being a doctor is hard (residency, mental health) | Dr. Rachel Southard

[@RachelSouthard]

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[@AM.000]

The hand thing... is it "Dupuytren contracture" ? Or neurological tightness? Try physical therapy if you can't find a surgeon.

[@ArtiAnushka]

Dear Rachel, know that most residents feel like this especially during the beginning period of residency. You are tired, learning a lot of new things and getting to know new people. I can relate to you. During my residency, I felt really lonely in my constantly overwhelmed feeling because the other residents surrounding me never said anything about how they were feeling. One night when I had a shift change, I asked the night shift resident, whether it was just me and he confirmed that it was perfectly normal to feel like I was feeling. This was an eye opener for me. Be kind to yourself, get enough rest❤

[@beatricechelangat4777]

Hey sister. You have to read a scripture and pray. Submit to God, I promise you feel and see the difference, e.g I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

[@puneetyadav9112]

wow

[@shawnamackie18]

Its so unfair doctors cant talk about mental health your job is so hard and draining. You see some pretty traumatizing things. Are you allowed to have a therapist ? Keep being transparent I feel we have a good space here where theres little judgement lets keep that up. Go Rachel!

[@unhealthyhomeostasis]

Some states will revoke licenses or make it very hard to get licensed if you see a therapist/psychiatrist or take psychiatric medications which deters many doctors from getting help because they don't want to lie or lose their license.

[@Olivia-ns5dj]

@@unhealthyhomeostasis omg how disgusting. Those who help and treat us also need to be helped and treated. 🙁

[@unhealthyhomeostasis]

@cocomarineblu993 they may be allowed but in several states there can be significant issues in licensing if they try to access mental health care. Medical boards are also known to look at social media, so yes some may choose not to to protect their job and license.

[@Jobeexotic]

Hope the hand gets better! I’ve heard of hand surgeons doing tendon releases in the past, but don’t know much more.

[@loveyourmindalittle]

You guys need to advocate for your mental wellness. Maybe the hospital you are working at see things from business perspective ( ie., they focus about the income coming in) not the sacrifice each if you make.

[@millsjenna8606]

Yes for me the medical field is not a dream any longer, it's not worth it anymore!. The system is so corrupt and no regards to workers. I quit my my job as an RN last three years ago after almost 16 years in the field. It was not an easy decision but life is too short to dread going to work everyday. No amount of money can buy real happiness Lol but friends I'm not asking you to resign from your job or abandon your business but be wise! 💯

[@riccardogiuseppe6635]

You said it all right there ma'am! I don't really like my job but I love what it provides for me and my family. This pandemic has people rethinking working

[@momtalksbudget5407]

Were you a bedside nurse ma'am and What do you do now, how did you plan yourself before quitting?

[@millsjenna8606]

right now I run my own business and While I was still in service I planned towards early retirement, making about 2k weekly from my retirement investment portfolio trying so much to build more side hustles and extra income

[@momtalksbudget5407]

Wow impressive you're making quite a fortune speaking of investing I have heard about that but I don't really know how to start can you explain?

[@millsjenna8606]

There's a lot of investing options but my best advice get a professional lead you into profitable one that's exactly what I did

[@scottthacker9554]

I've just started my first year as a Doctor in the U.K and every sentence you said resonated with how I've felt starting in this profession. "I'm not tired I'm just emotionally drained", I'm okay when at the hospital but when I leave I reflect and feel so overwhelmed. I respect you so much for talking openly about it. You're right, it needs to be talked about more how difficult it is and that it is normal to feel this way. Keep looking after yourself, you're doing great!

[@lifeofalady]

Thank you for all you do. You are appreciated more than you know.❤

[@michaelskuce3677]

so much hard work to become an dr I'm sure in end your get there i hope one day to help teach medical students as one of there body donors as I'm thermally ill young man so decided to give consent to body donation in hope to help teach medical students Anatomy i wish all well in there studies and pray you carry on to become great dr take care

[@clintpotts5799]

You’re not alone Rachel. Everyone who goes into medical school, nursing school, anything medical. The beginning is HARD, my first few years of nursing I was drowning, had absolutely no one to look up to as it was just so busy, and questions I had I was always made to feel, “are you really asking this question”, so I just figured it all out on my own and I’m a better nurse for it. Hang in there, I admire you so much.

[@Cheyf97]

Just started as an ED nurse I’m so overwhelmed ;(

[@Dreamlyte]

So true! It’s ptsd, definitely humbling

[@KimberlyAlisha89]

Girl, I'm doing a check-in on u and everyone out there! If anyone wants to talk or just cry I'm here mental health is important I'll listen I'm not a Dr. Or a therapist but sometimes talking to someone you Dont is better .

