CATCH UP GRWM | where the fudge i've been

[@sherrythomas3028]

I agree the loss of a pet is horrible. To me it's worse because I love my pets more than most of my family. People can say I'm horrible but you don't know my family.

[@Thislifewecreated]

I feel this😂🥰

[@miadoser1402]

Totaly understand💞

[@jeenjeanjeen]

Dude, my family isnt bad but I still love my dog more than all of them 😁 My boo is my everything.

[@Nikachu0906]

I feel the exact same way, and for the same reasons. I also feel the death of a pet is worse than a human, because we can never fully communicate our love to our pets verbally and know that they understand.

[@sherrythomas3028]

@@Nikachu0906 💜

[@Goodgirlsreadbooks]

I personally have never grieved for a human in the way that I’ve grieved for my dog in the last week, never felt a loss this heavy or been this sad for this long. It’s confusing and idk what to do to move on, like you said, we can’t do normal things that people do to stay sane and cope. It really is shit. I’m so sorry you’ve gone through the same thing recently, RIP Roxy babe 🖤

[@stace_d]

I relate to your talks more than I do to most people in my life. You don't owe us your honesty, and I'll never be ever to express to you how comforting your videos are to me. Thank you, with all of my heart

[@ambermeyer9655]

I've lost my aunt during lockdown, unable to say goodbye was the hardest thing. I saw your garden and got inspired it's been my therapy and given me so much peace

[@rhianhy]

I'm so incredible sorry Amber, that must have been just heart breaking. So glad you had a little green space to channel some energy and reset.

[@marinatanimoto9957]

Oh man, I've had bad anxiety and some depression for the past few months as well, and also cut out coffee (well I'm mostly just sticking to decaf), cut out alcohol, reduced my social media time, increased CBD, started therapy for the first time. It's very up and down for me, but some days I feel like I'm about to fucking lose my mind and have the biggest meltdown and that my entire life will collapse. Hearing you talk about it really honestly helps. I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your pup. It's so hard. So happy to hear from you again though and hear about how you've been dealing with your mental health. Thanks

[@kalenalexisbeauty9102]

I’m not sure if this matters but this stranger is very proud of you for getting help!! 👏🏻

[@marinatanimoto9957]

That is very nice of you 😭 I appreciate that so much! Thank you!

[@kalenalexisbeauty9102]

Marina Tanimoto Aww thank you!

[@Jupiter-dt8dt]

Hi Marina, it's really cool that you started therapy - that's such an important step. I'm super curious which CBD brands you've tried? Thanks

[@marinatanimoto9957]

Hi! Thanks so much. I’ve only tried one brand but I think it’s great. It’s called Nuleaf. I’d recommend getting high mg as it’s more effective. This isn’t my discount code but I used it and it should work for 20% off: amelia Hope you like it!

[@ems_h.eartnotes]

I'm not necessarily in a place to coherently respond to all the things you talked about in your video because, uhm, same. But, just thank you. It's lovely to have you back 🖤

[@misssmary3989]

I'm so glad we are not alone in this everyone.

[@MaddieLucaMalan]

Nope! We are all going through it together, just socially distanced

[@alexcasebolt20]

"Covered in velvet, filled with sand" Lol as you said, sometimes you have to laugh so you don't cry. I'm so sorry for your loss. If talking about Roxy memories and the other pups makes you feel better, you can make an entire video about them and we will watch and support it. Stay well

[@Nsauceda32]

As a person who lives with multiple pets, I agree a passing of anyone of them is equivalent to a human passing. The way I have manage to get through it is allowing myself to understand that we have given them the best days of their lives. As much as possible understand that they have been loved and cared for. Everyday I pet them and hug them and tell them they are loved. 💕

[@ayyaz.4864]

I'm so proud of you for getting your makeup ready the night before and filming first thing in the morning! Happy to see your face here again. Ever so sorry about Roxy, losing a pet in any way is never easy and should never be downplayed. I loved the poems your vet shared with you, that was beautiful. Sending love to you, Adam and the doggos xxx

[@MichelleElaine]

I felt everything you said today in my soul. It’s exactly how I’ve been feeling. The isolation has been rough. Not getting to visit family has been awful (we were planning a trip home for the first time in two years and had to cancel it). I’m the biggest introvert, but I really do miss getting out of the house. And my anxiety and depression is at an all time high. Thank you for talking about it. While I wish you weren’t hurting, it is nice to know I’m not alone. I’m so sorry about Roxy. Losing a pet is one of the worst things in the world. Even when you know it’s coming, it doesn’t lessen the pain. I’m so sorry for you guys. I’m really glad you’re back. It was good to see a new video ❤️❤️❤️

[@VivienneWonderland]

Love you SO much. You’re so real and it’s refreshing. So sorry about Roxy. Losing a pet is devastating. ❤️

[@rhianhy]

VivienneWonderland Love you friend 🖤

[@carmenx5463]

I am so glad you’re back!!! Just want to let you know that you are not alone😊and I’m happy that you are doing better.

