Awkward Stories From The Closet

I tell you some more stories from when I was an awkward closeted teen!
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[@tyjuarez]

Gay Panic! At the (Chinese Restaurant) Disco

[@darby510]

KemonoGalleria this needs more likes

[@lilyoselrc3346]

KemonoGalleria congrats on the pin !!

[@jetisnotthereyet]

You got a pin, congrats!

[@dumbass_pml1199]

KemonoGalleria i was gonna comment that and didn’t.. i wish i did now 👁👄👁

[@pearlsbreaktoo2432]

KemonoGalleria isn’t this the plot of IT

[@abbieherondale]

Getting offended at being called straight at 11 is iconic lmao

[@mori404]

Cough*me *cough

[@beccap9573]

I would’ve kept that energy if it were me 😂

[@mypicturesnotadog4800]

JENNIE bender

[@magicpigeon_]

That was my best friend when we were 11 😆

[@countessalucard3500]

Ironically, what he said to his friends turned out to be true. 😃

[@theodoremiller7453]

"a young secret gay" is actually ur whole fanbase sir

[@indiebanks6197]

*gets defensive in closeted bisexual*

[@mollyduncan9524]

blow this up lol

[@user-yp2ms8dj2u]

👀

[@lbmx8163]

**me as a straightie reading this** Well..... everyone's a little gay so Imma quietly agree

[@mofthemoth5755]

Accurate

[@sondpnichqfvd]

i mean for years i mixed up the words lesbian and lebanese and whenever people called me a lesbian growing up i’d literally go “no i’m jewish actually >:(“

[@technologyisadeadbird9669]

LOLLLL

[@renf9191]

i thought u were american

[@Daph909]

I'm so confused about the relation between lebanese and jewish, what did your brain think Lebanese meant? :P

[@sondpnichqfvd]

Daphne_inProgress just two different ethnicities

[@Daph909]

@@sondpnichqfvd but 'Jewish' isn't an ethnicity, it means you subscribe to a specific religion?

[@alexx1806]

hearing Phil so confidently talk about being gay is so stress relieving ahahah

[@nancymabelpage]

it’s like gay therapy ❤️💓☺️

[@atsukokagari_]

@@nancymabelpage but the good kind lmao

[@TheoTheCoolest]

Remove the "ahahah"

[@ioannad1857]

the content we needed in 2020

[@chrundle2700]

When did he come out?

[@ju3491]

Odds are, if Jason is gay, he definitely remembers that too

[@oriana_fortunato]

yup. also, if he was just a friend who wanted to lend a ear because he actually cared, maybe he also remembers and when phil came out if he heard he was probably like: oh, good for him!

[@sepiasmith5065]

DEFINITELY

[@ju3491]

Oriana Fortunato true

[@Kuaheak2018]

If Jason was gay, he was probably thinking like. "Oh no Phil doesnt like me 😔"

[@loyael]

If Jason were gay he's probably subscribed to Phil and can give us an answer xD C'mon Jason say hello

[@marianwojcik6088]

Phil telling people he wasn’t straight to avoid them knowing he was gay is the actual best story I’ve heard

[@chloeclover4223]

Marian Wojcik I had to pause it multiple times at that part because if I was worried if laughed too hard I’d wake up my whole family

[@nandankulkarni2628]

Law of the excluded middle, DEACTIVATE

[@breanna8471]

Same

[@danielconnor8516]

The power tho. Getting mad at people for thinking you were straight.

[@Mary-yy7dn]

Are you Polish?

[@connieturner4336]

loving how some people from his past knew he was gay but never outed him online

[@matti1279]

Even with the demon phannies pressuring them to!

[@ioannad1857]

exactly its really good

[@Wra8h]

tbh who knows if someone didn't but there wasn't much attention to that

[@katieooo]

yesss but Shane Dawson did :/

[@tieganbarclay4111]

• ioanna d • shouldn’t be a “good” thing that people didn’t out him

[@chloeclover4223]

You know how middle aged women talk about their “girlfriends” who are just their female friends? My mom asked me if I wanted to ask a girlfriend over and I was what “Wh-what? I don’t have-“ and then I realized

[@marshm3llow467]

This bothers me so much! My mum does it too and I do a double take every time I hear it. Then they say 'partner' instead of girlfriend when it's two women like can you just use the same words for everyone please?

[@alexismontez4230]

Our cooking/food technology teacher said that once and we were all excited but no she just meant a female friend

[@lizziepotter8957]

My own GRANDMA asked me if I "had a girlfriend" once and I just stared at her for an uncomfortably long time before I realized she was asking if I had any Friends Who Are Girls at my new school 😭 For a second or two there I was convinced my grandma, of all people, somehow clocked me as gay when no one else in my family has 😭

[@Amaya_Doll04]

My bisexual friend's grandmother kept referring to my friend's girlfriend as her "partner" NOT her friend or by her name only as her partner and my friend had the audacity to say that her grandmother had no idea. Like girl, she knows.

