learning how to have fun w/ art again + heikala art box!! ✰ studio vlog

[@ailidhbug27]

hiii cheyenne!! hope you, connor and sophie are doing well and i’m so excited for this video! the serotonin i get from u and ur vlogs is lovely.

[@SprigofDill]

The work you're creating is so so beautiful. It's giving my Sophie McPike, Matt Forsythe and Leigh Ellexson and so many more while being so purely YOU and its stunning! So bright and light and yet so grounded. It's crazy to see how much your skill has evolved in the last year and it's been lovely to watch.

[@cheyennebarton]

*weeps* this is so kind thank you so much oh my god ToT

[@eloraroot2604]

I've followed you since your Tumblr days, and I've always been impressed by your dedication to live your truest self, and reevaluate what that is throughout your life. Your art is beautiful and I love that you share your life with us, but I'm glad you are giving yourself space to be private with your creativity.

[@victoriaw.7636]

Your videos are honestly my literal wind down therapy. I never speed the video up or even skip a second, hearing you talk and seeing you draw/bake or even just simply existing makes my day. Can’t believe I’ve been watch your videos since 2017, ahh the quality and the aesthetics are just everything!!! Hope you are having a great day!! Love your content as always🥰

[@katherineashby1381]

I'm happy that you took the time to tell us what is going through your head! You don't really owe it to us (the viewers) to explain why you feel the way you feel or what you are considering at this time, but you did it anyway. It's nice to know that other people are taking the time to think through the direction their 'unconventional art career' is going, and not just me. In terms of using an apartment as a metaphor for your mental health, I do that too! I got it from my brother who once said (age 14) "My conscious and I are like passive-aggressive roommates, we don't talk often." Since then I have referred to my social anxiety and inferiority issues as my "toxic roommates".

[@MeganWangart]

ahh! i loved this video so much! i especially really liked hearing your thoughts on "content creation" and making art for the sake of content and the other way around - i've been thinking similar thoughts lately about art making and watching you have fun with new supplies has been quite refreshing and inspiring to me!! hope ur takin' care

[@saramontoya8858]

I'm not even a "working artist" and I needed to hear all of this so much. Thank you for speaking this out, this is a monumental and integral conversation.

[@LeighEllexson]

This has been my perfect lunch, cooking, eating, and cleaning video 🥰 was eating when you mentioned me and piece of broccoli fell out of my mouth 💯🌝 hehehe love watching you experiment!

[@habibadesai1071]

My two favourite KZbinrs talking about each other makes me so happy! Love this community of artsy folks x

[@vanillerygarden]

Aaah, when two sweet souls converse. Makes me happy. 🌸🌸🌸

[@MT-2020]

You are the Original, your art work is superior - not inane- as well as your delivery on camera (tnkx God stuttering free). Professional. I muted her so, IDK what she said, probably insipid. Anyways, you were right Leigh, your business model, your video shots, style had been plagiarize big time... by a someone with art skills level k-12.

[@kekayoewa]

@@MT-2020 what are you even saying

[@longlongs4]

@@MT-2020 bruh Listen to the last two minutes of the video

[@siobhanm4417]

Love your sketches - they're so colourful & joyful

[@JisuIm]

chey your talk about content creation and art hits me so hard, i've also been thinking about how easy it is for me to "content-create" instead of build upon my art practice, and have been trying to balance the diff parts of being an artist online. BE GONE CONTENT GHOST 😫 thank you for sharing your thoughts and your vlogs are so beautifully filmed and edited and u are such a delight ; u ;

[@JisuIm]

ALSO the way you draw figures is so CHEFS KISS BEAUTIFUL AND DELICIOUS your lines make me 🤩😍🥰

[@mollocativ607]

There is a perfect musical moment at 36:14. Cheyenne, you are a beautiful person and a masterful editor!

[@cheyennebarton]

i was so happy when that happened ToT

[@mollocativ607]

@@cheyennebarton I could imagine! Also, I really hope you figure out where you want to take your art soon! Wishing you all the best!

[@unburdenedcatcreature]

I really relate to being in the ADHD hellscape of trying to navigate the bureaucratic and anti-patient and anti-ADHDer setup of having to jump through hella hoops just to get evaluated and diagnosed but you've got this! I've rediscovered your KZbin today and I really enjoyed watching this studio vlog. It was very relatable and makes me want to paint again!