[@nadas1079]

I cried watching your video, because I am having a really hard time in the hospital too and I am not sure want to do. The pressure keeps getting bigger and it's mentally draining.

[@katodan0611]

Looking forward to the video. I will say, we have a family friend who is also in his 1st year of residency and he’s struggling. He felt so comfortable his last year of medical school. He felt so confident! He said he feels like he’s starting from square one where he knows nothing and doubts himself. You both will overcome this!! You’re a rockstar, Rafiki. ❤❤

[@seanplake9220]

I'm a high school teacher. I teach Health Science classes, including medical terminology. I am so proud of my former students becoming doctors, nurses, athletic trainers, etc. Your brief talk of pay for certain Target workers being more than what residents get. I get it. Teachers in America are not payed for the amount of work we do on contract and off contract. I understand how you feel. I'm praying for you and all nurses and doctors. Mental health is important for everyone. Take care.

[@Lumpycheeses]

I knew what was gonna happen the next day as soon as you said “I don’t want to be depressed.” Worlds is good at kicking us while we’re down. I hope it gets better, I really do.

[@Emily31662]

You’re a human being before a doctor. Do what you need to do to make sure you’re okay and you’ll be better at anything you do. I’m sending you positive vibes! You got this😊

[@emilymortensen1606]

I appreciate how you maintain professionalism while also being transparent. I think a lot of young professionals like ourselves struggle maintaining professionalism over social media.

[@Kma123]

oh Rachel 😓 The transition from school to work is so hard! People don't talk about it enough. But it does get better! I had the same experience and ended up going on antidepressants. I was v cautious of them for so long but after a year of feeling down I went on them and it was the best decision ever. I genuinely don't understand how people DONT go on them during that transition. But you got this!!! Just don't suffer. You don't need to. So proud of you.

[@gktw99]

It’s okay to not be okay. You can be mad, frustrated, or straight up hate your job/residency. You’re human. Be kind to yourself ❤️

[@4mymlzfa03]

I remember residency. I graduated in 2016 so it’s been a few years but those “bad days” come and go. I think making sure you have someone in your class that you can confide in and someone not related to medicine at all that you can confide in. Also you must find your life outside of being a doctor so you have real outlets and an understanding that you really are human and being a doctor is just like a job at target. It was the only way I made it through. Don’t let being a doctor define you and you’ll realize how much of a privilege it is to do the things you get to do. The trust that people have in you. Their life really is in your hands. Give all your patients the utmost respect. Treat them as though they are your family. Care for them. Give them your best. Residency FLIES by and before you know it you’re applying for a real job as an attending or in a private practice. I’m happy to be an ear for you if you need it. Love that I found your channel. You’re doing a great job sharing real life to those that may be interested.

[@richardking1561]

Dr. Southard, you were meant to be a physician and because its not abnormal to feel how you are feeling. When I started nursing school almost 20 years ago, I went through some of the same stuff, but I quickly learned to adapt and do stress relief activities like you do. It helped quite a bit. We are that way and that is part of what makes us great in our respective professions. I am now a practicing ARNP. Keep on trucking Dr. Southard. You'll do great and wonderful things that you know not!!!

[@biatae2713]

Hey Rachel, commenting as a nurse who worked alongside some badass residents when I worked in the ED at a level 1. I have the utmost respect for you guys, when I was working 36 hours a week as a new grad I was BEAT. Mentally and emotionally beat. Had a conversation with one of my favorite doctor’s to work alongside, and the topic of work schedules came up and I was floored with his schedule. I mean it’s quite insane what you guys do. I think you’re brave for speaking on a topic such as this, because so many feel the exact way you do but are afraid to speak on it. That makes you strong. There will be a day where you can use your platform to illicit change in the system so future generations don’t have to face this unfair and unhealthy treatment. Keep going, but do everything you can for your mental health, as I’m sure you already are. Your patient’s (but more importantly your loved ones) need you around :) take care

[@bobbiross272]

I’m so happy to see a comment like this from a nurse!! I too have worked in hospitals and heard comments from some nurses bashing doctors saying they do more than them and so on made me sick.

[@biatae2713]

@@bobbiross272 yup, all about the team. We’re all in this together. Nurses, doctors, techs, transport and everyone else!

