 💀

[@KillerKaleyXx]

Actually I lied.. when I was younger I was diagnosed with ADD and definitely was in Ritalin.💀💀💀

[@healthylady3489]

please make more videos.. I enjoy listening to you while working on my hand crafts .. I am an artist.

[@leslieking5897]

I'm literally stoned rn and giggling with you lmao I love it here!

[@amongthejungle]

My ears perked at “fear of death”. Why is this such a debilitating fear!? Ugh. I experience this as well.

[@alliepriestley]

Hi lovely!!! Thank you so much for supporting me over here omg- and yes I want to talk about death a ton. Why aren't we talking about the fact that everyone is scared all the time?

[@alexagates]

I liveeee for these videos! ❤

[@alexagates]

Also! I definitely feel like the autism makes adderall the worst for adhd. Like I just can’t…Wellbutrin and ouid are getting me through 🫠⭐️💗

[@alliepriestley]

OMG THAT MAKES MY DAY~

[@ashmac87]

20:40 ❤

[@ashmac87]

You're in good company, Allie 8:20

[@keiimonroe3010]

ive been struggling with the same, this video made me laugh and cry. i appreciate what you are doing and can't wait to see more of your content. i definitely feel less alone

[@alliepriestley]

Oh I am so glad that you so much for the support! CYBER HUG FRIEND

[@Sofkinhilikehello]

The double cheeked up DC it the background towards the end of the video….is going to be commented on. Idc if it has to be me that comments on it 😂😂

[@alliepriestley]

AHAHAHAHA how did I not see this :) thank you for noticing brether! I have been doing better with my DC addiction aahahahha

[@ashmac87]

21:41 I'm mixing a bunch of stuff which is bad...

[@JDP1003]

Do you suffer from chronic pain? Just curious what your health issues are?

[@Cosmicfairybliss]

Funny enough I waited to watch this till I got high lmao

[@Cosmicfairybliss]

As for being addicted to TikTok, you have to get sick of it enough to finally give it up. Or you can do what I did & type in your bio that you're 8 and they'll immediately confiscate it.

[@alliepriestley]

@@Cosmicfairybliss hahahahah so smart

[@alliepriestley]

hahah perfect!

[@zillamysterious]

I made tuna sandwhiches and tiktoks today woohoo. But yeah I am working towards being a podcast maker and KZbin myself.

[@zillamysterious]

p.s. I love that you body double for us. You really are making a big impact!

[@alliepriestley]

@@zillamysterious Aw thank you so so much! Good luck with all your projects!!

[@zillamysterious]

@@alliepriestley Thank you! I appreciate all you've done for keeping us safe thus far.

[@amandaforster9099]

You’re definitely my comfort person by the way

[@alliepriestley]

this made my day!

[@coriswrld2122]

u make me laugh SO much lol

[@alliepriestley]

My FAVORITE compliment omg

[@yourfavoriteceltictarotlad8324]

Xoxo 🫂

[@ashmac87]

Omg tiktok is doing the same thing to me 😭

[@briangbur8743]

people who are more functional or a minor autism they say that you have Asperger's syndrome. I have two nephews who have full autism on the autism spectrum. You can't believe how people judge you and or society attempts at limit you. there are successful people with ADHD, dyslexia.

[@sacred_alchemy]

I love you. I can relate with you and everything I mean everything except for the dying part. Why are you afraid to die?

[@ashmac87]

27:32 maybe we can make a harm reduction group?

[@rileyflexsold3178]

googling how to not feel guilty for wanting to be high

[@rileyflexsold3178]

but on god you do help me feel less alone, and i’m learning to not feel broken💓

[@rileyflexsold3178]

“i don’t know how to exist in the world” girl me neither. i’ve always said i just feel uncomfortable being human. it is so painful. thank you for voicing this i love you

[@vshcvsh98]

No girl. KZbin has become so strict. Don’t shmoke on here it ain’t worth the demobilization and shadowbanning. KZbin’s a lot stricter than they used to be that’s for sure. Most creators are censoring many words just like TikTok because KZbin is becoming damn near just as strict. But I love to be high w you 😂🎉

[@alliepriestley]

AHHHHHH that makes me so upset but I’m glad you said that!!

[@vshcvsh98]

@@alliepriestley yes girl! but i am so excited to see this refreshing new allie we're seeing, whether you're stoned or truly happy- your smile brings many of us joy. you're already my comfort, DO NOT let these haters silence you- they will not win!! i can't wait to see what this channel brings!

[@amandaforster9099]

GIRL IM IN THE SAME BOAT. Tik tok changed my life and idk if it’s for the better ..

[@rockilucid5221]

Girl you’re embarrassed and you made me go outside and smoke a joint.

[@ashmac87]

13:28 what's up

[@Moonlight.Melon.Mounter]

Delete it!

[@Egzoset]

Dear lady, *ADDICTION* is when SUDDEN/BRUTAL shortage of supply can actually prove morbid, which is the case with alcoholics who could die from real withdrawal... Cannabis? nah, i just don't think so. Go back to school!

[@alliepriestley]

What the fuck are you saying? You don’t get to tell someone what their experience of addiction is.

[@SourEggz]

Please site your sources about your rather narrow definition on ADDICTION. I am curious what peer reviewed research you’ve found that supports that addiction only pertains to severe chemical addiction. Especially in regards to alcoholism. No, seriously, enlighten us.

[@RaijaAntilope]

Thank you so much for being here for me 🥺🥺 been so ruff!! Just gotten in contact with your content yesterday on tiktok and you are 100% exactly the person I needed in my life! You just acquired a life long follower! 🫂🫂 the darkness in me sees the light in you ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🔥

[@alliepriestley]

Wow. This made me cry. I am so happy that I can make people feel less alone. This means the world to me. That last sentence has my heart. Thank you!!!