[@yen8960]

I was just thinking about you and hoping you’d post soon! 💕 I picked up my paints a few days ago and I’ve painted for like five days in a row now and I’ve been thinking about you. I always love seeing your work and you’re so inspirational. Love from Texas ❤️

[@hijadelcerro]

I really enjoy and appreciate your videos. They're not only beautiful but very sincere and absolutely inspirational. In fact every time i watch one I start making art again, i try to let free and go with the flow of creating. So thank you for making this💗

[@justyna2149]

When I saw there was a new video from Cheyenne I had to debate whether to give in and watch it instantly or to wait until the evening and watch it cozy in bed with a mug of tea... Legit problem, guys. It was worth waiting. Thank you for the wonderful video Cheyenne ❤️

[@_chetom]

Sometimes the restrictions we put to ourselves and our work don't always let us enjoy the process! Loved seeing this fun and relaxed approach to creating!

[@jessisuneven]

Hey, I just got diagnosed with ADHD and I'm 25. Girl, I KNOW the struggle to get that diagnosis. I had to have 4 separate appointments before I got it. It's hard, AND the solid feeling that I now have, because I have an "official" diagnosis, is worth it. You got this, my dude. PS, I highly encourage taking a break to figure out who you are as an artist, I'm currently doing the same.

[@dunkyourdonuts2282]

Omg same, I got my diagnoses recently as well except I'm even older than you. But I'm lucky to be in a country that mental health is over-looked and stigmatized as either "does that mean you're crazy?" or a "rich people problem", but somehow that actually makes it easier to get an assessment (as long as you're willing to pay) But YES, the diagnoses and the realization of "whats wrong with you" is SOOOO important, I remember my doctor telling me "All the traits you had that you always thought were bad personality traits, they're not. They're symptoms of a disorder, personality traits may be hard to change, but disorders can be treated" and that sentence alone literally lifted a weight i've been carrying since childhood off my shoulders. I used to just keep changing things around me- jobs, relationships, friends, hobbies, thinking if i somehow just ran into the right combination i could have my perfect life and become the person i've always imagined, but now I realize nothing can change unless I do, and while I'm still struggling even with meds, I'm happy with PROGRESS rather than blaming myself for not achieving success straight away. I related so much to what Cheyenne said in this video, I know everyone's ADHD journey is different, but hope we are all able to fight through this disorder and achieve our goals and dreams

[@jessisuneven]

@@dunkyourdonuts2282 you have a great story and perspective. Thank you so much for sharing. I agree, everyone’s journey is different and I think that’s so beautiful. And that we can still connect on some core struggle level haha 😂

[@garancem7303]

Thank you so much for this video Cheyenne ! It is really calming to see you talk, work, think - I always feel warm, cozy and motivated after watching one of your videos. Love from France !

[@itsmerae3825]

i get so excited everytime you post a new video

[@christinasketches]

Yay! This video came at a great time, I needed cozy vibes today 😊 Toast fam is sending love to you, Connor, and Soph!

[@renmcg12]

absolutely adore the color palette you used for your mixed media pages (and omg the sharks! too cute). I've been watching your channel since the bullet journal days, and I'm just happy to see whatever you want to put out into the world and respect what you don't ✨I appreciate you so much

[@xcherrykinsx]

absolutely lovely video as always, cheyenne! i really enjoy hearing your thought process in regards to your art journey and where you see yourself going. i also really appreciate that you don't hide from the tougher parts of what you do and that you share it with your audience - many of whom want to be in the same position that you're currently in! i hope that you'll continue to have fun whilst experimenting with mediums and that the transition into the autumn months treats you well

[@Proutprutproutprout]

I can relate so much to the "its already 11....... so the day is over" It's super lovely to spend time listening to you, I actually cooked diner, made a few trinkets and finished a diy organiser I had started ages ago thanks to your digital company 🥰

[@moose1277]

ah! my favorite youtuber is back!

[@user-of2ci8ur7z]

hi cheyenne! i hope you are doing well, and if not, that’s totally ok! your art is absolutely gorgeous and you have the most calming channel i have seen on youtube. i hope you have a lovely rest of your day/night!