[@Grace-hp7hv]

MY GRANDMA DID THAT AND I WAS SO SCARED FOR LIKE 2 SECONDS OMG

[@xckurcl139_]

Phil: Doesn’t accidentally reveal anyone’s real name whilst telling a story Me: *character development at its finest*

[@alexfossum5363]

Susan 15

[@tablenn3210]

You know what that is ?? 👏 growth.

[@thecardinalsin7]

"as a phil" glad to know that phil is a species

[@maciemercer869]

im a phil

[@lovella3914]

i wanna be a phil

[@nonamed3704]

Can I Be A Phil-? ;^;

[@boocastTV]

I wanna be a Phil

[@dumbass_pml1199]

this is the quickest i’ve seen a comment hit 1k

[@thebanterloon6450]

the worst thing is when you're arguing with your parents about lgbt+ rights and then they say 'but why do you care so much anyway?' ULTIMATE PANIC

[@teariesz4103]

AHHHH

[@sorasenpai6804]

OMG MEEEEEE ESPECIALLY WITH MY OLDER BROTHER

[@louisebrownie9160]

OATH HOLY SHIT

[@crimsoznt]

OMG- IMMEDIATE FEAR

[@sukiwah]

the ultimate gay panic. I can’t even count how many times this has happened

[@dnptwt]

my mom and i came out as gay to eachother at the same time

[@maplesyrup7716]

That.... Is... Wow

[@destinipearce5926]

goals

[@sakurawitch1303]

legit same. My mom and I both are pansexuals, and we found out after we started talking again. It was magical.

[@axixax_axax]

you're name is Ellie *Hol up*

[@tinyprayingmantis]

I love that

[@kichibear9956]

"Being in love with another man? Totally straight." -Phil 2020

[@plarizedpinklemnz6964]

Well, more like 1997 ._.

[@Phoeniiix]

Fellas is it gay to be straight

[@dazings]

“No... I’m not straight!! Why would you think I’m straight!?!? I’m the furthest person from straight in the whole school!!!!!!!!!!” Yeah

[@artisticloko]

Me at my all straight school 👆

[@zenosynnee]

He wasn’t wrong!

[@janetandamocha7874]

A guy was trying to kiss me at a party and I didn't know what to do, so I told him I had the bubonic plague. Seriously, instead of just pretending I was feeling sick or something, I went with the straight up Black Death.

[@eule1233]

You are a true legend

[@alexl04]

honestly i respect that

[@lpuik]

go all the way or no way lol

[@thewindgamer2607]

"I have the bubonic plague" AHAHAHAH Oh my god 😂

[@alexbergstad9801]

Girl, Mood

[@idkmanshithappens1245]

phil bring so insanely open about liking boys makes me ridiculously excited

[@autumn3978]

444 likes 😌☝️

[@brisa2810]

Phil: "as a young secret gay..." The entire phandom: relatable

[@ellw7830]

petition to rename the fandom to “young secret gays incorporated”

[@literalee7142]

phil being defensive after being called straight is literally me at any given moment

[@happyhaunt6659]

i’M tHe fuRthESt pErSoN frOm STrAighT iN tHe WhOLe sChooL

[@novarey6008]

Happy Haunt i mean he may have been

[@connorc6200]

yes

[@madelinegrace5727]

SAME

[@ashlieivy618]

Phil is such a great guy. He has continued to make great content for us, become more confident in himself, and opened up about his past to us, all while respecting Dan’s privacy and feelings this past year.

[@alicebergonzi3802]

Yeah, I agree.

[@doodooo2372]

Ur comment got me a bit confused, nothing is wrong with Dan tho, right?

[@ioannad1857]

i really respect him!! go phil!!!

[@MsLivinglegend19]

doodooo no it’s just because dan hasn’t really been properly online for the past year and I think they mean that Phil has never pressured him to return to the internet or be in videos if he’s not ready and he waited until dan posted his sexuality video before posting his own

[@doodooo2372]

@@MsLivinglegend19 I see, thanks :)

[@pinksalt577]

You getting defensive at being accused of being straight is me unironically lmao

[@dumbass_pml1199]

WHENEVER PHIL HAS A CRUSH HE LISTS THE REASONS HE THOUGHT THEY WERE ALSO GAY ON HIS FINGERS EVERY TIME

[@sophieargentov]

doesn’t everyone?

[@juliacamposfrasao1048]

we need the receipts

[@emol5166]

Same tho

[@fraser9174]

same 😞👊

[@sarahrtbarnes]

same

[@the_wormgirl]

not to be a sap but phil seems so so happy talking about these awkward crushes and baby gay experiences and it just warms my heart to know he is putting out the content he is passionate about

[@notgrace7187]

so i suck at driving and the first time i ever drove a car i accidentally hit the gas instead of breaks, drove over the curb, and into a soybean field. my mom and i were laughing at it since it was kinda funny and i said “i guess lesbians really can’t drive”. the car was SILENT after that because she thought i was straight.