[@ToniaNicole]

I’ve always was curious about what nurses and doctors go through and feel bc when ppl get hurt or have an emergency they expect you guys to help them and I just feel like people forget to show gratitude and appreciation for the doctors and nurses

[@KarenRodriguez-pc2zv]

When I was in my neurosurgery residency I was under a lot of stress what kept me going was thinking that non of that will take me down, I'm stronger that the situation so I'm just gonna keep going

[@rebeccaherrera194]

pls do not be sorry. your feelings are so valid and your viewers admire your vulnerability so much. thank you for sharing these moments with us, the good, the bad, and everything real in betweem

[@michelegeiger520]

Take it day by day. I’m a retired RN and I assure you I had days just like yours throughout my whole career. I think the first year of residency is probably the toughest. Be strong! You got this!

[@fran0162]

Dr. Rachel, you have to be one of the bravest people ever!! I too have had many vulnerable times...esp lately. I finally caved and made an appt with a psychiatrist...I'm tired of bring tired...and it's affecting every thing about me. I just want to feel better. You got this!!!

[@xofarhills3977]

yes it will destroy you beyond degrees you can't imagine or thought was possible and unfortunately no one can help you except yourself so you have to figure out how to kindle your fire in your own darkness it will be a battle that will feel endless just don't give up and be strategic

[@CJGuitarClips]

I wanted to write and affirm that you didn't need to "finally cave" to see a psychiatrist (not that you felt this way, but in case anyone reads this). If your car's transmission is leaking fluid, you see the mechanic. If your air conditioner in your home stops working, you call a handyman. If your kid sucks at math, you call a tutor. If your iPhone slows down, who has shame about going to see the apple genius bar? If you have felt vulnerable and are having tough times, there's nothing wrong with finding someone to talk to, be that a close friend, family, a psychologist, psychiatrist, etc. (again, not directed at you, but in the off chance anyone sees this)

[@ogathadonard9884]

Dr. Rachel, you are amazing. Don’t worry about us, you expressing your emotions doesn’t make you weak, it makes you real. 😘😘

[@ohkaye514]

Please don’t apologize for how you react to the intense stress of your life! Honestly, the way residents are treated when it comes to the hours and the pay for such emotionally distressing work is borderline (if not completely) unethical. It makes complete sense that you’re depressed. Take care of yourself!!

[@RachelSouthard]

Thank you💕

[@maryhamm6970]

Once your done with residency you’ll be making over 200K. Your hard work and effort will be worth it.

[@vm3249]

I’m not even a medic, but I love your passion for medicine despite all the difficulties you have gone through. I pray all your difficulties pass and you find out stronger on the other side xx

[@marilynnzavala]

Hi Dr Southard, I've been following your page since your first year of med school and I can't believe you're in your first year of residency already!! We are all so proud of you. Please continue to speak about your mental health and well-being to others, even if it's your camera in these vlogs. WE HEAR YOU. Life as we get older feels like constant up and downs, when it's not one thing, it's another. You are so inspiring and I would love to have you as my doctor one day. Continue to be your authentic self, you will overcome this too! ❤

[@theblueagent_]

Sending you a virtual hug. Hospital life is so rough and I want you to know that we see you.

[@Bambi-ek7lv]

I rarely comment here, but I want to take the time and share my deep appreciation for all you do. I know residency most be so draining and time consuming at times, yet you still post. As someone who is applying to medical school next year and also wants to pursue ob/gyn, I cannot begin to express how thankful I am you are always transparent with us and continue to document your journey. You got this Rachel💕

[@sarapurdy6468]

I so appreciate your vulnerability 💗 So often those in helping professions have a sense of shame or guilt for feeling drained, overwhelmed, and depressed. These are feelings we can't always talk about which magnifies those feelings of being alone. It is really powerful that you are allowing yourself to feel all the feelings - joy, sadness, frustration. You are doing your very best - I hope you are as gentle to yourself as possible. The Herd appreciates you!

[@baileyzeno1007]

Dr. Southard, you are strong and you will get through this. You are amazing and you are a RED ANT! I love how transparent you are, it really gives everybody an insight on medicine. We love you!