[@xxdebsixx]

I feel that we have had a very similar time these past few months. I have an older cat who was diagnosed with kidney failure during lockdown, and also whilst my mental health was very low. I too, feel like my increase in medication is helping me feel more like myself, but I do still need to make healthier lifestyle changes. I know that eating fresh veggies, stopping alcohol, getting outside and not napping as much will help me greatly, but I’m a procrastinator and also seek comfort in these stupid things. I don’t really have family, but I am so very grateful for some wonderfully good friends who have been looking out for me during this time. I wish you all the good things, Rhian. You are one of the beautiful souls. It’s good to see you 💕 xxx

[@sophialee6085]

Yes please! Would love to see a PR haul. They're a great distraction during this time

[@rhianhy]

Sophia Lee Definitely gonna do it then. I have a good (maybe weird) selection of stuff too 🖤

[@BeBraveBeYouASMR1]

Sorry for your loss. I totally understand. I lost my dog June last year, she was 7. It was out the blew & she had rare spinal cancer. My other dog was a lost sheep, he was terrible with not eating, playing etc. We got another dog soon after & wow what a change in him. It affected my mental health loads & I'm still struggling now. I keep calling our new dog her name, I just dunno why. I'm heartbroken. It's totally normal to feel this way. Sending you lots of hugs 🤗🤗🤗🤗 I can understand why you've been struggling. Lots of love 💞💫🌹

[@thaxonexnxonly]

RHIAN! this brought me soooooooo much comfort! I’ve gone through my worst mental breakdown at this exact time, and i too started therapy again, medication for the first time, quit coffee, slowed down on marijuana and got back to my self care aggressively! it’s the first time my anxiety has led to very deep depression. it brings me so much comfort hearing this from you and others like chris klemons. thank you for being so candid sharing with us. thank you so much you have been my favorite youtuber since around 2015!!! love you so much!

[@danielleuhbelle]

Really proud of you for realizing you were in a bad place and taking action. I’m in a very similar boat. I believe in your victory!!!

[@rhianhy]

Danielle Smith I hope you have some relief soon bb. This week I suddenly realized I didn’t have a mountain of things I’d ignored on my to-do list and even had a post-depression deep clean so I knew things were turning around a bit 🖤

[@bamabeautyaddict]

Hi from Alabama! So happy to see you back. I’m so sorry about your pup! You’re the best dog mom he could’ve had! Your talk through videos are a huge help to me for my own mental anxiety in these crazy times, so thank you! Take care, and stay safe yourself. 💙💙

[@MetalElevator]

Rhian, I love your honesty about your mental health. You help destigmatize depression and mental health issues and I love you for that.

[@brigitte1377]

So happy to see you back and to just see you being real and embracing all parts of you. Representation means a lot. I hope that you find balance and peace in whatever you going through externally and internally. 🍃💚

[@LittleBit123]

Thank you for speaking so openly, Rhian. So glad that you have a wonderful garden to work on - it’s almost like you proactively created that for your future self ❤️

[@morganroyFS]

You have been missed, but glad you’ve been able to create good boundaries and allow yourself the time to grieve and rest! As an empath (and a spoonie) this year has been overwhelming. We will get through this!