[@Flowerfliff]

My dad makes me nervous so the first time I ever drove with him I almost hit a car so I turned and hit the gas instead of the breaks and drove us into a ditch 😔. I’m not gay, it just felt nice to see someone to sympathize with on that

[@4weirdkids]

AHAHAHA that’s iconic

[@notgrace7187]

Flowerfliff i felt that😔. my instructor had to constantly use the emergency break because i’m just such a bad driver

[@sarahhicks8787]

that is by far the best coming out story i have ever heard

[@suchpirate114]

Hahaha!!! That reminds me one time I was driving with my mom and we were at a stoplight and the car in front of us had a bumper sticker that said "honk if you're gay" so I honked before realizing. Then my mom said "Why'd you honk?" I just said "accident" really quickly then we were quiet a long time

[@gingermoonchild6582]

I don't really have an awkward closeted story, but when I was fifteen I dated my best friend for a few weeks, then we both decided it didn't work out. Fun fact: I'm a lesbian and he's gay.

[@Adenon.W]

I- well that's the plot twist of the century

[@SapphireLilly]

Same thing happened here.

[@ireadtoomanybooks]

SAME. EXACT SAME THING! I- WHA- DOES THIS HAPPEN TO ALL OF US?

[@alltimestarcos4101]

I would honestly buy a whole book of just Phil's awkward stories and have no regrets honestly 😂

[@corrin994]

Same

[@ashmitchell6958]

Book 3 of the dan and phil series

[@emrykin7127]

Agreed

[@mossboss9236]

MAKE A BOOK MAKE A BOOK MAKE A BOOK

[@rosem3980]

Me too

[@xXKatieFace]

"Jason" is watching this right now thinking "damn I almost got him 🥺"

[@mama_tot]

Alternative Title: Closeted Phil being Innocent and Everyone takes Advantage of It

[@jayscott9596]

...is anyone else just so happy to see Phil so confident in himself now that he’s out. Like this guy is making me cry happy tears cause I’m so proud of him.

[@ju3491]

Ikr it's so sweet

[@music-books-films]

I’m just like aww awwwwweeee AWWWWEEEEEEEE

[@nikitakassier4869]

He's such a wholesome soft boi and deserves all the dogs in the world

[@delaneymutchler5689]

YES! I noticed that too!

[@oliviacarr7062]

Literally same

[@MirianRodrigues483]

Phil flirting with a guy Guy: So, car insurance huh?

[@fphoellyickx8982]

Phil: laughs flirtatiously

[@lesbnlime]

mirian em toda parte

[@MirianRodrigues483]

@@lesbnlime muito bom te ver aqui

[@wingdingdoes6687]

a teacher once addressed my small group of friends as 'ladies' (two trans men and one nonbinary one cis) and a friend said "one out of four ain't bad"

[@kitkatcasey427]

jkhbgfcvhb I love that!

[@ellw7830]

i love ur friend

[@miafeys]

you really pulled an uno reverse card on jason after that crush prank. good job

[@fiorellaalarcon6873]

i outted myself by saying “we” when talking about the LGBTQ+ community 🤦🏽‍♀️

[@romeosdistress1103]

GAHSHHDHF SAME WHAT

[@moo2429]

qweyqieuq i did that when talking about the lesbian community with my dad

[@sheaheavey5643]

THATS THE BEST HOLY COW

[@Ash-ot7mh]

I did the same thing when I accidentally told my siblings that I’m ace 😂

[@miriel8731]

@ebony b ace is short for asexual, as in not experiencing sexual attraction

[@krithikavivek1291]

this whole video is just 10 minutes of gay panic

[@sarahmacphee7092]

hearing phil so openly talk about being gay is still so surreal omg

[@paiger7864]

Ok so my mom is actually gay... Like she’s a lesbian and people would joke or “insult” saying “Your mom’s big gay” and I’d be like “Yeah Ik you can go sit down now” because most of the time it was younger kids😂😂

[@prosprinter0828]

Thank this made my day (well 3am😂)

[@claudebarker9478]

I have lesbian mothers as well! My mom has had a girlfriend for ten years now so I was basically raised by two mothers. Whenever someone says something like, "You're mom's gay." I'm just like, "Which one?" It's never failed to shut people up lol.

[@mervicente3961]

"a young secret gay" sounds like me except i'm 23 and still closeted yeet

[@minniesnowflake]

Why is this exactly me though

[@clara-uc7px]

aw i hope you guys can feel safe enough to come out one day ♡ (i dont really know the reason but i believe thats the most common)

[@ipshita154]

Haha same. If 22 is considered young.

[@santa_clause]

lmao

[@paintingpilots2068]

NOICE, ima teen and out to my friends

[@BlackBloodFreak99]

"The Trick" storyline is going to become a fanfic trope y'all just wait and see

[@dazycheeks]

you _genius_

[@that.one_guy.over_there]

*wattpad has entered the chat*

[@blueyasss8268]

i would read that tbf

[@casshervas9120]

i've never seen another myday who watches dnp omg hi

[@mimi_c2004]

cxs ooo more Mydays hola 👀😂

[@beautifulhorror22]

Not necessarily a closetted moment, but when I came out as Pan to my dad, he made the mandatory pansexual joke, and then was just like "Okay, so girls, I like girls too, are they any girls you like, I can't help with guys, but girls I can!" And it was just so wholesome and awkward. My mom was behind us just watching and shaking her head.