[@GoCrazyBaby3]

I work at a call center and I’ve worked a few call centers all my adult life. I don’t feel much weight in the job I do but interacting with people all day as a customer service person has drained me. I had my first call today where a customer made me cry. I felt terrible and even more terrible because that is so unlike me and I can’t figure out why this particular customer held so much power over me. Anyway it just made me realize I need to find a less customer facing job because I don’t think I have anything left in me to give. Loved the video, not because you were sad but misery does love company I guess. To brighter days ahead❤

[@aliciaallison6205]

Sometimes people want to give their two cents instead of just listening!! I find comfort in knowing that you are speaking out! Don’t apologize for your personal feelings! I’m currently going through a difficult season and everyday I deal with the negative feelings by looking at my vision board and stopping to take 15 minutes to imagine the life I want!! I am also a person of faith so that helps tremendously! I tell myself it’s going to be ok constantly even through the tears and I stay with a constant expectation of good. I have learned to get up every morning , every noon and night and expect something good to happen!!! I use to dread the morning, dread the day and dread the night. And even though my circumstances hasn’t changed YET my perspective has changed! What you believe in your mind and in your heart can get you through many hard times!! Keeping going Dr. Rachel Southard we’re here for you good times and bad!!!❤❤❤😊😊

[@ShilpiSingh-jb3nh]

I am a resident too. I think you need few days rest away from work to revive urself. I know its not the greatest thing but you have to care of urself first before others.. Call sick even if you dont have sick leaves. Trust me, work will still happen and its not the end of world if you have few days off work :).. I ALWAYS LISTEN TO THE SAYING- TOMORROW IF YOU ARE DEAD YOUR EMPLOYER WILL REPLACE YOU IN A BLINK..NOONE IS WORTH THE EMOTIONAL TRAUMA YOU ARE GOING THROUGH..

[@mirandajacobson858]

Rachel, I’m an ER nurse of 3.5 years. I had NOOOOOOO CLUE what I was getting myself into. At first it was amazing learning all the new things but as time has gone on and I’ve seen and done things unimaginable it has left me exhausted, hating humanity and every single shift I have anxiety and leave having had the worst day ever, and it just keeps getting worse. In nursing school no one taught us the shit we would have to deal with but real life sucks and we see people at their lowest points and everything is always our fault. The amount of body fluids that have ended up o. Me, holding a mother as she grieves her dead infant, delivering news of cancer to someone, while the psych patient assaults my coworkers down the hall… I’ve learned to roll with the punches and my team of nurses and docs keeps me alive. I’m going back to school to be an NP and I’m excited to teach one day and maybe do outpatient of some sort. It gets harder each shift to find the silver lining. The medical field is HARD. No one talks about it. Take care of yourself and try your best to find the silver lining ❤️❤️❤️ you are not alone.

[@johnjeong7933]

I really resonated with this. This reminds me when I was working at CVS during the pandemic, I had to find a silver lining, I literally said. Thanks for sharing.

[@lanaschnekenburger2736]

Rachel….YOU Got this!😊😊😊

[@vasukapoor702]

Hey Rachel! I'm an M2 who's gotten through a lot of my premed journey watching your vlogs. One of the reasons I have loved watching your vlogs (and I'm sure you get this a lot) is your vulnerability and transparency, and you have shown it once again here! You are an amazing doctor and I know you're going to get through this!! Please take care of yourself whenever you do get a chance :)

[@nancyjohnson50]

The first year is horrific. There is no other way to say it. It does get better. You just need to prioritize self care. Walks, hikes, getting close to nature whenever possible, and getting together with friends when you can. Always keep something to look forward to. Make sure you have a therapist to talk things through and that you have team support and a team to debrief when hard things happen. Stay strong, the only way to get through it is to get through it.❤

[@hasti5411]

Does it get better? I'm planning to go to medical school, but I'm scared

[@jessicajenkins1258]

Is thing in the medical world but I Totally understand exactly. The point you're making and the way that you feel inside and the way that you bite your tongue in the way that you feel deep down inside. You are not alone young lady and you are beautiful, and you're handling things as you should, although, yes, you do need a better balance, but this helps you with that balance as you release what you feel whether that be through speaking or through Physical workouts, however, that toxin comes out of your body. You feel cleaner whenever it's gone and you feel like your processing things the more that you let it out, so keep letting it out. We're listening and we're here with you and I hope that you find your balance soon. I am too working on mine, but you give me greater inspiration to keep going and you help me see that what I'm doing for myself is enough and it's what I should be doing so thank you for that!!!

[@marygarcia3296]

I’ve been watching you since you entered med school and I was entering law school. Life has gotten so busy and I lost touch of your videos. I’m so glad I’m back on KZbin and you’re crushing it! We are in different fields but going through the same things. Keep doing what you’re doing and delivering those babies ❤

[@amberj3941]

I’m a PA. I didn’t have to go through residency. I did do my rotations with med students, I also did 3 years of intense school and crazy classes. The conversations you are having here are ground breaking. This is not normal to go through such hard stages in life. It’s exhausting and it’s not fun. I still have these moments in medicine 7 years out. At this point I never want my kids to go into medicine. It’s not what I thought it would be. We are underpaid and undervalued for such a hard life we enter. I now work part time, it’s better for my mental health to work less.