[@rhianhy]

Morgan Roy I feel you bb 🖤

[@ninahan9593]

I’m so sorry about your loss. Some won’t understand but sometimes you love your pets beyond things. That is a special bond between you two . Please take as much time to heal and grieve . 🖤💜

[@dbarajas18]

Literally two days ago I was going through my channel subs and I was like hey where the heck has Rhian been? Why haven’t there been any new videos?! So glad you took time off for your mental health. Oneself can only know how much the worlds tragic constant news affects us. I love you and very happy to see your face ☺️ I lost my dog in April and it hit me hard that there was nothing I could do for her. I keep her ashes near me and the vet that put her down was so very kind and sent me two pictures with her paws in ink and stamped on them 🥺 Many many positive vibes your way

[@MyDreamIsAStory]

It’s great to see you again. I have had my ups and downs during all of this. Just these past two weeks we experienced a leak in our roof and have to get that fixed. It stressed me out so bad. And on top of that I go back to work next week. I work in the public schools in my town. I’m an introvert too. When I get stressed I have to stop. I have to allow myself to relax. Tuesday I just took a drive around town. It was what I needed and it helped. I am so sorry about your fur baby.

[@jenn-0113]

Thank you so much for sharing. When I lost my senior cat suddenly from something she wasn’t battling, I didn’t leave the couch for a week either. It’s hard when we find ourselves in the dark hole and grief complicates it. So grateful you’re finally getting out of the darkness. Sending so much love and hugs to you 💜 and yes, extroverts are weird and pets > people 🙃

[@bchavez4410]

I just discovered you a few months ago and have devoured your videos. Thank you for sharing life worries that we all feel along with the reminder that self care is not only necessary but required. LOVED the stories about your dogs & so sorry to hear about losing Roxy. I hope you get back to fully enjoying life, whatever that looks like for you.💕

[@lizsundin2407]

I’m glad you’re back- your videos are my favorites and help me feel more grounded. I’m so sorry for your loss. Grief is rough.

[@brittany9233]

So glad to see you back, and I applaud you for taking the time you have needed. It's so hard to do that, even more so when you are at your most vulnerable state. Humans are social creatures, as much as we need our alone time, and some more than others. This quarantine period has been extremely stressful, emotionally damaging, frustrating, isolating - and yet we endure it to help protect other people, people we dont even know, and will never know. For a lot of us, just being able to isolate is a privilege that I try to keep in my gratitudes when I feel myself breaking down. And I remind myself that we are going through this because we have very likely contributed to saving the lives, and at least the health, of other fellow humans. There is something in that to acknowledge and pull strength from when things are at their worst. We are doing this for the betterment of our neighbors, our countrypeople, our species. Keeping that thought at hand has helped a lot. I appreciate and admire your strength to share this pain in your life with us, not everyone can or would do so and it really speaks to how much you really care about the people who you have gathered to you in your videos and other content, and how much you want to speak to the things that we all experience, especially and including struggles with mental health. Your honesty and grace about this topic has always been appreciated and I have to thank you for continuing to speak and share because I know its helped me, and clearly it has helped many others, especially since this is so rare in social media. It makes you terribly vulnerable, but it also brings a community together. We need this now more than ever. Anyway I wish you and your family the absolute best and I look forward to more chats with Rhian! Your look here is lovely and classy and I think I might emulate it today because after all this gloomy weather (I'm a Wisco neighbor) I could use a little sparkle and shine. 💗

[@bettyblu8115]

I'm very sorry about Roxy. Losing a pet is the loss of a family member and is heartbreaking. I hope the beautiful memories of her that you'll always carry in your heart will bring you some comfort. You are a beautiful, eloquent, strong, intelligent, creative person. Thank you for opening your heart, especially during a time that has been so difficult for so many. I'm in the U.S., and I feel now more than ever, we need to see how connected we all really are. It's a really important, good thing to care about & love others, especially people you don't know. You use your platform to help people do and see this. Thank you. Stay strong, you are an amazing person. Maybe sometimes that's hard for you to see, but we always see it. XX

[@aleesmiheart]

Self -care is so important don’t ever apologize for taking time to take care of yourself ❤️. The world is upside down right now and has affected many people especially those who are dealing with their mental health including myself. Thank you for taking the time to make this video ❤️☺️

[@helloanny88]

Your checklists helped me through some difficult days. Thank you for making this. It helps to know you aren’t alone.

[@jessicaalfrey9417]

I lost my two year old kitty a year ago this week and I have never felt that level of despair and grief before. I've lost people and pets and it's all awful, but losing a tiny innocent animal that you have cared for is a really specific and terrible kind of grief. I have followed you since I found you on tumblr ages ago and your videos are always so relatable and make me feel less alone in my own mental health struggles. Thanks so much for all you do, sending you love!

[@rhianhy]

I'm so sorry you went through that Jessica! It's just rough. I hope you're well and things are feeling light

[@hollyjustice9858]

Great to see you 😊 sending you hugs. And yes we care about your doggies ♥️ my heart hurts for you. I've been there and it's terrible.