[@lukamassaro3349]

Some pre-realizing-I’m-trans childhood stories: 1. When I was a kid, being a “tomboy” to me meant “you’re technically a girl but in every way that matters you are actually a guy”. I was desperate to be perceived as a tomboy and asked my siblings if they considered me to be one, and my brother said kinda but not really because I wasn’t into sports or enough “masculine” things. I was pissed and kept trying to convince him that I really was a tomboy lmao. 2. Connected to that first story. As a kid I loved characters and making stories with video game characters and the like (I’m a writer now, as fate would have it). I had this player guide to Mario Party 4 and read one sentence in it that said Princess Daisy is a tomboy and from then on for years I projected myself onto her and adored her. I made a version of her in my head for storytelling purposes where, as I said earlier, she was “a girl but in every way that matters actually a guy”. The character still has a special place in my heart. 3. On a similar note of me making stories with video game characters, when I was a kid I thought Kirby was a girl because he’s pink. When I found out he was a boy, I decided to make a whole AU in my head where there is a race of Kirby people and their sex can be told by their color but Kirby was a boy that was born with one of the girl colors. Yeah, it was that on the nose. I remember feeling particularly emotionally invested in that story, too. My subconscious was really screaming at me with that one, yet I didn’t realize until senior year of high school and this was from when I was 5-8...

[@valaya.3]

Wow, that's all rather touching!! Thank you for sharing. I think it helps me understand as a cis female who has never had those feelings. I know I could never truly know what it's like, but thank you for sharing your perspective

[@ellw7830]

transmasc to transmasc, this is adorable and deeply relatable lmao. on the mario kart thing i always picked Rosalina, now i know it was because i had a big gay crush on her hahaha

[@luvlions0330]

“Straight or gay?” Me: GAY OR EUROPEAN

[@BarrellDavis]

This man is gay AND European

[@lissybstw]

I DID THAT LMAO

[@cereal_picnic]

barrell davis damn he is 😂

[@h4ppym0nday]

barrell davis and neither is disgrace!!!

[@noashaham5438]

More like gay or American

[@TheRjmTV]

how is he still as positive of a person after all this TRAUMA....king what have you been through

[@crystalwolcott4744]

He's probably this positive of a person because of his trauma tbh.

[@kingcallum8928]

I haven't been through much thanks for asking lol 😂😂😂👆

[@yooman6339]

I was talking to my parents this year and I told them what pride month was and my dad asked "so are you proud?" and I was like "yeah sure" and then I realized

[@tallupastar]

He’s so positive now because he met Dan

[@jayson6222]

People who are positive and compassionate choose to be despite what they’ve been through. This is why I love Phil

[@annabeljohnson1412]

my friend told me i gave off straight energy and i got so offended i accidentally outed myself😔🤚

[@scummy2872]

Here's my gay panic story; one time I went to Michaels to get a Christmas gift for my siblings. They really like rocks so I decided to get a little bag of rocks from a box where you can fill a bag and buy it for like 3 dollars or something. While I was browsing for rocks, a really cute person walked up next to me and also was looking at the rocks. I don't usually talk to strangers but this person was super cute and appeared very suddenly, so I was flustered and blurted out "I like your glasses" (they were round and gold). They told me they liked my jacket, and me being an extremely awkward gay who does not often receive compliments, I panicked, thanked them, and scuttled off as fast as I could. I met up with my dad in the paint isle, then realized my bag of rocks was only about half full. I didn't want to pay 3 dollars for only half of what I could get, so I went back to the rocks. The person was still there, browsing. I was too scared to approach, so I hung around looking at necklace charms for like five minutes, waiting for them to leave, knowing my dad was getting impatient. Finally I sucked it up, hurried over, and grabbed a random handful of rocks. Of course I couldn't have just left, so I grinned awkwardly and said "love me some rocks" and then ran away like my life depended on it. To this day I still turn red when I think about it.

[@kath26]

Oh my gosh, that's so cute but embarrassing!

[@Apothecartea]

this made my day

[@JosephM]

I feel this

[@ms.lilith8905]

That is totally me! I have a very similar gay panic story. Actually I’m still like that. I’m 42.

[@Apothecartea]

@@ms.lilith8905 you are my icon

[@user-tu2cl9mt1c]

"undo! undo! but there was no undo" that's basically my life.

[@zoeywinkler9231]

*furiously hits control z"

[@reharm_reality]

I read undo like "oon-doh" and got really confused wtf am I on

[@breanner7098]

that was basically my birth

[@kingcallum8928]

Dude that hits on another level 😂😭

[@rosalyntiangco3021]

here's the lesson of the day, kids: gay=gay straight=gay therefore, everyone=gay

[@rosalyntiangco3021]

@Curly bee even though i'm pan, i literally just tell everyone im kinda mostly gay bc half the world population doesn't know what pan means anyways lmao

[@sleepyontime5513]

Oi hold up what ✋🏼😳🤚🏼

[@rosalyntiangco3021]

@@sleepyontime5513 tbh idek anymore if im honest w you i just got outta surgery and am zazzed on medication lmao all i know is that gay=gay, straight=gay, meaning everything=gay bc phil said so

[@Alexis-fg2yy]

Curly bee what is aro??