[@NatalieMadeThis]

wow I really relate to the experience you're describing - of sometimes not being able to do things that I usually enjoy/the joy I find in something shifting slowly over time/having periods where I have to work out exactly what I need to be doing to make me happy and on one hand I'm sure that everyone experiences that, but on the other hand there's something in amongst that that feels tied in with my ADHD sometimes I feel like I have hyper-fixations that last short amounts of time and are really intense, but that I also have fixations that grow more slowly and gently change over time (for example, I loved embroidery for YEARS, and then I was really interested in spinning and weaving for years, and now crochet and sewing.. like those are all such similar things) it's not the same as other hyper fixations that I move past quickly, they become more significant to who I am as a person and being in a transition period between those or not having one of those changes the amount I am able to enjoy life I suppose and I guess what feels different about that is that when interest in them starts to drop off, it feels like a big deal, bigger than very small hyperfixations and then I'm kinda left looking around for something to satisfy me in life all of a sudden and it doesn't feel like that happens to neurotypical people ?

[@minigul]

Waaaaaaaa so thrilled to see a new upload I was JUST about to go through and marathon watch a bunch of your videos and saw this lovely surprise. Your videos bring me so much joy!!! You and your art are such a comfort for me

[@cypress3436]

Love you Cheyenne! and yes oh mah gosh heikala speechless of their work. Sooo beautiful and so truuuue it’s mesmerizing when you watch them draw and paint ✨

[@hollyhill4146]

Yay, new upload!! Watching your videos feels like coming home

[@nematarot]

A Mr. Clean magic eraser might work for cleaning off your palettes with only a tiny bit of water- they work really well because they’re super abrasive. Love the Heikala box sets!!! So happy for you 🥰

[@bella619]

The crazy thing is you could drink tea and talk about your kitty and we would all love it❤

[@otakutante]

I love that the pennant chain above your head looks like cute cat-ears in yellow and red💕 I know those time periods of not being able to create anything at all because of Life...but knowing deep inside, that creating is something that I can't live without and absolutely love, always brings me back in the end. I really enjoy your artstyle and your lovely character. Thanks for sharing your beautiful art, your thoughts and concerns.

[@veesvoyages]

Those inks are gorgeous colours! And adore the packaging on the front😍

[@terinskyweaver]

Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I love your mental apartment! The inks are so vibrant!

[@catchingcosmos]

Watching your videos is like sipping a warm cup of coffee and munching on a cookie. ☕🍪

[@allie1564]

getting ready to sleep thinking about the art supplies i’ve bought recently that i haven’t touched. ty.

[@Jasmine-lx6sy]

It was so nice to see you back. I love ❤ watching you draw. It so relaxing and enjoy to see how you transform a white page into art

[@miaklaira]

CHEYENNE YOUR ART IS SO BEAUTIFUL ITS LIKE CANDY TO MY EYEBALLS !!

[@aimeecreative]

Omggg! I literally gasped out loud when I saw this 👏😍 love your work and Vlogs and vibe 🌟

[@rozhiii]

your videos are always sooo relaxing I love them thank you so much💖✨

[@janeyryu6987]

YEAAAAA welcome back

[@sweetpeabee4983]

Re: no sink, what comes to mind for me is one of those water cooler things we have at my office. Like, where you can open the spigot at the bottom and water comes out? Having 2 seems most ADHD friendly, where one lives at home and the other lives at the studio. And when the one that lives at the studio starts getting low, the two trade places so the other one can get refilled. I do a variation of this for myself at home to remember to hydrate lol, so maybe something along these lines could be helpful to you? OK if no though; just something I thought of haha!

[@chibimena]

You have such great line confidence! I just love your work, Chey. I’ve missed you in my inbox, can’t wait to see more from you

[@lilithelabbasi]

Your vlogs always come at the right time! I had a really tiring day today 🥲 also, LOVE the black and white print on the wall behind at 14:36!! Who's the artist?

[@cheyennebarton]

it’s by my friend roby!!! it’s an original actually :D his insta is @robedraws

[@lilithelabbasi]

@@cheyennebarton thank youu!!

[@veronikaslauer6157]

very happy you are back uploading and sharing ❤️

[@finsfables]

love this vlog! very excited for the new video project thingy

[@mbae123]

I completely relate to you on spending your day and even averting from making art. I might have adhd like you bc what you've said is very specific but its hard and expensive to get a diagnosis here. Love this lighting and the quality of the video btw. Really wanted a heikala box but I'll just live through other's unboxing.