[@pprigge75]

So happy to see your face, but also happy you are taking care of you. I had a dream about my senior pup I lost last year, it was so vivid I had to go through the memory of losing him again to make myself believe he was still gone. The mind does funny things when it's between asleep and awake. It's ok to think it's just as bad as losing a human. It is. 💙

[@laurenmcmurry130]

So happy to have you back! I was literally thinking of you this morning and sending good vibes as I was feeding my 17 year old cat. ❤️Pets are family. ❤️

[@rhianhy]

Lauren McMurry Ahhh love that. Happy weekend to you and your cat 🖤

[@laurenmcmurry130]

Rhian HY Happy weekend to you as well! I also live in MI and yes, it did get cold FAST. ☺️Do you have fall veggies? Or since you are keeping gardening more for yourself, broccoli and cabbage are really good cold weather veg if you haven’t tried them in your garden yet.

[@lizferguson9306]

Rhian, you are a lovely human being and it's so good to see you! Thank you for always being real on here and for sharing yourself with us. I always admire your candid comments about mental health and personal struggles. Big hug from NE!

[@megs_holland]

It was so good to see you! When you said you were incapable of finding joy in anything - oh I felt that! I remember some very bad times in my past when even the notion of being "OK" seemed too hard to achieve. But as very wise people have said, "this too shall pass" and I cling to that whenever the darkness comes. Keep doing whatever you need to do do feel better! 💗

[@munajedski]

I'm so happy to see you filmed. Thanks for talking about things....I know it helps so many people to hear another person might be going through a similar difficult time. Missed you 💖💖

[@simoneclarke5104]

I am soooo sorry to hear about the death of your dog😢. I TOTALLY understand the intensity of grief when losing a pet. My husband and I lost our girl to cancer last summer, she was only 8, too young for her breed. Take care of your heart and know that eventually you will have more beautiful memories than sorrow ❤️

[@rhianhy]

Simone Clarke I’m so sorry for your loss. Just too soon! I’m definitely able to remember the good times and my husband and I try and remind one another if we need a boost. They’re so so special 🖤

[@simoneclarke5104]

Rhian HY thank you. We can laugh about her now which is great. Enjoying our old dog and a new puppy now😊

[@aliviamoe]

Sending love and healing , thank you for your vulnerability.

[@annadouglas3923]

Rhian, I'm glad you took time for yourself and thank you for sharing--I always appreciate your comments on health and healing and I think you encourage others more than you realize, even when you're having a rough go. Keep your chin up, dear!

[@marrahelle]

Glad you're back. Sorry for your loss. Stay well. 💜

[@teresamorgan2192]

I missed you so much! I'm glad you're doing better, I think I'm feeling the stress of everything as well, I seem to regularly have little meltdowns. I'm so very sorry about your baby. I believe pets are just as close to us if not closer than humans at times. My heart goes out to you and I'm sending you healing energy and love. I'm glad you're back.

[@candygram501]

Dear Rhian, you have brought more peace and kindness to me than you can imagine. When my dog died a few years ago it was honestly harder for me than when my father died. I just wanted you to know how much your videos helped me through that awful time. You’re amazing 💓

[@mackenziec7303]

I am so sorry to hear about losing your Roxy. I lost my senior boy in February under similar circumstances - unexpectedly became ill and within days he was gone, so I understand how you must be feeling right now. Losing a pet is worse than losing a family member for me, it just makes your heart literally ache and your home is a constant reminder of their absence. But no doubt the years she spent with you made up for all her years prior to joining your family, and it seems like all of you made the most of your time together. I’m so happy to see your face in my subscription feed again but also glad you took the time off that you needed. Grief is a bitch and it comes in waves, so continue to be kind and understanding to yourself. There’s no right or wrong way to cope with loss or with mental health - be selfish when it comes to healing. I don’t even know if tattoo shops are open now but, at least for me, getting a portrait done of my beloved pup really helped. Sending you lots of love ❤️❤️❤️

[@amyfallon5132]

So sorry for your loss. It's incredibly hard to lose an animal, even if they're elderly, sick, etc. I was a wreck for weeks when our older FIV positive cat passed three years ago. Cried so much I thought I'd dry up into a raisin. The pain definitely lessens in time, but I still feel like I have a hole in me sometimes. Thankfully my two cats keep me so busy with their shenanigans that I don't feel sadness often. Also I'm getting married in a year, which is simultaneously exhilarating and stressful. I feel like if I manage to make it through the next year without losing my mind, I'm winning. Good to have you back, Rhian. We can do this.