[@rosalyntiangco3021]

@Curly bee only phil makes the rules and no one can tell me otherwise

[@angel-ry9mb]

watching phils same wholesome content but him being openly gay is so refreshing, my 2015 closeted phannie self is shook

[@ninja_ari]

my heart rate went up 20x during this video and this all happened like 15 years ago and to a man I've never met on the other side of the world. wow.

[@aislingmcquillan1904]

Gay=Gay Gay=Straight. Well that couldn’t be funnier

[@megalenzbyxx8358]

Phil: “straight or gay?” HARRY STYLES VODKA

[@cherryredmarlene]

you are amazing

[@olirhys2992]

Only the elite will understand this

[@oliviawilliams-ur3ju]

vodka, straight? NO GAY

[@emmadodds9141]

You are a elite human being

[@zoeywinkler9231]

don't you mean,,, a roast chicken

[@charlieguest5456]

Phandom: I’m scared that I will out myself if I am put on anaesthetic Me, a person who is allergic to anaesthetic: p u n y m o r t a l s

[@megtoon1304]

Skfhfksjf okay so mine's more of a funny coming out story. I was at the drive-thru with my mom and was thinking about coming out as bi to her since I'd done so to my coworkers and a few of my friends already. I straight up say "I think I'm bi" and SHE LEGIT IS JUST LIKE "Okay cool what do you want to eat" AND I'M JUST LIKE WELL THAT WAS EASY. As of now, she's the most supportive in my family and even went to three different Pride parades with me :D

[@mafuyussparkles7161]

Aw that’s so sweet! I wish more parents were that accepting😔 give your mom a big hug for me and tell her that she’s amazing!

[@Kittennedy]

Sometimes I forget that Phil looked so much different than he did when he was younger. So while he’s telling the stories I just imagine how he looks now

[@vph1r819]

i just have one image of him in my mind from when he had spiky hair, so i just imagine that and it's so amusing

[@genericname8727]

@@vph1r819 I was picturing the long hair, but for some reason the hair that was longer than the style he’d have had at the time

[@ju3491]

vånilla spiky hair Phil seems incredibly unreal

[@silvermoon2281]

Yeah, I was just thinking that! When he went "Ha ha ha... Dogs," I had to remind myself that he would've looked - and sounded - a lot different back then. It's nice to know how much more open he can be now! 👏

[@srhrth]

When he said he was 11 I instantly thought of those amazing pics when he had dyed his hair bright yellow/ginger tho ♡ idk if that’s the correct age but this is my only reference and I sksksjsjd

[@MintyUnicorns]

Them: Where are you from? Me: I’m slightly American

[@danielpaxton6543]

That is how I think of anyone speaking English that's not definitely got a British, Australian, Kiwi or South African accent (most people pick up some American accent from watching American TV)

[@rosebouquet3170]

@@danielpaxton6543 yup and it's also hard to tell the difference between canadians and americans

[@neazenzen372]

@@danielpaxton6543 I like how you just made Canada the violas of countries ❤️

[@Nireni]

Ugh, I've experienced that terrible moment when someone approaches you cause someone dared them. Just that "turn me into dust" moment, horrible.

[@leeannakathryne]

One time my dad was talking about a crooked tree we we’re trying to make stand up straight, but it wasn’t working and he said “Nothing else around here is straight, why start now” and I just quietly agreed, and thought it was funny as he didn’t know that i wasn’t straight

[@pinkwidelegpants]

Phil: And then it turned out he was straight and tried to introduce me to a life of *CRIME*

[@TheRjmTV]

It is the gay agenda

[@pumpkinoligarchy6626]

The straight agenda

[@ravioletoli]

Bruh these stories are really funny and all but they're even funnier if you think about what Phil looked like in university

[@crystalwolcott4744]

cruel but true

[@deathsauce8568]

Damn roasted

[@julietmcneilly6121]

Literally omg tho like I just kept thinking OMG HE LOOKED YOUNG THEN!!

[@idkwhatimgonnado695]

STOP IT DJDJDJDJ

[@ravioletoli]

P.S Love you Phil! 💜 (sorry if this was a bit mean)

[@hyvnmni]

i'm bi and instead of gay panic i have straight panic??? like i had crushes on boys and my brain would literally stop working, i would say the dumbest shit when talking to them or even texting them i felt like a complete mess. however when i met and texted my now girlfriend i always felt less anxious and a lot calmer and more confident. idk men are just terrifying, i'm always scared they'll be mean or judge me, while with girls i feel safe and accepted. i've also never had straight sex, so if i'll ever be with a man that will literally be the biggest straight panic moment of my life lmao

[@diamondust2054]

hmm that’s so interesting! can relate

[@cynanee]

Omg what a mood !