[@fatememirzabagheri322]

I'm soooo excited for this video!😍💕

[@cactuarda3211]

hi chey! missed you so much and I hope you are is doing well :) I've been coming back to drawing this summer and this video made me realize that I lost a panic that I had seeing other people drawing and thinking I would not have the ability to do that. You and this video inspired me so much to fill my sketchbook :) thank you

[@unncomfyy]

your videos are so nice :’) they make me happy loll

[@swatiboral5271]

I woke up to the notification of ur video today. U made my day so much better

[@diariodeunacreadora]

Love all your videos!.. And your artwork. Thanks for share all your process with all of us. I had never listened about "Still here still life" I'll definetely try it out!!

[@dakota1808]

this video made me wanna pull out my sketchbook again

[@katem2458]

I loved seeing all of your mixed-media work. I'm inspired to make myself an art caddy similar to how I've set up my three year old's easel so that I can access a variety of my supplies all at once.

[@MarleneVega]

I can totally relate with having that content ghost hanging over my head >.< thank you for this lovely video 💗 and that clip at the end was such a treat ⭐️

[@fabric.soundz]

That ghost part made me both equally creeped out and then got me thinking about Halloween coming soon!

[@Meganthamac]

My brain space is very similar in aspects of keeping time. I was diagnosed with GAD and Panic Disorder. I am also just now feeling comfortable starting a shop. I appreciate you sharing!!!

[@ellisgalex]

just in time for my birthday!!! much love to you, chey 🥰

[@HelloItsDorothy]

Omg! A Cheyenne video. So excited :)

[@averyriel]

i’m so excited!!!

[@christinepiercetang]

Wonderful Vlog Cheyenne! Welcome back. I love this digital painting of the still life! 🍰🍰🍰

[@katschneids]

LOVELY (as always), and can I just say that I'm obsessed with the typeface you're using 😈 ⌨️

[@cheyennebarton]

it’s called LoRes!!!! i love it so much there’s so many styles

[@queerlybee]

a lil chey video to accompany my morning work! ✰

[@itsme_soapy]

YAAAAAAAAAS!!!! i work at sticker ninja and i LOVE seeing whenever u submit an order

[@cheyennebarton]

omg i love your work!!! you guys are amazing, thank you for everything

[@SophieMcPike]

LOVE YOU CHEY!

[@cheyennebarton]

LOVE YOU TOO SOPHIE!!!!!

[@AtlanticIsSweet]

Here comes the queeeeenn! Hello queen, Welcome!! 🥺

[@Kitahand]

Editing is on point 🙌🏽

[@christinealcorin3918]

Hi Cheyenne. Thank you so much for your thoughts on "content creation". The way you described how you've been feeling perfectly explains how I've been feeling for the past two months as well which made me take a break from social media altogether. Looking back at it now, despite the guilt of being offline for now still happens every once in a while, I have created more art than I ever have in the last six months just hiding away in my "art cave" as you call it. Sending you and connor and sophie so so much love and I hope that youre taking care. We will be here to support you regardless

[@sxmplyblossom8048]

WAIT BUT YOUR VOICE IS BEAUTIFUL WHEN YOU SING WHAT?!

[@swiszroll]

I love her and all her arts🌈✨💙

[@katrinamackay1261]

This helped me through a panic attack the other day so thank you x

[@deborahmeyers7839]

Thanks for sharing your thoughts and beautiful artwork. I always love the music you choose too and I loved the art haul too❤️

[@artyce]

Im a fan. I love your videos. Keep inspiring! 💗🌷

[@wildcardkang]

i wouldn't consider myself a content creator by any means but i too have been feeling a bit stuck and am pursuing more fun these days. i'm participating in peachtober this year and am pretty excited since it's my first attempt!

[@ISOShakespeare]

Are you still acting/auditioning? That was your art for a while. Content fit in that arena. So happy to see you!

[@cheyennebarton]

i am indeed still auditioning and acting!!!

[@eliestrations4906]

So pretty I want the art box too 👩🏽‍💻🥺

[@PriscaL]

"oh, it's because you have ADHD you fool" is me all the time hahaha

[@bioskopandchampagne]

You are such a delight to experience 😌

[@li_espejo]

monday made 💜💜💜

[@kiahjh]

me: *starts video* cat: *comes from under bed, crawls onto keyboard, zooms the video to **18:01**, then walks away* me w/adhd: is this a callout?

[@artbyevo1673]

It's very relaxing to watch 😊❤️

[@wendyn7991]

I have ADHD and I completely understand the weird aversion to doing Things You'd Normally Enjoy--it's been happening to me with writing for a while, and before that it was crochet, which was unfortunate as now I'm rushing to get everything done for a craft fair!