[@BritTellstheTruth]

I understand your feelings about being in a difficult phase of life. I can’t relate to being a resident but I understand mental health struggles, stress & burn out. You will find your way and adjust. I’m happy for you that you are making an effort to find a balance. It’ll all work itself out. ❤sending good vibes and prayers for you. 🙏

[@julieknight6372]

Dr Southard .... of course you're going to feel every emotion, including extreme sadness, that's what makes you human. It's refreshing that you are so transparent when it comes to your struggles. ❤💜

[@questionmark1998]

Hey Rachel... Super old fan and follower here. Just wanted to say that I get it and that every single one of your feelings is legitimate. Our (med students & residents) emotional state should be a topic of discussion, the wage should be a topic of discussion and same goes for the long hours, the loans and so much more. The system does require addressing. Thank you for your ongoing honesty in this beautiful magical uphill battle we call medicine ❤

[@samanthaford5145]

It’s okay if your not okay Rachel! It seems like medical school students build up all this excitement for residency and when it comes it takes a toll because you are working so many hours, learning new skills and expected to keep it all together. Rachel, please give yourself some grace, you are so inspiring! Your body is trying to adjust to shift work as well which would be really hard. We are all behind you and we love you Rachel ❤

[@thatcitydoc3703]

I'm a pgy3 in family medicine. Appreciate your strength in showing your experience. Keep going. 🙏🏾🙏🏾

[@wendygeo98]

Hang in there Rachel. You are appreciated and you will get back to a place of joy again. I’m sure the life of a resident is hard but you will make it thru to the other side!

[@rebeccacano4679]

Omg Rachel I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. I started to feel sad with you because no one should feel that way. I hope you're able to find more happiness ans joy in your day to day life. You're an amazing doctor but also person. When you're off take time to do things that make you happy, and don't be so hard on yourself. Doctors and everyone else on this planet makes mistakes

[@ashtonpatricia17]

You’re doing exactly what you’re meant to do! Celebrate the small wins and remember them on the bad days. We are all rooting for you Dr. Southard! P.S. I love to listen to Spring Gang! That song is perfect!

[@jackgaydos9945]

Hi Rachel, been watching your channel since you took the MCAT. I just finished my first test of medical school today. Thank you for being so transparent through your journey, you are definitely a beacon of light to the rest of us in the medical family! Thank you also for addressing harsh topics even with the fear of backlash, you are very brave.

[@GretchenV95]

You’re well within your right to “complain.” This is the main reason I didn’t choose psychology/the medical field. It is such a difficult field but please keep talking about it if it helps you feel better. This world would be a much better place if we all practiced at least some empathy.

[@norale9985]

In four years, the target cashier would likely still be a target cashier… making the same wage .In four years, you will have graduated residency, and maybe become an amazing attending, we have so much to offer in model for future healthcare providers. Hopefully, at that time a physician salary will allow you to more easily pay back your loans -Salary for residency sucks… it really is not fair, however, remember, you are still learning and at least it’s not like medical school where you have to pay to learn :-). It sometimes helps to think that you are doing your part to help provide care for people who have less than optimal health insurance or none. - making healthcare more affordable for them.

[@apartbiscuit8337]

Dr. Southard, thank you for being transparent and authentic, I enjoy how real you are and the lessons that you teach with your videos, I’m an aspiring physician and feel like I can be a little more prepared for the future thanks to your videos, don’t ever stop making videos and sharing your real experiences 😄

[@sumayaed-daoudy1477]

Hi! I´ve been watching your videos a long ago, and I have followed you throughout your journey. You inspire me so much! I am a first-year nephrology resident in Spain, and even though I got the specialty and the hospital that I always dreamed of, I feel totally identified with everything you say in the video. Often, I find myself crying on the bus back home, wondering if the decisions I made during my guard were correct and if there was something to improve. And I feel overwhelmed and stressed by all this feelings. I'm trying to enjoy the little things that brought me joy and that I took for granted. I try to make time to go for a run, to read books… as you say in the video, “for my mental health”. I just wanted to say that you are not alone, and that we have to normalize talking about mental health. So thank you for sharing your feelings.

[@GiggityCrabbityGiggity]

I haven’t watched you in soo long, congrats on making it through med school into residency, keep doing you Dr. Rachel!