[@crybaby0614]

I've missed you! I've been depressed, too (more depressed than I'd always been) It's been a tough year. Also, I'm so sorry for your loss. Pets ARE your family, and I don't understand why some people think it's not as hard as losing a human family member. Hope she's running around in Heaven or wherever she is. Thank you so much for everything you do. I really enjoy your videos, but definitely take care of yourself first🥰 We can always go back and watch your old videos to see your beautiful face and listen to your lovely voice💕💜

[@Kalyhal]

Sending you so much love, Rhian. Thank you for being you. ❤️❤️❤️

[@moiraherlihy5445]

I am so happy to hear you are in a better place and slowly finding your way back. I lost my dog Oliver in July and that pain is not easy, especially, like you said, unfair in a time like this. Your videos always make me self reflect and almost act as a self care check in with myself. I always feel better after I hear your voice, and hearing that you are taking steps in the better direction sometimes is what I need to do the same. Hate to ramble but just want you to know that you’ve been in my thoughts and I felt like I was catching up with a friend ♥️

[@jouletep]

I'm so sorry about your sweet Roxy. Dogs are so incredibly special. When mine died in my arms a few years back while on a walk it broke my heart like I've never known. I can never and will never replace him. No more dogs for me - too painful. Take care of yourself and rest all you need!

[@nbsplasher]

Great to see you again, we definitely missed you and glad to hear you’re getting better although these things are far from linear. Take good care. Hugs from Melbourne!

[@carriemroczkowski9409]

So good to see you, but I’m glad that you’ve taken some time for yourself. Super important. My gastroparesis has been kicking my butt lately, so I’ve been struggling a bit too. I just can’t get my weight up (currently at 70 lbs). I had to swallow my pride and start to shop for a wheelchair. My little legs just can’t work that long, lol. It’s really exaggerating my anxiety and depression. So I feel ya. I’m so sorry for your loss. It’s been over ten years and I still think about my Sami every day. Every now and then I wake up to the feeling of her nudging my face. I know it’s her stopping by to say “hi”❤️. Please take care, love🍃🌸

[@sablealexis8077]

So much love to you! You’re such a bright light and soul. My heart goes out to you during this hard time. I hope you get to feeling back to normal. We’re happy to have you back but don’t feel bad for taking time for yourself! ❤️❤️

[@TashinaCombs]

I'm so thankful to have been able to "see" you today. ❤

[@caitlinrebholz3821]

I stopped what I was doing once I saw your video up ♥️ I'm so sorry to hear about sweet Roxy! Proud of and inspired by you for sharing your struggles and ways of coping and taking time for healing! Wishing all the good vibes and love to you ♥️♥️

[@anotherkyr]

Thank you for this, I'm glad you're doing better. Your voice is very soothing and makes me a little less anxious

[@mariafilar3077]

I’m so sorry about Roxy. Losing a pet is one of the worst things ever and I got teary eyed just watching you talk about it 😞😞😞 On a happier note, I just bought my first home and I’m moving back to Michigan to be close to my family and my biggest excitement is the big garden I’m going to have! I can’t wait. I’m such a city girl but this pandemic really changed everything. Hang in there and I’m glad you’re feeling a bit stronger! ❤️

[@vegansoul3083]

Ooo so nice to see you back and hear about what's been going on. Right there with ya. Sending the good vibes

[@MonoiLuv]

I'm happy that you kept the garden joy for yourself 💚 never stop growing

[@rhianhy]

This really made me smile, thank you

[@hispringtime]

I just wanna say I’m happy you exist and watching your videos and feeling similar in some ways makes me feel a little better ❤️

[@kristik1568]

Thank you for sharing so openly. I have been struggling lately too and it just makes it feel less lonely when others share that they’re dealing with it too. I am so sorry about your sweet pup. To this day, the greatest loss I’ve ever had was our sweet dog in 2005. Sending loving thoughts your way and hoping for things to suck less soon. 💖

[@rhianhy]

Thank you Kristi! I hope you had an easy weekend x

[@ilsalarson8403]

glad to have you back Rhian! your videos are such a joy to watch :)