[@cfnature5]

That is SUCH a mood!!! Except I panic around everyone, no matter what😅 I know that my girlfriend won't judge me but I'm terrified of doing anything risky with her. Once I got used to boys, which took a VERY long time (ugh, the straight days) I felt way more confident doing risky things with them because boys are so easy! But now I'm literally terrified? I know she loves me for who I am and I love her for who she is but like, I have to reset everything I know about risky stuff and I no longer know what the heck I'm doing? But now thinking back on doing straight stuff makes me panic because it's been so long and also guys are gross? There's definitely something wrong with me 😂😅

[@ambershort800]

So I'm a closeted trans person but I do theatre and get cast as a lot of guys' roles (despite my directors thinking I'm a girl) and in my last show (where I played someone's dad) one of the directors accidentally referred to me as "he" (which is actually my correct pronoun) and I shared a Look with my one friend in the show that I was out to and the director mistook it for me being offended and apologized and all me and my friend could do was laugh because she was right the first time and had no idea

[@treeladder5338]

Biologically you can't change genders. Do as you wish though much love sir.

[@taehyunsfairy1843]

@@treeladder5338 Literally what was the point in your comment

[@lokebrandon]

@@treeladder5338 You're disgusting

[@marshm3llow467]

Happy for you, it must have been nice to get the right pronoun from a stranger!

[@cfnature5]

This gave me chills, love that for you!!

[@rosalyntiangco3021]

phil: "omg this guy is talking to me is this my chance at love????" guy at bar: *laughs* phil: *am i a joke to you? what did i do wrong?*

[@taylorscardigan]

“Most situations I’m in turn out awkward” - MOST RELATABLE THING EVER

[@sv-wolfheart_tfg2186]

This isn’t so much as a single event but an ongoing dilemma, there’s this girl that befriended me in freshman year of college(I’m bi), as far as I was aware I only liked her platonically, except when we left for summer break, she hugged me goodbye and it made me feel so warm and happy-and just-FEELS and I kept thinking about it all summer and it wasn’t until a few weeks later that I had an “oh shit” moment as I realized: a. I definitely liked her as more than a friend b. I’m 95% sure she isn’t into girls And then fall semester we were roommates which meant we spent even MORE time together and I was very happy and very miserable at the same time

[@chronicallywilting]

Sorry I must... THEY WERE ROOMATES

[@tmr3421]

omg they were roomates

[@kristiannaranalli]

phil: is already an awkward person gayness: _hehe_

[@4amy2watch]

"I am inevitable!" . . . . . . . . . . . "aNd i'M kAnYa wEsT!!"

[@kilroy_blob]

*NYE HE HE*

[@trashbutbetter309]

The gay experience is having a crush on a person and then finding out they’re straight

[@lunarwing12]

Yep pretty much

[@TheChemist418]

Add the demi experience: having a crush on a friend then finding out they’re straight

[@elevenmoons4020]

I’m such a disaster that I ended up crushing on a girl that I KNEW was straight when I met her, wtf is wrong with my brain shdhdhdg

[@wrensmore9449]

Or knowing they're straight but having a crush on them anyways

[@k.sharma6104]

@@elevenmoons4020 same

[@theprasadinus]

Phil: *says Luke and Jason* Percy Jackson fans: 👁👁

[@elwingsmith7352]

I thought about it too !! Thank you

[@mason1629]

yess

[@fru1tpunk965]

that's exactly what I was thinking 👁️👄👁️

[@geekygirl13isnotonfire23]

omg I thought that too!!!

[@batvaleska]

wouldn’t we all take Jason Grace to the aquarium SPOILERS!!!! if he wasn’t dead

[@heythisislauren]

"There was no gay love for Phil at the Chinese restaurant disco". I feel like I'm going to start using this sentence in regular conversation. When I'm telling a story about something that didn't end up going my way, I'll finish the story with this exact phrase. Bless you, Phil.

[@Adenon.W]

Sounds like a band

[@dusty_1123]

"Most situations I'm in turn out awkward." That hit too close to home

[@scarlett9828]

dusty dusty my musty busty babe

[@yuuri9064]

At this point, I expect it and don't even try to prevent it

[@desireesaldana8022]

Dude I deadass read this comment as he said it and had a slow realization that it was perfect timing

[@Lalaz]

"there was no gay love for phil in the Chinese restaurant disco" -by fall out boy

[@crystalwolcott4744]

lol classic

[@tyjuarez]

honestly, this should be the pinned comment

[@Lalaz]

@@tyjuarez omg thank you xD

[@lisamerkx9462]

"Mom, Im gonna hang with Jimmi and some of his friends" "Which friends?" "Not sure, I only know Luca is comming for sure" "Is Luca cute?" "Luca is a girl" "Oh.... does that matter?" "Uhm.... not really" My comming out

[@summeri3]

aw cute

[@thornprick2645]

That's nice

[@thewindgamer2607]