[@brankits90]

Fourth year resident here. I still have days like this, though they are less frequent than first year. Honestly, I’m okay with the days being really hard at work. The real struggle is having minimal time off to process and take care of the self. You have to choose, do I get 20 min extra of sleep or do I get out of bed and do yoga? It’s painful because I want to do both. Having financial stress on top of that is just another thing. My loans are the same number as yours. Once everything stops being so new, mental space frees up a bit and you can take a breath. This is the hardest part. You can do this 💜

[@AB-uv7ne]

thanks for this love, I was a consultant back home, now a resident in a first world country. The adjustments in everything, even the simplest of things, is making me stressed. This too shall pass. We can do this.

[@mariaeebergantinos9204]

Dr. Southard, sending PRAYERS your way🙏 🙏and wishing you The BESTIEST of lives 🙏🙏🙏

[@jacki6301]

I had a first year resident do injections on my knees last week. It was her first time. I could she she was terrified. I mentored several students that came into the research lab I worked in and let her know that I am fine with her learning how to do a procedure on me! It's the only way she can learn. I raised 4 girls and my youngest would get down easily. The one thing I knew from her experience is that she was extremally tired. She needed more rest when facing extra challenges. Wishing you the best!

[@hoticer101]

Long time viewer and current M4 doing my sub-I's and audition rotations and you really hit the nail right on the head when describing the daily mental health struggle of being in medicine. I obviously only got a taste of it but gosh these long days at the hospital can be so draining and keeping it together and always being "on" during long shifts can be so exhausting! Hoping it will get better eventually

[@amandalynn6827]

I don't know if this will help but just remember everything you are going through is normal. Even though you were in school for 4 years you are new. This is a temporary space. You will learn and grow and figure out how to cope but it's all apart of the process. Keep showing up and doing your best and soon the tasks that once felt so taxing will be routing. Keep learning and growing you are doing a great job!

[@RyceKake95]

I'm a veterinarian who is a class of 2023 grad and I've watched you as we've been on parallel journeys through our respective medical professional programs and I cannot describe how much I relate to your mental health struggle. I have seen a lot of my joy diminish and myself slip into depression while still keeping it together for my patients and learning. The struggle is real and I find myself not knowing how to help myself because there just aren't enough hours in the day nor flexibility in these professions to allow people to take care of themselves. Just know you are not alone.

[@rebekahlynch2324]

I'm praying for you.

[@maren0709]

Hi Rachel, I‘ve been watching your videos for two or three years now and I just got into med school in Germany. Your videos are so inspiring and whenever I get self-doubts about my decision to go into medicine I watch one of your videos and your passion motivates me so much! I really hope I can be as passionate as a doctor as you are, because you are such an inspiration! Also thank you for showing us ALL of the highs and the lows of your job! I haven‘t seen any youtuber portraying med school and being a doctor in such a realistic way as you do.

[@lizschrader5001]

Hi Rachel! I’ve never commented before but I just want to thank you for talking about this. I’m a PGY-1 inpatient pharmacy resident and I just finished an 11 day stretch and have been struggling. We got this! ❤

[@merelynmatias6217]

I've had similar feelings. I just had to allow my self to feel it and process. I had to remember it won't always feel like that. When one day at a time was hard I had to take it one hour at time and not going to lie even 10 min at time. I think you're amazing, depressed, stressed and all.

[@Princesscocos]

I love when people show their hard times too…it’s so relatable

[@TammiLay]

Thank you for being real and raw (about how you feel). I am experiencing similar feelings as a new grad bedside nurse. Praying for you. ❤

[@justelynnnjoelle]

It's not even uploaded and I already like it 💖

[@RachelSouthard]

Love that😘

[@zahrakiani-kf8tq]

Thank you Racheal for the video and thank you for being honest! I hope people who are in charge of residency stuff watch this video and think about that. I think they should think about taking care of residents physically and mentally as it is very important to the community. Thank you once again for being transparent and honest, it is priceless! Looking forward for watching your next video!❤️

[@all4honor]

Missed ya Dr. HERO

[@loveyourmindalittle]

God be with you. You have a rewarding career. You are working in a field that positively impacts others!

[@dustinnickolas1583]

As a Target employee, yes, you definitly should make way more than someone who literally stays in the backroom all day doing style sort.... Like I've heard that the reason residents don't make much is because of the oversight that's required, but how tf do you survive on LESS than what I make??? Especially with medical student size loans?? I can barely keep my head above water... I have so much respect for everyone in the medical field.

[@maisoonyousif]

I'm also an ObGyn PGY1 and feeling similar feelings now that I'm off service. Here's to hoping it'll get better. I'm excited for residency to be over though, to be honest.