[@siiggie]

I'm sorry for your loss. Im glad you're trying to cope. This year has really been a hit in the face several times. Would love to see the PR haul. Missed you. X

[@MariannaInari]

Lovely to see you ♥️ missed you and your voice 🌸

[@boohoolindalieu]

I too lost my lovely fur baby this year, in July actually, so I'm really with you, this year has been rough in so many ways to so many people. I hope Roxy + Lady are up there in doggy heaven looking down at us ✨. You're right, a pet passing is up there with a human passing. Animals touch us in the most indescribable ways. We don't speak the same language but we can all learn to coexist and love one another. That's so powerful!!! I think that's why I feel so strongly about animals and animal welfare because we have so much to learn from them. I hope you take the appropriate time to grieve the way you want to, and know that my heart is with you during this difficult time. 🧡

[@rhianhy]

I'm so sorry you went through that too and i know they will be lounging around together somewhere! Lots of love x

[@nd9950]

it's so good to see you. Thank you so much for taking the time you needed.

[@lizzzlouise]

Can definitely relate to this so much, this year has been so heavy but there is solidarity and that helps somewhat! We are planning to move where our family lives next year in May, this year has just shown us that we really cannot stand to be away, it’s not worth it to us. We all have missed you here and so appreciate you for sharing your heart and life with us! ❤️

[@Emma-xy3yg]

💕I’m so glad you’re back! You seem like one of the most genuine and kind people, and I’m sorry you’ve been having a rough time. I hope you start to feel more like yourself soon.

[@rhianhy]

Thanks so much Emma! Definitely feeling much better than i was. Adjusting to the new norm isn't the most fun rn hey? Lots of love x

[@MyRonttu]

So sorry about your loss, I'm sure Roxy had a great life with you great people ❤️ Also thanks for being so real and open about everything, you're the best!

[@br3nnaaaa]

So so so happy to see you back. Glad you're feeling a little more like yourself 🖤

[@Ashmont27]

I'm so sorry to hear about your dog. I can't even imagine how hard that is to deal with, so I'm glad you've taken the time to take care of yourself. I recently started grad school and have been very "productive," but still have been feeling very sad and overwhelmed by the world. Moving away from my home/friends/boyfriend during a pandemic and really being able to do things here to make new friends has been really hard. Not to mention my university already has 650+ active cases and i'm still expected to attend class in person. Sigh. The world is hard.

[@rhianhy]

Thank you friend. I'm sorry you're going through it too, it must be so hard to be in a new place right now but how amazing you're able to still do well in grad school, i hope you feel proud of that! x

[@cassielambert3070]

Ahhhh Rhian, I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I had a fairly lonely day at Uni today and watched your video laying on the grass with the sun shining down on me, and I just got really emotional watching you tell us what's been going on with you. I choked up and had a little cry - your pups are so lucky to have so much love from you & Adam. And babe, you're doing fabulous at 'human-ing' during 2020. Be well x

[@rhianhy]

Love the idea of hanging out in the grass Cassie!

[@jenniferfortune4267]

Thanks for being so real and raw with your emotions. Just another reason why you are so relatable. Take care of yourself!

[@rhianhy]

Thank you Jennifer! Hope you're well

[@mmellyful]

Missed you! My condolences. Truly. As a fur baby mom, I have experienced that loss. You lost a member of your family. Lots of love to you.

[@sophied6247]

Thankyou for sharing. I really appreciate your honesty and openness to what you have been experiencing - it is so valuable to hear someone also struggle and navigate their life. Thankyou, it is wonderful to listen to you talk about anything and everything. Thankyou. I hope this video was helpful for you and you are healing. 💜

[@rhianhy]

Thank you Sophie, i think it was helpful because i've missed you all but felt i couldn't even explain things before. So appreciate your kindness!

[@christinalee4310]

So sorry for Roxy ❤ I am here for all the dog stories, anytime! One of the most heart breaking things is that our fur babies don't live as long as we do 💔 It really is good to see you back, and I am glad you are taking the steps to take care of yourself. I feel like I am starting to take care of myself again, I have my first psychologist appointment in 2 months today because of wait time and damn I am looking forward to it. Sending all the positive vibes your way!

[@maryclebeau]

I am happy for you. Glad your back. Thanks for being you.!!!!