Aww

[@giovannakkjdk]

once in a party i was talking to this girl who was very easy going and t o u c h y my brain instantly turned on gay panic mode i thought i was getting all the signs from her and she suddenly asked me to come to a corner with her so i thought THAT'S MY MOMENT turns out she just wanted to ask me privetly if i could help her on getting along with my straight male friend

[@Apothecartea]

Ow, I felt that

[@tamtmf]

I got yelled at by my grandmother at like age 8 for having a crush on Shego from Kim Possible , my grandfather on the other hand told me he was proud no matter what gender I married. Quite a few years after that I was talking with my great uncle and randomly came out to him when we were discussing marrige. He was saying "You're going to find a nice military man to marry one day." And I blurted out, "But Uncle Joe I don't want to marry a man, I want to marry a woman." I turned bright red but my uncle just smiled and told me "Well they don't have to be a man, just as long as they're in the miltary."

[@brisabustos8421]

i relate to you on a higher level bc i also had a crush on Shego when i was 8

[@crystalwolcott4744]

@@brisabustos8421 Same

[@cheeseytacotime9380]

As long as the ya re in the military😂 I wish my family was like that

[@nataliatheweirdo]

Brisa Bustos awww i love that 😂

[@brisabustos8421]

@ebony b true, true

[@pastpig867]

my sister always says stuff like “that’s gay” or “what are you, gay?” as an insult and i always say yeah but she never catches on that i mean it.

[@whalesharks1000]

Bing Bong- your sisters a little slow, like honestly....

[@pastpig867]

Highlighter lmao she is

[@pastpig867]

Dopper lmaooo thanks

[@ioannad1857]

i love that wow

[@niamhwinters7169]

Haha same here. My brother is 11 and is at that age where all his mates did the same. Then he finally caught on and asked me what was up. I told him I was a 1000% lesbo and he started crying bc he felt so bad😂 I hope your sister catches on and then gets a bit more sympathy lol

[@JossCade]

Ok so i kinda did come out to my mom under anesthesia? I was coming out of it, and asked my mom if a picture on the wall was of Demi Lovato. When she said "No." I responded with "Demi Lovato is so preeeetty". This is baffling to me, because I knew I was bi at the time. But I don't, and havent ever really, found her That attractive. Is she pretty? Yes. Am I attracted to her enough to warrant that response to demi lovato Not being on the wall? No! It confuses me to this day

[@thornprick2645]

I don't think it has to be something that's so revealing of your deeper feelings! Maybe that day you happened to think of it. I used to be so afraid of going under anesthesia because I would admit something, but turns out that due to my health conditions I'm supposed to be fully knocked out every time I need anesthetic anyway 🥴. Not super fun but oh well.

[@d3vxxn]

phil talking about this and being so comfortable with himself is making me cry look how much he’s grown 🥺🥺💕

[@macularius]

No Gay Love for Phil in the Chinese Restaurant Disco, my favorite Fall Out Boy song

[@madison8710]

same

[@macularius]

@@carolineaupperle795 YES

[@jiminshoulder]

Phil stories are a rollercoaster from start to end😂😂

[@aesthxticsz8730]

omg another army hii

[@Maria-jq3zv]

I had to get put under anesthetic because I needed a surgery to drain a very painful ovarian cyst I had. While I was under anesthesia, I outed myself as trans. The doctors were very supportive. They were like, “That’s okay. You just be you. It’s good that you know who you are.” My mom was not supportive. And she got mad at the doctors for being supportive.

[@fjakjcwjcjjwjcch]

aw crap, i'm sorry about your mum's reaction. hopefully she gets more accepting

[@ThirrinDiamond]

The repetition of the sentence "you wanna talk?" Is me when processing literally anything neurotypicals do 😂

[@celestinebuendia]

Member: ...scope out some “hot guys” Phil: I ‘ L L G O

[@miche8868]

+++

[@lunarscorpio3987]

I mean, same.

[@voidmushrooms2251]

phil b like: read page in book about sexuality his brain: I’m about to do a pro gamer move

[@anavi222]

you're a really good storyteller

[@loveyerimotion]

A month ago a girl i had a crush on, we had about four cans of monster, passed out and an hour later she sat up half asleep and yelled 'IM GAY!!!!' and i just started punching the air, and now i have a girlfriend😁

[@bubble992]

When I was 15, i went to a (very bad) birthday party. We played never have I ever, and someone said "never have I ever thought I was gay". Two people said "no, of course not". Me, not yet realising I was bi, but with no shame whatsoever, said "Well, I've thought it about it, but I don't think I am". To which two other people immediately said "Same, same, same". Those other two people - one later realised she was bi as well, the other was a closeted lesbian who had been one of the people who said "of course not". Without realising, I had made my closeted friend feel safe and a few months later she came out to me. We're 27 now, and still best friends.