[@yvigoesUSA]

Thank you for this! I’m currently going through residency and have been feeling so emotionally exhausted and this really helped me not feel like I’m the only one ❤

[@missykowalewski]

Hang in there Rachel. Ur in a new season. U came from clinicals and the mindset of being a student to actual residency. All the positives r there u just have to give ur brain time to catch up. It’s a whole new way to study and to be held accountable. Take a few deep breaths and remember this too will be a memory. U earned this and deserve to be where u r. In 4 years that target employee will still be punching a clock and maybe had one raise. In 4 years ur going to gain the knowledge and skill u need to give u a great and successful career. Balance will come but it probably won’t look like it used to. Life is a little off center right now. March on little ant u can do this.

[@bobbiross272]

I’m happy there are videos like this for the people who say doctors have it easy or a nurse decides to say she does more than a doctor and they have the hardest job in the world. I hate when certain people disrespect the doctor in that way makes me not want to respect the nurses I’ve heard say those things either. Not saying their job isn’t difficult but I’ve heard nasty comments and them be rude about it. I give so much credit to the doctors out there

[@CoolsBreeze]

You got this. You went through probably one of the toughest times ever when you were going through medical school. If you can do that then you can do anything.

[@ok.christine]

Thank you for sharing. I know it's not the same, I just had my second little one a couple weeks ago and I feel so overwhelmed and lonely. Hearing you share your hardship made me more appreciative of my oBgyn doc and you and all doctors. Please continue to take care and stay positive ❤

[@Alexis-tt9hm]

I am currently a student in vet school and while I know that is so different than residency and I’m sure residency is 100x more difficult, this video is exactly what I needed. Everything you said and showed is exactly how I feel. Every day feels like a marathon and I’m so drained, but you keep going because it’s what you gotta do and it is what it is. I feel terrible for feeling the way I feel because I feel so fortunate to be in the position I am, but man oh man am I exhausted. I feel like I am always moving. When I get home from school/work, it’s more school and work prepping for the next day and trying to squeeze in a walk and meal. The realization of “this is what it is. This is what it’s going to be like” is difficult, especially when you’ve dreamt of being in the current position,but I try and tell myself how much stronger I will be once I make it through and I know it’ll be the same for you. These feelings of depression and being so drained and not even having time to just be and wanting to just forget all your responsibilities, is so hard. It can feel so isolating, but you posting this video makes me feel like I have a friend to go through this with, and it’s the best thing I could ask for right now.

[@FatManYogaYay]

😂😂😂😂 Did you just compare vet school to medical school and residency? 😂😂😂😂 Girl bye.

[@kianafox9696]

@@FatManYogaYayHey vet school is pretty difficult. Their patients aren’t able to communicate with them and they all come in with different anatomies. Stop being judgemental🙄

[@FatManYogaYay]

@@kianafox9696 want to get married? I’m really hot lol

[@sew_i_did5257]

I'm a social worker. Getting myself into therapy was hard, but it became one of the best things I've ever done for myself. See, there's this idea of dumping out versus dumping in. Dumping in is where you use close friends (kith) and family (kin) to vent to. Dumping out is where you vent to someone outside your kith circle, like a therapist. Basically it really helps keep you in perspective, and when I'm a medical social worker it helps so much to be able to do that because of the stuff you get exposed to (helping with crises like assault, fires, homelessness, adoptions, facility in patient placements, etc). There are a ton of resources nowadays for help and a LOT of them can be virtual. It takes time, and it's definitely hard at first, but it's worth it to have that extra person to talk to. Also, get a hobby outside your profession that isn't related at all to it. It helps.

[@AC-qz3uj]

The Hobby part ist so important. I am a young internal med resident in Germany. I just quitted and will make my Hobby my future job. I am done with giving up every part of myself. I really lost myself in the last years. If this is what it takes to become a physician... I do not want it anymore. I am just so grateful that I do not have loans.

[@sew_i_did5257]

@AC-qz3uj I was a social worker in an adult care setting and whether for psych care or end-of-life care, it's tough! A Time Turner to catch up on sleep and self care days in a hectic week would be marvelous. When they fired me I didn't even have the stamina left for a two week notice. Dr. Rachel is right, there's not enough discussion on mental health of workers in the helping professions, you're just expected to deal with it and often you can't without becoming a patient or a client yourself.

[@csdailylife]

You are doing great! Its okay to feel that way! You inspire me Dr. Rachel

[@GlamGirlNextDoor07]

Hi Rachel, I rarely comment on YT, but I’m here. Thank you for being so honest 💖🦄 I see myself in you, I know what you’re going through. Unfortunately, people nowdays rarely have sympathy, they think everyone needs to be like them, I’m fed up with that. Sending big, warm hug all the way from Croatia 🇭🇷🥰🍀

[@viancazavala4560]

I am so so proud of you Rachel! Thank you for continuing to document your experiences with us. Don’t be sorry for sharing the real you, it’s all we are here for, you. I’m sending you so much love and light in the coming weeks and I hope your heart and mind heal as you grow more confident ❤.