[@DemelzasDelights]

I also lost my 16yr old cat Aska during our Level 4 lockdown in New Zealand, back in April. Sending you all the love at this time. The grief seems so much harder at this time with COVID and the restrictions around our lives. Watching this was so emotional, I feel so much for you. Thanks for sharing and I hope you feel better as the months go on xxx

[@rhianhy]

Thank you friend and i'm so sorry for your loss. Its too much right?

[@-natmac]

Honestly this video prompted a good cry for me and I really needed it. I’ve been feeling so similarly. Working on patience with oneself can be so difficult but very necessary. Thanks for always reminding us it’s ok to feel all the things. I’m so sorry about your pup ❤️

[@amandahunt8641]

SO sorry about your angel pup. My emotional support dog Bandit passed away very unexpectedly and suddenly almost 2 years ago and it was the absolute worst day of my entire life. I had him for 10 years and he was the only and first dog I had ever had. I still feel like it was just yesterday some days, but at that point I was so depressed that I thought there’s no possible way I could live another day but somehow, someway I got through it. Even though I’m crying writing this. 💕💕💕💕

[@kalenalexisbeauty9102]

I’m also sorry for the loss of your pet. That’s such a great name by the way. It’s coming up on 2 years that we lost our 14 year old baby (Chucky Pup). Recently I put his photo as my phone locked screen, so that I would be able to look at a picture of him and not cry. It’s been working so far, so far I can look at him and just think about him and be happy to see his face again.

[@amandahunt8641]

Kalen Alexis Beauty 💕💕💕

[@redtulips23]

You’re such a sweet human. I’ve missed your chatty videos. I hope you have more good days than bad. 💙

[@Kasiabobasia]

So sorry to hear about Roxy 💔 2020 just keeps on giving. I hope talking about it brought you a bit of comfort. You’re not alone in your struggles. We’re here to listen and support you. Sending you all of the love!!! ❤️

[@Hakeke1]

I am so sorry about Roxy. ❤️ She was such a lucky girl to have you as her human and I know she would have lived a very spoiled and happy life in your care. And I agree, it sucks when you live so far away from your family. I'm in Australia, my twin sister is in Toronto, mum's in British Columbia and Dad's in Ottawa. All three are in the high risk category for COVID and it's terrifying. I'm so glad your therapy has been helping. I've been avoiding it due to the cost, but you've given me the motivation to try it again. Thank you! I hope you continue to feel better day by day. Xx

[@ana_drc]

I am so sorry for everything you’ve been through Rhian, sending you all of my love and support! 🙏🏻💓 This year is quite something! During quarantine my father lost his job and my mother got depression, as an extrovert the fact that she couldn’t interact with people completely destroy her. It was quite a difficult time to tell you the truth. But as time passes by, my mother got better and my dad has still not find a new job but he’s looking for one. I feel like the keys to getting better are being patient and to let yourself feel whatever you’re feeling. Playing animal crossing is also a great way to feel better haha! I know this is a weird time but at the end we will all get through this and we’ll all be stronger and better! Stay strong! 💜💜

[@randyo6019]

So sorry for your loss! I lost my white German Shepard Lucky near Christmas last year. It’s been hard and it’ll be hard getting close to the holidays.We miss seeing your face.

[@Onasugar]

Thank you for this video 🙏. It takes courage to admit depression or any kind of mental issues. I have anxiety, panic and depression but have been on Zoloft for years now and it has stabilized me. I am human and still have less than perfect days. So many people including me are in the same boat. This year is rough! Sending love and healing and virtual hugs from Texas, USA. 💕

[@rhianhy]

Thank you friend, i feel you

[@rhapsodytheforth]

I missed you! Glad you’re doing better and glad to spend time together again. I watched this and put together a plant shelf and it was very lovely ❤️

[@rhapsodytheforth]

And I’m sorry about Roxy, it’s so hard to lose part of your family ❤️❤️❤️

[@rhianhy]

Ahh that sounds lovely!

[@romanticashale]

I also lost a pet this year, in July, right around my 30th birthday. It was the absolute worst and it still is. My cats are my babies and Eli was the love of my life. I got him when I moved into my first apartment and we bonded immediately. He was my best friend and constant companion, always with me and full of love. He got sick very suddenly -bone cancer in his skull. He was only 9 years old and I'm not going to lie, a bit of me is gone with him. I have never loved a pet so much and I loved him more than I have loved family members. I definitely think that losing a pet can be just as hard as losing a person, it has been for me. Sending you a lot of love. I'm happy to see you back on youtube, definitely missed your videos, but also glad you took the time you needed. It's so important to do that.