[@dorothy.j]

I love Heikala as well

[@Lillyjoy]

I missed your videos!!

[@milbethmorillo9657]

Hello there! I'm trying to do the same thing with my art, I've been focus on just client work for such a long time that the joy of drawing and painting is just... gone, it isn't exciting anymore, so everyday I try to do some "me time sketching" i'ts going pretty well, but it's a lot harder on bad days... or bad hours aaaanyway! thank you so so much for the video!!!

[@kbkawaii]

Cheyenne, can I just say you are so lovely 🥺🥺🌸✨🌿💗💫

[@CottoneeSocks]

Thank you for explaining your content brain ghost. I think I just gained a new perspective of how to separate my anxious brain mode from everything else in my head 🙃 I hope the chaos of finding medical help for your mental health calms down soon!

[@PolkaDotPearle]

There is not enough Ace of Base these days 😂 Stumbled across your channel and really liked the video 😻

[@meldixon1918]

Yeesssss that dang son of a gun content ghost arrgh! 👻

[@kmmk292929]

at 17:41, love the tye-dye shirt, was that a thrift store find?

[@maaoriweaver]

Love this, can so relate, recently diagnosed adhd person here…😎

[@alyssakalodimos7149]

Funny story, it took me getting hyper-focused on figuring out why things weren't clicking for me mentally to discover and pursue a diagnosis for ADHD. Not currently on meds for pregnancy reasons but man were things so clear and easier to do when I was on them!

[@ariannbncua]

i feel 22:18 at a spiritual level that is literally how my brain works

[@bnp2bnp]

Lol, was just thinking of you today!

[@YellowMelle]

I got one of those pentel brush pens in one of these mystery boxes, and I used it up, and then promptly d-e-s-t-r-o-y-e-d it by refilling it with the wrong kind of ink. Hoping someone invents a way to unf&%k my brush lol! The problem with very fancy watercolour paper, is once you see what watercolour can actually do, it's impossible to go back to unfancy paper!

[@salmonbutter]

Hi Chey!! I love your vlogs so much; they’ve been curing my insomnia. ;v; Quick question: would you be able to point me in the right direction for any LUTs you use for your vlogs? I’m having the hardest time finding anything that isn’t super dark! Thank you!!

[@KatrineGundersen2001]

Really missed the videos, but I am glad that you took some time of! What pencils are you using in procreate - the style is absolutely wonderful! :)

[@kaily1743]

Карандаш! 😩🥰💕

[@kellsliving3220]

this will take my mind off of. school

[@lindsaydawson6843]

It’s funny to me that you say that it was hard for you to keep up with your bullet ournal because of ADHD, because for me, after I got my diagnosis, I allowed myself to spend a little bit on a nice notebook so I COULD start a bullet journal. I didn’t follow you in the Studyblr days, but I’m assuming you went all out with layouts and the like? The way mine is set up is very bare bones, very close to the OG Ryder Carroll set up. (I think it’s worth mentioning that he also has ADHD, hence a planning system that can change as necessary.) The only thing I do differently is I pick a different colored pen every week to keep me engaged, and it also helps me to separate weeks visually. You’re also totally right about trying to get a diagnosis for ADHD while having ADHD. My therapist shot down that idea a few times, and the day I really pushed to take a basic screener was the day of the 2020 US Presidential Election and I wanted to think about literally anything other than that. But I filled out the screener and two week later at my next appointment, not only did my score indicate ADHD but I scored pretty high. As far as keeping yourself on track, talk to neurodivergent friends, even if they have a different form of neurodivergence, because having people you can talk to that get it is so helpful. For example, there’s a lot of overlap with “symptoms” and experience with ADHD and autism. Even if it’s to vent about dealing with neurotypical people, or the frustration that comes with trying to do something that should be simple to accomplish but brain says “no” that day. Better yet, talk to someone who has been through the diagnosis process that’s willing to take you under their wing. Again, they don’t have to have been diagnosed with ADHD. Something else to keep in mind is that for people who menstruate, hormones can have an effect on the brain and you may notice it’s extra hard to concentrate or you might feel more foggy at certain times of the month. Just know that you’re not alone, there are a lot of us that can relate to what you’re going through, and please try to be gentle with yourself. When I’m being extra hard on myself, I take a step back and ask “Is this because I’m not meeting my expectations of myself, or is this internalized ableism?”