[@Gyndoc3457]

Thanks for opening up! Everyone feels the rush of matching and then real life kind of sets in. You’re feelings are real and valid and I’m sure many new interns are feeling this way as well. I hope as the year progresses you feel better.

[@liz1b3th]

Rachel I want to say you have no idea how important and impactful your transparency is. Resident suicide/suicidal ideation is a horrible problem that is exacerbated by people not talking openly about mental health. Being depressed is sometimes part of being a human and it will ebb and flow. I'm glad you're learning to cope and I want to encourage you that if things get worse, to put your mental health first whether that means virtual therapy or meds or both.

[@isabellycampanati6403]

Thank you for always be a true person. I watch this people post on instagram how amazing this doctor process is, but I don’t feel this at all. It’s hard, it’s difficult, it drains my mental health every single semester. Thank you for this. Sometimes the best to do is stop putting the amaze glasses and see 100% of reality.

[@julienalexander6113]

Hey, just keep pushing, Dr. Southard and keep doing the things you're doing to take care of you and your mental health. ❤😊🤗

[@amberwhite592]

Not a hand doctor but it sounds like a tight tendon. Which is a quick fix. I had this issue in my left foot. The foot doctor did a tendon release and it took a total of 30 minutes total. From the numbing shot to the tendon release to structures to wrapping.

[@annaspencer782]

Hi Dr. Southard, I hope you can take some sick leave days to take care of yourself so you can keep shining brightly. I appreciate you.

[@kristenconnelly7437]

PA-S3 here, struggling through my rural family med rotation. You videos and transparency get me through!

[@still-at-it-still]

You will do fine. I have no doubt whatsoever bc you are already awfully strong and that will carry you forward. Built yourself up on the solid foundation you've previously created and keep going. ❤

[@aldo5658]

I'm glad to see you're progressing through the program and appreciate the honesty in your videos. Thank you taking us along with you in this journey Rachel. Best of luck on your endeavors ❤

[@sakshibisht6448]

I'm in the same boat , day out day in I'm working , not able to relax I don't have time to even reflect on that , residency is hard , super hard. I just came back from a 24 hr shift and it was the worst ever shift , too many patients,all critical , and each and every patient I have to give my best , I'm drained as hell .

[@donnas411]

Mental Health is important. You are important.

[@squidney4807]

Giirrrrllll I have $298,000 loans from pharmacy school and I got paid $47,000 my first year of residency working 12 on/2 off 😬 Healthcare really got us thinking this is normal

[@sarapurdy6468]

Sending you a hug!! ♥️

[@Juju-wk7yv]

You can do this Rachel! There experience has to be so much stress and overworking. Learning an be so hard. One day at a time works in just about every situation. Mental health is as important as physical health. The not so good days help you appreciate the good days.

[@emmakahnk6103]

Thank you for sharing the realities of healthcare and what students go through to achieve their dreams. Whether that be as a med student or as a resident. Thank you thank you thank you

[@RameshKumar-ng3nf]

Doctor is the tuffest job according to me. I have seen most times they dont get even time to eat . Their work makes them not to take leaves, caring for the patients. They cannot spend good quality time with their families. I agree Doctors help a lot to patients, but they themselves dont get enough time for rest. God bless every doctor in world for dedicating their lifes to humanity 🙏

[@AC-qz3uj]

Young MDs like me are no longer accepting it. I quit. I am done giving every part of my soul, sanity and physical body up for others. Either the system changes or we are headed for a disaster. 80 hours a week, no proper eating/sleeping/socialising. Can we please STOP finding this exploitation "heroic". All I wish for is humane working conditions. Not good, the bar is set to humane.

[@RameshKumar-ng3nf]

@@AC-qz3uj Felt very sad reading this. Thanks for sharing it. Please do takecare and have a long break from work. You deserved good rest for sometime and spend quality time with your family and friends. God bless you and please dont worry. All should be fine soon. I will be praying for you. Takecare .

[@AC-qz3uj]

@@RameshKumar-ng3nf I will be fine. I live in Germany. So no loans. I learned another Job as well. So I will be okay. Only willing to return being a physician if the conditions are seriously better. Thanks for your answer!

[@RameshKumar-ng3nf]

@@AC-qz3uj Happy to hear that. Wish you all the best and takecare. Have a good day !