[@rhianhy]

I'm so sorry you went through that, its truly crushing! I think we just have to try our best to direct our thoughts to the good memories for some comfort

[@madytaylor93]

I've missed you. I loved listening to you talk about your pets and I hope it was somewhat therapeutic for you to share. I lost my 14 year old fur baby this year too that I had since he was 6 weeks old. Sending much love your way!

[@andnownails]

I'm relating to alllll of this, I'm only half way in, but, yes, I feel ya Rhian. From everything to the depression, resting/sleeping to escape, but having to permit that at times, lack of enjoyment, basic self-care checking, new meds, pets and grieving, gahh! ❤️❤️

[@Bhardy-vn5nb]

Glad your back! I like long videos, especially now. My skin has been totally trashed from wearing a mask and my eczema has been so painful, would love a video on "Covid" skincare🤷🏾‍♀️ totally lost at this point. Mentally...i could literally cry all day about the state of the world but I gotta keep moving.

[@pmhairdesign7548]

Sending so much love for you puppy child Were in far north QLD Australia Our state has been on lock down for months now I have a 6 month old nephew I haven't met because our whole family live in a different state and were not aloud to travel We have the same fear where I live, our hospital won't be able to handle it if there's a breakout of c19 here and the nearest hospital is 14hrs away Plus my 2 year old son has just been diagnosed with autism and all the specialists are in Cairns where the nearest hospital is 14hrs away 🤦‍♀️ Sending you so much love So glad to hear your gardening is helping I planted a papia and it's now taller then my house So satisfying 🥰

[@Nikachu0906]

I’m so sorry to hear of Roxy’s passing. I hope that even through the grief, you can find comfort in knowing that you gave her the best years of her life. That you were there for her until the end, and that you gave her a very loving, happy home. She will always remain with you in your heart, no matter how much time passes. I have tattooed my cat Tyler’s paw print on my back, whom I lost 9 years ago. I also have two tattoos to get once I feel safe going back into a shop for my sister’s dogs that passed away last year. I just want to send you lots of hugs and positive vibes. We all need as much love and support as we can get right now. Don’t be afraid to take more time off if you need it. There is nothing as important as taking care of yourself🖤💜🖤💜

[@rhianhy]

Thank you friend! I'm definitely finding comfort in the memories of her and it gets a little easier day by day but i'll always miss her. Your tattoo sounds so sweet! x

[@wildlyamy]

My condolences for your loss of Roxy. Glad to hear you are taking care of you. It was so lovely to see you on here today.

[@gwendyer5145]

I'm glad you're okay. I've been dealing with a lot of similar things and it's nice to know I'm not alone. 💕

[@rhianhy]

Hoping things get lighter for you soon Gwen

[@paulineurban6735]

Oh this was so sweet! It's wonderful to see you again 💖 it was also really comforting to hear that I'm not the only one still struggling with mental health stuff right now. It feels like everyone was struggling at the beginning but now most people in my orbit (especially at work) are saying that they feel great and are over being depressed about covid and I'm over here like um I still feel like garbage! So I'm relieved that I'm not the only one. Proud of you for getting back into therapy and psychiatry! I hope your mental wellbeing keeps improving.

[@ludmila_98]

It’s always great to watch your chatty videos because it’s like listening to my brain in a way I couldn’t do it myself. So good to see you again, I hope you’re holding on as strong as you can 💜

[@rhianhy]

Ludmila Guimarães Thank you friend, I hope you’re well 🖤

[@Rachel-xx9hu]

Dude love you so much ❤️ I hope life gets better for you and everyone reading this 💕💕 sending you and Adam love and peace

[@chowchiw]

I'm a minute and a half in and already relate so much. I've recently started therapy up again after an intense shame spiral and weeks of a depressive episode and I just feel where you're coming from. I had to put a pet down at the beginning of quarantine and even though my life hasn't been too effected compared to others, I'm still struggling. I'm finding it hard to focus at work or take care of myself or even eat. I'm glad you're feeling a bit better and I'm hoping I'll be there soon too! Love from the lower peninsula!

[@rhianhy]

I'm so sorry to hear you went through it too, its never easy. I hope therapy can help you feel a bit more like yourself and you can get all the help you need. Lots of love xx