[@huffy1345]

"you think your awkward? Try being gay" a book by phil lester

[@vph1r819]

- along with dapgo, tabinof and the vulgar wasp

[@Devinelea11]

i a m

[@kingcallum8928]

That would be a best seller right there 😆😆😆👌👌📚📚📚

[@IndraSchrage]

Would actually love to read that though

[@miainfect3396]

my most awkward moment had a bit of a delay. i had a HUGE crush on my middle school best (and kinda only) friend. the day after middle school is over i get a long ass text from her confessing how she had a crush on me. looking back i think it was kinda obvious we were gay but i always convinced myself she was just being nice lol

[@measured_in_jools]

Wait why is he the cutest thing ever? And why am I just finding him?

[@sophbilliex2232]

when the jason story happened to me, i told my best friend that i didn’t have a crush on anyone so i was testing our friendship compatibility instead.. i don’t know if she believed me but i lived to see another day

[@andreasullie902]

dang that's some serious big brain

[@sophbilliex2232]

Andrea Sullie gay panic brain works quickly apparently

[@solkai7575]

your MIND incredible

[@christopherthiel6627]

@The Zenboi same when I accidentally confessed to my crush I was like "Uh someone took my phone " the next morning. It had been at midnight lmao

[@itsoveranakin74]

"but there was no gay love for phil" it literally hurts my heart

[@sypersonified]

Fr he had so much love that he just wanted to share with someone and didnt get the chance back then 😭

[@maggielaw6320]

BUT THINK ABOUT HOW MUCH HE HAS GROWN AS A LOVELY PERSON AND HAS LOVE IN HIS LIFE AND THINGS ARE GOOD AND LIFE WILL GET BETTER AND OTHER WHOLESOME THINGS💜

[@beth7132]

not me re watching this cuz phil is one of the only things that calms me down on a bad day 😳✨

[@issumusi]

m e

[@lindsey.13]

let’s call him *real name* let’s call him luke this is what we call self improvement

[@LampShadeAffair]

“I was the G!” -Phil straight up outing himself as the original Gangster

[@gracegriffindor9352]

Gamer 😂😂😂

[@l.h.8151]

Goose, Emo

[@yajnaseni3277]

"Jason" out there somewhere regretting his whole life rn

[@zarnab8528]

Probs not the perspective of comment most ppl would expect here, but I’m 27 now and have been watching Phil since I was 14, I’m a Mama of 2 girls (about to have another third little girl) and I just wanted y’all closeted heroes to know: as a Mum, hearing your sexuality is different from heterosexual, or hearing that you’re not the gender you’ve been allocated, it doesn’t change anything. A Mama’s love doesn’t mean selective, at least it shouldn’t. So long as you’re happy and true to yourself that is the most important thing. I remember being scared and closeted too (pansexual) & I would never want my girls to feel pressure, shame or fear. I can’t speak for every mother out there obviously, but from /A/ mother to anybody who’s family don’t accept you - You are valid and you deserve to be loved. ♥️🌈

[@rebeccan1454]

🥰🥺 thank you, your story is really nice to hear. I think my family will be supportive when I tell them, but I'm not 100% positive. You sound like a great mom though, your family is lucky to have you

[@zarnab8528]

Rebecca N take your time, there’s no rush and no pressure. Just be you and take it at your own pace. Thank you x

[@AACzech-pl4jd]

awkward gay moment: a few months ago, our homework was to watch a movie, and my classmates were textng each other in our groupchat. i stared bragging about how pretty was one of the actresses and my friend (a guy) and i started sending each other photos of other pretty girls. a few weeks ago he texted me and it made me realise that i outed myself to my class and some of my teachers cool :')

[@ladsx3732]

Last year I broke my nose at the school bus stop when a girl smiled at me and I fell into the road. My friends didn’t even help me they were pissing themselves laughing

[@ecee5139]

Without question, this is the best one yet.

[@toricowan4113]

when i was a young very feminine closeted gay boy, i got into my mother’s mascara and eye makeup. And when she asked me why there was makeup on my face i kid you not, as a young child i said: well..... basically a ghost came in while i was asleep and put it on me. 👁👄👁

[@otaku-chan4888]

Aww that's lowkey adorable

[@mysweetheonie]

That's iconic

[@Shaquillyonilly]

Gay

[@imogensyms630]

are you sure it wasn't james charles

[@theblondosonicshimmertrap]

pleaseee I need more of these stories, they're god tier

[@sleepyhollowchrissy]

THE WILLOW. Most amazing Chinese restaurant-disco ever! ❤ We may have shared a bowl of prawn crackers and an awkward bop many a year ago Phil! The Willow's memories live on!

[@ejw2354]

All the closeted people (including me) watching this: **_second-hand panicking_**

[@iammonkeygirl4632]

Dude, I'm straight and I was panicking for him a little- Phil: I was closeted. I said NO I'M NOT STRAIGHT WHAT THE HELL I'M THE FURTHEST THING FROM STRAIGHT! Me: Oh no Philly what is you doing???

[@valeale8851]

IKNOWWWW

[@microwavegum]

😊In the future we will live one day where love wins. I hope we get to live that day. It might take a long time, but time is always ticking we will get there eventually. Bless all you wonderful souls.